I don't want to sabotage myself,
'cause I know I've done that in the past,
but this is a big one.
If I don't get it...
I'm gonna need you.
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We would love for you to come in tomorrow
to meet Mr. Jonsin and chat about this project in further detail.
Let's go! Ava!
I'm him!
I always knew it.
Hi, neighbors!
- What are we celebrating? - They set the date.
They did?
- They set the date! - For when?
Tomorrow.
It's tomorrow.
I'm not good enough.
Nor have I accomplished enough. They don't need me.
- I'm gonna embarrass myself. - Loser!
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I'm not there yet.
I don't know. I mean, I try,
I really do.
I don't even know why I'm doing this.
what's the point? I try to...
Fuck!
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- Ava, have you seen my wallet? - Your other jacket.
Other jacket. Other jacket.
Okay.
- You're looking sexy. - Thank you.
You have a little eyelash.
Make a wish.
I wish I didn't have to go in there and prove myself.
It's like, fuck, a resume!
You actually fare quite well in person.
That's the problem. It's in person.
They've only seen an edited version of me.
But you're a star.
Maybe if I get this, it means I'm good enough.
I need this. We need this.
Wish me luck, okay?
Okay, but wait. Wait, wait.
I know this is really important,
but remember, you have to be yourself.
I want to.
Bring your whole self
because they're gonna love you, for real.
Okay.
Hold that cab!
Thank you! Thank you!
It's not my fault! I'm sorry!
You gotta be fuckin' kidding me!
- Oh, you must be Daren. - Thanks for coming.
- Right on time. - Thanks. Thaks for...
Okay.
Mr. Jonsin's running a bit behind.
Hi.
Sorry.
- I like your work. - Thanks.
This is cool. I like that.
So, I've been loving everything Sarah showed me.
It's very polished,
but I want to know the man behind the camera.
So tell me,
who are you, Daren?
I mean...
Daren, you know that.
I'm a minority.
A minority. Okay.
You don't have to write that down.
Okay.
- That mustache was a choice. - Girl...
Maybe we circle back on that.
What's something that's inspiring you?
Sorry I'm late.
Some punk kid spilled coffee all over my shirt.
Can I have some room here?
It's designer too.
Sorry! It's not my fault!
You gotta be fuckin' kidding me.
I can see how that felt embarrassing.
But it's a natural part of being human
to occasionally make a fool of ourselves.
No, I fucking bombed. I was terrible.
That sounds tough.
It was.
Are you eating?
Yeah, sorry.
I've been non-stop... I haven't had a chance.
Daren, typically,
I ask that my patients don't eat during our sessions.
Sorry. That's a big bite.
Have you ever heard of beta-blockers?
I don't even know what they are, but apparently,
they make you less nervous.
Should I look into that? Should...
Should we look into that?
No? Okay.
Before we get there, I'd like to bring it back
to something you were touching on earlier.
And if you're comfortable,
maybe this could be an opportunity for you to try again.
Daren, who are you?
I'm Daren Vongirdner.
I got mommy and daddy issues.
I have anxiety, I...
I overthink every possible move I can make.
I'm hard on myself.
I schedule every waking moment of my existence,
I judge others, but I judge myself more.
And I don't remember most of my childhood.
How's that?
It's a start.
You hear that, Mama? It's a start.
My therapist told me
I tend to catastrophize things,
and I guess that causes anxiety.
? Credit Kings ?
Not this Fucking spam bullshit.
- I get it. - I don't give a fuck!
I'm broke.
That's why I'm trying to get this fucking job
so I can finally afford to chase my dreams.
How fucking stupid...
The saddest part is...
I don't even know what my dreams are anymore.
Thank you. Thank you so very much.
When I was young,
I wanted to be loved the way a performer was loved.
Hell, the way a rock star was loved.
But I was painfully shy, insecure,
and I hated attention.
Music has always moved me.
But sometimes...
my mind's just too loud, I can't hear it.
Thank you, thank you. We love those hand claps,
but we're motivated by those greenbacks.
Yeah, I still haven't heard back from them.
You know, I'm...
It's kind of crazy, but...
I'm feeling kind of relieved.
Really? In what way?
I guess I don't have the weight of wondering if I'm good enough.
I'm not, and that's fine.
Daren, take a seat.
Let's talk about this.
- Okay. - Do you really believe that?
Because I've seen nothing but growth.
You're someone who constantly shows up for themselves
and for the people around them.
You are good enough.
It's like I paid you to say that.
I'm noticing some anxious energy building up.
When I'm in that place,
I drop into my breath to remind myself I'm okay, I'm safe.
- Can we try? - Yeah.
Hey, it's Sarah, leave a message.
Hey, Sarah.
Just checking in. Hope all is good.
I haven't heard from...
from you guys or Mr. Jonsin.
Yeah, I just, you know, wanted to...
check in.
Softer.
- Softer? - Soft.
I was going too hard on my fucking face.
That's how I always do it.
Oh, fuck!
I know I'm capable of this,
but I might not make it.
? Ground is shaking ? ? I might fall down ?
? I can swim ? ? But I still might drown ?
? I just can't seem to ? ? Slow it down ?
That's tough!
Got it.
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