1 00:00:00,898 --> 00:00:02,539 Previously on This Is Us... 2 00:00:02,931 --> 00:00:04,061 I almost drowned! 3 00:00:04,086 --> 00:00:05,352 You're so busy making sure 4 00:00:05,354 --> 00:00:07,955 - that Kate's not eating too much and... - Kev, calm down. 5 00:00:07,957 --> 00:00:10,179 ...and Randall's not too adopted. 6 00:00:12,161 --> 00:00:14,226 I just need somebody to help me. 7 00:00:14,314 --> 00:00:15,937 I just need help, please. 8 00:00:17,563 --> 00:00:20,146 - Uncle Kevin, slow down! - What the hell are you... 9 00:00:20,171 --> 00:00:22,601 What? Get... Put your seat belt on. What are you doing here? 10 00:00:33,765 --> 00:00:35,245 Oh! 11 00:00:35,484 --> 00:00:37,335 Looks like someone landed on my railroad. 12 00:00:37,460 --> 00:00:40,334 - That'll be 50 bucks, sucker. - Geez, Mom. 13 00:00:40,359 --> 00:00:43,702 Whoa, I can read the dice from all the way over here. 14 00:00:43,727 --> 00:00:44,960 See? I told you, sweetheart, 15 00:00:45,029 --> 00:00:46,709 having glasses wouldn't be so bad. 16 00:00:46,734 --> 00:00:49,679 For now. But once school's back, 17 00:00:49,960 --> 00:00:51,633 the Urkel jokes will start. 18 00:00:51,702 --> 00:00:53,268 What? No, they won't. 19 00:00:53,468 --> 00:00:54,513 Yes, they will. 20 00:00:54,538 --> 00:00:55,789 It's just a fact, Mom. 21 00:00:56,093 --> 00:00:57,703 Do we have any more cookies? 22 00:00:58,257 --> 00:01:00,147 You know what, we both have had 23 00:01:00,172 --> 00:01:01,938 a couple of cookies already today, 24 00:01:02,007 --> 00:01:04,414 so maybe I could cut us up an apple instead. 25 00:01:04,439 --> 00:01:06,851 - Hey! - Dad, you're home! 26 00:01:06,876 --> 00:01:08,608 - Finally! - I am, I am. Hey, hey. Hi, hi. 27 00:01:08,633 --> 00:01:09,959 - Hi! - Hey, Dad. 28 00:01:09,984 --> 00:01:12,382 Finally. Big news, Pearsons. 29 00:01:12,718 --> 00:01:14,417 We're going on vacation. 30 00:01:14,486 --> 00:01:16,853 - We are? - Yes, we are. 31 00:01:16,922 --> 00:01:19,856 New guy in Accounting has a cabin in the Poconos. 32 00:01:19,925 --> 00:01:21,086 It's gonna be sitting there empty, 33 00:01:21,110 --> 00:01:22,950 so he said we could take it for the whole week. 34 00:01:23,367 --> 00:01:25,289 That's, of course, 35 00:01:25,314 --> 00:01:27,757 if Mom thinks that's a good idea. 36 00:01:29,382 --> 00:01:32,553 I mean, a cabin does sound fun. 37 00:01:32,578 --> 00:01:34,378 - Yeah, it does sound fun! - Super fun, right? 38 00:01:34,447 --> 00:01:36,247 - Yeah. - Wait, what about Kevin? 39 00:01:36,429 --> 00:01:37,782 It's close to his football camp, 40 00:01:37,850 --> 00:01:39,350 so I'm gonna pick him up on Friday. 41 00:01:39,418 --> 00:01:41,185 I'll bring him up there. We're all set. 42 00:01:41,210 --> 00:01:43,608 I-I don't know why you guys are still sitting down here, 43 00:01:43,633 --> 00:01:45,312 standing around. Go upstairs! Pack! 44 00:01:45,337 --> 00:01:47,103 We're gonna leave first thing in the morning! 45 00:01:47,414 --> 00:01:48,703 Oh, God. I-I... 46 00:01:48,925 --> 00:01:51,609 I-I came in a little excited in the entrance, right? 47 00:01:51,634 --> 00:01:53,243 - I didn't really give you a chance to... - No. 48 00:01:53,267 --> 00:01:54,492 - Mm. - No, you didn't. 49 00:01:54,517 --> 00:01:56,523 Yeah, but a log cabin, babe. 50 00:01:56,548 --> 00:01:58,789 I mean, this was... this was too good to pass up. 51 00:02:00,578 --> 00:02:02,726 Okay. I'll, um... 52 00:02:03,468 --> 00:02:05,988 I'll start coming up with a list of things that we need to pack. 53 00:02:06,031 --> 00:02:08,257 Um, top of the list, first thing: 54 00:02:08,469 --> 00:02:09,750 your bathing suit. 55 00:02:09,775 --> 00:02:11,992 We got to get you back in that black bikini. 56 00:02:12,289 --> 00:02:13,661 No way. 57 00:02:13,729 --> 00:02:16,764 - The black bikini is retired. - Wait. No, no. 58 00:02:16,832 --> 00:02:19,625 - Retired, Jack. - Babe, she was too young to retire. 59 00:02:19,650 --> 00:02:22,710 All right? She's bored. She-she wants a comeback. 60 00:02:24,804 --> 00:02:28,375 I cannot believe that I haven't talked to Kevin in over a month. 61 00:02:28,444 --> 00:02:31,679 We've never, ever gone this long without talking. 62 00:02:31,747 --> 00:02:33,647 Yeah, I know, babe. Disconnecting is kind of one 63 00:02:33,716 --> 00:02:35,316 of the key rules of rehab. 64 00:02:35,384 --> 00:02:36,817 Kev's in rehab. 65 00:02:36,886 --> 00:02:38,990 I let Kevin get sent to rehab. 66 00:02:39,015 --> 00:02:41,810 Technically, the judge at his DUI hearing 67 00:02:41,835 --> 00:02:43,557 let him get sent to rehab. 68 00:02:43,929 --> 00:02:46,100 But now is no time to be super literal, 69 00:02:46,125 --> 00:02:47,609 and I should know that. Sorry. 70 00:02:47,634 --> 00:02:49,601 Well, I hope that it's been good for him. 71 00:02:49,626 --> 00:02:51,585 I mean, not just getting clean but... 72 00:02:51,610 --> 00:02:53,953 all of it. I still can't believe that 73 00:02:53,978 --> 00:02:55,526 I missed what was going on with him, though. 74 00:02:55,550 --> 00:02:56,578 Hey. Hey, hey. 75 00:02:56,679 --> 00:02:58,535 We had a lot going on, too, you know. 76 00:02:58,838 --> 00:03:00,468 Yeah, we did. 77 00:03:03,109 --> 00:03:04,775 Okay. 78 00:03:05,640 --> 00:03:06,732 Right, so... 79 00:03:06,757 --> 00:03:09,053 portion-controlled hummus and veggies for the plane ride. 80 00:03:09,078 --> 00:03:10,859 - Mm-hmm. - I'm gonna stay focused. 81 00:03:10,884 --> 00:03:14,273 'Cause when life takes us low, Kate and Toby, we go high. 82 00:03:14,298 --> 00:03:17,063 That's right. Crushing it in the face of tragedy. 83 00:03:17,088 --> 00:03:18,828 'Cause that's how Ka-Toby roll. 84 00:03:18,853 --> 00:03:20,562 Ooh, "Ka-Toby." I like it. 85 00:03:20,587 --> 00:03:22,461 Oh, hey, will you take out the trash before we go? 86 00:03:22,485 --> 00:03:23,882 - Yeah. - It smells like ass. 87 00:03:23,907 --> 00:03:25,398 "Ka-Toby." Are we going with that? 88 00:03:25,423 --> 00:03:27,289 'Cause I could get behind "Ka-Toby." 89 00:03:42,346 --> 00:03:43,781 Hey, uh, you ready? 90 00:03:45,304 --> 00:03:46,445 Toby? 91 00:03:46,937 --> 00:03:48,390 Uh, uh... 92 00:03:49,234 --> 00:03:50,531 Yeah, yeah! 93 00:03:51,073 --> 00:03:53,226 Yeah, come on, let's get this show on the road. 94 00:03:55,992 --> 00:03:57,875 Hey, Sweet Pea. 95 00:03:58,327 --> 00:03:59,426 Hey. 96 00:03:59,617 --> 00:04:00,804 How you feeling? 97 00:04:01,039 --> 00:04:02,164 Fine. 98 00:04:02,218 --> 00:04:04,411 We just wanted to triple-check that you're still feeling okay 99 00:04:04,435 --> 00:04:07,280 about staying with the sitter while we go visit Uncle Kevin. 100 00:04:07,305 --> 00:04:09,271 Dad, I love Julie. 101 00:04:09,340 --> 00:04:11,107 She makes better brownies than you. 102 00:04:14,024 --> 00:04:16,828 - Randall. - Yeah. Just... It's cool. 103 00:04:16,914 --> 00:04:20,716 - Look, baby... - Mom, stop worrying about me. 104 00:04:21,007 --> 00:04:24,520 You've asked me if I'm okay 100 times a day for the last month. 105 00:04:24,750 --> 00:04:28,242 I told you, I was just sad about Deja having to go home. 106 00:04:28,359 --> 00:04:30,179 I'm not gonna freak out and run away again. 107 00:04:30,210 --> 00:04:32,171 - Are you sure? - I'm sure. 108 00:04:33,031 --> 00:04:34,697 I understand why she had to move home. 109 00:04:34,766 --> 00:04:36,144 Well, you know, we just want to make sure... 110 00:04:36,168 --> 00:04:36,787 - Beth. - Mom. 111 00:04:36,812 --> 00:04:39,117 - All right. Yeah. - Enjoy your book. 112 00:04:39,625 --> 00:04:40,703 Love you. 113 00:04:41,523 --> 00:04:44,304 Well, it seems like she's doing really well. 114 00:04:45,031 --> 00:04:47,243 Why do you sound disappointed 115 00:04:47,311 --> 00:04:49,545 - when you say that? - Because if she was doing 116 00:04:49,614 --> 00:04:52,428 a little worse, then... I could stay here with her 117 00:04:52,453 --> 00:04:54,570 and not have to visit your jackass brother. 118 00:04:54,688 --> 00:04:56,545 Maybe have some of Julie's delicious brownies. 119 00:04:56,570 --> 00:04:58,056 Okay, first of all, Julie's brownies 120 00:04:58,124 --> 00:04:59,791 are bland as hell and lumpy. 121 00:05:00,108 --> 00:05:01,374 Yes, they are. 122 00:05:01,523 --> 00:05:04,085 Second of all, regarding my jackass brother, 123 00:05:04,578 --> 00:05:05,830 cut him some slack. 124 00:05:06,265 --> 00:05:07,842 He didn't know Tess was in the car. 125 00:05:07,984 --> 00:05:10,546 Yeah. He just knew he was a danger to everyone else on the road. 126 00:05:10,594 --> 00:05:11,914 What do you want me to say, babe? 127 00:05:11,992 --> 00:05:13,515 That he was irresponsible? 128 00:05:13,656 --> 00:05:15,306 That he made some terrible decisions? 129 00:05:15,476 --> 00:05:18,373 That I came within two inches of separating his perfectly-coiffed head 130 00:05:18,398 --> 00:05:19,606 - from his body? - That part. 131 00:05:19,631 --> 00:05:21,255 Well, I know how you feel, Beth Pearson. 132 00:05:21,300 --> 00:05:22,312 I feel it, too. 133 00:05:23,054 --> 00:05:24,578 But when I was at my lowest, 134 00:05:24,603 --> 00:05:26,125 Kevin was there for me. 135 00:05:26,572 --> 00:05:28,505 So now we got to be there for him, too. 136 00:05:28,648 --> 00:05:30,841 Fine. But I'm not making any efforts 137 00:05:30,909 --> 00:05:32,742 to hold in my passive-aggressive sighs. 138 00:05:32,811 --> 00:05:35,671 Since when do you ever make any efforts to... Ho, ha-ha. 139 00:05:36,815 --> 00:05:38,289 Look, as for me, 140 00:05:39,203 --> 00:05:41,518 when I think about how angry I am with him, 141 00:05:41,587 --> 00:05:45,242 I'm just gonna take a deep breath and force myself to say, 142 00:05:45,843 --> 00:05:47,351 "We're here for you, Kevin." 143 00:05:47,734 --> 00:05:49,967 That is some white people-level repression, babe. 144 00:05:49,992 --> 00:05:51,407 Well, I was raised by white people, so... 145 00:05:51,431 --> 00:05:52,431 Everybody knows. 146 00:06:01,710 --> 00:06:02,953 Hey, Mom? 147 00:06:03,166 --> 00:06:04,298 Hmm? 148 00:06:04,562 --> 00:06:05,757 How you feeling? 149 00:06:07,085 --> 00:06:09,454 I'm okay. I'm just... 150 00:06:09,479 --> 00:06:12,813 I'm glad that we're all able to be here to support your brother. 151 00:06:12,837 --> 00:06:14,655 Wow, this place looks great. 152 00:06:14,694 --> 00:06:16,039 - Hey. - Hey, guys. 153 00:06:16,064 --> 00:06:17,092 - Hey. - Hey, Mom. 154 00:06:17,117 --> 00:06:18,272 - Hey-ya. - Sweetheart. 155 00:06:18,317 --> 00:06:20,116 - How are you? - Hi, Bug. I'm good. 156 00:06:20,185 --> 00:06:21,785 - How are you? - So nice to see you. 157 00:06:25,531 --> 00:06:26,898 Come here, sis. 158 00:06:31,096 --> 00:06:33,176 Been wanting to slap that one on you for a while now. 159 00:06:33,476 --> 00:06:34,592 Me, too. 160 00:06:34,617 --> 00:06:36,296 We've all had a rough month. 161 00:06:37,101 --> 00:06:38,154 Which reminds me. 162 00:06:38,179 --> 00:06:41,623 Hey, guys? I think we need to prepare ourselves. 163 00:06:41,648 --> 00:06:43,357 Kevin's probably gonna look different. 164 00:06:43,382 --> 00:06:44,585 He might have lost weight. 165 00:06:44,680 --> 00:06:46,289 His eyes might have dark circles... 166 00:06:46,314 --> 00:06:47,945 - Hey-o! - Kevin! 167 00:06:48,031 --> 00:06:49,750 Matt. Be good today, okay? 168 00:06:49,945 --> 00:06:52,148 - Oh, of course he's Mr. Rehab. - Hi. 169 00:06:52,594 --> 00:06:54,632 - Come on. - Oh. 170 00:06:54,657 --> 00:06:56,242 - Mm. - I'm so glad you're okay. 171 00:06:56,267 --> 00:06:57,531 Kate, um... 172 00:06:58,631 --> 00:07:00,791 - I just wanted to tell you that I... - No, no. I know. 173 00:07:00,899 --> 00:07:02,109 I know. 174 00:07:03,867 --> 00:07:05,390 - Hey. - Hey. 175 00:07:13,304 --> 00:07:15,208 I just want you guys to know, um, just... 176 00:07:15,277 --> 00:07:17,511 It means a lot to me that you all came. 177 00:07:17,579 --> 00:07:18,979 - It really does. - Of course. 178 00:07:19,048 --> 00:07:21,848 And I'm... blessed 179 00:07:22,470 --> 00:07:24,585 to have you all here. 180 00:07:25,676 --> 00:07:27,244 We're here for you, Kev. 181 00:07:27,269 --> 00:07:29,421 - Thank you. - How are you, sweetheart? 182 00:07:29,446 --> 00:07:31,298 Good. I'm good. You know, I'm better than I've been 183 00:07:31,322 --> 00:07:33,609 in a long time. Barb! Hey! Come on over here. 184 00:07:33,634 --> 00:07:36,000 - Hi. - Uh, everyone, this is Barbara. 185 00:07:36,025 --> 00:07:38,039 - She's my therapist. - Oh, hi! 186 00:07:38,064 --> 00:07:40,157 Yeah, she's-she's great. You guys, you're gonna love her. 187 00:07:40,181 --> 00:07:42,609 She's got all the answers. Uh, you're actually... 188 00:07:42,634 --> 00:07:45,257 You're my favorite Barbara that I've ever met in my entire life. 189 00:07:45,282 --> 00:07:46,953 - Mm-hmm. - And I've met Walters. 190 00:07:47,266 --> 00:07:48,414 And Streisand. 191 00:07:48,439 --> 00:07:49,835 It's very nice to meet all of you. 192 00:07:49,860 --> 00:07:51,235 - Nice to meet you as well. - Nice to meet you. 193 00:07:51,259 --> 00:07:53,219 Barbara's gonna be, uh, running our session today. 194 00:07:53,400 --> 00:07:56,473 Oh, actually, Kevin, I was thinking that it might be better 195 00:07:56,498 --> 00:07:59,332 for our first session to meet just your immediate family. 196 00:07:59,401 --> 00:08:02,350 So, just your siblings and your mom and not the others. 197 00:08:02,375 --> 00:08:04,937 "The others." What are we on, Lost? 198 00:08:05,937 --> 00:08:08,253 Barbara, I'm sorry, it's just... the only thing is I asked them 199 00:08:08,277 --> 00:08:09,921 - to be here. - Don't worry about it. It's okay. 200 00:08:09,945 --> 00:08:11,511 - Beth. - No, what I mean is... 201 00:08:11,914 --> 00:08:13,880 it's about what's best for Kevin's healing. 202 00:08:13,968 --> 00:08:15,750 Yeah, we don't want to be the ones to impede 203 00:08:15,775 --> 00:08:17,072 - on Kevin's healing. That's... - She's right. 204 00:08:17,096 --> 00:08:18,703 No, just do what you need to do. 205 00:08:18,728 --> 00:08:20,854 You know, go and not make a big deal out of it. 206 00:08:20,923 --> 00:08:22,656 - That's great. Yes. - You sure? 207 00:08:22,724 --> 00:08:24,035 - So, you know... - It's-it's fine. It's okay. 208 00:08:24,059 --> 00:08:25,626 - I'll call you. - Come back when you're done. 209 00:08:25,650 --> 00:08:26,741 - Yeah. - Yeah. 210 00:08:26,766 --> 00:08:27,835 - Great. - Absolutely. 211 00:08:27,860 --> 00:08:29,460 Hurry up, before they change their minds. 212 00:08:29,826 --> 00:08:34,171 synced and corrected by susinz *www.addic7ed.com* 213 00:08:43,234 --> 00:08:45,179 - Hi! - Kevin, you're here! 214 00:08:47,008 --> 00:08:48,554 Did we move while I was at camp? 215 00:08:48,579 --> 00:08:50,351 No, I told you it was a vacation cabin. 216 00:08:50,376 --> 00:08:51,773 Didn't you read our letters? 217 00:08:51,945 --> 00:08:53,984 - You guys were on vacation without me. - No. 218 00:08:54,009 --> 00:08:56,617 Just a few days, but we're gonna stay here till next week. 219 00:08:56,642 --> 00:08:58,593 Kev, you are so big. I swear, you got 220 00:08:58,618 --> 00:09:00,259 twice as big while you were at camp. 221 00:09:00,284 --> 00:09:02,604 I want to hear everything about football camp. Tell me now. 222 00:09:02,682 --> 00:09:03,948 It was really cool. 223 00:09:03,973 --> 00:09:05,289 - Yeah? - I got two trophies. 224 00:09:05,314 --> 00:09:06,430 - You did? - You want to see? 225 00:09:06,454 --> 00:09:09,023 Of course! Oh, oh, oh. Hey, hey, hey. 226 00:09:09,048 --> 00:09:10,981 So, Randall got glasses, like, a week ago, 227 00:09:11,006 --> 00:09:13,093 and I need you not to tease him about that, okay? 228 00:09:13,118 --> 00:09:15,258 Because if he doesn't wear them, then he gets a headache... 229 00:09:15,282 --> 00:09:17,483 - Okay, I won't say anything. - Thank you. 230 00:09:17,671 --> 00:09:19,218 Kev, you're finally here. This place 231 00:09:19,243 --> 00:09:20,607 - is so cool. - Right? 232 00:09:20,632 --> 00:09:23,226 At night, Dad makes a fire and we make s'mores 233 00:09:23,251 --> 00:09:25,171 and sometimes we make popcorn there, too. 234 00:09:26,020 --> 00:09:27,250 Have you noticed 235 00:09:27,275 --> 00:09:28,921 that every thing Kate says she loves 236 00:09:28,946 --> 00:09:31,117 about this place happens to involve food? 237 00:09:31,781 --> 00:09:33,773 Nah, she was talking about the fire pit. 238 00:09:33,960 --> 00:09:36,523 Yeah. In reference to popcorn and s'mores. 239 00:09:36,548 --> 00:09:38,851 Come on. It's vacation, all right? 240 00:09:38,876 --> 00:09:41,140 And she has... baby weight. 241 00:09:41,191 --> 00:09:43,703 But she's not a baby anymore, Jack. 242 00:09:43,765 --> 00:09:46,726 I-I don't want to make her self-conscious, 243 00:09:46,868 --> 00:09:48,901 but she's obsessed with food. 244 00:09:48,926 --> 00:09:51,812 And the doctor says that she's heavier than most girls her age. 245 00:09:51,813 --> 00:09:53,978 Yeah, but that doctor, he's basing it off of charts, 246 00:09:54,046 --> 00:09:55,813 not our actual kid, 247 00:09:55,882 --> 00:09:57,929 who takes after my grandmother, who's just... 248 00:09:58,070 --> 00:09:59,828 - she was big-boned. - Ugh! 249 00:09:59,867 --> 00:10:03,053 See, we've been doing this same dance for years, Jack. 250 00:10:03,122 --> 00:10:05,677 I say that it's an issue, and you say things like "big-boned" 251 00:10:05,702 --> 00:10:07,078 and "it's fine." 252 00:10:07,304 --> 00:10:08,648 I'm worried about her. 253 00:10:08,757 --> 00:10:09,914 - Okay. - Yeah? 254 00:10:09,939 --> 00:10:15,693 Look... I will try to get her to be more active, all right? 255 00:10:15,718 --> 00:10:18,406 Maybe find something physical that she loves. 256 00:10:18,537 --> 00:10:20,921 - Yes? Thank you. Okay. - Yeah. Okay. 257 00:10:22,321 --> 00:10:23,264 Hey. 258 00:10:23,289 --> 00:10:24,942 - Yeah? - No more daily trips 259 00:10:25,011 --> 00:10:26,648 to that ice cream place either. 260 00:10:29,194 --> 00:10:30,437 - Jack. - Yeah. 261 00:10:30,953 --> 00:10:32,007 Deal. 262 00:10:32,032 --> 00:10:33,962 - Hut, here we go. - Hike, hike, hike. Go long, Dad. 263 00:10:33,986 --> 00:10:35,063 Go, go, go, go, Kate. Come on. 264 00:10:35,087 --> 00:10:36,343 Go long, Dad! 265 00:10:37,039 --> 00:10:38,515 Oh, oh, oh. 266 00:10:38,881 --> 00:10:40,070 Touchdown! 267 00:10:40,250 --> 00:10:42,099 Here, run it back to your brother. Run it back. 268 00:10:42,144 --> 00:10:43,904 Run it back, run it back. Go, go, go, go, go. 269 00:10:44,093 --> 00:10:45,593 Mom, check out my spiral! 270 00:10:45,618 --> 00:10:47,531 Yeah, I'm watching, bud. It's amazing. 271 00:10:47,556 --> 00:10:49,883 I'm gonna throw it so far Dad can't catch it. Watch! 272 00:10:49,951 --> 00:10:51,203 - Okay. - Kate, come on. 273 00:10:51,228 --> 00:10:53,617 - Go long with me. - How come Randall doesn't have to play? 274 00:10:53,642 --> 00:10:55,594 - Don't worry about Randall. He's fine. - I'm tired. 275 00:10:55,618 --> 00:10:57,273 How can you be tired? We just got started. 276 00:10:57,298 --> 00:10:59,290 If I don't want to play football, why do I have to? 277 00:10:59,314 --> 00:11:00,671 Dad! Dad, catch. 278 00:11:04,130 --> 00:11:07,999 You... you've been eating a lot of sweets this week, okay? 279 00:11:08,289 --> 00:11:09,711 And I think that it's really important 280 00:11:09,735 --> 00:11:12,328 that you-you exercise to-to stay healthy. 281 00:11:15,573 --> 00:11:18,040 I won't eat more sweets. I just don't want to play. 282 00:11:18,085 --> 00:11:19,226 Kate. 283 00:11:23,124 --> 00:11:25,062 Just let her go, Dad. 284 00:11:28,354 --> 00:11:30,046 Hey, four-eyes, catch! 285 00:11:30,755 --> 00:11:31,953 Hey. 286 00:11:33,209 --> 00:11:34,640 Are you serious, Kevin? 287 00:11:34,665 --> 00:11:36,359 You almost hit your brother in the face. 288 00:11:36,384 --> 00:11:37,648 I know. I missed. 289 00:11:38,166 --> 00:11:39,609 No. Come here. 290 00:11:40,093 --> 00:11:42,703 Do you realize you almost hit him in the head? 291 00:11:42,728 --> 00:11:44,429 What's gotten into you, bud? 292 00:11:44,454 --> 00:11:46,520 Do you really want to sit in your room by yourself 293 00:11:46,545 --> 00:11:48,045 without your Game Boy, 294 00:11:48,070 --> 00:11:50,104 without any books, nobody to talk to? 295 00:11:50,129 --> 00:11:52,234 Why are you acting this way, huh? 296 00:11:52,695 --> 00:11:54,250 Thank you all for being here. 297 00:11:55,039 --> 00:11:57,023 It's an important part of Kevin's process 298 00:11:57,048 --> 00:12:00,484 to speak openly to the people he loves. 299 00:12:00,917 --> 00:12:02,703 In a safe space. 300 00:12:04,810 --> 00:12:05,953 Kevin. 301 00:12:08,179 --> 00:12:09,593 - So right now? - Yes. 302 00:12:13,390 --> 00:12:16,164 Uh, well, you know, first of all, I just wanted to 303 00:12:17,328 --> 00:12:20,703 sincerely apologize to all of you. 304 00:12:21,109 --> 00:12:23,867 Um, obviously I hit a low point, 305 00:12:24,347 --> 00:12:25,578 and I, uh, 306 00:12:26,136 --> 00:12:27,703 ruined things with Sophie, 307 00:12:28,335 --> 00:12:29,875 and then I went ahead 308 00:12:29,900 --> 00:12:31,812 and ruined things with all of you. 309 00:12:33,604 --> 00:12:35,148 Uh, Kate, I... 310 00:12:40,539 --> 00:12:41,789 I'm sorry. 311 00:12:42,898 --> 00:12:44,929 I'm sorry that you had to go through one 312 00:12:44,954 --> 00:12:46,938 of the most difficult times of your life without me. 313 00:12:46,962 --> 00:12:49,363 That... should never happen. 314 00:12:52,371 --> 00:12:54,992 You know, they-they tell us in here that, um, 315 00:12:55,804 --> 00:12:57,391 they tell us that we have to forgive ourselves 316 00:12:57,415 --> 00:12:58,976 for our wrongdoings, but... 317 00:13:02,140 --> 00:13:04,398 that one's gonna take some time for me. 318 00:13:06,914 --> 00:13:08,007 It's fine. 319 00:13:08,390 --> 00:13:10,843 And I'm sorry, too. 320 00:13:11,396 --> 00:13:13,117 For taking my eye off the ball. 321 00:13:14,722 --> 00:13:16,937 That's you. You're the ball. 322 00:13:22,235 --> 00:13:23,445 Randall. 323 00:13:25,740 --> 00:13:27,023 I'm sorry... 324 00:13:28,875 --> 00:13:31,010 that I scared you and Beth like that. 325 00:13:31,079 --> 00:13:32,912 I didn't know Tess was in the car, obviously, 326 00:13:32,981 --> 00:13:34,468 but I am so sorry. 327 00:13:36,844 --> 00:13:38,328 We're here for you, Kev. 328 00:13:44,192 --> 00:13:45,453 And, Mom, I'm... 329 00:13:45,862 --> 00:13:48,289 I'm sorry that I put you through all this. 330 00:13:50,182 --> 00:13:52,000 I just want you to be happy, Kevin. 331 00:14:01,649 --> 00:14:03,453 Whew. Right? 332 00:14:04,398 --> 00:14:05,625 That was helpful. 333 00:14:06,289 --> 00:14:08,015 Like, cathartic, you know? 334 00:14:09,164 --> 00:14:10,335 Was it? 335 00:14:12,323 --> 00:14:15,921 Because it felt a little polite to me. 336 00:14:17,117 --> 00:14:18,757 Do you want to talk to your family 337 00:14:18,782 --> 00:14:20,437 about what we've been exploring 338 00:14:20,574 --> 00:14:25,007 regarding where your addiction might stem from? 339 00:14:35,810 --> 00:14:38,984 Kev... it's okay. 340 00:14:39,161 --> 00:14:40,820 It's good to talk about this. 341 00:14:43,687 --> 00:14:45,304 I have been telling Kev 342 00:14:45,627 --> 00:14:48,890 that he has to find out a way 343 00:14:48,915 --> 00:14:51,656 to talk about his grief. 344 00:14:52,477 --> 00:14:56,078 About our-our dad dying, so... 345 00:15:02,674 --> 00:15:04,601 Was that a look? Like, did... 346 00:15:04,685 --> 00:15:06,601 Yeah, they definitely got looks. 347 00:15:08,804 --> 00:15:10,960 We're gonna need to talk about some things 348 00:15:10,985 --> 00:15:12,398 involving your family... 349 00:15:13,416 --> 00:15:15,682 and even about your father... 350 00:15:16,141 --> 00:15:18,054 that were not so perfect, 351 00:15:18,079 --> 00:15:20,156 when he was actually alive. 352 00:15:21,867 --> 00:15:23,382 Can we go there together? 353 00:15:24,784 --> 00:15:26,812 Oh, God, do we have to? 354 00:15:30,180 --> 00:15:32,181 - To "The Others." - No, no. 355 00:15:32,585 --> 00:15:36,030 To the, uh... to the new Big Three. 356 00:15:36,055 --> 00:15:38,623 - Oh. To the new Big Three. - Ah, new Big Three. 357 00:15:38,625 --> 00:15:40,445 - I like that. All right. - Uh-huh. 358 00:15:42,471 --> 00:15:45,140 Mmm. I got to tell you, 359 00:15:45,734 --> 00:15:48,842 this is not how I pictured my day at rehab going. 360 00:15:48,867 --> 00:15:52,602 Did you guys see Kevin do that actor hand thing today 361 00:15:52,671 --> 00:15:54,204 - all of a sudden? Like... - Hmm? 362 00:15:54,272 --> 00:15:55,953 Like, when you put the two hands together. 363 00:15:55,978 --> 00:15:58,541 And-and say "thank you" and then like, bow a little bit? 364 00:15:58,610 --> 00:16:00,671 Like an overgrown Mr. Miyagi. 365 00:16:00,696 --> 00:16:04,062 I mean, he drives my nine-year-old around drunk. 366 00:16:04,087 --> 00:16:06,640 She has to watch her uncle get handcuffed. 367 00:16:06,665 --> 00:16:09,679 But you know what? He bowed and said thank you like Al Pacino 368 00:16:09,692 --> 00:16:11,292 so I'm just expected to forgive him. 369 00:16:11,361 --> 00:16:12,905 Well, I don't think anyone expects that. 370 00:16:12,929 --> 00:16:15,563 Randall does. Any time I try to have a conversation 371 00:16:15,632 --> 00:16:17,601 about Kevin's behavior, I-I... 372 00:16:17,788 --> 00:16:21,123 - I go into the Pearson no-fly zone. - Mmm. 373 00:16:21,271 --> 00:16:23,078 - The Pearson no-fly zone. - Mm-hmm. 374 00:16:23,103 --> 00:16:25,740 I have flown hard into the Pearson no-fly zone 375 00:16:25,809 --> 00:16:28,445 on many occasions, and it does not end well. 376 00:16:28,859 --> 00:16:30,578 But what do you... what do you guys do 377 00:16:30,647 --> 00:16:33,784 when there's a no-fly zone that you have to fly into? 378 00:16:33,809 --> 00:16:35,929 Like, right now, there's something I got to talk to Kate about, 379 00:16:35,953 --> 00:16:37,611 that she's been hiding from me. 380 00:16:37,636 --> 00:16:39,085 It's not about Jack, right? 381 00:16:39,110 --> 00:16:40,227 - No. - Because that's, like, a straight-up 382 00:16:40,251 --> 00:16:41,178 air strike zone. 383 00:16:41,203 --> 00:16:43,063 No, yeah. I learned that lesson a long time ago. 384 00:16:43,087 --> 00:16:45,914 When we first started dating, I saw a photo of the man, 385 00:16:45,939 --> 00:16:50,453 and I said his mustache made him look like a '70s porn star. 386 00:16:50,478 --> 00:16:52,945 - Oh. - Yeah, I thought she was gonna deck me. 387 00:16:53,593 --> 00:16:55,734 You know, Jack is untouchable. 388 00:16:55,759 --> 00:16:57,882 - Mm-hmm. - Okay, he is the saint we'll never meet. 389 00:16:57,907 --> 00:17:00,390 - Mm-hmm. - Who none of us will ever live up to. 390 00:17:00,486 --> 00:17:01,632 Easy. 391 00:17:02,506 --> 00:17:04,406 You're entering my no-fly zone now. 392 00:17:06,652 --> 00:17:09,203 - To Jack. - To Jack. 393 00:17:11,125 --> 00:17:13,062 He did kind of look like a porn star. 394 00:17:20,328 --> 00:17:21,710 Hey, Katie girl. 395 00:17:24,147 --> 00:17:25,468 Mind if I join you? 396 00:17:30,699 --> 00:17:33,859 What are we doing out here, just... sitting? 397 00:17:35,696 --> 00:17:36,882 Okay. 398 00:17:37,610 --> 00:17:39,273 That-That's cool. 399 00:17:41,559 --> 00:17:43,585 Derek, down the street, called me fat. 400 00:17:47,664 --> 00:17:50,078 - Well, I think Derek... - Do you think I'm fat? 401 00:17:53,336 --> 00:17:54,804 Katie girl, I think... 402 00:17:58,585 --> 00:18:03,655 I think that you are my favorite-looking person 403 00:18:03,680 --> 00:18:05,164 on the whole planet. 404 00:18:14,977 --> 00:18:17,039 Oh, Mom, I can't find my glasses anywhere. 405 00:18:17,064 --> 00:18:19,093 Well, where's the last place you saw them, bud? 406 00:18:19,246 --> 00:18:21,281 I took 'em off when I went to wash my face. 407 00:18:21,546 --> 00:18:24,951 I always put them on the desk by the corkboard near the lamp. 408 00:18:25,020 --> 00:18:27,020 Why don't you go check the bathroom one more time, 409 00:18:27,089 --> 00:18:28,579 and then I'll come help you look for 'em, okay? 410 00:18:28,603 --> 00:18:29,718 Okay. 411 00:18:34,515 --> 00:18:37,078 Hey, Kevin, can you come here, please? 412 00:18:39,768 --> 00:18:40,820 What? 413 00:18:40,845 --> 00:18:43,367 Did you take your brother's glasses? 414 00:18:43,939 --> 00:18:45,609 No. Can I go? 415 00:18:45,634 --> 00:18:48,226 Kevin, it's not funny. 416 00:18:48,531 --> 00:18:49,537 It's not a joke. 417 00:18:49,562 --> 00:18:51,482 You know your brother needs those glasses to see. 418 00:18:51,523 --> 00:18:52,961 So I'm gonna to give you to the count of three 419 00:18:52,985 --> 00:18:54,214 to tell me where they are. 420 00:18:54,476 --> 00:18:55,625 - One... - I hate you. 421 00:18:55,650 --> 00:18:59,156 Kevin, y-you don't hate me, you're just overtired. 422 00:18:59,181 --> 00:19:00,812 This cabin sucks. 423 00:19:00,945 --> 00:19:02,671 - Kevin. - This family sucks. 424 00:19:02,696 --> 00:19:04,328 - Enough. - You suck. 425 00:19:16,820 --> 00:19:18,020 Go ahead, Kevin. 426 00:19:26,132 --> 00:19:27,529 I guess, my entire childhood, 427 00:19:27,554 --> 00:19:30,453 I always felt like I came in second to you two. 428 00:19:31,094 --> 00:19:32,171 With Mom and Dad. 429 00:19:32,196 --> 00:19:33,554 You know, like I was a... 430 00:19:33,976 --> 00:19:35,734 like, fifth wheel of the family. 431 00:19:35,759 --> 00:19:37,351 Kevin, that's crazy. 432 00:19:37,376 --> 00:19:39,328 Kate, please. Let Kevin speak. 433 00:19:41,609 --> 00:19:43,371 Well, Kate, it's just, you had Dad. 434 00:19:43,851 --> 00:19:45,804 Right? You had Dad, and-and, Randall, 435 00:19:45,829 --> 00:19:47,890 you had Mom; you two were like two peas in a pod. 436 00:19:47,915 --> 00:19:49,120 That's not true. 437 00:19:49,145 --> 00:19:50,843 I loved you all equally. 438 00:19:50,961 --> 00:19:54,328 Rebecca, Kevin is telling you how he feels right now, 439 00:19:54,353 --> 00:19:56,554 And you will all have a chance to let him know 440 00:19:56,579 --> 00:19:58,031 how you feel later on. 441 00:20:01,531 --> 00:20:04,296 Anyway, I-I think feeling that way when I was a kid 442 00:20:04,960 --> 00:20:07,101 has developed this-this voice in my head 443 00:20:07,126 --> 00:20:10,648 that would just sort of repeat, saying, "You're not enough." 444 00:20:11,382 --> 00:20:15,117 And-and I tried to drown that voice out with things, 445 00:20:15,186 --> 00:20:19,988 like, uh, football or acting or fame. 446 00:20:21,414 --> 00:20:22,804 And, um... 447 00:20:24,742 --> 00:20:26,006 And I think it was only a matter of time 448 00:20:26,030 --> 00:20:28,046 before I turned to something worse. 449 00:20:28,996 --> 00:20:30,953 Why was it was only a matter of time? 450 00:20:38,414 --> 00:20:40,468 Because we're a family of addicts. 451 00:20:41,437 --> 00:20:42,617 Okay. 452 00:20:42,945 --> 00:20:44,424 We're not a family of addicts, Kev... 453 00:20:44,448 --> 00:20:46,448 Our father was an addict, Kate. 454 00:20:46,703 --> 00:20:48,374 His father was an addict. 455 00:20:48,399 --> 00:20:49,698 I'm an addict. 456 00:20:55,250 --> 00:20:59,294 And I-I know how hard you struggle 457 00:20:59,648 --> 00:21:01,435 with managing your weight. 458 00:21:01,460 --> 00:21:04,083 Believe me, I've seen it. And I know how hard you try. 459 00:21:04,108 --> 00:21:07,743 But I feel like, maybe, Kate, you're an addict, too, you know? 460 00:21:07,812 --> 00:21:10,234 And I feel like maybe you get some of that from Dad. 461 00:21:14,109 --> 00:21:15,284 Why are you doing this? 462 00:21:15,353 --> 00:21:17,393 - I'm sorry, I'm not doing any... - No, no, not you. 463 00:21:18,921 --> 00:21:21,424 Do you get more money the sicker that he is? 464 00:21:21,492 --> 00:21:23,175 Or do you get to keep him here longer? 465 00:21:23,200 --> 00:21:24,532 - Oh, hold on. No, stop. - How does that work? 466 00:21:24,556 --> 00:21:26,516 Kate, wait-wait a minute. Now, you wanted me to talk about Dad, 467 00:21:26,540 --> 00:21:28,500 - right? Okay, so that's what I'm doing. - Yeah... 468 00:21:28,900 --> 00:21:30,923 I'm talking about Dad, but I can't sit here and pretend 469 00:21:30,947 --> 00:21:33,281 that the only reason I'm messed up is because he died. 470 00:21:37,617 --> 00:21:39,482 We don't talk about his drinking problem. 471 00:21:39,507 --> 00:21:42,192 Because he beat it, Kev. It was just, like, a blip... 472 00:21:42,217 --> 00:21:43,750 That's crazy that you even say that. 473 00:21:43,775 --> 00:21:47,398 I'm crazy? You're here by court order and I'm crazy? 474 00:21:48,718 --> 00:21:51,679 Rebecca, do you have an opinion 475 00:21:51,938 --> 00:21:53,929 about your husband's alcoholism? 476 00:21:54,078 --> 00:21:55,742 Did you ever talk to your children 477 00:21:55,767 --> 00:21:58,132 about their father being an addict? 478 00:21:58,157 --> 00:22:01,882 Did you ever warn them that they would have the gene? 479 00:22:10,820 --> 00:22:14,658 Uh, my-my children lost their father when they were 17. 480 00:22:14,820 --> 00:22:17,728 They didn't have their father at their high school graduation. 481 00:22:17,797 --> 00:22:21,031 Randall didn't have his father when his children were born. 482 00:22:21,100 --> 00:22:24,135 Kate will not have her father at her wedding. 483 00:22:24,203 --> 00:22:27,638 So they had 17 years of memories, 484 00:22:27,781 --> 00:22:29,031 and that's it. 485 00:22:29,718 --> 00:22:32,209 There won't be any new ones for the rest of their lives. 486 00:22:32,278 --> 00:22:35,079 So... no. 487 00:22:35,437 --> 00:22:37,625 No, I did not sit them down 488 00:22:37,710 --> 00:22:40,384 and color their memories of their father 489 00:22:40,453 --> 00:22:44,320 by talking about the one part of him that wasn't perfect. 490 00:22:44,345 --> 00:22:47,701 And you really do a disservice by calling my husband an addict, 491 00:22:47,726 --> 00:22:49,750 because he was so much more than that. 492 00:22:50,389 --> 00:22:51,507 Thank you. 493 00:22:58,101 --> 00:23:01,146 It's interesting that you bring up examples 494 00:23:01,171 --> 00:23:03,707 of Kate and Randall 495 00:23:04,463 --> 00:23:05,671 but not Kevin. 496 00:23:07,117 --> 00:23:08,089 What? 497 00:23:08,114 --> 00:23:10,248 Kate not having her father at her wedding 498 00:23:10,273 --> 00:23:12,140 and Randall not having 499 00:23:12,209 --> 00:23:13,942 his father when his children were born. 500 00:23:14,010 --> 00:23:16,778 Yes, because those were just the first two examples 501 00:23:16,847 --> 00:23:18,079 that came to my mind. 502 00:23:18,148 --> 00:23:19,714 But don't you find it interesting 503 00:23:19,783 --> 00:23:22,968 that you have specific examples for your other children 504 00:23:23,273 --> 00:23:25,218 - but not Kevin? - I don't. 505 00:23:26,414 --> 00:23:28,483 I don't find it interesting... I find it typical, 506 00:23:28,508 --> 00:23:30,452 to be honest with you. I mean, this is what we talk about. 507 00:23:30,476 --> 00:23:31,843 - Mom, you never... - Enough. Dude, enough. 508 00:23:31,867 --> 00:23:32,978 You don't have to lay into her. 509 00:23:33,002 --> 00:23:34,000 Okay, here we go. 510 00:23:34,025 --> 00:23:35,412 Yeah, "here we go" is right. 511 00:23:35,640 --> 00:23:36,703 Look, I... 512 00:23:37,148 --> 00:23:39,648 I've tried to empathize with you, Kevin. I really have. 513 00:23:39,819 --> 00:23:41,906 Okay, I've held my tongue 514 00:23:42,515 --> 00:23:44,655 as your rich, spoiled ass got sent 515 00:23:44,724 --> 00:23:46,735 to this Four Seasons for almost killing my daughter, 516 00:23:46,759 --> 00:23:48,504 when most anybody else would've got sent to jail. 517 00:23:48,528 --> 00:23:51,789 I've held my tongue while you've whined about your childhood, 518 00:23:52,070 --> 00:23:53,951 a childhood which I was there for, by the way, 519 00:23:53,976 --> 00:23:55,656 which I bore witness to. 520 00:23:55,976 --> 00:23:58,469 Your football tosses on the lawn with Dad, 521 00:23:58,538 --> 00:24:00,938 your tummy rubs from Mom when you had a fever. 522 00:24:01,007 --> 00:24:03,531 See, Barbara may not have been there, 523 00:24:03,664 --> 00:24:06,162 but I was there, so don't you dare try 524 00:24:06,187 --> 00:24:08,873 to pull that same lame-ass piece of wool over my eyes, bro. 525 00:24:08,898 --> 00:24:11,348 Okay? I've held my tongue, 526 00:24:11,828 --> 00:24:14,363 but I will not hold my tongue while you go after our mother 527 00:24:14,388 --> 00:24:16,641 - for not parenting you... - I'm not going after our mother, 528 00:24:16,665 --> 00:24:18,567 Randall. Why do you always twist things around like that? 529 00:24:18,591 --> 00:24:20,186 - I'm not going after... - He's not twisting anything, Kevin. 530 00:24:20,210 --> 00:24:22,478 - He's simply defending me. - Oh, I'm sorry, Mom. 531 00:24:22,511 --> 00:24:24,172 You're right. I'm sorry. Why don't you take his side 532 00:24:24,196 --> 00:24:25,993 - because that's... - I am not taking anybody's side. 533 00:24:26,017 --> 00:24:27,141 - See, this is what I'm talking about. - Hey, man, you want to talk 534 00:24:27,165 --> 00:24:29,297 about your tortured childhood, you want to compare baggage? 535 00:24:29,321 --> 00:24:30,915 - No, Randall, Randall, listen... - Yeah, let's do that. 536 00:24:30,939 --> 00:24:32,985 No, I would never compare my tortured childhood with yours, 537 00:24:33,009 --> 00:24:35,047 Randall, because I wasn't abandoned or adopted 538 00:24:35,072 --> 00:24:37,484 or I didn't have anxiety or I'm not a genius 539 00:24:37,509 --> 00:24:39,288 - or any of those... - No, you're definitely not that, Kevin. 540 00:24:39,312 --> 00:24:40,898 You know what else you're not? 541 00:24:41,344 --> 00:24:43,000 You're not an addict. 542 00:24:43,609 --> 00:24:44,718 Okay? 543 00:24:44,743 --> 00:24:46,992 The only thing that you're addicted to is attention. 544 00:24:47,500 --> 00:24:50,262 I mean, what happened, Kev? Your movie wrapped? 545 00:24:50,331 --> 00:24:53,232 You weren't rolling with Sly and Ron Howard anymore? 546 00:24:53,257 --> 00:24:54,882 Nobody was looking at you? 547 00:24:55,039 --> 00:24:56,492 So you had to get us all up here, 548 00:24:56,570 --> 00:24:57,974 all eyes on you. 549 00:24:57,999 --> 00:24:59,265 Cue drug problem. 550 00:25:02,710 --> 00:25:04,296 - Okay. - Okay, Kev. 551 00:25:09,296 --> 00:25:10,326 Okay, guys. 552 00:25:10,351 --> 00:25:12,054 No, you know what, I-I just... I'm... 553 00:25:12,562 --> 00:25:14,362 I want to know your thoughts on this, Randall. 554 00:25:14,523 --> 00:25:18,179 Why do you think your daughter was hiding in my car? 555 00:25:18,836 --> 00:25:21,570 Why do you think your daughter was hiding in my car? 556 00:25:21,571 --> 00:25:22,657 You ever thought about that? 557 00:25:22,681 --> 00:25:24,594 - What about it? - She's avoiding the Randall Show. 558 00:25:24,618 --> 00:25:26,040 - Don't you dare talk about my daughter. - No, no. Welcome to the 559 00:25:26,064 --> 00:25:27,564 Randall Show, ladies and gentlemen. 560 00:25:27,589 --> 00:25:29,281 - Kevin. Kevin. - Adopted by white people. 561 00:25:29,306 --> 00:25:31,453 Two dads. Does it get any more interesting than that? 562 00:25:31,478 --> 00:25:32,877 Well, not for Randall. 563 00:25:33,296 --> 00:25:35,217 So, you-you move your dying father into your home 564 00:25:35,286 --> 00:25:36,890 without thinking about what your wife 565 00:25:36,915 --> 00:25:38,954 or what your kids think of that, and then you bring some-some 566 00:25:38,978 --> 00:25:41,453 strange girl into the house after he dies, right? 567 00:25:41,500 --> 00:25:42,898 And the only person sitting there 568 00:25:42,923 --> 00:25:44,079 that no one's paying attention to 569 00:25:44,103 --> 00:25:45,993 - is your daughter, Tess. - You know what, I'm done, man. 570 00:25:46,017 --> 00:25:48,597 - No, Randall, Randall... - And cue Randall out the door, 571 00:25:48,666 --> 00:25:50,332 cue Mom chasing her favorite son. 572 00:25:50,401 --> 00:25:52,062 This is such a predictable movie. You are so predictable. 573 00:25:52,086 --> 00:25:53,843 You raise your voice to her one more time. 574 00:25:53,868 --> 00:25:54,938 - Hey. Hey. Hey. - All your children 575 00:25:54,962 --> 00:25:55,945 you love equally, right? 576 00:25:55,970 --> 00:25:57,881 Yes, I do love all my children the same. 577 00:25:57,906 --> 00:25:59,274 Yeah, I'm sure that you do. Wouldn't it feel refreshing, though, 578 00:25:59,298 --> 00:26:00,485 just to right here in this forum, 'cause 579 00:26:00,509 --> 00:26:02,063 this is where you do that kind of stuff, 580 00:26:02,087 --> 00:26:03,857 to just tell everyone the truth, which 581 00:26:03,869 --> 00:26:05,558 is that you love Randall the most. 582 00:26:05,583 --> 00:26:07,194 - He's your favorite, right? - Oh, that's not true, Kevin. 583 00:26:07,218 --> 00:26:08,727 - It's not true? - That's absolutely ridiculous. 584 00:26:08,751 --> 00:26:09,891 - I'm not gonna say that, Kevin. - It's ridiculous? 585 00:26:09,915 --> 00:26:11,041 Yeah, okay, it's ridiculous, then name 586 00:26:11,053 --> 00:26:12,102 me one thing that you and I have. 587 00:26:12,126 --> 00:26:13,615 One thing that you and I have that 588 00:26:13,627 --> 00:26:15,304 is special, that is just you and me. 589 00:26:15,329 --> 00:26:17,828 Not-not-not all of us. Not me and Randall. Not me and Kate. 590 00:26:17,853 --> 00:26:19,093 Kevin, can you please stop? 591 00:26:19,118 --> 00:26:22,187 I-I-I'm-I'm flustered and it's not kind of you, 592 00:26:22,212 --> 00:26:24,111 - what you're doing. - Just admit that you love Randall more. 593 00:26:24,135 --> 00:26:25,523 We can stop pretending to be this perfect family. 594 00:26:25,547 --> 00:26:26,953 No, he was just easier! 595 00:26:28,006 --> 00:26:29,242 He was easier 596 00:26:29,267 --> 00:26:30,821 and he didn't recoil when I touched him. 597 00:26:30,845 --> 00:26:33,203 And he wasn't some sullen teenager 598 00:26:33,228 --> 00:26:35,820 who was angry at me for no reason and he didn't... 599 00:26:37,203 --> 00:26:41,694 abandon me and move away after his father died. 600 00:27:01,547 --> 00:27:03,482 - Hey, Toby. - Yeah, Beth. 601 00:27:03,986 --> 00:27:07,371 We're day-drinking on family day from Kevin's rehab place. 602 00:27:07,396 --> 00:27:09,496 I know, it's like an Alanis Morissette lyric. 603 00:27:11,383 --> 00:27:12,726 'Cause it's ironic. 604 00:27:13,052 --> 00:27:14,890 Okay. Big thought. 605 00:27:14,947 --> 00:27:18,282 Here it is: cheese fries. 606 00:27:18,307 --> 00:27:21,124 Ooh. I could get down and dirty with some cheese fries. 607 00:27:21,193 --> 00:27:22,193 Toberman? 608 00:27:22,261 --> 00:27:23,515 - Mm. Uh-uh. - Come on. 609 00:27:23,540 --> 00:27:25,290 Don't tell me you're not about the cheese fries, man. 610 00:27:25,314 --> 00:27:27,234 Look. 611 00:27:31,312 --> 00:27:34,296 I found a bunch of junk food at the bottom of our trash can. 612 00:27:34,515 --> 00:27:37,445 Kate has fallen off the wagon and is hiding it from me. 613 00:27:40,593 --> 00:27:44,523 Well, who knows, maybe she'll tell Kevin at therapy. 614 00:27:44,548 --> 00:27:47,718 Or maybe she'll tell Randall or her mom, you know, 615 00:27:47,786 --> 00:27:50,351 one of, one of the Pearsons on the inside. 616 00:27:53,875 --> 00:27:56,484 You know, when I was a kid, I was obsessed with Star Wars. 617 00:27:56,509 --> 00:27:58,729 I loved that it was this huge story, right, 618 00:27:58,754 --> 00:28:00,007 where a bunch of people come together 619 00:28:00,031 --> 00:28:01,781 to fight these giant wars. 620 00:28:02,898 --> 00:28:04,077 But when you break it down, 621 00:28:04,102 --> 00:28:07,093 it's really just about a few people on the inside 622 00:28:07,625 --> 00:28:08,772 who know what's up. 623 00:28:09,953 --> 00:28:11,585 Luke and Vader. 624 00:28:11,610 --> 00:28:13,257 Leia and Obi-Wan. 625 00:28:14,781 --> 00:28:16,796 They were on the inside. 626 00:28:18,281 --> 00:28:21,148 And they're having lightsaber battles on bridges, 627 00:28:21,173 --> 00:28:23,367 and they're talking about big stuff 628 00:28:25,000 --> 00:28:28,343 and everybody else is pretty much Chewbacca. 629 00:28:30,257 --> 00:28:32,921 So in this story the three of us are Chewbacca? 630 00:28:33,927 --> 00:28:35,703 If the Chewie fits, Beth. 631 00:28:42,653 --> 00:28:44,726 I married my best friend's wife. 632 00:28:53,226 --> 00:28:56,687 Nobody talks about it, but everyone's always thinking it. 633 00:28:58,132 --> 00:29:01,289 I've been on the outside of this family since I entered it. 634 00:29:02,667 --> 00:29:04,156 I'm not even Chewbacca. 635 00:29:05,023 --> 00:29:07,585 I'm one of the fighter pilots who doesn't even have a name. 636 00:29:07,629 --> 00:29:08,843 That's not true, Miguel. 637 00:29:08,876 --> 00:29:10,039 It is. 638 00:29:11,931 --> 00:29:13,164 And I'm okay with that. 639 00:29:15,804 --> 00:29:19,609 You see, Toby, those four lived through something 640 00:29:19,945 --> 00:29:23,062 very unique together. They lived through the loss 641 00:29:23,820 --> 00:29:26,257 of the best man that any of us will ever know. 642 00:29:27,273 --> 00:29:30,101 And that's why they get to be on the inside, Toby. 643 00:29:31,639 --> 00:29:34,335 That's why they get the lightsabers. 644 00:29:41,134 --> 00:29:42,700 How drunk is Miguel? 645 00:29:48,233 --> 00:29:49,468 Whoa. 646 00:29:49,625 --> 00:29:50,640 Hi. 647 00:29:50,898 --> 00:29:51,943 Announcement. 648 00:29:52,742 --> 00:29:53,882 We did not 649 00:29:53,907 --> 00:29:56,117 Make it back before the rain started. 650 00:29:56,218 --> 00:29:57,250 I can see that. 651 00:29:57,686 --> 00:29:59,218 Go, go put some dry clothes on. 652 00:29:59,287 --> 00:30:00,460 Here, do you want a towel? 653 00:30:00,485 --> 00:30:01,750 - Uh, yes. - Here. 654 00:30:01,775 --> 00:30:03,796 Thank you. 655 00:30:07,000 --> 00:30:09,609 You're not amused by my entrance. 656 00:30:10,046 --> 00:30:12,532 Yeah, I had a real day here with Kevin. 657 00:30:12,647 --> 00:30:14,304 - Oh, I'm sorry. - It's okay. 658 00:30:18,859 --> 00:30:21,148 I took Kate to the ice cream parlor. 659 00:30:22,117 --> 00:30:23,656 - What? - I know. 660 00:30:23,890 --> 00:30:26,146 - Jack, we just talked about that. - I-I know. 661 00:30:26,171 --> 00:30:27,251 I just, I just, I couldn't, 662 00:30:27,315 --> 00:30:29,085 I couldn't stand the way she was looking at me. 663 00:30:29,109 --> 00:30:30,789 It was like I'd betrayed her. 664 00:30:30,960 --> 00:30:32,843 I would've given her all the ice cream in the world 665 00:30:32,867 --> 00:30:34,491 to get her to stop looking at me like that. 666 00:30:34,515 --> 00:30:36,437 You know, I get that look all the time. 667 00:30:37,656 --> 00:30:39,889 That's just what it means to be the family bad guy. 668 00:30:39,914 --> 00:30:42,703 - No, you're not the bad guy. - I'm the bad guy. I am. I'm... 669 00:30:42,945 --> 00:30:45,451 I'm the one that fights with Kate 670 00:30:45,476 --> 00:30:48,046 about whether or not to put a Fruit Roll-Up in her lunch. 671 00:30:48,071 --> 00:30:50,359 I'm the one Kevin says that he hates. 672 00:30:51,507 --> 00:30:52,734 You're the good guy. 673 00:30:53,359 --> 00:30:58,303 You are. You're the guy that announces family vacations. 674 00:30:58,328 --> 00:31:03,076 And you're the one who takes them on those secret trips 675 00:31:03,101 --> 00:31:05,341 to Toys "R" Us when you're out running errands with them. 676 00:31:05,671 --> 00:31:07,239 Ah, you know about those? 677 00:31:07,308 --> 00:31:10,500 - Oh, the bad guy knows everything. - Right. 678 00:31:13,679 --> 00:31:17,898 I'll be more firm with Kate about the food, okay? 679 00:31:17,945 --> 00:31:20,152 I will. I can be the bad guy. 680 00:31:20,177 --> 00:31:21,671 - No, you can't. - Yes, I can. 681 00:31:21,696 --> 00:31:23,812 No, you can't, but that's okay. 682 00:31:25,551 --> 00:31:27,820 Plus, I'll give our kids something to talk about 683 00:31:27,845 --> 00:31:28,945 in therapy one day. 684 00:31:32,302 --> 00:31:34,992 You know, for a bad guy, 685 00:31:35,017 --> 00:31:38,139 you have one hell of a disguise. 686 00:31:38,164 --> 00:31:40,875 That is such a good guy thing to say. 687 00:31:42,157 --> 00:31:44,000 That is. Mmm. 688 00:32:10,683 --> 00:32:12,183 That was intense. 689 00:32:14,116 --> 00:32:15,320 Yeah. 690 00:32:18,468 --> 00:32:21,265 I'm very glad Toby was not here for that. 691 00:32:22,812 --> 00:32:24,125 He probably would have cried, right? 692 00:32:24,149 --> 00:32:26,929 Oh, he would have cried the entire time. 693 00:32:30,804 --> 00:32:32,917 I really like that he cries, by the way. 694 00:32:33,632 --> 00:32:35,186 - Me, too. - Mm. 695 00:32:36,222 --> 00:32:37,671 But it would have been too much. 696 00:32:38,114 --> 00:32:40,781 Way, way too much. 697 00:32:43,828 --> 00:32:45,226 You're not wrong, you know. 698 00:32:47,023 --> 00:32:48,273 I think... 699 00:32:49,320 --> 00:32:51,789 I think losing Dad the way we did, when we did, 700 00:32:53,203 --> 00:32:56,365 it just, it's so much a part of this, you know. 701 00:32:56,390 --> 00:32:57,608 Of all of us. 702 00:33:01,472 --> 00:33:02,672 May I? 703 00:33:16,359 --> 00:33:18,039 You know what would have been sweet? 704 00:33:18,593 --> 00:33:21,962 If we had someone documenting our entire childhood, 705 00:33:21,987 --> 00:33:23,414 Boyhood style. 706 00:33:23,820 --> 00:33:26,710 - Mm, I hate that movie. - Never saw it. 707 00:33:26,744 --> 00:33:27,843 I really loved it. 708 00:33:28,976 --> 00:33:31,023 I'm just saying, if we had someone 709 00:33:31,048 --> 00:33:33,582 filming our entire childhood, objectively, 710 00:33:34,110 --> 00:33:36,046 then we'd never have to debate about anything. 711 00:33:36,718 --> 00:33:39,280 Whenever we remembered things differently, we'd just say, 712 00:33:39,348 --> 00:33:41,048 "Let's go to the videotape," 713 00:33:41,117 --> 00:33:43,718 like Warner Wolf and then see what was really up. 714 00:33:44,312 --> 00:33:45,519 Who's Warner Wolf? 715 00:33:45,588 --> 00:33:48,671 Sportscaster guy, when we were growing up; 716 00:33:48,781 --> 00:33:52,289 used to always say: "Let's go to the videotape." 717 00:33:52,495 --> 00:33:54,171 Then they'd play the highlights. 718 00:33:54,664 --> 00:33:57,257 - Warner Wolf. - Oh. Oh, yeah. 719 00:34:03,953 --> 00:34:06,710 I remember when they were fitting me for glasses as a kid. 720 00:34:07,023 --> 00:34:09,729 I never actually realized just how blurry 721 00:34:09,754 --> 00:34:11,354 everything had always been, 722 00:34:11,500 --> 00:34:15,437 until they stuck my face in this weird thing they called 723 00:34:15,671 --> 00:34:16,701 "The Better Machine." 724 00:34:18,914 --> 00:34:20,531 Is this better? 725 00:34:21,133 --> 00:34:22,266 Or is this better? 726 00:34:23,476 --> 00:34:24,656 The... first one. 727 00:34:25,039 --> 00:34:27,375 Is this better? Or is this better? 728 00:34:28,264 --> 00:34:32,000 So many variations, so many lenses... 729 00:34:32,757 --> 00:34:34,967 each one sharper or blurrier. 730 00:34:35,960 --> 00:34:38,560 My view of the entire world shifted like 12 times 731 00:34:38,585 --> 00:34:39,914 in less than a minute. 732 00:34:47,414 --> 00:34:50,734 I think everyone sees their childhood with different lenses. 733 00:34:52,242 --> 00:34:53,654 You know, different perspectives. 734 00:34:55,094 --> 00:34:56,351 And I didn't come here today 735 00:34:56,376 --> 00:34:58,109 to crap all over your perspective, Kev. 736 00:34:59,117 --> 00:35:01,500 I came here today because last year, 737 00:35:01,525 --> 00:35:03,007 when I was at my lowest... 738 00:35:06,250 --> 00:35:09,359 Bro, I was crying on the floor and I was shaking, and... 739 00:35:09,560 --> 00:35:10,892 hey, Kev, look at me. 740 00:35:11,039 --> 00:35:12,187 Please. 741 00:35:14,890 --> 00:35:16,359 You were there for me, man. 742 00:35:18,234 --> 00:35:20,609 And I wanted to be there for you today and I wasn't. 743 00:35:21,887 --> 00:35:24,327 I did a bad job today and I'm sorry. 744 00:35:27,091 --> 00:35:28,703 I'm really sorry about Tess. 745 00:35:30,764 --> 00:35:31,930 I know. 746 00:35:43,945 --> 00:35:45,420 I love my crazy-ass brothers. 747 00:35:48,406 --> 00:35:49,639 I really do. 748 00:35:50,242 --> 00:35:51,484 So just to clarify: 749 00:35:51,509 --> 00:35:54,039 it's official that I'm Mom's favorite, right? 750 00:35:54,512 --> 00:35:56,664 Is this guy for real? 751 00:35:57,296 --> 00:35:58,548 That's unbelievable. 752 00:35:59,101 --> 00:36:01,150 Yes, you are. I mean, I think she clarified it. 753 00:36:01,219 --> 00:36:02,539 - Really? Really? - Mm-hmm. 754 00:36:02,789 --> 00:36:04,101 Oh, I feel that... oh! 755 00:36:04,264 --> 00:36:05,563 It was Kev, it was Kev! 756 00:36:08,055 --> 00:36:11,502 Our Uber is going to be here in four minutes. 757 00:36:12,476 --> 00:36:13,709 Still can't believe 758 00:36:13,734 --> 00:36:15,007 that you left the car at the bar. 759 00:36:15,031 --> 00:36:16,125 Yeah, well... 760 00:36:17,398 --> 00:36:19,515 Hey, can I ask you something while I still have a... 761 00:36:19,844 --> 00:36:21,445 a brave beer buzz? 762 00:36:22,367 --> 00:36:24,132 Actually, can I just say something first? 763 00:36:24,351 --> 00:36:25,500 Um... 764 00:36:26,689 --> 00:36:27,755 okay. 765 00:36:30,234 --> 00:36:31,843 Ever since the miscarriage, 766 00:36:33,328 --> 00:36:35,140 I have been... 767 00:36:36,616 --> 00:36:37,882 hiding junk food. 768 00:36:38,312 --> 00:36:39,429 Like, a lot. 769 00:36:39,945 --> 00:36:41,656 'Cause it makes me feel good. 770 00:36:42,695 --> 00:36:45,429 But hiding it from you makes me feel awful. 771 00:36:46,429 --> 00:36:48,031 So, I wanted you to know. 772 00:36:50,007 --> 00:36:53,117 I have a lot of things mixed up with food. 773 00:36:53,570 --> 00:36:56,000 And I thought that my issues were kind of obvious. 774 00:36:56,809 --> 00:36:58,125 But I don't know. 775 00:36:59,464 --> 00:37:00,601 I-I don't know. 776 00:37:12,039 --> 00:37:13,195 Hey, bud. 777 00:37:13,828 --> 00:37:15,000 Brought you some dinner. 778 00:37:16,257 --> 00:37:18,445 I even made it with the crunchy cheese on top, 779 00:37:18,564 --> 00:37:19,796 the way you like it. 780 00:37:26,586 --> 00:37:27,843 Hey, Kev. 781 00:37:29,718 --> 00:37:31,179 I'm really sorry. 782 00:37:31,429 --> 00:37:33,270 I want you to know that if you tell me 783 00:37:33,295 --> 00:37:34,762 you didn't take Randall's glasses, 784 00:37:35,432 --> 00:37:36,687 I believe you. 785 00:37:38,547 --> 00:37:39,648 Okay. 786 00:37:43,617 --> 00:37:44,929 All right. Well... 787 00:37:46,828 --> 00:37:48,728 we're just right inside if you need anything. 788 00:38:13,046 --> 00:38:14,250 Kate? 789 00:38:16,166 --> 00:38:17,382 Randall? 790 00:38:36,641 --> 00:38:37,718 Hey, Mom... 791 00:39:14,953 --> 00:39:16,132 Mom? 792 00:39:17,171 --> 00:39:18,342 I'm sorry. 793 00:39:18,367 --> 00:39:20,115 I asked someone where your room was, 794 00:39:20,140 --> 00:39:21,859 and I just came to wait for you. 795 00:39:22,921 --> 00:39:27,210 'Cause I couldn't leave without... talking to you. 796 00:39:29,882 --> 00:39:31,257 Feel like we've done enough talking 797 00:39:31,281 --> 00:39:32,850 for one day, though, right? 798 00:39:33,851 --> 00:39:35,250 I was, um... 799 00:39:37,379 --> 00:39:40,570 thinking about, uh, your first day of kindergarten. 800 00:39:42,171 --> 00:39:46,326 And I remember walking you three into the classroom, 801 00:39:46,351 --> 00:39:51,523 with Randall clinging to my leg and your sister crying. 802 00:39:51,548 --> 00:39:53,195 But you just... 803 00:39:57,203 --> 00:39:58,985 You waltzed right in. 804 00:39:59,539 --> 00:40:00,671 And you didn't... 805 00:40:02,257 --> 00:40:03,664 you didn't even look back. 806 00:40:04,461 --> 00:40:05,757 And... 807 00:40:05,782 --> 00:40:07,187 your father and I were like, 808 00:40:07,212 --> 00:40:09,429 "Wow, look at our brave little boy." 809 00:40:10,718 --> 00:40:12,601 And I remember telling the other two, 810 00:40:12,626 --> 00:40:14,750 "Now you have to learn to be just like Kevin." 811 00:40:15,922 --> 00:40:16,960 Yeah. 812 00:40:23,534 --> 00:40:25,523 I never worried about you. 813 00:40:27,555 --> 00:40:29,718 Because I didn't think that I had to. 814 00:40:32,380 --> 00:40:36,000 But now I realize that I was wrong. 815 00:40:49,385 --> 00:40:51,257 I didn't have an unhappy childhood. 816 00:41:06,866 --> 00:41:08,882 It wasn't as good as I thought. 817 00:41:14,320 --> 00:41:17,289 But I know we had moments, you and me, Kevin. 818 00:41:17,314 --> 00:41:18,523 I know we did. 819 00:41:19,811 --> 00:41:21,765 I feel it in my bones. 820 00:41:37,407 --> 00:41:38,703 Yeah, maybe we did. 821 00:41:40,618 --> 00:41:41,726 I hope we did. 822 00:42:00,843 --> 00:42:04,210 synced and corrected by susinz *www.addic7ed.com*