1 00:00:01,293 --> 00:00:04,320 In surgery, we work to make our sutures 2 00:00:04,353 --> 00:00:06,454 as precise as we can. 3 00:00:12,828 --> 00:00:14,996 We try to minimize scars... 4 00:00:15,030 --> 00:00:17,799 ...and to return full function. 5 00:00:19,501 --> 00:00:22,437 We try not to leave any trace of the injury. 6 00:00:23,539 --> 00:00:24,834 Mm, can you click on that 7 00:00:24,859 --> 00:00:26,441 - for me, Zozo? - Mm-hmm. 8 00:00:29,979 --> 00:00:30,979 Ooh! Mom, look... 9 00:00:31,013 --> 00:00:32,347 it's for Uncle Alex's wedding. 10 00:00:32,381 --> 00:00:34,615 - Look at that. - Oh. 11 00:00:34,650 --> 00:00:36,751 - It's so pretty. - It is. 12 00:00:36,785 --> 00:00:38,653 Alex is gonna hate it! 13 00:00:42,891 --> 00:00:44,192 Why is it so cold? 14 00:00:44,226 --> 00:00:45,760 Mm. They powered down the furnace. 15 00:00:45,794 --> 00:00:48,363 Because it's May! 16 00:00:52,034 --> 00:00:52,867 What? 17 00:00:52,901 --> 00:00:56,037 Kepner sent out our wedding invitations! 18 00:00:56,071 --> 00:00:57,872 Is it weird to get an invitation to our own wedding? 19 00:00:57,906 --> 00:01:00,875 No, that's the beauty of Kepner doing it all for us. 20 00:01:00,909 --> 00:01:03,611 - Mm. It's... fancy. - Right? 21 00:01:03,645 --> 00:01:04,758 I mean, it might be too fancy 22 00:01:04,783 --> 00:01:05,947 - for me to go to. - Oh, yeah. 23 00:01:05,981 --> 00:01:07,515 Put us down for a "maybe." - Yeah. 24 00:01:20,429 --> 00:01:21,562 - Hey. - Where is she? 25 00:01:21,597 --> 00:01:22,730 She's right... 26 00:01:30,039 --> 00:01:31,072 Are you high? 27 00:01:31,106 --> 00:01:32,540 No. 28 00:01:32,574 --> 00:01:34,909 I tried to get a fix, and I couldn't. 29 00:01:34,943 --> 00:01:37,712 So I sweated it out on my friend's couch. 30 00:01:37,746 --> 00:01:39,180 I'm six days clean. 31 00:01:39,214 --> 00:01:40,915 I hate it, but, uh, 32 00:01:40,949 --> 00:01:42,316 I miss Leo. 33 00:01:42,351 --> 00:01:44,886 And it's like, I don't want to get high, 34 00:01:44,920 --> 00:01:49,223 but I really want to get high, you know? 35 00:01:54,196 --> 00:01:55,930 All right. 36 00:01:55,964 --> 00:01:57,999 Come on. 37 00:01:58,033 --> 00:01:59,667 You taking her to a meeting? 38 00:01:59,701 --> 00:02:01,035 No, I have to go to work 39 00:02:01,070 --> 00:02:03,746 for possibly the worst consult of my life. 40 00:02:03,780 --> 00:02:05,440 You're taking her to work with you? 41 00:02:05,474 --> 00:02:06,908 I'm not letting her out of my sight again. 42 00:02:06,942 --> 00:02:08,342 Let's go. 43 00:02:13,615 --> 00:02:16,017 Oh! 44 00:02:16,051 --> 00:02:18,086 Oh, did you see this? 45 00:02:18,120 --> 00:02:20,787 Yeah! Yeah, it's super cute. 46 00:02:20,821 --> 00:02:23,091 Um, I, uh... 47 00:02:23,125 --> 00:02:24,525 I... I have to give you something. 48 00:02:24,560 --> 00:02:25,760 Oh, give it. 49 00:02:25,794 --> 00:02:27,762 - My notice. - Notice of what? 50 00:02:29,098 --> 00:02:31,365 I'm leaving. I'm moving to New York. 51 00:02:31,400 --> 00:02:33,201 It's... It's for Sofia. 52 00:02:33,235 --> 00:02:35,303 It's what she needs, and it's gonna... it... 53 00:02:35,337 --> 00:02:37,371 You know, it's gonna be great. 54 00:02:37,406 --> 00:02:39,941 So, please, be happy for me... 55 00:02:41,056 --> 00:02:42,437 ...and Sofia. 56 00:02:43,158 --> 00:02:44,959 - When? - Not right away. 57 00:02:44,994 --> 00:02:47,161 But, yeah, I mean, soon. 58 00:02:50,399 --> 00:02:52,600 I thought you were a pixie stick. 59 00:02:52,634 --> 00:02:54,936 - Huh? - When I met you, 60 00:02:54,970 --> 00:02:58,006 I thought you were an empty vessel, 61 00:02:58,040 --> 00:02:59,707 full of sugar, 62 00:02:59,742 --> 00:03:02,810 who skated in a hospital. 63 00:03:02,845 --> 00:03:05,179 I didn't know then that 64 00:03:05,214 --> 00:03:07,615 it would be one of the great privileges of my life 65 00:03:07,649 --> 00:03:11,019 to know you and to work with you... 66 00:03:11,053 --> 00:03:12,286 Nope. I can't. 67 00:03:12,321 --> 00:03:14,022 - I'm sorry. Thank you. - And that... 68 00:03:14,056 --> 00:03:15,356 You, too. 69 00:03:21,730 --> 00:03:23,998 - Morning, morning. - Morning. 70 00:03:24,033 --> 00:03:26,634 Good morning, Miss Harriet. 71 00:03:26,668 --> 00:03:27,969 Did you see this? 72 00:03:28,003 --> 00:03:30,171 Yeah. 73 00:03:30,205 --> 00:03:32,473 Jo and Alex did not do that. 74 00:03:32,508 --> 00:03:34,809 No, no, no, that's got April written all over it. 75 00:03:35,944 --> 00:03:37,478 - Are you going? - Yeah. 76 00:03:37,513 --> 00:03:40,081 I thought we were going. Aren't we going? 77 00:03:40,115 --> 00:03:42,350 Well, yes. I mean, I'm going. 78 00:03:42,384 --> 00:03:43,317 And you're going. 79 00:03:43,352 --> 00:03:46,654 Uh, we just haven't been anywhere together... 80 00:03:46,688 --> 00:03:48,389 - with everyone. - Okay. 81 00:03:48,424 --> 00:03:50,658 Well, it's perfect, then. 82 00:03:50,692 --> 00:03:52,093 Were you going to tell me? 83 00:03:52,127 --> 00:03:53,995 I had to hear it from Mount Sinai? 84 00:03:54,029 --> 00:03:56,564 There's nothing to tell yet. 85 00:03:56,598 --> 00:03:58,666 Um, hey, have you seen the... the wedding invitations? 86 00:03:58,700 --> 00:04:01,235 They're so cute. Something to look forward to. 87 00:04:01,270 --> 00:04:03,438 Look, then tell me why. 88 00:04:03,472 --> 00:04:05,006 Why would you be on a job search? 89 00:04:05,040 --> 00:04:07,075 Is it because of the Harper Avery scandal? 90 00:04:07,109 --> 00:04:09,243 Because the changes to the foundation are real. 91 00:04:09,278 --> 00:04:11,913 Look, and I would've thought, if you had any reservations, 92 00:04:11,947 --> 00:04:12,914 you might talk with me. 93 00:04:12,948 --> 00:04:13,948 I thought we were friends, but... 94 00:04:13,982 --> 00:04:16,017 - Is she here yet? - Yep. Yeah. 95 00:04:16,051 --> 00:04:19,720 - Did you know about Robbins? - I know nothing about anyone. 96 00:04:19,755 --> 00:04:21,055 This is Betty. I told you about Betty. 97 00:04:21,090 --> 00:04:23,424 Can she hang with you while we do this consult? 98 00:04:23,459 --> 00:04:26,094 Uh, nice to meet you, Betty, and no. 99 00:04:26,128 --> 00:04:27,862 Okay, Betty, you're sticking with us. 100 00:04:27,896 --> 00:04:29,697 But must be seen and not heard, okay? 101 00:04:29,731 --> 00:04:30,932 - Why is she here? - Betty? 102 00:04:30,966 --> 00:04:32,069 - No. - Oh. 103 00:04:32,103 --> 00:04:34,135 - I don't know. - Check-up? Follow-up? 104 00:04:34,169 --> 00:04:35,770 I don't know. You don't know? 105 00:04:35,804 --> 00:04:37,939 No, we haven't spoken since she left, 106 00:04:37,973 --> 00:04:38,973 and not once. 107 00:04:39,007 --> 00:04:41,976 I-I-I reached out, she didn't respond, I gave up. 108 00:04:42,010 --> 00:04:44,479 I mean, I've kind of got a bone to pick with her. 109 00:04:44,513 --> 00:04:46,147 Really? Today? Can it wait? 110 00:04:46,181 --> 00:04:47,915 Can you pick your bone later? Take a seat. 111 00:04:51,987 --> 00:04:54,088 Robbins? Shepherd? 112 00:04:54,123 --> 00:04:57,158 Look at you! You both look amazing! 113 00:04:57,192 --> 00:04:59,360 Uh... Y... You can... 114 00:05:00,362 --> 00:05:01,596 No. 115 00:05:01,630 --> 00:05:03,064 I'm just messing with you. 116 00:05:03,098 --> 00:05:04,765 Still blind as an earthworm. 117 00:05:09,171 --> 00:05:10,338 Too soon? 118 00:05:12,774 --> 00:05:15,243 - You don't want to wait inside? - Where I go, you go, Roy. 119 00:05:15,277 --> 00:05:16,511 I told you that. 120 00:05:16,545 --> 00:05:18,146 Oh, it's freezing today. 121 00:05:18,180 --> 00:05:20,057 Is this more from that fire in Ballard? 122 00:05:20,091 --> 00:05:21,102 No, it's an overturned car. 123 00:05:21,137 --> 00:05:22,984 I was up all night, 124 00:05:23,018 --> 00:05:24,485 worrying about Leo being too cold, 125 00:05:24,520 --> 00:05:27,021 so then I made it too hot, then I woke him up. 126 00:05:27,055 --> 00:05:29,090 Hey, when did Tuck start sleeping through the night? 127 00:05:29,124 --> 00:05:30,625 You're asking parenting advice? 128 00:05:30,659 --> 00:05:32,293 Yeah, I just can't seem to find the right... 129 00:05:32,327 --> 00:05:35,429 You ever heard of the black lace-weaver spider? 130 00:05:35,464 --> 00:05:36,664 The... 131 00:05:36,698 --> 00:05:39,600 Well, she lays about 50 to 100 eggs, 132 00:05:39,635 --> 00:05:41,435 and when her babies reach a certain age, 133 00:05:41,470 --> 00:05:44,172 she taps her web and calls them to her. 134 00:05:44,206 --> 00:05:46,207 They swarm her, 135 00:05:46,241 --> 00:05:50,144 stab into her with their straw-like stingers, 136 00:05:50,179 --> 00:05:53,014 the mother's innards liquefy, and they suck her up, 137 00:05:53,048 --> 00:05:55,449 like a milkshake, for their nourishment, 138 00:05:55,484 --> 00:05:58,152 leaving her a dead husk, 139 00:05:58,187 --> 00:05:59,372 and then, they go on with their lives. 140 00:05:59,407 --> 00:06:01,556 That's parenting. 141 00:06:01,590 --> 00:06:03,524 That's my advice. 142 00:06:03,559 --> 00:06:06,127 Huh. Well, that's helpful. Thanks. Yeah. 143 00:06:11,266 --> 00:06:13,301 It's Taylor. He rolled his car. He's in bad shape. 144 00:06:13,335 --> 00:06:14,835 - Who is it? - Matthew Taylor. 145 00:06:14,870 --> 00:06:16,370 Unconscious at the scene with a head injury, 146 00:06:16,405 --> 00:06:17,838 now G.C.S. of 11. 147 00:06:17,873 --> 00:06:19,874 We bolused him three times en route. 148 00:06:19,908 --> 00:06:22,043 Matthew. Matthew, can you hear me? 149 00:06:22,077 --> 00:06:23,878 - He's one of us, you know? - Yeah, I know. We got him. 150 00:06:23,912 --> 00:06:25,680 Trauma one is clear. Let's go! 151 00:06:27,082 --> 00:06:29,483 You paged? Whoa! 152 00:06:29,518 --> 00:06:31,252 - Oh, my God. Is that Matthew Taylor? - Yeah. 153 00:06:31,286 --> 00:06:32,352 - What happened? - He rolled his car. 154 00:06:32,377 --> 00:06:33,321 Someone should find Kepner. 155 00:06:33,355 --> 00:06:35,756 - She needs to know that he's here. - Yeah, Roy, get Kepner. 156 00:06:35,791 --> 00:06:38,092 - You said where you go, I go. - Go. 157 00:06:38,126 --> 00:06:39,189 Hey, Matthew? 158 00:06:39,223 --> 00:06:40,895 It's Meredith Grey, April's friend. 159 00:06:40,929 --> 00:06:42,260 Can you hear me? 160 00:06:43,232 --> 00:06:44,166 Aah! 161 00:06:44,201 --> 00:06:45,566 Okay, morphine, 8 milligrams. 162 00:06:45,601 --> 00:06:47,401 April... 163 00:06:47,436 --> 00:06:49,704 We're getting her. Just try to relax. 164 00:06:49,738 --> 00:06:51,649 Okay. Okay. April's here? 165 00:06:51,683 --> 00:06:52,840 She's okay? 166 00:06:52,874 --> 00:06:54,408 Wait. What? 167 00:06:54,443 --> 00:06:55,710 What do you mean, she's okay? 168 00:06:55,744 --> 00:06:58,846 She warned me... 169 00:06:58,880 --> 00:07:01,682 about a curve... 170 00:07:01,717 --> 00:07:02,917 ice... 171 00:07:02,951 --> 00:07:04,518 Matthew, w-what happened? 172 00:07:04,553 --> 00:07:06,020 What about April? 173 00:07:06,054 --> 00:07:07,088 Matthew? 174 00:07:07,122 --> 00:07:10,791 Synced & corrected by -robtor- www.addic7ed.com 175 00:07:10,826 --> 00:07:18,739 Captioning provided by ABC Studios and ABC, Inc. 176 00:07:18,776 --> 00:07:21,497 He does have a head injury. He could be free associating. 177 00:07:21,522 --> 00:07:24,253 Right, you said her name, and he just repeated it. 178 00:07:24,278 --> 00:07:25,545 I'm gonna check the schedule. 179 00:07:25,579 --> 00:07:27,413 - How'd you get the call? - 911 dispatch. 180 00:07:27,448 --> 00:07:29,415 He must have called before he went unconscious. 181 00:07:29,450 --> 00:07:30,583 Was there anything left in the car, 182 00:07:30,618 --> 00:07:32,485 like a purse, a woman's coat? 183 00:07:32,519 --> 00:07:34,354 We were just trying to get him out. 184 00:07:34,388 --> 00:07:35,889 Her phone went to voicemail... seven times. 185 00:07:35,923 --> 00:07:38,524 I'm gonna go find Jackson. He'll know where she is. 186 00:07:38,559 --> 00:07:39,893 Yeah, take me out there, where you found the car. 187 00:07:39,927 --> 00:07:41,494 Let's go. 188 00:07:41,528 --> 00:07:43,162 Hey, Roy, let's get Taylor to CT 189 00:07:43,197 --> 00:07:44,597 and make sure an O.R. is available. 190 00:07:44,632 --> 00:07:46,199 No, no, let me take Matthew Taylor, okay? 191 00:07:46,233 --> 00:07:47,700 - You need to be on the floor. - Oh, no, I got it. 192 00:07:47,735 --> 00:07:49,869 The people need a chief, and I need to stay busy. 193 00:07:49,904 --> 00:07:51,371 Just until we know. 194 00:07:52,907 --> 00:07:54,741 Free fluid, left upper quadrant. 195 00:07:54,775 --> 00:07:56,409 - Looks like a splenectomy. - Okay. 196 00:07:56,443 --> 00:07:57,877 - Tell me when you find out. - Okay. 197 00:07:57,912 --> 00:07:59,345 And more Seattle firefighters 198 00:07:59,380 --> 00:08:00,780 responding to that apartment-building fire 199 00:08:00,814 --> 00:08:03,116 that blazes out of control in Ballard. 200 00:08:03,150 --> 00:08:05,718 Experts say that this cold snap could be to blame, 201 00:08:05,753 --> 00:08:09,222 with residents turning to space heaters to keep warm. 202 00:08:09,256 --> 00:08:10,857 Fire officials are concerned 203 00:08:10,891 --> 00:08:13,426 that the flames could spread to nearby buildings. 204 00:08:13,460 --> 00:08:15,395 When did the headaches start? 205 00:08:15,429 --> 00:08:16,629 A month ago. 206 00:08:16,664 --> 00:08:18,531 I had influenza in Tokyo, 207 00:08:18,565 --> 00:08:21,467 and I thought it was that, but it just got worse, 208 00:08:21,502 --> 00:08:24,570 and then the dizziness. So I said, 209 00:08:24,605 --> 00:08:27,540 "Why not go see the woman who spent the better part of a year 210 00:08:27,574 --> 00:08:29,442 getting to know your brain?" 211 00:08:29,476 --> 00:08:31,077 And Robbins... 212 00:08:31,111 --> 00:08:33,813 76 procedures since I saw you last. 213 00:08:33,847 --> 00:08:36,749 Or since... since I saw anything last, actually. 214 00:08:36,784 --> 00:08:38,918 Yeah, um, wow. You really did your homework. 215 00:08:38,953 --> 00:08:40,486 No, I've been following you. 216 00:08:40,521 --> 00:08:42,655 Our time together was short, 217 00:08:42,690 --> 00:08:44,891 but you just took it and ran with it. 218 00:08:44,925 --> 00:08:47,593 Yeah, it was short but meaningful. 219 00:08:47,628 --> 00:08:49,429 All right, I'm thinking... 220 00:08:49,463 --> 00:08:50,889 That the tumor's back. 221 00:08:52,333 --> 00:08:53,566 Let's not get ahead of ourselves. 222 00:08:53,600 --> 00:08:56,602 Um, I want to schedule a head CT. 223 00:08:56,637 --> 00:08:58,972 And, Robbins, we can catch up. 224 00:09:00,774 --> 00:09:03,509 Are you nodding? Because I don't do non-verbal. 225 00:09:03,544 --> 00:09:05,144 Yes, I am. Um, yeah, let's... 226 00:09:05,179 --> 00:09:06,546 Uh, let's catch up. 227 00:09:08,282 --> 00:09:09,315 Hey, hey, hey. 228 00:09:09,350 --> 00:09:11,417 Can you look at this? Kepner left it in my box. 229 00:09:11,452 --> 00:09:13,764 She wants us to pick a base for the color palette. 230 00:09:13,798 --> 00:09:16,155 - What does that even mean? - Just pick one. 231 00:09:16,190 --> 00:09:17,991 I see yellow, yellow, and yellow. 232 00:09:18,025 --> 00:09:21,260 Okay, she also wants to meet us at 11:00 for a cake tasting. 233 00:09:21,295 --> 00:09:23,162 If I'm still in surgery, you pick it... 234 00:09:23,197 --> 00:09:25,665 anything but carrot cake. 235 00:09:25,699 --> 00:09:27,600 I thought this was the beauty of Kepner! 236 00:09:27,634 --> 00:09:29,669 It's cake. You love cake. 237 00:09:29,703 --> 00:09:31,304 Yeah. 238 00:09:50,424 --> 00:09:51,991 Kepner! 239 00:09:52,726 --> 00:09:54,536 Kepner! 240 00:09:54,895 --> 00:09:56,562 April! 241 00:10:00,200 --> 00:10:01,667 April! 242 00:10:04,671 --> 00:10:06,205 April! 243 00:10:09,410 --> 00:10:10,710 No. 244 00:10:12,346 --> 00:10:13,880 No, no, no! 245 00:10:18,585 --> 00:10:20,653 - Hey, glad I caught you. - Barely. 246 00:10:20,687 --> 00:10:23,089 I got a huge apartment fire, bunch of burn victims. 247 00:10:23,123 --> 00:10:24,123 I'm pretty swamped, actually. 248 00:10:24,158 --> 00:10:26,192 Do you know where April is? Have you seen her? 249 00:10:26,226 --> 00:10:28,027 No, she volunteered at some rural clinic. 250 00:10:28,062 --> 00:10:29,168 I had Harriet all weekend. 251 00:10:29,193 --> 00:10:30,261 I haven't seen her. 252 00:10:30,296 --> 00:10:32,365 - Why? What's up? - It's, um... 253 00:10:32,399 --> 00:10:34,167 Hey, his family are here. They're freaking out. 254 00:10:34,201 --> 00:10:35,599 - Can I tell them? - Not until I know the full extent 255 00:10:35,624 --> 00:10:36,934 of his injuries. I wouldn't know what 256 00:10:36,968 --> 00:10:38,137 - to tell them, really. - All right. 257 00:10:39,273 --> 00:10:40,773 Oh, Mer, did you need something? 258 00:10:40,808 --> 00:10:42,575 Nothing. It's about the wedding. It can wait. 259 00:10:42,609 --> 00:10:43,910 All right. 260 00:10:49,817 --> 00:10:51,584 - Did you talk to Avery? - He has a burn patient. 261 00:10:51,618 --> 00:10:53,619 I want to wait until I know what to tell him. 262 00:10:53,654 --> 00:10:56,055 And when he doesn't have someone else's life in his hands. 263 00:10:56,090 --> 00:10:57,557 I'm just saying, 264 00:10:57,591 --> 00:10:59,092 maybe Wilson didn't invite me 265 00:10:59,126 --> 00:11:00,793 because she still has feelings... 266 00:11:00,828 --> 00:11:01,794 If you don't finish that sentence, 267 00:11:01,829 --> 00:11:02,962 I'll let you be my plus-one. 268 00:11:02,996 --> 00:11:04,430 - Okay. - Hey, you two! 269 00:11:04,465 --> 00:11:06,299 Get your heads in the game. 270 00:11:06,333 --> 00:11:08,067 I'm gonna tell you who's on that rig, 271 00:11:08,102 --> 00:11:09,435 and you're not gonna lose your minds. 272 00:11:09,470 --> 00:11:11,604 You're gonna hold it together and work. 273 00:11:14,508 --> 00:11:16,375 She's hypothermic, freezing cold. 274 00:11:16,410 --> 00:11:18,377 No pulse, no vitals. G.C.S. of three. 275 00:11:18,412 --> 00:11:20,146 No idea how long she's been down. 276 00:11:20,180 --> 00:11:21,314 I think we lost her. 277 00:11:21,348 --> 00:11:23,082 - No! - No, we didn't! 278 00:11:23,117 --> 00:11:25,051 She's not dead until she's warm and dead! 279 00:11:30,067 --> 00:11:31,689 I need Bair huggers and warm saline. 280 00:11:31,714 --> 00:11:33,469 - Somebody page Pierce? - I did. 281 00:11:33,494 --> 00:11:35,560 - Also humidified O2. - I can't find a vein. 282 00:11:35,585 --> 00:11:37,273 - Try the other arm. - I did. I couldn't, either. 283 00:11:37,298 --> 00:11:39,848 - Okay, let's put in an I/O line. - Put in two. 284 00:11:42,044 --> 00:11:43,245 What are you doing? Numbing the area. 285 00:11:43,279 --> 00:11:44,746 Dude, she can't feel that. She's dead. 286 00:11:44,780 --> 00:11:45,847 Shut up! Don't say that! 287 00:11:45,881 --> 00:11:48,516 No one says that! 288 00:11:48,551 --> 00:11:50,418 What did she mean, "warm and dead?" 289 00:11:50,453 --> 00:11:52,854 Her temperature is 68 degrees. 290 00:11:52,888 --> 00:11:54,489 We need to get it to 86 291 00:11:54,523 --> 00:11:57,225 before we can try to restart her heart. 292 00:11:58,194 --> 00:12:00,195 Oh, my God! 293 00:12:00,229 --> 00:12:01,529 What happened? Oh, my God! 294 00:12:01,564 --> 00:12:03,498 - Does Jackson know? - No, not yet. 295 00:12:04,634 --> 00:12:06,368 Meredith, we... we... we can't lose her. 296 00:12:06,402 --> 00:12:08,536 We're not gonna lose her! The same thing happened to me, 297 00:12:08,571 --> 00:12:11,106 and I was in way worse shape than April. 298 00:12:11,140 --> 00:12:12,841 - Jackson should know. - No, Maggie, 299 00:12:12,875 --> 00:12:13,908 we didn't call you here 'cause you're her friend. 300 00:12:13,943 --> 00:12:15,143 We called you here because you're the head of cardio. 301 00:12:15,177 --> 00:12:16,444 Get in here! We need you! 302 00:12:16,479 --> 00:12:18,780 - Let's push one of epi! - No. 303 00:12:18,814 --> 00:12:20,015 - Warm blankets! - No, no, no, no, no! 304 00:12:20,049 --> 00:12:21,338 No! No epi! 305 00:12:21,372 --> 00:12:22,984 She's not circulating. It won't get to her heart. 306 00:12:23,019 --> 00:12:24,953 It'll pool in her system, and that can be toxic. 307 00:12:24,987 --> 00:12:27,289 We need dual chest tubes and a thoracic lavage. 308 00:12:27,323 --> 00:12:29,024 - Okay, on it. - I got it. Schmitt, get up here! 309 00:12:29,058 --> 00:12:30,023 She needs better circulation. 310 00:12:30,057 --> 00:12:32,060 We need interposed abdominal CPR. 311 00:12:32,094 --> 00:12:33,128 Helm, you get in here. 312 00:12:33,162 --> 00:12:35,630 You push. You alternate. Circulate the whole body. 313 00:12:35,665 --> 00:12:36,898 Push, push... keep it steady, 314 00:12:36,932 --> 00:12:38,500 about 100 beats per minute. 315 00:12:38,534 --> 00:12:40,969 - Hunt, where do you need me? - We're doing... 316 00:12:41,003 --> 00:12:42,971 We're doing everything. Stop compressions. 317 00:12:44,040 --> 00:12:45,775 Good. 318 00:12:45,809 --> 00:12:47,008 Ready? Go. 319 00:12:49,011 --> 00:12:50,312 Look at that. 320 00:12:50,346 --> 00:12:52,169 I mean, that is a ton 321 00:12:52,194 --> 00:12:53,081 of mucosal swelling 322 00:12:53,115 --> 00:12:55,250 and carbon particles... 323 00:12:55,284 --> 00:12:57,494 It hasn't reached the carina, so that's good, right? 324 00:12:57,528 --> 00:12:59,637 I mean, it could be worse, yeah. 325 00:13:00,256 --> 00:13:02,524 Oh, got your invitation this morning. 326 00:13:02,558 --> 00:13:05,093 Me too. - Very nice. 327 00:13:05,127 --> 00:13:07,095 April is so good at that stuff. 328 00:13:07,129 --> 00:13:09,097 I would've just put up a flier in the residents' lounge 329 00:13:09,131 --> 00:13:10,332 and had the reception at Joe's. 330 00:13:10,366 --> 00:13:11,399 Well, you know, I don't have 331 00:13:11,434 --> 00:13:13,568 a lot of experience in the planning department, 332 00:13:13,602 --> 00:13:17,005 but I certainly can endorse eloping. 333 00:13:17,039 --> 00:13:18,940 Forceps, please? 334 00:13:18,974 --> 00:13:21,242 They called it "vision rehabilitation," 335 00:13:21,277 --> 00:13:23,545 but I called it "blind school." 336 00:13:23,579 --> 00:13:25,914 It was a lot of, uh, training exercises 337 00:13:25,948 --> 00:13:28,917 and Braille and group therapy 338 00:13:28,951 --> 00:13:33,088 with frozen yogurt and some very cheerful people. 339 00:13:33,122 --> 00:13:34,422 You would've loved it. 340 00:13:34,457 --> 00:13:36,391 Mm, I bet they loved you. 341 00:13:36,425 --> 00:13:38,426 Well, I was... 342 00:13:38,461 --> 00:13:41,397 I was good at it. I, uh... I excelled. 343 00:13:41,431 --> 00:13:43,398 And then, uh... 344 00:13:43,432 --> 00:13:47,035 Well, now I have a faculty position at UCSF. 345 00:13:47,069 --> 00:13:50,872 I've been traveling all over, teaching. 346 00:13:50,906 --> 00:13:54,110 I guess I'm just a big brain with a big mouth now. 347 00:13:54,145 --> 00:13:55,210 Now? 348 00:13:55,244 --> 00:13:58,446 And I've been keeping tabs on you, Robbins. 349 00:13:58,481 --> 00:14:01,449 That obstetrical cart thing? 350 00:14:01,484 --> 00:14:03,534 You're making people talk. I've heard it. 351 00:14:04,086 --> 00:14:06,755 Yeah. Well, I'm going back into peds surgery. 352 00:14:06,789 --> 00:14:08,256 - What? - Yeah, I have to. 353 00:14:08,290 --> 00:14:09,758 I have to move to New York with my daughter, 354 00:14:09,792 --> 00:14:10,992 and there's already three fetal surgeons there, 355 00:14:11,026 --> 00:14:12,394 so, Mount Sinai offered me... 356 00:14:12,428 --> 00:14:13,728 Oh, no, no, Robbins, this is unacceptable. 357 00:14:13,763 --> 00:14:15,497 Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa! Hey, listen, 358 00:14:15,531 --> 00:14:16,923 I don't have a choice. 359 00:14:17,433 --> 00:14:18,833 I know that's a shock to you, 360 00:14:18,868 --> 00:14:20,168 but if you'd come around to say hello, 361 00:14:20,202 --> 00:14:21,719 it wouldn't be. 362 00:14:25,641 --> 00:14:27,725 She's all set. 363 00:14:28,477 --> 00:14:31,413 She got these follow-up scans in San Francisco about six months ago. 364 00:14:31,447 --> 00:14:33,748 - All clear. - That was six months ago. 365 00:14:35,217 --> 00:14:37,118 If the tumor's back, I have to tell her. 366 00:14:37,153 --> 00:14:38,186 Why wouldn't you? 367 00:14:38,220 --> 00:14:40,755 - No, I mean about mine. - Oh. 368 00:14:40,790 --> 00:14:41,956 That I operated on her brain 369 00:14:41,991 --> 00:14:43,787 with a grapefruit-sized tumor 370 00:14:43,812 --> 00:14:44,826 of my own... 371 00:14:44,860 --> 00:14:46,361 ...which might be why she's blind 372 00:14:46,395 --> 00:14:48,797 and is probably why she's back with a recurrent tumor. 373 00:14:48,831 --> 00:14:50,665 Wait. You have a brain tumor? 374 00:14:50,699 --> 00:14:53,468 - Had. - Yes, had. It's gone. 375 00:14:54,470 --> 00:14:57,372 Look, y-you saved her life when no one else could. 376 00:14:57,406 --> 00:14:59,507 And we don't know that your tumor caused anything. 377 00:14:59,542 --> 00:15:01,042 We don't know it didn't. 378 00:15:01,076 --> 00:15:04,979 So, you did brain surgery while you needed brain surgery? 379 00:15:05,014 --> 00:15:06,281 Is she even allowed to be here? 380 00:15:06,315 --> 00:15:08,716 - What did I say? - Seen and not heard. 381 00:15:08,751 --> 00:15:10,151 Run the scans. 382 00:15:13,222 --> 00:15:14,980 She has no vitals? 383 00:15:15,014 --> 00:15:16,691 - At all? - Not yet. 384 00:15:16,725 --> 00:15:19,060 But we've been here before. We know what to do. 385 00:15:19,094 --> 00:15:19,994 Hunt, Grey, Pierce, 386 00:15:20,029 --> 00:15:22,230 they're warming her, trying to get a pulse. 387 00:15:22,264 --> 00:15:24,532 - Where's Jackson? - In surgery. 388 00:15:24,567 --> 00:15:26,634 Come in here with the camera, Roy. 389 00:15:29,238 --> 00:15:30,672 Roy. 390 00:15:30,706 --> 00:15:34,242 Sorry, sorry. I... 391 00:15:34,276 --> 00:15:35,710 I like Dr. Kepner. 392 00:15:36,912 --> 00:15:38,346 How's Taylor looking? 393 00:15:38,380 --> 00:15:40,548 Spleen is in worse shape than we thought. 394 00:15:42,051 --> 00:15:43,217 Lord... 395 00:15:44,753 --> 00:15:45,928 April. 396 00:15:46,722 --> 00:15:48,857 His short gastrics are bleeding. 397 00:15:48,891 --> 00:15:50,558 - Pass me a hemoclip, Bokee. - I'm scrubbing in. 398 00:15:50,593 --> 00:15:51,559 No, I-it's all right, we have it... 399 00:15:51,594 --> 00:15:54,262 At least I'll feel like I'm doing something. 400 00:15:54,296 --> 00:15:55,697 Move it over here a little bit. 401 00:15:55,731 --> 00:15:56,897 Right there. 402 00:15:57,800 --> 00:15:59,400 - What's her potassium level? - Six. 403 00:15:59,435 --> 00:16:01,169 Helm, keep up your rhythm or tag out! 404 00:16:01,203 --> 00:16:02,837 Okay, I can take over. 405 00:16:06,709 --> 00:16:08,409 She has seat-belt bruises. 406 00:16:08,444 --> 00:16:10,445 - She wasn't thrown from the car. - Yeah. 407 00:16:10,479 --> 00:16:13,281 I'm guessing she got out and made the 911 call, 408 00:16:13,315 --> 00:16:14,582 then she fell into the ravine. It was icy. 409 00:16:14,617 --> 00:16:17,886 - She must've been disoriented. - She was trying to save Taylor. 410 00:16:20,623 --> 00:16:22,123 How long have we been doing these compressions? 411 00:16:22,157 --> 00:16:24,025 An hour? 412 00:16:24,059 --> 00:16:26,628 - We have to tell Jackson. - Honey, he has a patient on the table. 413 00:16:26,662 --> 00:16:28,062 This is the mother of his child. 414 00:16:28,097 --> 00:16:29,227 I know, Maggie, but right now, 415 00:16:29,261 --> 00:16:30,398 we don't need people with big feelings. 416 00:16:30,432 --> 00:16:32,033 We need people who can help. 417 00:16:33,002 --> 00:16:34,636 - What's her temperature now? - 76. 418 00:16:34,670 --> 00:16:35,703 This isn't going fast enough. 419 00:16:35,738 --> 00:16:38,606 I want to get her to an O.R. and put her on bypass. 420 00:16:38,641 --> 00:16:40,041 Let's prep her to move! 421 00:16:40,075 --> 00:16:41,309 Go find some people who can help. 422 00:16:41,343 --> 00:16:43,111 - Okay. - Got it. Got it. 423 00:16:48,117 --> 00:16:49,119 - Alex! - Hey, I gotta taste 424 00:16:49,144 --> 00:16:50,084 some cake with Kepner. 425 00:16:50,119 --> 00:16:51,319 You want to come? 426 00:16:54,690 --> 00:16:56,207 What is it? 427 00:16:57,259 --> 00:16:59,093 It's Kepner. You gotta come with me. 428 00:17:37,085 --> 00:17:39,287 Okay, Parker, get me some blood, as much as you can find. 429 00:17:39,321 --> 00:17:41,355 All right, stop compressions. I need her still. 430 00:17:44,059 --> 00:17:45,548 Okay, go. 431 00:17:46,662 --> 00:17:48,462 I hated Kepner at first. 432 00:17:50,499 --> 00:17:52,199 Okay, stop. 433 00:17:54,836 --> 00:17:56,000 I hated her because I wished 434 00:17:56,025 --> 00:17:57,204 - I was more like her. - Go. 435 00:17:57,239 --> 00:18:00,074 She was always prepared, always excited. 436 00:18:00,108 --> 00:18:02,643 She... She cared. She liked her patients. 437 00:18:02,678 --> 00:18:05,046 And she knew her stuff. She's good. 438 00:18:05,080 --> 00:18:06,213 Vessel loops. 439 00:18:06,248 --> 00:18:08,115 She was all the things I wasn't, 440 00:18:08,150 --> 00:18:10,251 all the things I had to work to be. 441 00:18:10,285 --> 00:18:12,241 She was just born that way. 442 00:18:13,322 --> 00:18:15,703 You gotta stop saying "was." 443 00:18:21,063 --> 00:18:24,269 I ordered the drawers according to the severity of the scenario. 444 00:18:24,304 --> 00:18:26,400 Um, hemorrhage, sepsis, uh... 445 00:18:26,435 --> 00:18:28,936 - Preeclampsia. - Yeah. 446 00:18:28,970 --> 00:18:30,705 Magnesium sulfate? 447 00:18:30,739 --> 00:18:32,440 H-How'd you know that? Can you feel that? 448 00:18:32,474 --> 00:18:34,308 I guessed, dumb-ass. 449 00:18:34,343 --> 00:18:35,976 What else would you need for preeclampsia? 450 00:18:36,011 --> 00:18:39,480 This is impressive, Robbins. 451 00:18:39,514 --> 00:18:42,249 This is good. You did good. 452 00:18:42,284 --> 00:18:43,884 You... You really ran with it. 453 00:18:43,919 --> 00:18:46,087 Yeah, well, I didn't have much of a choice. 454 00:18:46,121 --> 00:18:48,122 Are you still pouting? I hear pouting. 455 00:18:48,156 --> 00:18:51,325 You've been following my work? 456 00:18:51,360 --> 00:18:53,894 I mean, and you didn't think to... to reach out? 457 00:18:53,929 --> 00:18:55,229 To let me know that you're all right? 458 00:18:55,263 --> 00:18:56,397 To see if I'm all right? 459 00:18:56,431 --> 00:18:58,799 'Cause you were my mentor, 460 00:18:58,834 --> 00:19:00,768 and you were... you were supposed to be my friend, 461 00:19:00,802 --> 00:19:02,403 - and, uh... - You were fine. 462 00:19:02,437 --> 00:19:03,838 You are fine. 463 00:19:03,872 --> 00:19:05,239 And don't for a second 464 00:19:05,273 --> 00:19:07,408 - think about quitting fetal surgery. - Oh, no. 465 00:19:07,442 --> 00:19:09,110 No, you don't get to have an opinion about that. 466 00:19:09,144 --> 00:19:10,911 You dropped me, and you just moved on. 467 00:19:10,946 --> 00:19:12,079 That's unacceptable. 468 00:19:12,114 --> 00:19:13,469 Robbins, I didn't... 469 00:19:14,015 --> 00:19:15,583 I didn't know... 470 00:19:18,120 --> 00:19:20,187 You saved my life. 471 00:19:20,222 --> 00:19:22,356 - Shepherd saved your life. - No. 472 00:19:22,391 --> 00:19:25,126 Yes, but no. Uh... 473 00:19:26,361 --> 00:19:28,863 After blind school, 474 00:19:28,897 --> 00:19:30,223 I hit a rough patch. 475 00:19:30,258 --> 00:19:34,368 I mean, the blindness I could cope with, but... 476 00:19:34,403 --> 00:19:38,828 I was put on this Earth to do surgery, and suddenly... 477 00:19:39,474 --> 00:19:44,712 So I went very, very dark. 478 00:19:44,746 --> 00:19:46,502 No pun intended. 479 00:19:47,249 --> 00:19:49,283 And then I kept hearing about you 480 00:19:49,317 --> 00:19:51,385 and your dozens of exit procedures 481 00:19:51,420 --> 00:19:53,020 and the acardiac twin, 482 00:19:53,054 --> 00:19:54,889 and you... you saved quads, 483 00:19:54,923 --> 00:19:57,224 and I thought, "Crap! I did it. 484 00:19:57,259 --> 00:19:59,493 I downloaded my entire brain 485 00:19:59,528 --> 00:20:01,862 into that girl in mere months, 486 00:20:01,897 --> 00:20:05,199 and she went out and saved all these babies. 487 00:20:09,237 --> 00:20:10,568 Thanks. 488 00:20:11,652 --> 00:20:13,307 I needed to hear you say that. 489 00:20:13,341 --> 00:20:15,876 This isn't about you. It's about me. 490 00:20:15,911 --> 00:20:17,378 You made me realize 491 00:20:17,412 --> 00:20:21,148 that I could teach and that it could matter. 492 00:20:21,183 --> 00:20:23,851 I could save more babies by creating more Robbinses 493 00:20:23,885 --> 00:20:27,555 than I ever could myself with two working eyeballs. 494 00:20:27,589 --> 00:20:29,490 You made me see that, 495 00:20:29,524 --> 00:20:32,159 and that saved my life. 496 00:20:32,194 --> 00:20:33,761 And I didn't reach out 497 00:20:33,795 --> 00:20:37,097 because I didn't know how to thank you... 498 00:20:37,132 --> 00:20:39,333 sufficiently, and I still don't, 499 00:20:39,367 --> 00:20:41,235 so I'm just not going to. 500 00:20:41,269 --> 00:20:42,703 Cool? 501 00:20:44,473 --> 00:20:45,769 Robbins? 502 00:20:47,008 --> 00:20:48,609 I'm still here. 503 00:20:50,245 --> 00:20:51,440 Is that something? 504 00:20:51,475 --> 00:20:53,881 No, you already saw that one. 505 00:20:53,915 --> 00:20:56,183 Yeah, like 45 minutes ago. 506 00:20:56,218 --> 00:20:57,918 Okay, all this time I've been saying, 507 00:20:57,953 --> 00:20:59,587 "Well, she's blind, 508 00:20:59,621 --> 00:21:01,622 but at least I saved her life," 509 00:21:01,656 --> 00:21:04,458 and now I can't even say that, because her tumor is back, 510 00:21:04,493 --> 00:21:06,961 - and I can't even find it. - Maybe it's not back. 511 00:21:06,995 --> 00:21:08,729 This seems hard for you to believe, Dr. Shepherd, 512 00:21:08,763 --> 00:21:10,431 but some people don't have tumors. 513 00:21:10,465 --> 00:21:11,371 It could be migraines 514 00:21:11,396 --> 00:21:13,267 - or a buildup of CSF. - Oh, God. 515 00:21:13,301 --> 00:21:15,369 Let's just do a spinal tap and see. 516 00:21:17,439 --> 00:21:19,373 I still have to tell her... about my tumor. 517 00:21:19,407 --> 00:21:20,374 Why? 518 00:21:20,408 --> 00:21:23,444 It's not like it's gonna make her less blind. 519 00:21:23,478 --> 00:21:25,112 She's right. 520 00:21:25,146 --> 00:21:27,248 Your tumor either changed her life or it didn't, 521 00:21:27,282 --> 00:21:29,316 and we'll never know for sure. 522 00:21:29,813 --> 00:21:32,253 Don't tell her. 523 00:21:32,287 --> 00:21:35,956 I'm clean and sober, 524 00:21:35,991 --> 00:21:38,948 and I can't do secrets and lies and stay that way. 525 00:21:41,263 --> 00:21:43,664 Okay, do the spinal tap. 526 00:21:43,698 --> 00:21:45,766 If it is inconclusive... 527 00:21:45,800 --> 00:21:47,434 if the tumor is back... 528 00:21:47,469 --> 00:21:49,270 I'm telling her about mine. 529 00:21:56,711 --> 00:21:59,480 Ah, I got it. Hilum clamped. 530 00:21:59,514 --> 00:22:01,348 Okay, watch out for the tail of the pancreas. 531 00:22:01,383 --> 00:22:04,818 Okay, medium clip. How is his BP trending? 532 00:22:04,853 --> 00:22:06,654 Climbing. Systolic's up to 110. 533 00:22:06,688 --> 00:22:09,023 I swear, this boy must be cursed. 534 00:22:09,057 --> 00:22:11,859 After all he's been through... 535 00:22:11,893 --> 00:22:14,929 Can someone get me an update about Dr. Kepner? 536 00:22:14,963 --> 00:22:16,430 Do we know anything? 537 00:22:17,866 --> 00:22:20,751 Every time Ben leaves the house now, 538 00:22:20,786 --> 00:22:23,771 part of me goes into suspended animation. 539 00:22:23,805 --> 00:22:27,141 It helps me just to concentrate on the facts. 540 00:22:27,175 --> 00:22:28,809 Well, I don't have any facts. 541 00:22:28,843 --> 00:22:31,111 Well, the facts I have are... 542 00:22:31,146 --> 00:22:33,514 Ben went to work to save people's lives, 543 00:22:33,548 --> 00:22:35,449 he's very good at it, 544 00:22:35,483 --> 00:22:38,799 and until I hear otherwise, that's what I know. 545 00:22:40,422 --> 00:22:44,058 They have Kepner... Grey, Hunt, Pierce. 546 00:22:44,092 --> 00:22:45,559 They're working to save her. 547 00:22:45,594 --> 00:22:47,461 They're very good at it. 548 00:22:47,495 --> 00:22:50,102 Those are the facts. That's what we know. 549 00:22:54,536 --> 00:22:56,537 You're a very good chief. 550 00:22:58,840 --> 00:23:01,809 So, all of it went to the Harper Avery's victims? 551 00:23:01,843 --> 00:23:04,878 - All of your inheritance? - I am essentially broke, yeah. 552 00:23:06,214 --> 00:23:07,581 And that's funny. Nice. 553 00:23:07,616 --> 00:23:08,716 No, no, it's just that you're "broke," 554 00:23:08,750 --> 00:23:11,251 other than your six-figure salary as a plastic surgeon, 555 00:23:11,286 --> 00:23:12,768 - your penthouse, and your yacht. - Okay... 556 00:23:12,803 --> 00:23:15,522 I used to wash my underwear with a water bottle, 557 00:23:15,557 --> 00:23:17,524 - so it's a little... - Wow. Okay. Point taken. 558 00:23:17,559 --> 00:23:18,592 You can't take all of it. We need it! 559 00:23:18,627 --> 00:23:20,527 I need all of it. I was told to get all I could find. 560 00:23:20,562 --> 00:23:22,229 There's a surgery in an hour. 561 00:23:22,263 --> 00:23:24,398 We're trying to save Dr. Kepner's life right now, 562 00:23:24,432 --> 00:23:26,146 so you have to find more. 563 00:23:26,147 --> 00:23:28,336 What? What did you just say? 564 00:23:33,475 --> 00:23:35,197 - A dose of epi? Something? - Not yet. 565 00:23:35,231 --> 00:23:37,544 Clamps off. Let's start bypass. 566 00:23:45,654 --> 00:23:46,720 How long? 567 00:23:48,256 --> 00:23:49,808 - Three hours. - Three hours?! 568 00:23:49,842 --> 00:23:51,425 - Why the hell didn't you say something?! - Stop compressions. 569 00:23:51,459 --> 00:23:52,626 Don't you stop compressions! Keep going! 570 00:23:52,661 --> 00:23:54,028 No, no, no! J-Jackson! 571 00:23:54,062 --> 00:23:55,763 I've got her on bypass. 572 00:23:57,232 --> 00:23:58,632 We are warming her. 573 00:23:58,667 --> 00:24:01,435 We've got her blood circulating. 574 00:24:01,469 --> 00:24:04,538 And then we'll... we'll try for a rhythm. 575 00:24:04,572 --> 00:24:06,874 - There's nothing to do but wait. - And pray. 576 00:24:11,112 --> 00:24:13,826 Everybody, I don't care how you do it or who you do it to, but... 577 00:24:15,450 --> 00:24:16,917 ...April would want us to pray for her. 578 00:24:51,730 --> 00:24:53,116 That! That! 579 00:24:53,150 --> 00:24:56,682 Right there. 580 00:24:56,716 --> 00:24:58,295 Is that... Is that V-fib? Is that a rhythm? 581 00:25:01,244 --> 00:25:02,978 - I don't see it. - I don't. 582 00:25:03,012 --> 00:25:05,047 You... You don't see that? There! There! Right there! 583 00:25:05,081 --> 00:25:06,215 You don't see that? 584 00:25:06,249 --> 00:25:07,496 Charge! Charge to 120! 585 00:25:07,530 --> 00:25:08,749 No, I don't see a rhythm. 586 00:25:08,783 --> 00:25:10,385 Clear. 587 00:25:10,420 --> 00:25:12,187 Clear now! 588 00:25:15,425 --> 00:25:17,726 All right, charge to 150. 589 00:25:17,760 --> 00:25:18,827 - No. - Clear! 590 00:25:20,463 --> 00:25:22,331 - Maggie... - I got it. I see it! I see it! 591 00:25:22,365 --> 00:25:23,432 Charge to 200! 592 00:25:23,466 --> 00:25:24,867 Clear! 593 00:25:26,269 --> 00:25:27,833 Again. Clear. 594 00:25:27,867 --> 00:25:29,271 Oh, God, come on... 595 00:25:29,305 --> 00:25:31,039 Maggie... 596 00:25:31,074 --> 00:25:32,241 Clear! 597 00:25:32,275 --> 00:25:33,609 Stop! Enough! 598 00:25:33,643 --> 00:25:35,225 - All right? Stop, please. - Jackson... 599 00:25:35,260 --> 00:25:36,879 - Please! - Please let go of her. Please. 600 00:25:36,913 --> 00:25:38,347 Come on. Look at me. Look at me. 601 00:25:38,381 --> 00:25:40,115 Just hold on. I know. 602 00:25:40,149 --> 00:25:41,250 I know, but we can't stop. 603 00:25:41,284 --> 00:25:43,385 There! 604 00:25:54,464 --> 00:25:56,899 That is a rhythm! 605 00:26:01,471 --> 00:26:03,071 All right, Dr. Herman, 606 00:26:03,106 --> 00:26:05,274 you know the drill with a spinal tap, I assume... 607 00:26:05,308 --> 00:26:07,109 no movement, and, uh, 608 00:26:07,143 --> 00:26:08,544 and you might just feel a little pinch. 609 00:26:08,578 --> 00:26:10,379 Why are you doing it? Where's Amelia? 610 00:26:10,413 --> 00:26:13,081 Dr. Shepherd has been called away on an emergency. 611 00:26:13,116 --> 00:26:15,651 She already blinded me. She's afraid she'll paralyze me. 612 00:26:15,685 --> 00:26:17,553 Chicken. 613 00:26:17,587 --> 00:26:20,289 Is he bad? Is DeLuca a butterfingers? 614 00:26:20,323 --> 00:26:23,158 No, no, he's good. 615 00:26:23,192 --> 00:26:24,560 I could do it if you want me to. 616 00:26:24,594 --> 00:26:26,148 - No, I got it. - Mnh. 617 00:26:27,297 --> 00:26:28,597 - Oh! Oh. - Oh. 618 00:26:28,631 --> 00:26:30,261 - Whoa! - Okay. 619 00:26:30,295 --> 00:26:31,434 "Whoa"? What "whoa"? Don't "whoa." 620 00:26:31,468 --> 00:26:33,502 No, it's just spinal fluid. It's a lot of fluid. 621 00:26:33,536 --> 00:26:35,152 - Yeah, no, it's good! - It's great. 622 00:26:35,187 --> 00:26:36,972 It's just a buildup of CSF that's been causing your symptoms. 623 00:26:37,006 --> 00:26:38,960 It means it's not a tumor. 624 00:26:38,994 --> 00:26:41,750 Thank God. She would've taken my hearing next. 625 00:26:45,048 --> 00:26:47,756 Oh, um, hey, I'll be right back, okay? 626 00:26:52,655 --> 00:26:55,023 Okay, I know that you're mad, and I was gonna tell you... 627 00:26:55,058 --> 00:26:56,458 - Okay, Arizona, listen... - But I... No! No, no, no! 628 00:26:56,492 --> 00:26:57,593 Hold on. You listen. 629 00:26:57,627 --> 00:26:58,827 Do you think that I want to leave? 630 00:26:58,861 --> 00:27:00,796 I'm making this choice for... for my daughter 631 00:27:00,830 --> 00:27:02,965 who needs both of her parents, and if you want to gripe at anyone, 632 00:27:02,999 --> 00:27:04,723 you should gripe at Calliope Torres 633 00:27:04,758 --> 00:27:07,436 for moving to the land of crap coffee and hot-garbage smells. 634 00:27:07,470 --> 00:27:08,627 Robbins, that's... You know what? 635 00:27:08,661 --> 00:27:09,740 Actually, Callie's kind of been great. 636 00:27:09,775 --> 00:27:12,040 - She's beensurprisingly... - Arizona. 637 00:27:12,075 --> 00:27:13,508 It's not about New York. 638 00:27:14,811 --> 00:27:16,511 It's about April Kepner. 639 00:27:17,413 --> 00:27:18,745 What? 640 00:27:25,521 --> 00:27:26,955 He's just coming around. 641 00:27:26,990 --> 00:27:29,373 Okay. Matthew? 642 00:27:30,026 --> 00:27:32,561 Uh, put his head up a little, please. 643 00:27:32,595 --> 00:27:33,662 Matthew? 644 00:27:33,696 --> 00:27:35,464 Hey, it's Dr. Bailey. 645 00:27:35,498 --> 00:27:38,367 You were in an accident, but you're okay. 646 00:27:38,401 --> 00:27:40,142 April? 647 00:27:41,037 --> 00:27:42,871 Is April...? 648 00:27:52,681 --> 00:27:54,382 Brain waves are slow and irregular. 649 00:27:54,416 --> 00:27:56,384 So, what do you think? With time...? 650 00:27:56,418 --> 00:27:59,553 I don't know. Maybe. 651 00:27:59,588 --> 00:28:02,590 - Hey. What happened? - MVC. They rolled a car. 652 00:28:02,624 --> 00:28:04,102 I found her in a ravine. 653 00:28:04,127 --> 00:28:05,893 - She was hypothermic. - She and Matthew Taylor... 654 00:28:05,927 --> 00:28:08,429 Yeah, they've been doing volunteer work together at a clinic... 655 00:28:08,463 --> 00:28:10,231 No, they've been seeing each other. 656 00:28:12,200 --> 00:28:14,535 For months now. 657 00:28:14,569 --> 00:28:15,870 She didn't want to tell anybody. 658 00:28:15,904 --> 00:28:18,506 She didn't want the judgments or the opinions 659 00:28:18,540 --> 00:28:22,176 about how long he'd waited or... 660 00:28:22,210 --> 00:28:24,545 whether or not she was doing the right thing. 661 00:28:24,579 --> 00:28:26,280 She said it was different than before. 662 00:28:26,314 --> 00:28:28,616 You know, that they've been through so much 663 00:28:28,650 --> 00:28:30,284 since they were together. 664 00:28:30,318 --> 00:28:32,486 She lost a child, and... 665 00:28:33,488 --> 00:28:35,289 he lost a wife, and... 666 00:28:36,992 --> 00:28:39,393 ...that they knew each other's pain 667 00:28:39,428 --> 00:28:41,462 like they knew their own. 668 00:28:41,496 --> 00:28:44,465 And that they knew how fragile it is, 669 00:28:44,499 --> 00:28:46,367 how rare it is. 670 00:28:46,401 --> 00:28:49,570 That something good could come out of so much pain. 671 00:28:49,604 --> 00:28:51,639 And they fell in love again. 672 00:28:54,910 --> 00:28:56,551 She's in love. 673 00:29:05,454 --> 00:29:06,987 I came back. 674 00:29:07,022 --> 00:29:08,556 I remember. 675 00:29:11,359 --> 00:29:14,361 All this time, I felt like I'd been robbed, but... 676 00:29:15,297 --> 00:29:19,233 I came back, so all the years I had with Derek and the... 677 00:29:19,267 --> 00:29:22,136 the kids and the marriage, 678 00:29:22,170 --> 00:29:24,128 it's... it's all a bonus. 679 00:29:32,180 --> 00:29:33,848 How is she? Is she okay? 680 00:29:33,882 --> 00:29:35,916 Is she... Is she alive? 681 00:30:35,076 --> 00:30:36,877 We're giving Jackson the room. 682 00:30:36,912 --> 00:30:38,379 You didn't see anything? 683 00:30:38,413 --> 00:30:39,580 It's okay. 684 00:30:39,614 --> 00:30:41,081 It's okay. 685 00:30:41,116 --> 00:30:42,624 There's still time, right? I mean, there's still... 686 00:30:42,658 --> 00:30:45,052 Has anyone called her family? 687 00:30:50,091 --> 00:30:51,725 I'll do it. 688 00:31:06,741 --> 00:31:08,725 I believe you're here. 689 00:31:10,612 --> 00:31:12,613 I believe that. 690 00:31:14,750 --> 00:31:16,351 I believe in you. 691 00:31:20,423 --> 00:31:22,123 Oh, I want to believe. 692 00:31:22,157 --> 00:31:25,961 Yeah. 693 00:31:28,831 --> 00:31:31,873 I will. I will. 694 00:31:32,501 --> 00:31:34,703 Oh, I will believe in you. 695 00:31:34,737 --> 00:31:36,348 Okay? 696 00:31:47,850 --> 00:31:50,225 I'll do whatever you want. 697 00:31:52,704 --> 00:31:53,905 I'll do anything. 698 00:31:56,041 --> 00:31:59,911 If you exist, just... 699 00:31:59,945 --> 00:32:04,248 don't... don't take her away, okay? 700 00:32:08,654 --> 00:32:10,620 Don't. God, don't do it. 701 00:32:11,390 --> 00:32:13,039 Don't take April. 702 00:32:13,592 --> 00:32:15,026 Please. 703 00:32:26,171 --> 00:32:28,472 Hey. 704 00:32:30,642 --> 00:32:33,611 Hey. 705 00:32:49,884 --> 00:32:52,785 Nice reflexes, Kepner. Looks good. 706 00:32:52,820 --> 00:32:54,387 Mm. 707 00:32:54,388 --> 00:32:56,388 Did you see anything? 708 00:32:56,423 --> 00:32:57,923 Any dead people? 709 00:32:59,359 --> 00:33:02,428 I did. I even saw my dead dog. 710 00:33:02,462 --> 00:33:03,829 No. 711 00:33:03,863 --> 00:33:06,365 No, I didn't. I... 712 00:33:08,068 --> 00:33:10,736 I remember calling 911. 713 00:33:10,770 --> 00:33:12,605 I remember falling, 714 00:33:12,639 --> 00:33:14,840 realizing I couldn't get up. 715 00:33:14,874 --> 00:33:17,076 And I remember... 716 00:33:17,110 --> 00:33:19,345 feeling warmer... 717 00:33:19,379 --> 00:33:20,940 and warmer... 718 00:33:22,282 --> 00:33:23,943 and safer. 719 00:33:25,385 --> 00:33:29,421 And then... 720 00:33:32,292 --> 00:33:34,079 And then I was here. 721 00:33:35,662 --> 00:33:37,374 You prayed for me. 722 00:33:38,398 --> 00:33:41,533 And it worked. Ha ha. 723 00:33:41,568 --> 00:33:45,371 Arizona, I'm fine. 724 00:33:45,405 --> 00:33:46,772 I know. I know. 725 00:33:46,806 --> 00:33:49,275 No white light? No pearly gates? 726 00:33:49,309 --> 00:33:50,909 Nothing? 727 00:33:50,944 --> 00:33:54,413 No, because I didn't die, you guys. 728 00:33:54,447 --> 00:33:56,081 I was hypothermic. 729 00:33:56,116 --> 00:33:58,751 My vessels vasoconstricted to preserve my heat, 730 00:33:58,785 --> 00:34:00,953 my heart stopped, my brain shut down, 731 00:34:00,987 --> 00:34:02,554 but the cold kept it from dying, 732 00:34:02,589 --> 00:34:05,424 and then you all thawed me out 733 00:34:05,458 --> 00:34:07,059 and rebooted my body. 734 00:34:08,428 --> 00:34:11,430 I didn't die and come back to life. 735 00:34:11,464 --> 00:34:13,999 There's one guy that does that... that's Jesus, 736 00:34:14,034 --> 00:34:15,934 and I know I didn't die, because if I had, 737 00:34:15,969 --> 00:34:18,137 I would've met him. I know that for sure. 738 00:34:18,171 --> 00:34:20,939 Mm-hmm. 739 00:34:20,974 --> 00:34:24,643 Arizona, I'm okay. 740 00:34:24,678 --> 00:34:28,414 - It's all good. - I know. I know. 741 00:34:28,448 --> 00:34:30,115 Okay, we're gonna let you get some rest. 742 00:34:42,729 --> 00:34:44,970 You always come and bring me back. 743 00:34:57,544 --> 00:34:59,978 Hey, Dr. Avery. 744 00:35:04,317 --> 00:35:07,286 Hey. 745 00:35:13,493 --> 00:35:16,328 It's a simple shunt, quick and easy. 746 00:35:16,363 --> 00:35:17,563 Barely a surgery. 747 00:35:17,597 --> 00:35:19,767 All right, well, let's do it tonight. 748 00:35:20,500 --> 00:35:23,369 Actually, um... 749 00:35:23,403 --> 00:35:25,237 I am not gonna place it myself, 750 00:35:25,271 --> 00:35:26,572 but I can give you a referral. 751 00:35:26,606 --> 00:35:28,340 Tom Koracick is very good. 752 00:35:28,375 --> 00:35:29,975 - He's Head of Neuro at... - Oh, please. 753 00:35:30,009 --> 00:35:33,412 Tom Koracick is who I saw after you. 754 00:35:33,446 --> 00:35:35,080 How are you doing, by the way, 755 00:35:35,115 --> 00:35:36,784 after your giant tumor? 756 00:35:40,186 --> 00:35:41,854 Tom told you about that? 757 00:35:41,888 --> 00:35:44,356 Calm down. He didn't break HIPAA. 758 00:35:44,391 --> 00:35:46,592 I just... I overheard a phone conversation 759 00:35:46,626 --> 00:35:49,161 when he... when he thought I was asleep. 760 00:35:49,195 --> 00:35:51,497 Nasty meningioma, huh? 761 00:35:51,531 --> 00:35:53,699 Asleep in Tom Koracick's... 762 00:35:53,733 --> 00:35:55,401 Bed, yes. 763 00:35:55,435 --> 00:35:57,336 Sex when you're blind 764 00:35:57,370 --> 00:35:59,338 is way, way better. 765 00:35:59,372 --> 00:36:02,508 Tom is very good, very fun. 766 00:36:02,542 --> 00:36:03,709 I think you should hit that. 767 00:36:03,743 --> 00:36:05,110 I did. 768 00:36:05,145 --> 00:36:06,612 I know that, actually. 769 00:36:06,646 --> 00:36:08,380 Tom can't shut up about anything. 770 00:36:09,549 --> 00:36:11,850 But he also said that your tumor 771 00:36:11,885 --> 00:36:14,219 is what made you crazy enough to be able to save my life. 772 00:36:14,254 --> 00:36:16,054 So, here's to our tumors. 773 00:36:17,457 --> 00:36:18,837 Excuse me. 774 00:36:18,871 --> 00:36:21,026 I've got to make a very angry phone call. 775 00:36:21,060 --> 00:36:22,227 DeLuca? 776 00:36:26,433 --> 00:36:27,794 It just you? 777 00:36:28,601 --> 00:36:30,402 Yeah, it's just me. 778 00:36:30,437 --> 00:36:32,204 I could've seen Koracick, actually, 779 00:36:32,238 --> 00:36:34,540 but, uh, I wanted to come talk to you. 780 00:36:34,574 --> 00:36:36,575 Mm. Well, that would be a switch. 781 00:36:36,609 --> 00:36:37,976 Oh, stop! 782 00:36:38,011 --> 00:36:40,546 I have blown enough smoke up your butt already. 783 00:36:40,580 --> 00:36:42,141 We're good now. 784 00:36:42,949 --> 00:36:44,082 Your cart, 785 00:36:44,117 --> 00:36:48,387 it needs to be on every delivery floor in the country. 786 00:36:48,421 --> 00:36:51,890 Okay, I just got a grant from HHS, 787 00:36:51,925 --> 00:36:54,697 and I want to start... call it 788 00:36:54,731 --> 00:36:58,430 the Robbins/Herman Center for Women's Health. 789 00:36:58,465 --> 00:37:02,167 I will teach fetal surgery, you will perform it, 790 00:37:02,202 --> 00:37:03,635 and together, we will launch 791 00:37:03,670 --> 00:37:06,271 your maternal mortality prevention program 792 00:37:06,306 --> 00:37:10,576 and make this country safe for women and babies. 793 00:37:10,610 --> 00:37:11,977 What do you say? 794 00:37:13,213 --> 00:37:15,080 Actually, I-I wanted to call it 795 00:37:15,114 --> 00:37:17,249 the Herman/Robbins Center, 796 00:37:17,283 --> 00:37:19,345 but that makes it sound like we're a dude. 797 00:37:22,722 --> 00:37:24,423 Is that a no? 798 00:37:28,127 --> 00:37:30,128 Could we do it in New York? 799 00:37:31,865 --> 00:37:32,965 Wherever you want. 800 00:37:32,999 --> 00:37:34,967 Oh! Oh, boy! 801 00:37:37,303 --> 00:37:39,104 You have to warn me when you do that. 802 00:37:46,679 --> 00:37:48,280 Hey. 803 00:37:48,314 --> 00:37:50,649 Jackson went up to check on Harriet. 804 00:37:50,683 --> 00:37:52,217 He says he'll bring her down whenever you're ready. 805 00:37:52,252 --> 00:37:53,685 Oh. 806 00:37:53,720 --> 00:37:55,654 Tomorrow, when I'm stronger. 807 00:37:55,688 --> 00:37:57,155 I don't want to scare her. 808 00:37:58,558 --> 00:38:02,961 Thank you. 809 00:38:04,697 --> 00:38:07,366 Don't go. Your hands are so warm. 810 00:38:09,569 --> 00:38:12,671 In Japan, when a piece of pottery breaks, 811 00:38:12,705 --> 00:38:15,610 some potters fill the cracks with gold. 812 00:38:16,409 --> 00:38:18,710 You up for visitors? 813 00:38:18,745 --> 00:38:21,647 Hey, you. 814 00:38:21,681 --> 00:38:23,015 You okay? 815 00:38:23,049 --> 00:38:25,751 Uh. I'm alive. 816 00:38:25,785 --> 00:38:27,394 Me too. 817 00:38:30,423 --> 00:38:32,377 That's not what I heard. 818 00:38:53,246 --> 00:38:55,447 The potters, they see the repairs 819 00:38:55,481 --> 00:38:58,584 as something beautiful. 820 00:38:58,618 --> 00:38:59,685 Betty. 821 00:39:04,424 --> 00:39:06,758 - Where'd you get that? - Lost and found. 822 00:39:11,397 --> 00:39:12,631 I lied to you. 823 00:39:14,500 --> 00:39:17,269 I'm not six days clean. 824 00:39:17,303 --> 00:39:19,538 And I was too high to miss Leo. 825 00:39:21,474 --> 00:39:23,875 I came because I was cold. 826 00:39:23,910 --> 00:39:25,210 I know. 827 00:39:27,513 --> 00:39:28,766 Come on. 828 00:39:29,649 --> 00:39:31,269 Let's go hit a meeting. 829 00:39:41,160 --> 00:39:44,096 They know that the unexpected happens. 830 00:39:44,130 --> 00:39:45,931 Change happens. 831 00:40:16,963 --> 00:40:18,797 They know that nobody gets through this world 832 00:40:18,831 --> 00:40:19,998 in one piece. 833 00:40:34,847 --> 00:40:36,641 But that doesn't have to diminish us. 834 00:40:38,985 --> 00:40:40,819 It's gonna be so beautiful. 835 00:40:56,369 --> 00:40:58,837 The cracks are part of our history. 836 00:40:58,871 --> 00:41:00,539 They will always be with us. 837 00:41:16,589 --> 00:41:18,417 They made us better. 838 00:41:20,293 --> 00:41:21,993 They made us stronger. 839 00:41:25,898 --> 00:41:27,933 They made us something new. 840 00:41:36,977 --> 00:41:45,346 Synced & corrected by -robtor- www.addic7ed.com