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Candace!

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Candace?

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Get down here! Now!

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Sam just left.
He is going to kill his father.

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- What did you say to him?
- He decided

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that killing his father
would make him better.

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Would it?

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Well, no, I don't think so.

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He could come back here and...

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Are you sure it won't work?

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Candace, I understand
that this man was brutal to you.

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But I'm supposed to care
what happens to him?

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Well... yes. Yes, a little.

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Can I come in?

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You hungry?

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I've been in this position many times.

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There's nothing you can do.

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I usually have a beer and try to relax.

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Bathroom?

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Around the corner.

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You think I'm some sort
of a monster, too.

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But I'm not.

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I'm like anybody else.

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When he's...

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out, like now...

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I'm so scared for him.

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I'm so sad

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for the life he's living.

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But the families...

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the people he does this to...

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I make up stories in my head about them.

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I live it, in a way.

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I picture... them as babies,

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with their mothers holding them.

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Their fathers playing
with them on the floor.

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These poor men.

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But you won't call the police?

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Candace...

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you won't save them from this?

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I can't.

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I cannot.

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God...

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Why did you used to hit me
so much when I was a kid?

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I don't know.

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How did it make you feel?

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When you...?

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What?

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When you used to hit me all the time.

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How did it make you feel?

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I don't know.

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Bad, I guess.

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You were a weird kid.

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You couldn't follow rules,
you couldn't play games,

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you didn't have any friends.

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And your mother was
reading all her books,

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telling me it was all my fault
you were like that.

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Anyway, I'm sorry.

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My therapist said not to kill you.

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And then I left.

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How do you feel?

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I was choking him

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and I could feel him disappearing,

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and I stopped.

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It was like I didn't want to.

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Why not?

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I don't know.

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I mean, he said he was sorry,
but fuck him, right?

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I just...

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I hate him so much

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and usually that feeling,
it makes me want to

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go ahead and...

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But I was on top of him,

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and I hated him.

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And this time, that feeling,

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it made me...

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not want to.

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I...

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Do you know why I didn't do it?

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What was different,

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between your father, and
everyone else that you've hurt?

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I don't know.

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What's the obvious difference?

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He hurt me the most.

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Okay, good. What else?

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What's the most obvious difference?

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He's my father.

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Right.

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Sam, you were on top of him...

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the one who treated you like this.

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If you killed him,

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you'd be doing it, too.

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Acting just like him.
Being just like him.

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You hate that part of him.

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You are trying to be different.

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Trying to get rid of
that ugly part of him

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that lives inside of you.

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You were right to confront your father.

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But you didn't need to kill him.

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You needed to not kill him.

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This is it, Sam.

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It is a major breakthrough,

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even if you're not quite feeling it yet.

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Not killing your father is...

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You wanted to change.

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Look at you. You've changed.

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How does it feel?

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Okay. I guess.

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It's everything that
we have been working towards.

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You stopped yourself.

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This is extraordinary.

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Thanks.

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I'm gonna go and get some dinner.

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Is there anything
in particular that you'd...

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I'm not really hungry right now.

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I, um...

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Sam...

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It's time to let me go home.

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You're ready.

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And I need to get back to my family.

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Sometimes therapists

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talk with their patients
about their own lives.

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Because...

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well, you know, we're all human beings.

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We all are struggling,
every last one of us.

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So... I want you to understand
a few things about me.

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You have been struggling
with your father.

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And you just had a big breakthrough.

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I'm in the middle of
a struggle with my son, too.

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And I need to get back to him
for our breakthrough.

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I did a lot of damage to my son, too.

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I know it's not the same
as what your father did.

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But, Sam...

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people don't deserve to die

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for falling short.

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No matter how short.

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We're all...

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broken vessels.

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I need to get back to my son.

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I want you to come see me in my office

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for regular sessions, every day at first,

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but pretty soon we can
go to three days a week.

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I have enormous faith in you.

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I also want to address

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your completely understandable
concern, I assume,

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that, if you let me go,
I will turn you in.

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As a therapist,

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I have a legal and ethical obligation

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to keep your confidence.

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Including any

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crimes that you may have
committed in the past.

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It only gets thorny if you are
clearly going to kill somebody.

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And if, at some point in the future,

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you have an overwhelming
urge to kill again,

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and you don't think
you'll be able to control it,

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that will be the moment for us

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to find a therapeutic
institution for you.

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But I don't see that happening.

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I think that, by not killing your father,

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you have demonstrated great progress

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and likely permanent change.

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I'm really proud of you.

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I am proud of the progress
that you have made.

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And I think that you will
continue to make progress.

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I'll be right back.

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I get what you've been saying.

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I've been rushing you.

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Because I want to get better.

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But therapy takes time.

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Years, you said, sometimes.

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So, I'll get a TV

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and I can stock the fridge
with anything you want.

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It's a miracle that everyone
who was beaten like that

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doesn't become a serial killer.

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Why wouldn't they,
after suffering like that?

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It's like an effort

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to turn them into a serial killer

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that doesn't always work.

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That poor kid... with all of it...

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he somehow managed
to not kill his father.

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Maybe this fucking therapy
is working after all.

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We know this story.

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He needs a replacement father.

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That's why he wants to keep you
here for the next ten years.

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He understands, maybe intuitively,

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that he needs to do it again.

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To relive his life
with a different model.

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Well, I'm not spending
the next ten years down here.

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No, you're not.

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A little meshuggener, maybe.

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Sam?

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Sam, could you come out here, please?

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Sam,

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I don't think...

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I don't think that I said what really

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needed to be said yesterday.

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It has been a problem down here for me,

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to always know exactly
how to communicate with you.

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And to know what I'm feeling.

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I have something to say
that may be difficult to hear.

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That is part of this process, though,

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honestly sharing the truth,

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even if it's hard.

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You brought me down here,

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and you asked me to treat you, and I did.

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And I can't do it anymore.

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I have done the most I can.

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And I am telling you,
in my professional opinion,

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and I consider this
to be a near certainty,

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for you to get better,

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you need to be physically stopped

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from acting out your compulsion.

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Being physically prevented
from hurting anyone else

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is what will give you
the freedom to actually

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heal your heart and your mind.

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It's what will give you the space

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to heal what your father did to you.

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As much as it can be, Sam.

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That kind of pain never heals entirely.

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But you can do enough of it

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to allow you to live a better life.

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Sam, I have so much respect

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for what you're trying to do.
It's very brave.

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In the whole history of people

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who have struggled with what
you're struggling with,

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I bet you stand alone

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in the strength of
your efforts to change.

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And...

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it's time to turn yourself in.

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Call the police and turn yourself in.

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I now know, apart from
anything having to do with me,

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this is the only way for you.

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Our therapy is over.

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You need to make a choice.

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I'm making one,
and you have to make one, too.

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My choice is that I am not
doing therapy with you anymore.

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Your choice...

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you can turn yourself in,

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or you can end this the other way.

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I don't want to do that.

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- Either one.
- I know.

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But it's time.

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And I'm not going to live
down here like a pet.

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Thank you.

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I know you want to go home...

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but...

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he's not ready.

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He's not.

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Candace, this needs to end now.

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No matter what happens,

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we can't leave anything unsaid.

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This is going to be hard to hear,

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and I want you to know
that I am saying it

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not just in my best interests,

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but in yours and Sam's as well.

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When he was a boy and
his father was abusing him,

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you didn't take any steps to stop it.

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You didn't leave or get help.

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It wasn't your fault,
you didn't know what to do.

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But you did not protect him.

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You did not protect your son.

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- What are you doing?
- Sam! Sam?!

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- Stop.
- Sam, come downstairs

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- What are you doing, Dr. Strauss?
- right now! Stop!

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I am sorry to be in this position.

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I don't want to be doing this.

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I care about you, Sam, I really do.

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But... No, no! Stop!

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But I will kill her

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- if you don't call the police.
- Sam, I...

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00:27:09,388 --> 00:27:10,891
Do it, Sam,

272
00:27:10,968 --> 00:27:12,899
- or I will cut her throat.
- Please.

273
00:27:12,924 --> 00:27:14,328
- Dr. Strauss, you...
- I don't want to.

274
00:27:14,360 --> 00:27:17,077
I don't want to, Sam. What I
want is for you to call 911,

275
00:27:17,108 --> 00:27:19,788
and turn yourself in,
you have to. Turn yourself in!

276
00:27:19,857 --> 00:27:21,585
- Or I will do it!
- He's just bluffing, Mom.

277
00:27:21,615 --> 00:27:23,072
All he wants to do is get out of here.

278
00:27:23,097 --> 00:27:24,749
I am not, Sam. Call 911!

279
00:27:24,788 --> 00:27:26,319
I don't... I don't believe you...

280
00:27:26,386 --> 00:27:27,956
I am not bluffing, Sam!

281
00:27:28,023 --> 00:27:29,592
I am going to kill her.

282
00:27:29,659 --> 00:27:32,064
You said we shouldn't interrupt
each other down here!

283
00:27:32,499 --> 00:27:35,164
Goddamn it, we let each other finish!

284
00:27:39,655 --> 00:27:40,692
You...

285
00:27:41,288 --> 00:27:43,275
you said I was getting better.

286
00:27:44,111 --> 00:27:45,310
You... I believed you.

287
00:27:45,341 --> 00:27:47,252
I told you last night.
You cannot get better

288
00:27:47,283 --> 00:27:50,056
unless you are stopped from
acting out your compulsions.

289
00:27:50,095 --> 00:27:52,262
That is the only way out for you.

290
00:27:52,832 --> 00:27:55,276
This is the only way out for me.

291
00:27:58,287 --> 00:28:00,096
Make your choice.

292
00:28:01,113 --> 00:28:02,974
I don't want to.

293
00:28:03,660 --> 00:28:05,499
Then your mother's going to die.

294
00:28:05,867 --> 00:28:07,511
And you'll kill me.

295
00:28:10,727 --> 00:28:13,512
I don't think you're the kind
of man that can even do it.

296
00:28:45,443 --> 00:28:46,779
Alan?

297
00:28:48,282 --> 00:28:49,604
Alan?

298
00:28:51,120 --> 00:28:52,424
Are you okay?

299
00:28:52,818 --> 00:28:54,875
Just a bad dream.

300
00:28:59,859 --> 00:29:03,279
About when you were... away?

301
00:29:04,182 --> 00:29:05,825
Not exactly.

302
00:29:05,989 --> 00:29:07,909
Then what was it?

303
00:29:09,163 --> 00:29:12,081
I'll tell you in about ten years.

304
00:29:12,135 --> 00:29:14,341
Keep your stuff together, here we go.

305
00:29:14,380 --> 00:29:16,684
Everyone, let's go. It's dinnertime.

306
00:29:29,298 --> 00:29:32,171
I'm just saying, I don't know how
Shmuel ended up being the coach.

307
00:29:32,237 --> 00:29:33,673
Shush. Dov likes him.

308
00:29:33,743 --> 00:29:35,177
You can't shield him from the truth.

309
00:29:35,243 --> 00:29:36,745
I'm not so sure about that.

310
00:29:36,819 --> 00:29:38,298
Coach Shmuel was captain of

311
00:29:38,321 --> 00:29:40,124
the intermural baseball team at UMass.

312
00:29:40,180 --> 00:29:41,972
- Yes, we know.
- We all know.

313
00:29:42,010 --> 00:29:43,347
That's my point.

314
00:29:46,198 --> 00:29:47,534
Thank you.

315
00:31:02,387 --> 00:31:03,758
Stop!

316
00:31:04,092 --> 00:31:05,432
Stop!

317
00:31:05,658 --> 00:31:07,203
Stop! Don't!

318
00:31:07,838 --> 00:31:09,633
Don't, Sam!

319
00:31:09,822 --> 00:31:11,472
Stop! Stop!

320
00:31:11,607 --> 00:31:12,904
Stop!

321
00:31:12,954 --> 00:31:14,185
No!

322
00:31:14,553 --> 00:31:15,732
No...

323
00:31:17,459 --> 00:31:19,115
No, no, no...

324
00:31:22,763 --> 00:31:24,498
Oh, Sam.

325
00:35:54,667 --> 00:35:57,028
"Dear children of Dr. Strauss,

326
00:35:57,673 --> 00:36:01,565
"I am writing to let you know the
bad news that your dad is dead.

327
00:36:02,384 --> 00:36:04,184
"He helped me a lot.

328
00:36:05,064 --> 00:36:07,810
"I know from him it's important
for you Jews

329
00:36:07,857 --> 00:36:09,873
"to have a body when someone dies,

330
00:36:10,216 --> 00:36:12,391
" so I put it where you can find it.

331
00:36:13,447 --> 00:36:15,742
"It's ten yards back in the trees

332
00:36:15,854 --> 00:36:19,316
"by the northwest entrance
to Finch Ridge Preserve.

333
00:36:20,195 --> 00:36:22,891
I am enclosing a letter he left for you."

334
00:36:25,595 --> 00:36:28,008
"Dear Shoshana and Ezra,

335
00:36:28,649 --> 00:36:31,344
"I love you both so much.

336
00:36:33,026 --> 00:36:34,957
"I'm sorry this happened to you,

337
00:36:35,147 --> 00:36:36,933
"and I'm sorry it happened to me.

338
00:36:37,832 --> 00:36:39,864
"But here we are.

339
00:36:40,937 --> 00:36:43,561
"I want you to know I haven't suffered.

340
00:36:44,741 --> 00:36:47,273
"And I've had a lot of time to think.

341
00:36:47,792 --> 00:36:49,951
"You know I like to do that.

342
00:36:51,161 --> 00:36:54,834
"The two of you gave my life,
and your mother's life, meaning.

343
00:36:55,370 --> 00:36:57,275
"All parents love their children,

344
00:36:57,329 --> 00:37:00,433
"but no one loved their kids
more than we did.

345
00:37:00,750 --> 00:37:04,235
"You are extraordinary people.

346
00:37:05,109 --> 00:37:06,998
"I want you both to go forward

347
00:37:07,060 --> 00:37:09,662
"without my death defining your lives.

348
00:37:11,242 --> 00:37:14,996
"I also want to make sure that
some of the conflicts we had

349
00:37:15,027 --> 00:37:18,761
"don't define how you remember
our relationships either.

350
00:37:21,057 --> 00:37:22,557
"Shoshana,

351
00:37:23,056 --> 00:37:25,236
" you and I and your
mother had our issues,

352
00:37:25,306 --> 00:37:29,500
"but mostly it has been easy
and full of caring.

353
00:37:31,217 --> 00:37:32,946
"I thank you for that gift.

354
00:37:34,267 --> 00:37:36,130
"You are the brightest,

355
00:37:36,412 --> 00:37:39,516
"most extraordinary young
woman I can imagine.

356
00:37:40,413 --> 00:37:42,954
"In these dark times,

357
00:37:43,297 --> 00:37:46,892
"I have thought about you and
your beautiful family constantly,

358
00:37:47,780 --> 00:37:50,072
"and it has given me joy,

359
00:37:50,705 --> 00:37:52,860
"pride and solace.

360
00:37:55,070 --> 00:37:57,374
"Ezra, my dear son,

361
00:37:58,504 --> 00:38:01,322
"you are a bright light in this world.

362
00:38:01,548 --> 00:38:03,123
"We both know

363
00:38:03,350 --> 00:38:06,175
" it hasn't been such
smooth sailing between us.

364
00:38:06,298 --> 00:38:07,811
"And your mother.

365
00:38:08,436 --> 00:38:11,930
"I have spent a lot of time thinking
back on everything that happened,

366
00:38:12,735 --> 00:38:16,151
"and I see things now that
I was unable to grasp

367
00:38:16,222 --> 00:38:17,948
"when they were happening.

368
00:38:18,656 --> 00:38:20,520
"I want you to know

369
00:38:20,770 --> 00:38:24,212
"that I understand now
everything you said to me.

370
00:38:25,585 --> 00:38:27,674
"You were right. Mostly.

371
00:38:28,115 --> 00:38:30,002
"I was judgmental,

372
00:38:30,353 --> 00:38:32,754
" I didn't accept you for who you were,

373
00:38:33,085 --> 00:38:35,350
"and worst of all, I allowed

374
00:38:35,428 --> 00:38:38,139
" your mother to take the blame for this,

375
00:38:38,295 --> 00:38:41,110
"when I was as much at fault as anyone.

376
00:38:42,370 --> 00:38:43,803
"More.

377
00:38:46,007 --> 00:38:49,052
"I want you to know that I see this

378
00:38:49,636 --> 00:38:51,076
"and I'm sorry.

379
00:38:52,549 --> 00:38:54,921
"Through it all, I always loved you.

380
00:38:55,599 --> 00:38:58,107
"And I want you to know how very much

381
00:38:58,146 --> 00:38:59,954
" I respect who you are

382
00:39:00,144 --> 00:39:02,117
"and the choices you've made.

383
00:39:02,774 --> 00:39:05,368
"You've built a beautiful family

384
00:39:05,446 --> 00:39:07,067
"and a beautiful life.

385
00:39:07,385 --> 00:39:09,224
"You are a special

386
00:39:09,565 --> 00:39:11,887
and truly wonderful person."

387
00:39:20,846 --> 00:39:23,386
A little meshuggener, maybe.

388
00:40:11,288 --> 00:40:13,415
I think I really changed.

389
00:40:14,187 --> 00:40:16,255
The therapy worked.

390
00:40:17,249 --> 00:40:19,219
I'm not going to do it again.

391
00:40:21,848 --> 00:40:25,249
I am never going to hurt anyone again.

392
00:40:28,917 --> 00:40:30,479
That's not true.

393
00:40:31,287 --> 00:40:33,510
You're going to do it again.

394
00:40:34,274 --> 00:40:36,229
We both know it.

395
00:41:01,060 --> 00:41:02,696
Mom!

396
00:41:02,985 --> 00:41:04,787
Can you come down here?!

397
00:42:54,074 --> 00:42:55,510
Did you know him?

398
00:42:55,576 --> 00:42:57,100
Not personally.

399
00:42:57,547 --> 00:43:00,219
I have colleagues who
were students of his.

400
00:43:00,286 --> 00:43:02,323
And I read his book.

401
00:43:02,890 --> 00:43:04,946
You know, I never read it.

402
00:43:06,197 --> 00:43:08,291
I don't even have a copy.

403
00:43:09,337 --> 00:43:13,142
Although, I think I'm about to
inherit like three boxes of them.

404
00:43:14,728 --> 00:43:17,995
I think one of the sections
is on parenting.

405
00:43:20,792 --> 00:43:22,809
I guess I should read it.

406
00:43:26,305 --> 00:43:28,608
So, how are you getting along?

407
00:43:31,836 --> 00:43:34,507
What happened was...

408
00:43:42,370 --> 00:43:45,035
I'm just worried for my kids.

409
00:43:45,692 --> 00:43:47,164
And my wife.

410
00:43:49,286 --> 00:43:51,150
And my sister.

411
00:43:54,226 --> 00:43:56,029
What about you?

412
00:43:58,235 --> 00:44:00,252
It's been hard, but I'm okay.

413
00:44:07,086 --> 00:44:10,792
Do you want to tell me a little
more about yourself, Ezra?

414
00:44:12,260 --> 00:44:13,396
I'm...

415
00:44:14,454 --> 00:44:16,388
I'm not sure where to start.

416
00:44:17,006 --> 00:44:19,424
Really anywhere's okay.

417
00:44:38,211 --> 00:44:39,254
I...

418
00:44:39,431 --> 00:44:44,431
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