1 00:00:01,140 --> 00:00:02,520 I'm taking a hormone therapy 2 00:00:02,531 --> 00:00:04,735 - to stimulate ovulation. - You're trying for a baby? 3 00:00:05,071 --> 00:00:07,062 - Thinking about it. - I guess that's on me. 4 00:00:07,073 --> 00:00:08,909 Actually, about how I've managed 5 00:00:08,920 --> 00:00:10,889 to screw up most of my relationships. 6 00:00:10,900 --> 00:00:12,735 I hear that you proposed a reshuffle 7 00:00:12,746 --> 00:00:14,279 in which you report to her instead of me. 8 00:00:14,290 --> 00:00:15,783 You're the one who told me to build a relationship 9 00:00:15,794 --> 00:00:17,896 - with her, earn capital. - I heard Novak's gone AWOL. 10 00:00:18,005 --> 00:00:21,459 I think we should use this as a reason to move him out of Trauma OR. 11 00:00:21,470 --> 00:00:24,924 - He's, like, unpredictable. - He is toxic chaos. 12 00:00:25,047 --> 00:00:28,250 Theo, it's okay that you wanted this life. 13 00:00:28,316 --> 00:00:30,552 This is part where you tell me you and Mom are... 14 00:00:30,563 --> 00:00:32,034 you're praying for me? 15 00:00:32,045 --> 00:00:35,135 Every patient I see, I think, "Is this the person who stabbed me?" 16 00:00:35,410 --> 00:00:38,293 We're going to make an accountability plan for the painkillers. 17 00:00:38,751 --> 00:00:40,386 I just matched with a heart. 18 00:00:40,625 --> 00:00:42,475 It sounds like you got walloped with some pretty 19 00:00:42,664 --> 00:00:45,420 - intense news yesterday. - I want to be here for you now. 20 00:00:45,431 --> 00:00:47,299 However you need me to be. 21 00:01:02,495 --> 00:01:03,897 You ready, Mags? 22 00:01:04,431 --> 00:01:05,899 It's time. 23 00:01:14,347 --> 00:01:15,916 Your heart is in the building. 24 00:01:15,927 --> 00:01:17,896 Prepped and ready. 25 00:01:37,201 --> 00:01:40,003 All systems go, Dr. Leblanc. 26 00:01:40,014 --> 00:01:41,868 At the behest of our anesthesiologist 27 00:01:41,935 --> 00:01:43,526 whose eyes are on the monitor, 28 00:01:43,537 --> 00:01:45,906 I'm gonna ask you to count backwards from 10. 29 00:01:47,627 --> 00:01:48,928 Okay. 30 00:01:50,753 --> 00:01:53,802 10, 9, 31 00:01:54,203 --> 00:01:57,573 8, 7... 32 00:02:05,115 --> 00:02:10,115 - Synced and corrected by naFraC - - www.addic7ed.com - 33 00:02:13,957 --> 00:02:15,502 Hi, Amira. 34 00:02:15,747 --> 00:02:18,984 No, it's 1963. 35 00:02:19,435 --> 00:02:20,536 Yeah. 36 00:02:20,563 --> 00:02:22,631 Okay, just put it back when you're done. 37 00:02:23,131 --> 00:02:24,933 Okay. Yalla. Bye. 38 00:02:24,944 --> 00:02:26,980 It's the spare key security code. 39 00:02:27,046 --> 00:02:29,616 I mean, how difficult is it to just know the things 40 00:02:29,682 --> 00:02:32,152 that you need to take with you and to take them with you. 41 00:02:33,319 --> 00:02:34,921 I sound exactly like my father. 42 00:02:34,988 --> 00:02:36,823 Was he strict? 43 00:02:36,890 --> 00:02:41,127 He was more of a spiritual philosopher. 44 00:02:41,194 --> 00:02:43,396 My mother was strict. My father would have called 45 00:02:43,463 --> 00:02:45,899 Mags' surgery a second chance. 46 00:02:45,965 --> 00:02:48,268 Do you miss that kind of outlook? 47 00:02:48,334 --> 00:02:52,071 I wonder if Mags' heart is in the hospital yet... 48 00:02:52,138 --> 00:02:54,407 I know I should focus, but... 49 00:02:55,408 --> 00:02:56,676 Thank you. 50 00:02:56,743 --> 00:02:58,244 Do you feel comfortable 51 00:02:58,311 --> 00:03:00,013 about your strategy for managing today? 52 00:03:00,079 --> 00:03:02,215 As best I can. Why, do you? 53 00:03:02,282 --> 00:03:04,184 Well, I was thinking about what you said last month 54 00:03:04,250 --> 00:03:05,585 about that ordeal in the sinkhole. 55 00:03:05,652 --> 00:03:09,355 The trapped man. You told me that jumping in blindly 56 00:03:09,422 --> 00:03:11,824 is what you know how to do, even when you shouldn't. 57 00:03:11,891 --> 00:03:14,427 Mags' family is making all the decisions today. 58 00:03:14,494 --> 00:03:19,065 Talking to the doctors, I'm just waiting for news above ground. 59 00:03:19,632 --> 00:03:20,934 It's, uh... 60 00:03:21,501 --> 00:03:23,236 It's my father's birthday today. 61 00:03:23,303 --> 00:03:26,472 - 1963, the year he was born. - Seriously? 62 00:03:26,539 --> 00:03:28,541 How weird is that, right? 63 00:03:28,608 --> 00:03:31,377 Do you do, uh, do you do anything to mark it? 64 00:03:32,145 --> 00:03:34,347 This is, uh... 65 00:03:34,414 --> 00:03:36,516 Okay, he loved Snickers. 66 00:03:36,583 --> 00:03:38,318 And it's one of the few candies 67 00:03:38,384 --> 00:03:40,286 that you can get both here and there. 68 00:03:40,353 --> 00:03:43,790 And usually, Amira and I, but... 69 00:03:43,856 --> 00:03:45,692 nobody's brought it up this year. 70 00:03:47,427 --> 00:03:49,696 My brother died when I was 20. 71 00:03:50,330 --> 00:03:52,665 Car accident, he was 17. 72 00:03:52,732 --> 00:03:55,401 Oh, Karim. I'm so sorry. 73 00:03:55,468 --> 00:04:00,640 The ways we grief and adapt as we... move on. 74 00:04:02,742 --> 00:04:04,844 Thanks, brother. 75 00:04:05,718 --> 00:04:07,353 I'll see you soon. 76 00:04:12,495 --> 00:04:13,896 Mark? 77 00:04:14,785 --> 00:04:17,088 Dr. Novak, where have you been? 78 00:04:17,099 --> 00:04:20,303 I woke up, made coffee, ran 10k, came here. 79 00:04:20,369 --> 00:04:22,972 You know full well I mean "Where have you been for the last two days?" 80 00:04:22,983 --> 00:04:25,530 You've been on the schedule but decidedly not here! 81 00:04:25,541 --> 00:04:27,543 My mother died. 82 00:04:28,695 --> 00:04:30,502 Oh, I'm so sorry to hear that. 83 00:04:30,513 --> 00:04:32,548 If you'd let us know, we would have been able to... 84 00:04:32,615 --> 00:04:34,216 She didn't actually die. I just wanted to see 85 00:04:34,283 --> 00:04:37,189 if you'd still give me a hard time after hearing that news, and... 86 00:04:37,200 --> 00:04:39,035 apparently, you would. 87 00:04:39,977 --> 00:04:42,747 You gonna let Pops go on the rides at Centreville too? 88 00:04:42,758 --> 00:04:44,827 I mean, he did come a long way to take you. 89 00:04:44,950 --> 00:04:48,153 She's going to make him do it. She always gets scared. 90 00:04:48,164 --> 00:04:50,499 Nothing wrong with being afraid, Gracie. 91 00:04:50,510 --> 00:04:52,379 Theo, I can do the sunscreen on the ferry. 92 00:04:52,501 --> 00:04:54,236 Why is everything you say a lesson? 93 00:04:54,303 --> 00:04:56,706 Welcome to my childhood, kid. 94 00:04:56,883 --> 00:04:59,553 Dr. Hunter, your patient in six is back from imaging. 95 00:04:59,564 --> 00:05:01,330 I can relay results if you need a minute. 96 00:05:01,341 --> 00:05:04,043 Ah, no, thank you, Dr. Bergeron. I'm good. 97 00:05:07,635 --> 00:05:11,272 Okay, girls, take it easy on Pops, alright? 98 00:05:11,747 --> 00:05:12,981 Thanks, Dad. 99 00:05:13,007 --> 00:05:14,809 Have a seat for one second, okay? 100 00:05:14,820 --> 00:05:15,887 Uh, Theo... 101 00:05:16,682 --> 00:05:18,817 - Forget something? - No, just, uh... 102 00:05:18,828 --> 00:05:21,297 Was that... Was that lady your friend? 103 00:05:21,929 --> 00:05:23,624 You know, it just seemed like there was, uh, 104 00:05:23,668 --> 00:05:25,318 you know, like, she knows you. 105 00:05:25,329 --> 00:05:26,931 No, Dad. 106 00:05:27,449 --> 00:05:29,758 I don't know, why would you even think something like that? 107 00:05:30,988 --> 00:05:32,541 Alright, I was just asking. 108 00:05:32,608 --> 00:05:33,809 - Okay. - Okay. 109 00:05:33,876 --> 00:05:35,978 Alright, girls, we're ready. 110 00:05:43,684 --> 00:05:45,586 So sweet of your dad to help out. 111 00:05:45,972 --> 00:05:48,680 - Liz, what the hell? - I wanted to meet your family. 112 00:05:48,691 --> 00:05:52,228 - Even undercover. - My head is killing me. 113 00:05:52,851 --> 00:05:54,386 You know, he pulled me aside 114 00:05:54,397 --> 00:05:56,132 and basically asked if you were my girlfriend. 115 00:05:56,711 --> 00:06:00,015 Wow, impressive dad insight. 116 00:06:00,154 --> 00:06:02,824 Okay, so fine. I accidentally forced the issue. 117 00:06:02,938 --> 00:06:05,174 No, you didn't because I denied it. 118 00:06:05,351 --> 00:06:06,886 You lied? 119 00:06:06,897 --> 00:06:08,733 Why, because me being sort of still married 120 00:06:08,744 --> 00:06:10,813 makes you a bad pastor's son? 121 00:06:11,120 --> 00:06:12,637 Another sick dog? 122 00:06:12,648 --> 00:06:16,252 This is Esther Danbury. Seriously compromised airway. 123 00:06:16,706 --> 00:06:18,587 - Whoa. - Try to stay still, Esther. 124 00:06:18,654 --> 00:06:21,490 Where's Judah? Where's Bertie? I can't see them. 125 00:06:21,557 --> 00:06:23,159 They're right here, Esther. They're okay. 126 00:06:23,170 --> 00:06:26,207 - Are you breathing okay? - We were in the ravine, 127 00:06:26,328 --> 00:06:28,564 the coyote leaped out of the bushes. 128 00:06:28,575 --> 00:06:30,203 Esther, I need you to save your breath, alright? 129 00:06:30,214 --> 00:06:31,856 - Two units of O-neg. - Yeah. 130 00:06:31,867 --> 00:06:35,127 Heart Rate's 105, RESP rate 24, BP's 88 over 58. 131 00:06:35,138 --> 00:06:37,841 Yeah, two grams TXA, start ceftriaxone. 132 00:06:40,442 --> 00:06:42,904 - Bertie, is our dog okay? - Might hurt a little. 133 00:06:45,860 --> 00:06:47,209 Alright, I'm gonna need to secure her 134 00:06:47,220 --> 00:06:48,697 airway before I can handle the bleeding. 135 00:06:48,708 --> 00:06:51,076 Bertie was on leash when the coyote lunged at us. 136 00:06:51,087 --> 00:06:52,588 Esther threw herself in front. 137 00:06:52,599 --> 00:06:55,036 Okay, our nurse is gonna take you to your room, okay, Judas? 138 00:06:55,047 --> 00:06:57,283 - Here, Esther needs him. - Okay. 139 00:06:57,765 --> 00:06:58,799 Oh... 140 00:06:59,246 --> 00:07:02,116 Theo, get that dog out of here, this is an operating room. 141 00:07:02,127 --> 00:07:03,899 She needs her dog, June. 142 00:07:03,910 --> 00:07:05,578 Can you tell me what you feel, Esther? 143 00:07:05,589 --> 00:07:06,824 How's church, Jim? 144 00:07:09,077 --> 00:07:10,712 Where have you been? 145 00:07:10,723 --> 00:07:14,258 It's... hard to breathe. 146 00:07:14,269 --> 00:07:16,541 Being able to talk is impressive. But, uh... 147 00:07:16,552 --> 00:07:18,916 These kinds of trauma usually create what we call 148 00:07:18,927 --> 00:07:23,052 a "difficult airway". Options, June? 149 00:07:23,442 --> 00:07:25,020 First, intubation, but... 150 00:07:25,198 --> 00:07:27,300 You think we're dealing with a tracheal injury? 151 00:07:27,311 --> 00:07:28,693 I'm having a hard time getting a good look. 152 00:07:28,704 --> 00:07:30,239 It seems like it's mostly facial, 153 00:07:30,250 --> 00:07:31,683 but then she has intra-oral bleeding, 154 00:07:31,694 --> 00:07:33,696 some loose teeth tissue, swelling. 155 00:07:33,707 --> 00:07:35,608 Blind nasotracheal intubation? 156 00:07:35,619 --> 00:07:37,155 Nobody does that anymore, okay? 157 00:07:37,166 --> 00:07:38,333 If this is a last resort, 158 00:07:38,344 --> 00:07:40,213 then it's gonna be an emergency cric. 159 00:07:40,481 --> 00:07:42,150 Theo, why is the dog still here? 160 00:07:42,221 --> 00:07:45,351 - June, Bertie stays. - Are you saying you 161 00:07:45,362 --> 00:07:47,724 that you can't get me breathing because the 162 00:07:47,735 --> 00:07:50,363 parts of my face aren't where they should be? 163 00:07:50,374 --> 00:07:52,143 Esther, Esther, listen to me! 164 00:07:52,154 --> 00:07:54,690 Look, I know you're scared, okay? 165 00:07:54,818 --> 00:07:56,892 But I promise you everything is gonna be alright. 166 00:07:56,903 --> 00:07:59,542 Can you just stay back from her open wounds? 167 00:07:59,821 --> 00:08:02,824 - 02 SAT's 86 now guys... - Actually, I forgot. 168 00:08:03,038 --> 00:08:04,806 - I got us this. - What is that? 169 00:08:04,817 --> 00:08:06,418 A video laryngoscope with a stylet. 170 00:08:06,429 --> 00:08:08,531 Means we can see what we're doing, and... 171 00:08:08,670 --> 00:08:10,338 - muscle through the debris. - What? 172 00:08:10,349 --> 00:08:12,251 Nah, keep the emergency cric, just in case. 173 00:08:12,535 --> 00:08:15,204 - Call that a double-double. - When did you get this? 174 00:08:15,215 --> 00:08:18,051 50 mg of etomidate and 70 of sux... 175 00:08:18,174 --> 00:08:19,909 I don't know, couple of months ago. 176 00:08:19,975 --> 00:08:22,082 Am I supposed to... ask permission? 177 00:08:22,093 --> 00:08:23,694 Well, at least tell someone you did it. 178 00:08:24,146 --> 00:08:26,148 Hi, kiddo, we're going to sedate you, okay? 179 00:08:26,327 --> 00:08:28,829 And now we're going to use that very good tool 180 00:08:28,840 --> 00:08:31,509 to put a tube in, and then when you wake up, 181 00:08:31,520 --> 00:08:33,355 you'll be able to breathe way more easily, okay? 182 00:08:33,478 --> 00:08:35,547 You know these things need special approval, right? 183 00:08:35,558 --> 00:08:36,992 Devi doesn't need any more reasons to... 184 00:08:37,059 --> 00:08:38,360 - To what? - You know, you could've 185 00:08:38,427 --> 00:08:40,496 at least answered my texts the last few days. 186 00:08:40,507 --> 00:08:42,475 Okay then, let's get this kid breathing. 187 00:08:42,863 --> 00:08:44,431 Alright. 188 00:08:45,434 --> 00:08:47,077 Okay, on your side. 189 00:08:47,088 --> 00:08:48,489 Thank you. 190 00:08:49,015 --> 00:08:50,349 Alright. 191 00:08:50,755 --> 00:08:52,088 Sorry, tender there? 192 00:08:52,099 --> 00:08:54,254 - Uh-huh. - Appendix, bet ya anything. 193 00:08:54,265 --> 00:08:56,000 I lost that one as a kid. 194 00:08:56,011 --> 00:08:57,947 This pain's definitely my pancreas. 195 00:08:57,958 --> 00:08:59,693 What makes you say that? 196 00:08:59,704 --> 00:09:02,373 Uh, a few years ago, my immune system declared war on it. 197 00:09:02,551 --> 00:09:04,086 I've had chronic pancreatitis since. 198 00:09:04,153 --> 00:09:07,256 My uncle had that. Man was in constant discomfort. 199 00:09:07,522 --> 00:09:10,224 Of course, he was also a weasel who drank a 40 a day. 200 00:09:10,235 --> 00:09:12,113 Except, I wasn't much of a drinker before 201 00:09:12,124 --> 00:09:13,936 this came on and barely at all after either. 202 00:09:14,104 --> 00:09:15,990 Your loss! 203 00:09:16,127 --> 00:09:18,408 Hey, hey, hey! 204 00:09:18,419 --> 00:09:20,388 Time to wake up, nurse lady. 205 00:09:22,177 --> 00:09:24,373 100 over 70, Kathy. 206 00:09:28,550 --> 00:09:30,134 Okay, this'll be cold. 207 00:09:35,103 --> 00:09:38,339 This is to rule out gallstones or bleeding. 208 00:09:40,502 --> 00:09:42,637 Are you on any medication? 209 00:09:43,203 --> 00:09:45,105 Pancrelipase and Rabeprazole daily. 210 00:09:45,116 --> 00:09:48,286 Tylenol at home. When it gets like this, I always have to come in. 211 00:09:48,297 --> 00:09:51,467 And... what do we usually do? 212 00:09:51,589 --> 00:09:53,591 On a good day, listen to what works, 213 00:09:53,602 --> 00:09:55,170 but mostly tell me why it won't. 214 00:09:55,181 --> 00:09:56,716 I'm hoping it's a good day. 215 00:09:56,727 --> 00:09:58,896 I like this one, she's fiery. 216 00:09:58,986 --> 00:10:00,688 What are you in for? 217 00:10:01,004 --> 00:10:03,301 - Congestive heart failure. - Sorry to hear that. 218 00:10:03,312 --> 00:10:05,948 No, no, no. I'll live to fight another day. 219 00:10:06,015 --> 00:10:08,117 I'll start fluids. 220 00:10:08,183 --> 00:10:11,353 Thanks. Um... Tell me what usually works, Paige. 221 00:10:11,615 --> 00:10:13,611 Three rounds of intravenous Toradol, 222 00:10:13,622 --> 00:10:16,125 aggressive fluids and cipro to avoid abscess. 223 00:10:16,191 --> 00:10:18,260 High-dose anti-inflammatories are controversial 224 00:10:18,327 --> 00:10:20,329 - when it comes to pancreatitis... - I know, but... 225 00:10:20,340 --> 00:10:21,834 I think the best thing that we can do is see 226 00:10:21,845 --> 00:10:24,121 how you respond to the fluids and manage pain orally. 227 00:10:24,132 --> 00:10:26,635 Won't work. I don't metabolize well by mouth! 228 00:10:27,513 --> 00:10:29,389 The thing is, you guys always make me sit 229 00:10:29,400 --> 00:10:31,153 in agony until my body proves me right. 230 00:10:31,164 --> 00:10:33,200 Can we please just skip that step this once? 231 00:10:33,211 --> 00:10:34,880 Look, I get you've been through this before, 232 00:10:35,069 --> 00:10:36,971 but there's a treatment protocol that we need to follow, 233 00:10:37,179 --> 00:10:39,600 and IV and seds risk anti-platelet effect 234 00:10:39,630 --> 00:10:41,207 or acute kidney injury. 235 00:10:41,240 --> 00:10:45,020 But if I'm willing to take that risk to stop my pain, why can't you? 236 00:10:45,142 --> 00:10:48,012 Yeah, why can't ya? I mean, it's her body, right? 237 00:10:48,023 --> 00:10:49,658 Kathy... 238 00:10:52,434 --> 00:10:55,842 Look, I want to help you, Paige, of course, I do. 239 00:10:55,853 --> 00:10:58,756 But... I need to look before jumping in blindly, 240 00:10:58,767 --> 00:11:01,670 so we're going to do some blood work first, alright? 241 00:11:08,600 --> 00:11:09,928 That was weird. 242 00:11:10,423 --> 00:11:12,325 Zero boundaries, that woman. 243 00:11:12,488 --> 00:11:15,758 Let me try to load her up with diuretics and hope that works. 244 00:11:15,894 --> 00:11:17,631 Uh, no, not Kathy. Paige. 245 00:11:17,642 --> 00:11:20,478 I just saw her move easily like she wasn't in pain. 246 00:11:20,489 --> 00:11:22,424 Do you think she's drug seeking? 247 00:11:22,619 --> 00:11:24,054 Asking for NSAIDs? 248 00:11:24,214 --> 00:11:25,616 They're not a controlled substance. 249 00:11:25,627 --> 00:11:27,296 I know, but some patients lay a track. 250 00:11:27,363 --> 00:11:30,199 Oh, you know the deal. Hiding is second nature with chronic pain. 251 00:11:30,265 --> 00:11:32,901 It's when you need somebody to really know what's going on inside, 252 00:11:32,968 --> 00:11:34,526 that's when you gotta work at it. 253 00:11:34,537 --> 00:11:35,838 Huh... 254 00:11:36,972 --> 00:11:38,574 No Mags today? 255 00:11:39,508 --> 00:11:41,577 I, uh, took her shift. 256 00:11:42,904 --> 00:11:45,773 People are saying there's something going on with her. 257 00:11:49,637 --> 00:11:52,210 She's having a heart transplant right now. 258 00:11:52,221 --> 00:11:54,323 She's been on the table about four hours, 259 00:11:54,334 --> 00:11:56,035 about four more to... 260 00:11:56,817 --> 00:11:59,187 I didn't know it was that bad. 261 00:11:59,507 --> 00:12:01,075 None of us did. 262 00:12:02,136 --> 00:12:03,704 Is she gonna... 263 00:12:05,386 --> 00:12:08,088 Is she gonna be able to come back to work? 264 00:12:08,326 --> 00:12:11,316 I think the drugs she's asking for are a real risk. 265 00:12:11,327 --> 00:12:12,695 Paige. 266 00:12:13,107 --> 00:12:14,575 Maybe. 267 00:12:15,337 --> 00:12:17,472 But she's the one alone with the pain. 268 00:12:20,857 --> 00:12:21,973 Dr. Devi, sorry. 269 00:12:21,984 --> 00:12:24,286 Uh, I imagine you heard about Trauma OR this morning. 270 00:12:24,465 --> 00:12:26,433 I know you've been auditing the logs, 271 00:12:26,444 --> 00:12:28,813 so if you have any questions about the fancy 272 00:12:28,824 --> 00:12:29,958 piece of equipment Dr. Novak ordered... 273 00:12:30,081 --> 00:12:31,883 Oh, I have a lot of questions for Mark. 274 00:12:31,894 --> 00:12:34,163 All of which I'd prefer to ask without a buffer. 275 00:12:34,477 --> 00:12:37,051 - Yeah, I, uh... - Dr. Curtis? 276 00:12:37,062 --> 00:12:38,656 This is Murray, Esther's father. 277 00:12:38,667 --> 00:12:40,364 I just saw my son, but they said you could tell me 278 00:12:40,375 --> 00:12:41,431 what's happening with my daughter. 279 00:12:41,442 --> 00:12:43,800 Yes, we were able to secure Esther's airway. 280 00:12:43,811 --> 00:12:45,489 She's gonna need several reconstructive surgeries 281 00:12:45,500 --> 00:12:47,549 - over the next couple of days... - Well, can I see her? 282 00:12:49,030 --> 00:12:51,215 You need to be prepared. Her face and her airway 283 00:12:51,226 --> 00:12:52,794 were damaged extensively. 284 00:12:52,841 --> 00:12:54,409 Well, she's gonna recover, right? 285 00:12:54,643 --> 00:12:56,611 She's starting university soon and... 286 00:12:56,622 --> 00:12:59,025 Functionally, her prognosis is good. 287 00:12:59,446 --> 00:13:01,404 But she may have some trouble swallowing, 288 00:13:01,415 --> 00:13:02,618 she might need a speech therapist. 289 00:13:02,629 --> 00:13:04,991 And they'll be some scaring, but... 290 00:13:07,028 --> 00:13:10,631 This dog, we got him the week their mom left. 291 00:13:11,335 --> 00:13:15,537 Anytime one of them was sick or sad, he'd be by their side. 292 00:13:15,548 --> 00:13:18,117 Like, their pain is his to bear. 293 00:13:19,297 --> 00:13:21,699 Well, you can come see her 294 00:13:21,710 --> 00:13:23,645 in the ICU, I just, uh... 295 00:13:24,780 --> 00:13:26,782 Sorry, you just, you can't take the dog. 296 00:13:27,883 --> 00:13:30,352 No, I can't, you can't... 297 00:13:34,575 --> 00:13:36,409 I got your page, Bash. You ever held a living 298 00:13:36,420 --> 00:13:38,856 creature before because you look completely unnatural, June. 299 00:13:39,525 --> 00:13:40,958 Then maybe you should take him since you made 300 00:13:40,969 --> 00:13:42,871 such a big deal of him staying in Trauma. 301 00:13:42,882 --> 00:13:44,917 Okay... Geez. 302 00:13:46,108 --> 00:13:47,381 What are you guys even doing here? I told you 303 00:13:47,392 --> 00:13:49,509 I'd fill you in if I had any news on her surgery. 304 00:13:49,520 --> 00:13:52,430 We were just discussing that while Mags is in recovery, 305 00:13:52,441 --> 00:13:55,087 if we split her shift, they won't need to hire a temp replacement. 306 00:13:55,098 --> 00:13:57,668 I already have my hands full trying to keep my job from imploding. 307 00:13:57,679 --> 00:13:59,047 What, June, you won't help? 308 00:13:59,058 --> 00:14:01,260 Did she even ask you to do this? 309 00:14:01,719 --> 00:14:03,554 Wait here. 310 00:14:03,565 --> 00:14:04,900 June... 311 00:14:07,204 --> 00:14:09,383 I mean, Mags does work at, like, 312 00:14:09,394 --> 00:14:11,795 three times the capacity of a normal person. 313 00:14:11,806 --> 00:14:13,641 Are we even gonna make a dent? 314 00:14:14,541 --> 00:14:16,577 - She coded on the table. - What? 315 00:14:16,588 --> 00:14:18,556 - June, did she... - They were able to get her back 316 00:14:18,567 --> 00:14:21,737 but it's not looking... That's all I could get. 317 00:14:22,219 --> 00:14:23,794 Okay, then I'll find out myself. 318 00:14:23,805 --> 00:14:24,973 Bash! What are you gonna do? 319 00:14:24,984 --> 00:14:26,853 I have to talk to them, maybe I can help! 320 00:14:26,864 --> 00:14:29,801 Hey, hey! You can't just storm into the OR with zero context 321 00:14:29,812 --> 00:14:32,882 and distract the people who can actually help her. 322 00:14:36,551 --> 00:14:37,952 Bash... 323 00:15:09,384 --> 00:15:12,054 It's about time! The poor girl's dying here. 324 00:15:12,501 --> 00:15:13,867 Your labs are back. 325 00:15:13,878 --> 00:15:15,699 You're not gonna give me the meds I asked for. 326 00:15:15,710 --> 00:15:17,840 The risk of straining your kidneys is too high. 327 00:15:17,851 --> 00:15:20,921 We're managing your pancreatic inflammation with fluids. 328 00:15:20,932 --> 00:15:23,701 I know it's not the news you wanted but... 329 00:15:24,287 --> 00:15:25,846 I own a restaurant. 330 00:15:25,857 --> 00:15:28,426 And you know, it's my job to taste our food. 331 00:15:28,493 --> 00:15:31,162 Fatty foods being the exact thing I'm supposed to avoid. 332 00:15:31,173 --> 00:15:33,842 - Well, isn't that a sick joke. - Right? 333 00:15:33,853 --> 00:15:35,721 And usually I just have a taste. 334 00:15:35,956 --> 00:15:37,451 Only last night we were slammed. 335 00:15:37,462 --> 00:15:42,033 And after close, these 18-hour short ribs were calling to me. 336 00:15:42,484 --> 00:15:44,375 Why won't you help her? 337 00:15:44,386 --> 00:15:46,255 I understand this is frustrating. 338 00:15:46,266 --> 00:15:48,335 I can give you other suggestions for pain management. 339 00:15:48,346 --> 00:15:50,009 It's just that we see a lot of people come in 340 00:15:50,020 --> 00:15:52,502 with pancreatitis and based on my personal experience... 341 00:15:52,513 --> 00:15:54,719 That's really what it's about, though, isn't it? 342 00:15:54,730 --> 00:15:57,354 Your experience. The day that you're having 343 00:15:57,365 --> 00:15:58,833 when you walk in the room. 344 00:15:59,020 --> 00:16:02,035 Once, a doctor at another hospital seemed 345 00:16:02,046 --> 00:16:04,615 so personally offended that none of his solutions were working, 346 00:16:04,626 --> 00:16:07,062 he suggested I apply for medically assisted death. 347 00:16:07,188 --> 00:16:10,024 Jesus. What is wrong with you people? 348 00:16:10,456 --> 00:16:11,679 At least I know I have a fall-back 349 00:16:11,690 --> 00:16:13,760 option in case no one can help me here. 350 00:16:13,857 --> 00:16:14,933 This is your life, Paige. 351 00:16:14,944 --> 00:16:17,580 That's not some idle threat to waive around. 352 00:16:21,747 --> 00:16:24,035 Someone else will come in and offer you 353 00:16:24,046 --> 00:16:26,234 other suggestions for pain management. 354 00:16:35,608 --> 00:16:36,790 Heard about your friend Leblanc. 355 00:16:36,801 --> 00:16:40,798 You bought $11,000 worth of unsanctioned equipment. 356 00:16:40,809 --> 00:16:43,779 - Life-saving equipment. - "Get you fired" equipment. 357 00:16:43,790 --> 00:16:45,559 I'm serious. While you were AWOL, 358 00:16:45,681 --> 00:16:48,550 Devi was trying to convince me to help her find ways of moving you out. 359 00:16:48,561 --> 00:16:50,329 - Well, did ya? - No! 360 00:16:50,447 --> 00:16:51,733 Short-sighted on your part. It could've 361 00:16:51,744 --> 00:16:53,505 been a good career move for you. 362 00:16:53,958 --> 00:16:55,601 Why do you not care about this? 363 00:16:55,612 --> 00:16:57,247 C'mon, what's wrong with these doors? 364 00:16:57,258 --> 00:16:59,327 When we started Trauma OR together, you loved it 365 00:16:59,338 --> 00:17:01,140 because building and making up the rules as you go 366 00:17:01,151 --> 00:17:03,420 works for you, but actually following them, not so much. 367 00:17:03,598 --> 00:17:05,767 Wow, that is so insightful of you, June. 368 00:17:06,280 --> 00:17:07,669 You know what I don't get? If you don't 369 00:17:07,680 --> 00:17:09,417 like your job, why are you still here, 370 00:17:09,428 --> 00:17:10,623 when you could just leave? Why are 371 00:17:10,634 --> 00:17:11,944 you trying to get Devi to push you out? 372 00:17:11,955 --> 00:17:13,523 Because you won't let me! 373 00:17:14,121 --> 00:17:17,224 You keep dragging me into conversations like this one 374 00:17:17,235 --> 00:17:18,683 in which you remind me about how 375 00:17:18,694 --> 00:17:21,607 important our working relationship is to you. 376 00:17:22,624 --> 00:17:25,093 I never wanted a partner. 377 00:17:25,520 --> 00:17:27,655 Then why did you recruit me? 378 00:17:27,854 --> 00:17:30,390 That was one of my many mistakes. 379 00:17:32,674 --> 00:17:35,443 Okay, I'm pretty sure this counts as harassment now. 380 00:17:35,454 --> 00:17:36,868 Well, we're gonna have this conversations 381 00:17:36,879 --> 00:17:38,319 because I'm not just gonna walk away. 382 00:17:38,815 --> 00:17:42,318 Really? You should try it sometimes because it really feels good. 383 00:17:42,329 --> 00:17:43,953 I can't. 384 00:17:44,328 --> 00:17:47,031 I'm thinking about having a kid, okay? 385 00:17:47,042 --> 00:17:50,412 There. And if I do something that's that crazy by myself, 386 00:17:50,479 --> 00:17:53,115 I need to know that my work environment is stable. 387 00:17:53,181 --> 00:17:55,584 And I know you don't want me putting my emotional stability on you. 388 00:17:55,595 --> 00:17:56,897 Guilt tripping me because you're 389 00:17:56,908 --> 00:17:58,836 suddenly nesting is the opposite of that. 390 00:17:58,847 --> 00:18:00,983 It's not why I'm saying this. 391 00:18:01,599 --> 00:18:03,514 I actually like being your partner. 392 00:18:03,525 --> 00:18:05,660 And I know you like it, too. Like, you would miss it 393 00:18:05,671 --> 00:18:09,275 if you got run out of here for being a stubborn idiot! 394 00:18:09,286 --> 00:18:10,716 Oh, how magnanimous of you, June. 395 00:18:10,727 --> 00:18:12,862 I care about what happens to you, Mark! 396 00:18:13,274 --> 00:18:15,443 The only reason our partnership exists 397 00:18:15,570 --> 00:18:18,473 is because you stepped over me to get yourself power. 398 00:18:18,484 --> 00:18:20,286 That happened, like, months ago. 399 00:18:20,297 --> 00:18:22,999 You could've told me something instead of burning me! 400 00:18:23,528 --> 00:18:26,214 That actually hurt you? 401 00:18:26,225 --> 00:18:28,127 That proves my point. 402 00:18:28,216 --> 00:18:29,417 You care. 403 00:18:29,811 --> 00:18:32,375 You're too damaged to be a mother, June. 404 00:18:39,353 --> 00:18:41,221 Where's Paige? 405 00:18:41,723 --> 00:18:42,957 What the... 406 00:18:44,584 --> 00:18:45,752 Kathy? 407 00:18:47,401 --> 00:18:48,802 Seriously? 408 00:18:48,813 --> 00:18:50,500 Figured what harm could it do now, right? 409 00:18:50,511 --> 00:18:53,080 But this is a hospital, you're in heart failure, 410 00:18:53,091 --> 00:18:55,026 and you have a sick roommate! 411 00:18:55,451 --> 00:18:57,720 Not anymore, Paige left! 412 00:18:57,896 --> 00:18:59,289 Left, what do you mean "left"? 413 00:18:59,300 --> 00:19:01,411 Well, the details are between me and her, 414 00:19:01,422 --> 00:19:04,926 but I will tell you that this place failed her big time! 415 00:19:04,937 --> 00:19:06,239 Do you know where she is? 416 00:19:06,250 --> 00:19:07,851 Because she still needs treatment. 417 00:19:07,862 --> 00:19:10,231 She needs fluids and pain control. 418 00:19:10,242 --> 00:19:11,643 Is that what these are? Nice! 419 00:19:11,654 --> 00:19:13,622 Hey, those are basically morphine! 420 00:19:14,028 --> 00:19:17,131 Oh! Beautiful! Anyway, why? 421 00:19:17,232 --> 00:19:20,368 Paige already told you that the good stuff doesn't even work on her. 422 00:19:20,958 --> 00:19:23,319 Those were not meant for you! 423 00:19:23,330 --> 00:19:29,169 Well, screw me for wanting to feel good, you uncaring bitch! 424 00:19:39,993 --> 00:19:41,662 Where have you been? 425 00:19:41,989 --> 00:19:45,593 I mean, you weren't here to stop Paige from leaving. 426 00:19:45,640 --> 00:19:47,475 To go where? 427 00:19:51,601 --> 00:19:55,171 Of course, Abby swore she wanted to go on the drop ride, 428 00:19:55,182 --> 00:19:58,519 but as soon as we got to the top, she panicked, poor kid. 429 00:19:59,013 --> 00:20:00,488 Just give it a couple of days, she'll 430 00:20:00,499 --> 00:20:02,095 remember it like she conquered it. 431 00:20:02,106 --> 00:20:05,309 Uh, hey, do you mind if we sit? 432 00:20:05,465 --> 00:20:06,933 Sure. 433 00:20:07,468 --> 00:20:11,508 Uh, look, I don't want you 434 00:20:11,520 --> 00:20:14,523 to feel like you need to hide from me, son. 435 00:20:14,741 --> 00:20:18,200 You know, whether you're, well, dating that person or not... 436 00:20:18,211 --> 00:20:19,250 - Dad... - No, no, no. 437 00:20:19,261 --> 00:20:21,363 I should not have pried, that wasn't... 438 00:20:21,429 --> 00:20:22,998 Not my business. 439 00:20:23,009 --> 00:20:25,145 And to set an example, 440 00:20:25,617 --> 00:20:30,672 you should know that I am no longer with the church. 441 00:20:31,306 --> 00:20:32,841 You retired, Dad, that's big... 442 00:20:32,852 --> 00:20:36,722 No, no, no, not retired. Uh... resigned. 443 00:20:38,602 --> 00:20:42,339 I wanted to tell you, but you're always so busy and, uh... 444 00:20:42,350 --> 00:20:46,354 Okay, but... So you and Mom, you still go, right? 445 00:20:46,421 --> 00:20:50,425 Uh, well, yeah, your mother, from time to time. 446 00:20:50,492 --> 00:20:53,428 But it would be too weird for me. 447 00:20:54,675 --> 00:20:57,544 And actually, I work Sundays now. 448 00:20:57,555 --> 00:21:00,291 Yeah, for a small landscaping outfit. 449 00:21:00,302 --> 00:21:01,697 You know, it's, uh... 450 00:21:01,708 --> 00:21:06,412 Dad, you gave up a lead pastor to, what? 451 00:21:07,036 --> 00:21:10,478 Trim hedges? You've been doing that job for 30 years, Dad! 452 00:21:10,601 --> 00:21:13,304 The church has stayed exactly the same. 453 00:21:13,714 --> 00:21:19,453 And there are just things about that that I can't reconcile anymore. 454 00:21:20,204 --> 00:21:22,157 You used to say that wrestling with doubt was a good thing. 455 00:21:22,168 --> 00:21:24,270 - Yeah. - Right, that, uh... 456 00:21:24,281 --> 00:21:26,924 faith grows with the fight. You would say that. 457 00:21:26,935 --> 00:21:28,370 I still believe that. 458 00:21:28,663 --> 00:21:30,932 You know what, I also, I sometimes wonder, perhaps, 459 00:21:30,943 --> 00:21:33,479 I pushed you too far towards something that I believed. 460 00:21:33,548 --> 00:21:34,982 You know, maybe that's why you left. 461 00:21:34,993 --> 00:21:36,755 Oh, so now it's my fault that you're throwing away 462 00:21:36,766 --> 00:21:38,690 everything we grew up believing? Dad, that's unhinged. 463 00:21:38,701 --> 00:21:40,803 - That's... - It's not, it's not, Theo. 464 00:21:41,367 --> 00:21:43,670 No, I think it's so brave what you did. 465 00:21:43,825 --> 00:21:48,416 It is. Recognizing that you weren't happy, and then changing your life. 466 00:21:48,795 --> 00:21:50,335 The path that you were on. 467 00:21:50,346 --> 00:21:53,288 No. Look, if anything, that inspired me. 468 00:21:53,299 --> 00:21:54,700 Oh... 469 00:21:55,569 --> 00:22:00,041 Do not rethink your calling because of me, please. 470 00:22:13,921 --> 00:22:15,088 Hey. 471 00:22:15,423 --> 00:22:16,858 Still no news. 472 00:22:17,364 --> 00:22:18,632 How you doing? 473 00:22:19,133 --> 00:22:20,801 Don't really know. 474 00:22:24,659 --> 00:22:28,029 Think I was a little harsh earlier. 475 00:22:28,735 --> 00:22:31,905 Just don't know how to deal with these things. 476 00:22:32,594 --> 00:22:34,429 You're asking me how? 477 00:22:35,797 --> 00:22:37,446 I was gonna go pray. 478 00:22:37,457 --> 00:22:39,159 Does that really work for you? 479 00:22:39,634 --> 00:22:40,902 Uh-huh. 480 00:22:42,259 --> 00:22:45,129 Also, it just gets me out of my head, 481 00:22:45,140 --> 00:22:46,875 so I don't do something like... 482 00:22:46,941 --> 00:22:49,010 Barge into an operating room. 483 00:22:49,021 --> 00:22:50,322 Yeah... 484 00:22:50,845 --> 00:22:52,880 Look, if Mags, uh... 485 00:22:56,484 --> 00:22:59,120 If she doesn't make it, I just... 486 00:23:00,155 --> 00:23:02,357 I think that's it for me, June. 487 00:23:03,804 --> 00:23:05,472 What do you mean? 488 00:23:06,020 --> 00:23:07,355 No... 489 00:23:07,366 --> 00:23:09,402 Not that. 490 00:23:09,413 --> 00:23:11,082 I just... 491 00:23:15,142 --> 00:23:18,746 I just know I won't be able to start over. 492 00:23:19,613 --> 00:23:21,615 No, not again. 493 00:23:37,600 --> 00:23:39,600 _ 494 00:23:42,420 --> 00:23:44,420 TWO WEEKS LATER 495 00:24:17,337 --> 00:24:18,962 _ 496 00:24:19,282 --> 00:24:21,569 _ 497 00:24:25,432 --> 00:24:26,800 How do you feel? 498 00:24:27,609 --> 00:24:29,944 I was dreaming about the anesthetic. 499 00:24:29,955 --> 00:24:32,024 That sleep is so heavy. 500 00:24:32,035 --> 00:24:36,032 Every time I wake up now, I feel a huge wave of relief 501 00:24:36,043 --> 00:24:39,914 washing over me when I realize how lucky I am to have made it. 502 00:24:40,614 --> 00:24:42,649 I'm making vegetable soup. 503 00:24:43,413 --> 00:24:46,016 Think you'll be hungry later? 504 00:24:46,027 --> 00:24:47,762 Maybe. 505 00:24:52,286 --> 00:24:53,921 Hey, Dad. 506 00:24:58,325 --> 00:24:59,947 _ 507 00:24:59,958 --> 00:25:01,315 _ 508 00:25:06,260 --> 00:25:07,828 Who died? 509 00:25:12,627 --> 00:25:13,920 _ 510 00:25:19,156 --> 00:25:20,217 Hi, Paige. 511 00:25:20,228 --> 00:25:22,931 It's Dr. Hamed from York Memorial, again. 512 00:25:23,053 --> 00:25:26,156 You haven't returned any of my calls so... 513 00:25:26,339 --> 00:25:28,608 just checking if everything's okay. 514 00:25:29,771 --> 00:25:31,172 You're on my bed. 515 00:25:31,528 --> 00:25:34,175 Yeah, you asked me to lie here earlier. 516 00:25:34,328 --> 00:25:36,330 - I did? - Hmm. 517 00:25:37,554 --> 00:25:40,857 These immunosuppressants are messing me up. 518 00:25:40,868 --> 00:25:43,170 I feel so spaced out. 519 00:25:44,124 --> 00:25:46,860 And is that a rash? I feel itchy. 520 00:25:47,840 --> 00:25:51,810 No, I don't see anything, but let's keep an eye on it. 521 00:25:52,820 --> 00:25:54,488 Who were you talking to? 522 00:25:54,596 --> 00:25:57,165 Uh, a patient with pancreatitis. 523 00:25:57,287 --> 00:26:01,491 She left AMA and things ended sort of weird between us. 524 00:26:01,558 --> 00:26:04,194 Mmm, maybe she just needs space. 525 00:26:04,398 --> 00:26:07,564 - What if she needs help? - She can ask. 526 00:26:07,575 --> 00:26:09,677 You know, it's gotta come from her. 527 00:26:13,346 --> 00:26:16,116 I wish I didn't need all the drugs that they're putting me on. 528 00:26:16,550 --> 00:26:20,187 Hey, look, you and I both know that the immune system... 529 00:26:20,522 --> 00:26:24,759 attacks foreign substances. In this case, that's organs. 530 00:26:24,770 --> 00:26:27,139 Will it be the heart that rejects the patient 531 00:26:27,150 --> 00:26:29,519 or the patient that rejects the heart? 532 00:26:30,009 --> 00:26:33,380 Both of those options end in rejection. 533 00:26:35,234 --> 00:26:39,405 Because it was never mine to begin with, the heart. 534 00:26:40,133 --> 00:26:44,771 And now, part of another human being is braiding with me. 535 00:26:47,055 --> 00:26:49,350 Should I be happy that that's all behind me 536 00:26:49,417 --> 00:26:50,818 or afraid about what's ahead? 537 00:26:50,829 --> 00:26:52,431 Bash called while you were asleep. 538 00:26:55,498 --> 00:26:59,060 If you want me to tell him to lay off a bit, I can do that. 539 00:26:59,127 --> 00:27:00,828 Gently. 540 00:27:03,276 --> 00:27:05,133 How do you feel? 541 00:27:05,144 --> 00:27:08,314 I would love it if people would stop asking me that. 542 00:27:10,004 --> 00:27:11,973 Mum's making soup. 543 00:27:12,941 --> 00:27:15,977 Well, if you must know, I feel like a zombie. 544 00:27:16,256 --> 00:27:18,892 Like the Walking Dead. 545 00:27:19,023 --> 00:27:21,049 Oh, how long it's been like that? 546 00:27:21,060 --> 00:27:24,263 - I think it just came on. - Is it time for your meds? 547 00:27:25,507 --> 00:27:28,578 - What if they're not working? - Magalie, don't. 548 00:27:28,874 --> 00:27:30,959 Your doctor's checked in every day, he says you're good. 549 00:27:30,970 --> 00:27:34,841 I can feel it, Cam. I can feel it trying to fight its way out of me. 550 00:27:34,852 --> 00:27:36,854 The funny thing is she fought so hard 551 00:27:36,963 --> 00:27:38,598 to get into this art school, 552 00:27:38,733 --> 00:27:41,302 and now, the thing she likes the most is math. 553 00:27:41,313 --> 00:27:43,615 Well, you know, 554 00:27:43,626 --> 00:27:45,954 not knowing what path they're on is part of the fun. 555 00:27:45,965 --> 00:27:48,267 This feels like a horrible memory. 556 00:27:48,825 --> 00:27:51,839 Being 12 years old and you guys were so worried about me. 557 00:27:51,850 --> 00:27:53,120 _ 558 00:27:53,635 --> 00:27:55,135 _ 559 00:27:56,114 --> 00:27:58,040 Never too late to start again. 560 00:27:58,051 --> 00:27:59,953 What were you saying about your sister? 561 00:27:59,964 --> 00:28:02,088 Oh, she got invited to the STEM exchange 562 00:28:02,099 --> 00:28:04,482 program at this school in England 563 00:28:04,493 --> 00:28:05,979 for kids who excel at math, 564 00:28:05,990 --> 00:28:07,858 and I can't decide whether to let her go. 565 00:28:08,074 --> 00:28:10,110 Mmm, they all go eventually. 566 00:28:10,891 --> 00:28:12,993 Bon appétit. 567 00:28:13,368 --> 00:28:15,203 Something went wrong. We've lost her. 568 00:28:19,566 --> 00:28:21,375 You'll never work again after this. 569 00:28:22,191 --> 00:28:24,270 No! There's a bad rash, Dr. Zhang. 570 00:28:24,281 --> 00:28:26,201 And her fever won't come down now! 571 00:28:26,212 --> 00:28:27,914 We need to get it out. 572 00:28:28,149 --> 00:28:30,885 - Please! - Magalie, you're only dreaming. 573 00:28:31,318 --> 00:28:33,120 Please! 574 00:28:34,078 --> 00:28:35,579 You need to get it out of me now! 575 00:28:42,482 --> 00:28:44,484 ? Memories ? 576 00:28:46,179 --> 00:28:49,115 ? Feel like a disease... ?? 577 00:28:54,602 --> 00:28:56,070 Come in. 578 00:28:57,091 --> 00:29:00,334 Hey, Cam said you need to be awake anyway. 579 00:29:00,345 --> 00:29:03,248 Yeah, come sit. 580 00:29:04,865 --> 00:29:07,301 Tell me... 581 00:29:08,175 --> 00:29:10,292 What's the panic level out there really? 582 00:29:10,303 --> 00:29:12,505 Um... 583 00:29:12,516 --> 00:29:15,386 Well, your mother thinks that her soup will solve 584 00:29:15,397 --> 00:29:18,767 all of your problems and I assured her you would be fine. 585 00:29:19,700 --> 00:29:22,703 I love that I don't have to pretend with you. 586 00:29:23,836 --> 00:29:27,240 It does seem like you're adjusting to your meds better now. 587 00:29:27,251 --> 00:29:31,628 I know it's been a rocky couple of weeks in this place. 588 00:29:31,952 --> 00:29:33,320 Yeah... 589 00:29:35,783 --> 00:29:37,652 - Mags... - What is it? 590 00:29:37,718 --> 00:29:40,955 I had a thought during your surgery 591 00:29:41,394 --> 00:29:44,992 when I got scared that you weren't going to come out of it. 592 00:29:45,484 --> 00:29:49,421 Every time I fall asleep now, I'm afraid I'm not gonna wake up. 593 00:29:50,210 --> 00:29:52,479 It's been really unsettling. 594 00:29:52,625 --> 00:29:55,795 That's normal, it'll take time. 595 00:29:56,590 --> 00:29:58,125 What thought? 596 00:29:59,286 --> 00:30:02,923 Look, I know when you and I were together, 597 00:30:03,099 --> 00:30:04,634 we had our issues on figuring out 598 00:30:04,645 --> 00:30:06,347 how we were going to move forward 599 00:30:06,414 --> 00:30:08,549 or if we were going to at all. 600 00:30:08,616 --> 00:30:12,954 And I know a lot of that was me and my fears, but... 601 00:30:15,523 --> 00:30:18,226 I can't see a future unless you're in it. 602 00:30:19,393 --> 00:30:23,097 This is real, Mags. I want this to be real. 603 00:30:35,910 --> 00:30:39,614 Did you... make this when you thought Mags might die? 604 00:30:39,779 --> 00:30:41,615 Um... 605 00:30:42,271 --> 00:30:45,208 It was like the day of her surgery, 606 00:30:45,477 --> 00:30:49,590 but it's not usually, like, about one thing. 607 00:30:49,657 --> 00:30:51,526 It's about everything. 608 00:30:53,427 --> 00:30:55,830 When we were together, 609 00:30:56,176 --> 00:30:59,546 I had no idea this was a part of you. 610 00:31:00,134 --> 00:31:03,271 I've never been good at letting people know me. 611 00:31:03,783 --> 00:31:06,686 Not sure that's true anymore. 612 00:31:32,345 --> 00:31:35,048 - Hey, Karim. - Hey, Bashir. 613 00:31:35,059 --> 00:31:37,361 I got your call this morning, I was just, uh... 614 00:31:37,372 --> 00:31:39,214 I put it all on the line with Mags. 615 00:31:39,225 --> 00:31:42,098 I told her that I want us to be together 616 00:31:42,109 --> 00:31:44,912 and she has to think about it. 617 00:31:45,148 --> 00:31:47,404 - How's she doing these days? - It's been, uh, 618 00:31:47,415 --> 00:31:49,817 it's been a couple of weeks since her surgery. 619 00:31:50,051 --> 00:31:51,986 She's moving around the apartment, 620 00:31:52,053 --> 00:31:54,589 but there's also the psychological component 621 00:31:54,655 --> 00:31:57,070 of when do I get to believe I've survived, 622 00:31:57,081 --> 00:31:58,950 and I get that because it's... 623 00:31:59,293 --> 00:32:00,695 Can we go in here? 624 00:32:00,706 --> 00:32:02,875 Uh, yeah, sure. 625 00:32:10,002 --> 00:32:11,695 Bashir, do you know what transference is? 626 00:32:11,706 --> 00:32:15,610 Uh, it's when an emotion gets redirected to... 627 00:32:15,621 --> 00:32:17,123 where it doesn't belong. 628 00:32:18,041 --> 00:32:19,747 You think that's what I'm doing with Mags. 629 00:32:19,758 --> 00:32:21,460 Actually, I'm talking about us. 630 00:32:22,137 --> 00:32:24,252 You call or text with thoughts 631 00:32:24,318 --> 00:32:27,521 and ask questions like a friend or family member would. 632 00:32:27,532 --> 00:32:29,000 - Yeah... - Just wait. 633 00:32:29,011 --> 00:32:31,104 I'm gonna get through this. I think because you and I 634 00:32:31,115 --> 00:32:35,051 are similar in so many ways, culturally, in part, yes, 635 00:32:35,062 --> 00:32:36,878 but also just personality-wise, 636 00:32:36,889 --> 00:32:39,958 that it's been easier for me to let my boundaries lax. 637 00:32:40,107 --> 00:32:43,244 And you have this need for a brother, 638 00:32:43,255 --> 00:32:45,391 or father figure, or role model... 639 00:32:46,419 --> 00:32:48,021 And it pulls at me, man. 640 00:32:48,729 --> 00:32:51,164 So as your therapist, I've let my guard down. 641 00:32:51,469 --> 00:32:54,015 I also should never have told you about my brother who died. 642 00:32:54,137 --> 00:32:56,873 - Bu... - That was about me. 643 00:32:56,884 --> 00:32:59,320 And it crossed a line I have never crossed before. 644 00:32:59,387 --> 00:33:01,422 Is any of this making sense? 645 00:33:02,790 --> 00:33:04,670 The work we're doing, it's helping. 646 00:33:04,681 --> 00:33:07,717 I know, but I need to keep a firm grasp 647 00:33:07,728 --> 00:33:10,031 on professional boundaries. I just... 648 00:33:10,958 --> 00:33:12,793 can't be your brother. 649 00:33:17,204 --> 00:33:19,570 Are you firing me as your patient? 650 00:33:19,581 --> 00:33:23,819 No, but I do hope that we can reset. 651 00:33:24,744 --> 00:33:27,680 So book an appointment and we'll talk then. 652 00:33:39,839 --> 00:33:42,008 - Hey, Esther. - Hey! 653 00:33:42,298 --> 00:33:44,600 Your dad hanging in? 654 00:33:44,834 --> 00:33:46,967 I don't know, he kind of looked tired or... 655 00:33:46,978 --> 00:33:50,715 Crazy? Yo, he murdered that coyote. 656 00:33:50,726 --> 00:33:53,862 - What, why? - Revenge, he said. 657 00:33:54,367 --> 00:33:56,477 Like, we don't even know if it was the same one. 658 00:33:56,488 --> 00:33:58,657 - Killed it with what? - A hunting rifle. 659 00:33:58,987 --> 00:34:04,919 After the attack, he went out, looking every night just... 660 00:34:07,734 --> 00:34:09,969 I'm worried about him. 661 00:34:10,252 --> 00:34:11,648 Yeah, I guess so. 662 00:34:11,659 --> 00:34:15,596 And he raised us on his own, that's a lot to carry. 663 00:34:15,663 --> 00:34:17,365 And even Bertie's upset. 664 00:34:17,376 --> 00:34:20,746 I mean, this is a trauma on all of us. 665 00:34:20,757 --> 00:34:22,592 Look, I checked back in with Plastics, 666 00:34:22,770 --> 00:34:24,839 and they said your second surgery went well. 667 00:34:24,905 --> 00:34:28,542 Yeah, I mean, I can swallow better, if that's what you mean. 668 00:34:28,664 --> 00:34:31,434 Do you think after the next one though I can go home, 669 00:34:31,445 --> 00:34:35,349 maybe help my dad, even make it back for Fall semester? 670 00:34:35,416 --> 00:34:37,585 Look, Esther... 671 00:34:40,276 --> 00:34:42,979 About a year ago, I was in a helicopter crash. 672 00:34:42,990 --> 00:34:45,926 Pilot died and I got stranded in the woods. 673 00:34:46,527 --> 00:34:49,663 Okay? I mean, wow! 674 00:34:49,730 --> 00:34:51,932 - But... - Why am I telling you this? 675 00:34:52,867 --> 00:34:55,236 I know I promised you that everything would be fine. 676 00:34:55,871 --> 00:34:58,072 - Are you saying that it's not? - No. 677 00:34:58,083 --> 00:35:00,585 - I'm just saying tha... - Because you seem okay to me. 678 00:35:00,596 --> 00:35:02,197 And am I. I am. 679 00:35:02,888 --> 00:35:06,292 And I barely even think about it anymore. 680 00:35:06,303 --> 00:35:08,705 But I'm just now starting to understand 681 00:35:08,716 --> 00:35:10,336 the effects that it had on me. 682 00:35:10,347 --> 00:35:13,510 I don't really know what to do with any of that. 683 00:35:13,521 --> 00:35:16,457 I know. Which is kind of my point. 684 00:35:16,524 --> 00:35:20,628 Okay, how you react to all of this, just trust me, 685 00:35:20,694 --> 00:35:23,497 and just try to take it slow. 686 00:35:24,231 --> 00:35:26,700 I'm gonna go check on your dad. 687 00:35:29,570 --> 00:35:31,005 I need help out here! 688 00:35:31,071 --> 00:35:32,807 Need some help down here! 689 00:35:34,948 --> 00:35:37,217 Arnold, what is this? 690 00:35:37,228 --> 00:35:38,730 I just found her collapsed here. 691 00:35:39,031 --> 00:35:41,200 - Her O2 SAT's brutal, Claire. - This is Kathy, 692 00:35:41,211 --> 00:35:42,779 she's been in and out with congestive heart failure. 693 00:35:42,790 --> 00:35:44,425 I heard a tonne of fluid. 694 00:35:44,819 --> 00:35:46,511 - Prep trauma. - Yeah! 695 00:35:49,661 --> 00:35:51,548 Kathy, hey! Hang in there. 696 00:35:51,559 --> 00:35:54,094 Hang in there, we're gonna help you breathe, okay? 697 00:35:54,216 --> 00:35:56,458 No. No! 698 00:35:56,503 --> 00:35:58,505 No, not you! 699 00:36:00,935 --> 00:36:02,970 Mr. Danbury, Murray. 700 00:36:03,109 --> 00:36:06,479 I know it's been a tough few weeks, but I just wanted to... 701 00:36:06,997 --> 00:36:09,060 - What? - Uh... 702 00:36:09,342 --> 00:36:10,910 Am I crying blood? 703 00:36:11,278 --> 00:36:13,481 - Uh, June. Have you seen this? - Yeah? 704 00:36:15,348 --> 00:36:17,250 - I'll get that, you get this. - Yeah, okay. 705 00:36:18,110 --> 00:36:21,514 Hi, sir. Just look at me. 706 00:36:29,749 --> 00:36:31,351 Claire... 707 00:36:31,932 --> 00:36:33,266 Claire. 708 00:36:33,626 --> 00:36:34,994 It's over. 709 00:36:40,549 --> 00:36:42,218 She wouldn't let me tube her. 710 00:36:42,229 --> 00:36:45,969 By the time help came and got her on the bed, she deteriorated so fast. 711 00:36:45,980 --> 00:36:47,781 I did three rounds of CPR. 712 00:36:47,888 --> 00:36:50,428 I don't even know how she got here, who brought her in. 713 00:36:50,439 --> 00:36:51,640 I did. 714 00:37:01,896 --> 00:37:04,298 Everyone on my street knew where that thing slept. 715 00:37:04,365 --> 00:37:06,901 This city wasn't going to do anything about it so... 716 00:37:06,967 --> 00:37:10,004 But did you physically handle the animal? 717 00:37:10,182 --> 00:37:12,051 After I shot it... 718 00:37:12,483 --> 00:37:15,476 I used to go hunting with my uncle, I still have my old rifle. 719 00:37:16,076 --> 00:37:17,811 Anyway, I did the right thing. 720 00:37:17,878 --> 00:37:21,248 I made sure it was dead, not in any pain. 721 00:37:21,849 --> 00:37:23,083 Why? 722 00:37:23,150 --> 00:37:25,519 Uh, coyotes can carry bacteria 723 00:37:25,586 --> 00:37:26,987 that is harmful to humans. 724 00:37:27,315 --> 00:37:28,856 What, like rabies? 725 00:37:28,923 --> 00:37:30,175 Hmm... 726 00:37:30,186 --> 00:37:31,870 Because I've been feeling kind of fluish. 727 00:37:31,881 --> 00:37:33,383 It could be something called tularemia. 728 00:37:33,394 --> 00:37:34,695 When Esther came in, we gave her 729 00:37:34,762 --> 00:37:35,996 some precautionary antibiotics, 730 00:37:36,063 --> 00:37:37,552 but if you had it on your hands, 731 00:37:37,563 --> 00:37:39,264 and then you touched your eye... 732 00:37:40,267 --> 00:37:42,870 Okay, so Murray, I'm gonna have to cut into the tissue 733 00:37:42,881 --> 00:37:45,683 in order to drain the abscess or else you might go blind, 734 00:37:45,694 --> 00:37:49,064 but, I am gonna numb your first. 735 00:37:56,355 --> 00:37:58,824 - I know it was stupid. - Just one more. 736 00:37:59,709 --> 00:38:02,389 I just couldn't sleep knowing that thing was still out there. 737 00:38:02,400 --> 00:38:03,634 Yeah... 738 00:38:04,758 --> 00:38:06,727 I know you think I'm crazy. 739 00:38:10,149 --> 00:38:13,853 Actually, I was wondering if it made you feel better? 740 00:38:14,401 --> 00:38:17,004 I love those kids so much. 741 00:38:17,511 --> 00:38:19,379 It's worth the pain. 742 00:38:32,785 --> 00:38:35,588 She texted me after I left that day. 743 00:38:36,311 --> 00:38:39,515 I invited her to the restaurant, cooked her a steak. 744 00:38:39,677 --> 00:38:41,446 We've both been feeling lousy. 745 00:38:41,457 --> 00:38:43,492 Ended up making friends over that. 746 00:38:43,503 --> 00:38:45,204 Sick friends. 747 00:38:45,807 --> 00:38:48,880 - I'm sorry, Paige. - You called me a lot. 748 00:38:48,891 --> 00:38:50,780 Yeah, are you still in pain? 749 00:38:50,791 --> 00:38:52,895 We'll get you into a room, 750 00:38:52,906 --> 00:38:55,576 - I'll give you an IV of Toradol. - Now you'll do what I want. 751 00:38:55,629 --> 00:38:58,031 Two weeks ago it was such a big risk, but now it's not? 752 00:38:58,357 --> 00:38:59,691 - It's still a risk. - Then why did my friend 753 00:38:59,702 --> 00:39:01,570 have to die for you to take it? 754 00:39:04,003 --> 00:39:07,340 Look, I am the kind of doctor that takes risks. 755 00:39:07,591 --> 00:39:11,125 It's just that day, I was trying not to overreact 756 00:39:11,136 --> 00:39:13,472 to something that was happening in my life. 757 00:39:13,594 --> 00:39:16,163 Kathy was right about me making it personal. 758 00:39:17,197 --> 00:39:19,099 Let me help you now. 759 00:39:29,415 --> 00:39:30,783 What is this? 760 00:39:30,981 --> 00:39:32,646 Dr. Novak and I have been discussing 761 00:39:32,769 --> 00:39:35,605 our working situation, and we've decided... 762 00:39:35,616 --> 00:39:38,318 - You've decided. - It's been decided 763 00:39:38,329 --> 00:39:42,100 that he's gonna be transitioning out of Trauma OR 764 00:39:42,498 --> 00:39:45,381 and no longer connected to the emergency department. 765 00:39:45,786 --> 00:39:48,529 "Banished". That's the word she's looking for. 766 00:39:48,641 --> 00:39:52,378 We wanted you to hear it, officially, from the both of us. 767 00:39:52,658 --> 00:39:54,026 Heard. 768 00:39:54,559 --> 00:39:55,928 June? 769 00:39:56,376 --> 00:39:57,411 June! 770 00:39:58,428 --> 00:40:01,397 Yeah, I guess you're right. I'm a starter, not a stayer. 771 00:40:01,408 --> 00:40:02,943 So you're leaving the hospital? 772 00:40:03,010 --> 00:40:04,912 No, no. I have some friends still upstairs 773 00:40:04,923 --> 00:40:06,154 that are willing to slot me in. 774 00:40:06,165 --> 00:40:07,900 Maybe I'd ask what this means for me, but... 775 00:40:08,175 --> 00:40:10,010 I wouldn't want to sound too damaged. 776 00:40:10,703 --> 00:40:13,306 Yeah, June, uh... 777 00:40:14,407 --> 00:40:17,610 When I said that, look, it wasn't about... 778 00:40:34,068 --> 00:40:36,082 Hey, how was your follow-up appointment? 779 00:40:36,093 --> 00:40:37,675 - I'm on my way there now. - Okay. 780 00:40:37,686 --> 00:40:39,121 But Bash... 781 00:40:41,541 --> 00:40:44,043 I want it to be real, too. 782 00:40:46,626 --> 00:40:47,793 You do? 783 00:41:09,710 --> 00:41:12,246 Sasha and her mom have already been waiting 10 minutes. 784 00:41:12,257 --> 00:41:14,493 Uh, I thought it was in my bag, but it isn't. 785 00:41:14,504 --> 00:41:16,873 - My math. - Where did you see it last? 786 00:41:17,116 --> 00:41:19,018 I don't know, but I have to study on the way. 787 00:41:19,029 --> 00:41:20,886 Mr. Redican said that if we don't pass 788 00:41:20,897 --> 00:41:23,474 this test, we can't go on the trip. 789 00:41:23,524 --> 00:41:24,893 - _ - Found it! 790 00:41:24,931 --> 00:41:26,766 Oh, my God, Mags, you saved my life. 791 00:41:29,707 --> 00:41:31,008 Okay, one second! 792 00:41:31,019 --> 00:41:32,253 I'm doing nine to two today. 793 00:41:32,312 --> 00:41:34,086 I'll crossover with you at one. 794 00:41:34,097 --> 00:41:37,058 Yesterday, I stayed until four without hitting a wall. 795 00:41:37,069 --> 00:41:39,339 That's great, just don't push yourself too hard, okay? 796 00:41:39,350 --> 00:41:40,885 The whole reason I'm covering for you is... 797 00:41:40,896 --> 00:41:42,850 Bash, you're picking me up from rehearsal later, right? 798 00:41:42,861 --> 00:41:45,434 - I work until nine. - I'll do it! 799 00:41:45,445 --> 00:41:46,847 And then we can grab a late dinner. 800 00:41:46,970 --> 00:41:48,248 - Great. - Okay, just not burgers. 801 00:41:48,259 --> 00:41:50,595 - I can't do burgers ever. - Amira, lunch. 802 00:41:54,831 --> 00:41:56,352 That is never not exhausting. 803 00:41:56,363 --> 00:41:59,833 Mmm, their student exchange trip is in... 804 00:42:00,250 --> 00:42:02,660 Two weeks. She used the word "nerve-cited" 805 00:42:02,671 --> 00:42:04,939 to describe how she's feeling about living 806 00:42:04,950 --> 00:42:06,919 in a foreign continent for a month. 807 00:42:07,023 --> 00:42:08,791 - You, too? - Um... 808 00:42:08,975 --> 00:42:11,088 I can still stop it from happening, 809 00:42:11,099 --> 00:42:14,527 it's just... if that feeling's more about me, 810 00:42:14,538 --> 00:42:17,075 then I should probably just stay out of her way. 811 00:42:17,086 --> 00:42:18,654 Makes sense, it's hard. 812 00:42:19,032 --> 00:42:20,233 Mmm. 813 00:42:21,007 --> 00:42:22,778 Tell me what you think. 814 00:42:22,789 --> 00:42:24,223 I think she should go. 815 00:42:28,268 --> 00:42:30,871 - Are you staying over tonight? - Yes. 816 00:42:30,882 --> 00:42:32,918 But I'll see you at one! 817 00:43:18,789 --> 00:43:23,789 - Synced and corrected by naFraC - - www.addic7ed.com -