I'm taking a hormone therapy
- to stimulate ovulation. - You're trying for a baby?
- Thinking about it. - I guess that's on me.
Actually, about how I've managed
to screw up most of my relationships.
I hear that you proposed a reshuffle
in which you report to her instead of me.
You're the one who told me to build a relationship
- with her, earn capital. - I heard Novak's gone AWOL.
I think we should use this as a reason to move him out of Trauma OR.
- He's, like, unpredictable. - He is toxic chaos.
Theo, it's okay that you wanted this life.
This is part where you tell me you and Mom are...
you're praying for me?
Every patient I see, I think, "Is this the person who stabbed me?"
We're going to make an accountability plan for the painkillers.
I just matched with a heart.
It sounds like you got walloped with some pretty
- intense news yesterday. - I want to be here for you now.
However you need me to be.
You ready, Mags?
It's time.
Your heart is in the building.
Prepped and ready.
All systems go, Dr. Leblanc.
At the behest of our anesthesiologist
whose eyes are on the monitor,
I'm gonna ask you to count backwards from 10.
Okay.
10, 9,
8, 7...
- Synced and corrected by naFraC - - www.addic7ed.com -
Hi, Amira.
No, it's 1963.
Yeah.
Okay, just put it back when you're done.
Okay. Yalla. Bye.
It's the spare key security code.
I mean, how difficult is it to just know the things
that you need to take with you and to take them with you.
I sound exactly like my father.
Was he strict?
He was more of a spiritual philosopher.
My mother was strict. My father would have called
Mags' surgery a second chance.
Do you miss that kind of outlook?
I wonder if Mags' heart is in the hospital yet...
I know I should focus, but...
Thank you.
Do you feel comfortable
about your strategy for managing today?
As best I can. Why, do you?
Well, I was thinking about what you said last month
about that ordeal in the sinkhole.
The trapped man. You told me that jumping in blindly
is what you know how to do, even when you shouldn't.
Mags' family is making all the decisions today.
Talking to the doctors, I'm just waiting for news above ground.
It's, uh...
It's my father's birthday today.
- 1963, the year he was born. - Seriously?
How weird is that, right?
Do you do, uh, do you do anything to mark it?
This is, uh...
Okay, he loved Snickers.
And it's one of the few candies
that you can get both here and there.
And usually, Amira and I, but...
nobody's brought it up this year.
My brother died when I was 20.
Car accident, he was 17.
Oh, Karim. I'm so sorry.
The ways we grief and adapt as we... move on.
Thanks, brother.
I'll see you soon.
Mark?
Dr. Novak, where have you been?
I woke up, made coffee, ran 10k, came here.
You know full well I mean "Where have you been for the last two days?"
You've been on the schedule but decidedly not here!
My mother died.
Oh, I'm so sorry to hear that.
If you'd let us know, we would have been able to...
She didn't actually die. I just wanted to see
if you'd still give me a hard time after hearing that news, and...
apparently, you would.
You gonna let Pops go on the rides at Centreville too?
I mean, he did come a long way to take you.
She's going to make him do it. She always gets scared.
Nothing wrong with being afraid, Gracie.
Theo, I can do the sunscreen on the ferry.
Why is everything you say a lesson?
Welcome to my childhood, kid.
Dr. Hunter, your patient in six is back from imaging.
I can relay results if you need a minute.
Ah, no, thank you, Dr. Bergeron. I'm good.
Okay, girls, take it easy on Pops, alright?
Thanks, Dad.
Have a seat for one second, okay?
Uh, Theo...
- Forget something? - No, just, uh...
Was that... Was that lady your friend?
You know, it just seemed like there was, uh,
you know, like, she knows you.
No, Dad.
I don't know, why would you even think something like that?
Alright, I was just asking.
- Okay. - Okay.
Alright, girls, we're ready.
So sweet of your dad to help out.
- Liz, what the hell? - I wanted to meet your family.
- Even undercover. - My head is killing me.
You know, he pulled me aside
and basically asked if you were my girlfriend.
Wow, impressive dad insight.
Okay, so fine. I accidentally forced the issue.
No, you didn't because I denied it.
You lied?
Why, because me being sort of still married
makes you a bad pastor's son?
Another sick dog?
This is Esther Danbury. Seriously compromised airway.
- Whoa. - Try to stay still, Esther.
Where's Judah? Where's Bertie? I can't see them.
They're right here, Esther. They're okay.
- Are you breathing okay? - We were in the ravine,
the coyote leaped out of the bushes.
Esther, I need you to save your breath, alright?
- Two units of O-neg. - Yeah.
Heart Rate's 105, RESP rate 24, BP's 88 over 58.
Yeah, two grams TXA, start ceftriaxone.
- Bertie, is our dog okay? - Might hurt a little.
Alright, I'm gonna need to secure her
airway before I can handle the bleeding.
Bertie was on leash when the coyote lunged at us.
Esther threw herself in front.
Okay, our nurse is gonna take you to your room, okay, Judas?
- Here, Esther needs him. - Okay.
Oh...
Theo, get that dog out of here, this is an operating room.
She needs her dog, June.
Can you tell me what you feel, Esther?
How's church, Jim?
Where have you been?
It's... hard to breathe.
Being able to talk is impressive. But, uh...
These kinds of trauma usually create what we call
a "difficult airway". Options, June?
First, intubation, but...
You think we're dealing with a tracheal injury?
I'm having a hard time getting a good look.
It seems like it's mostly facial,
but then she has intra-oral bleeding,
some loose teeth tissue, swelling.
Blind nasotracheal intubation?
Nobody does that anymore, okay?
If this is a last resort,
then it's gonna be an emergency cric.
Theo, why is the dog still here?
- June, Bertie stays. - Are you saying you
that you can't get me breathing because the
parts of my face aren't where they should be?
Esther, Esther, listen to me!
Look, I know you're scared, okay?
But I promise you everything is gonna be alright.
Can you just stay back from her open wounds?
- 02 SAT's 86 now guys... - Actually, I forgot.
- I got us this. - What is that?
A video laryngoscope with a stylet.
Means we can see what we're doing, and...
- muscle through the debris. - What?
Nah, keep the emergency cric, just in case.
- Call that a double-double. - When did you get this?
50 mg of etomidate and 70 of sux...
I don't know, couple of months ago.
Am I supposed to... ask permission?
Well, at least tell someone you did it.
Hi, kiddo, we're going to sedate you, okay?
And now we're going to use that very good tool
to put a tube in, and then when you wake up,
you'll be able to breathe way more easily, okay?
You know these things need special approval, right?
Devi doesn't need any more reasons to...
- To what? - You know, you could've
at least answered my texts the last few days.
Okay then, let's get this kid breathing.
Alright.
Okay, on your side.
Thank you.
Alright.
Sorry, tender there?
- Uh-huh. - Appendix, bet ya anything.
I lost that one as a kid.
This pain's definitely my pancreas.
What makes you say that?
Uh, a few years ago, my immune system declared war on it.
I've had chronic pancreatitis since.
My uncle had that. Man was in constant discomfort.
Of course, he was also a weasel who drank a 40 a day.
Except, I wasn't much of a drinker before
this came on and barely at all after either.
Your loss!
Hey, hey, hey!
Time to wake up, nurse lady.
100 over 70, Kathy.
Okay, this'll be cold.
This is to rule out gallstones or bleeding.
Are you on any medication?
Pancrelipase and Rabeprazole daily.
Tylenol at home. When it gets like this, I always have to come in.
And... what do we usually do?
On a good day, listen to what works,
but mostly tell me why it won't.
I'm hoping it's a good day.
I like this one, she's fiery.
What are you in for?
- Congestive heart failure. - Sorry to hear that.
No, no, no. I'll live to fight another day.
I'll start fluids.
Thanks. Um... Tell me what usually works, Paige.
Three rounds of intravenous Toradol,
aggressive fluids and cipro to avoid abscess.
High-dose anti-inflammatories are controversial
- when it comes to pancreatitis... - I know, but...
I think the best thing that we can do is see
how you respond to the fluids and manage pain orally.
Won't work. I don't metabolize well by mouth!
The thing is, you guys always make me sit
in agony until my body proves me right.
Can we please just skip that step this once?
Look, I get you've been through this before,
but there's a treatment protocol that we need to follow,
and IV and seds risk anti-platelet effect
or acute kidney injury.
But if I'm willing to take that risk to stop my pain, why can't you?
Yeah, why can't ya? I mean, it's her body, right?
Kathy...
Look, I want to help you, Paige, of course, I do.
But... I need to look before jumping in blindly,
so we're going to do some blood work first, alright?
That was weird.
Zero boundaries, that woman.
Let me try to load her up with diuretics and hope that works.
Uh, no, not Kathy. Paige.
I just saw her move easily like she wasn't in pain.
Do you think she's drug seeking?
Asking for NSAIDs?
They're not a controlled substance.
I know, but some patients lay a track.
Oh, you know the deal. Hiding is second nature with chronic pain.
It's when you need somebody to really know what's going on inside,
that's when you gotta work at it.
Huh...
No Mags today?
I, uh, took her shift.
People are saying there's something going on with her.
She's having a heart transplant right now.
She's been on the table about four hours,
about four more to...
I didn't know it was that bad.
None of us did.
Is she gonna...
Is she gonna be able to come back to work?
I think the drugs she's asking for are a real risk.
Paige.
Maybe.
But she's the one alone with the pain.
Dr. Devi, sorry.
Uh, I imagine you heard about Trauma OR this morning.
I know you've been auditing the logs,
so if you have any questions about the fancy
piece of equipment Dr. Novak ordered...
Oh, I have a lot of questions for Mark.
All of which I'd prefer to ask without a buffer.
- Yeah, I, uh... - Dr. Curtis?
This is Murray, Esther's father.
I just saw my son, but they said you could tell me
what's happening with my daughter.
Yes, we were able to secure Esther's airway.
She's gonna need several reconstructive surgeries
- over the next couple of days... - Well, can I see her?
You need to be prepared. Her face and her airway
were damaged extensively.
Well, she's gonna recover, right?
She's starting university soon and...
Functionally, her prognosis is good.
But she may have some trouble swallowing,
she might need a speech therapist.
And they'll be some scaring, but...
This dog, we got him the week their mom left.
Anytime one of them was sick or sad, he'd be by their side.
Like, their pain is his to bear.
Well, you can come see her
in the ICU, I just, uh...
Sorry, you just, you can't take the dog.
No, I can't, you can't...
I got your page, Bash. You ever held a living
creature before because you look completely unnatural, June.
Then maybe you should take him since you made
such a big deal of him staying in Trauma.
Okay... Geez.
What are you guys even doing here? I told you
I'd fill you in if I had any news on her surgery.
We were just discussing that while Mags is in recovery,
if we split her shift, they won't need to hire a temp replacement.
I already have my hands full trying to keep my job from imploding.
What, June, you won't help?
Did she even ask you to do this?
Wait here.
June...
I mean, Mags does work at, like,
three times the capacity of a normal person.
Are we even gonna make a dent?
- She coded on the table. - What?
- June, did she... - They were able to get her back
but it's not looking... That's all I could get.
Okay, then I'll find out myself.
Bash! What are you gonna do?
I have to talk to them, maybe I can help!
Hey, hey! You can't just storm into the OR with zero context
and distract the people who can actually help her.
Bash...
It's about time! The poor girl's dying here.
Your labs are back.
You're not gonna give me the meds I asked for.
The risk of straining your kidneys is too high.
We're managing your pancreatic inflammation with fluids.
I know it's not the news you wanted but...
I own a restaurant.
And you know, it's my job to taste our food.
Fatty foods being the exact thing I'm supposed to avoid.
- Well, isn't that a sick joke. - Right?
And usually I just have a taste.
Only last night we were slammed.
And after close, these 18-hour short ribs were calling to me.
Why won't you help her?
I understand this is frustrating.
I can give you other suggestions for pain management.
It's just that we see a lot of people come in
with pancreatitis and based on my personal experience...
That's really what it's about, though, isn't it?
Your experience. The day that you're having
when you walk in the room.
Once, a doctor at another hospital seemed
so personally offended that none of his solutions were working,
he suggested I apply for medically assisted death.
Jesus. What is wrong with you people?
At least I know I have a fall-back
option in case no one can help me here.
This is your life, Paige.
That's not some idle threat to waive around.
Someone else will come in and offer you
other suggestions for pain management.
Heard about your friend Leblanc.
You bought $11,000 worth of unsanctioned equipment.
- Life-saving equipment. - "Get you fired" equipment.
I'm serious. While you were AWOL,
Devi was trying to convince me to help her find ways of moving you out.
- Well, did ya? - No!
Short-sighted on your part. It could've
been a good career move for you.
Why do you not care about this?
C'mon, what's wrong with these doors?
When we started Trauma OR together, you loved it
because building and making up the rules as you go
works for you, but actually following them, not so much.
Wow, that is so insightful of you, June.
You know what I don't get? If you don't
like your job, why are you still here,
when you could just leave? Why are
you trying to get Devi to push you out?
Because you won't let me!
You keep dragging me into conversations like this one
in which you remind me about how
important our working relationship is to you.
I never wanted a partner.
Then why did you recruit me?
That was one of my many mistakes.
Okay, I'm pretty sure this counts as harassment now.
Well, we're gonna have this conversations
because I'm not just gonna walk away.
Really? You should try it sometimes because it really feels good.
I can't.
I'm thinking about having a kid, okay?
There. And if I do something that's that crazy by myself,
I need to know that my work environment is stable.
And I know you don't want me putting my emotional stability on you.
Guilt tripping me because you're
suddenly nesting is the opposite of that.
It's not why I'm saying this.
I actually like being your partner.
And I know you like it, too. Like, you would miss it
if you got run out of here for being a stubborn idiot!
Oh, how magnanimous of you, June.
I care about what happens to you, Mark!
The only reason our partnership exists
is because you stepped over me to get yourself power.
That happened, like, months ago.
You could've told me something instead of burning me!
That actually hurt you?
That proves my point.
You care.
You're too damaged to be a mother, June.
Where's Paige?
What the...
Kathy?
Seriously?
Figured what harm could it do now, right?
But this is a hospital, you're in heart failure,
and you have a sick roommate!
Not anymore, Paige left!
Left, what do you mean "left"?
Well, the details are between me and her,
but I will tell you that this place failed her big time!
Do you know where she is?
Because she still needs treatment.
She needs fluids and pain control.
Is that what these are? Nice!
Hey, those are basically morphine!
Oh! Beautiful! Anyway, why?
Paige already told you that the good stuff doesn't even work on her.
Those were not meant for you!
Well, screw me for wanting to feel good, you uncaring bitch!
Where have you been?
I mean, you weren't here to stop Paige from leaving.
To go where?
Of course, Abby swore she wanted to go on the drop ride,
but as soon as we got to the top, she panicked, poor kid.
Just give it a couple of days, she'll
remember it like she conquered it.
Uh, hey, do you mind if we sit?
Sure.
Uh, look, I don't want you
to feel like you need to hide from me, son.
You know, whether you're, well, dating that person or not...
- Dad... - No, no, no.
I should not have pried, that wasn't...
Not my business.
And to set an example,
you should know that I am no longer with the church.
You retired, Dad, that's big...
No, no, no, not retired. Uh... resigned.
I wanted to tell you, but you're always so busy and, uh...
Okay, but... So you and Mom, you still go, right?
Uh, well, yeah, your mother, from time to time.
But it would be too weird for me.
And actually, I work Sundays now.
Yeah, for a small landscaping outfit.
You know, it's, uh...
Dad, you gave up a lead pastor to, what?
Trim hedges? You've been doing that job for 30 years, Dad!
The church has stayed exactly the same.
And there are just things about that that I can't reconcile anymore.
You used to say that wrestling with doubt was a good thing.
- Yeah. - Right, that, uh...
faith grows with the fight. You would say that.
I still believe that.
You know what, I also, I sometimes wonder, perhaps,
I pushed you too far towards something that I believed.
You know, maybe that's why you left.
Oh, so now it's my fault that you're throwing away
everything we grew up believing? Dad, that's unhinged.
- That's... - It's not, it's not, Theo.
No, I think it's so brave what you did.
It is. Recognizing that you weren't happy, and then changing your life.
The path that you were on.
No. Look, if anything, that inspired me.
Oh...
Do not rethink your calling because of me, please.
Hey.
Still no news.
How you doing?
Don't really know.
Think I was a little harsh earlier.
Just don't know how to deal with these things.
You're asking me how?
I was gonna go pray.
Does that really work for you?
Uh-huh.
Also, it just gets me out of my head,
so I don't do something like...
Barge into an operating room.
Yeah...
Look, if Mags, uh...
If she doesn't make it, I just...
I think that's it for me, June.
What do you mean?
No...
Not that.
I just...
I just know I won't be able to start over.
No, not again.
_
TWO WEEKS LATER
_
How do you feel?
I was dreaming about the anesthetic.
That sleep is so heavy.
Every time I wake up now, I feel a huge wave of relief
washing over me when I realize how lucky I am to have made it.
I'm making vegetable soup.
Think you'll be hungry later?
Maybe.
Hey, Dad.
_
Who died?
_
Hi, Paige.
It's Dr. Hamed from York Memorial, again.
You haven't returned any of my calls so...
just checking if everything's okay.
You're on my bed.
Yeah, you asked me to lie here earlier.
- I did? - Hmm.
These immunosuppressants are messing me up.
I feel so spaced out.
And is that a rash? I feel itchy.
No, I don't see anything, but let's keep an eye on it.
Who were you talking to?
Uh, a patient with pancreatitis.
She left AMA and things ended sort of weird between us.
Mmm, maybe she just needs space.
- What if she needs help? - She can ask.
You know, it's gotta come from her.
I wish I didn't need all the drugs that they're putting me on.
Hey, look, you and I both know that the immune system...
attacks foreign substances. In this case, that's organs.
Will it be the heart that rejects the patient
or the patient that rejects the heart?
Both of those options end in rejection.
Because it was never mine to begin with, the heart.
And now, part of another human being is braiding with me.
Should I be happy that that's all behind me
or afraid about what's ahead?
Bash called while you were asleep.
If you want me to tell him to lay off a bit, I can do that.
Gently.
How do you feel?
I would love it if people would stop asking me that.
Mum's making soup.
Well, if you must know, I feel like a zombie.
Like the Walking Dead.
Oh, how long it's been like that?
- I think it just came on. - Is it time for your meds?
- What if they're not working? - Magalie, don't.
Your doctor's checked in every day, he says you're good.
I can feel it, Cam. I can feel it trying to fight its way out of me.
The funny thing is she fought so hard
to get into this art school,
and now, the thing she likes the most is math.
Well, you know,
not knowing what path they're on is part of the fun.
This feels like a horrible memory.
Being 12 years old and you guys were so worried about me.
_
Never too late to start again.
What were you saying about your sister?
Oh, she got invited to the STEM exchange
program at this school in England
for kids who excel at math,
and I can't decide whether to let her go.
Mmm, they all go eventually.
Bon appétit.
Something went wrong. We've lost her.
You'll never work again after this.
No! There's a bad rash, Dr. Zhang.
And her fever won't come down now!
We need to get it out.
- Please! - Magalie, you're only dreaming.
Please!
You need to get it out of me now!
? Memories ?
? Feel like a disease... ??
Come in.
Hey, Cam said you need to be awake anyway.
Yeah, come sit.
Tell me...
What's the panic level out there really?
Um...
Well, your mother thinks that her soup will solve
all of your problems and I assured her you would be fine.
I love that I don't have to pretend with you.
It does seem like you're adjusting to your meds better now.
I know it's been a rocky couple of weeks in this place.
Yeah...
- Mags... - What is it?
I had a thought during your surgery
when I got scared that you weren't going to come out of it.
Every time I fall asleep now, I'm afraid I'm not gonna wake up.
It's been really unsettling.
That's normal, it'll take time.
What thought?
Look, I know when you and I were together,
we had our issues on figuring out
how we were going to move forward
or if we were going to at all.
And I know a lot of that was me and my fears, but...
I can't see a future unless you're in it.
This is real, Mags. I want this to be real.
Did you... make this when you thought Mags might die?
Um...
It was like the day of her surgery,
but it's not usually, like, about one thing.
It's about everything.
When we were together,
I had no idea this was a part of you.
I've never been good at letting people know me.
Not sure that's true anymore.
- Hey, Karim. - Hey, Bashir.
I got your call this morning, I was just, uh...
I put it all on the line with Mags.
I told her that I want us to be together
and she has to think about it.
- How's she doing these days? - It's been, uh,
it's been a couple of weeks since her surgery.
She's moving around the apartment,
but there's also the psychological component
of when do I get to believe I've survived,
and I get that because it's...
Can we go in here?
Uh, yeah, sure.
Bashir, do you know what transference is?
Uh, it's when an emotion gets redirected to...
where it doesn't belong.
You think that's what I'm doing with Mags.
Actually, I'm talking about us.
You call or text with thoughts
and ask questions like a friend or family member would.
- Yeah... - Just wait.
I'm gonna get through this. I think because you and I
are similar in so many ways, culturally, in part, yes,
but also just personality-wise,
that it's been easier for me to let my boundaries lax.
And you have this need for a brother,
or father figure, or role model...
And it pulls at me, man.
So as your therapist, I've let my guard down.
I also should never have told you about my brother who died.
- Bu... - That was about me.
And it crossed a line I have never crossed before.
Is any of this making sense?
The work we're doing, it's helping.
I know, but I need to keep a firm grasp
on professional boundaries. I just...
can't be your brother.
Are you firing me as your patient?
No, but I do hope that we can reset.
So book an appointment and we'll talk then.
- Hey, Esther. - Hey!
Your dad hanging in?
I don't know, he kind of looked tired or...
Crazy? Yo, he murdered that coyote.
- What, why? - Revenge, he said.
Like, we don't even know if it was the same one.
- Killed it with what? - A hunting rifle.
After the attack, he went out, looking every night just...
I'm worried about him.
Yeah, I guess so.
And he raised us on his own, that's a lot to carry.
And even Bertie's upset.
I mean, this is a trauma on all of us.
Look, I checked back in with Plastics,
and they said your second surgery went well.
Yeah, I mean, I can swallow better, if that's what you mean.
Do you think after the next one though I can go home,
maybe help my dad, even make it back for Fall semester?
Look, Esther...
About a year ago, I was in a helicopter crash.
Pilot died and I got stranded in the woods.
Okay? I mean, wow!
- But... - Why am I telling you this?
I know I promised you that everything would be fine.
- Are you saying that it's not? - No.
- I'm just saying tha... - Because you seem okay to me.
And am I. I am.
And I barely even think about it anymore.
But I'm just now starting to understand
the effects that it had on me.
I don't really know what to do with any of that.
I know. Which is kind of my point.
Okay, how you react to all of this, just trust me,
and just try to take it slow.
I'm gonna go check on your dad.
I need help out here!
Need some help down here!
Arnold, what is this?
I just found her collapsed here.
- Her O2 SAT's brutal, Claire. - This is Kathy,
she's been in and out with congestive heart failure.
I heard a tonne of fluid.
- Prep trauma. - Yeah!
Kathy, hey! Hang in there.
Hang in there, we're gonna help you breathe, okay?
No. No!
No, not you!
Mr. Danbury, Murray.
I know it's been a tough few weeks, but I just wanted to...
- What? - Uh...
Am I crying blood?
- Uh, June. Have you seen this? - Yeah?
- I'll get that, you get this. - Yeah, okay.
Hi, sir. Just look at me.
Claire...
Claire.
It's over.
She wouldn't let me tube her.
By the time help came and got her on the bed, she deteriorated so fast.
I did three rounds of CPR.
I don't even know how she got here, who brought her in.
I did.
Everyone on my street knew where that thing slept.
This city wasn't going to do anything about it so...
But did you physically handle the animal?
After I shot it...
I used to go hunting with my uncle, I still have my old rifle.
Anyway, I did the right thing.
I made sure it was dead, not in any pain.
Why?
Uh, coyotes can carry bacteria
that is harmful to humans.
What, like rabies?
Hmm...
Because I've been feeling kind of fluish.
It could be something called tularemia.
When Esther came in, we gave her
some precautionary antibiotics,
but if you had it on your hands,
and then you touched your eye...
Okay, so Murray, I'm gonna have to cut into the tissue
in order to drain the abscess or else you might go blind,
but, I am gonna numb your first.
- I know it was stupid. - Just one more.
I just couldn't sleep knowing that thing was still out there.
Yeah...
I know you think I'm crazy.
Actually, I was wondering if it made you feel better?
I love those kids so much.
It's worth the pain.
She texted me after I left that day.
I invited her to the restaurant, cooked her a steak.
We've both been feeling lousy.
Ended up making friends over that.
Sick friends.
- I'm sorry, Paige. - You called me a lot.
Yeah, are you still in pain?
We'll get you into a room,
- I'll give you an IV of Toradol. - Now you'll do what I want.
Two weeks ago it was such a big risk, but now it's not?
- It's still a risk. - Then why did my friend
have to die for you to take it?
Look, I am the kind of doctor that takes risks.
It's just that day, I was trying not to overreact
to something that was happening in my life.
Kathy was right about me making it personal.
Let me help you now.
What is this?
Dr. Novak and I have been discussing
our working situation, and we've decided...
- You've decided. - It's been decided
that he's gonna be transitioning out of Trauma OR
and no longer connected to the emergency department.
"Banished". That's the word she's looking for.
We wanted you to hear it, officially, from the both of us.
Heard.
June?
June!
Yeah, I guess you're right. I'm a starter, not a stayer.
So you're leaving the hospital?
No, no. I have some friends still upstairs
that are willing to slot me in.
Maybe I'd ask what this means for me, but...
I wouldn't want to sound too damaged.
Yeah, June, uh...
When I said that, look, it wasn't about...
Hey, how was your follow-up appointment?
- I'm on my way there now. - Okay.
But Bash...
I want it to be real, too.
You do?
Sasha and her mom have already been waiting 10 minutes.
Uh, I thought it was in my bag, but it isn't.
- My math. - Where did you see it last?
I don't know, but I have to study on the way.
Mr. Redican said that if we don't pass
this test, we can't go on the trip.
- _ - Found it!
Oh, my God, Mags, you saved my life.
Okay, one second!
I'm doing nine to two today.
I'll crossover with you at one.
Yesterday, I stayed until four without hitting a wall.
That's great, just don't push yourself too hard, okay?
The whole reason I'm covering for you is...
Bash, you're picking me up from rehearsal later, right?
- I work until nine. - I'll do it!
And then we can grab a late dinner.
- Great. - Okay, just not burgers.
- I can't do burgers ever. - Amira, lunch.
That is never not exhausting.
Mmm, their student exchange trip is in...
Two weeks. She used the word "nerve-cited"
to describe how she's feeling about living
in a foreign continent for a month.
- You, too? - Um...
I can still stop it from happening,
it's just... if that feeling's more about me,
then I should probably just stay out of her way.
Makes sense, it's hard.
Mmm.
Tell me what you think.
I think she should go.
- Are you staying over tonight? - Yes.
But I'll see you at one!
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