1 00:00:02,000 --> 00:00:03,400 I'm James... 2 00:00:04,500 --> 00:00:06,000 ..I'm 17... 3 00:00:06,760 --> 00:00:09,200 ..and I'm pretty sure I'm a psychopath. 4 00:00:28,360 --> 00:00:30,960 I was eight when I realised I didn't have a sense of humour. 5 00:00:31,000 --> 00:00:33,720 Why doesn't the queen wave with this hand? 6 00:00:33,760 --> 00:00:37,400 Eh? Why doesn't the queen wave with this hand? 7 00:00:37,440 --> 00:00:39,000 Cos it's my hand! 8 00:00:39,040 --> 00:00:42,440 I'd always wanted to punch my dad in the face. 9 00:00:45,760 --> 00:00:48,560 When I was nine, he bought a deep fat fryer. 10 00:00:48,600 --> 00:00:51,600 He saw it on an American shopping channel. 11 00:00:51,640 --> 00:00:55,640 One day, I put my hand in it. 12 00:00:56,840 --> 00:00:59,920 I wanted to make myself feel something. 13 00:00:59,960 --> 00:01:01,000 When I was 15, 14 00:01:01,040 --> 00:01:04,400 I put my neighbour's cat in a box and took it into the woods. 15 00:01:04,440 --> 00:01:06,520 It probably had a name. 16 00:01:08,440 --> 00:01:10,120 After that, I killed more animals... 17 00:01:11,600 --> 00:01:15,600 ..and I remember every single one. 18 00:01:28,480 --> 00:01:30,320 School was beneath me, 19 00:01:30,360 --> 00:01:33,520 but it was a good place for observation and selection. 20 00:01:33,560 --> 00:01:35,840 Because I had a plan. 21 00:01:35,880 --> 00:01:39,000 I was going to kill something bigger. 22 00:01:39,040 --> 00:01:42,840 Much bigger. 23 00:01:44,960 --> 00:01:46,080 Hey. 24 00:01:46,120 --> 00:01:48,880 I've seen you skating. 25 00:01:48,920 --> 00:01:50,720 You're pretty shit. 26 00:01:50,760 --> 00:01:54,720 Fuck off. 27 00:01:54,760 --> 00:01:57,080 I get these moments when I have to lie down 28 00:01:57,120 --> 00:02:00,480 because everything feels sort of too much. 29 00:02:00,520 --> 00:02:04,520 And I look up and see the blue, or the grey, or the black, 30 00:02:04,800 --> 00:02:07,280 and I feel myself melting into it. 31 00:02:07,320 --> 00:02:11,320 And, for like a split second, I feel free 32 00:02:11,360 --> 00:02:13,200 and happy. 33 00:02:13,240 --> 00:02:14,800 Innocent. 34 00:02:14,840 --> 00:02:16,760 Like a dog 35 00:02:16,800 --> 00:02:19,000 or an alien... 36 00:02:19,040 --> 00:02:20,040 ..or a baby. 37 00:02:24,080 --> 00:02:28,080 Your presence is required, young lady. 38 00:02:28,120 --> 00:02:30,960 Why are you talking like Downton Abbey? 39 00:02:31,000 --> 00:02:35,000 Just get inside and help. 40 00:02:41,480 --> 00:02:45,480 My mum used to be nice but then she got divorced from my dad and met... 41 00:02:45,560 --> 00:02:47,800 ..Tony. 42 00:02:47,840 --> 00:02:50,800 Last week, he said he thought I needed a bigger bra. 43 00:02:50,840 --> 00:02:53,680 So I threw a chicken Kiev at his head. 44 00:02:53,720 --> 00:02:57,360 Mum pretended that she hadn't heard him. 45 00:02:57,400 --> 00:02:59,600 Now she has the perfect house and the perfect garden, 46 00:02:59,640 --> 00:03:01,440 in the perfect neighbourhood 47 00:03:01,480 --> 00:03:04,360 with perfect twins. 48 00:03:04,400 --> 00:03:06,360 Well... 49 00:03:06,400 --> 00:03:08,480 ..their heads do smell nice, though, 50 00:03:08,520 --> 00:03:10,440 it's true. 51 00:03:11,920 --> 00:03:15,400 I haven't seen my dad since I was eight. 52 00:03:15,440 --> 00:03:19,440 He never fitted in, he couldn't settle, so he had to leave. 53 00:03:19,680 --> 00:03:21,400 I don't blame him. 54 00:03:21,440 --> 00:03:24,440 But he sends me a card, without fail, every single birthday. 55 00:03:31,560 --> 00:03:33,600 I understand, actually. 56 00:03:33,640 --> 00:03:37,640 I don't trust people who fit in. 57 00:03:48,880 --> 00:03:51,720 Is this from you? 58 00:03:51,760 --> 00:03:52,920 What? 59 00:03:52,960 --> 00:03:54,000 What the fuck? 60 00:03:54,040 --> 00:03:55,760 What?! I'm here. 61 00:03:55,800 --> 00:03:58,160 I'm literally here. 62 00:03:58,200 --> 00:04:02,040 It's free. 63 00:04:20,320 --> 00:04:22,840 I'm not saying he's the answer, 64 00:04:22,880 --> 00:04:24,400 but he's something. 65 00:04:35,440 --> 00:04:37,840 Hey. Hey. 66 00:04:37,880 --> 00:04:39,320 I've seen you skating. 67 00:04:39,360 --> 00:04:41,680 I haven't. 68 00:04:41,720 --> 00:04:43,280 You're pretty shit. 69 00:04:43,320 --> 00:04:44,320 Fuck off. 70 00:04:44,360 --> 00:04:45,840 Alyssa was new. 71 00:04:45,880 --> 00:04:47,680 She'd started that term. 72 00:04:47,720 --> 00:04:49,880 I thought she could be interesting to kill. 73 00:04:59,560 --> 00:05:02,040 Are you waiting for me? 74 00:05:02,080 --> 00:05:04,400 So I pretended to fall in love with her. 75 00:05:08,520 --> 00:05:10,200 What happened to your hand? 76 00:05:10,240 --> 00:05:11,520 Shut up. 77 00:05:17,240 --> 00:05:19,120 I haven't got a phone. 78 00:05:19,160 --> 00:05:22,840 OK. I smashed it. 79 00:05:22,880 --> 00:05:24,160 OK. 80 00:05:24,200 --> 00:05:26,840 Like, on purpose. 81 00:05:26,880 --> 00:05:28,000 OK. 82 00:05:28,040 --> 00:05:31,240 So you can't call me. 83 00:05:31,280 --> 00:05:35,280 OK. 84 00:05:37,040 --> 00:05:39,120 I don't have a phone either. 85 00:05:39,160 --> 00:05:41,160 Really? Yeah. 86 00:05:41,200 --> 00:05:45,200 I hate them. 87 00:05:46,760 --> 00:05:49,160 I knew that people in love went out on dates. 88 00:05:49,200 --> 00:05:51,920 Do you want to go on a date? 89 00:05:51,960 --> 00:05:55,960 With me? 90 00:05:56,640 --> 00:05:58,720 She said yes. 91 00:05:58,760 --> 00:06:01,240 Hi, what can I get for you today? 92 00:06:01,280 --> 00:06:03,600 Is this true? 93 00:06:03,640 --> 00:06:06,480 One of the top ten greatest American dining experiences... 94 00:06:06,520 --> 00:06:10,040 Yeah! 95 00:06:10,080 --> 00:06:14,080 Right, can I take your orders? 96 00:06:14,240 --> 00:06:18,240 Uh... I will have a banana split with extra cherries... 97 00:06:18,320 --> 00:06:19,640 Mm-hm. 98 00:06:19,680 --> 00:06:21,400 ..some blueberry pancakes... 99 00:06:21,440 --> 00:06:22,640 Mm-hm. 100 00:06:22,680 --> 00:06:24,440 ..and a hot chocolate with cream. 101 00:06:24,480 --> 00:06:25,640 He-he, are you hungry? 102 00:06:25,680 --> 00:06:29,680 He-he-he, and an extra fucking spoon. 103 00:06:30,000 --> 00:06:31,640 Excuse me? 104 00:06:31,680 --> 00:06:33,640 For him. 105 00:06:33,680 --> 00:06:35,520 OK, sorry you can't use language like that, 106 00:06:35,560 --> 00:06:39,560 otherwise I'm going to have to ask you and your boyfriend to leave. 107 00:06:39,960 --> 00:06:42,520 OK. 108 00:06:42,560 --> 00:06:44,560 OK, I'm sorry. 109 00:06:44,600 --> 00:06:47,840 Sorry. 110 00:06:47,880 --> 00:06:51,600 I will have a great big banana shit 111 00:06:51,640 --> 00:06:53,920 with extra fucking cherries on the top of it... 112 00:06:53,960 --> 00:06:55,240 OK, sorry, that's it. Right. 113 00:06:55,280 --> 00:06:57,920 MARVIN! Oh, yeah, go get Marvin. 114 00:06:57,960 --> 00:07:00,680 See if Marvin can make it banana split for me, 115 00:07:00,720 --> 00:07:04,720 you fucking cunt. 116 00:07:05,880 --> 00:07:08,200 BYE, MARVIN! 117 00:07:10,200 --> 00:07:14,200 It seemed that Alyssa had some issues. 118 00:07:21,720 --> 00:07:24,840 I think we live in the most boring town on the planet. 119 00:07:24,880 --> 00:07:26,840 Yeah, maybe. 120 00:07:26,880 --> 00:07:29,880 Everyone's so fucking square. 121 00:07:29,920 --> 00:07:33,920 Well, they've got money, they feel safe. 122 00:07:34,400 --> 00:07:36,760 Are you boring, too? 123 00:07:36,800 --> 00:07:39,840 No. 124 00:07:39,880 --> 00:07:42,920 She's the only cool person in this town. 125 00:07:42,960 --> 00:07:44,480 Her? Yeah. 126 00:07:44,520 --> 00:07:47,080 She's done stuff. 127 00:07:47,120 --> 00:07:49,720 She's probably a spy and had, like, 128 00:07:49,760 --> 00:07:52,960 15 abortions when it was illegal or something. 129 00:07:53,000 --> 00:07:55,200 She has lived. 130 00:07:55,240 --> 00:07:59,240 Really? Whatever. 131 00:07:59,760 --> 00:08:03,760 Can we go to your house? 132 00:08:06,160 --> 00:08:08,400 Yeah, sure. 133 00:08:21,540 --> 00:08:24,620 Why do you live in such a weird house? 134 00:08:24,660 --> 00:08:27,340 I don't know. 135 00:08:27,380 --> 00:08:29,380 There's too many windows. 136 00:08:29,420 --> 00:08:33,420 Maybe. 137 00:08:57,900 --> 00:09:00,100 Is that your mum? 138 00:09:00,140 --> 00:09:02,180 Yeah. 139 00:09:02,220 --> 00:09:04,060 She lives in Japan. 140 00:09:04,100 --> 00:09:08,100 Cool. You look like her. 141 00:09:16,780 --> 00:09:18,380 This is pretty retro. 142 00:09:18,420 --> 00:09:22,420 I don't like it. Why not? 143 00:09:26,100 --> 00:09:30,100 I just don't. 144 00:09:31,420 --> 00:09:35,420 Alyssa was kind of a nymphomaniac. 145 00:09:44,460 --> 00:09:46,300 What? 146 00:09:46,340 --> 00:09:48,100 Huh? 147 00:09:49,780 --> 00:09:51,700 Oh, no. 148 00:09:51,740 --> 00:09:55,460 The hunter has returned! 149 00:09:55,500 --> 00:09:59,460 Cheers! 150 00:09:59,500 --> 00:10:01,780 Wow, this is nice. 151 00:10:01,820 --> 00:10:03,420 What is? 152 00:10:03,460 --> 00:10:07,460 This. You two. Eh? 153 00:10:08,020 --> 00:10:10,420 What a relief. 154 00:10:10,460 --> 00:10:13,980 I'll tell you what. I've never been sure if he even, you know. 155 00:10:14,020 --> 00:10:16,500 I always thought there was something wrong with him. 156 00:10:16,540 --> 00:10:20,540 I actually masturbated once a week for medical purposes. 157 00:10:21,460 --> 00:10:24,860 I knew it wasn't good to let things build up. 158 00:10:24,900 --> 00:10:26,940 I thought, probably, he was gay. 159 00:10:26,980 --> 00:10:28,140 Which is, that's fine. 160 00:10:28,180 --> 00:10:32,180 Like, obviously, but here you are. 161 00:10:34,820 --> 00:10:38,820 Maybe I'm gay. 162 00:10:39,780 --> 00:10:43,780 Maybe he's asexual. 163 00:10:46,860 --> 00:10:50,860 We're dealing with a really broad spectrum these days. 164 00:11:01,620 --> 00:11:04,020 Your dad is a prick. 165 00:11:04,060 --> 00:11:07,580 Yeah, I know. 166 00:11:07,620 --> 00:11:10,660 Sometimes I feel like punching him in the face. 167 00:11:10,700 --> 00:11:14,700 You should definitely do that. 168 00:11:18,140 --> 00:11:20,180 Have you ever eaten a pussy before? 169 00:11:20,220 --> 00:11:23,500 It was important to be confident in moments like this. 170 00:11:23,540 --> 00:11:27,180 Yeah, a few. 171 00:11:27,220 --> 00:11:30,180 I want you to eat mine. 172 00:11:30,220 --> 00:11:34,220 Now? 173 00:11:37,700 --> 00:11:40,100 Tomorrow. 174 00:11:40,140 --> 00:11:44,140 I'll be here at 11. 175 00:11:55,940 --> 00:11:59,420 I was ready at 11. 176 00:11:59,460 --> 00:12:01,780 Actually, I was ready at ten. 177 00:12:01,820 --> 00:12:05,820 It was important to work out the exact logistics beforehand. 178 00:12:08,340 --> 00:12:12,340 When it got to 12, I started to think she might not be coming. 179 00:12:18,820 --> 00:12:22,820 Sometimes I worry that I ruin things. 180 00:12:26,980 --> 00:12:28,860 But, I feel... 181 00:12:28,900 --> 00:12:30,460 I don't know. 182 00:12:30,500 --> 00:12:32,740 I feel comfortable with him. 183 00:12:32,780 --> 00:12:36,780 Sort of safe. 184 00:12:38,220 --> 00:12:39,740 Alyssa. 185 00:12:39,780 --> 00:12:40,780 Alyssa. 186 00:12:40,820 --> 00:12:43,420 What? Put these on and come downstairs. 187 00:12:43,460 --> 00:12:45,460 What? The party! 188 00:12:45,500 --> 00:12:46,580 No way, I told you. 189 00:12:46,620 --> 00:12:50,580 I'm going out. I am not having this argument again, Alyssa. 190 00:12:50,620 --> 00:12:52,220 Mum, there's no way. 191 00:12:52,260 --> 00:12:54,660 Please, love. I want you to be there. 192 00:12:54,700 --> 00:12:58,700 For me. 193 00:13:14,860 --> 00:13:18,860 Right, those aren't for you. Hand them around. 194 00:13:19,460 --> 00:13:23,460 Hi! 195 00:13:28,620 --> 00:13:32,620 All right? Go away. 196 00:13:33,540 --> 00:13:35,660 Here. 197 00:13:35,700 --> 00:13:37,700 Have a beer. 198 00:13:37,740 --> 00:13:41,060 Chill out. 199 00:13:41,100 --> 00:13:45,100 Thanks, Tone. 200 00:13:47,660 --> 00:13:50,340 This is a load of bullshit. 201 00:13:50,380 --> 00:13:53,740 Your life is bullshit. 202 00:13:53,780 --> 00:13:57,780 Well, if you hate it so much... 203 00:13:59,060 --> 00:14:01,260 ..leave. 204 00:14:01,300 --> 00:14:03,100 I'm serious. 205 00:14:03,140 --> 00:14:07,140 Do us all a favour. 206 00:14:13,060 --> 00:14:17,060 You look good when you make a bit of an effort, don't you? 207 00:14:37,460 --> 00:14:41,460 Sometimes, everything is suddenly really simple. 208 00:14:41,980 --> 00:14:45,180 It's like everything shifts in a moment. 209 00:14:45,220 --> 00:14:48,140 And you step out of your body. 210 00:14:48,180 --> 00:14:50,940 Out of your life. 211 00:14:50,980 --> 00:14:54,980 You step out and you see where you are, really clearly. 212 00:14:56,420 --> 00:14:58,900 You see yourself... 213 00:14:58,940 --> 00:15:01,660 ..and you think... 214 00:15:01,700 --> 00:15:05,180 ..fuck... this... shit. 215 00:15:21,660 --> 00:15:25,660 James! 216 00:15:27,540 --> 00:15:31,540 I think being angry and sad at the same time really turns me on. 217 00:15:39,780 --> 00:15:43,780 Come here. 218 00:15:46,420 --> 00:15:49,300 I kind of think I could fall in love with him. 219 00:15:49,340 --> 00:15:53,340 Also, he has a car. 220 00:15:53,780 --> 00:15:57,340 I wondered if it'd be easier to slit her throat if I flipped her around. 221 00:15:57,380 --> 00:16:01,380 Whether it'd be better not to see her face, but then, the angle. 222 00:16:01,780 --> 00:16:05,140 It was a conundrum. 223 00:16:05,180 --> 00:16:08,420 What? Let's get out of here. 224 00:16:08,460 --> 00:16:12,460 What? I'm serious, let's leave this shithole town, now. 225 00:16:12,620 --> 00:16:14,260 You hate it, I hate it. 226 00:16:14,300 --> 00:16:17,100 Our parents are dickheads, you've got a car. 227 00:16:17,140 --> 00:16:20,540 It's my dad's. Who's a dickhead. 228 00:16:20,580 --> 00:16:22,820 I'm going whether you come with me or not. You in? 229 00:16:22,860 --> 00:16:26,260 Please say yes. 230 00:16:26,300 --> 00:16:28,940 I figured, I wasn't in a rush. 231 00:16:28,980 --> 00:16:30,300 Yeah, all right. 232 00:16:55,260 --> 00:16:58,340 I didn't know where we were going or when I was going to kill her, 233 00:16:58,380 --> 00:17:01,380 but I punched my dad in the face and stole his car 234 00:17:01,420 --> 00:17:05,420 and that felt like a good place to start. 235 00:17:22,460 --> 00:17:24,540 Are you scared? 236 00:17:24,580 --> 00:17:26,460 I don't know. 237 00:17:26,500 --> 00:17:28,900 A bit, maybe. 238 00:17:28,940 --> 00:17:32,940 I'm not. 239 00:17:35,980 --> 00:17:39,980 She probably should have been.