1 00:00:03,160 --> 00:00:05,310 Talus. Metatarsal. 2 00:00:07,120 --> 00:00:09,760 - Phalange. - Good. 3 00:00:10,200 --> 00:00:11,010 The hand. 4 00:00:11,760 --> 00:00:14,600 Scaphoid, trapezium. 5 00:00:15,760 --> 00:00:19,270 - Revise later. - Difficult thoughts help me concentrate. 6 00:00:22,640 --> 00:00:23,910 Oh, actually, 7 00:00:23,960 --> 00:00:26,640 - I need to tell you something personal. - Uh-huh. 8 00:00:28,200 --> 00:00:29,320 I've met someone. 9 00:00:31,800 --> 00:00:33,870 OK. Does he have prospects? 10 00:00:33,920 --> 00:00:35,500 Her mum's a dentist. 11 00:00:38,180 --> 00:00:39,180 I see. 12 00:00:40,000 --> 00:00:41,240 What do you think? 13 00:00:42,360 --> 00:00:44,710 Er... Is she good? 14 00:00:44,760 --> 00:00:46,550 Huh! I beg your pardon? 15 00:00:46,600 --> 00:00:48,990 The mother. Always hard to find a good dentist. 16 00:00:49,040 --> 00:00:50,830 Dad, you're annoying. 17 00:00:51,880 --> 00:00:52,980 Are you happy? 18 00:00:54,560 --> 00:00:57,080 - Very. - Then so am I. 19 00:00:58,720 --> 00:01:00,750 - What's her name? - Kate. 20 00:01:01,800 --> 00:01:03,510 Do you think Mum'll be OK with it? 21 00:01:03,560 --> 00:01:05,320 - Yeah, of course she'll be OK... - Shit! 22 00:01:12,800 --> 00:01:15,230 - Are you OK? - Yeah. 23 00:01:15,280 --> 00:01:17,960 Take a breath. Take a breath. I've got you. I've got you. 24 00:01:18,480 --> 00:01:20,680 Go for it again. 25 00:01:26,000 --> 00:01:27,000 Here we go. 26 00:01:28,060 --> 00:01:29,600 Well done, well done. 27 00:01:44,600 --> 00:01:46,790 Can we not tell Mum? 28 00:01:46,840 --> 00:01:49,000 What about? The fall or the girlfriend? 29 00:01:50,760 --> 00:01:52,360 Both. 30 00:02:00,760 --> 00:02:03,030 She's stressed at the moment. 31 00:02:03,080 --> 00:02:05,190 Yeah, OK, we've all got problems. 32 00:02:05,740 --> 00:02:08,510 Yeah, we've all got problems. That's right, mate. 33 00:02:08,560 --> 00:02:11,660 We do, but all I'm asking you is that when you get home tonight... 34 00:02:12,440 --> 00:02:13,990 .. just take it easy with Mum, yeah? 35 00:02:14,040 --> 00:02:16,190 - Why? - She's having trouble at work. 36 00:02:16,240 --> 00:02:19,190 - What sort of trouble? - She's trying to pass this exam 37 00:02:19,240 --> 00:02:22,150 and one of the supervisors isn't... 38 00:02:22,200 --> 00:02:24,870 Look, I don't know exactly what it is, mate, 39 00:02:24,920 --> 00:02:28,070 but you know what I'm saying. Be kind. Be nice. 40 00:02:28,120 --> 00:02:30,510 - Yeah, OK. - And smile. I know you can. 41 00:02:30,560 --> 00:02:31,990 Do my best. 42 00:02:32,040 --> 00:02:34,510 Just smile. 43 00:02:34,560 --> 00:02:36,790 - Yeah. - OK. Thanks, mate. 44 00:02:36,840 --> 00:02:38,150 All right, Dad. See you. 45 00:02:38,200 --> 00:02:40,000 I'll see you later. Bye. 46 00:02:41,400 --> 00:02:43,400 Well, let's get going. 47 00:02:56,000 --> 00:02:58,470 - You all right, Tony? Feeling better? - Yes, mate. 48 00:02:58,520 --> 00:03:00,520 Good, good. 49 00:03:13,360 --> 00:03:16,680 - Hot today. - Mexico sent it up the Gulf Stream apparently. 50 00:03:18,960 --> 00:03:20,960 How's the family? 51 00:03:22,560 --> 00:03:23,910 What's the bad news? 52 00:03:23,960 --> 00:03:25,990 What? Nothing. 53 00:03:26,040 --> 00:03:27,720 I'm not gonna like this, am I? 54 00:03:28,640 --> 00:03:31,910 - How are the kids, though? - The kids are beautiful. 55 00:03:31,960 --> 00:03:34,960 Now why don't you tell me what I don't want to know. 56 00:03:36,280 --> 00:03:41,120 They're going to cut your level of management: give half to me, half to team leaders. 57 00:03:41,920 --> 00:03:44,470 - They don't think they can justify... - So promote me. 58 00:03:44,520 --> 00:03:46,750 You can tell from my tone that's not what this is. 59 00:03:46,800 --> 00:03:50,070 - I've got three kids, mate. - That's why I asked how they were. 60 00:03:50,120 --> 00:03:53,220 So if one of them had leukaemia, would that make any difference? 61 00:03:54,160 --> 00:03:56,470 You'll be told officially in the next few days 62 00:03:56,520 --> 00:03:59,230 - but I wanted to give you... - Yeah, yeah. 63 00:03:59,280 --> 00:04:02,680 Month's notice, but I thought you might want to start looking. 64 00:04:04,080 --> 00:04:06,080 Sorry. 65 00:04:07,600 --> 00:04:09,320 It's not your fault. 66 00:04:10,280 --> 00:04:12,190 - Drink? - What? 67 00:04:12,240 --> 00:04:14,520 I could really do with a drink. 68 00:04:20,720 --> 00:04:23,470 Whoooo! 69 00:04:26,880 --> 00:04:29,590 - Happy birthday, Dad. - Happy birthday, darling. 70 00:04:29,640 --> 00:04:31,710 Oh, thank you. 71 00:04:31,760 --> 00:04:33,430 - Oh, plates. Two secs! - Yes! 72 00:04:33,480 --> 00:04:34,760 I'll help. 73 00:04:36,520 --> 00:04:37,990 Do you remember my 30th? 74 00:04:38,040 --> 00:04:40,630 Ah, we don't need to talk about that! 75 00:04:40,680 --> 00:04:43,430 - What happened? - He er... he came over with Lisa. 76 00:04:43,980 --> 00:04:44,660 No! 77 00:05:44,360 --> 00:05:47,310 Right, er... Sorry. Something happened at work. 78 00:05:47,360 --> 00:05:49,080 It's not good. I... 79 00:05:50,480 --> 00:05:52,400 - What's the matter? - Alex isn't home. 80 00:05:53,520 --> 00:05:55,870 I've tried his mobile. Jack. Everyone. 81 00:05:55,920 --> 00:05:57,390 No-one knows where he is. 82 00:05:59,360 --> 00:06:01,560 - Are you on call? - Er, no. 83 00:06:06,600 --> 00:06:08,600 Hello? 84 00:06:12,800 --> 00:06:14,400 Right, well, I, er... 85 00:06:17,120 --> 00:06:19,600 Yeah. No. Of course. Of course. I'm on my way. 86 00:06:36,400 --> 00:06:38,350 - Thanks for coming in. - No problem. 87 00:06:38,400 --> 00:06:40,190 - You missed us. - Couldn't stay away. 88 00:06:40,240 --> 00:06:43,070 It's not your night, but Mr Franks is stuck in another code red. 89 00:06:43,120 --> 00:06:45,510 - Honestly, it's fine. - Been rushed off our feet tonight. 90 00:06:45,560 --> 00:06:48,710 I lost track earlier. Introduced myself twice to the same person! 91 00:06:48,760 --> 00:06:51,750 - Nora's drank too much coffee. - I'm fine. A few cups. 92 00:06:51,800 --> 00:06:53,230 - Seven. - Wow! 93 00:06:53,280 --> 00:06:55,190 One was a decaf. 94 00:06:55,240 --> 00:06:57,480 - Gentlemen. Good evening. - Evening. 95 00:06:58,440 --> 00:07:01,790 - Sam, how are the shoes? - The shoes are not for work. 96 00:07:03,440 --> 00:07:05,510 Guess how much he spent on a pair of shoes. 97 00:07:05,560 --> 00:07:07,430 - My brother's wedding. - A thousand. 98 00:07:07,480 --> 00:07:10,350 What? Where do you get that kind of money? 99 00:07:10,400 --> 00:07:13,270 Don't eat, don't do drugs, no kids. 100 00:07:13,320 --> 00:07:15,870 - I save. - Everyone good? 101 00:07:15,920 --> 00:07:17,920 - Ready. - All ready. 102 00:07:24,200 --> 00:07:25,430 This is Alex Bowker. 103 00:07:25,480 --> 00:07:28,870 Stabbed left upper abdomen: small puncture site, minimal bleeding. 104 00:07:28,920 --> 00:07:30,910 - Confused but conscious. - Thank you. 105 00:07:30,960 --> 00:07:33,440 Don't worry, Alex, we're going to look after you. 106 00:07:53,440 --> 00:07:55,310 - Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. - Oi. 107 00:07:55,360 --> 00:07:58,350 - Sorry. My... my... my son. - Sir, can you wait a moment, please? 108 00:07:58,400 --> 00:08:00,190 - I'm not going to queue. - Can I help? 109 00:08:00,240 --> 00:08:02,830 Yeah, my son. Erm... I rang his mobile. 110 00:08:02,880 --> 00:08:05,830 The police answered and said he was in hospital here. 111 00:08:05,880 --> 00:08:08,350 - They told me to go home and wait... - What's your son's name? 112 00:08:08,400 --> 00:08:10,400 - Alex. Alex Bowker. - OK. 113 00:08:17,360 --> 00:08:19,390 Alex? 114 00:08:19,440 --> 00:08:21,750 Oh, Jesus. 115 00:08:21,800 --> 00:08:23,110 Hey. Hello, mate. 116 00:08:23,160 --> 00:08:25,910 Hello. You're gonna be all right. You're gonna be fine. I promise. 117 00:08:25,960 --> 00:08:28,470 - Mr Bowker? - Yeah. Who... who... 118 00:08:28,520 --> 00:08:31,270 - Who...? - Mr Allerton, senior trauma surgeon here. 119 00:08:31,320 --> 00:08:34,790 - Is he all right? They said a stabbing. - Yes, he's been stabbed on the left side. 120 00:08:34,840 --> 00:08:38,390 Just under the ribs. But the ultrasound didn't show any sign of internal bleeding. 121 00:08:38,440 --> 00:08:40,110 - So that's reassuring. - Is he... 122 00:08:40,160 --> 00:08:43,950 We're going to take him for a full scan just to be sure. But, Mr Bowker? Mr Bowker? 123 00:08:44,000 --> 00:08:46,950 The trauma centre is the most well-resourced part of the hospital. 124 00:08:47,000 --> 00:08:49,430 Given what's happened, he couldn't be in a better place. 125 00:08:49,480 --> 00:08:52,270 - Should I be... - He's disorientated as you would expect. 126 00:08:52,320 --> 00:08:56,070 But medically, he's doing very well. If you'll just give me five minutes, 127 00:08:56,120 --> 00:08:58,350 - I will come back and update you. - Can I go with him? 128 00:08:58,400 --> 00:09:01,280 We'll look after him. Trust us. 129 00:09:03,360 --> 00:09:05,160 Please. 130 00:09:06,800 --> 00:09:08,910 - Jon? - Mm-hm? Yeah? 131 00:09:08,960 --> 00:09:10,960 Sorry, I need you to sign that again. 132 00:09:14,440 --> 00:09:15,840 I know. I know. 133 00:09:27,800 --> 00:09:30,390 What's happened? Did you speak to the doctor? 134 00:09:30,440 --> 00:09:32,590 - Sorry, I was at the pub. - What? You... 135 00:09:32,640 --> 00:09:35,190 - It doesn't matter. Dan, the doctor. - Is your mum all right? 136 00:09:35,240 --> 00:09:37,230 Worried. Is he... is he all right? Where is he? 137 00:09:37,280 --> 00:09:39,510 He's... I've seen him. He's OK, he's OK. 138 00:09:39,560 --> 00:09:43,070 His eyes were open. Er, then, yeah, the doctor said he'd been stabbed. 139 00:09:43,120 --> 00:09:45,110 - Oh, my God. - In his side, I think. 140 00:09:45,160 --> 00:09:48,430 But, er... Why...? Who would... 141 00:09:48,480 --> 00:09:51,910 He's not like that. He... he doesn't mix with people who'd... 142 00:09:51,960 --> 00:09:54,390 The doctor said he'd be here in five minutes. It's been ten. 143 00:09:54,440 --> 00:09:55,950 Yes, yes? 144 00:09:56,000 --> 00:10:00,280 Mr Bowker. I'm DS Carl Harris, this is DC Lancing. Can we have a word, please? 145 00:10:02,080 --> 00:10:03,990 - Mr Bowker... - Look, Dan. My name's Dan. 146 00:10:04,040 --> 00:10:06,350 Thank you. Do you mind if we ask you a few questions? 147 00:10:06,400 --> 00:10:10,500 - The doctor's supposed to be coming any... - Of course. If the doctor comes we'll leave. 148 00:10:11,880 --> 00:10:14,980 Can you think of any reason anyone might want to do this to Alex? 149 00:10:15,440 --> 00:10:18,350 - No. - He's popular. He's got friends. 150 00:10:18,400 --> 00:10:21,150 - Was Alex taking or dealing drugs at all? - No. 151 00:10:21,200 --> 00:10:23,870 Has he been involved in any groups of gangs that you know of? 152 00:10:23,920 --> 00:10:26,350 No. He's not like that. 153 00:10:26,400 --> 00:10:30,430 Obviously, he was out quite late. Were you aware of where he was? 154 00:10:30,480 --> 00:10:33,390 No. Erm... We were... we were worried. 155 00:10:33,440 --> 00:10:35,670 We couldn't get through on his phone. Er... 156 00:10:35,720 --> 00:10:38,110 - His mates, his friends were at home. - Where is he? 157 00:10:38,160 --> 00:10:40,150 - Sorry? - He said he'd be five minutes. 158 00:10:40,200 --> 00:10:42,750 - It's been almost 15. - I'm sure if he said he'd update you... 159 00:10:42,800 --> 00:10:45,750 He's probably told you more than he's told us, been more honest with you. 160 00:10:45,800 --> 00:10:47,790 - I can see if there's any... - He's on his own. 161 00:10:47,840 --> 00:10:50,950 - What? - Alex. He's going through all this on his own. 162 00:10:51,000 --> 00:10:54,160 - We should be with him. - Mr Bowker, if you'll... 163 00:11:19,400 --> 00:11:20,950 Suction, please, Nurse. 164 00:11:32,840 --> 00:11:34,750 - Charging. - Charged. 165 00:11:34,800 --> 00:11:36,320 Clear. 166 00:11:36,880 --> 00:11:39,200 - He's still in VF. - OK. 167 00:11:39,920 --> 00:11:41,920 I need more blood. 168 00:11:49,360 --> 00:11:51,470 Alex. Is that Alex? 169 00:11:51,520 --> 00:11:53,750 Could someone please help this boy's dad? 170 00:11:53,800 --> 00:11:55,880 You need to tell me what's happening! 171 00:11:56,160 --> 00:11:58,160 What's going on? Is he going to be all right? 172 00:12:00,800 --> 00:12:03,590 - Is he going to be all right? - Yes, if we can focus. More blood. 173 00:12:03,640 --> 00:12:05,550 We have to put him first. Mr Bowker, 174 00:12:05,600 --> 00:12:09,430 the best you could do right now would be to step away and let us do this. 175 00:12:09,480 --> 00:12:10,480 He's still in VF, Jon. 176 00:12:16,080 --> 00:12:17,800 - Jon? - Shock him again. 177 00:12:20,680 --> 00:12:22,440 Paddles, please. 178 00:12:23,240 --> 00:12:24,470 - Charging. - Charged. 179 00:12:24,520 --> 00:12:25,630 Clear. 180 00:12:25,680 --> 00:12:26,960 Come on, come on! 181 00:12:29,200 --> 00:12:30,620 He's in asystole now. 182 00:12:35,680 --> 00:12:37,680 Jon. 183 00:12:40,320 --> 00:12:42,320 Jon. 184 00:12:49,520 --> 00:12:51,790 Erm... 185 00:12:51,840 --> 00:12:53,840 12:54, please. 186 00:13:09,920 --> 00:13:11,920 - You want me to... - No, no, no. 187 00:13:12,840 --> 00:13:16,040 It's all right, erm... I'll do it. 188 00:13:31,360 --> 00:13:34,600 Erm... Can we, er... go into a side room? 189 00:13:36,600 --> 00:13:39,320 You can tell us here. That was him. 190 00:13:40,240 --> 00:13:41,920 Er, yes. 191 00:13:42,800 --> 00:13:44,800 Can I see him? 192 00:13:45,960 --> 00:13:48,950 I'm afraid we did everything we could, but Alex died. 193 00:13:49,000 --> 00:13:50,950 Oh, God. 194 00:13:51,000 --> 00:13:53,310 - I'm sorry. - I want to go and see him! 195 00:13:53,360 --> 00:13:55,550 - I'm very sorry. Can... - Let me see him. 196 00:13:55,600 --> 00:13:57,470 Please... Side room. 197 00:13:57,520 --> 00:14:00,030 Dan! Dan... 198 00:14:05,800 --> 00:14:07,800 Erm, Mr Bowker... 199 00:14:09,680 --> 00:14:12,280 Would you step this way? 200 00:14:13,160 --> 00:14:15,360 You said he was going to be all right. 201 00:14:23,340 --> 00:14:28,990 Erm... It seems the knife entered the body and went upwards, 202 00:14:29,040 --> 00:14:31,880 er... making a small hole in the heart. 203 00:14:32,480 --> 00:14:37,120 Erm... At first the bleeding was contained, didn't even show up on the ultrasound. 204 00:14:37,600 --> 00:14:42,080 Erm... But then it got much worse very quickly. 205 00:14:43,200 --> 00:14:45,760 When we opened the body, opened the chest... 206 00:14:46,880 --> 00:14:49,640 .. it was impossible to control the size of the hole. 207 00:14:51,560 --> 00:14:53,640 I don't know what any of that means. 208 00:14:55,240 --> 00:14:57,240 We did everything that we could. 209 00:14:57,880 --> 00:15:01,960 You went for a scan, you said it was... reassuring. 210 00:15:02,840 --> 00:15:05,310 - Mr Bowker... - Are you telling us the truth? 211 00:15:05,360 --> 00:15:06,550 - Dan... - No, no. 212 00:15:06,600 --> 00:15:10,750 Because... you don't look to me... 213 00:15:10,800 --> 00:15:13,760 like someone... who is telling the truth. 214 00:15:15,280 --> 00:15:17,720 Staring at me, what you're doing with your hands. 215 00:15:18,440 --> 00:15:20,440 Did you make a mistake? 216 00:15:23,520 --> 00:15:26,230 When a knife goes into the body like that, 217 00:15:26,280 --> 00:15:28,880 there are all sorts of possibilities for damage. 218 00:15:29,600 --> 00:15:32,630 The arteries, the heart, the lungs. 219 00:15:32,680 --> 00:15:34,550 We try to be comprehensive. 220 00:15:34,600 --> 00:15:36,870 We would like to know what we need to repair. 221 00:15:36,920 --> 00:15:40,950 But there's always a chance, as with Alex, 222 00:15:41,000 --> 00:15:43,640 that there's something we can't see. 223 00:15:44,200 --> 00:15:48,080 - So you missed it? - There was no way of knowing. 224 00:15:50,680 --> 00:15:52,680 What's your name? 225 00:15:53,440 --> 00:15:54,640 Mr Allerton. 226 00:15:55,240 --> 00:15:57,240 Your first name. 227 00:15:57,840 --> 00:15:59,640 Jon. 228 00:16:00,120 --> 00:16:04,600 Jon, can you honestly say... 229 00:16:05,400 --> 00:16:08,200 .. that you did everything you could... 230 00:16:09,200 --> 00:16:11,960 .. to save our son? 231 00:16:15,600 --> 00:16:17,600 Yes. 232 00:17:12,240 --> 00:17:14,240 Is... is he OK? 233 00:17:15,520 --> 00:17:17,510 Oh, God! 234 00:17:19,960 --> 00:17:21,960 Come on, come on. 235 00:17:43,960 --> 00:17:45,960 Are you all right? 236 00:17:46,920 --> 00:17:48,920 Erm... 237 00:17:50,880 --> 00:17:52,880 A 15-year-old boy died. 238 00:17:56,960 --> 00:18:00,360 - I'm sure you did everything you could. - Yeah. Yeah. 239 00:20:29,280 --> 00:20:31,230 Oh, hi, Dad. This is Kate. 240 00:20:31,280 --> 00:20:33,230 Hi, Kate. Pleasure to meet you. 241 00:20:33,280 --> 00:20:34,600 Hi, Jon! You too. 242 00:20:35,480 --> 00:20:38,550 - You should be in bed. - Er... Are you making tea? 243 00:20:38,600 --> 00:20:40,720 - Yeah! - Then I'll give you a hand. 244 00:20:41,960 --> 00:20:44,280 - I couldn't sleep. - That's not like you. 245 00:20:56,000 --> 00:20:58,000 That's his room there. 246 00:21:08,560 --> 00:21:11,240 I promise we'll be very careful with everything. 247 00:21:54,820 --> 00:21:58,140 - Hi. - Oh, hi, er... Mr er... 248 00:21:59,100 --> 00:22:01,290 Daniel Bowker. 249 00:22:01,340 --> 00:22:03,250 - My son was Alex. - Yes. 250 00:22:03,300 --> 00:22:05,930 Yes, of course. How are you? 251 00:22:05,980 --> 00:22:07,650 I wondered, could we talk? 252 00:22:07,700 --> 00:22:09,700 Er... Have you called ahead? 253 00:22:10,500 --> 00:22:13,210 Well, no, you said that if I needed to speak more... 254 00:22:13,260 --> 00:22:15,610 It would have been better if you'd made an appointment. 255 00:22:15,660 --> 00:22:17,090 You can understand how busy we are. 256 00:22:17,140 --> 00:22:21,060 Well, I haven't got much time off, so... if you have a moment now? 257 00:22:24,980 --> 00:22:27,850 Give me five minutes. I'll be right back. 258 00:22:27,900 --> 00:22:30,410 - That's what you said on the night. - I'm sorry? 259 00:22:30,460 --> 00:22:32,290 "Five minutes". 260 00:22:32,340 --> 00:22:35,460 I told my wife. I said, "He'll be back, he'll tell us what's going on." 261 00:22:35,980 --> 00:22:37,380 You never did. 262 00:22:39,020 --> 00:22:41,020 If you'd like to wait here. 263 00:22:49,140 --> 00:22:51,530 - He's been through a lot. - So's everyone. 264 00:22:51,580 --> 00:22:54,410 Everyone wants to sit in a room and go through it second by second, 265 00:22:54,460 --> 00:22:56,980 but we can't drop everything just because... 266 00:22:58,300 --> 00:23:00,820 What is it? Is there something about him? 267 00:23:01,940 --> 00:23:04,370 No. What? 268 00:23:04,420 --> 00:23:07,700 - You didn't do anything wrong. - Hah. I know. 269 00:23:14,300 --> 00:23:17,380 Do you have any specific questions about what happened here? 270 00:23:17,740 --> 00:23:19,900 - Just one. - Sure. 271 00:23:20,940 --> 00:23:23,370 Did you make a mistake? 272 00:23:23,420 --> 00:23:26,740 - I don't believe so. - Because you... you seemed so calm. 273 00:23:27,300 --> 00:23:29,690 When I first saw you. 274 00:23:29,740 --> 00:23:33,890 - You reassured me. - At that point Alex was stable. 275 00:23:33,940 --> 00:23:36,810 It's important that we remain calm. 276 00:23:36,860 --> 00:23:41,490 The methodology is precise in trauma. We can't afford for there to be too much emotion. 277 00:23:41,540 --> 00:23:45,370 But when you were working on him, just before he died, you didn't seem calm. 278 00:23:45,420 --> 00:23:46,850 - You looked... - I was working. 279 00:23:46,900 --> 00:23:48,570 .. guilty. 280 00:23:48,620 --> 00:23:51,220 - I was trying everything I could. - You were panicking. 281 00:23:52,020 --> 00:23:54,450 I saw you look down, then look up. 282 00:23:54,500 --> 00:23:56,570 In your eyes. I could tell. 283 00:23:56,620 --> 00:24:00,460 And then, later, when you explained to us that he was... dead... 284 00:24:02,460 --> 00:24:04,370 .. and what had happened, 285 00:24:04,420 --> 00:24:07,490 you were talking very quickly, much quicker than you're talking now. 286 00:24:07,540 --> 00:24:10,050 You seemed like you were... covering something. 287 00:24:10,100 --> 00:24:13,410 - Well, I promise... - Do you actively seek out dangerous situations? 288 00:24:13,460 --> 00:24:16,530 - Is that why you're doing this job? - Absolutely not. 289 00:24:16,580 --> 00:24:19,620 And in your life? Your spare time. 290 00:24:20,780 --> 00:24:24,980 You like... to do dangerous things? 291 00:24:25,700 --> 00:24:26,980 I don't think so. 292 00:24:27,820 --> 00:24:30,490 Climbing. It's on your page. It's on the website. 293 00:24:32,260 --> 00:24:34,660 - Mr Bowker... - Dan. My name's Dan. 294 00:24:35,300 --> 00:24:39,220 Dan. I promise, there wasn't a mistake. 295 00:24:41,500 --> 00:24:46,530 It was just part of the... injuries caused by the stabbing. 296 00:24:46,580 --> 00:24:49,090 The bleeding was too severe. 297 00:24:49,140 --> 00:24:52,780 - It wasn't when he came in. - It was. We just couldn't see it. 298 00:24:54,140 --> 00:24:58,570 So if, if you'd have noticed that hole earlier, 299 00:24:58,620 --> 00:25:00,050 you could have helped him? 300 00:25:00,100 --> 00:25:03,010 If we'd known about it we would have dealt with it immediately, yes. 301 00:25:03,060 --> 00:25:04,970 - So it was a mistake? - No, no. 302 00:25:05,020 --> 00:25:09,370 Just an example that... you can't see everything going on in a body. 303 00:25:09,420 --> 00:25:11,570 So why were you panicking like that? 304 00:25:11,620 --> 00:25:13,780 I could see it in your face. 305 00:25:15,900 --> 00:25:18,180 I think you misread the room. 306 00:25:27,020 --> 00:25:29,170 - I'm upset... - I'm sure. 307 00:25:29,220 --> 00:25:31,890 Mad. Not in my right mind. 308 00:25:31,940 --> 00:25:35,490 - That's not what I'm saying. - Do you have children? 309 00:25:35,540 --> 00:25:37,500 - Yes. - One. 310 00:25:38,140 --> 00:25:41,130 I... One, yes. How did you know? 311 00:25:41,180 --> 00:25:44,450 Just a guess. You're busy. Busy people often just have one child. 312 00:25:44,500 --> 00:25:46,450 Huh. 313 00:25:46,500 --> 00:25:51,100 Dan... Why don't you say whatever it is you want to say? 314 00:25:57,540 --> 00:25:59,490 I wake up thinking about him. 315 00:25:59,540 --> 00:26:02,850 That room. What I saw. 316 00:26:02,900 --> 00:26:04,940 The moment that Alex died. 317 00:26:07,420 --> 00:26:09,420 When I wasn't there. 318 00:26:11,700 --> 00:26:13,930 Do you wake up thinking about it? 319 00:26:13,980 --> 00:26:16,820 Alex. That moment. 320 00:26:18,580 --> 00:26:23,090 If you couldn't deal with death in this job, you wouldn't be working here. 321 00:26:23,140 --> 00:26:26,490 - So you don't think about it? - I... I think about it. 322 00:26:26,540 --> 00:26:28,140 But you don't lose sleep? 323 00:26:29,820 --> 00:26:31,740 No. 324 00:26:39,020 --> 00:26:40,860 How long have you been doing this job? 325 00:26:42,060 --> 00:26:45,820 Erm... I've been a surgeon 20 years nearly. 326 00:26:46,740 --> 00:26:48,900 - And you're how old? - 46. 327 00:26:49,940 --> 00:26:51,090 You look older. 328 00:26:51,740 --> 00:26:53,970 Oh! No, sorry. 329 00:26:54,020 --> 00:26:56,900 Actually, I'm, er... 47 now. 330 00:26:57,900 --> 00:26:59,850 - Recent birthday? - Last week. 331 00:26:59,900 --> 00:27:03,060 - You had a party? - A family thing. 332 00:27:04,460 --> 00:27:06,010 Cake? Few drinks? 333 00:27:06,060 --> 00:27:10,620 Er, yeah. A nice dinner with the family and a few friends. 334 00:27:21,380 --> 00:27:22,810 It's his funeral. 335 00:27:22,860 --> 00:27:25,020 Next week. 336 00:27:25,620 --> 00:27:27,620 Thursday. If you want to come? 337 00:27:30,180 --> 00:27:33,130 Oh, erm... thank you, but er... 338 00:27:33,180 --> 00:27:35,610 we don't normally attend funerals. It's because... 339 00:27:35,660 --> 00:27:40,810 Well, on the website there's testimonies from former patients' families. 340 00:27:40,860 --> 00:27:44,730 - OK, yes... - They talk about the continued support. 341 00:27:44,780 --> 00:27:47,290 The relationship you develop over time. 342 00:27:47,340 --> 00:27:50,890 Occasionally. If the patient has been under our care for a long time, 343 00:27:50,940 --> 00:27:52,570 then, well, yes, 344 00:27:52,620 --> 00:27:55,780 - the family do become... - But you don't know us well enough? 345 00:27:57,180 --> 00:27:58,420 No. 346 00:28:11,860 --> 00:28:15,170 I feel like you're an important part of his life. 347 00:28:15,220 --> 00:28:18,170 You were there at the end. I wasn't there. 348 00:28:18,220 --> 00:28:21,210 - My wife wasn't there. - Dan, would you like to see someone? 349 00:28:21,260 --> 00:28:24,530 - I'm sorry? - There are a number of charities that, er... 350 00:28:24,580 --> 00:28:27,940 can provide support for relatives at a time like this. 351 00:28:28,940 --> 00:28:32,380 If you want to come to the funeral, you're welcome. 352 00:28:34,620 --> 00:28:36,620 Thank you. 353 00:28:57,900 --> 00:28:59,900 Mate... 354 00:29:01,740 --> 00:29:03,850 How are you doing? 355 00:29:03,900 --> 00:29:07,020 Yeah, you know. Good to be back at work. 356 00:29:08,220 --> 00:29:12,220 - Yeah, I thought you'd be off longer. - Well, good to be busy. 357 00:29:12,900 --> 00:29:15,060 Yeah. Yeah, of course. 358 00:29:15,900 --> 00:29:18,010 But for how long? 359 00:29:18,060 --> 00:29:20,210 What? 360 00:29:20,260 --> 00:29:24,620 I missed the meeting. The big staff meeting they had about it. 361 00:29:25,700 --> 00:29:29,370 But from what I understand, nothing was said, no complaints were made. 362 00:29:29,420 --> 00:29:32,540 No union action, just a load of us were dumped. 363 00:29:34,820 --> 00:29:39,250 And what happened to Alex is not going to make any difference, is it? The decision still stands. 364 00:29:39,300 --> 00:29:42,300 - They're not actually firing you. - Redundancy. 365 00:29:43,660 --> 00:29:45,410 You'll get a good reference. 366 00:29:45,460 --> 00:29:50,100 I've got two other kids and a wife that works in Asda. 367 00:29:50,820 --> 00:29:52,570 And a funeral to pay for now. 368 00:29:52,620 --> 00:29:54,570 I certainly wasn't insured for that, 369 00:29:54,620 --> 00:29:57,660 and I'll be fucked if he's going out in a cardboard coffin. 370 00:29:59,580 --> 00:30:02,130 - The lads have had a whip-round. - I know. 371 00:30:02,180 --> 00:30:04,570 Wanted to help out. 372 00:30:04,620 --> 00:30:06,370 - Wasn't much. - What? 373 00:30:06,420 --> 00:30:08,300 I'm not being funny but it was 30 quid. 374 00:30:12,140 --> 00:30:15,620 Number of lads, they've known me for ages. Years, most of them. 375 00:30:16,300 --> 00:30:19,890 So I'd say 30 quid is a bit disappointing. 376 00:30:19,940 --> 00:30:22,010 What do you think? 377 00:30:22,060 --> 00:30:24,210 It's tough for everyone at the moment. 378 00:30:24,260 --> 00:30:26,690 How long have I got before I'm let go? 379 00:30:26,740 --> 00:30:29,810 End of the month. But, with what's happened, 380 00:30:29,860 --> 00:30:32,850 if you just want to go now, they'll pay you anyway. 381 00:30:39,020 --> 00:30:42,340 Do you ever think: If I was born in a different place... 382 00:30:44,100 --> 00:30:46,700 .. if my mum and dad had more money... 383 00:30:48,100 --> 00:30:50,580 .. I'd be a completely different person? 384 00:30:53,020 --> 00:30:56,980 If my dad had money, he would have sent me to a better school. 385 00:30:57,540 --> 00:31:00,810 I would have done A levels, maybe even university. 386 00:31:00,860 --> 00:31:03,650 Things would have been better, made things better for myself. 387 00:31:03,700 --> 00:31:07,970 I would have put my son through private school, and now maybe he wouldn't be dead. 388 00:31:08,020 --> 00:31:12,340 Because that what's going through my mind pretty much all the time right now. 389 00:31:13,660 --> 00:31:17,450 That really he... he died because of me, because I'm a failure. 390 00:31:17,500 --> 00:31:21,100 - No, Dan. - I just wasn't born to the right people. 391 00:31:23,900 --> 00:31:25,900 And neither was my son. 392 00:31:29,780 --> 00:31:31,580 Pfft! 393 00:31:35,260 --> 00:31:36,660 I'll leave now then. 394 00:32:09,060 --> 00:32:12,500 - Afternoon. - Afternoon. 395 00:32:14,780 --> 00:32:17,650 What do people make of you two at school? 396 00:32:17,700 --> 00:32:20,930 - What? - Well, you know... going out with a girl. 397 00:32:20,980 --> 00:32:23,010 Well, it's normal. So... 398 00:32:23,060 --> 00:32:24,370 Yeah. Good. OK. 399 00:32:24,420 --> 00:32:27,170 Yeah, more importantly, can we get back to preparation, please? 400 00:32:27,220 --> 00:32:29,090 The interview is three weeks away. 401 00:32:29,140 --> 00:32:31,450 And this is my future we're talking about. 402 00:32:31,500 --> 00:32:32,730 - Dad? - Oh. 403 00:32:33,280 --> 00:32:34,080 Sorry! 404 00:32:35,900 --> 00:32:38,100 - I'm proud of you, you know that? - Yeah? 405 00:32:41,460 --> 00:32:44,970 So, tell me... Alana, 406 00:32:45,020 --> 00:32:46,850 why do you wish to become a doctor? 407 00:32:46,900 --> 00:32:48,050 To shut my dad up. 408 00:32:49,100 --> 00:32:50,730 Sounds like a very good reason to me. 409 00:32:50,780 --> 00:32:53,530 Nah, it's important to me that my chosen profession 410 00:32:53,580 --> 00:32:56,050 helps people in a tangible way. 411 00:32:56,100 --> 00:32:58,650 I feel also that I am organised, 412 00:32:58,700 --> 00:33:00,210 precise, quick to learn, 413 00:33:00,260 --> 00:33:02,370 but with good people skills. 414 00:33:02,420 --> 00:33:05,730 I come from a medical family background. This... 415 00:33:05,780 --> 00:33:07,460 Dad? 416 00:33:12,900 --> 00:33:14,330 Dad, are you OK? 417 00:33:14,380 --> 00:33:17,180 Er, yeah. Yeah. I just, er... 418 00:33:19,900 --> 00:33:24,020 Yeah, I, er... just thought I saw someone... 419 00:33:25,580 --> 00:33:27,580 .. someone I knew. 420 00:33:31,700 --> 00:33:33,340 You work too hard. 421 00:33:54,260 --> 00:33:57,010 Are you all right? 422 00:33:57,060 --> 00:34:00,020 - Yeah. Yeah. - I can't do this. 423 00:34:04,940 --> 00:34:06,810 - Who's that? - The surgeon. 424 00:34:06,860 --> 00:34:09,180 What is he doing here? 425 00:34:22,780 --> 00:34:24,220 I didn't think you'd come. 426 00:34:25,100 --> 00:34:29,420 Well, maybe I owe it to Alex. Like you said, it's important. 427 00:34:32,740 --> 00:34:34,380 Do you want to say a few words? 428 00:34:35,780 --> 00:34:37,490 Wh... er... 429 00:34:37,540 --> 00:34:39,410 I... I don't think that I... 430 00:34:39,460 --> 00:34:41,770 It was a joke. 431 00:34:41,820 --> 00:34:43,260 Right. 432 00:34:44,300 --> 00:34:46,810 Good suit. 433 00:34:46,860 --> 00:34:49,060 Thank you. 434 00:34:49,660 --> 00:34:51,660 Best suit here. 435 00:34:52,740 --> 00:34:54,780 Dan, we're going in. 436 00:35:04,220 --> 00:35:06,220 [This way, please.] 437 00:35:26,980 --> 00:35:30,260 The difficult thing about this is... 438 00:35:31,140 --> 00:35:33,860 .. that Alex always talked about the future... 439 00:35:36,820 --> 00:35:39,020 .. ever since he was a little boy. 440 00:35:41,100 --> 00:35:43,940 When he learnt to ride a bike... 441 00:35:44,540 --> 00:35:49,220 .. suddenly he wanted to become a motorbike racer. 442 00:35:50,580 --> 00:35:55,180 He went to the sea, he'd become a marine biologist. 443 00:35:57,100 --> 00:35:59,540 The most recent thing was that he was... 444 00:36:01,340 --> 00:36:03,540 .. he was going to be a music journalist. 445 00:36:05,500 --> 00:36:07,180 Yeah. 446 00:36:08,220 --> 00:36:10,820 Well... 447 00:36:11,500 --> 00:36:13,900 Alex isn't going to become anything. 448 00:36:15,940 --> 00:36:20,300 And... I don't believe in God. 449 00:36:22,340 --> 00:36:24,340 The afterlife. 450 00:36:26,100 --> 00:36:27,500 I think he's just... 451 00:36:31,100 --> 00:36:33,100 .. stopped. 452 00:36:35,020 --> 00:36:37,020 And he didn't have to. 453 00:36:39,140 --> 00:36:40,740 And at the moment... 454 00:36:42,740 --> 00:36:45,580 I'm... I'm just looking for someone to blame. 455 00:36:48,300 --> 00:36:50,860 I'm sure that's the wrong reaction. 456 00:36:53,540 --> 00:36:55,930 But I'm angry and I'm looking for that person to blame 457 00:36:55,980 --> 00:37:00,570 because that's how I think Alex would feel. 458 00:37:00,620 --> 00:37:02,620 A-A... A real... 459 00:37:05,300 --> 00:37:07,300 .. injustice... 460 00:37:08,260 --> 00:37:11,740 .. that he wasn't able to do all the things that he wanted to do. 461 00:37:13,380 --> 00:37:15,810 He could have been anything that he'd set his mind to. 462 00:37:15,860 --> 00:37:17,860 He could have been anything. 463 00:37:19,540 --> 00:37:22,660 So what today is really about is... 464 00:37:23,740 --> 00:37:26,140 .. waste. 465 00:37:26,980 --> 00:37:29,450 I think it didn't have to happen. 466 00:37:29,500 --> 00:37:31,820 I think he'd still be with us now if... 467 00:37:35,620 --> 00:37:37,210 .. if the world hadn't failed him. 468 00:37:37,260 --> 00:37:38,370 If we... if we... 469 00:37:38,420 --> 00:37:40,730 if we'd somehow just... 470 00:37:40,780 --> 00:37:42,660 I don't know... 471 00:37:48,380 --> 00:37:50,380 .. looked after him better. 472 00:38:17,420 --> 00:38:20,140 Hi. Hi, Dan. Mrs Bowker. 473 00:38:21,460 --> 00:38:25,330 Erm... It was a... a beautiful service. 474 00:38:25,380 --> 00:38:27,900 Alex was clearly a wonderful young man. 475 00:38:29,700 --> 00:38:33,010 I have to go, but I just wanted to say, once again, how sorry I am. 476 00:38:33,060 --> 00:38:34,450 For what? 477 00:38:34,500 --> 00:38:38,450 Well, for your loss. That Alex died. 478 00:38:38,500 --> 00:38:42,250 Did you know what I meant when I said we all have to share responsibility? 479 00:38:42,300 --> 00:38:43,970 Dan... 480 00:38:44,020 --> 00:38:45,490 I'm not sure I entirely agree. 481 00:38:45,540 --> 00:38:48,810 I think responsibility lies firmly in the hands of whoever attacked him. 482 00:38:48,860 --> 00:38:51,970 - Do they know yet who it was? - They're still trying to find out. 483 00:38:52,020 --> 00:38:54,490 - Well, I do hope... - Can you listen to me? 484 00:38:54,540 --> 00:38:56,690 You have a responsibility too. 485 00:38:56,740 --> 00:39:00,420 - Dan. - Because he was in your care. 486 00:39:02,860 --> 00:39:06,490 Can I reassure you once again, Mr Bowker, that I did my absolute best. 487 00:39:06,540 --> 00:39:08,300 Your wife is a psychiatrist. 488 00:39:12,740 --> 00:39:15,820 - I'm sorry? - I looked you up. 489 00:39:17,140 --> 00:39:19,900 I have to go. Bye. 490 00:39:21,580 --> 00:39:26,250 You told me... you told me you'd been drinking the night you treated him. 491 00:39:26,300 --> 00:39:29,410 - What? - It was your birthday the night he died. 492 00:39:29,460 --> 00:39:31,810 And you told me that you'd had a few drinks. 493 00:39:31,860 --> 00:39:34,780 Now if you'd been drinking, you shouldn't have been at work. 494 00:39:35,820 --> 00:39:41,500 - I'm not sure I said that I... - You said "I had a few drinks for my birthday." 495 00:39:43,660 --> 00:39:47,530 - I don't think I said that. - Did you have a drink that evening? 496 00:39:47,580 --> 00:39:52,250 Because you told me that... when it was just the two of us together, 497 00:39:52,300 --> 00:39:54,660 you told me that you did. 498 00:39:55,340 --> 00:39:59,020 Now did you have a drink that night? 499 00:40:01,740 --> 00:40:03,500 No. 500 00:40:06,660 --> 00:40:09,580 Now I know that you're lying about all of it. 501 00:40:10,180 --> 00:40:12,730 Now that you've changed your story, 502 00:40:12,780 --> 00:40:17,540 I now know... that you made a mistake. 503 00:40:18,300 --> 00:40:20,250 And you know... 504 00:40:20,300 --> 00:40:23,260 in here... what you did. 505 00:40:24,180 --> 00:40:26,540 That you let him down. 506 00:40:27,100 --> 00:40:28,940 Admit it. 507 00:40:31,420 --> 00:40:32,860 Admit it! 508 00:40:34,340 --> 00:40:36,130 Hey. 509 00:40:36,180 --> 00:40:37,540 Dan. 510 00:40:39,660 --> 00:40:41,130 - Dan... - Aargh! 511 00:40:41,180 --> 00:40:43,740 Dan! What are you doing? 512 00:40:45,820 --> 00:40:47,820 - Dan? - Please. 513 00:40:51,620 --> 00:40:53,460 What is going on? 514 00:41:11,220 --> 00:41:12,810 How was it? 515 00:41:12,860 --> 00:41:16,090 Er... difficult. 516 00:41:16,140 --> 00:41:18,140 I said you shouldn't go. 517 00:41:21,180 --> 00:41:24,060 - You're an idiot. - Hm. Yeah. 518 00:41:30,300 --> 00:41:32,100 Come on. 519 00:41:59,260 --> 00:42:00,580 Did you know him? 520 00:42:01,780 --> 00:42:05,100 - My son. - Oh. Oh, I'm so sorry. 521 00:42:06,940 --> 00:42:09,740 - This is where he died? - No, it isn't. 522 00:43:08,940 --> 00:43:11,330 Today is a great day! 523 00:43:11,380 --> 00:43:13,490 The birds are singing, the sun's shining. 524 00:43:13,540 --> 00:43:16,490 Oh, my beautiful daughter. Mwah! 525 00:43:16,540 --> 00:43:19,130 And my... reasonably attractive wife. 526 00:43:19,180 --> 00:43:22,290 Your reasonably attractive wife will give you a smack! 527 00:43:23,040 --> 00:43:24,410 Ooh-ah! 528 00:43:24,460 --> 00:43:27,130 Both in their own ways on the brink of greatness. 529 00:43:27,180 --> 00:43:29,410 - I am a happy man. - There's no coffee. 530 00:43:29,460 --> 00:43:31,690 - What? - I finished it last night. 531 00:43:31,740 --> 00:43:34,020 Up till half-three... apparently. 532 00:43:34,900 --> 00:43:37,940 - Revision? - Yeah. Revision. 533 00:43:39,300 --> 00:43:41,130 Mm-hm. 534 00:43:41,180 --> 00:43:44,650 No coffee, no problem. I can get a coffee at work. 535 00:43:44,700 --> 00:43:47,450 - Why are you talking funny? - Because he's in a good mood. 536 00:43:47,500 --> 00:43:50,050 You are gorgeous! 537 00:43:50,600 --> 00:43:52,570 Ah! No, thank you! 538 00:43:52,620 --> 00:43:56,930 Did you sleep all right last night? It felt like you were awake. 539 00:43:56,980 --> 00:43:58,170 - Really? - Mm. 540 00:43:58,220 --> 00:43:59,770 No, I slept fine. 541 00:44:00,720 --> 00:44:03,700 You both... have a great day. 542 00:44:14,060 --> 00:44:15,260 - Morning. - Morning. 543 00:44:25,940 --> 00:44:27,140 Hello. 544 00:44:27,940 --> 00:44:31,220 Hi. I'm Dan. 545 00:44:32,420 --> 00:44:35,050 My son died a few weeks ago. You probably don't even... 546 00:44:35,100 --> 00:44:37,810 You're... you're working here? 547 00:44:37,860 --> 00:44:39,860 First day. 548 00:44:41,860 --> 00:44:43,610 Well, er... I'd better get on. 549 00:44:43,660 --> 00:44:44,860 Yeah.