1 00:00:11,948 --> 00:00:14,850 Scientists devour textbooks and data 2 00:00:14,885 --> 00:00:17,753 in an attempt to understand the world... 3 00:00:23,052 --> 00:00:25,162 ...to gain confidence or clarity... 4 00:00:25,198 --> 00:00:28,824 _ 5 00:00:29,274 --> 00:00:30,681 ...to be prepared. 6 00:00:39,876 --> 00:00:42,211 Surgeons are the worst offenders. 7 00:00:42,245 --> 00:00:44,346 We study for decades and stare down the barrel 8 00:00:44,381 --> 00:00:47,383 of worst-case scenarios... 9 00:00:51,121 --> 00:00:53,088 - Could be the hospital. - It's not. 10 00:00:53,123 --> 00:00:54,623 It's not or you don't want it to be? 11 00:00:54,658 --> 00:00:55,858 Both. 12 00:00:55,892 --> 00:00:57,193 Hm. 13 00:00:57,227 --> 00:00:58,861 Mm-hmm. Well, all right. 14 00:00:58,895 --> 00:01:00,896 Where are you going? Yours isn't even dinging. 15 00:01:00,931 --> 00:01:02,131 Don't want it to be. 16 00:01:06,303 --> 00:01:08,904 I'm so sorry. 17 00:01:08,939 --> 00:01:10,973 I forgot how much I missed you breaking all my stuff. 18 00:01:13,343 --> 00:01:14,643 Welcome home. 19 00:01:16,112 --> 00:01:19,748 We ignore sleep and friends and food and sex 20 00:01:19,783 --> 00:01:21,283 and actual real life 21 00:01:21,318 --> 00:01:22,952 so that we're ready for anything... 22 00:01:33,964 --> 00:01:36,131 ...so we know what to expect 23 00:01:36,166 --> 00:01:37,742 ...and know there's nothing... 24 00:01:37,776 --> 00:01:38,901 ...we can't handle. 25 00:01:50,313 --> 00:01:52,181 Oh. 26 00:01:52,215 --> 00:01:55,284 So, Catherine sent for you, too, huh? 27 00:01:55,318 --> 00:01:56,852 Told me she needed a VIP consult. 28 00:01:56,886 --> 00:02:00,122 Yeah, and she needed the smartest neuro god she knows. 29 00:02:00,156 --> 00:02:02,691 General, but the same. 30 00:02:02,726 --> 00:02:04,627 Something to drink, Dr. Koracick? 31 00:02:04,661 --> 00:02:07,129 Double espresso, dash of cinnamon, lots of sugar. 32 00:02:07,163 --> 00:02:08,397 Of course. 33 00:02:16,640 --> 00:02:19,375 Ah. 34 00:02:19,409 --> 00:02:20,943 I'm sure, if you asked nicely, 35 00:02:20,977 --> 00:02:23,612 that flight attendant could scrounge up a kickass sedative, 36 00:02:23,647 --> 00:02:24,780 just knock you right out. 37 00:02:24,814 --> 00:02:26,181 If you knew my history on planes, 38 00:02:26,216 --> 00:02:27,950 you would not be making jokes. 39 00:02:27,984 --> 00:02:30,121 So, what do you think Catherine's got for us? 40 00:02:30,156 --> 00:02:31,887 Rock star with a spinal schwannoma? 41 00:02:31,921 --> 00:02:35,124 Mm. Oh, please, we could do that in our sleep. 42 00:02:35,158 --> 00:02:36,959 Chooramani technique? 43 00:02:36,993 --> 00:02:38,961 What... you know the Chooramani technique, Dr. Grey? 44 00:02:38,995 --> 00:02:39,995 You impress me. 45 00:02:40,030 --> 00:02:41,397 I dabbled in neuro for a bit. 46 00:02:41,431 --> 00:02:43,162 What... What made you give it up? 47 00:02:43,197 --> 00:02:44,481 I... 48 00:02:45,101 --> 00:02:49,204 could have possibly ruined my husband's Alzheimer's trial. 49 00:02:49,239 --> 00:02:52,708 Oh. I heard about that. 50 00:02:52,742 --> 00:02:54,376 Yeah, I met him on the conference circuit. 51 00:02:54,411 --> 00:02:56,211 He thought it was fitting that my name had the word "ass" 52 00:02:56,246 --> 00:02:57,379 right smack in the middle of it. 53 00:02:58,381 --> 00:02:59,915 - That sounds like him. - Yeah. 54 00:02:59,949 --> 00:03:03,319 Oh. 55 00:03:03,353 --> 00:03:05,254 - We're next in line for takeoff. - Mm. 56 00:03:05,288 --> 00:03:06,795 Don't forget to buckle up. 57 00:03:10,093 --> 00:03:11,827 Do you want me to talk or shut up? 58 00:03:11,861 --> 00:03:13,095 Talk. 59 00:03:16,132 --> 00:03:17,733 Chief, good, you're here. 60 00:03:17,767 --> 00:03:20,069 I haven't been the chief in years, Frankie. 61 00:03:20,103 --> 00:03:22,004 You'll always be my chief. 62 00:03:22,038 --> 00:03:23,405 Room 3 needs you. Your intern doesn't know 63 00:03:23,440 --> 00:03:25,207 a wound-vac from his ass. 64 00:03:25,241 --> 00:03:27,943 And here I thought motherhood would soften your edges. 65 00:03:27,977 --> 00:03:30,045 Who needs soft edges when you're always right? 66 00:03:30,080 --> 00:03:31,146 You know, when I hired you, 67 00:03:31,181 --> 00:03:33,282 I knew you were gonna be nothing but a pain in my... 68 00:03:33,316 --> 00:03:35,584 When you hired me, I was first in my class at nursing school 69 00:03:35,618 --> 00:03:36,885 and knew my way around a central line 70 00:03:36,920 --> 00:03:38,587 better than anyone, including you. 71 00:03:38,621 --> 00:03:39,755 Pain in my... 72 00:03:39,789 --> 00:03:40,956 Careful, or I'm not gonna let you 73 00:03:40,990 --> 00:03:42,791 put money down on baby names. 74 00:03:42,826 --> 00:03:44,860 Ginger put that up, thinking she could make a quick buck. 75 00:03:44,894 --> 00:03:47,463 She knows I'm just gonna wind up calling it "Chicken." 76 00:03:47,497 --> 00:03:49,098 Or L'il Pancake. 77 00:03:49,132 --> 00:03:51,367 L'il Pancake is not a name. 78 00:03:51,401 --> 00:03:54,436 Now, Richard, that's a name. 79 00:03:54,471 --> 00:03:56,438 - Very distinguished. - Ah. 80 00:03:56,473 --> 00:03:57,539 Wise. 81 00:03:57,574 --> 00:03:59,375 All right. 82 00:03:59,409 --> 00:04:00,743 Frankie? 83 00:04:00,777 --> 00:04:01,710 Aah! 84 00:04:01,745 --> 00:04:02,578 Frankie. 85 00:04:02,612 --> 00:04:04,046 Aah! Aah! 86 00:04:04,080 --> 00:04:05,714 Somebody get me a gurney! 87 00:04:05,749 --> 00:04:06,815 Frankie? 88 00:04:06,850 --> 00:04:08,617 Okay, we got you. 89 00:04:10,893 --> 00:04:15,735 Synced & corrected by -robtor- www.addic7ed.com 90 00:04:19,295 --> 00:04:22,598 Have you had any other symptoms... pain, dizziness? 91 00:04:22,632 --> 00:04:25,300 I'm 28 weeks' pregnant at a crazy-ass job 92 00:04:25,335 --> 00:04:28,103 where people feed me cupcakes all day. 93 00:04:28,138 --> 00:04:29,471 I just thought it was indigestion. 94 00:04:29,506 --> 00:04:31,306 Aah-aah, damn it. 95 00:04:31,341 --> 00:04:32,408 Frankie. 96 00:04:32,442 --> 00:04:33,572 What do you need? 97 00:04:33,606 --> 00:04:35,277 No, I'm... 98 00:04:35,311 --> 00:04:36,845 Dr. Webber's just checking me out. 99 00:04:39,015 --> 00:04:41,259 Pulse is strong, but she's tachycardic. 100 00:04:41,294 --> 00:04:42,351 What are we thinking? 101 00:04:42,385 --> 00:04:44,853 Ginger. Hi. Ginger. 102 00:04:44,888 --> 00:04:47,289 Over here. Hi. 103 00:04:47,323 --> 00:04:49,758 Richard is taking care of me. 104 00:04:49,793 --> 00:04:51,627 Richard is good. 105 00:04:51,661 --> 00:04:53,222 We like Richard. 106 00:04:53,256 --> 00:04:54,329 So... 107 00:04:54,364 --> 00:04:58,333 - Stand down? - It would be appreciated. 108 00:05:03,373 --> 00:05:05,841 You've got a hell of a village there. 109 00:05:05,875 --> 00:05:10,345 My whole life, you know, I've had an order in my head... 110 00:05:10,380 --> 00:05:13,215 job, dog, house... 111 00:05:13,249 --> 00:05:16,385 - Ring, husband, baby. - ...ring, husband, baby. 112 00:05:16,419 --> 00:05:18,220 Exactly. 113 00:05:18,254 --> 00:05:21,163 And I'm skating towards 40 with a killer job, 114 00:05:21,197 --> 00:05:24,560 but no ring, no husband, 115 00:05:24,594 --> 00:05:27,830 no human man in sight. 116 00:05:27,864 --> 00:05:29,998 So I made my own damn order. 117 00:05:30,033 --> 00:05:33,535 And me and L'il Pancake are gonna be a helluva team. 118 00:05:33,570 --> 00:05:35,337 And we've got our village. 119 00:05:35,371 --> 00:05:37,840 L'il Pancake is not a name. 120 00:05:39,375 --> 00:05:43,660 Well, I never saw a challenge you couldn't rise to. 121 00:05:44,113 --> 00:05:46,381 And your baby has a nice, strong heartbeat, 122 00:05:46,416 --> 00:05:48,083 just like we like it. 123 00:05:48,117 --> 00:05:50,552 So then... Aah, damn it. 124 00:05:50,587 --> 00:05:53,755 - What's wrong? - Uh, it's your spleen. 125 00:05:53,790 --> 00:05:55,130 Where? 126 00:05:55,949 --> 00:05:57,493 There. 127 00:05:57,527 --> 00:05:59,661 It is a wandering spleen. 128 00:05:59,696 --> 00:06:01,396 It's torqued around itself, 129 00:06:01,431 --> 00:06:03,832 and it's cutting off the blood supply. 130 00:06:03,867 --> 00:06:05,901 So I'm gonna get you up to the OR. 131 00:06:05,935 --> 00:06:07,402 No, no, no, no, hold on. 132 00:06:07,437 --> 00:06:09,004 It could resolve on its own. 133 00:06:09,038 --> 00:06:10,539 Sometimes the spleen turns itself back around. 134 00:06:10,573 --> 00:06:12,574 - Highly unlikely. - No, it happened. I have seen it. 135 00:06:12,609 --> 00:06:14,176 It's possible, but, Frankie... 136 00:06:14,210 --> 00:06:17,379 At 28 weeks, the only way to make sure 137 00:06:17,413 --> 00:06:19,348 that this baby stays safely inside of me 138 00:06:19,382 --> 00:06:21,114 is to stay out of that OR. 139 00:06:21,149 --> 00:06:22,851 I... 140 00:06:22,886 --> 00:06:24,186 Aah. 141 00:06:24,220 --> 00:06:25,621 I know the risks. 142 00:06:25,655 --> 00:06:27,723 - I don't care. - Frankie, listen to me. I... 143 00:06:27,757 --> 00:06:30,540 $41,632. 144 00:06:31,427 --> 00:06:33,362 That's what this kid costs. 145 00:06:33,396 --> 00:06:35,764 Three rounds of IVF and a miscarriage. 146 00:06:35,798 --> 00:06:38,634 I'm not telling you that so you feel sorry for me. 147 00:06:38,668 --> 00:06:40,569 This baby is worth every dime, 148 00:06:40,603 --> 00:06:42,135 all of it. 149 00:06:43,006 --> 00:06:46,014 I am telling you because this is it. 150 00:06:46,576 --> 00:06:49,444 I literally have all of my eggs in one basket, 151 00:06:49,479 --> 00:06:53,115 so there is no way we are risking this. 152 00:06:53,149 --> 00:06:55,884 I'm not going. 153 00:06:58,021 --> 00:07:00,322 Don't make me sic Ginger on you. 154 00:07:05,795 --> 00:07:09,398 I'm gonna check you in. I'm gonna watch you like a hawk. 155 00:07:09,432 --> 00:07:11,733 That part we've got covered. 156 00:07:32,989 --> 00:07:35,424 I mean, we're always hoping for the patient to be Bono, 157 00:07:35,458 --> 00:07:38,126 but at some point, the patient has to actually be Bono, right? 158 00:07:38,161 --> 00:07:39,661 Well, I met him once. Even his brain is cool. 159 00:07:39,696 --> 00:07:41,496 - It's annoying. - What took you two so long? 160 00:07:41,531 --> 00:07:42,664 Catherine, this place is gorgeous. 161 00:07:42,699 --> 00:07:44,499 The patient is a 65-year-old female. 162 00:07:44,534 --> 00:07:46,277 Susan Sarandon? Helen Mirren? 163 00:07:46,311 --> 00:07:47,402 Make my dreams come true. 164 00:07:47,437 --> 00:07:48,537 She's complained of neck and back pain 165 00:07:48,571 --> 00:07:50,172 off and on for the past several weeks, 166 00:07:50,206 --> 00:07:53,475 and, yesterday, the pain reached a fever pitch. 167 00:07:53,509 --> 00:07:56,044 Head of Ortho insisted on a C.T. 168 00:07:56,079 --> 00:07:57,980 It would be nice to have a cervical MRI 169 00:07:58,014 --> 00:07:59,548 so we know what we're dealing with. 170 00:07:59,582 --> 00:08:01,016 Already done. 171 00:08:01,050 --> 00:08:02,184 Okay. 172 00:08:05,722 --> 00:08:08,690 Oh, will you marry me? 173 00:08:08,725 --> 00:08:09,992 - Thomas, please. - No, I'm not kidding. 174 00:08:10,026 --> 00:08:11,860 She is smart, wily. 175 00:08:11,894 --> 00:08:13,695 I mean, I have never seen a tumor 176 00:08:13,730 --> 00:08:15,697 invade both the vascular and the nerve domains 177 00:08:15,732 --> 00:08:16,865 like that before. 178 00:08:16,899 --> 00:08:18,000 Neither have I. 179 00:08:18,034 --> 00:08:19,734 I always thought a blonde would take me off the market, 180 00:08:19,768 --> 00:08:21,105 - but, spinal tumor... - Tommy. 181 00:08:21,140 --> 00:08:22,571 - ...you have my... - Tommy. 182 00:08:22,605 --> 00:08:24,473 No, I'm just saying, this tumor is not going anywhere anytime soon. 183 00:08:24,507 --> 00:08:25,741 You know I love my women stubborn. 184 00:08:25,775 --> 00:08:27,709 We're gonna need to do a biopsy to determine 185 00:08:27,744 --> 00:08:28,977 if it's cancer or not. 186 00:08:29,012 --> 00:08:30,712 Oh, cart, horse. Love the enthusiasm, 187 00:08:30,747 --> 00:08:33,015 but, uh, I prefer to meet the patient first. 188 00:08:33,049 --> 00:08:34,583 You already have. 189 00:08:34,617 --> 00:08:36,151 Sorry to disappoint you, Thomas. 190 00:08:36,185 --> 00:08:38,687 No Hollywood movie stars today. 191 00:08:40,056 --> 00:08:42,424 I'm the patient. 192 00:08:48,641 --> 00:08:50,150 - Catherine, I'm sorry. - Don't apologize. 193 00:08:50,175 --> 00:08:52,696 - I didn't... I didn't... - You meant every word you said. 194 00:08:52,721 --> 00:08:54,422 Look. Including the part where we don't know 195 00:08:54,456 --> 00:08:56,024 if it's cancer or not. 196 00:08:56,058 --> 00:08:58,693 Are you having any numbness or loss of motor function? 197 00:08:58,727 --> 00:09:01,796 No, just the pain, which is why I need a biopsy right away. 198 00:09:01,830 --> 00:09:03,131 I have things to do. 199 00:09:03,165 --> 00:09:04,632 I think a spinal tumor's a pretty good reason 200 00:09:04,667 --> 00:09:05,667 to postpone a ribbon cutting. 201 00:09:05,701 --> 00:09:07,969 I didn't send for you to postpone a damn thing. 202 00:09:08,003 --> 00:09:11,059 Catherine, why aren't Richard and Jackson here? 203 00:09:11,093 --> 00:09:12,239 They don't know. 204 00:09:12,274 --> 00:09:15,143 They will know when there's something to know. 205 00:09:15,177 --> 00:09:16,511 Now, I've reserved the IR suite. 206 00:09:16,545 --> 00:09:18,332 We can take care of the biopsy right now. 207 00:09:19,648 --> 00:09:22,517 The tumor extends into the sub-q area... 208 00:09:22,551 --> 00:09:23,518 Which makes it my dance space. 209 00:09:23,552 --> 00:09:24,986 Well, just make sure when you finish dancing, 210 00:09:25,020 --> 00:09:27,288 I can still cut the ribbon on this place. 211 00:09:31,453 --> 00:09:32,500 Icilda! 212 00:09:32,534 --> 00:09:33,639 Icilda? 213 00:09:33,673 --> 00:09:34,862 You better not make that fun of that. 214 00:09:34,897 --> 00:09:36,731 That's my mama's name. 215 00:09:36,765 --> 00:09:39,801 Okay, I want Q two-hour neuro checks on 3, 216 00:09:39,835 --> 00:09:41,302 and, Carla, please make sure 217 00:09:41,336 --> 00:09:42,537 that Mrs. Chen is double-gowned. 218 00:09:42,571 --> 00:09:44,072 That woman does three laps a day 219 00:09:44,106 --> 00:09:45,707 with her rear flapping in the breeze. 220 00:09:45,741 --> 00:09:47,090 - Yeah, she does. - Yeah, she does. 221 00:09:47,124 --> 00:09:48,613 Ahh... 222 00:09:49,828 --> 00:09:51,646 Now, the only way for you to help me 223 00:09:51,680 --> 00:09:53,915 is to go do your jobs, please. 224 00:09:53,949 --> 00:09:55,216 Yeah, you heard the boss. 225 00:09:55,250 --> 00:09:56,551 Let's go. 226 00:09:58,687 --> 00:10:00,688 And so, as the boss of you... 227 00:10:00,723 --> 00:10:01,723 Here he goes. 228 00:10:01,757 --> 00:10:02,924 Um, you should be resting. 229 00:10:02,958 --> 00:10:04,492 Pulse has gone back down to normal. 230 00:10:04,526 --> 00:10:05,760 Her blood pressure is stable. 231 00:10:05,794 --> 00:10:07,395 We checked it manually twice. 232 00:10:07,429 --> 00:10:08,596 We're not all just trashy magazines 233 00:10:08,630 --> 00:10:09,831 and noise violations. 234 00:10:09,865 --> 00:10:11,499 She's good, Dr. Webber. 235 00:10:11,533 --> 00:10:13,267 Indeed. 236 00:10:13,302 --> 00:10:14,869 Now, if you all don't mind, 237 00:10:14,903 --> 00:10:17,572 I'd like to do a quick ultrasound. 238 00:10:17,606 --> 00:10:19,340 How about some privacy? 239 00:10:20,476 --> 00:10:22,413 - We'll be outside. - Yes. 240 00:10:22,447 --> 00:10:23,911 Don't you name that baby before we come back. 241 00:10:23,946 --> 00:10:25,413 If you do, you name it Alex. 242 00:10:25,447 --> 00:10:27,181 'Cause Alex goes both ways. 243 00:10:27,216 --> 00:10:28,750 - Oh, my God. Go away. - No, I can't. 244 00:10:28,784 --> 00:10:30,017 - What about Minty? - Minty? 245 00:10:30,052 --> 00:10:31,719 - Minty would be beautiful. - It's bad. 246 00:10:44,399 --> 00:10:45,533 They mean well. 247 00:10:45,567 --> 00:10:48,736 You're exactly the boss I always knew you would be... 248 00:10:48,771 --> 00:10:50,404 tough, fair. 249 00:10:50,439 --> 00:10:51,806 With a little bit of flair. 250 00:10:51,840 --> 00:10:52,940 You always had that. 251 00:11:00,149 --> 00:11:01,830 Is that... 252 00:11:01,864 --> 00:11:03,584 I believe it is. 253 00:11:03,619 --> 00:11:05,720 Your spleen's beginning to untwist. 254 00:11:05,754 --> 00:11:07,755 I can see blood flowing again. 255 00:11:09,858 --> 00:11:12,450 You can say it, you know? It won't kill you. 256 00:11:12,484 --> 00:11:14,729 You weren't wrong for waiting a while. 257 00:11:14,763 --> 00:11:16,151 Oh, that's the best you can do? 258 00:11:16,185 --> 00:11:18,291 For today. 259 00:11:18,292 --> 00:11:19,787 Hey, what gives? 260 00:11:20,627 --> 00:11:22,428 You're cranky. Your jokes are stale. 261 00:11:22,462 --> 00:11:24,430 I could fly to Paris with the bags under your eyes. 262 00:11:24,464 --> 00:11:27,600 If you weren't my patient, I'd have you fired. 263 00:11:27,634 --> 00:11:29,172 How's Catherine? 264 00:11:30,003 --> 00:11:31,770 She's busy, traveling a lot. 265 00:11:33,106 --> 00:11:36,208 And Maggie? Meredith? 266 00:11:36,242 --> 00:11:38,711 Everybody's fine. 267 00:11:38,745 --> 00:11:41,547 Hey, I know it was hard losing Ollie. 268 00:11:41,581 --> 00:11:42,982 Yeah, it was. 269 00:11:43,016 --> 00:11:44,917 I'll check on your vitals in a bit. 270 00:11:52,158 --> 00:11:53,492 You keep up the good work, 271 00:11:53,526 --> 00:11:56,729 our girl may name her baby Richard after all. 272 00:12:06,139 --> 00:12:07,406 You off today? 273 00:12:07,440 --> 00:12:10,409 Um, I wish. You? 274 00:12:10,443 --> 00:12:11,677 Sort of. 275 00:12:11,711 --> 00:12:13,846 I, um... I had a dream last night 276 00:12:13,880 --> 00:12:15,614 about my rechargeable hearts... 277 00:12:15,649 --> 00:12:17,683 ...which I took as a sign that I should go in today 278 00:12:17,717 --> 00:12:19,818 and really focus on them, which, you know, 279 00:12:19,853 --> 00:12:20,853 now that I say that out loud, 280 00:12:20,887 --> 00:12:23,455 that makes me the queen of the science nerds. 281 00:12:25,025 --> 00:12:29,128 But I promise we'll do dinner... 282 00:12:29,162 --> 00:12:31,697 a big, huge dinner... 283 00:12:31,731 --> 00:12:32,914 all the... 284 00:12:32,915 --> 00:12:34,476 _ 285 00:12:34,501 --> 00:12:35,634 wine. 286 00:12:37,037 --> 00:12:38,504 All the what, babe? 287 00:12:48,159 --> 00:12:50,947 - Maggie, listen. - Nope. 288 00:12:50,972 --> 00:12:53,164 - Maggie. - No. 289 00:12:53,198 --> 00:12:54,708 Will you stop for a second, please? 290 00:12:54,742 --> 00:12:56,810 Let me guess. 291 00:12:56,845 --> 00:12:57,994 "It's not what it looks like. 292 00:12:58,028 --> 00:12:59,613 We're just friends, I promise." 293 00:12:59,647 --> 00:13:02,716 Um... Okay, yes, that was what I was gonna say. 294 00:13:02,750 --> 00:13:04,218 This isn't funny, Jackson. 295 00:13:04,252 --> 00:13:05,652 Maggie, it's what I was gonna say 296 00:13:05,687 --> 00:13:06,787 because it's the truth, all right? 297 00:13:06,821 --> 00:13:08,856 - I didn't cheat on you. - You are too smart to say that, 298 00:13:08,890 --> 00:13:11,358 and I am too smart to believe it. 299 00:13:11,392 --> 00:13:12,459 Ow. 300 00:13:12,494 --> 00:13:14,728 And now I cut my foot, damn it! 301 00:13:14,762 --> 00:13:15,963 Just wait. 302 00:13:17,398 --> 00:13:18,799 Well, let's just forget about the fact 303 00:13:18,833 --> 00:13:19,836 that you were going through my phone. 304 00:13:19,870 --> 00:13:21,103 It kept dinging over and over again, 305 00:13:21,137 --> 00:13:23,170 and I thought it was mine, and that is not the point. 306 00:13:23,204 --> 00:13:26,140 The point is that some woman is missing you 307 00:13:26,174 --> 00:13:27,574 with multiple heart emojis, 308 00:13:27,609 --> 00:13:28,809 and you won't tell me the truth. 309 00:13:28,843 --> 00:13:29,890 Maggie, you want the truth? 310 00:13:29,924 --> 00:13:32,579 Okay, all right? I... I met someone... 311 00:13:32,614 --> 00:13:33,601 You met someone. 312 00:13:33,635 --> 00:13:34,882 ...at... when I was at the monastery. 313 00:13:34,916 --> 00:13:36,040 When you were at the monastery. 314 00:13:36,074 --> 00:13:37,120 Yeah. Why are you repeating? 315 00:13:37,154 --> 00:13:38,552 I don't know. I just am. Keep going. 316 00:13:38,586 --> 00:13:39,572 All right, you have glass in your foot. 317 00:13:39,606 --> 00:13:40,712 Can we... Don't change the subject. 318 00:13:40,746 --> 00:13:42,356 I'm not... 319 00:13:43,858 --> 00:13:47,494 Her name is Kate, all right? And... you were right. 320 00:13:47,529 --> 00:13:49,396 I think you were probably right about the PTSD, 321 00:13:49,430 --> 00:13:52,232 and it's just there's something about nature that, 322 00:13:52,267 --> 00:13:53,867 when you're unplugged and unmoored 323 00:13:53,902 --> 00:13:55,836 and... you were right. 324 00:13:55,870 --> 00:13:57,704 So you slept with her because you had God feelings? 325 00:13:57,739 --> 00:13:58,939 What? No. 326 00:13:58,973 --> 00:13:59,907 I didn't sleep with anybody. 327 00:13:59,941 --> 00:14:01,241 I didn't even kiss her. 328 00:14:01,275 --> 00:14:02,389 It's... It's not about that at all. 329 00:14:02,424 --> 00:14:03,618 We talked. 330 00:14:04,445 --> 00:14:05,746 Maggie, we just talked all night 331 00:14:05,780 --> 00:14:07,214 about how she lost her brother 332 00:14:07,248 --> 00:14:09,917 and how she's looking for some kind of peace. 333 00:14:09,951 --> 00:14:10,951 Which she found in your pants? 334 00:14:10,985 --> 00:14:13,854 No. No. Maggie, no, all right? 335 00:14:13,888 --> 00:14:15,017 You're bleeding, all right? 336 00:14:15,051 --> 00:14:17,224 Will you just sit down for a second so I can help you, please? 337 00:14:17,258 --> 00:14:19,126 Please, okay? I'll grab a first-aid kit, 338 00:14:19,160 --> 00:14:20,928 and you can just look at the messages yourself. 339 00:14:20,962 --> 00:14:22,963 - Oh, no. - I-I don't need to. 340 00:14:22,997 --> 00:14:24,236 I think you do, okay? 341 00:14:24,270 --> 00:14:26,433 This is not some puzzle you need to solve, okay? 342 00:14:26,467 --> 00:14:27,534 Nothing happened. 343 00:14:27,569 --> 00:14:28,902 I didn't want anything to happen. 344 00:14:28,937 --> 00:14:30,244 She's just somebody who understood 345 00:14:30,279 --> 00:14:32,806 what I was going through, what I'd lost. 346 00:14:32,840 --> 00:14:34,808 And, honestly, she understood it better than I did, 347 00:14:34,842 --> 00:14:36,276 and it helped. 348 00:14:36,311 --> 00:14:38,145 It helped to not feel so alone in all this. 349 00:14:38,179 --> 00:14:39,987 Here. Come here. 350 00:14:41,282 --> 00:14:42,883 You're still talking to her. 351 00:14:42,917 --> 00:14:44,318 Last week, last couple of days, 352 00:14:44,352 --> 00:14:45,586 when you were bringing me takeout 353 00:14:45,620 --> 00:14:46,828 and asking me to trust you... 354 00:14:46,862 --> 00:14:48,989 Because you should. You can trust me, okay? 355 00:14:49,023 --> 00:14:51,625 Jackson, my dating history might be dubious, 356 00:14:51,659 --> 00:14:54,828 but I do know that no woman in the history of ever 357 00:14:54,862 --> 00:14:56,763 sends "miss yous" and heart emojis 358 00:14:56,798 --> 00:14:57,698 to men she doesn't want to sleep with. 359 00:14:57,732 --> 00:14:59,833 That's not what this is, Maggie, all right? 360 00:14:59,867 --> 00:15:01,602 I swear, okay? We talked. 361 00:15:01,636 --> 00:15:03,804 And it's just nice, honestly, 362 00:15:03,838 --> 00:15:06,974 to talk to people who've been through the same thing. 363 00:15:08,309 --> 00:15:09,809 People? 364 00:15:10,712 --> 00:15:14,114 I just... I meant that, um... 365 00:15:14,148 --> 00:15:16,524 Who else are you talking to? 366 00:15:17,018 --> 00:15:21,121 Just, um... April sometimes. 367 00:15:28,496 --> 00:15:29,596 What happened? 368 00:15:29,631 --> 00:15:30,931 Her blood pressure tanked, 369 00:15:30,965 --> 00:15:32,766 and her pain level's through the roof. 370 00:15:32,800 --> 00:15:34,601 What is happening? 371 00:15:34,636 --> 00:15:36,169 It's gonna be okay. My baby. 372 00:15:36,204 --> 00:15:37,604 Okay, let's take a look. 373 00:15:37,639 --> 00:15:39,873 - Your baby looks strong. - Mnh. 374 00:15:39,907 --> 00:15:41,541 Damn it. 375 00:15:41,576 --> 00:15:43,744 There's fluid in her abdomen. It's likely blood. 376 00:15:43,778 --> 00:15:46,046 Her splenic artery probably burst, okay? 377 00:15:46,080 --> 00:15:47,310 I'll go tell them to prep an OR. 378 00:15:47,344 --> 00:15:49,049 And shut down the gallery. 379 00:15:49,083 --> 00:15:51,865 You page Alex Karev and the head of OB, stat. 380 00:15:51,899 --> 00:15:53,353 - If we have to take this baby out... - Aah! 381 00:15:53,388 --> 00:15:54,955 I want the best on-hand, okay, all right? 382 00:15:54,989 --> 00:15:56,456 Wait, no. Please, no, please. 383 00:15:56,491 --> 00:15:57,658 Please... 384 00:15:57,692 --> 00:15:59,059 Listen to me, Frankie. 385 00:15:59,093 --> 00:16:01,962 There is nothing you can't handle, okay? 386 00:16:01,996 --> 00:16:03,864 Come on, let's go. Come on. We got to move. 387 00:16:09,003 --> 00:16:10,671 Do you think it's cancer? 388 00:16:10,705 --> 00:16:14,474 Dr. Grey, that's why we're doing the biopsy. 389 00:16:14,509 --> 00:16:16,076 Actual answers. 390 00:16:16,110 --> 00:16:17,311 Science. 391 00:16:17,345 --> 00:16:19,079 I'm asking if you have a feeling. 392 00:16:19,113 --> 00:16:20,914 I am a Big Gun. 393 00:16:20,948 --> 00:16:22,049 Yes, I know. 394 00:16:22,083 --> 00:16:23,417 You're amazing, incredible. 395 00:16:23,451 --> 00:16:25,719 There's no one in the world like you. I get it. 396 00:16:25,753 --> 00:16:28,922 I feel so seen. Thank you. 397 00:16:28,956 --> 00:16:32,359 And we are ready to roll. 398 00:16:32,393 --> 00:16:33,894 Okay, now, you want to be careful because you... 399 00:16:33,928 --> 00:16:35,028 Grey... 400 00:16:35,063 --> 00:16:36,396 you're not gonna backseat drive 401 00:16:36,431 --> 00:16:37,931 a simple biopsy, are you? 402 00:16:37,965 --> 00:16:39,866 - Nope. - No? Good. 403 00:16:41,769 --> 00:16:44,938 Be careful because... Da, da, no, no, no, no. 404 00:16:44,972 --> 00:16:46,039 No, no. 405 00:16:46,074 --> 00:16:48,575 People don't come to The Meredith Grey 406 00:16:48,609 --> 00:16:52,079 for appys and choles anymore, do they? 407 00:16:52,113 --> 00:16:54,288 No, they don't. 408 00:16:54,982 --> 00:16:58,118 You are a Big Gun. 409 00:16:58,152 --> 00:17:02,356 You spend your days with the worst-case scenarios. 410 00:17:02,390 --> 00:17:06,126 You are the last stop on the Hope Train, 411 00:17:06,160 --> 00:17:10,530 and if you felt that every hour of every day, 412 00:17:10,565 --> 00:17:13,033 well, you'd be a miserable first date. 413 00:17:13,067 --> 00:17:16,103 Big Guns worry when there's something to worry about. 414 00:17:16,137 --> 00:17:18,004 - Put a rush on that. - Put a rush on that. 415 00:17:22,477 --> 00:17:24,144 Hey, the nurses are lining the halls. 416 00:17:24,178 --> 00:17:25,078 Can I help? 417 00:17:25,113 --> 00:17:26,480 Yeah. Get in here. 418 00:17:26,514 --> 00:17:28,115 We need to get this spleen out. 419 00:17:28,149 --> 00:17:30,450 She's hypotensive. We need to take the baby out. 420 00:17:30,485 --> 00:17:32,252 The baby's only 28 weeks. 421 00:17:32,286 --> 00:17:34,287 You're talking months in the NICU 422 00:17:34,322 --> 00:17:36,490 and a potential lifetime of deficits. 423 00:17:36,524 --> 00:17:38,992 - Dr. Webber... - My judgment is not clouded. 424 00:17:39,026 --> 00:17:40,994 Suction. 425 00:17:41,028 --> 00:17:42,234 The nurses in our hospital 426 00:17:42,259 --> 00:17:43,665 put their own needs... 427 00:17:43,699 --> 00:17:46,967 ...their own lives aside every hour of every day 428 00:17:47,001 --> 00:17:48,568 for the good of their patients. 429 00:17:48,603 --> 00:17:50,219 Clamp. 430 00:17:51,205 --> 00:17:54,574 So I owe it to them to do everything in my power 431 00:17:54,609 --> 00:17:57,685 to keep that baby right where he belongs. 432 00:17:58,813 --> 00:18:00,414 Okay, retract back. 433 00:18:00,448 --> 00:18:02,115 Okay, scissors. 434 00:18:02,150 --> 00:18:03,417 Thank you. 435 00:18:05,019 --> 00:18:07,087 More. Good. 436 00:18:11,459 --> 00:18:14,194 There. It's out. 437 00:18:14,228 --> 00:18:16,129 And the bleeding's under control. 438 00:18:16,164 --> 00:18:18,231 - Well done, sir. - Thank you. 439 00:18:21,035 --> 00:18:22,302 Damn it! 440 00:18:22,336 --> 00:18:23,837 Is your vascular clamp still in place? 441 00:18:23,871 --> 00:18:25,933 Maybe it's the short gastric arteries. 442 00:18:25,968 --> 00:18:27,007 Her pressure's tanking. 443 00:18:27,041 --> 00:18:28,842 Okay. Suction. 444 00:18:28,876 --> 00:18:30,944 Right. 445 00:18:30,978 --> 00:18:33,880 There's too much blood. I can't tell where it's coming from. 446 00:18:33,915 --> 00:18:35,849 Dr. Webber, baby's in distress. 447 00:18:35,883 --> 00:18:38,285 Sir, we need to get this baby out now. 448 00:18:38,319 --> 00:18:39,486 Dr. Webber. 449 00:18:43,424 --> 00:18:44,558 Then do it. 450 00:18:44,592 --> 00:18:45,992 Some pads. 451 00:18:54,754 --> 00:18:55,854 Baby's out. 452 00:18:55,889 --> 00:18:58,190 Okay, where the hell is all this blood coming from? 453 00:18:58,224 --> 00:18:59,858 I need suction and intubation, stat. 454 00:18:59,893 --> 00:19:01,660 Oh, she's going into DIC. 455 00:19:01,694 --> 00:19:03,626 Let's hang FFP. 456 00:19:04,230 --> 00:19:06,164 Karev, how you doing over there? 457 00:19:07,700 --> 00:19:09,034 Karev? 458 00:19:11,740 --> 00:19:12,753 Karev! 459 00:19:12,787 --> 00:19:15,173 Got an airway, but no movement. 460 00:19:16,276 --> 00:19:19,278 Come on, buddy. Come on, come on, come on, come on. 461 00:19:19,312 --> 00:19:20,345 We got movement! 462 00:19:20,380 --> 00:19:21,747 We got it. 463 00:19:21,781 --> 00:19:23,938 Sats are improving. 464 00:19:24,384 --> 00:19:26,385 We got him. We're good. 465 00:19:26,419 --> 00:19:27,519 Did you hear that, Frankie? 466 00:19:27,553 --> 00:19:29,388 Your baby boy's okay. He's okay. 467 00:19:29,422 --> 00:19:30,789 I need you to stay with him. 468 00:19:32,058 --> 00:19:33,025 We need that crash cart! 469 00:19:33,059 --> 00:19:34,559 Get him in the NICU now, stat. 470 00:19:39,299 --> 00:19:40,866 Let's charge to 120. 471 00:19:43,336 --> 00:19:45,070 Clear. 472 00:19:49,776 --> 00:19:52,477 Come on, Frankie. Come on. Come on. 473 00:19:52,512 --> 00:19:54,028 Let's charge to 200. 474 00:19:54,053 --> 00:19:55,921 Clear. 475 00:20:00,486 --> 00:20:05,146 I thought it would be me detonating this... 476 00:20:05,959 --> 00:20:07,216 whatever this is. 477 00:20:07,251 --> 00:20:09,358 I thought it would be me. 478 00:20:09,929 --> 00:20:11,263 Not out of ego or anything... 479 00:20:11,297 --> 00:20:14,299 just, you know, history. 480 00:20:14,334 --> 00:20:16,535 I thought I would be the reason. 481 00:20:22,267 --> 00:20:25,469 So you pictured us ending? 482 00:20:27,119 --> 00:20:29,053 - You didn't? - No. 483 00:20:30,383 --> 00:20:31,850 Did you picture it with April? 484 00:20:31,884 --> 00:20:35,153 No, I didn't picture my marriage ending. 485 00:20:35,188 --> 00:20:36,521 Maybe it didn't. 486 00:20:36,556 --> 00:20:37,621 Come on. 487 00:20:37,655 --> 00:20:39,314 Are you really threatened by April? 488 00:20:39,349 --> 00:20:41,426 Jackson, you're texting other women. 489 00:20:41,461 --> 00:20:42,961 You're talking to other women, 490 00:20:42,996 --> 00:20:44,029 one of whom you used to sleep with 491 00:20:44,063 --> 00:20:46,865 and the other who clearly wants to sleep with you, 492 00:20:46,899 --> 00:20:49,601 and you are telling them things that you don't tell me. 493 00:20:49,635 --> 00:20:52,359 Do you want to know why I'm not telling you things 494 00:20:52,805 --> 00:20:57,009 about God or how I fit in this universe? 495 00:20:57,043 --> 00:20:58,210 Or about things I used to know 496 00:20:58,244 --> 00:21:00,012 that I don't seem to know anymore? 497 00:21:00,046 --> 00:21:01,313 Because you don't... 498 00:21:01,347 --> 00:21:03,048 'Cause you won't talk to me. 499 00:21:03,082 --> 00:21:05,384 I told you that God and religion is not my thing, 500 00:21:05,418 --> 00:21:07,019 but I-I support you. 501 00:21:07,053 --> 00:21:08,787 No, Maggie. 502 00:21:08,821 --> 00:21:12,419 You don't talk to me, you know, 503 00:21:12,453 --> 00:21:14,993 and not about just your day or rechargeable hearts 504 00:21:15,028 --> 00:21:17,195 or how Mer's being a pain in the ass today. 505 00:21:17,230 --> 00:21:18,277 - I... - I mean, 506 00:21:18,302 --> 00:21:20,632 I never know a damn thing you're feeling. 507 00:21:20,666 --> 00:21:22,167 I am an amazing friend. 508 00:21:22,201 --> 00:21:23,702 I am an amazing sister. 509 00:21:23,736 --> 00:21:25,737 I am there for them through every crisis. 510 00:21:25,772 --> 00:21:27,305 Hell, I have been there for you. 511 00:21:27,340 --> 00:21:28,974 Yes, you have been. 512 00:21:29,008 --> 00:21:30,575 You have been. 513 00:21:30,610 --> 00:21:32,483 It's not the same. 514 00:21:34,080 --> 00:21:36,715 So, because I'm not spewing my feelings all over the place, 515 00:21:36,749 --> 00:21:38,984 that makes it okay for you to hide in your phone 516 00:21:39,018 --> 00:21:40,485 with other women? 517 00:21:41,888 --> 00:21:44,756 You run every time it gets complicated, Maggie. 518 00:21:44,791 --> 00:21:47,059 You hide in your lab, 519 00:21:47,093 --> 00:21:49,061 or you go off and buy some milk 520 00:21:49,095 --> 00:21:50,395 instead of just having an actual conversation with me. 521 00:21:50,430 --> 00:21:51,588 That's not fair. 522 00:21:51,623 --> 00:21:53,265 You plan the end of a relationship 523 00:21:53,299 --> 00:21:54,866 when it's barely begun. 524 00:21:54,901 --> 00:21:56,568 What is that? 525 00:21:59,138 --> 00:22:02,179 When's the last time you let me in at all? 526 00:22:03,109 --> 00:22:04,676 Like, about anything? 527 00:22:05,099 --> 00:22:08,380 So you went and you got it from someone else? 528 00:22:08,414 --> 00:22:09,748 Maggie. 529 00:22:09,782 --> 00:22:11,063 Yeah. 530 00:22:11,918 --> 00:22:13,051 I find it a little easier 531 00:22:13,086 --> 00:22:15,087 to open up to people who open up to me. 532 00:22:19,459 --> 00:22:23,028 ? The way you wear your hat ? 533 00:22:25,331 --> 00:22:29,701 ? The way you sip your tea ? 534 00:22:29,735 --> 00:22:33,305 ? The memory of all that ? 535 00:22:34,807 --> 00:22:40,045 ? No, no, they can't take that away from me ? 536 00:22:40,079 --> 00:22:45,250 ? No, they can't take that away ? 537 00:22:45,284 --> 00:22:49,054 ? From me ? 538 00:22:49,088 --> 00:22:51,056 Oh, that's just a little routine we used to do 539 00:22:51,090 --> 00:22:54,793 over sacral nerve implants back in the day. 540 00:22:54,827 --> 00:22:59,297 - So, how did I do? - Oh, you were perfect. 541 00:22:59,332 --> 00:23:01,633 Just like a professional patient. 542 00:23:01,667 --> 00:23:02,901 We're still waiting on the results. 543 00:23:02,935 --> 00:23:04,503 Mm. 544 00:23:04,537 --> 00:23:07,105 Catherine? Can I call Richard now? 545 00:23:07,140 --> 00:23:10,509 In a bit. I think I need a real drink. 546 00:23:10,543 --> 00:23:12,577 Mm. Hm. 547 00:23:18,351 --> 00:23:19,806 Dr. Webber. 548 00:23:22,054 --> 00:23:23,488 Dr. Webber, she's been down. 549 00:23:23,523 --> 00:23:24,789 I know. 550 00:23:29,162 --> 00:23:30,655 Time... 551 00:23:40,473 --> 00:23:43,141 Time of... 552 00:23:47,813 --> 00:23:49,681 Time of death, 15:42. 553 00:25:08,160 --> 00:25:10,128 Hi. I'm Gina. I'm an alcoholic. 554 00:25:10,162 --> 00:25:11,796 Hi, Gina. 555 00:25:11,831 --> 00:25:15,100 I lost my job busing for the school district last week. 556 00:25:15,134 --> 00:25:17,869 Budget cuts. I couldn't believe it. 557 00:25:17,903 --> 00:25:18,870 Haven't seen you around in a while. 558 00:25:18,904 --> 00:25:20,272 I thought I... I thought I was getting a raise. 559 00:25:20,306 --> 00:25:21,573 Work. 560 00:25:21,607 --> 00:25:23,108 Glad you're back. 561 00:25:23,142 --> 00:25:25,202 I grabbed my last paycheck, 562 00:25:25,236 --> 00:25:29,247 and every bone in my body told me, "Call your sponsor." 563 00:25:29,282 --> 00:25:31,730 But I thought, "I'll just walk it off. 564 00:25:31,764 --> 00:25:33,177 I'll just walk it the hell off," 565 00:25:33,211 --> 00:25:36,550 like being a drunk is like being in a bad mood 566 00:25:36,584 --> 00:25:38,297 or trying to lose a few pounds. 567 00:25:39,692 --> 00:25:43,613 I pass by this bar, McGovern's, right off Main, 568 00:25:43,647 --> 00:25:46,333 and I see this crappy little sign in the window, 569 00:25:46,367 --> 00:25:48,552 hung up with masking tape. 570 00:25:48,586 --> 00:25:52,304 "Chips for Shots." 571 00:25:52,338 --> 00:25:56,508 And at first, I... I didn't know what it meant. 572 00:25:56,542 --> 00:25:59,333 And then I see the emblem. 573 00:26:00,112 --> 00:26:01,998 You give 'em your chip, and they give you a shot 574 00:26:02,033 --> 00:26:03,848 for every year you're sober. 575 00:26:05,851 --> 00:26:09,120 I wish I could have felt the way that you feel right now... 576 00:26:09,155 --> 00:26:12,157 angry, horrified. 577 00:26:12,191 --> 00:26:15,941 But all I could feel in that moment was lucky, 578 00:26:15,976 --> 00:26:18,141 because I have four years under my belt 579 00:26:18,175 --> 00:26:20,265 and I got 4 bucks in my bank account. 580 00:26:23,235 --> 00:26:24,969 Had. 581 00:26:25,004 --> 00:26:27,205 I had four years. 582 00:26:28,380 --> 00:26:29,607 God, I'm so ashamed. 583 00:26:31,010 --> 00:26:32,377 But I'm back, 584 00:26:32,411 --> 00:26:35,391 and I got 24 hours under my belt, 585 00:26:35,425 --> 00:26:37,315 and I am grateful. 586 00:26:45,094 --> 00:26:47,909 Okay, run it down for me. 587 00:26:47,934 --> 00:26:49,334 Look, the results aren't in yet. 588 00:26:49,369 --> 00:26:50,569 The tumor could still be benign, 589 00:26:50,603 --> 00:26:52,070 - so let's not worry about that until... - Why do we do that? 590 00:26:52,105 --> 00:26:54,566 Why do we refuse to talk about it? 591 00:26:54,600 --> 00:26:55,757 If I have cancer... 592 00:26:55,792 --> 00:26:57,639 - We don't know that you do. - Yeah, but I might, 593 00:26:57,673 --> 00:26:59,779 and your tip-toeing around it doesn't make it any better. 594 00:26:59,814 --> 00:27:01,547 - Can I get you guys something? - Andrew, yes. 595 00:27:01,548 --> 00:27:02,914 What are you having, Tommy? 596 00:27:02,949 --> 00:27:04,683 The sun is still out. 597 00:27:04,717 --> 00:27:06,985 Oh, he'll have the same as me... tequila, neat. 598 00:27:07,019 --> 00:27:08,520 Make his a double. Meredith? 599 00:27:08,554 --> 00:27:11,062 I'll have the same. 600 00:27:11,096 --> 00:27:12,531 Mm. 601 00:27:13,793 --> 00:27:15,794 Thanks. 602 00:27:15,828 --> 00:27:16,862 So... 603 00:27:16,896 --> 00:27:19,965 Do you think, if you talk about it, it'll scare me? 604 00:27:19,999 --> 00:27:21,099 It'll remind me? 605 00:27:21,133 --> 00:27:23,935 Do you think there's any world where I'm not sitting here 606 00:27:23,970 --> 00:27:26,083 wondering if my right foot is numb 607 00:27:26,117 --> 00:27:27,806 because of the heels 608 00:27:27,840 --> 00:27:29,958 or the tumor snaking down my spine? 609 00:27:29,992 --> 00:27:31,610 Do you think I'm sitting here now 610 00:27:31,644 --> 00:27:32,844 wondering, "How long is it gonna be 611 00:27:32,879 --> 00:27:35,217 before they tack the word 'Memorial' 612 00:27:35,252 --> 00:27:37,014 at the end of that sign?" 613 00:27:37,917 --> 00:27:40,652 After all these years, I have built a legacy 614 00:27:40,686 --> 00:27:43,576 that finally has my own name on it. 615 00:27:43,577 --> 00:27:44,811 I have a granddaughter 616 00:27:44,845 --> 00:27:46,846 that I want to watch take over the world. 617 00:27:46,880 --> 00:27:51,884 You don't think I'm sitting here wondering if I'll get to? 618 00:27:51,919 --> 00:27:55,521 There is nothing you could possibly say 619 00:27:55,556 --> 00:27:57,623 that's worse than what I've been imagining 620 00:27:57,658 --> 00:28:00,560 since the second I saw those scans. 621 00:28:03,597 --> 00:28:04,964 Well, if it is cancer, 622 00:28:04,998 --> 00:28:07,878 we are looking at, um... 623 00:28:08,669 --> 00:28:11,537 osteosarcoma or a chondrosarcoma. 624 00:28:11,572 --> 00:28:13,573 Which means what? 625 00:28:13,607 --> 00:28:16,576 If it's osteo, assuming it has not spread, 626 00:28:16,610 --> 00:28:19,212 we are looking at chemo and radiation 627 00:28:19,246 --> 00:28:21,147 to shrink the size of the tumor 628 00:28:21,181 --> 00:28:24,650 and operate with as little chance of paralysis as possible. 629 00:28:24,685 --> 00:28:26,819 And if it's chondrosarcoma? 630 00:28:26,854 --> 00:28:30,356 Chondro is a beast. 631 00:28:30,391 --> 00:28:31,657 Doesn't respond to chemo. 632 00:28:31,692 --> 00:28:35,728 So, if you're lucky... and that's a big if... 633 00:28:35,763 --> 00:28:38,030 we may be able to cut it out without, uh... 634 00:28:38,065 --> 00:28:39,365 Making me a quadriplegic, 635 00:28:39,400 --> 00:28:43,288 which means I'll never operate again. 636 00:28:43,604 --> 00:28:46,105 Okay. So that tequila went right through me. 637 00:28:46,140 --> 00:28:48,674 I got to go see a man about a horse. 638 00:28:50,611 --> 00:28:54,881 Dr. Grey, you are among the finest surgeons 639 00:28:54,915 --> 00:28:56,749 that I've seen in my career. 640 00:28:56,784 --> 00:28:59,224 But that's not the only reason I called you here. 641 00:28:59,258 --> 00:29:01,640 When I look in Richard's eyes, 642 00:29:02,956 --> 00:29:05,224 he's barely holding on. 643 00:29:06,827 --> 00:29:09,095 His sponsor died, and he hasn't replaced her, 644 00:29:10,023 --> 00:29:11,597 and if I tell him this... 645 00:29:11,632 --> 00:29:13,599 Catherine. 646 00:29:13,634 --> 00:29:16,469 My mother hid her diagnosis 647 00:29:16,503 --> 00:29:19,639 and spent years alone because of it. 648 00:29:19,673 --> 00:29:21,741 This is not an excuse 649 00:29:21,775 --> 00:29:23,976 to cut the people you love out of your life. 650 00:29:24,011 --> 00:29:27,713 Meredith, I don't know if he can handle this. 651 00:29:27,748 --> 00:29:30,049 Well, I don't know if he can handle it, either, 652 00:29:30,083 --> 00:29:31,818 but it's his life, too. 653 00:29:31,852 --> 00:29:35,757 This is not your choice to make for him. 654 00:29:36,470 --> 00:29:37,903 All right, the hospital, uh, paged. 655 00:29:37,928 --> 00:29:40,396 The biopsy results are back. 656 00:29:42,129 --> 00:29:44,182 Okay, well... 657 00:29:45,098 --> 00:29:47,633 - Let's do this. - Yeah. 658 00:29:47,668 --> 00:29:49,135 One more? 659 00:30:03,217 --> 00:30:04,684 That's good. 660 00:30:04,718 --> 00:30:06,686 I'm okay, thanks. 661 00:30:10,657 --> 00:30:13,493 When you went on your... your whole GodQuest... 662 00:30:13,527 --> 00:30:15,172 GodQuest? 663 00:30:16,296 --> 00:30:18,550 It's what I called it in my head. 664 00:30:19,032 --> 00:30:22,596 When you left without telling me, um... 665 00:30:25,873 --> 00:30:27,893 A part of me was relieved. 666 00:30:28,842 --> 00:30:31,544 This tiny part of me... exhaled 667 00:30:31,578 --> 00:30:32,545 'cause I thought you would... 668 00:30:32,579 --> 00:30:33,613 you would go to the woods, 669 00:30:33,647 --> 00:30:35,214 and you would, you know, 670 00:30:35,249 --> 00:30:36,716 talk to a priest or a shaman, 671 00:30:36,750 --> 00:30:40,720 and... and... and pray to something or someone, 672 00:30:40,754 --> 00:30:43,289 and you would come back with some answers. 673 00:30:43,323 --> 00:30:45,525 You would come back like yourself. 674 00:30:45,559 --> 00:30:50,162 But, instead, I came back with more questions. 675 00:30:50,197 --> 00:30:52,999 And you took those questions to other women. 676 00:30:56,336 --> 00:30:58,006 Uh... 677 00:30:58,872 --> 00:31:01,541 I've spent most of my life 678 00:31:01,575 --> 00:31:03,376 being five steps ahead of everyone else, 679 00:31:03,410 --> 00:31:07,313 and nobody wants to be friends with that girl, okay? 680 00:31:07,347 --> 00:31:10,107 That girl does not have any dates or fights. 681 00:31:10,141 --> 00:31:12,312 She doesn't learn how to fight. 682 00:31:13,520 --> 00:31:15,187 I learned calculus in grade school. 683 00:31:15,222 --> 00:31:20,526 I learned coronary bypass when I was 20. 684 00:31:20,561 --> 00:31:26,624 I never learned how to really love or fight 685 00:31:26,658 --> 00:31:28,768 or really let somebody in without it feeling like 686 00:31:28,802 --> 00:31:31,414 it was gonna be the end of the world. 687 00:31:32,791 --> 00:31:36,506 And you have been married and divorced, 688 00:31:36,540 --> 00:31:39,723 and you have a child, 689 00:31:39,757 --> 00:31:42,361 and you've lost a child, 690 00:31:42,396 --> 00:31:45,337 and you are five steps ahead of me. 691 00:31:45,372 --> 00:31:48,921 And I don't know how to catch up. 692 00:31:56,296 --> 00:31:57,697 Um... 693 00:32:01,935 --> 00:32:06,238 You said that you told Kate about what you'd lost? 694 00:32:06,273 --> 00:32:08,908 Yeah, um... 695 00:32:10,744 --> 00:32:12,044 That's... 696 00:32:12,079 --> 00:32:14,975 That's messy, you know? 697 00:32:16,208 --> 00:32:17,783 Pretty complicated, Maggie. 698 00:32:17,818 --> 00:32:20,419 Try me. 699 00:32:23,156 --> 00:32:25,591 Okay. 700 00:32:33,767 --> 00:32:36,462 The one thing that April and I 701 00:32:36,510 --> 00:32:39,505 could never see eye to eye on was God. 702 00:32:40,865 --> 00:32:43,623 She believed, and I never could. 703 00:32:43,657 --> 00:32:44,897 And now that I do... 704 00:32:44,931 --> 00:32:48,014 now that I really do... 705 00:32:48,048 --> 00:32:48,981 it's too late. 706 00:32:49,016 --> 00:32:50,149 She's married. 707 00:32:50,183 --> 00:32:52,954 She's happy with someone else. 708 00:32:53,820 --> 00:32:55,759 You said that you were happy for her. 709 00:32:55,794 --> 00:32:58,024 You said that a lot of times. 710 00:32:58,058 --> 00:32:59,491 I am. I am happy for her. 711 00:32:59,526 --> 00:33:02,762 I would never do anything to take that away from her. 712 00:33:02,796 --> 00:33:05,331 I am, uh... 713 00:33:06,867 --> 00:33:08,367 ...grieving. 714 00:33:10,904 --> 00:33:15,508 Uh, I'm grieving what we both lost... 715 00:33:16,877 --> 00:33:17,977 ...and what my daughter lost 716 00:33:18,011 --> 00:33:20,980 for the bad timing. 717 00:33:21,014 --> 00:33:24,150 And I love you. 718 00:33:24,184 --> 00:33:26,185 I really love you. 719 00:33:27,854 --> 00:33:30,690 That's all true and all a little messy, 720 00:33:30,724 --> 00:33:32,625 and I just... 721 00:33:33,749 --> 00:33:35,995 I didn't know how to talk to you about it. 722 00:33:50,944 --> 00:33:52,228 No, don't... 723 00:33:52,262 --> 00:33:54,672 Maggie, please don't... don't leave. What... 724 00:33:54,707 --> 00:33:56,082 I can't. 725 00:33:56,116 --> 00:33:58,417 I am... 726 00:33:58,452 --> 00:33:59,919 This... 727 00:34:02,723 --> 00:34:05,057 Jackson, I can't. 728 00:34:52,572 --> 00:34:54,874 What can I get you? 729 00:35:01,581 --> 00:35:03,149 Eight years, huh? 730 00:35:03,183 --> 00:35:05,317 Impressive. 731 00:35:05,731 --> 00:35:07,265 I had five once. 732 00:35:09,289 --> 00:35:12,892 God grant me the serenity, right? 733 00:35:18,198 --> 00:35:19,165 What's your poison? 734 00:35:19,199 --> 00:35:20,800 Vodka. 735 00:35:40,854 --> 00:35:42,555 Enjoy. 736 00:36:07,480 --> 00:36:10,082 Hey. You can't come back here. 737 00:36:10,917 --> 00:36:12,084 What the hell, man?! 738 00:36:15,522 --> 00:36:17,556 - Whoa, whoa! - Whoa! 739 00:36:17,591 --> 00:36:18,991 - Hey! - Whoa! 740 00:36:19,025 --> 00:36:20,125 - Stop it! - Whoa! 741 00:36:20,160 --> 00:36:21,694 Hey! Stop it! 742 00:36:21,728 --> 00:36:23,028 - Whoa! - Hey, whoa! 743 00:36:23,063 --> 00:36:24,363 Somebody call the damn police! 744 00:36:24,397 --> 00:36:26,232 Do it! You call the police, 745 00:36:26,266 --> 00:36:27,936 and I'll tell 'em what you do to people, 746 00:36:27,971 --> 00:36:29,604 people who are just trying to be 747 00:36:29,629 --> 00:36:30,790 there for their children... 748 00:36:30,824 --> 00:36:31,866 ...trying to be there 749 00:36:31,891 --> 00:36:33,172 - for the wives that love 'em... - What? 750 00:36:33,206 --> 00:36:36,342 ...just trying to hang on with everything they got. 751 00:36:36,394 --> 00:36:38,029 And you find 'em, 752 00:36:38,054 --> 00:36:39,722 and you hunt 'em down! 753 00:36:48,455 --> 00:36:50,422 Aah! I didn't hurt nobody! 754 00:36:50,457 --> 00:36:51,724 The choice was all yours. 755 00:37:00,100 --> 00:37:02,434 Damn right it is. 756 00:37:11,278 --> 00:37:13,212 Aaah! 757 00:37:25,219 --> 00:37:28,587 This foundation was created 758 00:37:28,612 --> 00:37:30,613 to change the face of medicine. 759 00:37:30,647 --> 00:37:33,449 And because of the brave women who came forward 760 00:37:33,483 --> 00:37:39,155 and told their truths and overcame insurmountable odds, 761 00:37:39,189 --> 00:37:41,357 the Catherine Fox Foundation 762 00:37:41,391 --> 00:37:44,460 will change the face of medicine once again. 763 00:37:45,696 --> 00:37:47,596 This is just the beginning. 764 00:37:50,834 --> 00:37:52,368 Damn. 765 00:37:52,402 --> 00:37:53,769 Right? 766 00:37:53,804 --> 00:37:57,106 No, I mean, she looks good. 767 00:37:57,140 --> 00:37:58,274 She always looked fantastic, but... 768 00:37:58,308 --> 00:38:00,042 Okay, what is it with you two? 769 00:38:00,077 --> 00:38:02,011 Because you realize that Richard and I are like family, 770 00:38:02,045 --> 00:38:04,046 so if there's something going on... 771 00:38:04,081 --> 00:38:05,911 I'm not one to kiss and tell. 772 00:38:05,946 --> 00:38:07,325 That's literally all you ever do. 773 00:38:07,359 --> 00:38:08,799 Oh, you want... you want details. 774 00:38:08,834 --> 00:38:10,653 - No, I don't. - She woke me up. 775 00:38:13,423 --> 00:38:17,159 I had a kid, a son, and, uh... 776 00:38:17,194 --> 00:38:18,494 then I didn't. 777 00:38:18,528 --> 00:38:22,016 Uh, I sleep-walked through years of my life, 778 00:38:22,050 --> 00:38:26,135 and Catherine, uh... 779 00:38:26,169 --> 00:38:28,537 reminded me that I was alive. 780 00:38:29,706 --> 00:38:33,075 And she sings a mean harmony, too. 781 00:38:34,411 --> 00:38:36,145 She's my friend. 782 00:38:36,631 --> 00:38:38,245 Then she's in good hands. 783 00:38:38,279 --> 00:38:40,785 No, I'm a Big Gun, Meredith. 784 00:38:40,819 --> 00:38:42,184 Yeah, okay, with the Big Gun. 785 00:38:42,219 --> 00:38:44,153 - I get it. - No, you don't. You don't. 786 00:38:44,187 --> 00:38:46,388 There is no one smarter, no one better than me. 787 00:38:46,423 --> 00:38:50,860 And my friend has Grade 3 chondrosarcoma. 788 00:38:50,894 --> 00:38:54,663 She has cancer in her spine that won't shrink with chemo, 789 00:38:54,697 --> 00:38:57,639 and I have no idea how to remove it without killing or paralyzing her. 790 00:38:57,674 --> 00:38:59,235 Thomas, what the hell are you doing standing here? 791 00:38:59,269 --> 00:39:00,925 - Ugh. Catherine... - You have work to do. 792 00:39:00,959 --> 00:39:03,906 I survived losing my mother before I could even get to know her 793 00:39:03,940 --> 00:39:06,208 and my father, who dropped dead on his way to church 794 00:39:06,243 --> 00:39:07,689 when I was 18 years old. 795 00:39:07,724 --> 00:39:10,724 I raised my sisters alone... no help, no money. 796 00:39:10,759 --> 00:39:14,187 I have survived racism, sexism, every "ism" 797 00:39:14,222 --> 00:39:17,253 designed to make me feel small or make me less. 798 00:39:17,287 --> 00:39:21,123 If I can do all of that, if I can survive all of that, 799 00:39:21,158 --> 00:39:24,226 then I just might survive this, too. 800 00:39:24,261 --> 00:39:27,196 But I can't do this on my own. 801 00:39:27,230 --> 00:39:31,267 So I need you to figure it out, fast. 802 00:39:33,270 --> 00:39:35,604 Now, excuse me. I... 803 00:39:35,639 --> 00:39:38,107 I have to go call my husband. 804 00:39:38,141 --> 00:39:42,311 The problem with all the how-to, step-by-step books is 805 00:39:42,345 --> 00:39:45,729 they don't take into account the exceptions to the rules. 806 00:40:02,299 --> 00:40:03,795 Hey, there, L'il Pancake. 807 00:40:03,829 --> 00:40:06,021 They never leave room for the outliers... 808 00:40:08,271 --> 00:40:10,172 ...the geniuses... 809 00:40:12,724 --> 00:40:13,775 ...the miracles... 810 00:40:32,547 --> 00:40:34,148 You've reached Richard Webber's cellphone. 811 00:40:34,182 --> 00:40:35,554 Please leave a message. 812 00:40:50,031 --> 00:40:52,399 ...because books are black and white... 813 00:40:52,434 --> 00:40:54,802 ...and everything in real life 814 00:40:54,836 --> 00:40:56,391 is a messy shade of gray. 815 00:41:28,036 --> 00:41:29,803 So nothing can truly prepare us 816 00:41:29,838 --> 00:41:31,672 for the beautiful, painful things 817 00:41:31,706 --> 00:41:33,540 we never imagined possible... 818 00:41:40,605 --> 00:41:41,658 _ 819 00:41:41,683 --> 00:41:43,617 _ 820 00:41:45,420 --> 00:41:46,720 Maggie. 821 00:41:46,755 --> 00:41:48,622 - Meredith. - Richard? 822 00:41:50,091 --> 00:41:51,392 Are you okay? 823 00:41:51,426 --> 00:41:53,394 Please don't tell Catherine. 824 00:41:53,428 --> 00:41:55,129 Just promise me. 825 00:41:55,163 --> 00:41:56,897 Okay, I promise. 826 00:41:56,931 --> 00:41:58,832 What's going on? 827 00:41:58,867 --> 00:42:01,735 ...or the moments no one ever saw coming. 828 00:42:01,770 --> 00:42:03,904 I've been arrested, Meredith. 829 00:42:03,938 --> 00:42:05,079 I need your help. 830 00:42:09,477 --> 00:42:16,410 Synced & corrected by -robtor- www.addic7ed.com