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I don't want to sabotage myself,

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'cause I know I've
done that in the past,

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but this is a big one.

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If I don't get it...

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I'm gonna need you.

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_

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We would love for you
to come in tomorrow

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to meet Mr. Jonsin and chat about
this project in further detail.

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Let's go! Ava!

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I'm him!

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I always knew it.

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I always knew it.

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I always knew it.

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Hi, neighbors!

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- What are we celebrating?
- They set the date.

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They did?

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- They set the date!
- For when?

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Tomorrow.

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Tomorrow.

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Tomorrow.

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It's tomorrow.

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I'm not good enough.

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Nor have I accomplished enough.
They don't need me.

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- I'm gonna embarrass myself.
- Loser!

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_

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I'm not there yet.

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I don't know. I mean, I try,

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I really do.

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I don't even know why I'm doing this.

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what's the point? I try to...

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Fuck!

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www.subtitulamos.tv

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_

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- Ava, have you seen my wallet?
- Your other jacket.

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Other jacket. Other jacket.

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Okay.

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- You're looking sexy.
- Thank you.

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You have a little eyelash.

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Make a wish.

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I wish I didn't have to go
in there and prove myself.

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It's like, fuck, a resume!

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You actually fare quite well in person.

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That's the problem. It's in person.

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They've only seen an
edited version of me.

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But you're a star.

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Maybe if I get this, it
means I'm good enough.

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I need this. We need this.

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Wish me luck, okay?

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Okay, but wait. Wait, wait.

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I know this is really important,

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but remember, you have to be yourself.

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I want to.

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Bring your whole self

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because they're gonna
love you, for real.

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Okay.

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Hold that cab!

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Thank you! Thank you!

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It's not my fault! I'm sorry!

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You gotta be fuckin' kidding me!

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- Oh, you must be Daren.
- Thanks for coming.

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- Right on time.
- Thanks. Thaks for...

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Okay.

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Mr. Jonsin's running a bit behind.

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Hi.

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Sorry.

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- I like your work.
- Thanks.

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This is cool. I like that.

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So, I've been loving
everything Sarah showed me.

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It's very polished,

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but I want to know the
man behind the camera.

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So tell me,

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who are you, Daren?

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I mean...

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Daren, you know that.

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I'm a minority.

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A minority. Okay.

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You don't have to write that down.

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Okay.

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- That mustache was a choice.
- Girl...

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Maybe we circle back on that.

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What's something that's inspiring you?

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Sorry I'm late.

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Some punk kid spilled
coffee all over my shirt.

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Can I have some room here?

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It's designer too.

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Sorry! It's not my fault!

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You gotta be fuckin' kidding me.

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I can see how that felt embarrassing.

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But it's a natural part of being human

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to occasionally make
a fool of ourselves.

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No, I fucking bombed. I was terrible.

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That sounds tough.

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It was.

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Are you eating?

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Yeah, sorry.

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I've been non-stop... I
haven't had a chance.

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Daren, typically,

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I ask that my patients don't
eat during our sessions.

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Sorry. That's a big bite.

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Have you ever heard of beta-blockers?

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I don't even know what
they are, but apparently,

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they make you less nervous.

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Should I look into that? Should...

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Should we look into that?

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No? Okay.

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Before we get there, I'd
like to bring it back

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to something you were
touching on earlier.

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And if you're comfortable,

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maybe this could be an opportunity
for you to try again.

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Daren, who are you?

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I'm Daren Vongirdner.

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I got mommy and daddy issues.

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I have anxiety, I...

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I overthink every
possible move I can make.

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I'm hard on myself.

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I schedule every waking
moment of my existence,

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I judge others, but I judge myself more.

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And I don't remember
most of my childhood.

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How's that?

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It's a start.

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You hear that, Mama? It's a start.

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My therapist told me

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I tend to catastrophize things,

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and I guess that causes anxiety.

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? Credit Kings ?

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Not this Fucking spam bullshit.

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- I get it.
- I don't give a fuck!

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I'm broke.

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That's why I'm trying
to get this fucking job

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so I can finally afford
to chase my dreams.

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How fucking stupid...

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The saddest part is...

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I don't even know what
my dreams are anymore.

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Thank you. Thank you so very much.

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When I was young,

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I wanted to be loved the
way a performer was loved.

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Hell, the way a rock star was loved.

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But I was painfully shy, insecure,

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and I hated attention.

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Music has always moved me.

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But sometimes...

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my mind's just too
loud, I can't hear it.

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Thank you, thank you. We
love those hand claps,

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but we're motivated by those greenbacks.

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Yeah, I still haven't
heard back from them.

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You know, I'm...

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It's kind of crazy, but...

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I'm feeling kind of relieved.

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Really? In what way?

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I guess I don't have the weight
of wondering if I'm good enough.

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I'm not, and that's fine.

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Daren, take a seat.

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Let's talk about this.

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- Okay.
- Do you really believe that?

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Because I've seen nothing but growth.

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You're someone who constantly
shows up for themselves

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and for the people around them.

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You are good enough.

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It's like I paid you to say that.

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I'm noticing some anxious
energy building up.

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When I'm in that place,

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I drop into my breath to remind
myself I'm okay, I'm safe.

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- Can we try?
- Yeah.

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Hey, it's Sarah, leave a message.

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Hey, Sarah.

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Just checking in. Hope all is good.

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I haven't heard from...

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from you guys or Mr. Jonsin.

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Yeah, I just, you know, wanted to...

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check in.

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Softer.

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- Softer?
- Soft.

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I was going too hard on my fucking face.

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That's how I always do it.

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Oh, fuck!

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Oh, fuck!

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I know I'm capable of this,

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but I might not make it.

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? Ground is shaking ?
? I might fall down ?

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? I can swim ? ? But I
still might drown ?

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? I just can't seem
to ? ? Slow it down ?

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That's tough!

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Got it.

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