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- Have fun.
- Love you.

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I chase perfection.

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Brain freeze.

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I know it's tomorrow, I...

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I'm not gonna make that deadline.

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I'll send you an email later today.
We'll square it away.

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Okay.

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Thank you so much. I appreciate that.

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I got plenty of time.

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Why? Why are you texting me?

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You know I'm work...

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Hey, look at this new trick I learned.

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Come on.

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- I gotta go.
- It's Sunday.

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I know.

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What's coming up for you?

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I don't know, I've just been irritated.

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You ever feel like you're
doing everything right?

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You're meeting your deadlines. You're
pushing yourself every single day,

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but there's still
something nagging at you.

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And you don't know what it is.
It just...

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It looms above your fucking head.

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I'm always fucking tired.

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Motivation just does not exist.

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You ever feel that?

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1,000%.

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Just last week,

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I could have added seven
things to that list.

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You know, these feelings
that come up are fleeting.

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They're here, and then they're gone.

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You're happy and then it's gone.

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You're sad and then it's gone.

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The pain hits when we decide to hold on.

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What are you holding on to?

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I don't know.

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A lot.

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Growing up the way that I did,

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I was basically shown that
shit is gonna go wrong.

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It didn't matter how good
or bad of a person you are.

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Life is gonna hit you,

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and the only thing you
can do is hit back.

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Anytime I've ever given up on something,

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it was because I was too scared to fail.

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I had this perfect picture of the
artist I thought I was and...

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it looked nothing like me.

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You know how bad that hurt?

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Don't you want to put
on your comfy cozies?

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In a bit.

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What's wrong?

53
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I think I'm just burnt out.

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Give me a day. I'll be back.

55
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Don't you think it's all
the alarm clocks at 5 a.m.?

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And the lists.

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You work too hard.

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Yeah.

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Maybe we should finally take
that finger painting class.

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Get a little creative. Low pressure.

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Sounds nice.

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- Hold me.
- Okay.

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Please.

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- Okay. Summer.
- Oh, man.

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I'm exhausted.

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Yikes.

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Close enough.

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I don't even remember how to play this.

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That's kind of nice.

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It's, like, very pop punk. What is that?

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? Something with this ?
? Chord progression ?

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Remember that, Daren.

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Maybe you'll find someone
and you can bring them...

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My guy!

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I think so...

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Okay, wait, Justin's here.

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Greetings and salutations.
I am Mr. Deguzman.

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Thank you for coming to my
bi-monthly figure painting

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finger painting class.

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- We love a paint and sip.
- It's not, technically,

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but okay.

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What if I'm bad?

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What do you mean? We're finger painting.

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- You're right.
- Don't worry about skill level.

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Today I ask you to freely
express your truest self.

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At the end, we'll go round one by one

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for a little show and tell.

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So make sure yours is perfect.

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Paint what you see,

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not what you think.

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You have ten seconds.

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Go!

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Eight.

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Seven.

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Six.

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Five. Four.

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Three. Two.

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One.

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Time!

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Art is simple. You paint
from hearts, not mind.

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Next.

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You have 30 seconds.

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29. 28.

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Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!

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22.

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- Oh my goodness!
- 21.

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Beautiful work.

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- Three. Two.
- I'm having the time of my life.

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Time!

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Are you okay?

111
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It's time to share.

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Who's first?

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I mean, I'll go.

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- Looking good, bro.
- Good to see you, my g. How you been?

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- Looking nice.
- Hey, same. Will you look at the belt buckle!

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- It's calm, it's calm.
- Hey, what'd you think of the class? How'd you like it?

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It's all right. What'd you paint?

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- How you feeling?
- Damn. Okay.

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- You're good at this.
- I'm all right at it.

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Can I see yours or...?

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Nah. Yo, you still making music?

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Yo, I actually got a
release party coming up.

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- It's gonna be low key, though.
- Okay.

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But you and Ava should come through.

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- Where are we going? Hi!
- Oh my God!

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- What's going on?
- Look at this.

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I was just trying to tell Daren
I got a release party coming up,

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performing some new songs, and
y'all should come through.

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I think we can even get D up on stage.

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Come on, y'all. No.

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Bro.

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- Okay. Cool, cool.
- But we can go.

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- I mean, yeah, we'll be there.
- Yeah.

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Daren, think about it.

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- I will.
- It'll be like old times.

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Okay, fine.

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All right. Period.

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That was really fun tonight.

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Really?

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I was suffering.

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Suffering?

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- It was finger painting.
- But did you see Justin?

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That motherfucker is smooth.

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He's got the fit.

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He painted whatever he wanted.

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I like him.

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So you're gonna perform with him again?

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You know the answer to that. No.

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- What?
- I missed the old DBG.

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Here we go.

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? I don't know ? ? How to tell you ?

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? You don't know ? ? How to be me ?

153
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? Tell myself in the mirror ?

154
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? Denis, ship it on repeat ?

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You're not ready?

156
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That was cute, but...

157
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That was a hit song, okay?

158
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Why did you stop making music, Daren?

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I know your focus shifted
when you moved to New York,

160
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but we never really discussed that.

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I guess it was just too painful...

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and I kept building it up in my mind.

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Sometimes we love something so much

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that we put an incredible
amount of pressure on it

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to live up to our standards.

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Like, we can't do something

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unless we're the greatest at it.

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What happened to singing
songs because it felt good?

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I guess you're right.

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It's kind of funny. I picked
up my guitar earlier and...

171
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it felt great.

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I might have even written something.

173
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I mean, it's nothing,

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but I haven't written nothing
in a long time, so...

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That's amazing.

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See? That right there, is it.

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That could be enough.

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Thank you guys so much.

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This song means a lot to me.

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I actually wrote it on a
night when I lost all hope.

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And if you're out there
and you feel that way,

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please don't lose faith in
yourself or hope in yourself.

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This might backfire, y'all,

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but my boy Daren is in the audience

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and I'd love to invite him on stage.

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We used to make music back in the day,

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and I'd love for him to
be able to shine with me.

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Daren, are you down?

189
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Come on up, bro. Come
on, come on, come on.

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Hey, y'all, let's hear it for him.
Let's hear it for him.

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Come on, come on, come on, come on.

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Let's hear it for you. Come on.

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Come on, bro, you got this.
You got this.

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Come on, you got this.

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I...

196
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wasn't prepared for this.

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Nor did I want it.

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? Okay, I'm done ?

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? I'm moving on from
this ? ? Version of me ?

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? That had to be perfect ?

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? I knew I used to be ?

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? Everybody hated that ?
? I made it about me ?

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? Okay, I'm done ?

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? I said ? ? I'd never be like them ?

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? I lied ?

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? Told them it was easy ?

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? That I tried ? ? My very best ?

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? But I'm not doing fine ?

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? I'm moving on from
this ? ? Version of me ?

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Oh, the boy is back!

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? Okay, I'm done ?

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00:16:38,504 --> 00:16:43,784
? Moving on from this
? ? Version of me ?

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? That had to be perfect... ?

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? Okay, I'm done ?

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? I'm moving on from
this ? ? Version of me ?

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? That had to be perfect ?
? I knew I used to be ?

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? Everybody hated that ? ?
I made it all about me ?

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? Okay, I'm done ?

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? I'm done ?

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? I'm done, I'm done ?
? I'm fucking done ?

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Make some noise. Make
some noise for my boy!

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Come on. Come on. Come on.

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Come on. Let me hear y'all.
You did good.

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I kind of bodied it, like,

225
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lowkey I was perfect.

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Daren.

227
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I'm kidding. Not perfect.

228
00:17:47,938 --> 00:17:50,808
Just... I did an incredibly good job.

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? Okay, I'm gone ? ? I'm
moving on from here ?

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? Okay, I'm gone ?

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? Okay, I'm gone ?

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? I'm moving on from here ?

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? From who I used to be ?

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? When I was ? ? The unhealthy mind ?

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