1 00:00:01,455 --> 00:00:03,258 My sister and I immigrated here 2 00:00:03,269 --> 00:00:06,435 because I caught the attention of a man who helped us. 3 00:00:06,446 --> 00:00:07,941 You and Amira were part of our family. 4 00:00:07,952 --> 00:00:09,692 You just packed up and left. 5 00:00:09,703 --> 00:00:11,633 - Hydromorphone. - If you have pain, Claire, 6 00:00:11,644 --> 00:00:13,271 that pain should be managed. 7 00:00:13,282 --> 00:00:15,051 We're going to make an accountability plan 8 00:00:15,062 --> 00:00:17,899 for the painkillers. So that they stay under control. 9 00:00:17,910 --> 00:00:19,398 Yeah, I want kids, too. 10 00:00:19,408 --> 00:00:22,115 I have no idea how I'd make that work or if I can even... 11 00:00:22,522 --> 00:00:24,457 I want you to think long and hard about whether 12 00:00:24,468 --> 00:00:25,770 this is the right profession for you. 13 00:00:25,781 --> 00:00:27,675 Dr. Novak, I think you made your point. 14 00:00:27,686 --> 00:00:30,255 This mess is not a good look for Trauma OR. 15 00:00:30,266 --> 00:00:32,075 In that case, you can have the future. 16 00:00:32,086 --> 00:00:35,189 June, say whatever you want to Ryan, I am out. 17 00:00:35,985 --> 00:00:38,521 This is an example of why you didn't get the fellowship. 18 00:00:38,701 --> 00:00:41,244 This instinct to leap blindly. 19 00:00:41,373 --> 00:00:43,675 Every time I think I've built something, 20 00:00:43,686 --> 00:00:46,255 that feeling fades and I just run. 21 00:00:46,266 --> 00:00:49,069 A heart may come tomorrow or never. 22 00:00:49,265 --> 00:00:51,950 - This is good news. - Like, I got the job? 23 00:00:51,961 --> 00:00:54,229 - Have any doubts or concerns? - No, no. 24 00:00:54,240 --> 00:00:56,987 There's a heart waiting and it's a perfect match. 25 00:00:57,011 --> 00:00:58,580 I need you to confirm. 26 00:00:58,591 --> 00:01:00,539 Are you accepting this heart? 27 00:01:04,034 --> 00:01:07,503 Yeah, I... I can be at the hospital in 20 minutes. 28 00:01:07,514 --> 00:01:08,648 Great news. 29 00:01:08,771 --> 00:01:10,905 I'll inform the surgeon and connect with you 30 00:01:10,916 --> 00:01:13,564 once you get here. Congratulations, Mags. 31 00:01:13,575 --> 00:01:15,043 Thanks, Connie. 32 00:01:16,810 --> 00:01:18,950 Uh... I have to go. 33 00:01:18,961 --> 00:01:23,198 I just, uh... I just matched with a heart. 34 00:01:27,156 --> 00:01:29,358 - Already? - Yeah, I've been on a list 35 00:01:29,369 --> 00:01:32,391 - for a few months. - Sorry, you're leaving 36 00:01:32,402 --> 00:01:34,719 right now to go get a heart transplant? 37 00:01:34,730 --> 00:01:38,711 To do, uh, a pre-surgical work-up before anything else. 38 00:01:38,722 --> 00:01:41,135 But, uh... What do I bring? 39 00:01:41,146 --> 00:01:43,048 I didn't ask what I should bring. I... 40 00:01:43,059 --> 00:01:46,060 - You want us to come with you? We... - No, no. 41 00:01:47,086 --> 00:01:49,086 It's like a sick joke. 42 00:01:49,097 --> 00:01:51,010 I'm like in the middle of celebrating the thing 43 00:01:51,021 --> 00:01:54,666 I've wanted my whole life. Why is this happening now? 44 00:01:54,677 --> 00:01:55,760 Hey. 45 00:01:56,558 --> 00:01:58,193 It's going to be okay. 46 00:01:59,281 --> 00:02:01,216 Thank you guys for coming. 47 00:02:03,398 --> 00:02:04,556 Mags. 48 00:02:05,517 --> 00:02:08,286 - Let me take you. - No. No, it's okay. 49 00:02:08,297 --> 00:02:10,533 I think I just need to... 50 00:02:11,050 --> 00:02:12,585 Okay? Are you okay? 51 00:02:12,596 --> 00:02:14,125 Shouldn't I be asking you that? 52 00:02:14,136 --> 00:02:19,208 Uh, I... would not know how to... answer. 53 00:02:20,830 --> 00:02:23,098 - Are you on tomorrow? - Uh-huh. 54 00:02:23,451 --> 00:02:25,086 Come see me. 55 00:02:31,555 --> 00:02:35,792 In my head, where? How? The tumour. 56 00:02:36,598 --> 00:02:40,201 Uh, it's in the frontal lobe of your brain. 57 00:02:40,569 --> 00:02:42,404 Guess that explains the headache. 58 00:02:42,784 --> 00:02:46,157 - Which you've had for how long? - Months. 59 00:02:46,316 --> 00:02:49,360 Like I said when you first examined me. 60 00:02:49,371 --> 00:02:51,607 What happens now? 61 00:02:51,794 --> 00:02:54,196 Hey, are you listening? 62 00:03:00,453 --> 00:03:01,466 Hey, man. 63 00:03:01,477 --> 00:03:03,646 I saw your text and my admin said you were waiting, 64 00:03:03,657 --> 00:03:05,425 but I'm pretty wall-to-wall today so unless it's... 65 00:03:05,436 --> 00:03:07,740 I was just in the middle of talking to a patient 66 00:03:07,751 --> 00:03:09,386 and I realized that... 67 00:03:11,020 --> 00:03:13,523 I can't remember the last 14 hours. 68 00:03:21,622 --> 00:03:26,622 - Synced and corrected by naFraC - - www.addic7ed.com - 69 00:03:29,658 --> 00:03:32,393 It's like you know when you drove home, 70 00:03:32,404 --> 00:03:34,306 but you don't remember the journey. 71 00:03:34,317 --> 00:03:36,245 I... I zone out sometimes, 72 00:03:36,256 --> 00:03:39,381 but it's been at least two years since it happened. 73 00:03:39,392 --> 00:03:43,229 But it sounds like you got walloped with some pretty intense news yesterday. 74 00:03:43,450 --> 00:03:45,784 Not getting the ED job and then this thing with Mags. 75 00:03:45,795 --> 00:03:47,382 That's why she didn't tell me because she knew 76 00:03:47,393 --> 00:03:50,302 I'd find a way to wear it. And why she ended things with me. 77 00:03:50,313 --> 00:03:53,550 What's the point of the work we do if this is still where I am? 78 00:03:54,502 --> 00:03:56,705 I have a patient in my office who might not want to hear that. 79 00:03:56,716 --> 00:03:58,619 Look, I didn't mean to offend you, I... 80 00:03:58,630 --> 00:04:00,865 You don't want this to be happening, but it is. 81 00:04:00,876 --> 00:04:02,511 So focus on the practical. 82 00:04:02,979 --> 00:04:05,103 Make sure nothing got missed with any of your patients, 83 00:04:05,114 --> 00:04:06,504 and tell your chief that you need 84 00:04:06,514 --> 00:04:08,217 the afternoon off for personal reasons. 85 00:04:08,228 --> 00:04:09,940 You make it sound so simple. 86 00:04:09,951 --> 00:04:12,620 If you want to talk more, I can see you at 4 P.M. 87 00:04:14,523 --> 00:04:15,831 The cath went well. 88 00:04:15,842 --> 00:04:17,610 No abnormalities we weren't expecting. 89 00:04:17,621 --> 00:04:19,290 Pulmonary pressure was also fine. 90 00:04:19,441 --> 00:04:21,143 How do you feel, Mags? 91 00:04:21,633 --> 00:04:24,807 Um... You said "fine", does that mean not good? 92 00:04:24,818 --> 00:04:26,353 I get the impetus to be the doctor, 93 00:04:26,364 --> 00:04:29,313 but today, that's my job. We'll make sure everything's in range. 94 00:04:29,324 --> 00:04:31,947 Okay. But are you saying it isn't? 95 00:04:31,958 --> 00:04:34,140 Because you both seem kind of... 96 00:04:34,151 --> 00:04:36,834 There was a small flag in your bloodwork. 97 00:04:36,925 --> 00:04:38,107 White cells at 13. 98 00:04:38,118 --> 00:04:40,381 Are you worried about infection or inflammation? 99 00:04:40,392 --> 00:04:42,212 That's not me trying to be a doctor. 100 00:04:42,223 --> 00:04:43,924 That's just me being me. 101 00:04:45,096 --> 00:04:47,228 - Will you start antibiotics? - Yes. 102 00:04:47,239 --> 00:04:49,275 There's plenty of time for you to respond. 103 00:04:49,286 --> 00:04:51,149 The donor heart hasn't even been retrieved yet. 104 00:04:51,160 --> 00:04:52,962 Assuming your count is in range by then, 105 00:04:52,973 --> 00:04:55,400 we could be operating as early as this evening. 106 00:04:55,411 --> 00:04:58,094 My team will need around seven hours for the transplant. 107 00:04:58,105 --> 00:05:00,341 After that, you'll be in CICU a few days. 108 00:05:00,352 --> 00:05:02,954 Then the ward for about a week. 109 00:05:03,305 --> 00:05:05,184 Save your strength, Dr. Leblanc. 110 00:05:05,195 --> 00:05:06,830 We'll speak soon. 111 00:05:07,901 --> 00:05:09,293 Doesn't seem to like me very much. 112 00:05:09,304 --> 00:05:11,440 Mags, Andrew's the top guy. 113 00:05:11,923 --> 00:05:14,877 What he reserves in emotional labour, he spends on the table. 114 00:05:14,888 --> 00:05:16,225 He's the one you want doing this. 115 00:05:16,236 --> 00:05:18,544 Will the backup recipient still be an option? 116 00:05:18,555 --> 00:05:20,123 If I'm ruled out from infection, 117 00:05:20,134 --> 00:05:22,737 - will the heart still be of use? - Don't worry about any of that. 118 00:05:23,636 --> 00:05:26,161 I'll admit, I'm surprised you said yes to this 119 00:05:26,172 --> 00:05:28,274 considering we weren't expecting a match so soon. 120 00:05:28,397 --> 00:05:30,809 And when you found out you made the list, you were unsure. 121 00:05:30,820 --> 00:05:33,740 Am I allowed to ask how the retrieval process works? 122 00:05:33,751 --> 00:05:35,373 The donor's in another hospital. 123 00:05:35,384 --> 00:05:38,065 When the family's ready, they'll withdraw life support. 124 00:05:38,076 --> 00:05:40,011 Retrieval doctor will bring the heart, 125 00:05:40,276 --> 00:05:42,144 Andrew's team will have you prepped. 126 00:05:42,155 --> 00:05:43,790 How do people even do that? 127 00:05:44,059 --> 00:05:45,889 You know, just, wait without... 128 00:05:45,900 --> 00:05:47,702 - Driving themselves nuts. - Yeah. 129 00:05:47,877 --> 00:05:49,402 It's mostly practical stuff. 130 00:05:49,412 --> 00:05:50,781 Many of my patients aren't able to 131 00:05:50,791 --> 00:05:52,145 be as active as you are at this stage, 132 00:05:52,156 --> 00:05:54,385 so they're already set up for a long recovery. 133 00:05:54,396 --> 00:05:56,668 So maybe contact your family. 134 00:05:56,982 --> 00:05:58,416 Confirm care plans. 135 00:06:00,989 --> 00:06:03,258 Cellulitis is on fluids and antibiotics. 136 00:06:03,688 --> 00:06:05,311 Hip fracture is waiting on OR. 137 00:06:05,322 --> 00:06:07,190 And Dr. Thibeault hasn't come back from imaging. 138 00:06:07,759 --> 00:06:09,896 - Okay, and Doctor... - Thibeault. 139 00:06:09,907 --> 00:06:11,742 Is he one of the new residents? 140 00:06:11,753 --> 00:06:15,119 The thoracics guy from upstairs? He's on call tonight, 141 00:06:15,130 --> 00:06:17,428 but came in with this suspected gallbladder attack. 142 00:06:17,439 --> 00:06:19,013 - You ordered a formal ultrasound. - Yes! 143 00:06:19,024 --> 00:06:21,766 Yes, uh... Ultrasound. Um... 144 00:06:21,777 --> 00:06:25,610 And the lady with the tumour, has oncology been in? 145 00:06:26,360 --> 00:06:29,458 - Tanya, she was in E. - She has a tumor? 146 00:06:30,645 --> 00:06:33,235 Holy crap. She came in with a headache she couldn't shake, 147 00:06:33,246 --> 00:06:36,516 thinking she'd drunk herself into oblivion. Her words. 148 00:06:36,527 --> 00:06:39,157 - What made you order an MRI? - Uh, just a lucky hunch. 149 00:06:39,168 --> 00:06:41,248 Well, good on you. I'll handle oncology. 150 00:06:41,259 --> 00:06:44,541 Okay, and, uh, after that, we're all caught up, 151 00:06:44,552 --> 00:06:46,387 - there's nothing else pending? - Nope. 152 00:06:46,575 --> 00:06:48,260 Is there something you're worried we missed? 153 00:06:48,271 --> 00:06:50,307 - No. - Okay. 154 00:07:02,407 --> 00:07:03,816 - Hey. - Bashir. 155 00:07:03,827 --> 00:07:05,312 _ 156 00:07:05,525 --> 00:07:08,706 _ 157 00:07:09,840 --> 00:07:11,093 _ 158 00:07:11,104 --> 00:07:12,173 _ 159 00:07:12,184 --> 00:07:14,335 _ 160 00:07:14,346 --> 00:07:18,823 _ 161 00:07:20,541 --> 00:07:23,412 Well, don't keep us in suspense. 162 00:07:23,620 --> 00:07:27,033 _ 163 00:07:27,346 --> 00:07:29,166 _ 164 00:07:30,084 --> 00:07:31,183 Uh... 165 00:07:32,921 --> 00:07:34,450 No, nothing like that. 166 00:07:34,618 --> 00:07:38,231 _ 167 00:07:38,776 --> 00:07:40,503 _ 168 00:07:41,456 --> 00:07:44,769 _ 169 00:07:44,780 --> 00:07:46,701 _ 170 00:07:46,951 --> 00:07:48,658 _ 171 00:07:48,669 --> 00:07:49,998 _ 172 00:07:50,693 --> 00:07:51,829 _ 173 00:07:51,840 --> 00:07:58,059 I, I guess I was just, um, thinking about things. 174 00:07:59,736 --> 00:08:03,196 _ 175 00:08:04,609 --> 00:08:06,711 Yeah, yeah. Of course, of course. 176 00:08:06,722 --> 00:08:10,114 Um, yeah. Okay, salam. 177 00:08:10,151 --> 00:08:11,424 Yeah, salam. 178 00:08:21,195 --> 00:08:24,877 Dr. Novak, this is June Curtis, obviously, you know that. 179 00:08:25,488 --> 00:08:28,337 Were you screening my calls? Because that would be a dick move. 180 00:08:28,348 --> 00:08:29,817 Look, I just wanted to know if you're 181 00:08:29,827 --> 00:08:32,091 non-presence today was intentional. 182 00:08:32,102 --> 00:08:34,304 I know we had some words yesterday, 183 00:08:34,315 --> 00:08:36,788 but that's not uncommon for us. But then you made that comment 184 00:08:36,799 --> 00:08:40,870 about me putting my stability on you which isn't even... 185 00:08:41,902 --> 00:08:44,235 Can you please call me when you get this? 186 00:08:44,246 --> 00:08:45,781 Thank you. 187 00:08:46,955 --> 00:08:49,157 - Hi, June. - Hi! 188 00:08:49,168 --> 00:08:51,704 - Thank you so much for this. - Yeah, of course. 189 00:08:52,487 --> 00:08:55,790 - Yeah, hi. - Hi. 190 00:08:56,533 --> 00:08:59,864 She said something about having to get her... 191 00:08:59,875 --> 00:09:02,280 white blood cell count down, do you think that's very bad? 192 00:09:02,291 --> 00:09:04,293 Uh, not necessarily. You know, when they're doing 193 00:09:04,304 --> 00:09:07,007 - a heart transplant, sometimes... - This is all she wanted? 194 00:09:07,523 --> 00:09:08,799 I... think so. 195 00:09:08,810 --> 00:09:10,812 Uh, everything from her bedroom floor. 196 00:09:10,823 --> 00:09:12,658 - Yeah. - Exactly what she requested, 197 00:09:12,669 --> 00:09:15,734 I think. I'll help you bring it up. 198 00:09:16,534 --> 00:09:18,649 I'll be fine. You're busy. I'm sure. 199 00:09:19,264 --> 00:09:21,037 Yeah, if there's anything else you need from the house 200 00:09:21,048 --> 00:09:23,278 - or anything at all, then I... - Well, her sister's coming too, 201 00:09:23,289 --> 00:09:25,558 so you can get back to your life. 202 00:09:26,594 --> 00:09:27,762 Yeah. 203 00:09:31,085 --> 00:09:32,520 Oh. 204 00:09:38,559 --> 00:09:39,794 June? 205 00:09:41,510 --> 00:09:43,905 - Yeah, uh, it's... - Is something wrong? 206 00:09:43,916 --> 00:09:45,010 Oh, it's nothing. 207 00:09:45,021 --> 00:09:46,689 Oh, it's all just a lot, isn't it? 208 00:09:46,700 --> 00:09:48,065 If you're anything like my daughter, 209 00:09:48,076 --> 00:09:49,659 I know how much she carries so... 210 00:09:49,670 --> 00:09:51,572 No, it's not that. I'm taking hormone therapy 211 00:09:51,583 --> 00:09:53,432 to stimulate ovulation, and when that happens, 212 00:09:53,443 --> 00:09:57,328 - I get this annoying pain. - You're trying for a baby? 213 00:09:57,339 --> 00:09:59,034 Thinking about it. 214 00:09:59,045 --> 00:10:00,424 I don't know if I can, but... 215 00:10:00,435 --> 00:10:02,270 June, that's wonderful. 216 00:10:02,994 --> 00:10:04,795 It's the hardest and best thing you'll ever do, 217 00:10:04,806 --> 00:10:06,408 loving someone that much. 218 00:10:08,357 --> 00:10:10,359 Um, I... 219 00:10:11,279 --> 00:10:12,512 I'm feeling better now. 220 00:10:12,523 --> 00:10:15,292 I should get back to Mags. Thank you. 221 00:10:16,442 --> 00:10:17,882 - Oh. - Please don't touch me! 222 00:10:17,893 --> 00:10:20,362 - Is that Owen? - Please don't touch me. 223 00:10:20,373 --> 00:10:22,800 Every time we try the BP cuff, he loses it. 224 00:10:22,811 --> 00:10:24,780 - It's like it's hurting him. - Well, that's because it is. 225 00:10:24,791 --> 00:10:27,995 Hey, Owen, Owen. I'm Theo. You okay, buddy? 226 00:10:28,142 --> 00:10:30,743 About two years ago, his family came in after a boating accident. 227 00:10:30,754 --> 00:10:32,306 I'm going to get this blanket off of you, okay? 228 00:10:32,317 --> 00:10:33,986 - Theo, he's shivering... - I know. 229 00:10:36,026 --> 00:10:37,406 Do you remember me? 230 00:10:37,734 --> 00:10:39,641 No, that's okay, because I remember you. 231 00:10:39,652 --> 00:10:42,788 Let's dim the lights, guys. And no sound on the monitors. 232 00:10:42,799 --> 00:10:44,768 Owen has sensory processing disorder, 233 00:10:44,779 --> 00:10:47,015 so no one touches him without checking, okay? 234 00:10:47,102 --> 00:10:48,803 Tell me everything that's bothering you, buddy. 235 00:10:48,814 --> 00:10:51,383 Can't breathe. Leg hurts. 236 00:10:51,817 --> 00:10:54,712 And somebody's deodorant is making me itchy. 237 00:10:54,723 --> 00:10:56,593 Alright, let's deal with those in order, okay? 238 00:10:56,604 --> 00:10:58,108 We need to get you onto our gurney. 239 00:10:58,119 --> 00:11:00,710 It's going to suck. But it'll be quick and you can scream 240 00:11:00,721 --> 00:11:02,949 - as loud as you need to, okay? - Okay. 241 00:11:02,960 --> 00:11:04,528 Alright, let's move this closer. 242 00:11:05,242 --> 00:11:06,902 It'll be on my count. 243 00:11:07,465 --> 00:11:10,600 One, two, three. 244 00:11:11,030 --> 00:11:12,271 Good job, good job! 245 00:11:12,282 --> 00:11:14,851 Okay, look, this next step needs a monitor. 246 00:11:14,974 --> 00:11:17,109 We have to stick these little pads to you, okay? 247 00:11:17,312 --> 00:11:19,182 - Can I do it myself? - Yeah, of course you can. 248 00:11:19,193 --> 00:11:21,229 Alright, under your shirt, on your right chest, okay? 249 00:11:21,829 --> 00:11:25,400 And this one on the left. And this one on your belly. 250 00:11:26,110 --> 00:11:27,413 Alright, can you tell me what happened? 251 00:11:27,424 --> 00:11:30,654 I rode into some dirt, flipped over my bike handlebars. 252 00:11:30,665 --> 00:11:32,193 Were you wearing a helmet? 253 00:11:32,203 --> 00:11:33,354 That's good. 254 00:11:33,365 --> 00:11:36,087 I need you to put this on your chest and take a breath for me, okay? 255 00:11:36,098 --> 00:11:39,301 Okay, then this side. 256 00:11:41,115 --> 00:11:42,581 Okay, I'll take that back. 257 00:11:45,153 --> 00:11:47,689 He's super tachy. 192 and climbing. 258 00:11:47,769 --> 00:11:50,438 Alright, Claire, set up a chest tube. Prep 30mg of ketamine. 259 00:11:50,612 --> 00:11:53,035 - Without a BP? Theo... - Owen, the reason it hurts 260 00:11:53,046 --> 00:11:55,172 to breathe is probably a partially collapsed lung. 261 00:11:55,183 --> 00:11:57,285 I need to fix that. I also need to do an X-ray 262 00:11:57,296 --> 00:11:59,298 of your leg for the bone doctor. It's going to require 263 00:11:59,309 --> 00:12:00,643 a lot of feeling around, okay? 264 00:12:00,654 --> 00:12:02,790 So can we make a plan to get you through this? 265 00:12:04,406 --> 00:12:06,061 Last time you made me sleep, 266 00:12:06,072 --> 00:12:07,673 even though I didn't want you to. 267 00:12:07,702 --> 00:12:10,571 - Yes, I did. - Can you do that again? 268 00:12:10,985 --> 00:12:12,746 I think I rather be numb. 269 00:12:15,958 --> 00:12:18,707 Yeah, um, while Claire does that, 270 00:12:18,718 --> 00:12:21,215 the third thing you said is that you were feeling itchy. 271 00:12:21,226 --> 00:12:23,228 Forget that. I think it's okay. 272 00:12:23,239 --> 00:12:25,173 Are you sure? Because I'm here to help you. 273 00:12:25,184 --> 00:12:26,497 I can't go anywhere. 274 00:12:26,507 --> 00:12:27,782 I have no freedom. 275 00:12:27,793 --> 00:12:30,229 Um, you know, not on your bike for a little while, 276 00:12:30,240 --> 00:12:32,109 - but when your leg heals... - It's not enough. 277 00:12:32,227 --> 00:12:35,096 My mom's always busy. My friends do stuff without me 278 00:12:35,107 --> 00:12:36,909 because... the subway's loud! 279 00:12:37,012 --> 00:12:39,514 I want my driver's licence when I'm 16. 280 00:12:39,525 --> 00:12:41,100 Well, okay, look, if you're looking for a lesson, 281 00:12:41,111 --> 00:12:42,880 now might not be the best time, pal. 282 00:12:42,891 --> 00:12:44,206 A letter. 283 00:12:44,312 --> 00:12:45,747 Because of how I am. 284 00:12:45,854 --> 00:12:48,256 I need a doctor to say it's safe. 285 00:12:50,237 --> 00:12:52,940 Alright, let's get through this first, okay? 286 00:13:03,364 --> 00:13:05,430 - Hi. - Hi. 287 00:13:05,441 --> 00:13:09,342 Um, Ms... Leblanc. 288 00:13:09,353 --> 00:13:10,855 Um, I'm Dr. Hamed. 289 00:13:10,866 --> 00:13:13,470 I'm here to give you a status update, 290 00:13:13,481 --> 00:13:16,226 but I... don't know what it is. 291 00:13:16,237 --> 00:13:18,206 I know I should've told you. 292 00:13:18,473 --> 00:13:20,280 It's just all been so fast and weird 293 00:13:20,291 --> 00:13:22,139 with mushy odds in every direction 294 00:13:22,150 --> 00:13:23,459 about whether it's worth the risk 295 00:13:23,470 --> 00:13:24,872 or if a heart was ever going to come... 296 00:13:24,883 --> 00:13:27,437 - Mags. - I haven't even... been sure how I feel. 297 00:13:27,448 --> 00:13:29,656 I mean, I'm barely letting myself think about it. 298 00:13:29,667 --> 00:13:31,356 It's okay. Really. 299 00:13:32,143 --> 00:13:34,262 I understand why you didn't tell me. 300 00:13:34,273 --> 00:13:36,574 But I want to be here for you now 301 00:13:36,585 --> 00:13:39,054 in whatever way you need me to be. 302 00:13:40,956 --> 00:13:42,168 Thank you. 303 00:13:47,762 --> 00:13:49,864 All of this is like... 304 00:13:51,012 --> 00:13:54,382 It's like it's happening to me. 305 00:13:55,609 --> 00:13:57,211 It's almost like... 306 00:13:57,939 --> 00:14:00,208 Like you don't know how you got here? 307 00:14:00,219 --> 00:14:01,489 Yeah. 308 00:14:03,100 --> 00:14:04,923 And I'm trying to find a way to tell Devi 309 00:14:04,934 --> 00:14:07,117 because she doesn't know that I'll need at least six months 310 00:14:07,128 --> 00:14:08,526 to recover from major surgery. 311 00:14:08,537 --> 00:14:11,140 And who knows how many concessions after. 312 00:14:15,076 --> 00:14:16,420 I don't know. 313 00:14:16,431 --> 00:14:18,763 Maybe I should just fall on my sword and resign. 314 00:14:18,774 --> 00:14:21,171 Don't. Don't volunteer to quit. 315 00:14:21,182 --> 00:14:23,454 What else am I supposed to do? Devi put her trust in me 316 00:14:23,465 --> 00:14:26,801 and I betrayed her by not telling her that this was happening. 317 00:14:27,970 --> 00:14:30,071 I think because I couldn't face it. 318 00:14:30,164 --> 00:14:31,699 Or I wouldn't. 319 00:14:34,068 --> 00:14:36,704 Hey, you could let me tell her. 320 00:14:36,985 --> 00:14:38,480 Bash, it's not fair to put that on... 321 00:14:38,491 --> 00:14:40,659 I want to be here for you, Mags. And I need to... 322 00:14:40,670 --> 00:14:42,172 - Bash... - Look, will you just 323 00:14:42,183 --> 00:14:43,718 let me do this for you? 324 00:14:44,836 --> 00:14:47,242 I'll run down the medical facts to her 325 00:14:47,253 --> 00:14:49,622 and give her the space to respond. 326 00:14:52,407 --> 00:14:54,242 It'll be okay. 327 00:15:07,062 --> 00:15:09,356 - Is this about ICU bed spacing? - Uh, no. 328 00:15:09,367 --> 00:15:11,789 No, they cleared some. I was looking at my shifts for next week. 329 00:15:11,800 --> 00:15:13,843 And I remembered you asked if I ever felt overloaded... 330 00:15:13,854 --> 00:15:16,718 - Holy Hell. - Is something wrong? 331 00:15:16,729 --> 00:15:20,263 Uh... I was accidentally copied on this 332 00:15:20,273 --> 00:15:22,927 email from our CMO at the board saying that 333 00:15:23,273 --> 00:15:25,855 I have failed to address this situation about 334 00:15:25,865 --> 00:15:28,414 this resident being mistreated in Trauma OR. 335 00:15:28,425 --> 00:15:31,288 He didn't mean for me to read this, right? 336 00:15:31,893 --> 00:15:34,502 "One of us will have to talk to Neeta." 337 00:15:34,907 --> 00:15:37,489 Was that about Novak yelling at some kid? 338 00:15:37,500 --> 00:15:39,963 And the man who didn't even want me knowing about this 339 00:15:39,974 --> 00:15:42,344 is now blaming me for the actions of the man 340 00:15:42,410 --> 00:15:44,612 who did this in the first place. 341 00:15:44,861 --> 00:15:47,697 Anyway. Um, what did you need? 342 00:15:47,708 --> 00:15:50,644 - Nothing. I'll figure it out. - Thanks. 343 00:15:54,075 --> 00:15:57,147 Dr. Thibeault, I understand you are trying to make... 344 00:15:57,158 --> 00:15:59,327 What's your ED passcode? The system won't let me 345 00:15:59,338 --> 00:16:01,134 look at my imaging and the tech wouldn't tell me anything, 346 00:16:01,145 --> 00:16:02,513 even though he knows me. 347 00:16:02,524 --> 00:16:04,146 It's against their policy to diagnose... 348 00:16:04,157 --> 00:16:05,789 Yeah, I already know that it's gallstones. 349 00:16:05,800 --> 00:16:07,440 I just want to see the extent of it. 350 00:16:07,451 --> 00:16:09,334 There's actually no evidence of gallstones 351 00:16:09,345 --> 00:16:11,814 or gallbladder injury according to your ultrasound. 352 00:16:12,733 --> 00:16:13,929 Show me. 353 00:16:15,997 --> 00:16:17,990 It makes no sense. 354 00:16:18,001 --> 00:16:20,185 This is a classic presentation. 355 00:16:20,196 --> 00:16:22,640 Acute pain that radiates to the right after heavy or high-fat foods. 356 00:16:22,651 --> 00:16:25,721 Pain between the shoulder blades, nausea. Hold on. 357 00:16:26,288 --> 00:16:28,078 Are you working a lot of late shifts? 358 00:16:28,089 --> 00:16:30,900 You know, lack of sleep and stress can affect gut health? 359 00:16:30,911 --> 00:16:33,147 Let me just stop you right there, okay? 360 00:16:33,158 --> 00:16:35,552 I've used the whole "what's going on in your life" speech 361 00:16:35,563 --> 00:16:37,353 to patients who just want to be reassured 362 00:16:37,363 --> 00:16:38,998 nothing's wrong my whole career. 363 00:16:39,990 --> 00:16:41,336 Stressed, depressed, anxious? 364 00:16:41,347 --> 00:16:44,764 Sleep better. Eat better. Hydrate. No, this is not that. 365 00:16:44,775 --> 00:16:48,378 It's more intense localized pain. 366 00:16:49,670 --> 00:16:51,279 Look, as a doctor, 367 00:16:51,346 --> 00:16:53,882 I understand the impulse to self-diagnose, 368 00:16:53,893 --> 00:16:56,429 but there is several documented cases of stress and anxiety 369 00:16:56,440 --> 00:16:58,008 - causing 10 out of... - Bud! 370 00:16:58,019 --> 00:17:00,355 I'm not here for therapy. This isn't mental. 371 00:17:00,954 --> 00:17:03,113 I will ask your radiologist to review your report. 372 00:17:03,124 --> 00:17:04,613 That's not good enough. I want a HIDA. 373 00:17:04,624 --> 00:17:05,692 Do you know what that is? 374 00:17:05,913 --> 00:17:08,208 Hepatobiliary iminodiacetic acid scan? 375 00:17:08,219 --> 00:17:10,788 Yes, I know what that is. I will refer you. 376 00:17:10,799 --> 00:17:12,862 - It takes a couple of weeks. - I want one today. 377 00:17:12,873 --> 00:17:15,109 I'm not sure that's possible. Radiology is at fu... 378 00:17:15,120 --> 00:17:17,495 Well then, bump someone! Okay, I'm on tonight anyway. 379 00:17:17,506 --> 00:17:18,974 - I'll make the time. - Dr. Thibeault... 380 00:17:18,985 --> 00:17:20,386 You're a resident, right? 381 00:17:20,729 --> 00:17:22,685 - For a few more months, yes. - Yeah, I'm not. 382 00:17:22,695 --> 00:17:24,547 So I'm telling you to do your job. 383 00:17:24,557 --> 00:17:26,080 Get me on that list. 384 00:17:32,702 --> 00:17:36,232 I see you're still not quite a fan of folding your things. 385 00:17:36,243 --> 00:17:39,013 My bedroom clutter hasn't been your problem in 15 years. 386 00:17:39,024 --> 00:17:40,960 - Let's not regress. - It's just if you want to feel 387 00:17:40,971 --> 00:17:42,452 presentable when you have visitors. 388 00:17:42,463 --> 00:17:44,425 I don't know, maybe somebody here has an iron. 389 00:17:44,436 --> 00:17:46,204 Don't do that, please, Mom. 390 00:17:48,100 --> 00:17:50,823 Thank you for coming to town so quickly, though. 391 00:17:50,834 --> 00:17:52,469 _ 392 00:17:53,325 --> 00:17:56,678 Mom... Am I making the right decision here? 393 00:17:57,206 --> 00:18:01,683 Well, um, both your doctors agree there is no other choice. 394 00:18:02,058 --> 00:18:04,118 And your surgeon mentioned you were nervous 395 00:18:04,241 --> 00:18:05,464 and that it's normal to be, 396 00:18:05,475 --> 00:18:07,244 but he's done this many times before. 397 00:18:07,255 --> 00:18:09,090 They do have to say that, you know? 398 00:18:11,166 --> 00:18:13,268 I wanted to ask if maybe I could come to Montreal 399 00:18:13,279 --> 00:18:15,364 for a few weeks once I'm out but... 400 00:18:15,375 --> 00:18:17,211 Doesn't make any sense, does it? 401 00:18:18,029 --> 00:18:20,502 No, you need to be close to the hospital and your doctors. 402 00:18:20,697 --> 00:18:22,804 I was sure you of all people would have a whole 403 00:18:22,815 --> 00:18:24,747 flow chart mapped out on the logistics. 404 00:18:24,758 --> 00:18:26,226 Well, I don't. 405 00:18:26,598 --> 00:18:28,301 So now I'm thinking that maybe you 406 00:18:28,311 --> 00:18:30,378 can come to June's for a week or two. 407 00:18:30,445 --> 00:18:32,318 And then I'd get a nurse, obviously. 408 00:18:32,329 --> 00:18:34,464 Magalie, your father, sister and I found a rental 409 00:18:34,475 --> 00:18:36,420 near the hospital, two bedrooms. 410 00:18:36,431 --> 00:18:38,666 We will trade on and off all year if we need to. 411 00:18:38,677 --> 00:18:41,113 I don't want you guys disrupting your lives. 412 00:18:41,124 --> 00:18:43,327 Don't be silly. We're your family. 413 00:18:43,624 --> 00:18:46,160 I'll tell your father to speak to the broker today. 414 00:18:47,595 --> 00:18:50,632 There is an 80% success rate in the first year, you know? 415 00:18:51,290 --> 00:18:53,635 That means starting the clock, from tonight's operation, 416 00:18:53,654 --> 00:18:57,375 if they clear me for it, I have a one-in-five chance of dying. 417 00:18:57,386 --> 00:18:58,448 _ 418 00:18:58,459 --> 00:19:00,960 Yeah, I just... I need to make sure that you understand 419 00:19:00,971 --> 00:19:02,627 what's happening here, Mom. 420 00:19:03,658 --> 00:19:05,593 That is not a thought any of us need in our heads 421 00:19:05,604 --> 00:19:07,448 right now, especially not you. 422 00:19:08,990 --> 00:19:10,700 _ 423 00:19:12,020 --> 00:19:13,033 _ 424 00:19:16,808 --> 00:19:18,605 I asked to be here when you woke up. 425 00:19:18,616 --> 00:19:21,151 Guess that message wasn't received. 426 00:19:21,372 --> 00:19:24,065 Uh, but the traction is only going to be 24 hours. 427 00:19:24,076 --> 00:19:25,778 - I know. - Must be uncomfortable. 428 00:19:25,789 --> 00:19:28,117 Have to lie still with all this stuff on you. 429 00:19:28,128 --> 00:19:30,460 But the bone doctors agree to let you stay here, 430 00:19:30,471 --> 00:19:32,318 so I could get you everything you need. 431 00:19:32,329 --> 00:19:33,964 Thanks! 432 00:19:35,382 --> 00:19:37,685 Owen, you said you flipped over your handlebars. 433 00:19:38,652 --> 00:19:42,121 But the way your leg broke made it look like you jumped. 434 00:19:42,710 --> 00:19:45,437 Now, what you... talked about earlier 435 00:19:45,448 --> 00:19:48,471 about you having no freedom. If you want to talk to someone... 436 00:19:48,482 --> 00:19:51,952 - I found the good kind, bud. - Thanks, Mac. 437 00:19:52,927 --> 00:19:54,963 Dr. Hunter, let's chat in the hall. 438 00:19:57,797 --> 00:20:01,349 You wanted him to talk to somebody about what? 439 00:20:01,827 --> 00:20:04,806 I'm sorry. Are you... family? 440 00:20:04,891 --> 00:20:07,930 Mac Hinkley. I'm Owen's GP. He asked me to come down. 441 00:20:07,941 --> 00:20:10,343 - Instead of his mother? - Well, that's between them. 442 00:20:10,701 --> 00:20:13,704 But their relationship is, uh, tough. 443 00:20:13,715 --> 00:20:16,217 - I remember. - What you don't know about is 444 00:20:16,284 --> 00:20:18,327 his mass cell activation syndrome. 445 00:20:18,338 --> 00:20:20,723 Owen has MCAS? Since when? 446 00:20:20,734 --> 00:20:22,021 Was diagnosed last year. 447 00:20:22,032 --> 00:20:25,824 I think maybe it factored into the SPD, or accentuated it. 448 00:20:26,465 --> 00:20:29,588 There is so much they don't know about it, though. 449 00:20:29,599 --> 00:20:32,902 Would that explain today? The racing heart? 450 00:20:32,913 --> 00:20:37,484 Probably. MCAS means "severe, unpredictable reactions". 451 00:20:37,612 --> 00:20:39,963 Cardiac, autoimmune, GI... 452 00:20:39,974 --> 00:20:42,444 to stimuli that's constantly evolving. 453 00:20:42,776 --> 00:20:45,245 He was afraid of being itchy because of someone's deodorant, 454 00:20:45,256 --> 00:20:47,025 but then he just said it was okay. 455 00:20:47,036 --> 00:20:48,708 It's a new environment. 456 00:20:48,987 --> 00:20:50,915 He never knows when he's safe. 457 00:20:51,271 --> 00:20:52,820 Which is why we're going to limit the 458 00:20:52,830 --> 00:20:54,689 people coming in and out of his room. 459 00:20:54,700 --> 00:20:56,882 Because he lives in a constant fear of triggers. 460 00:20:56,893 --> 00:20:58,729 Are you asking him to talk to a psych? 461 00:20:58,773 --> 00:21:01,920 Well, Owen said that he flipped over his handlebars, 462 00:21:01,931 --> 00:21:04,028 but his femur's fracture pattern, 463 00:21:04,039 --> 00:21:06,842 it... well, it said to me that he jumped. 464 00:21:06,874 --> 00:21:09,110 You never horsed around when you were his age? 465 00:21:10,656 --> 00:21:13,000 Owen has challenges, sure. 466 00:21:13,485 --> 00:21:15,551 But he's still a kid which means doing 467 00:21:15,562 --> 00:21:17,874 the same stupid things and not wanting to cop to it. 468 00:21:17,885 --> 00:21:20,960 Right, but what if that isn't what happened 469 00:21:20,971 --> 00:21:23,874 - and he intended to hurt himself? - He wouldn't do that. 470 00:21:24,192 --> 00:21:28,222 You know, we started a desensitization program to help with the SPD. 471 00:21:28,289 --> 00:21:30,120 We're making progress. 472 00:21:30,472 --> 00:21:33,013 Um, does he have a specialist? 473 00:21:33,024 --> 00:21:34,803 Because I could give you some referrals. 474 00:21:34,814 --> 00:21:36,550 He's got an endless list of them. 475 00:21:36,561 --> 00:21:40,499 But the only one who actually knows the kid is me. 476 00:21:41,544 --> 00:21:44,305 If Owen wanted to hurt himself, I'd know it. 477 00:21:44,905 --> 00:21:47,276 He asked me to help him make a plan to get a driver's licence. 478 00:21:47,287 --> 00:21:49,113 And you think because I said no to that, 479 00:21:49,124 --> 00:21:51,159 he threw himself off a cliff?! 480 00:21:51,525 --> 00:21:54,328 I get he wants to drive when he's of age. 481 00:21:54,339 --> 00:21:57,141 But he knows that it might not be realistic. 482 00:21:57,152 --> 00:21:58,854 And I'm not saying he wants to die. 483 00:21:59,139 --> 00:22:00,908 Okay, bad feelings can be fleeting, 484 00:22:00,919 --> 00:22:03,221 but there was a desperation in the ask. 485 00:22:03,877 --> 00:22:05,044 Like he feels trapped. 486 00:22:05,055 --> 00:22:07,558 You're wrong, Dr. Hunter. You're wrong. 487 00:22:08,295 --> 00:22:11,464 And I don't want you bringing this up with him again. 488 00:22:16,637 --> 00:22:18,639 The good news is it looks operable. 489 00:22:18,650 --> 00:22:22,998 And our surgeon said that she has an opening tonight for a craniotomy. 490 00:22:23,009 --> 00:22:25,513 Tonight? Does it have to happen so fast? 491 00:22:25,524 --> 00:22:28,226 When they make time so quickly, 492 00:22:28,237 --> 00:22:29,703 waiting is not advisable. 493 00:22:29,714 --> 00:22:31,683 Okay. 494 00:22:36,380 --> 00:22:38,559 When my son was born, something changed. 495 00:22:38,570 --> 00:22:42,441 I was, um, sad. All the time. 496 00:22:43,450 --> 00:22:48,369 I started drinking to self-medicate, and... the headaches started. 497 00:22:48,993 --> 00:22:50,905 My therapist called it depression. 498 00:22:50,978 --> 00:22:53,369 Another one said "new mother syndrome". 499 00:22:53,380 --> 00:22:55,482 And my friends called it "Wine Mom". 500 00:22:56,743 --> 00:23:00,158 Except, they were all wrong and it was only ever a brain tumour. 501 00:23:00,169 --> 00:23:04,006 So... all the work I did, the endless counseling, 502 00:23:04,285 --> 00:23:06,888 the A.A. meetings was just pointless? 503 00:23:06,954 --> 00:23:08,878 It sounds like you did everything you could 504 00:23:08,889 --> 00:23:10,557 with the information you had. 505 00:23:12,572 --> 00:23:14,841 You call yourself a mother, you selfish bitch! 506 00:23:14,852 --> 00:23:17,044 This is beyond... I've had enough. 507 00:23:17,055 --> 00:23:19,890 I'm calling the police. Never try seeing us again. 508 00:23:20,304 --> 00:23:22,017 My ex came to pick up our son 509 00:23:22,028 --> 00:23:24,864 and he found me passed out in the yard. 510 00:23:25,637 --> 00:23:27,692 My little boy had locked himself up in the bathroom 511 00:23:27,703 --> 00:23:30,673 because he was terrified of me. 512 00:23:33,326 --> 00:23:35,172 I miss my son. 513 00:23:37,640 --> 00:23:41,956 Hey. Tumours like this, they affect memory, 514 00:23:42,023 --> 00:23:45,749 decision-making, personality. This is not your fault, Tanya. 515 00:23:46,107 --> 00:23:48,409 But the damage is done. 516 00:23:49,015 --> 00:23:53,323 I ruined my marriage and scarred my child. 517 00:23:58,646 --> 00:24:01,983 ... went out on a limb with a specific plan that Mags was essential to. 518 00:24:01,994 --> 00:24:04,523 And you're telling me that she knew this was a risk? 519 00:24:04,534 --> 00:24:06,943 - Uh, Dr. Devi... - Obviously, I'm concerned about her 520 00:24:06,954 --> 00:24:08,856 from a health perspective, but... 521 00:24:09,804 --> 00:24:12,587 How did you expect me to respond to what you just said? 522 00:24:12,950 --> 00:24:16,023 Um, which part of what I just said? 523 00:24:16,738 --> 00:24:22,496 Look, you and I both have other things to do, I'm sure. 524 00:24:22,845 --> 00:24:24,292 Give my best to Mags. 525 00:24:24,303 --> 00:24:26,209 I will but regarding her job, I just... 526 00:24:26,220 --> 00:24:29,690 I'm sorry, Dr. Hamed, but that's gonna have to stay between me and her. 527 00:24:40,893 --> 00:24:42,048 - Oh. - Hi! 528 00:24:42,058 --> 00:24:43,096 Sorry. 529 00:24:43,257 --> 00:24:46,961 - We're busy, come back later. - Oh. I'm so sorry, Doctor. 530 00:24:47,154 --> 00:24:48,971 - Um, Doctor? - Curtis. 531 00:24:48,982 --> 00:24:50,515 I'm Della. And this is... 532 00:24:50,526 --> 00:24:52,923 - Hartley. Hello. - Hi, Hartley. 533 00:24:52,934 --> 00:24:55,500 I hear this is a hernia-related emergency. 534 00:24:55,687 --> 00:24:58,698 So Hartley developed one about a year ago 535 00:24:58,709 --> 00:25:00,183 and he was supposed to get it fixed 536 00:25:00,194 --> 00:25:03,264 - at one of those private clinics. - Trauma Hotels. 537 00:25:03,511 --> 00:25:05,688 Okay, I take that to mean it didn't happen. Why? 538 00:25:05,699 --> 00:25:08,920 He has a phobia of being put under. 539 00:25:08,931 --> 00:25:11,701 - Have you heard of it? - Tomophobia. Good word. 540 00:25:11,712 --> 00:25:13,495 - Bad feeling. - Which we figured out 541 00:25:13,506 --> 00:25:15,352 when he bit the anesthesiologist. 542 00:25:15,363 --> 00:25:18,866 - I bit three anesthesiologists. - No, it was one on three separate occasions. 543 00:25:18,877 --> 00:25:21,245 Okay... Is he... 544 00:25:22,019 --> 00:25:24,185 Are you feeling scared right now, Hartley? 545 00:25:24,196 --> 00:25:27,632 So here is where it gets maybe a little weird. 546 00:25:27,643 --> 00:25:30,446 Um... So last night, he was in so much pain 547 00:25:30,457 --> 00:25:32,348 and the thing started bulging 548 00:25:32,359 --> 00:25:34,995 which the internet said could mean "incarceration"? 549 00:25:35,006 --> 00:25:38,743 - So she drugged me. - She drugged you with what? 550 00:25:39,254 --> 00:25:41,071 - Ecstasy. - Ecstasy? 551 00:25:41,082 --> 00:25:43,667 I know! But he was resistant to coming 552 00:25:43,678 --> 00:25:46,547 - and I knew that we needed to. - She slipped it in my coffee. 553 00:25:46,792 --> 00:25:48,665 How lucky am I to have someone like this in my life? 554 00:25:48,676 --> 00:25:51,220 Okay, so you gave him ecstasy without his knowledge? 555 00:25:51,231 --> 00:25:52,437 No, he tolerates it fine. 556 00:25:52,447 --> 00:25:53,786 - We used to... - Hartley, hi! 557 00:25:53,797 --> 00:25:55,679 ... be partyers. 558 00:25:56,218 --> 00:25:58,230 Pills usually lose their potency over time. 559 00:25:58,241 --> 00:26:00,806 We had one laying around the house for over a year. 560 00:26:00,817 --> 00:26:03,744 And so I figured it would just mellow him enough. 561 00:26:03,755 --> 00:26:05,995 You know this is gonna show up on his urinalysis, right? 562 00:26:06,006 --> 00:26:07,774 I didn't know what else to do. 563 00:26:08,509 --> 00:26:10,147 Okay, he was in so much pain, 564 00:26:10,158 --> 00:26:13,327 and every time he gets close, he just can't. 565 00:26:13,338 --> 00:26:16,208 He's gonna be okay, right? I mean, you can help me, can't you? 566 00:26:16,666 --> 00:26:17,924 If we're going to repair this... 567 00:26:17,935 --> 00:26:20,323 If? No, you have to. 568 00:26:20,334 --> 00:26:21,864 What's your fear level at now? 569 00:26:21,875 --> 00:26:24,223 On a scale of one to... "bitey". 570 00:26:24,234 --> 00:26:25,898 Doubt I'll ever be afraid again thanks to you. 571 00:26:25,909 --> 00:26:27,844 I'll be right back. 572 00:26:29,944 --> 00:26:33,016 So that guy needs an emergency hernioplasty 573 00:26:33,027 --> 00:26:34,668 except he's high on ecstasy because his 574 00:26:34,678 --> 00:26:36,408 wife gave it to him without his knowledge. 575 00:26:36,419 --> 00:26:38,120 I'm not sure of the ethics of all this. 576 00:26:38,131 --> 00:26:40,727 It's actually a crime, so if he wants us to call the police... 577 00:26:40,738 --> 00:26:42,540 Pretty sure he thinks it's romantic. 578 00:26:42,589 --> 00:26:44,848 - I heard Novak's gone AWOL. - Yeah. 579 00:26:44,859 --> 00:26:46,594 I think we should use this as a reason 580 00:26:46,605 --> 00:26:48,440 to move him out of Trauma OR. 581 00:26:49,570 --> 00:26:51,472 Like, permanently? 582 00:26:52,500 --> 00:26:54,571 Is it even possible for him to be AWOL? 583 00:26:54,582 --> 00:26:55,916 Technically, he answers to himself. 584 00:26:55,927 --> 00:26:57,228 Which is a problem! 585 00:26:57,239 --> 00:26:59,846 He has no accountability and he's unreliable. 586 00:26:59,857 --> 00:27:03,436 - He's like unpredictable. - He is toxic chaos. 587 00:27:03,447 --> 00:27:05,127 And I have a job to do in this department. 588 00:27:05,138 --> 00:27:07,719 Well, if this about making an example of him... 589 00:27:07,730 --> 00:27:09,485 He has dug himself into a hole, 590 00:27:09,496 --> 00:27:11,331 and I can't for the life of me understand you 591 00:27:11,342 --> 00:27:13,945 - and why you defend him. - I get it, okay. I get it. 592 00:27:13,956 --> 00:27:16,092 He's got blind spots, yes. But him and I built 593 00:27:16,103 --> 00:27:18,468 something together in Trauma OR and I just... 594 00:27:18,479 --> 00:27:21,249 I don't feel right blowing it up. 595 00:27:21,829 --> 00:27:23,629 Outstanding patients in the last hour? 596 00:27:23,640 --> 00:27:26,376 Um, no, I gave the tumor lady a surgical update, 597 00:27:26,387 --> 00:27:28,318 but I think I got distracted after. 598 00:27:28,329 --> 00:27:30,256 Wait, was that why she left? 599 00:27:30,266 --> 00:27:31,588 Tanya left? 600 00:27:31,599 --> 00:27:32,834 You didn't know? 601 00:27:33,051 --> 00:27:34,944 They wanted her upstairs for pre-op stuff, 602 00:27:34,955 --> 00:27:36,288 but she told me you told her to go. 603 00:27:36,299 --> 00:27:38,041 No, I would never have... 604 00:27:38,293 --> 00:27:39,921 Is she coming back? 605 00:27:40,129 --> 00:27:42,749 - Should I tell OR to cancel? - No, no, no. 606 00:27:42,760 --> 00:27:45,095 Call her first. Try every number we have for her. 607 00:27:45,370 --> 00:27:48,260 Bash. Did something happen between you two? 608 00:27:48,271 --> 00:27:50,264 No, nothing happened. Just grab me if you get her, okay? 609 00:27:50,275 --> 00:27:51,277 - Okay. - Thanks. 610 00:27:51,288 --> 00:27:53,677 Well, the only other actionable thing in the last hour was... 611 00:27:53,688 --> 00:27:55,644 Bashir, we need to talk about Dr. Ruston Thibeault. 612 00:27:55,655 --> 00:27:57,324 - Yeah, that. - You booked an urgent consul 613 00:27:57,335 --> 00:28:00,201 to my office, but Rusty was expecting a HIDA scan, not psych. 614 00:28:00,212 --> 00:28:02,047 And he was very upset when I showed up. 615 00:28:02,295 --> 00:28:04,814 I made space. You already knew I was wall-to-wall today. 616 00:28:04,825 --> 00:28:06,961 Wait, wait, wait. Rusty's waiting for more imaging? 617 00:28:06,972 --> 00:28:08,921 Did I get that wrong, Bash? Because I could've sworn 618 00:28:08,932 --> 00:28:12,302 you asked me to set up a psych referral. Yeah, you did. 619 00:28:12,313 --> 00:28:13,414 At least, that's what I have here. 620 00:28:13,425 --> 00:28:15,794 No, Arnold, you didn't get that wrong. 621 00:28:15,805 --> 00:28:18,174 - Thanks. - Okay... 622 00:28:20,357 --> 00:28:21,956 It happened again. 623 00:28:23,896 --> 00:28:25,628 Do you remember what you said to Rusty? 624 00:28:25,639 --> 00:28:27,624 He convinced himself that he has gallstones, 625 00:28:27,635 --> 00:28:30,225 but all the medical facts pointed to an anxiety reaction, 626 00:28:30,236 --> 00:28:31,868 - so I just... - You wanted him to take 627 00:28:31,879 --> 00:28:33,249 the steps that you were refusing to? 628 00:28:33,260 --> 00:28:35,184 I told you this morning to accept 629 00:28:35,195 --> 00:28:37,331 that this was happening and to take yourself off the floor. 630 00:28:37,342 --> 00:28:39,777 I was about to go talk to Devi about it like you said, 631 00:28:39,788 --> 00:28:41,957 but then Mags needed me to talk to Devi as well, 632 00:28:41,968 --> 00:28:44,434 - so I wanted to be there for her. - You risked your own wellbeing, 633 00:28:44,445 --> 00:28:45,980 not to mention your other patients'. 634 00:28:45,991 --> 00:28:47,797 With the exception of sending Rusty to you, 635 00:28:47,808 --> 00:28:49,910 I only saw one patient, who I was with when I gapped! 636 00:28:49,923 --> 00:28:51,268 - Bashir... - No, she was saying that 637 00:28:51,279 --> 00:28:52,856 she was having these personality changes 638 00:28:52,867 --> 00:28:54,411 due to depression, but it was actually 639 00:28:54,422 --> 00:28:56,190 because of a giant tumour in her head. 640 00:28:56,201 --> 00:28:57,802 Bash, do you hear yourself? 641 00:28:58,605 --> 00:29:00,663 You say our work is pointless, ignore my advice, 642 00:29:00,674 --> 00:29:02,743 and then demand for help on your terms? 643 00:29:06,640 --> 00:29:08,942 Do you remember what your patient was saying when you were triggered? 644 00:29:08,953 --> 00:29:10,831 Yeah, that the damage had been done 645 00:29:10,842 --> 00:29:12,251 and it was too late to fix it, 646 00:29:12,262 --> 00:29:14,264 and I guess that just made me feel like... 647 00:29:14,935 --> 00:29:19,006 Look, when I came back to myself, I was talking to Devi. 648 00:29:20,427 --> 00:29:21,972 And, uh... 649 00:29:22,263 --> 00:29:23,714 And now, my patient's gone 650 00:29:23,725 --> 00:29:26,544 and I may have really messed things up for Mags. 651 00:29:27,010 --> 00:29:28,373 You need to take responsibility 652 00:29:28,384 --> 00:29:31,639 for your actions today. Or I'll have to do it for you. 653 00:29:31,650 --> 00:29:34,353 You know, it might be a good idea if I get you an Ativan. 654 00:29:35,543 --> 00:29:38,045 When it happened this morning, 655 00:29:39,899 --> 00:29:41,949 I texted my friend Saleh in Syria. 656 00:29:42,149 --> 00:29:44,485 And I guess I offered to sponsor both 657 00:29:44,495 --> 00:29:46,236 him and his wife to come to Canada. 658 00:29:46,247 --> 00:29:47,848 Even though I can't afford it. 659 00:29:47,859 --> 00:29:49,471 And then everything's so uncertain right now, 660 00:29:49,482 --> 00:29:51,669 - what was I thinking? - That you miss him. 661 00:29:52,139 --> 00:29:54,384 That you deserve love and friendship. 662 00:29:54,634 --> 00:29:58,432 Because you're not broken and some part of you actually believes that. 663 00:30:05,260 --> 00:30:09,538 - Take it off! I need it off! - Owen, you need to stay still. 664 00:30:12,869 --> 00:30:14,959 I need to scratch, it hurts! 665 00:30:14,969 --> 00:30:16,385 - It itches. - Okay, what happened? 666 00:30:16,396 --> 00:30:18,948 Who has been in here besides me? 667 00:30:18,959 --> 00:30:21,766 - He's reacting to something. - Well, I don't see a rash. 668 00:30:21,777 --> 00:30:23,917 Sometimes he just feels it. 669 00:30:23,928 --> 00:30:25,192 Okay, Owen, what do you need? 670 00:30:25,315 --> 00:30:26,580 What can we do to make you feel better? 671 00:30:26,591 --> 00:30:28,003 You don't really want to know. 672 00:30:28,014 --> 00:30:29,268 You'll use it as a reason 673 00:30:29,279 --> 00:30:31,835 to stop me from doing things I want to do. 674 00:30:31,846 --> 00:30:34,315 - Owen, I just want to help you. - Nothing helps! 675 00:30:34,602 --> 00:30:37,972 Nothing ever helps! I'm stuck this way and I hate it! 676 00:30:37,983 --> 00:30:40,052 Make me sleep again, please! 677 00:30:40,063 --> 00:30:43,399 Make me numb. I just want to be numb! 678 00:30:47,647 --> 00:30:49,382 I'll get you a sedative. 679 00:30:52,215 --> 00:30:54,933 Hey, Theo, can you cover the rest of my patients today? 680 00:30:54,944 --> 00:30:56,762 Uh, yeah, sure, I think so. Just one sec. 681 00:30:56,773 --> 00:30:58,341 Arnold, I need 30mg of ketamine 682 00:30:58,352 --> 00:31:00,083 and 10 cetirizine for Owen, stat. 683 00:31:00,094 --> 00:31:02,223 - On it, I'll meet you in there. - What's this about? This about Mags? 684 00:31:02,234 --> 00:31:03,583 She okay? 685 00:31:03,594 --> 00:31:05,155 I've been texting you for info, but you haven't... 686 00:31:05,166 --> 00:31:07,252 No, no, no, it's not. It's not. I'll explain later. 687 00:31:07,263 --> 00:31:09,012 Arnold, can you help him with the patient transfer? 688 00:31:09,023 --> 00:31:10,358 Yeah. 689 00:31:13,663 --> 00:31:15,392 Dr. Thibeault, I wanted to... 690 00:31:15,403 --> 00:31:16,693 You don't look so... 691 00:31:16,704 --> 00:31:18,239 Hey, hey. Have a seat. 692 00:31:18,332 --> 00:31:20,703 - Are you okay? - Yes. 693 00:31:20,714 --> 00:31:22,483 It's a rash, it's fine. 694 00:31:22,909 --> 00:31:25,419 You're going to tell me that's all in my head, too. 695 00:31:25,709 --> 00:31:27,872 The psych consult could have been handled better. 696 00:31:29,125 --> 00:31:30,480 Damn straight. 697 00:31:30,491 --> 00:31:33,093 But I never said it was all in your head, Rusty. 698 00:31:33,422 --> 00:31:35,826 Gallstones or not, what you're feeling is real. 699 00:31:35,837 --> 00:31:36,907 - May I? - Yeah. 700 00:31:36,918 --> 00:31:38,519 Breathe. 701 00:31:41,448 --> 00:31:43,749 Are you experiencing airway constriction? 702 00:31:43,760 --> 00:31:46,062 Because your lips look like they're starting to swell. 703 00:31:46,073 --> 00:31:48,976 - Yeah. I think so. - With me. 704 00:31:49,983 --> 00:31:53,386 Anaphylaxis is not a symptom of gallstones. 705 00:31:53,397 --> 00:31:55,232 Are you allergic to anything? 706 00:31:55,516 --> 00:31:59,303 No, radioactive imaging, tracer dye apparently. 707 00:31:59,656 --> 00:32:01,522 Wait, did you inject yourself with it? 708 00:32:01,533 --> 00:32:02,743 You wouldn't get me a HIDA scan, 709 00:32:02,754 --> 00:32:04,156 I had to take matters into my own hands! 710 00:32:04,167 --> 00:32:06,169 So in order to prove that you had gallstones, 711 00:32:06,180 --> 00:32:08,282 your plan was to scan yourself. 712 00:32:08,462 --> 00:32:09,897 That's... 713 00:32:10,971 --> 00:32:13,270 Lie back, please. 714 00:32:15,402 --> 00:32:17,571 Okay, one, two, three... 715 00:32:19,359 --> 00:32:21,128 We'll give it two minutes. 716 00:32:22,081 --> 00:32:24,244 We're going to get you on fluids, antihistamines, 717 00:32:24,255 --> 00:32:26,658 and steroids to flush the dye out of your system. 718 00:32:26,669 --> 00:32:28,194 And then you should start to feel much better 719 00:32:28,205 --> 00:32:31,375 - if you want to go back to work. - No, not like this. 720 00:32:32,109 --> 00:32:34,071 Would you like me to let someone know? 721 00:32:34,082 --> 00:32:36,617 I don't want anyone knowing that I do this to myself. 722 00:32:38,992 --> 00:32:42,696 Maybe calling psych wasn't the worst idea in the world. 723 00:32:48,594 --> 00:32:51,197 - Hey. - Did you get it? 724 00:32:51,208 --> 00:32:54,151 Uh-huh. Aren't you supposed to be in bed on antibiotics? 725 00:32:54,162 --> 00:32:56,664 Yeah, the infusion went through. Is that for me? Can I see it? 726 00:32:57,124 --> 00:32:59,119 You don't have to act like a spy. They're your labs. 727 00:32:59,130 --> 00:33:01,326 Yeah, my surgeon already thinks I'm a problem. 728 00:33:01,337 --> 00:33:03,304 But you know, I read his review on "Rate My MD", 729 00:33:03,315 --> 00:33:05,850 and one of his patients said that he didn't go through the risks, 730 00:33:05,861 --> 00:33:08,897 and another that he changed course and she wasn't consented. 731 00:33:09,524 --> 00:33:10,847 My white blood cell count is normal. 732 00:33:10,858 --> 00:33:12,610 - That's good. - If you're just gonna spit back 733 00:33:12,621 --> 00:33:15,286 - out things I already know... - Do you know? 734 00:33:15,297 --> 00:33:16,477 Because you're not acting like somebody 735 00:33:16,488 --> 00:33:17,954 who's relieved that they're good to go. 736 00:33:17,965 --> 00:33:20,393 Or that they have an excellent surgeon. 737 00:33:20,404 --> 00:33:22,603 Have you seen Bash? He was supposed to talk to Devi for me, 738 00:33:22,614 --> 00:33:25,582 but he never came back and I need to know what she says before I... 739 00:33:25,593 --> 00:33:27,877 - Before what? - Before... 740 00:33:29,356 --> 00:33:31,325 Before you go through with this? 741 00:33:31,461 --> 00:33:33,673 - Are you trying to get out of it? - No. 742 00:33:34,621 --> 00:33:35,959 Mags. 743 00:33:36,670 --> 00:33:38,204 I don't know. 744 00:33:39,476 --> 00:33:42,524 Even if I was, it's obviously out of my control. 745 00:33:47,961 --> 00:33:51,027 Novak started a firestorm and then he vanished. 746 00:33:51,038 --> 00:33:53,290 And now Devi wants me to sell him out. 747 00:33:53,813 --> 00:33:56,249 Which is... really not important 748 00:33:56,260 --> 00:33:57,995 considering what you're going through right now. 749 00:33:58,006 --> 00:34:00,209 Please don't say it. 750 00:34:00,674 --> 00:34:01,974 I'm just trying to help. 751 00:34:01,985 --> 00:34:04,721 Yeah, well, you just... you take it all for granted. 752 00:34:05,250 --> 00:34:06,910 - What? - Yeah, you're out of residency. 753 00:34:06,921 --> 00:34:09,221 You've got everything you've wanted right in front of you. 754 00:34:09,232 --> 00:34:11,138 Meanwhile, the exact date that I get the job 755 00:34:11,149 --> 00:34:13,549 I nearly killed myself for, I found out that this happens. 756 00:34:13,560 --> 00:34:15,214 And if I say no to the transplant, 757 00:34:15,225 --> 00:34:17,386 my dumb defective heart that I was born with 758 00:34:17,397 --> 00:34:19,800 could just give out at anytime. Or maybe never, who knows! 759 00:34:20,239 --> 00:34:22,875 And now, apparently, I'm moving back in with my parents. 760 00:34:23,618 --> 00:34:28,135 - You're moving out of my house? - My mom, she rented a place 761 00:34:28,146 --> 00:34:30,854 - behind my back, yeah. - She's probably just trying to, 762 00:34:30,865 --> 00:34:34,869 you know, help you not have to worry about things and, like... 763 00:34:35,694 --> 00:34:37,596 Why are you defending her? 764 00:34:38,377 --> 00:34:40,360 You know, not all of us have people just lining up 765 00:34:40,370 --> 00:34:42,377 - trying to love us, Mags! - June. 766 00:34:43,436 --> 00:34:45,226 Uh, your hernia patient. 767 00:34:45,237 --> 00:34:47,509 He's come down, his heart rate's racing. 768 00:34:47,581 --> 00:34:50,558 - And he's febrile... - Um... 769 00:34:51,508 --> 00:34:55,329 - Can you prep him for Trauma OR? - Yeah. 770 00:34:55,340 --> 00:34:57,075 Uh, Mags, is she okay? 771 00:34:59,072 --> 00:35:00,100 No. 772 00:35:05,310 --> 00:35:08,675 - Why don't you throw a bag over my head and kidnap me this time! - Oh, c'mon. 773 00:35:09,035 --> 00:35:11,249 We waited too long and now he won't get in the chair. 774 00:35:11,260 --> 00:35:12,895 Just relax. 775 00:35:13,233 --> 00:35:15,412 Hartley, look at me. 776 00:35:15,892 --> 00:35:17,317 The situation is serious. 777 00:35:17,328 --> 00:35:19,831 Your hernia's strangulated and a prolonged lack of blood flow 778 00:35:19,842 --> 00:35:21,461 could cause organ failure or even death. 779 00:35:21,472 --> 00:35:22,852 - So you do need the surgery. - Not if it means 780 00:35:22,863 --> 00:35:24,197 - I have to go under. - Babe! 781 00:35:24,208 --> 00:35:26,343 What happened to you never feeling afraid again? 782 00:35:26,354 --> 00:35:28,136 The drugs you forced on me wore off. 783 00:35:28,147 --> 00:35:29,850 Why would you do that to me? How could you think that would help? 784 00:35:29,861 --> 00:35:32,542 I don't know. I couldn't stand seeing you like that! 785 00:35:32,553 --> 00:35:34,457 Oh, so you made it about you, huh? 786 00:35:34,468 --> 00:35:36,886 No! I... God, why couldn't we just do this 787 00:35:36,897 --> 00:35:38,398 when he was feeling good? 788 00:35:38,409 --> 00:35:39,835 Because that would have been a crime. 789 00:35:39,846 --> 00:35:43,143 See Dell, why does literally everyone understand that except you? 790 00:35:43,154 --> 00:35:44,612 There must be some kind of medicine we can try. 791 00:35:44,623 --> 00:35:46,603 There isn't! You need to face this like an adult. 792 00:35:46,614 --> 00:35:48,336 - Get in the chair! - Della, you can't... 793 00:35:48,347 --> 00:35:49,952 Well, I can't watch him die! 794 00:35:49,963 --> 00:35:51,291 Hartley, get in the damn chair! 795 00:35:51,302 --> 00:35:52,357 - Never! - Let's go! 796 00:35:54,968 --> 00:35:56,222 - June, you need help here? - Yeah. 797 00:35:56,233 --> 00:35:57,562 He bit me! 798 00:35:58,044 --> 00:35:59,272 She drugged me without my consent! 799 00:35:59,283 --> 00:36:01,452 Alright, both of you calm down right now. 800 00:36:03,817 --> 00:36:04,952 Great. 801 00:36:07,160 --> 00:36:08,216 Is he dead? 802 00:36:08,227 --> 00:36:11,160 - Nope, just in shock. - Good. 803 00:36:11,171 --> 00:36:13,674 Can we do the surgery before he wakes up? 804 00:36:20,314 --> 00:36:23,539 The first time it happened it was with my old chief, Dr. Bishop. 805 00:36:23,550 --> 00:36:26,286 He saw me, he asked me to go to therapy and it helped. 806 00:36:26,297 --> 00:36:28,299 It hasn't happened in two years. 807 00:36:28,914 --> 00:36:33,613 Okay... I'm sure it's not been easy 808 00:36:33,624 --> 00:36:35,228 experiencing that again. 809 00:36:35,239 --> 00:36:40,045 I know, I should've stopped seeing patients immediately, 810 00:36:40,056 --> 00:36:42,248 but I really thought I had it under control. 811 00:36:42,265 --> 00:36:45,962 We get that feeling like the walls are closing in, 812 00:36:45,973 --> 00:36:49,142 sometimes, our instincts betray us and... 813 00:36:49,602 --> 00:36:52,305 create blind spots. 814 00:36:53,780 --> 00:36:55,782 Thank you for telling me. 815 00:36:58,229 --> 00:37:00,131 If there's anything you need... 816 00:37:00,142 --> 00:37:01,393 Dr. Devi. 817 00:37:01,732 --> 00:37:04,146 Hear me out about Mags again. 818 00:37:04,520 --> 00:37:08,462 If she was the right person before, she still will be after. 819 00:37:08,900 --> 00:37:11,978 That's what you said last time, too. 820 00:37:17,909 --> 00:37:19,439 Feeling any better? 821 00:37:20,026 --> 00:37:21,628 A little. 822 00:37:21,848 --> 00:37:24,417 Is Mac going to stop trying to help me after what I said? 823 00:37:25,069 --> 00:37:27,350 Because I don't feel like that all the time. 824 00:37:27,361 --> 00:37:29,196 No, Owen, definitely not. 825 00:37:29,755 --> 00:37:33,059 But he's never going to let me drive after this. 826 00:37:34,117 --> 00:37:35,822 - Let me see your phone. - Why? 827 00:37:35,833 --> 00:37:38,536 Trust me. I'm not going to read any of your texts. 828 00:37:42,452 --> 00:37:44,854 Do you know about Kids Help Phone? 829 00:37:44,994 --> 00:37:47,256 So in those moments when you feel out of control 830 00:37:47,267 --> 00:37:50,203 and you need someone to talk to or text, 831 00:37:50,530 --> 00:37:53,166 it is totally anonymous 832 00:37:53,426 --> 00:37:55,513 and someone's always there to respond. 833 00:38:05,805 --> 00:38:08,691 My plan was to phase out at 65. 834 00:38:09,525 --> 00:38:12,392 Barely anyone has room in their practice anymore. 835 00:38:12,728 --> 00:38:16,797 I feel like I'd be abandoning all those people I've known for so long. 836 00:38:16,919 --> 00:38:20,289 For some, it's not bad, but kids like Owen, 837 00:38:20,919 --> 00:38:23,674 they're the reason I wanted to do this kind of work. 838 00:38:24,097 --> 00:38:26,199 Hard to turn your back on a calling. 839 00:38:26,210 --> 00:38:28,579 As long as I'm still doing more good than harm. 840 00:38:29,900 --> 00:38:32,913 I wrote up a letter for his licence. 841 00:38:33,264 --> 00:38:35,982 - See what you think? - You saw what happened today. 842 00:38:36,049 --> 00:38:38,454 - If that happened on the road... - There's risks, yeah. 843 00:38:38,465 --> 00:38:41,869 But Owen is thinking about his future which means he wants to live. 844 00:38:42,772 --> 00:38:46,052 Look, it's your call, Mac. But I think we should both sign it. 845 00:38:58,074 --> 00:39:01,464 Hey, I got that note about the statement you wanted me to sign. 846 00:39:01,705 --> 00:39:03,664 Yeah, one of the weirder incident reports 847 00:39:03,675 --> 00:39:05,644 - I've had to fill. - Yeah. 848 00:39:05,666 --> 00:39:07,468 - How's our "biter?" - Uh, apparently, 849 00:39:07,479 --> 00:39:09,431 losing consciousness is a stroke of luck 850 00:39:09,442 --> 00:39:11,313 because we are not allowed to let you die. 851 00:39:11,324 --> 00:39:13,626 So his hernia's fixed, and now he's awake and he's happy, 852 00:39:13,637 --> 00:39:15,472 and they are in love again. 853 00:39:17,264 --> 00:39:19,066 What's that hair metal song called? 854 00:39:19,077 --> 00:39:22,581 Uh... "Love hurts". Yeah. 855 00:39:23,163 --> 00:39:24,998 Those guys knew. 856 00:39:25,818 --> 00:39:30,023 That was an intense dad voice you used earlier. 857 00:39:31,030 --> 00:39:33,165 - How's Henry? - Great. 858 00:39:33,253 --> 00:39:36,590 Yeah? And... you? 859 00:39:37,487 --> 00:39:39,042 You know, it's funny. 860 00:39:39,482 --> 00:39:43,509 You and me were together all that time and now we're just... 861 00:39:43,520 --> 00:39:47,057 passing each other once in a while in the hall. 862 00:39:47,354 --> 00:39:49,256 I guess that's on me. 863 00:39:50,157 --> 00:39:52,993 I feel really bad about how I played that. 864 00:39:53,820 --> 00:39:58,486 Actually, about how I've managed to screw up most of my relationships. 865 00:39:58,497 --> 00:40:02,001 Hey. Ours was on me, too. 866 00:40:04,844 --> 00:40:07,576 No, it wasn't. 867 00:40:20,974 --> 00:40:22,842 So what's supposed to happen next? 868 00:40:22,853 --> 00:40:25,404 They'll be retrieving the donor heart late tonight. 869 00:40:25,415 --> 00:40:27,969 First thing in the morning, we'll get going. 870 00:40:27,980 --> 00:40:31,117 - Magalie. - What if I can't do it? 871 00:40:51,558 --> 00:40:52,892 Okay. 872 00:41:05,064 --> 00:41:06,589 - Hi, Sam. - Hi, June. 873 00:41:06,600 --> 00:41:08,194 Just letting you know that everything's in order, 874 00:41:08,205 --> 00:41:09,540 so green light from our end 875 00:41:09,551 --> 00:41:11,753 if you want to do your IUI tomorrow. 876 00:41:21,087 --> 00:41:23,623 Thanks for not cancelling my surgery. 877 00:41:23,918 --> 00:41:26,353 And for the concerned messages. 878 00:41:26,364 --> 00:41:27,766 I'm glad you're back. 879 00:41:28,067 --> 00:41:29,447 They're coming to shave my head. 880 00:41:29,458 --> 00:41:30,993 What girl says no to that? 881 00:41:31,982 --> 00:41:33,222 Do you have anyone with you? 882 00:41:33,233 --> 00:41:35,168 My brother is on his way. 883 00:41:35,896 --> 00:41:36,932 Hey. 884 00:41:36,943 --> 00:41:40,246 Weird question, but it's been that kind of day. 885 00:41:41,773 --> 00:41:44,604 What did I say to you that made you leave? 886 00:41:44,727 --> 00:41:47,496 Made me leave and got me back. 887 00:41:48,018 --> 00:41:50,510 You said it was okay to be scared. 888 00:41:51,215 --> 00:41:54,614 That I just had to let myself sit with that and really feel it. 889 00:41:54,901 --> 00:41:57,103 And that somewhere, in all of this, 890 00:41:57,450 --> 00:41:59,919 there's a way to find the light. 891 00:42:02,678 --> 00:42:04,413 I'm here, Bash. 892 00:42:04,424 --> 00:42:06,679 Say what you want to say to me. 893 00:42:09,488 --> 00:42:13,844 So many things have happened to me that were out of my control. 894 00:42:14,022 --> 00:42:17,203 Been thinking about you bringing us here, 895 00:42:17,214 --> 00:42:19,150 finding us in Crete and... 896 00:42:19,252 --> 00:42:21,881 After I got me and my sister stuck... 897 00:42:21,892 --> 00:42:25,178 - You wish you hadn't let me? - No, not at all. 898 00:42:25,365 --> 00:42:29,169 Elliot, you, opened your family to us. 899 00:42:30,850 --> 00:42:33,286 Disappearing from your life, that was me. 900 00:42:33,426 --> 00:42:36,602 That was me being scared that I'd never be able to build anything. 901 00:42:36,613 --> 00:42:39,559 Trying to control it and getting mad when I couldn't. 902 00:42:41,200 --> 00:42:43,002 I'm sorry. 903 00:42:45,491 --> 00:42:49,896 But what I wanted to do was to thank you for that properly. 904 00:42:50,941 --> 00:42:52,552 And to tell you that we wouldn't be 905 00:42:52,563 --> 00:42:54,732 where we are today without you. 906 00:43:00,924 --> 00:43:05,924 - Synced and corrected by naFraC - - www.addic7ed.com -