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I was wondering if perhaps
you wanted to get some clothes.

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Well, yes, I probably should.

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Good.

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This is £200.

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No, I can't take your money
as well as your hospitality.

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Well, the hospitality's a gift.
This is a loan. I...

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No, you've done so much already,
I don't want to be any trouble.

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Well, have you got a bank account?

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No.

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Have you got any cash, money?

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Er, no.

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Well, I don't know
what your Bible says,

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but mine is quite explicit
about helping people in need.

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My sons have moved out.

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My husband left me,

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I like having you here.

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And if you find anything nice
for the Harvest Festival...

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- Look, I'll drop something at the church...
- No, no...

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I didn't mean for you to go.

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I have no intention
of being afraid of him.

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You're going to be OK, aren't you?

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Let's start with a question.

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What do you think a priest is?

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People who talk to God.

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Yeah, that's good. Um...

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But I actually think anyone can talk
to God.

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That's what prayer is.

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A priest is the boss in church.

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I like that. Yes, we are.

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Do you have a class representative?

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Someone who sits on
a committee representing the class?

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Angus.

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Are you Angus?

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On Wednesday, we have roast dinner,

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but Angus decided we should
have sausages instead.

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- Did he talk to you about that decision?
- No.

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- Yeah! I did!
- No, you didn't!

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Would you consider you elected
him your representative leader?

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When it comes
to lunch menus, at least?

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Definitely.

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Definitely? Yeah?

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Right, well, I would say,

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what I do is spiritual leadership.

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I don't decide what we have for lunch

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but I do lead people,

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or try to, in their prayer
and their worship.

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And that's why I'm here today,
to talk to you about

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a festival we're going to
be running at my church.

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Who here has heard
of Harvest Festival?

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- Me!
- I have!

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Good! And who can tell me
what it's all about?

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Thank you for doing that.

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Talking of business,

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were you able to give any
more consideration

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to my needle-exchange idea?

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Yes, Harvest Festivals,
needle banks...

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They did warn me that you were
radical when you came our way.

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It's just a small capital
investment.

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Now this diocese is already running
three full-time food banks.

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I think there are six part-time
ones, and the Deanery is...

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Well, it's taken to opening its
doors twice a week as a warm bank,

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and there's countless outreach
educational groups.

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OK, but those are all necessary.

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The diocese has
£53 million in funds,

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21 of which is cash in the bank.
Surely, we can find some...

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How long have you been
with us? Is it two years?

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Three.

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Well, don't you think you ought
to settle in properly

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before you try taking on MY job?

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Look, I know what happened
with this nun and, clearly,

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clearly, there is no...

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no blame attached to you.

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But it's not as if your copy book
wasn't already blotted,

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and now you're, you're
digging into our accounts?

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You've heard about...?

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I never knew that she was so
flighty.

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Silly.

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I think there was...

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It was confusion.

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Oh, there's no
confusion. She took a vow.

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And she didn't even wait to ask
for permission to leave.

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I did... If you want to find her,
I do know where she is.

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Well, we know where she is,

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but the Abbess, she wants,

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she wants her to stew a little.

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Oh, poor Anna,

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she has absolutely no idea of
the real world.

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Good luck, David!

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Er, and thanks once again.

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Very kind of you.

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Come on.

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- Oh, sorry. I need to count your...
- I'm sorry?

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I need to count your clothes.

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You need to count them?

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Let me take this. Thanks.

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It's a recruitment drive.

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You've discovered a way
to recruit people!

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You love it! Admit it, you do!

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They get to feel charitable
about donating a can of beans.

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They remind themselves
they're Catholic,

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see the inside of a Church.

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They might even, God forbid,
come to the actual service.

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- How many cans of beans do we have?
- At a rough estimate, 467.

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- I could fill the front three pews.
- Or we could keep them

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and do that thing where we push you
down a hill in a bath full of beans.

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Well, I don't think that would do
your reputation any good at all.

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Especially now.

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It's all over the diocese.

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The pretty priest who
steals sisters.

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It's not my fault she's flighty.

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Oh, "flighty", is it?

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I brought home some food.

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Chinese.

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Cos I like it.

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I hope you like it.

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Pretty much like all food.

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How was your day?

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Not the best.

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We're overrun.

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Oh, I'm sorry.

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Yeah...

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Been overrun for years.

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So, what did you get?

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Shopping, I mean.

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It felt a bit much, to be honest.

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We need a drink.

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But first I'm going to
get you some clothes.

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See, we didn't have mirrors
in the convent. Course, you didn't!

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And, well, I seem to have lost the
ability to look at myself.

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And yet, everybody else seemed
to want to look at me.

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It's almost as if I've forgotten
what I look like.

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Not that I think I'm still 16.

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You've got a beautiful face.

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No, no, no...

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It's not... It's not
a question of pride, I...

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Do you know, to be honest,

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I've got to admit, I don't like
changing rooms either.

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Everything had short sleeves.

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And the tops, the dresses,

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and I just wanted something to...

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to cover myself.

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What is it you want covered?

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Well, my arms and... and my legs.

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I mean, there were some
long sleeves but...

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It's not that I don't like
my arms, I mean,

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I don't really think
about my arms, but...

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I...

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I have never shaved my armpits.

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And everything felt very...

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Well, very exposing of that.

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And...

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I've also never shaved my legs.

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I am profoundly hairy.

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Father David.

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Oh, hi. I was called to a
Gertrude Blaisey?

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Yes, of course, take a seat.

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Thanks for coming.

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- You're Lucy?
- Yeah.

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Um, thank you for ringing me.

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I care deeply about your mum.

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I've missed her at Mass.

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- Went in every day, right?
- That's right.

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Bet her confession was a blast.

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Did she talk about me?

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I know you can't say.

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Wink for yes, maybe.

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Gertrude was...

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Is very kind around the parish.

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She wasn't...

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I wasn't Catholic.

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She wasn't Catholic
when I was a child.

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She was when she was a kid,
but found being an adult more...

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difficult.

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I'm guessing...

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- you two didn't always get on?
- No.

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She... liked to hurt.

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I'm sorry about that.

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I'm just...

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pleased someone's forgiven her.

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It's time.

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Lucy, would you come in with me?

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The Last Rites are something...

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really quite beautiful.

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It's a celebration of the sacraments
of penance and viaticum.

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Viaticum is a Latin word
meaning provision and love

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for the next part of the journey.

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Viaticum,

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"With you on the way."

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It's about faith, of course,

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but I think it's mostly about love.

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I can't...

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It doesn't have
to be about your forgiveness.

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I'm not challenging your anger.

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All that's asked for

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is your support for her penance

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and her journey.

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I definitely support
her penance.

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Do you have anything to say
to me, Gertrude?

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If you're unable to talk,
just squeeze my hand,

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if you're sorry
for anything you've done wrong.

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I just...

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want to say...

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Thanks, Gertrude. Thank you...

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for being a really good friend...

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me and to the community.

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I think we saw the very best
of you.

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I love you...

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very much.

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God, the Father of mercies,

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through the death
and resurrection of his Son,

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has reconciled the world to Himself

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and sent
the Holy Spirit among us

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for the forgiveness of sins.

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Through the ministry of his Church,

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may God give you peace

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and pardon.

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I absolve you from your sins,

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in the name of the Father,

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of the Son,

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and the Holy Spirit.

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- I don't like this.
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My name's David, I'm an alcoholic.

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Hi, David.

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I'm also, as most of you know,
a priest.

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It's been a while since I've spoken.

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I was, in Reading,

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quite a big deal.

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I was given a lot of
responsibilities in the diocese,

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a lot for my age.

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There were those that said
I was to be the next bishop,

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quite a young bishop.

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There were a group
of kids I was counselling.

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Not all Catholics, but I was pushing
for a church that reaches out.

284
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I wasn't a trained counsellor,
but...

285
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I'd done courses and I thought
the priesthood was social work.

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I... I thought this boy,

287
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I won't tell you his name, was...

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being abused...

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and...

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I was trying to help him,

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get him to admit what
had happened to him,

292
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how he felt about it.

293
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Things that I felt he needed,

294
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And he... he did tell me.

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He told me all sorts.

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It was his father... raping him.

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And...

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the... the difficult thing was...

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The difficult thing was that

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he told me he thought he liked it.

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And then, he...

302
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He killed himself.

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It was very...

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sad.

305
00:22:33,000 --> 00:22:34,800
No-one blames me, but...

306
00:22:36,840 --> 00:22:39,590
people kept telling me
to pray and...

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kept wanting to pray themselves
and I led them, that's my job,

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I led them in praying, and...

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that's when I lost it.

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The ability to pray.

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I found I could only talk to God,

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I could only find God within myself,
when I drank.

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I found... truth.

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Solace.

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I don't know.

316
00:23:13,000 --> 00:23:17,280
And I took to starting
the day with a drink.

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You know, I'm... I'm not blaming it
on losing the kid,

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it was my own weakness.

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00:23:27,040 --> 00:23:29,600
I'm not saying that was the reason,
but it was the...

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trigger.

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00:23:33,600 --> 00:23:34,760
Anyway...

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I was no longer talked of
as a future bishop.

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Someone saw wthat
was happening and

324
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I was taken away
and treated and...

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helped.

326
00:23:53,080 --> 00:23:55,190
And...

327
00:23:55,200 --> 00:23:56,680
I moved in with my sister...

328
00:23:58,000 --> 00:24:00,400
and found a new life.

329
00:24:02,200 --> 00:24:03,520
Here.

330
00:24:05,120 --> 00:24:07,320
It's rare for priests to move...

331
00:24:08,720 --> 00:24:12,040
but Bristol was good enough
to welcome me and...

332
00:24:14,720 --> 00:24:16,400
I felt I was doing good.

333
00:24:17,680 --> 00:24:18,840
Perhaps not good enough, but...

334
00:24:21,080 --> 00:24:22,320
good work.

335
00:24:26,360 --> 00:24:27,639
But...

336
00:24:29,320 --> 00:24:30,760
Lately...

337
00:24:32,440 --> 00:24:34,840
things have become disturbed.

338
00:24:39,160 --> 00:24:42,080
And I... I... I guess I'm...

339
00:24:44,240 --> 00:24:46,040
scared I'm going to...

340
00:24:54,320 --> 00:24:57,120
Right now,
I need a drink so badly.

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In the name of the Father and of
the Son and of the Holy Spirit.

342
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Amen.

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- The Lord be with you.
- And with your spirit.

344
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Lord, we have sinned against you.
Lord have mercy.

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00:25:44,640 --> 00:25:45,960
Lord have mercy.

346
00:25:47,960 --> 00:25:49,760
Show us your mercy and your love.

347
00:25:51,120 --> 00:25:52,640
And grant us your salvation.

348
00:25:53,760 --> 00:25:56,350
May Almighty God have mercy on us,

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forgive our sins

350
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and bring us to everlasting life.

351
00:26:01,440 --> 00:26:03,640
- Amen.
- Amen.

352
00:26:16,720 --> 00:26:18,200
Welcome!

353
00:26:21,240 --> 00:26:24,159
Welcome to something
a bit different!

354
00:26:27,600 --> 00:26:31,230
Now the Catholic Church
is not known for its thieving,

355
00:26:31,240 --> 00:26:33,160
apart from all the things
we've stolen.

356
00:26:35,080 --> 00:26:38,670
But this today is
an audacious act of larceny,

357
00:26:38,680 --> 00:26:41,670
taking back from
the Church of England what is,

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in fact, a Catholic event.

359
00:26:43,880 --> 00:26:45,470
In fact, I'll go further.

360
00:26:45,480 --> 00:26:47,190
A Catholic embrace.

361
00:26:47,200 --> 00:26:49,950
A celebration not of plenty

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00:26:49,960 --> 00:26:52,510
but of eliminating want,

363
00:26:52,520 --> 00:26:55,560
of giving and the understanding
of need.

364
00:26:56,920 --> 00:27:00,390
St Isidore, often called
the "Farmer",

365
00:27:00,400 --> 00:27:03,630
and our Saint of Harvest, said this,

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"When God's grace touches
our innermost minds

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00:27:06,400 --> 00:27:08,630
"to bring understanding,

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00:27:08,640 --> 00:27:12,110
"His word, which is received
by the ear,

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00:27:12,120 --> 00:27:15,360
"can sink deep into our heart."

370
00:27:17,280 --> 00:27:18,760
Today's an act of love.

371
00:27:21,520 --> 00:27:25,230
And let's start by singing
hymn number 432,

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Come, Ye Thankful People, Come.

373
00:27:40,560 --> 00:27:46,110
? Come, ye thankful people, come

374
00:27:46,120 --> 00:27:51,670
? Raise the song
of harvest home... ?

375
00:27:51,680 --> 00:27:54,550
- Well, that was a beautiful service.
- Yeah.

376
00:27:54,560 --> 00:27:57,040
You still fancy him though, right?

377
00:28:02,280 --> 00:28:05,070
I hope he didn't think
I got my hair done for him.

378
00:28:05,080 --> 00:28:08,560
You had a haircut,
you didn't get your hair "done".

379
00:28:12,040 --> 00:28:13,830
I felt so ashamed sitting there.

380
00:28:13,840 --> 00:28:15,400
Well, you shouldn't have.

381
00:28:18,680 --> 00:28:20,750
I felt...

382
00:28:20,760 --> 00:28:24,640
- I feel like I'm ten years old!
- Well, you're not!

383
00:28:26,000 --> 00:28:29,240
And I say that as someone
who's shaved your armpits!

384
00:28:46,300 --> 00:28:48,200
_

385
00:28:50,200 --> 00:28:51,800
_

386
00:28:52,600 --> 00:28:53,900
_

387
00:28:54,010 --> 00:28:55,410
_

388
00:28:55,820 --> 00:28:57,220
_

389
00:28:57,230 --> 00:28:58,230
_

390
00:28:58,340 --> 00:28:59,640
_

391
00:29:00,850 --> 00:29:02,650
_

392
00:29:03,160 --> 00:29:05,060
_

393
00:29:05,618 --> 00:29:07,598
_

394
00:29:07,608 --> 00:29:09,621
_

395
00:29:09,631 --> 00:29:11,318
_

396
00:29:11,628 --> 00:29:12,628
_

397
00:29:12,838 --> 00:29:14,438
_

398
00:29:14,548 --> 00:29:16,148
_

399
00:29:20,258 --> 00:29:21,258
_

400
00:29:23,100 --> 00:29:24,700
_

401
00:29:24,810 --> 00:29:25,810
_

402
00:29:26,020 --> 00:29:29,020
_

403
00:29:32,200 --> 00:29:33,200
_

404
00:29:34,600 --> 00:29:37,600
_

405
00:30:09,280 --> 00:30:10,920
Dad?

406
00:30:12,840 --> 00:30:14,240
Your mother wanted a word.

407
00:30:17,800 --> 00:30:20,430
- Who is he?
- It doesn't matter.

408
00:30:20,440 --> 00:30:23,480
- I'm not discussing him with you.
- Why not?

409
00:30:24,760 --> 00:30:26,670
Because I don't want your judgment.

410
00:30:26,680 --> 00:30:29,310
26 years, just torn up, like that!

411
00:30:29,320 --> 00:30:30,800
That's not how I see it.

412
00:30:33,920 --> 00:30:36,990
I don't have to justifying
my choices to you.

413
00:30:37,000 --> 00:30:40,910
You just walked out on a job
for a man who won't look at you.

414
00:30:40,920 --> 00:30:42,670
How DO you see it?

415
00:30:42,680 --> 00:30:44,870
Did you come here just
to shout at me, Mum?

416
00:30:44,880 --> 00:30:46,790
You were 16!

417
00:30:46,800 --> 00:30:48,630
I told you it was a mistake.

418
00:30:48,640 --> 00:30:50,470
You were so sure,

419
00:30:50,480 --> 00:30:53,470
until, suddenly, you throw it all
away! All that work!

420
00:30:53,480 --> 00:30:55,070
"All that work"?

421
00:30:55,080 --> 00:30:57,390
You made a commitment.

422
00:30:57,400 --> 00:31:01,199
A commitment
which ripped my heart out.

423
00:31:02,760 --> 00:31:04,790
Your dad's heart out.
And now, it means nothing.

424
00:31:04,800 --> 00:31:08,110
I made a commitment
which I... I do not regret.

425
00:31:08,120 --> 00:31:10,830
- Of course, you regret it.
- But now, I realise that...

426
00:31:10,840 --> 00:31:13,990
Now you realise you've thrown away
the best part of your life,

427
00:31:14,000 --> 00:31:17,240
and he doesn't want you back, right?

428
00:31:18,840 --> 00:31:22,440
You made this choice
and HE doesn't want you back.

429
00:31:24,360 --> 00:31:27,270
That's the thing you could
never understand.

430
00:31:27,280 --> 00:31:30,030
There's a point where you are,
as a woman,

431
00:31:30,040 --> 00:31:32,250
where we all are,
so beautiful, but now...

432
00:31:32,260 --> 00:31:33,280
I'm not.

433
00:31:37,680 --> 00:31:38,840
Go home.

434
00:31:40,280 --> 00:31:42,030
I needed to see you.

435
00:31:42,040 --> 00:31:46,440
You are making your problems mine,
Mum, like you always do.

436
00:31:48,160 --> 00:31:49,440
Go home.

437
00:31:51,080 --> 00:31:53,310
Don't remember the wrong things
from this.

438
00:31:53,320 --> 00:31:54,740
You've made your point.

439
00:31:56,720 --> 00:31:58,000
Go home.

440
00:32:18,760 --> 00:32:20,190
Hello, Father.

441
00:32:20,200 --> 00:32:21,560
Hello, Muriel.

442
00:32:22,600 --> 00:32:24,150
I was...

443
00:32:24,160 --> 00:32:25,670
I was wondering if...

444
00:32:25,680 --> 00:32:27,280
I could talk to...

445
00:32:31,680 --> 00:32:33,640
I wondered if you fancied a walk.

446
00:32:43,800 --> 00:32:45,560
I enjoyed your Harvest service.

447
00:32:46,960 --> 00:32:48,480
I was pleased to see you there.

448
00:32:49,760 --> 00:32:52,630
Surprised, if I'm honest.

449
00:32:52,640 --> 00:32:57,030
There's something basic, isn't
there, about the Harvest

450
00:32:57,040 --> 00:32:58,550
as a time for sharing.

451
00:32:58,560 --> 00:33:00,670
It was originally Catholic.

452
00:33:00,680 --> 00:33:03,550
Until Henry VIII, it was a Catholic
service, and the Irish...

453
00:33:03,560 --> 00:33:07,600
Yes, I think you mentioned
that... a few times!

454
00:33:09,520 --> 00:33:12,600
How long did it take you
to write it, the sermon?

455
00:33:14,680 --> 00:33:16,510
Depends why you're asking.

456
00:33:16,520 --> 00:33:17,950
I liked it.

457
00:33:17,960 --> 00:33:20,790
All the stuff about
the true nature of giving, I...

458
00:33:20,800 --> 00:33:22,710
I thought you gave a really...

459
00:33:22,720 --> 00:33:25,950
A true analysis of generosity
as an exchange.

460
00:33:25,960 --> 00:33:27,520
Yeah. Thank you.

461
00:33:29,000 --> 00:33:30,710
I... I...

462
00:33:30,720 --> 00:33:34,070
I write them very quickly.
Often in the bath.

463
00:33:34,080 --> 00:33:36,200
And then, I revise them quite a bit.

464
00:33:38,160 --> 00:33:40,470
So, you write in the bath?

465
00:33:40,480 --> 00:33:43,350
Well, I actually dictate them
into my phone.

466
00:33:43,360 --> 00:33:46,190
I can hear the water moving
when I listen back.

467
00:33:47,640 --> 00:33:49,590
That's an odd image.

468
00:33:49,600 --> 00:33:53,124
Suppose there isn't a
great deal to do but think,

469
00:33:53,134 --> 00:33:54,400
when you're wet.

470
00:33:56,720 --> 00:33:57,880
No.

471
00:34:01,280 --> 00:34:04,270
My parents came to see me. Furious.

472
00:34:04,280 --> 00:34:06,230
- About leaving your...?
- Yeah.

473
00:34:06,240 --> 00:34:08,310
I thought you said they weren't
especially Catholic?

474
00:34:08,320 --> 00:34:10,830
Well, my mum didn't want me
to become a nun,

475
00:34:10,840 --> 00:34:12,870
- but here I am...
- Doing it anyway.

476
00:34:12,880 --> 00:34:14,750
Well, leaving,

477
00:34:14,760 --> 00:34:18,200
having ruined the best part of my
life serving something fruitless.

478
00:34:19,720 --> 00:34:22,270
You haven't ruined
the best parts of your life.

479
00:34:22,280 --> 00:34:23,920
If only you were my mother.

480
00:34:25,640 --> 00:34:28,190
My parents were troubled
by my choice.

481
00:34:28,200 --> 00:34:30,190
My sister thought it was great.

482
00:34:30,200 --> 00:34:32,710
Not like the good old days
when that third child

483
00:34:32,720 --> 00:34:34,630
would be stuffed off to the clergy.

484
00:34:34,640 --> 00:34:36,870
Think that's more of
an Anglican tradition.

485
00:34:36,880 --> 00:34:38,870
Do they come to your services?

486
00:34:38,880 --> 00:34:40,120
Both dead.

487
00:34:41,400 --> 00:34:43,350
My sister's still around though.

488
00:34:43,360 --> 00:34:45,600
She's the natural daughter.
I was adopted.

489
00:34:48,200 --> 00:34:49,880
So, your parents were...?

490
00:34:51,920 --> 00:34:53,040
What, white?

491
00:34:54,400 --> 00:34:55,630
Yeah.

492
00:34:55,640 --> 00:34:58,430
Isn't it strange how that question's
always the first one people ask?

493
00:34:58,440 --> 00:35:00,830
Sorry for the boring question.

494
00:35:00,840 --> 00:35:04,030
- It's not boring at all. Just marginally...
- Racist.

495
00:35:04,040 --> 00:35:05,760
Socially telling.

496
00:35:10,600 --> 00:35:12,560
I don't want to have sex with you.

497
00:35:13,960 --> 00:35:15,160
Sorry?

498
00:35:19,440 --> 00:35:21,510
I don't know what this is,

499
00:35:21,520 --> 00:35:25,030
but I've kept thinking about it
and I just wanted to say,

500
00:35:25,040 --> 00:35:27,440
that I don't think I
want to have sex with you.

501
00:35:30,800 --> 00:35:33,190
OK...

502
00:35:33,200 --> 00:35:36,790
Or, well, maybe I do.
Maybe I'm just saying that to...

503
00:35:36,800 --> 00:35:38,630
But sex, the...

504
00:35:38,640 --> 00:35:41,830
the idea of sex, but even when
you were talking about yourself,

505
00:35:41,840 --> 00:35:46,230
you know, in the bath,
actually, that didn't do it for me,

506
00:35:46,240 --> 00:35:50,990
because the idea of sex
is truly terrifying to me,

507
00:35:51,000 --> 00:35:53,070
as I'm sure it is to you.

508
00:35:53,080 --> 00:35:55,360
Er, I'm not even sure how
I even feel about kissing.

509
00:35:57,400 --> 00:35:59,670
I just don't know...

510
00:35:59,680 --> 00:36:01,000
what this is.

511
00:36:02,680 --> 00:36:04,990
The way you make me feel...

512
00:36:05,000 --> 00:36:09,440
The way you made me feel
in an instant is...

513
00:36:11,360 --> 00:36:15,870
It remains something
I can't explain or,

514
00:36:15,880 --> 00:36:17,470
or even understand.

515
00:36:17,480 --> 00:36:18,800
Even now.

516
00:36:21,960 --> 00:36:23,590
It's something else.

517
00:36:23,600 --> 00:36:24,800
It's...

518
00:36:26,000 --> 00:36:27,910
something more.

519
00:36:27,920 --> 00:36:29,240
So...

520
00:36:30,640 --> 00:36:31,880
that's it!

521
00:36:35,360 --> 00:36:37,600
Now... Now, you have to talk.

522
00:36:45,720 --> 00:36:47,440
I just wanted to see you.

523
00:36:48,640 --> 00:36:49,640
Why?

524
00:36:51,160 --> 00:36:52,959
Cos I like you.

525
00:36:56,200 --> 00:36:57,680
What a safe word to use.

526
00:37:02,040 --> 00:37:05,030
I suppose I was worried about you.

527
00:37:05,040 --> 00:37:06,400
Of course you are.

528
00:37:10,360 --> 00:37:11,840
But...

529
00:37:13,200 --> 00:37:16,480
Thank you for the clarity...

530
00:37:18,840 --> 00:37:20,160
about the sex.

531
00:37:38,560 --> 00:37:40,560
I don't want to have sex
with you.

532
00:37:43,360 --> 00:37:45,200
But I do want to hold your hand.

533
00:38:06,440 --> 00:38:07,840
OK.

534
00:38:11,440 --> 00:38:12,760
OK.

535
00:38:15,000 --> 00:38:16,760
My position hasn't changed.

536
00:38:18,520 --> 00:38:20,030
No, you're...

537
00:38:20,040 --> 00:38:21,710
Er, you're worried for me.

538
00:38:21,720 --> 00:38:25,070
You don't want to have sex with me
and you don't have feelings for me.

539
00:38:25,080 --> 00:38:26,950
Are you going to keep saying
the word "sex"?

540
00:38:26,960 --> 00:38:28,760
I know, now I've started
I can't stop.

541
00:38:33,040 --> 00:38:36,840
My promises are... everything to me.

542
00:38:38,480 --> 00:38:43,040
My service to God matters... to me.

543
00:38:45,160 --> 00:38:46,560
My feelings for you...

544
00:38:48,560 --> 00:38:51,200
are ones of care and...

545
00:38:52,800 --> 00:38:54,160
friendship.

546
00:38:56,120 --> 00:38:58,120
- OK.
- Look, all I want to do...

547
00:39:01,280 --> 00:39:02,840
I want to help you.

548
00:39:05,760 --> 00:39:08,630
You know,
I threw my life up for you,

549
00:39:08,640 --> 00:39:11,590
and you can deny
responsibility, but I...

550
00:39:11,600 --> 00:39:14,070
- Hang on, I'm responsible...?
- Yes.

551
00:39:14,080 --> 00:39:16,710
Yes, you are.
And now, you're sat here

552
00:39:16,720 --> 00:39:18,870
like a... a wet pudding,

553
00:39:18,880 --> 00:39:21,959
and I feel like I'm the one who has
to make you feel OK.

554
00:39:25,120 --> 00:39:28,430
- I... I should go.
- But you came to my service.

555
00:39:28,440 --> 00:39:30,950
- Yes, I came to your church.
- Why?

556
00:39:30,960 --> 00:39:32,228
To take part in a festival.

557
00:39:32,238 --> 00:39:34,120
- Well, it felt like you were...
- What?

558
00:39:35,720 --> 00:39:37,080
What?

559
00:39:42,600 --> 00:39:46,040
I'd hoped it was
an act of friendship.

560
00:39:47,440 --> 00:39:50,495
Well, it must be lovely to
have hopes like you've got.

561
00:39:54,200 --> 00:39:58,270
I want to be your friend
and "help" isn't a bad word.

562
00:39:58,280 --> 00:40:00,270
I want to support you in what
you're doing.

563
00:40:00,280 --> 00:40:01,720
I want to...

564
00:40:03,400 --> 00:40:05,720
I can't be that.

565
00:40:07,760 --> 00:40:09,680
But I can be...

566
00:40:11,560 --> 00:40:13,790
- I'd like to be your friend.
- OK.

567
00:40:13,800 --> 00:40:16,950
Well, I accept your friendship.

568
00:40:16,960 --> 00:40:17,970
- You do?
- Yes.

569
00:40:17,980 --> 00:40:19,710
- Thank you.
- Yes, I do.

570
00:40:19,720 --> 00:40:22,110
But... I am...

571
00:40:22,120 --> 00:40:24,920
I'm tired now and I want to go home.

572
00:40:27,760 --> 00:40:29,200
Do you even know the way?

573
00:40:30,440 --> 00:40:33,400
I've always been good at retracing
my steps.

574
00:40:35,880 --> 00:40:38,630
You know, I was sure,
when I became a nun

575
00:40:38,640 --> 00:40:41,310
and I am equally sure now.

576
00:40:41,320 --> 00:40:44,080
I just know that God's path
for me has changed.

577
00:40:45,800 --> 00:40:47,080
And I... I...

578
00:40:48,360 --> 00:40:52,400
I believe that God's path
for you has changed, too.

579
00:40:53,960 --> 00:40:56,630
Now, I am not some caged bird

580
00:40:56,640 --> 00:40:59,230
who saw a means of escape.

581
00:40:59,240 --> 00:41:01,200
I saw what you felt.

582
00:41:04,480 --> 00:41:05,800
And I felt it, too.

583
00:41:08,920 --> 00:41:10,560
I didn't imagine it.

584
00:41:31,500 --> 00:41:37,500
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