- Have fun. - Love you.
I chase perfection.
Brain freeze.
I know it's tomorrow, I...
I'm not gonna make that deadline.
I'll send you an email later today. We'll square it away.
Okay.
Thank you so much. I appreciate that.
I got plenty of time.
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Why? Why are you texting me?
You know I'm work...
Hey, look at this new trick I learned.
Come on.
- I gotta go. - It's Sunday.
I know.
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What's coming up for you?
I don't know, I've just been irritated.
You ever feel like you're doing everything right?
You're meeting your deadlines. You're pushing yourself every single day,
but there's still something nagging at you.
And you don't know what it is. It just...
It looms above your fucking head.
I'm always fucking tired.
Motivation just does not exist.
You ever feel that?
1,000%.
Just last week,
I could have added seven things to that list.
You know, these feelings that come up are fleeting.
They're here, and then they're gone.
You're happy and then it's gone.
You're sad and then it's gone.
The pain hits when we decide to hold on.
What are you holding on to?
I don't know.
A lot.
Growing up the way that I did,
I was basically shown that shit is gonna go wrong.
It didn't matter how good or bad of a person you are.
Life is gonna hit you,
and the only thing you can do is hit back.
Anytime I've ever given up on something,
it was because I was too scared to fail.
I had this perfect picture of the artist I thought I was and...
it looked nothing like me.
You know how bad that hurt?
Don't you want to put on your comfy cozies?
In a bit.
What's wrong?
I think I'm just burnt out.
Give me a day. I'll be back.
Don't you think it's all the alarm clocks at 5 a.m.?
And the lists.
You work too hard.
Yeah.
Maybe we should finally take that finger painting class.
Get a little creative. Low pressure.
Sounds nice.
- Hold me. - Okay.
Please.
- Okay. Summer. - Oh, man.
I'm exhausted.
Yikes.
Close enough.
I don't even remember how to play this.
That's kind of nice.
It's, like, very pop punk. What is that?
? Something with this ? ? Chord progression ?
Remember that, Daren.
Maybe you'll find someone and you can bring them...
My guy!
I think so...
Okay, wait, Justin's here.
Greetings and salutations. I am Mr. Deguzman.
Thank you for coming to my bi-monthly figure painting
finger painting class.
- We love a paint and sip. - It's not, technically,
but okay.
What if I'm bad?
What do you mean? We're finger painting.
- You're right. - Don't worry about skill level.
Today I ask you to freely express your truest self.
At the end, we'll go round one by one
for a little show and tell.
So make sure yours is perfect.
Paint what you see,
not what you think.
You have ten seconds.
Go!
Eight.
Seven.
Six.
Five. Four.
Three. Two.
One.
Time!
Art is simple. You paint from hearts, not mind.
Next.
You have 30 seconds.
29. 28.
Fuck! Fuck! Fuck!
22.
- Oh my goodness! - 21.
Beautiful work.
- Three. Two. - I'm having the time of my life.
Time!
Are you okay?
It's time to share.
Who's first?
I mean, I'll go.
- Looking good, bro. - Good to see you, my g. How you been?
- Looking nice. - Hey, same. Will you look at the belt buckle!
- It's calm, it's calm. - Hey, what'd you think of the class? How'd you like it?
It's all right. What'd you paint?
- How you feeling? - Damn. Okay.
- You're good at this. - I'm all right at it.
Can I see yours or...?
Nah. Yo, you still making music?
Yo, I actually got a release party coming up.
- It's gonna be low key, though. - Okay.
But you and Ava should come through.
- Where are we going? Hi! - Oh my God!
- What's going on? - Look at this.
I was just trying to tell Daren I got a release party coming up,
performing some new songs, and y'all should come through.
I think we can even get D up on stage.
Come on, y'all. No.
Bro.
- Okay. Cool, cool. - But we can go.
- I mean, yeah, we'll be there. - Yeah.
Daren, think about it.
- I will. - It'll be like old times.
Okay, fine.
All right. Period.
That was really fun tonight.
Really?
I was suffering.
Suffering?
- It was finger painting. - But did you see Justin?
That motherfucker is smooth.
He's got the fit.
He painted whatever he wanted.
I like him.
So you're gonna perform with him again?
You know the answer to that. No.
- What? - I missed the old DBG.
Here we go.
? I don't know ? ? How to tell you ?
? You don't know ? ? How to be me ?
? Tell myself in the mirror ?
? Denis, ship it on repeat ?
You're not ready?
That was cute, but...
That was a hit song, okay?
Why did you stop making music, Daren?
I know your focus shifted when you moved to New York,
but we never really discussed that.
I guess it was just too painful...
and I kept building it up in my mind.
Sometimes we love something so much
that we put an incredible amount of pressure on it
to live up to our standards.
Like, we can't do something
unless we're the greatest at it.
What happened to singing songs because it felt good?
I guess you're right.
It's kind of funny. I picked up my guitar earlier and...
it felt great.
I might have even written something.
I mean, it's nothing,
but I haven't written nothing in a long time, so...
That's amazing.
See? That right there, is it.
That could be enough.
Thank you guys so much.
This song means a lot to me.
I actually wrote it on a night when I lost all hope.
And if you're out there and you feel that way,
please don't lose faith in yourself or hope in yourself.
This might backfire, y'all,
but my boy Daren is in the audience
and I'd love to invite him on stage.
We used to make music back in the day,
and I'd love for him to be able to shine with me.
Daren, are you down?
Come on up, bro. Come on, come on, come on.
Hey, y'all, let's hear it for him. Let's hear it for him.
Come on, come on, come on, come on.
Let's hear it for you. Come on.
Come on, bro, you got this. You got this.
Come on, you got this.
I...
wasn't prepared for this.
Nor did I want it.
? Okay, I'm done ?
? I'm moving on from this ? ? Version of me ?
? That had to be perfect ?
? I knew I used to be ?
? Everybody hated that ? ? I made it about me ?
? Okay, I'm done ?
? I said ? ? I'd never be like them ?
? I lied ?
? Told them it was easy ?
? That I tried ? ? My very best ?
? But I'm not doing fine ?
? I'm moving on from this ? ? Version of me ?
Oh, the boy is back!
? Okay, I'm done ?
? Moving on from this ? ? Version of me ?
? That had to be perfect... ?
? Okay, I'm done ?
? I'm moving on from this ? ? Version of me ?
? That had to be perfect ? ? I knew I used to be ?
? Everybody hated that ? ? I made it all about me ?
? Okay, I'm done ?
? I'm done ?
? I'm done, I'm done ? ? I'm fucking done ?
Make some noise. Make some noise for my boy!
Come on. Come on. Come on.
Come on. Let me hear y'all. You did good.
I kind of bodied it, like,
lowkey I was perfect.
Daren.
I'm kidding. Not perfect.
Just... I did an incredibly good job.
? Okay, I'm gone ? ? I'm moving on from here ?
? Okay, I'm gone ?
? I'm moving on from here ?
? From who I used to be ?
? When I was ? ? The unhealthy mind ?
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