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? Crazy is when I go off the rails ?

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? This is what you've done to me ?

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? Crazy is how your
loving makes me feel ?

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? This is what I always want to be ?

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? I like it when a
girl gets crazy in bed ?

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? Don't mess with the bitch
who's crazy in the head ?

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- ? You do ?
- ? You don't ?

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? Want to be crazy ?

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- ? And you don't ?
- ? You do ?

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? Want to be crazy ?

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? To clarify, yes, no on the crazy ?

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? We hope this helps. ?

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Previously on Crazy Ex-Girlfriend...

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If I'm crazy,

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you made me crazier

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because your life is broken and boring.

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I'm sick and tired of you!
I want you out of my life!

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I've officially alienated

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every person I know.

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I give up.

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I'll come home.

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Darling, it's time that I take
over the reins of your life.

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You're incapable.

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You made me think that you loved me.

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You gave me hope
when I had none.

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And now, that hope is gone.

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- Is everything okay?
- I need help.

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_

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Oh, sorry.

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She's okay.

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She's out of the woods for now.

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- Oh...
- Oh, thank God.

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I knew she'd be fine.

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The minute I heard,
that's what I told myself.

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All right, I got to get back in there.

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Dr. Akopian is leaving,

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and Rebecca needs somebody in
the room with her at all times.

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Uh, they assigned a nurse to be
her "sitter" or something,

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but I got rid of her.
And so, now,

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all I have to do is fend off
a very overeager housekeeper

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who just keeps
interrupting for no reason.

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- Paula.
- Yeah?

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You don't have to do this by yourself.

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We can help, we can take turns.

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Yeah, you have a family at home.

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Don't be silly. Rebecca needs me.

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And my family will understand.

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Actually, there is another
way you guys can help.

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So, she knows everyone is
hearing about what happened.

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I mean, her phone is blowing up...

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Lots of concerned people,
really sweet, very annoying.

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Could you please just let
everyone know that she's okay?

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I could do it. I'll get
in touch with everyone.

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I want to help.

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- Oh, great.
- Hey.

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- I got here as fast as I could.
- Why?

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- Is Rebecca okay?
- For now. Josh, you need to leave.

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I can't have Rebecca seeing you
or hearing you.

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I don't want her to be upset.

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In fact, I am worried

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that your body spray is
gonna waft into her room

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and she's gonna know that you're here,

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so leave... without wafting.

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Dude, you should go.

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But I want to talk to Rebecca.

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I mean, last time I saw her,
we had a really bad fight

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and I said I wanted her
to go away, which I did,

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but not in, like, a permanent way.

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Will you at least tell her I was here?

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- No...
- No.

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I'm so sorry, Dr. Akopian.

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I failed you.

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- God, I'm such a coward.
- You were no such thing.

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No such thing.

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You were brave. You asked for help.

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Brave. Asked for help.

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Just agreeing with you.

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I'll let you get some
rest, but don't worry,

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there are some great
psychiatrists on staff here,

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and we'll work together
to get you the right help.

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Thank you.

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- Hi.
- Hi.

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Are the girls still here?

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Oh, yeah. No, we're all here.

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# GirlGroup4Evah.

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- Are they mad at me?
- No.

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No one is mad.

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Not now, Denise!

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Denise, what did I say?

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Sweetie, do you need anything?

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No, um, no, I think I'm
just gonna go to sleep.

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Oh. Oh, God.

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Oh, I'm so embarrassed
that I caused such a scene.

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And I didn't, I didn't even want to die.

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I just wanted the pain to stop.

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I know.

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It's like I was out of stories

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to tell myself that
things would be okay.

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I just feel like I
inconvenienced a lot of people.

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No, no, no, no. No, you didn't.

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And don't you worry about
anyone else right now, okay?

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- Okay.
- Okay.

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_

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_

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Hmm.

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_

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_

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Hey, boss. So, the whole office...

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... is going in on a
cupcake basket for Rebecca.

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Do you want to kick in some money or...

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probably doing your own thing?

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Yeah. No, I'm-I'm doing my own thing.

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Okay, so no money from you, then.

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Because I do need an extra eight bucks

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and I can't find Darryl.

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Called and texted him.

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He's at a yurt with his
boyfriend or something.

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Uh, he probably doesn't
have cell service.

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Are you okay?

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This must be tough, and
I know you care about her.

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- George, we're done here.
- For sure. Uh-huh.

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All right, I just have to do this.

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I'm gonna do it.

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Hi, everyone, I'm Valencia Perez,

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Rebecca Bunch's friend.

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I wanted to just post a
quick update on Rebecca

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because I know a lot of
people are worried about her.

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Rebecca went through a tough
time a few days ago, obviously,

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but she's stable now

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and she appreciates
everyone thinking about her.

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If you want to connect with her,

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you can just write in the comments below

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and I will make sure
she gets the message.

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Thanks, all.

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You're posting a video?

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I thought you were gonna,
like, e-mail people.

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Seemed impersonal.

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I thought a Facebook
video would be better.

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I asked Paula, and she
said Rebecca thought

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it was a great idea.

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Okay, sounds good.

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Oh, where should I put these chips?

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Um, why is he here?

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Well, we were supposed
to go on our third date

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and I was gonna cancel, but then
he didn't want me to be alone.

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That's sweet, right?

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Yeah, sure.

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I didn't know a friend's suicide
attempt was a plus one event,

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but cool.

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I told you she might be mad.

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She gets like this.

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In third grade, she cut off my rat-tail

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'cause I sat in her desk once.

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Hector, just unpack the
cheese puffs... also, rat-tail?

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So many questions.

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Valencia, let's not be controlling.

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I don't think there are, like,

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rules for this kind of situation.

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You're right.

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It's a tough time.

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We should be gentle with each other.

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Bitch, don't get in my way, bitch.

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Are you sure you don't
need to go be at home?

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What about your kids?

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And... the girls... I mean,
they haven't been to their jobs

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or anything in days; I just feel so bad.

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It's fine, it is fine.

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Paula,

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I'm okay here by myself.

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I mean, I got doctors and nurses,

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and Denise.

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Denise, I will strangle
you in your sleep!

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Unbelievable.

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Honey, do not worry about me.

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I am where I should be,
which is right by your side.

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How's your throat feeling?

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Still a little scratchy from the
stomach pump and the barfing.

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Ugh, it was like all six
months of my college bulimia

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happened in one day.

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That was sassy.

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Sassy... my girl is still sassy.

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Mama, what's gonna happen
when I get out of here?

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Tell you what, let's not
worry about that right now.

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Because you are doing
everything you're supposed to.

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You met with a doctor,

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that... very nice-looking Dr. Shin,

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or, as I like to call him, Dr. Dan.

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Or, even better, Dr. Damn...

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- because he is so cute.
- Hmm.

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You were honest and brave.

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And they said that in a couple of days,

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you can go home.

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But that's what I'm nervous about.

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Once I go home...

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how will things be different?

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I... will not let you leave
here without a plan.

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Okay.

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Hey, all. Thank you so
much for all your comments.

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Rebecca feels so encouraged and
she's making a lot of progress.

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I've read a lot of your comments to her

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and they really cheer her up.

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Now, get your liking fingers ready,

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because Rebecca is going home today.

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Yeah, she's talking to the
doctor, like, right now.

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One sec, guys, BRB.

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You ruin a shot again
and I will put you in ICU.

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He's just trying to go

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to the bathroom, and
it's right behind you.

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No, no, it-it's fine. I
can get out of the shot.

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I'll just crawl on the floor.
I'm sure they mop it frequently.

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Are you done talking?

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Rebecca's friends are waiting

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for their daily dose of inspiration.

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And they're gonna
think something is wrong

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or maybe feel upset, I don't know.

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Like I was saying, our little
Becky Girl is going home.

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Yay.

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You okay?

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Need me to wipe anything?

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Uh, no, it was weird
last time when you did that.

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Yeah, I shouldn't have looked you
right in the eyes. Copy that.

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Paula?

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I know exactly what's
gonna happen today.

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Dr. Shin, he's gonna
prescribe me a bunch of meds,

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like doctors always do,
and they're not gonna work,

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and I'm gonna end up back here.

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Wait, wait, wait.

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Let's give the guy a chance.

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Remember? Dr. Damn... is good people.

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Dr. Damn... it's funny
that you call him that.

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These are the moments
when I used to laugh.

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So, ha, ha, ha, ha.

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Hello, Rebecca.

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How we feeling today?
"We," sorry, that's lame doctor-talk.

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How are you feeling today?

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Um, I, um, all right.

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So, you're springing
our girl today.

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I can't wait to get
her back home with me.

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You two live together?

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Oh, no, no, no. No,
I live with my husband

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and kids, but you know,
my focus is Rebecca

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right now, so I will be

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driving her and staying with
her and sleeping in her bed.

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- In her bed?
- Yes.

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Oh, I'm sorry, have you never
had a best friend before?

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Because you should talk
to someone about that.

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O-Okay, so, um, all right,
Doc, tell me what to do.

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Um, first question, how
many meds am I gonna be on?

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Uh, can you give me the daytime
version of whatever it is?

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Because all of the other
meds I've been prescribed

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have made me numb or drowsy or...

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Actually, your treatment protocol
is not centered on medication.

255
00:10:39,862 --> 00:10:42,234
- Wait, what?
- Yeah, how is she supposed

256
00:10:42,236 --> 00:10:43,569
to get better with no medicine?

257
00:10:43,571 --> 00:10:46,472
Oh, there may be some, but
it's not the main focus.

258
00:10:46,474 --> 00:10:50,910
Rebecca, in my opinion, you've
been misdiagnosed over the years.

259
00:10:50,912 --> 00:10:53,875
It's one of the main reasons
you've been struggling.

260
00:10:53,900 --> 00:10:57,101
I think, with the right
diagnosis and treatment,

261
00:10:57,585 --> 00:10:58,884
you can get a lot better.

262
00:10:59,336 --> 00:11:01,587
Wait, so you have a
new diagnosis for me?

263
00:11:01,589 --> 00:11:03,689
So I'm not anxious or OCD

264
00:11:03,691 --> 00:11:05,090
or depressed or any of
the vague combo of things

265
00:11:05,092 --> 00:11:06,258
people have told me I am?

266
00:11:06,260 --> 00:11:08,761
- Oh-oh, my God. What am I?
- Great questions,

267
00:11:08,763 --> 00:11:10,396
but I don't want to
get ahead of treatment.

268
00:11:10,398 --> 00:11:12,423
Okay? We're gonna talk about all that

269
00:11:12,448 --> 00:11:15,267
and the steps towards your recovery
later today at the clinic.

270
00:11:15,269 --> 00:11:17,069
Wow, this is huge.

271
00:11:17,071 --> 00:11:19,405
- I'll see you then, okay?
- Okay.

272
00:11:19,407 --> 00:11:21,064
Bye.

273
00:11:21,242 --> 00:11:24,109
Paula, did you hear what he said?

274
00:11:24,111 --> 00:11:26,879
I have a new diagnosis. A new one.

275
00:11:26,881 --> 00:11:28,147
? ?

276
00:11:28,149 --> 00:11:29,648
He just opened up

277
00:11:29,650 --> 00:11:33,152
a whole new future of
possibilities for me.

278
00:11:33,154 --> 00:11:35,654
A new path for my life.

279
00:11:38,659 --> 00:11:41,894
? For almost 30 years, I've
known something was wrong ?

280
00:11:41,896 --> 00:11:43,762
? But Mom said weakness
causes bloating ?

281
00:11:43,764 --> 00:11:45,631
? So I tried to be strong ?

282
00:11:45,633 --> 00:11:47,199
? Fake it till you make it ?

283
00:11:47,201 --> 00:11:50,882
? That's how I got by ?

284
00:11:51,672 --> 00:11:53,572
? And when I tried
to find the reason ?

285
00:11:53,574 --> 00:11:55,407
? For my sadness and terror ?

286
00:11:55,409 --> 00:11:58,744
? All the solutions
were trial and error ?

287
00:11:58,746 --> 00:12:00,746
? Take this pill, say this chant ?

288
00:12:00,748 --> 00:12:04,650
? Move here for this guy ?

289
00:12:04,652 --> 00:12:08,420
? But now, there's
no need for regret ?

290
00:12:08,422 --> 00:12:10,689
? 'Cause I'm about to get ?

291
00:12:10,691 --> 00:12:14,159
? A diagnosis ?

292
00:12:14,161 --> 00:12:17,429
? A diagnosis ?

293
00:12:17,431 --> 00:12:23,736
? Don't tell me, "No,
sister, you don't fit in" ?

294
00:12:24,805 --> 00:12:28,340
? Doc, prescribe me my
tribe, give me my throng ?

295
00:12:28,342 --> 00:12:31,377
? Tell me that this
whole time I've belonged ?

296
00:12:31,379 --> 00:12:34,213
? With those other
people who share ?

297
00:12:34,215 --> 00:12:38,150
? My diagnosis ?

298
00:12:38,152 --> 00:12:41,286
? What could it be?
What could be right? ?

299
00:12:41,288 --> 00:12:44,790
? Schizophrenic or bipolar lite? ?

300
00:12:44,792 --> 00:12:46,291
? I've never heard voices ?

301
00:12:46,293 --> 00:12:48,727
? But maybe it's time to start... ?

302
00:12:48,729 --> 00:12:50,562
You're super cool, Rebecca.

303
00:12:50,564 --> 00:12:51,630
Thanks.

304
00:12:51,632 --> 00:12:52,998
? Obsessives with numbers ?

305
00:12:53,000 --> 00:12:55,134
? Hoarders with cats ?

306
00:12:55,136 --> 00:12:57,970
? I could really
rock a tinfoil hat ?

307
00:12:57,972 --> 00:13:01,407
? Perfect they're not,
but at least they know ?

308
00:13:01,409 --> 00:13:03,609
? Who they are ?

309
00:13:03,611 --> 00:13:04,743
_

310
00:13:04,745 --> 00:13:08,013
? No more bad pills,
fads or tricks ?

311
00:13:08,015 --> 00:13:11,850
? Who says there isn't an easy fix ?

312
00:13:11,852 --> 00:13:15,087
? With a diagnosis ?

313
00:13:15,089 --> 00:13:19,291
? I'm ready to blow this ?

314
00:13:19,293 --> 00:13:23,429
? Joint, and by joint, I mean
my inner sense of confusion ?

315
00:13:23,431 --> 00:13:25,597
- ? You said that confusingly ?
- Shh.

316
00:13:25,599 --> 00:13:28,801
? I'm aware mental
illness is stigmatized ?

317
00:13:28,803 --> 00:13:32,471
? But the stigma is worth
it if I've realized ?

318
00:13:32,473 --> 00:13:34,706
? Who I'm meant to be ?

319
00:13:34,708 --> 00:13:39,178
? Armed with my diagnosis ?

320
00:13:39,180 --> 00:13:41,013
? Oh, the doctors that I've met ?

321
00:13:41,015 --> 00:13:44,983
? Who didn't get me ?

322
00:13:44,985 --> 00:13:47,286
? This one naturopath ?

323
00:13:47,288 --> 00:13:51,924
? Used feathers to pet me ?

324
00:13:51,926 --> 00:13:54,960
? They said anxiety,
insomnia were my affliction ?

325
00:13:54,962 --> 00:13:58,730
? The naturopath said
it was sex addiction ?

326
00:13:58,732 --> 00:14:02,167
? But all those things
I knew I wasn't ?

327
00:14:02,169 --> 00:14:06,505
? Yes, I like penises,
but who doesn't? ?

328
00:14:06,507 --> 00:14:10,509
? So put me in a
bottle, slap a label on ?

329
00:14:10,511 --> 00:14:13,479
? List out the side effects,
then worries begone ?

330
00:14:13,481 --> 00:14:16,915
? 'Cause finally, I'll know this ?

331
00:14:16,917 --> 00:14:21,453
? My diagnosis! ?

332
00:14:21,455 --> 00:14:24,007
Welcome to your therapy, Rebecca.

333
00:14:28,679 --> 00:14:30,398
_

334
00:14:30,422 --> 00:14:31,906
Okay. Diagnosis time. Hit me.

335
00:14:31,930 --> 00:14:34,724
Okay. Now, it's
important to keep in mind

336
00:14:34,749 --> 00:14:37,483
that nobody's diagnosis is
simple or covers everything.

337
00:14:37,508 --> 00:14:39,175
- Yep, yep, yep, yep.
- It's also important

338
00:14:39,177 --> 00:14:41,771
to not look up the diagnosis online

339
00:14:41,796 --> 00:14:43,612
before we have a chance
to get into it, okay?

340
00:14:43,614 --> 00:14:45,233
Got it. I will not look up anything,

341
00:14:45,258 --> 00:14:46,791
if you don't want me
to. I'm a good student.

342
00:14:46,793 --> 00:14:48,960
I will stick to the
required reading, sir.

343
00:14:48,962 --> 00:14:52,563
Rebecca, I am noticing
how energetic you are.

344
00:14:52,565 --> 00:14:55,233
That's not uncommon
after a suicidal event.

345
00:14:55,729 --> 00:14:58,569
Too energetic. Sorry. Sorry, um, sorry.

346
00:14:58,571 --> 00:15:01,606
I'm-I'm calm now, this
is my calm, low voice.

347
00:15:01,631 --> 00:15:03,441
Okay, so,

348
00:15:03,443 --> 00:15:06,277
based on my conversation
with Dr. Akopian

349
00:15:06,279 --> 00:15:08,646
and our meetings at the hospital,

350
00:15:08,648 --> 00:15:12,517
it is my belief that, while
you do have some symptoms

351
00:15:12,519 --> 00:15:15,353
of anxiety, depression, OCD

352
00:15:15,355 --> 00:15:16,687
and possibly PTSD...

353
00:15:16,689 --> 00:15:17,922
Right. But I've heard
all those things before,

354
00:15:17,924 --> 00:15:20,158
- and you said this was a new thing.
- I'm still talking.

355
00:15:20,160 --> 00:15:21,893
- Sorry.
- It is my opinion

356
00:15:21,895 --> 00:15:24,195
that you exhibit many
of the characteristics

357
00:15:24,197 --> 00:15:27,265
of borderline personality disorder.

358
00:15:28,139 --> 00:15:31,084
Wow. O-Okay, um...

359
00:15:31,383 --> 00:15:34,184
First question... what is that?

360
00:15:34,374 --> 00:15:38,037
Well, a person with BPD
is essentially someone

361
00:15:38,062 --> 00:15:41,012
who has difficulty
regulating their emotions.

362
00:15:41,014 --> 00:15:45,416
Someone that lacks the
protective emotional skin

363
00:15:45,418 --> 00:15:47,552
to feel comfortable in the world.

364
00:15:47,554 --> 00:15:49,140
Wow.

365
00:15:49,483 --> 00:15:51,759
Um, just a couple questions, um...

366
00:15:51,784 --> 00:15:53,825
How did I get BPD? Is BPD curable?

367
00:15:53,827 --> 00:15:55,827
How serious is BPD?
Is BPD easy to fix?

368
00:15:55,829 --> 00:15:57,795
Is BPD genetic? Did I get
the BPD from my mother?

369
00:15:57,797 --> 00:15:59,630
I got it from my mother, right?
Again, just, like, rapid fire.

370
00:15:59,632 --> 00:16:01,632
Just, like, answer.
Don't think about it.

371
00:16:01,634 --> 00:16:03,434
Okay, I never fall for "rapid fire."

372
00:16:03,436 --> 00:16:06,771
Rebecca, I know you have a lot
of questions. I understand.

373
00:16:06,773 --> 00:16:08,840
And we'll talk about
it a lot more, luckily,

374
00:16:08,842 --> 00:16:11,108
in your group therapy, which
is where we're headed right now.

375
00:16:11,110 --> 00:16:13,077
So you're just gonna pull a
Yoda and not tell me anything

376
00:16:13,079 --> 00:16:15,279
I want to know before I'm
ready to know it, yeah?

377
00:16:15,281 --> 00:16:16,424
That's what this is?

378
00:16:16,950 --> 00:16:19,650
Hot-ass doctor, telling me not
to look things up online.

379
00:16:19,652 --> 00:16:21,152
Oh, I'm gonna look things up online,

380
00:16:21,154 --> 00:16:22,787
hot-ass doctor. All right.

381
00:16:22,789 --> 00:16:26,591
"What is borderline
personality disorder?"

382
00:16:30,174 --> 00:16:32,174
_

383
00:16:32,199 --> 00:16:34,199
_

384
00:16:34,224 --> 00:16:35,858
_

385
00:16:35,882 --> 00:16:37,592
_

386
00:16:37,617 --> 00:16:39,617
_

387
00:16:39,641 --> 00:16:41,641
_

388
00:16:41,741 --> 00:16:43,007
Nope.

389
00:16:43,009 --> 00:16:45,343
No. No, no, no. No.

390
00:16:45,345 --> 00:16:46,644
So, guys.

391
00:16:46,646 --> 00:16:47,745
Guys, guys, guys.

392
00:16:47,747 --> 00:16:49,780
Day five, part two.

393
00:16:49,782 --> 00:16:52,116
Rebecca is at the outpatient center

394
00:16:52,118 --> 00:16:53,751
getting wonderful treatment.

395
00:16:53,753 --> 00:16:55,553
And meanwhile, back at the ranch,

396
00:16:55,555 --> 00:16:59,156
we've stocked up on all of
her favorite... comfort carbs.

397
00:16:59,158 --> 00:17:01,459
My girl loves her sugar, salt and dough.

398
00:17:01,461 --> 00:17:03,828
Now, all of you supporters out there,

399
00:17:03,830 --> 00:17:06,063
Rebecca's big #Bunchafriends,

400
00:17:06,065 --> 00:17:08,799
I want you to know that
her heart is strong,

401
00:17:08,801 --> 00:17:10,501
her spirit is bright, and she...

402
00:17:10,503 --> 00:17:11,836
Did you tell all your bots

403
00:17:11,838 --> 00:17:13,871
that we had to take all
the knives out of the house?

404
00:17:13,873 --> 00:17:15,406
Also, maybe ask them if they know

405
00:17:15,408 --> 00:17:18,075
how to jailbreak an
avocado, because I do not.

406
00:17:18,077 --> 00:17:19,176
Heather, we're live.

407
00:17:19,178 --> 00:17:20,444
Okay.

408
00:17:20,446 --> 00:17:21,545
Oh, my God, guys, she's here.

409
00:17:21,547 --> 00:17:23,681
Guys, guys, guys, let's see how it went.

410
00:17:26,286 --> 00:17:30,154
Okay, let's put that away.

411
00:17:30,156 --> 00:17:34,525
So, um, I got the worst
diagnosis ever, basically, um...

412
00:17:34,527 --> 00:17:35,826
Yeah, I really hate it.

413
00:17:35,828 --> 00:17:38,529
It's, uh, called borderline
personality disorder,

414
00:17:38,531 --> 00:17:40,765
and I read two and a
half sentences about it,

415
00:17:40,767 --> 00:17:42,300
and they were the worst sentences ever,

416
00:17:42,302 --> 00:17:44,068
and I don't want to know any more.

417
00:17:44,070 --> 00:17:46,581
And it's all just awful.

418
00:17:49,909 --> 00:17:51,809
Oh, my God. Stop.

419
00:17:52,612 --> 00:17:56,013
"Wishing you the best

420
00:17:56,015 --> 00:17:59,517
"after your suicide attempt.

421
00:17:59,519 --> 00:18:03,287
"Yours, Nathaniel J. Plimpton III,

422
00:18:03,289 --> 00:18:05,022
Esquire."

423
00:18:07,961 --> 00:18:09,446
Yeah.

424
00:18:29,415 --> 00:18:31,382
What's up, boss?

425
00:18:31,384 --> 00:18:32,984
Uh, nothing.

426
00:18:32,986 --> 00:18:36,732
Uh, just had a little
weird déjà vu moment.

427
00:18:37,090 --> 00:18:38,589
So glad you called me in...

428
00:18:38,591 --> 00:18:41,092
- I did no such thing.
- ... because we are planning

429
00:18:41,094 --> 00:18:43,160
to visit Rebecca at home this weekend.

430
00:18:43,162 --> 00:18:46,263
I'm kind of nervous,
'cause I'm terrible with death.

431
00:18:46,265 --> 00:18:47,765
When I was a kid, my dog died.

432
00:18:47,767 --> 00:18:52,343
- I was the one who found him,
- all, like, splayed out,

433
00:18:52,952 --> 00:18:55,906
eyes rolled into the back of his head,

434
00:18:55,908 --> 00:18:57,475
his tongue hanging out.

435
00:18:57,477 --> 00:18:58,809
It's, like, burned into my brain...

436
00:18:58,811 --> 00:18:59,944
Stop it!

437
00:18:59,946 --> 00:19:01,679
Oh.

438
00:19:01,681 --> 00:19:03,014
I'm sorry.

439
00:19:03,016 --> 00:19:04,682
Don't worry about me.

440
00:19:04,684 --> 00:19:07,518
I'm a cat guy now.
I have a cat named Andromeda...

441
00:19:07,520 --> 00:19:09,053
I got to go.

442
00:19:09,055 --> 00:19:10,287
Are... you...

443
00:19:10,289 --> 00:19:11,555
Just get out of my office.

444
00:19:11,557 --> 00:19:13,057
Okay, well.

445
00:19:14,228 --> 00:19:17,628
So you didn't go to group
therapy, you just blew it off?

446
00:19:17,630 --> 00:19:18,863
No, I didn't go.

447
00:19:18,865 --> 00:19:20,587
I was too upset.

448
00:19:20,967 --> 00:19:24,635
I mean, I don't have an illness,
I have a personality disorder.

449
00:19:24,892 --> 00:19:28,305
It's not something I
have, it's something I am.

450
00:19:28,307 --> 00:19:30,908
This is what I've feared
my whole life. I'm broken.

451
00:19:30,910 --> 00:19:34,311
Honey, what did I say to
you over and over in the car?

452
00:19:34,313 --> 00:19:35,479
You are not broken.

453
00:19:35,481 --> 00:19:36,714
You're wonderful.

454
00:19:36,716 --> 00:19:37,882
She's right.

455
00:19:37,884 --> 00:19:40,251
You are an inspiration
to hundreds of people.

456
00:19:40,253 --> 00:19:42,720
There is a Facebook group in Venezuela

457
00:19:42,722 --> 00:19:44,755
that's completely devoted to you.

458
00:19:44,757 --> 00:19:47,324
It's called El Buncho Valiente.

459
00:19:47,326 --> 00:19:49,393
Oh, my God, seriously, stop.

460
00:19:49,395 --> 00:19:52,263
Okay, listen, Rebecca, if you
hate this diagnosis so much,

461
00:19:52,265 --> 00:19:55,132
then, let's get a second opinion.

462
00:19:55,398 --> 00:19:57,268
Second opinions are very common.

463
00:19:57,270 --> 00:19:59,070
And, you know, this new doctor,

464
00:19:59,072 --> 00:20:00,805
he just met you.

465
00:20:00,807 --> 00:20:02,406
He doesn't know you yet.

466
00:20:02,408 --> 00:20:04,275
And who says we just have to sit here

467
00:20:04,277 --> 00:20:07,311
and accept his diagnosis
with a capital "D"?

468
00:20:07,313 --> 00:20:09,547
We don't have to just take his "D."

469
00:20:09,549 --> 00:20:11,015
Who says his "D" is so great?

470
00:20:11,017 --> 00:20:12,550
No, you're right. He
should get to know me better

471
00:20:12,552 --> 00:20:14,318
before he shoves his
"D" down my throat.

472
00:20:14,320 --> 00:20:15,553
Yeah. What we should do,

473
00:20:15,555 --> 00:20:17,254
is get another "D."

474
00:20:17,256 --> 00:20:19,323
And then we'll have two Ds.

475
00:20:19,325 --> 00:20:20,758
You know, one here, and one there,

476
00:20:20,760 --> 00:20:22,059
and we'll just...

477
00:20:22,061 --> 00:20:25,929
- figure out which "D" you like better.
- Okay, let's calm down.

478
00:20:25,954 --> 00:20:29,233
Rebecca, we can ask Dr. Akopian.

479
00:20:29,235 --> 00:20:32,236
Oh, my God, Paula, you're totally right.

480
00:20:32,238 --> 00:20:33,871
I mean, she knows me
way better than Dr. Shin,

481
00:20:33,873 --> 00:20:36,807
and she never said anything
about a personality disorder.

482
00:20:36,809 --> 00:20:38,509
I mean, she likes me a lot.

483
00:20:38,511 --> 00:20:41,779
I-I thought Dr. Akopian
consulted with Dr. Damn

484
00:20:41,781 --> 00:20:43,581
on your diagnosis?

485
00:20:43,583 --> 00:20:45,850
She may have, but... no.

486
00:20:45,852 --> 00:20:48,152
I-If she knew how much
I hated this diagnosis,

487
00:20:48,154 --> 00:20:50,254
and how upset it was
making me, she'd be pissed.

488
00:20:50,256 --> 00:20:52,223
I mean, Dr. Akopian only
wants me to be happy,

489
00:20:52,225 --> 00:20:54,204
and this is not what happy feels like.

490
00:20:54,229 --> 00:20:56,594
All right. Let's go. I'll drive.

491
00:20:56,596 --> 00:20:58,462
Okay.

492
00:20:58,464 --> 00:21:00,564
I do recommend an appointment.

493
00:21:00,566 --> 00:21:02,867
Maybe don't crawl
through her doggie door.

494
00:21:02,869 --> 00:21:07,037
Hmm. How do I spin this
for the worldwide audience?

495
00:21:08,307 --> 00:21:09,440
Oh...

496
00:21:14,247 --> 00:21:15,579
Father. Mother.

497
00:21:15,581 --> 00:21:17,248
Nathaniel, martini time
cannot be interrupted.

498
00:21:17,250 --> 00:21:18,649
The timing is crucial.

499
00:21:18,651 --> 00:21:19,950
That skin of ice on the top,

500
00:21:19,952 --> 00:21:21,352
it melts in seconds.
Melts. I know, I know.

501
00:21:21,354 --> 00:21:23,187
Oh, it's okay, darling.
He came all this way.

502
00:21:23,189 --> 00:21:24,388
What is it, Nathaniel?

503
00:21:24,390 --> 00:21:25,744
W-Would you like a martini?

504
00:21:25,769 --> 00:21:29,426
- No, no. I need answers.
- I don't like your tone.

505
00:21:29,744 --> 00:21:31,061
Mom.

506
00:21:31,455 --> 00:21:33,898
When I was ten, did you
try to kill yourself?

507
00:21:34,507 --> 00:21:36,340
Not now, Bernice!

508
00:21:37,547 --> 00:21:38,880
Did you?

509
00:21:45,643 --> 00:21:47,677
I have this... memory.

510
00:21:47,679 --> 00:21:50,012
I was ten years old, and I
heard something fall over.

511
00:21:50,014 --> 00:21:52,315
And I went to your room, and I saw you,

512
00:21:52,317 --> 00:21:55,528
Mom, passed out on the floor.
And your eyes

513
00:21:55,553 --> 00:21:58,321
were rolling back in your head.
And I tried to wake you up...

514
00:21:58,323 --> 00:21:59,422
Nathaniel, enough.

515
00:21:59,424 --> 00:22:00,823
And Dad told me to go
to my room, and I did.

516
00:22:00,825 --> 00:22:03,359
And then the next thing
I know, you were gone

517
00:22:03,361 --> 00:22:05,094
for, like, a month. And everyone said,

518
00:22:05,096 --> 00:22:06,763
"Don't talk about it.
Don't ask questions."

519
00:22:06,765 --> 00:22:08,097
So I didn't.

520
00:22:08,787 --> 00:22:10,733
But now I really need
to know what happened.

521
00:22:10,735 --> 00:22:12,268
You know what happened.

522
00:22:12,270 --> 00:22:14,470
Your mother had the
flu and got dehydrated,

523
00:22:14,472 --> 00:22:16,229
so she went sailing for a month

524
00:22:16,254 --> 00:22:19,041
- with your Aunt Sissy in Rhode Island.
- That's right.

525
00:22:19,043 --> 00:22:21,377
I brought you back that
anchor key chain, remember?

526
00:22:21,379 --> 00:22:23,731
It wasn't the flu. Come on.

527
00:22:23,756 --> 00:22:25,989
There were sleeping
pills. There was a bottle

528
00:22:26,014 --> 00:22:28,418
of pills on your nightstand,
and you wouldn't wake up.

529
00:22:28,420 --> 00:22:30,653
We told you what happened.
This conversation is over.

530
00:22:30,655 --> 00:22:32,287
It's not over.

531
00:22:33,224 --> 00:22:35,992
Look, I need to know the truth.

532
00:22:35,994 --> 00:22:37,660
My friend just tried to kill herself,

533
00:22:37,662 --> 00:22:39,228
and I can't reach out to her at all,

534
00:22:39,230 --> 00:22:41,197
because every time I think about her,

535
00:22:41,199 --> 00:22:43,900
I picture this... lifeless body.

536
00:22:43,925 --> 00:22:45,752
And it makes me think of you that night.

537
00:22:45,777 --> 00:22:48,908
And I get panicked and I can't breathe.

538
00:22:48,933 --> 00:22:50,500
And I don't know what that is.

539
00:22:50,502 --> 00:22:53,136
And, I'm sorry, also, who
goes sailing for a month

540
00:22:53,138 --> 00:22:54,804
when they have the
flu? That's not a thing.

541
00:22:54,806 --> 00:22:56,105
That's a terrible lie.

542
00:22:56,107 --> 00:22:59,842
- Please tell me the truth.
- Nathaniel, stop this now.

543
00:22:59,844 --> 00:23:01,778
This isn't how we raised you.

544
00:23:02,958 --> 00:23:04,539
Mom?

545
00:23:07,578 --> 00:23:08,951
Please.

546
00:23:09,484 --> 00:23:12,588
Oh, Nathaniel, I hate
to see you so upset.

547
00:23:12,804 --> 00:23:16,659
But it's-it's just so
unpleasant to dredge up the past.

548
00:23:16,661 --> 00:23:18,428
Now,

549
00:23:18,430 --> 00:23:20,096
why don't you join us for dinner.

550
00:23:20,098 --> 00:23:21,431
We're having lamb tonight.

551
00:23:21,433 --> 00:23:23,499
And-and then you can
come out and see my roses.

552
00:23:23,501 --> 00:23:24,467
They're looking

553
00:23:24,469 --> 00:23:25,501
so healthy...

554
00:23:25,503 --> 00:23:26,869
Will you please just answer me?!

555
00:23:31,609 --> 00:23:34,944
I think I'd better go lie down.

556
00:23:34,946 --> 00:23:37,246
I suddenly have a terrible headache.

557
00:23:38,068 --> 00:23:39,958
Mom, I'm sorry. I...

558
00:23:42,716 --> 00:23:43,989
You upset her.

559
00:23:44,716 --> 00:23:45,822
Something's happened to you

560
00:23:45,824 --> 00:23:48,024
since you started working
in that new office.

561
00:23:48,026 --> 00:23:49,759
You're getting peppery,

562
00:23:49,761 --> 00:23:51,894
and I don't use that word lightly.

563
00:23:51,896 --> 00:23:55,062
Now, congratulations,
you've ruined our evening.

564
00:23:55,087 --> 00:23:57,366
And we were having lamb.

565
00:23:57,368 --> 00:23:58,952
Get out of my house.

566
00:24:02,273 --> 00:24:05,708
So, guys, I want to
send a special thank you

567
00:24:05,710 --> 00:24:07,643
to Shimmer Glimmer
Cosmetics for sending over

568
00:24:07,645 --> 00:24:10,747
those amazing and gorgeous
lip glosses to Rebecca.

569
00:24:10,749 --> 00:24:14,650
I'm wearing one right now,
and she is going to love them.

570
00:24:14,652 --> 00:24:15,952
There's nothing wrong
with a little pampering

571
00:24:15,954 --> 00:24:17,820
in a tough time... Just
plain ol' self-care.

572
00:24:17,822 --> 00:24:19,622
And, remember, if you
don't like the shade,

573
00:24:19,624 --> 00:24:21,157
Shimmer Glimmer will
send you a different one

574
00:24:21,159 --> 00:24:22,658
- for free... Wait. Okay.
- No, that's enough. I've had it.

575
00:24:22,660 --> 00:24:25,084
- Wait, no!
- I've had it. I'm going to murder you.

576
00:24:25,109 --> 00:24:27,196
What is wrong with you?

577
00:24:27,198 --> 00:24:30,299
You're using your friend's
crisis to get swag?

578
00:24:30,770 --> 00:24:33,669
I mean, not to judge, V, like, at all,

579
00:24:33,671 --> 00:24:36,639
but what you're doing is
pathetic and vain and stupid

580
00:24:36,641 --> 00:24:39,245
and cringey and trendy
and selfish and basic.

581
00:24:39,270 --> 00:24:41,711
Oh, my God. Wait, hold up.

582
00:24:41,713 --> 00:24:43,346
You think this is about me?

583
00:24:43,348 --> 00:24:45,948
- Yes.
- Are you blind?

584
00:24:45,950 --> 00:24:49,652
This has way transcended any one person.

585
00:24:49,654 --> 00:24:52,155
Rebecca's story and her courage

586
00:24:52,157 --> 00:24:54,257
and my courage sharing her courage

587
00:24:54,259 --> 00:24:56,359
is inspiring an entire movement.

588
00:24:56,600 --> 00:24:58,427
And that's what people want to feel...

589
00:24:58,429 --> 00:25:00,763
Inspired, not sad.

590
00:25:00,765 --> 00:25:02,365
And that is what I give them...

591
00:25:02,367 --> 00:25:04,233
Hope and joy

592
00:25:04,235 --> 00:25:06,469
and, yes, makeup tips and gorgeous hair.

593
00:25:06,471 --> 00:25:07,804
Oh, my God, you're so full of it.

594
00:25:07,806 --> 00:25:09,972
You're, like, so full of crap.

595
00:25:09,974 --> 00:25:11,741
No, I'm not.

596
00:25:11,743 --> 00:25:13,676
I'm full of something else.

597
00:25:13,678 --> 00:25:15,773
? ?

598
00:25:29,360 --> 00:25:32,128
? There's a rumbling within me ?

599
00:25:32,130 --> 00:25:34,630
? Something I just can't ignore ?

600
00:25:34,632 --> 00:25:37,600
? I thought I could contain it ?

601
00:25:37,602 --> 00:25:40,870
? I can't hold it in anymore ?

602
00:25:40,872 --> 00:25:43,539
? It started as just a trickle ?

603
00:25:43,541 --> 00:25:46,042
? Loose and undefined ?

604
00:25:46,044 --> 00:25:48,644
? Now it's starting to solidify ?

605
00:25:48,646 --> 00:25:53,416
? Into something we
can all get behind ?

606
00:25:53,418 --> 00:25:56,385
? This is my movement ?

607
00:25:56,387 --> 00:25:59,722
? Can't stop this movement ?

608
00:25:59,724 --> 00:26:02,391
? It's coming out fast
in a powerful blast ?

609
00:26:02,393 --> 00:26:04,227
? From deep inside of me ?

610
00:26:04,229 --> 00:26:06,996
? Like an explosion ?

611
00:26:06,998 --> 00:26:09,966
? Of built-up emotion ?

612
00:26:09,968 --> 00:26:12,101
? Oh, I wanna scream and shout ?

613
00:26:12,103 --> 00:26:13,302
? I got to let it out ?

614
00:26:13,304 --> 00:26:17,907
? 'Cause this movement
is bigger than me ?

615
00:26:17,909 --> 00:26:21,377
? My movement's getting stronger ?

616
00:26:21,379 --> 00:26:24,413
? There's no containing it ?

617
00:26:24,415 --> 00:26:27,416
? I can't wait any longer ?

618
00:26:27,418 --> 00:26:30,186
? I've really, really got to ?

619
00:26:30,188 --> 00:26:32,922
? Sh... ine a light on this issue ?

620
00:26:32,924 --> 00:26:34,323
? ?

621
00:26:37,962 --> 00:26:40,062
? I know what you mean ?

622
00:26:40,064 --> 00:26:43,966
? I work at a hotline
for suicidal teens ?

623
00:26:43,968 --> 00:26:45,635
What's your hashtag?

624
00:26:45,637 --> 00:26:47,403
We don't have one. It's a call center.

625
00:26:47,405 --> 00:26:49,305
Yeah, that's not a movement.

626
00:26:49,307 --> 00:26:52,208
? Mine is a movement ?

627
00:26:52,210 --> 00:26:56,178
? A big ol' stinky movement, oh ?

628
00:26:56,180 --> 00:26:59,115
? It's gonna be a beauty,
'cause it's my duty ?

629
00:26:59,117 --> 00:27:01,951
? To spread it all over the world ?

630
00:27:01,953 --> 00:27:03,386
? I'm gonna spread it ?

631
00:27:03,388 --> 00:27:08,190
? All over the world. ?

632
00:27:08,947 --> 00:27:11,594
It sounds like you're
just talking about poop.

633
00:27:11,596 --> 00:27:12,528
What? No.

634
00:27:12,530 --> 00:27:14,384
I rarely poop. It's been a month.

635
00:27:14,866 --> 00:27:16,699
? ?

636
00:27:22,250 --> 00:27:24,968
So, I'm glad to see you here again.

637
00:27:24,993 --> 00:27:27,793
How has everything been
going? How are you feeling?

638
00:27:27,795 --> 00:27:30,234
Uh, not great. Still have
the same problem.

639
00:27:30,698 --> 00:27:34,233
I'm so happy, and I feel
so good all the time.

640
00:27:34,235 --> 00:27:36,029
And that's hard, because

641
00:27:36,068 --> 00:27:37,968
I know not everyone feels that way.

642
00:27:37,970 --> 00:27:40,904
- And that makes me sad.
- I hear you.

643
00:27:40,906 --> 00:27:42,305
And that's wonderful.

644
00:27:42,307 --> 00:27:44,975
But maybe we could circle back
to what you told me last week.

645
00:27:44,977 --> 00:27:46,943
About your mother shooting
your father in cold blood

646
00:27:46,945 --> 00:27:48,244
in front of you on your birthday.

647
00:27:48,246 --> 00:27:49,679
Oh, I've moved beyond that.

648
00:27:50,649 --> 00:27:52,816
Dr. Akopian, we need to talk to you.

649
00:27:52,818 --> 00:27:55,485
Excuse me. You can't
just burst into my office.

650
00:27:55,487 --> 00:27:56,886
It's okay. It's fine.

651
00:27:56,888 --> 00:27:58,462
Rebecca tried to kill herself.

652
00:27:58,487 --> 00:28:01,191
She needs this more than
I do. Really, I'm good.

653
00:28:01,193 --> 00:28:02,726
- Like I said.
- See?

654
00:28:02,728 --> 00:28:05,095
- Kevin is fine with it.
- Go get 'em, champ.

655
00:28:05,097 --> 00:28:08,131
Me and all the Bunchafriends,
we're cheering you on.

656
00:28:08,133 --> 00:28:09,831
No! Kevin!

657
00:28:11,169 --> 00:28:13,136
Why, Mommy, why?!

658
00:28:13,138 --> 00:28:15,773
Rebecca, this is highly inappropriate.

659
00:28:15,798 --> 00:28:18,541
I'm so sorry. I know, I
know. But it's an emergency.

660
00:28:18,543 --> 00:28:20,510
- I think I've been misdiagnosed.
- Yeah.

661
00:28:20,512 --> 00:28:23,079
They told her she had some
stupid personality thing.

662
00:28:23,081 --> 00:28:25,348
Okay, and I know that
Dr. Shin consulted with you,

663
00:28:25,350 --> 00:28:27,517
but I think he tricked you
into giving me that diagnosis

664
00:28:27,519 --> 00:28:29,419
by mansplaining you into it.

665
00:28:29,421 --> 00:28:32,288
Rebecca, did you talk to Dr. Shin?

666
00:28:32,290 --> 00:28:35,125
- Did you go to your group therapy?
- No, I did not.

667
00:28:35,127 --> 00:28:37,127
Because I don't want to
hear any more about it.

668
00:28:37,129 --> 00:28:39,095
I know it's wrong. I know
in my heart it's wrong.

669
00:28:39,097 --> 00:28:40,897
So just give me a new thing,
okay? Give me the thing I know

670
00:28:40,899 --> 00:28:43,166
you want to give me. Right?
'Cause it's a better thing.

671
00:28:44,903 --> 00:28:45,802
One, two, three, go.

672
00:28:45,804 --> 00:28:47,404
So, um,

673
00:28:47,406 --> 00:28:48,571
okay, I'm ready.

674
00:28:48,573 --> 00:28:50,707
Give it to me straight.

675
00:28:50,709 --> 00:28:52,609
What is Rebecca saying about me?

676
00:28:52,611 --> 00:28:54,044
I've been there basically every day.

677
00:28:54,046 --> 00:28:55,645
Haven't heard your name once.

678
00:28:55,647 --> 00:28:56,813
You don't have to shield me.

679
00:28:56,815 --> 00:28:58,248
I can take it.

680
00:28:58,506 --> 00:29:02,018
I am responsible for someone
almost taking their life.

681
00:29:02,194 --> 00:29:04,554
Look, from what I picked
up in the hospital...

682
00:29:04,556 --> 00:29:06,189
And I'm in the inner circle;

683
00:29:06,191 --> 00:29:07,724
I provide snacks, advice,

684
00:29:07,726 --> 00:29:10,160
and an outlet for
Valencia's aggression...

685
00:29:10,162 --> 00:29:12,095
Being suicidal has nothing to do

686
00:29:12,097 --> 00:29:14,130
with any one life event or person.

687
00:29:14,132 --> 00:29:17,000
It's more of a general
mental illness thing.

688
00:29:17,002 --> 00:29:19,335
Um, yeah. Well, Rebecca
has been obsessed with me

689
00:29:19,337 --> 00:29:21,738
since she was 16. I ruined her.

690
00:29:21,740 --> 00:29:24,974
Suicide is a cardinal sin,
and I almost sin-assisted.

691
00:29:24,976 --> 00:29:26,309
No, this is on me, man.

692
00:29:26,311 --> 00:29:27,977
I-I've got to do something,

693
00:29:27,979 --> 00:29:29,946
see Rebecca, make things right.

694
00:29:30,949 --> 00:29:32,315
Or you don't.

695
00:29:32,317 --> 00:29:33,349
Or I do.

696
00:29:33,351 --> 00:29:34,350
Or you really don't.

697
00:29:34,352 --> 00:29:35,218
I do, though.

698
00:29:35,220 --> 00:29:36,586
I don't think you really do.

699
00:29:36,588 --> 00:29:39,022
Except that I do, I think.

700
00:29:39,024 --> 00:29:40,056
I don't think so.

701
00:29:40,058 --> 00:29:41,591
Rebecca, it sounds

702
00:29:41,593 --> 00:29:44,828
like you don't have accurate
information about borderline.

703
00:29:44,830 --> 00:29:47,997
Dr. Shin asked you not
to look it up online,

704
00:29:47,999 --> 00:29:50,700
- but I'm suspecting that you did.
- So what?

705
00:29:50,702 --> 00:29:52,635
Yeah, I did. So what? All right.

706
00:29:52,637 --> 00:29:55,139
Why don't we take a sec
and look at the checklist,

707
00:29:55,164 --> 00:29:56,773
see if anything resonates.

708
00:29:56,775 --> 00:29:58,475
- What checklist?
- To determine

709
00:29:58,477 --> 00:30:00,610
whether or not a person has BPD.

710
00:30:02,124 --> 00:30:05,715
A checklist sounds like
homework. You like homework.

711
00:30:05,717 --> 00:30:07,984
Wait, why don't we just hear
it and then see what we think?

712
00:30:07,986 --> 00:30:10,285
I mean, I am right here.
I am right next to you.

713
00:30:10,310 --> 00:30:12,522
Yes, you are.

714
00:30:12,524 --> 00:30:14,724
Which is a whole nother
thing we should talk about.

715
00:30:14,726 --> 00:30:16,126
- I don't... I don't...
- All right,

716
00:30:16,128 --> 00:30:18,461
in order to receive a diagnosis for BPD,

717
00:30:18,463 --> 00:30:20,530
a person has to have at least five

718
00:30:20,532 --> 00:30:22,565
of the following nine tendencies.

719
00:30:22,567 --> 00:30:24,334
Just keep an open mind.

720
00:30:24,336 --> 00:30:27,337
Okay? Okay, the first one is

721
00:30:27,339 --> 00:30:29,906
severe mood swings.

722
00:30:29,908 --> 00:30:31,474
? ?

723
00:30:31,476 --> 00:30:33,376
Well, we'll see about that.

724
00:30:34,546 --> 00:30:36,913
We'll see about that.

725
00:30:37,829 --> 00:30:40,483
Profound fear of abandonment.

726
00:30:40,875 --> 00:30:43,609
Josh. Hey, no, Josh!

727
00:30:44,343 --> 00:30:47,223
Instability in relationships.

728
00:30:47,225 --> 00:30:50,226
It's like you think I'm your
daughter or something, but I'm not.

729
00:30:51,563 --> 00:30:53,554
Unstable sense of identity.

730
00:30:53,579 --> 00:30:56,266
I don't know who I am if
you're not in my life anymore.

731
00:30:57,572 --> 00:31:00,807
Paranoia or dissociative episodes.

732
00:31:01,106 --> 00:31:03,106
What? Robert.

733
00:31:03,108 --> 00:31:04,108
No!

734
00:31:05,810 --> 00:31:08,011
Excessive and frequent anger.

735
00:31:08,013 --> 00:31:09,646
Stop running, you coward!

736
00:31:10,982 --> 00:31:13,116
Feelings of emptiness.

737
00:31:13,118 --> 00:31:16,019
My womb is empty, like my life.

738
00:31:17,522 --> 00:31:18,955
Impulsive behavior.

739
00:31:24,444 --> 00:31:25,895
And, finally,

740
00:31:25,897 --> 00:31:30,033
recurring suicide threats or attempts.

741
00:31:31,818 --> 00:31:33,816
Oh, my God.

742
00:31:34,773 --> 00:31:35,939
I know.

743
00:31:35,941 --> 00:31:37,540
So not you, right?

744
00:31:38,843 --> 00:31:40,410
Paula,

745
00:31:40,511 --> 00:31:42,344
all those things were me.

746
00:31:43,051 --> 00:31:45,574
I don't have five... I have nine.

747
00:31:58,897 --> 00:32:01,635
Hey. How'd it go?
Did you get a new diagnosis?

748
00:32:01,660 --> 00:32:03,433
No. Uh, same one.

749
00:32:03,435 --> 00:32:05,826
But it's right.

750
00:32:06,357 --> 00:32:09,739
Yeah, the verdict's in.
I am officially, medically,

751
00:32:09,741 --> 00:32:12,990
certifiably "crazy."

752
00:32:13,378 --> 00:32:15,445
Well, no one said anything about crazy.

753
00:32:15,447 --> 00:32:19,048
Um, so, look, I-I
appreciate everyone's support.

754
00:32:19,050 --> 00:32:20,650
And I love you guys. I really do. But...

755
00:32:20,652 --> 00:32:23,762
I'm very tired, so...
I'm just gonna go to bed.

756
00:32:25,614 --> 00:32:26,926
Alone.

757
00:32:36,925 --> 00:32:39,392
I'm sure she just needs to rest.

758
00:32:51,755 --> 00:32:53,942
Good morning, Mother.
Nathaniel, you're back.

759
00:32:54,255 --> 00:32:55,988
I waited for Dad to leave.

760
00:32:56,575 --> 00:32:58,153
Mom, I came back

761
00:32:58,155 --> 00:32:59,487
because I wanted to apologize

762
00:32:59,489 --> 00:33:01,122
for how I acted last night.

763
00:33:01,124 --> 00:33:02,691
Oh, no, that's okay.

764
00:33:02,693 --> 00:33:04,459
I know you don't like
to rehash the past,

765
00:33:04,461 --> 00:33:06,040
and I respect that.

766
00:33:07,181 --> 00:33:10,081
I'm not trying to make
you feel bad, really.

767
00:33:10,986 --> 00:33:14,939
I know we don't say this stuff
in our house, but...

768
00:33:19,684 --> 00:33:21,828
I love you, Mom.

769
00:33:22,245 --> 00:33:25,608
And I want you to know
that if you ever need me,

770
00:33:25,918 --> 00:33:27,651
I'm here.

771
00:33:29,578 --> 00:33:31,077
And you're right...

772
00:33:31,298 --> 00:33:33,264
These roses, they really are beautiful.

773
00:33:36,656 --> 00:33:38,210
Nathaniel, wait.

774
00:33:41,161 --> 00:33:44,869
When you were ten, I was
going through a hard time.

775
00:33:46,576 --> 00:33:49,251
I made a mistake with my sleeping pills.

776
00:33:50,580 --> 00:33:52,036
Then I went away for a while

777
00:33:52,038 --> 00:33:55,908
to a place where I learned
to sleep without pills.

778
00:33:57,877 --> 00:34:02,298
There was some sailing there. Not much.

779
00:34:03,793 --> 00:34:05,705
Anyway, you're right.

780
00:34:06,142 --> 00:34:07,685
I should have told you.

781
00:34:09,275 --> 00:34:10,421
Wow.

782
00:34:14,727 --> 00:34:16,527
Did we just have a talk?

783
00:34:17,469 --> 00:34:20,031
I think we did.

784
00:34:20,033 --> 00:34:23,034
- Don't tell your father.
- Oh, no, I won't.

785
00:34:23,036 --> 00:34:25,727
Do you want to take some of
these roses to your friend?

786
00:34:26,302 --> 00:34:28,168
I think she'd like them.

787
00:34:35,215 --> 00:34:36,814
What are you guys doing?

788
00:34:36,816 --> 00:34:39,150
Oh...

789
00:34:39,152 --> 00:34:41,052
Um, just having a sleepover.

790
00:34:41,332 --> 00:34:44,722
Yeah, the floor's so
cozy, I slept great.

791
00:34:44,724 --> 00:34:46,691
All right, guys,
sorry, I got to pee, so,

792
00:34:46,693 --> 00:34:49,560
- I've just got to...
- Oh.

793
00:34:49,562 --> 00:34:52,430
- All right, just watch your step.
- O-Okay.

794
00:34:54,850 --> 00:34:57,001
I can go to the bathroom by myself.

795
00:34:57,475 --> 00:34:59,737
- Yeah, I mean, sure.
- Totally.

796
00:34:59,739 --> 00:35:00,771
- Mm-hmm.
- Yeah.

797
00:35:00,773 --> 00:35:02,473
Yeah.

798
00:35:05,535 --> 00:35:07,568
Okay, we can't do this.

799
00:35:08,047 --> 00:35:09,547
She's gonna sleep, she's
gonna go to the bathroom,

800
00:35:09,549 --> 00:35:11,449
she's gonna cut bagels...
We have to get used to it.

801
00:35:11,451 --> 00:35:13,751
Oh, my God, I just remembered.

802
00:35:13,753 --> 00:35:15,353
I left toenail clippers in there.

803
00:35:15,355 --> 00:35:17,455
You clip your nails at my house?

804
00:35:17,457 --> 00:35:18,990
My toenails grow really fast,

805
00:35:18,992 --> 00:35:20,291
and they're super-thick
so I carry these

806
00:35:20,293 --> 00:35:21,759
heavy-duty nail clippers on me.

807
00:35:21,761 --> 00:35:23,928
Okay, okay, let's just, like, calm down.

808
00:35:23,930 --> 00:35:25,463
She's not, like, gonna kill herself

809
00:35:25,465 --> 00:35:28,432
- with your nasty, oversized clippers.
- All right.

810
00:35:28,434 --> 00:35:29,634
Let's calm down.

811
00:35:29,636 --> 00:35:31,369
And I'm just, I'm knocking on the door

812
00:35:31,371 --> 00:35:33,703
and see if she's okay, that's all.

813
00:35:35,441 --> 00:35:36,578
Rebecca?

814
00:35:41,381 --> 00:35:42,980
Becca?

815
00:35:45,652 --> 00:35:47,251
Becky?

816
00:35:47,253 --> 00:35:51,255
Okay, she's not answering.

817
00:35:51,257 --> 00:35:54,592
? Yes, no on the crazy ?

818
00:35:54,594 --> 00:35:57,461
? We hope this helps. ?

819
00:35:57,735 --> 00:35:59,263
What?

820
00:35:59,265 --> 00:36:01,265
She never locks the bathroom door.

821
00:36:01,267 --> 00:36:02,934
Heather's right. Let's not panic.

822
00:36:02,936 --> 00:36:04,569
Okay, all right.

823
00:36:04,571 --> 00:36:06,037
What are you doing?

824
00:36:06,039 --> 00:36:08,406
This is my intruder ax. I
can't just stand out here.

825
00:36:08,408 --> 00:36:10,007
I thought you put all
the sharp things away.

826
00:36:10,009 --> 00:36:11,642
I live in a famous murder house.

827
00:36:11,644 --> 00:36:13,077
You think I don't have an ax?

828
00:36:13,079 --> 00:36:14,212
Do it! Do it!

829
00:36:14,214 --> 00:36:16,314
- Just chop it down.
- Just chop it...

830
00:36:20,587 --> 00:36:22,253
Hey, girl.

831
00:36:22,255 --> 00:36:24,046
How was your pee?

832
00:36:30,230 --> 00:36:32,683
What is going on?

833
00:36:32,708 --> 00:36:35,542
Okay, so we may have
been a touch worried.

834
00:36:35,544 --> 00:36:37,911
You didn't answer the
door when we knocked.

835
00:36:37,913 --> 00:36:39,146
I had ear-buds in.

836
00:36:39,488 --> 00:36:41,615
- Oh, ear-buds.
- Ear-buds, right.

837
00:36:41,617 --> 00:36:43,934
In your ears, so you couldn't...

838
00:36:43,959 --> 00:36:45,168
Makes total sense.

839
00:36:45,587 --> 00:36:47,654
I'm sorry to worry you
guys. Look, I was in there

840
00:36:47,656 --> 00:36:49,156
doing this thing that I sometimes do

841
00:36:49,158 --> 00:36:50,857
to make sense of things, I was...

842
00:36:50,859 --> 00:36:54,127
listening to music and
watching music videos and, yeah.

843
00:36:54,129 --> 00:36:56,463
Oh, yeah, cool, because we just thought

844
00:36:56,465 --> 00:37:00,300
you were killing yourself.

845
00:37:01,196 --> 00:37:04,137
We thought you were dead.

846
00:37:04,139 --> 00:37:06,439
We thought we were gonna open the door,

847
00:37:06,441 --> 00:37:07,874
and you'd be all kinds of dead.

848
00:37:07,876 --> 00:37:10,377
I'm so afraid you're gonna die, Rebecca.

849
00:37:10,379 --> 00:37:13,046
I'm so scared.

850
00:37:13,048 --> 00:37:16,383
I have never had a
friend like you before.

851
00:37:16,706 --> 00:37:20,253
I... almost lost you.

852
00:37:20,255 --> 00:37:23,890
And I have been telling all
these people... to have hope,

853
00:37:23,892 --> 00:37:26,993
when, really, I am so sad and so scared,

854
00:37:26,995 --> 00:37:30,297
and I have to poop so, so bad.

855
00:37:30,299 --> 00:37:32,732
- Oh, honey.
- Oh.

856
00:37:36,556 --> 00:37:38,438
Rebecca, please.

857
00:37:39,025 --> 00:37:42,042
Promise me you'll never do it again.

858
00:37:42,652 --> 00:37:45,619
I... I would lo... I would
love to promise you that.

859
00:37:46,715 --> 00:37:48,673
I'd love to promise you all that.

860
00:37:49,797 --> 00:37:51,530
But I can't.

861
00:37:53,322 --> 00:37:54,971
Look...

862
00:37:55,666 --> 00:37:57,691
The way I felt on that plane, I don't,

863
00:37:57,693 --> 00:37:59,471
I don't ever want to
feel like that again.

864
00:38:00,362 --> 00:38:04,174
And now that I know... what I have,

865
00:38:05,502 --> 00:38:07,834
I hope I can get the help that I need,

866
00:38:07,836 --> 00:38:09,936
but... the truth is,

867
00:38:09,938 --> 00:38:12,533
I don't know what the future holds.

868
00:38:13,619 --> 00:38:16,945
So I just can't promise
anything to anyone, even myself.

869
00:38:18,601 --> 00:38:22,226
You know, for someone who's "crazy,"

870
00:38:22,463 --> 00:38:24,992
you sound pretty sane.

871
00:38:26,911 --> 00:38:28,672
Thank you, Heather.

872
00:38:31,426 --> 00:38:34,027
And I'm so sorry that
I put you through this.

873
00:38:34,029 --> 00:38:35,295
Really.

874
00:38:35,297 --> 00:38:37,063
Where is she?

875
00:38:37,065 --> 00:38:39,499
Where's my girl? Oh, I
came as soon as I heard.

876
00:38:39,501 --> 00:38:42,435
She's fine, but what happened to you?

877
00:38:42,437 --> 00:38:45,305
WiJo and I were in a
yurt, totally off the grid,

878
00:38:45,307 --> 00:38:47,274
and for one second, I got cell service,

879
00:38:47,276 --> 00:38:48,842
and all these messages came through,

880
00:38:48,844 --> 00:38:51,011
and I saw what was happening with you,

881
00:38:51,013 --> 00:38:53,813
so I borrowed this tank top from
WiJo because it was so hot out,

882
00:38:53,815 --> 00:38:55,548
and then I hopped in my
car, but it wouldn't start

883
00:38:55,550 --> 00:38:57,050
because the battery died,

884
00:38:57,052 --> 00:38:58,518
so I found a guy in
one of the other yurts,

885
00:38:58,520 --> 00:39:01,154
and I borrowed his car,
but it was a convertible.

886
00:39:01,156 --> 00:39:04,024
And there was so much traffic
coming from the desert.

887
00:39:04,026 --> 00:39:06,927
So I just drove three hours in the sun.

888
00:39:06,929 --> 00:39:08,728
And I didn't stop for sunscreen.

889
00:39:08,730 --> 00:39:11,331
I had a hat but it fell
off after five minutes.

890
00:39:11,434 --> 00:39:14,200
I knew I was burning, but
I had to come see my girl.

891
00:39:14,202 --> 00:39:15,762
- Who needs skin?
- Oh.

892
00:39:15,787 --> 00:39:18,905
- Oh. No, no, no. I'm sorry.
- Sorry, sorry. Sorry, sorry, sorry.

893
00:39:18,907 --> 00:39:21,341
- You've been through so much.
- No, Darryl,

894
00:39:21,343 --> 00:39:22,976
I want to apologize...

895
00:39:22,978 --> 00:39:24,411
for all the horrible
things I said to you

896
00:39:24,413 --> 00:39:25,679
before I left for New York.

897
00:39:25,681 --> 00:39:28,315
It w... they were,
they were all terrible.

898
00:39:28,317 --> 00:39:29,683
I want to apologize to all of you guys.

899
00:39:29,685 --> 00:39:31,618
You know I didn't
mean any of that stuff.

900
00:39:31,620 --> 00:39:34,387
I know that. We know that.

901
00:39:34,389 --> 00:39:36,289
- Of course we do.
- Absolutely. No question.

902
00:39:38,293 --> 00:39:41,661
I swear to God, when I
get my hands on that Josh Chan...

903
00:39:41,663 --> 00:39:43,296
When I get my hands on that jerk,

904
00:39:43,298 --> 00:39:44,931
I'm gonna give him a piece of my mind.

905
00:39:44,933 --> 00:39:46,199
Because you know what?

906
00:39:46,201 --> 00:39:48,223
I could murder Josh right now.

907
00:39:48,248 --> 00:39:49,803
I do have an ax.

908
00:39:49,805 --> 00:39:52,105
Good. This is all his fault.

909
00:39:52,107 --> 00:39:53,606
Darryl, calm down.

910
00:39:53,608 --> 00:39:55,275
This is not Josh's fault.

911
00:39:56,711 --> 00:40:00,580
I mean, it feels weird
to even say Josh's name.

912
00:40:01,000 --> 00:40:03,414
I-I haven't thought about him in days.

913
00:40:03,919 --> 00:40:06,016
Truly. I mean, it-it's almost like...

914
00:40:06,822 --> 00:40:08,727
Josh is irrelevant.

915
00:40:09,324 --> 00:40:11,398
It's not even about Josh.

916
00:40:13,546 --> 00:40:15,453
Maybe it never was.

917
00:40:17,961 --> 00:40:20,233
Oh, Darryl, honey,
let's-let's get you in...

918
00:40:20,664 --> 00:40:22,135
I don't know, some sort of ice bath.

919
00:40:22,137 --> 00:40:23,670
What does it mean when it blisters?

920
00:40:23,672 --> 00:40:24,971
Oh. Okay.

921
00:40:24,973 --> 00:40:26,973
No one touch him. No one touch him.

922
00:40:28,577 --> 00:40:30,143
So I'm here.

923
00:40:30,145 --> 00:40:32,645
And I'm ready to face it all.

924
00:40:32,647 --> 00:40:34,814
And I'm ready to start
group therapy, too.

925
00:40:34,816 --> 00:40:36,216
I think you'll like it.

926
00:40:36,218 --> 00:40:38,585
Everyone is really nice and supportive.

927
00:40:38,587 --> 00:40:40,253
But, like, nuts, right?

928
00:40:40,255 --> 00:40:42,455
Let's go.

929
00:40:42,457 --> 00:40:44,024
But you didn't answer me.

930
00:40:44,026 --> 00:40:45,831
Are they, are they all terrible?

931
00:40:53,828 --> 00:40:55,568
You were not supposed to see me.

932
00:40:55,570 --> 00:40:57,804
I didn't know you delivered stuff.

933
00:40:57,806 --> 00:40:59,172
This your side hustle?

934
00:41:00,575 --> 00:41:01,775
Oh.

935
00:41:01,800 --> 00:41:04,546
Oh, these are beautiful.

936
00:41:10,519 --> 00:41:12,085
Wow, this is really sweet.

937
00:41:12,087 --> 00:41:13,586
Well, I mean it.

938
00:41:14,212 --> 00:41:15,779
I do.

939
00:41:16,258 --> 00:41:17,857
I'm here for you.

940
00:41:17,859 --> 00:41:19,025
Thank you.

941
00:41:19,932 --> 00:41:21,547
That really means a lot.

942
00:41:22,964 --> 00:41:24,597
I got a... I should get inside.

943
00:41:24,599 --> 00:41:26,099
I got a workbook in therapy today,

944
00:41:26,101 --> 00:41:27,534
and I love workbooks, so...

945
00:41:27,536 --> 00:41:28,835
You like to work?

946
00:41:28,837 --> 00:41:30,370
That's the first I've heard of it.

947
00:41:33,781 --> 00:41:35,314
Oh, wait. Um,

948
00:41:35,339 --> 00:41:37,534
ju... um, brought this.

949
00:41:37,559 --> 00:41:38,812
Oh, my God,

950
00:41:38,814 --> 00:41:41,047
I was wondering where
Ruth Gator Ginsburg went.

951
00:41:41,049 --> 00:41:42,415
Thank you.

952
00:41:42,572 --> 00:41:44,348
I'm, uh...

953
00:41:45,367 --> 00:41:46,911
I'm glad you're home.

954
00:41:56,098 --> 00:42:00,427
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