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Good luck not eating this.

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Pork buns

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from Qian's.

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What, are you giving me
the silent treatment?

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Doesn't seem very sophisticated
for a therapist.

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I'm not your therapist anymore.
I'm your prisoner.

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I understand why
you would think that, but...

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you have to...

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Don't worry. It's not a head or anything.

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Oh, that's a relief.

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You ever heard of the John Doe Killer?

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I think so.

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The whole idea was
to make it look like robberies.

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So the police didn't get one
of those task forces going.

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So, you know, I took... I took all this.

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And...

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next think I know, they're
calling me the John Doe Killer

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'cause sometimes it took 'em a few days
to figure out who these people were

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without their IDs and stuff.

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And... now I'm kind of stuck with it.

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You believe me now?

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You don't think I believed you?

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I get why it's easier for you to think

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that maybe I'm not telling the truth.

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I believed you.

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Would you like a watch?

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No, thanks.

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Keep track of time for yourself.
I mean, they still work.

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Most of 'em.

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It's hard at first for everyone,

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but especially someone like you.

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Someone like me?

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So in your head.

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That's where everything takes place,

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including meditation.

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Like I said, it's hard
for someone like you.

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I'll be home by 5:00.

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Oh, come on.

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Shit.

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Oh, fuck.

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Ah.

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Okay.

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Thai food tonight.

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I got us Kaeng tai pla.

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This place makes their own sauce
using fermented fish entrails,

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which I know sounds gross,

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but it gives it a lot of flavor.

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And then, Khanom moa gang.

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They use taro and duck eggs.
That's dessert.

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You usually can't find it this way.

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I don't think you can open that
with a plastic fork.

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After I do it,

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I'm... just...

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I bet most people couldn't...

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feel like that.

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It's not a normal feeling.

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It's more like...

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dead.

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I need to get better.

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Isn't that what you... enjoy doing?

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Isn't healing people?

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I brought you here
so we could work together.

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I know you hate it, but...

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if you're not going
to be a part of the process,

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where is that gonna leave us?

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Successful therapy requires
a safe environment.

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The patient and the therapist

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have to be able to dig into...

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complicated emotional territory

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without anything like fear

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hanging over every session.

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I don't know what to do about that.

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At least I want you...

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to make me a promise that while
we are in therapy together,

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that you will not commit

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any acts of physical violence

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against me or anyone else

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unless you talk to me first.

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You mean you want me
to talk to you before I...?

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Yes.

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So you can talk me out of it?

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So I can try to help you...

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get out of it.

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So together, we can try to understand

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where this terrible need is coming from,

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and to address it.

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You have no idea what it's like.

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- I understand.
- These fucking people...

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I work with a lot of people

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with very serious, almost
impossible-to-resist compulsions.

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Making this kind of commitment
is key to the process.

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- I don't think it's the same.
- I'm not saying it's the same.

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I'll do my best.

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And actually, it was my wife's idea.

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Uh, she's known
Chava's mother her whole life.

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So, if we have anyone to thank,
it's the rebbetzin.

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Chava can keep up with your son

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in-in both the intellectual area
and with humor.

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Oh.

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I'm so sorry.

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I should have brought a real knife.

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- Oh, no, no.
- No.

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It's fine.

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- I was going to eat that.
- This isn't funny.

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I'm upset, too,
but we need to let him be.

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Oh, please don't tell me
you don't hate this

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just as much as I do.

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He's rebelling, Beth.

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Everyone does it.

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So, should I tell you more about my life?

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Sure.

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There's this guy,

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uh, and I can't stop thinking about him.

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I wish you knew
what this feels like. Uh...

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I did an inspection a while ago

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at a... a Greek restaurant in Garten.

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Greek, but a-a modern take.

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They do these moussaka-filled gyozas

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that just... dissolve in your mouth.

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I actually used to go there with my wife,

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even before I inspected it.

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You're married?

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I was.

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That was one of those things
I didn't, uh, tell you

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'cause I couldn't be fully truthful.

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Anyway, uh, there were items
in the prep cooler

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that weren't dated,

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and the refrigerator door seal
needed to be replaced.

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And these aren't uncommon things,

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but they need to be addressed,

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and they affect a restaurant's rating.

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I explained it all to the guy
who runs the place,

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the owners' son, and...

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he didn't think it was a big deal.

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I told him it was.

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He said I should come back in a week,

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and everything would be fixed.

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I said the current wait time
for reinspection

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in Lincoln County is seven months.

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He thought I was trying to get a bribe.

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And he starts talking to me

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in this funny way, like...

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he knows how things really work,

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and I don't,

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and I'm just some piece of shit.

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And when people talk to me like that...

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Anyway, I just left,

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which is what I do in those situations.

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Then a couple weeks later,
my supervisor, Kyle,

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tells me to go back right away

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and redo the inspection, no reason given.

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And when I went there,
everything is fixed,

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and the guy barely looks at me.

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Smug.

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When was this?

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I don't know.

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About four months ago.

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And I haven't stopped...

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thinking about him.

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Every single day.

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I'm trying not to...

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I usually can't stop, but...

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I don't know if other people have this.

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Do other people have this?

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People get obsessed with
interactions they've had, yes.

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I went back to the restaurant...

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the same night,
and I parked across the street,

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and I waited until they closed.

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I've never done anything that
they could trace back to me,

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but that night, I... I was like...

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I didn't do it.

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How do you think you managed that?

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I don't know.

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I didn't want to get caught.
I guess that helped.

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And you said
this was about four months ago?

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Yeah.

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Just before you came to talk to me.

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And you thought
I could help you not hurt him.

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Mm-hmm.

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I need a pen and paper for notes.

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I really thought through all the things
that you were going to need here.

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I'm going to need a pen and paper.

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I'm not going to attack you
with a piece of paper.

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And you can find a pen
that doesn't worry you.

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The restaurant guy.

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The more time that passes,

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the less anyone would connect me
with that place.

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I think it's important to note
that you did not hurt him.

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But I want to.

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I want to right now.

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You asked me to talk to you first.

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I am talking to you.

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It's not really helping.

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You've been holding this in
for four months, Sam.

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I get why it's hard.

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Jesus.

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I'm late for work.

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Let's have a session after dinner.

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Hello?

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Hello?

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Can you hear me up there?

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I can hear you!

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Are you okay?

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Can you talk?

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Hello.

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