1 00:01:19,767 --> 00:01:20,966 Hey. 2 00:01:20,968 --> 00:01:23,201 - So it's... - It's Thanksgiving. 3 00:01:23,203 --> 00:01:25,170 Yeah, I know. 4 00:01:26,539 --> 00:01:28,874 - I'm coming. - Really? 5 00:01:28,876 --> 00:01:30,708 My other options are staying here 6 00:01:30,710 --> 00:01:32,905 and eating cold white rice or... 7 00:01:33,881 --> 00:01:35,914 Going to my parents' and getting another lecture 8 00:01:35,916 --> 00:01:38,783 about how much I should or shouldn't be lifting, so... 9 00:01:38,785 --> 00:01:40,503 Yes. 10 00:01:40,787 --> 00:01:42,354 You don't think it's too soon? 11 00:01:42,356 --> 00:01:44,089 Will you get out of here so I can change? 12 00:01:44,091 --> 00:01:46,224 Love you. Mean it. 13 00:01:46,226 --> 00:01:48,693 Should I start the car or you... 14 00:01:48,695 --> 00:01:50,695 - Get out. Get out. Get out. - You need time. I'll give you time. 15 00:01:50,696 --> 00:01:52,396 Get... 16 00:01:53,967 --> 00:01:55,233 Okay. 17 00:02:05,779 --> 00:02:07,177 Hey. 18 00:02:07,179 --> 00:02:09,346 Just dropped a patient off at Grey Sloan. 19 00:02:09,348 --> 00:02:11,215 Thought I'd check in. 20 00:02:11,341 --> 00:02:12,507 What time's dinner? 21 00:02:13,887 --> 00:02:15,620 Thanksgiving? 22 00:02:17,957 --> 00:02:20,198 It's gonna get better, Jack. 23 00:02:20,199 --> 00:02:21,959 Just takes some time. 24 00:02:22,796 --> 00:02:26,731 Pruitt Arike Miller! 25 00:02:26,733 --> 00:02:29,434 Oh, I've missed you, mamita! 26 00:02:31,170 --> 00:02:32,503 How's it going with her? 27 00:02:32,505 --> 00:02:34,972 Surprisingly well, but, you know, the Millers... 28 00:02:34,974 --> 00:02:36,373 they're not happy. 29 00:02:36,375 --> 00:02:38,676 I mean, isn't that what Dean wanted, though? 30 00:02:38,678 --> 00:02:40,210 For you and Miranda to raise her? 31 00:02:40,212 --> 00:02:42,613 Yes, but you try telling that to grieving parents 32 00:02:42,615 --> 00:02:44,949 who want their grandchild, hmm? 33 00:02:45,952 --> 00:02:47,918 Daddy. 34 00:02:49,422 --> 00:02:50,620 Yeah. 35 00:02:52,058 --> 00:02:54,925 Yeah. Yeah, that's Daddy. 36 00:02:58,331 --> 00:02:59,964 That's your daddy. 37 00:03:03,369 --> 00:03:05,369 Where's Daddy? 38 00:03:09,775 --> 00:03:12,109 Uh, your... 39 00:03:12,111 --> 00:03:15,016 Your daddy is with my daddy. 40 00:03:16,282 --> 00:03:18,849 And... And they both love you very much. 41 00:03:20,752 --> 00:03:26,161 - Synced and corrected by medvidecek007 - - www.addic7ed.com - 42 00:03:26,624 --> 00:03:29,158 I'm just saying, the only reason my dad insists on coming 43 00:03:29,160 --> 00:03:31,227 is because he's sitting on a lie so big 44 00:03:31,229 --> 00:03:33,729 that he can't bear to be alone with my mother anymore. 45 00:03:33,731 --> 00:03:35,531 So I'm just supposed to hand her 46 00:03:35,533 --> 00:03:36,932 a slice of pumpkin pie 47 00:03:36,934 --> 00:03:38,901 and not tell her that her marriage is a sham? 48 00:03:38,903 --> 00:03:41,104 Yes, Trav, that's exactly what you're supposed to do. 49 00:03:41,105 --> 00:03:42,672 Hughes? 50 00:03:42,673 --> 00:03:44,907 - How are you? - Okay, before you say anything 51 00:03:44,909 --> 00:03:46,109 or try to blame me for this, 52 00:03:46,111 --> 00:03:49,545 I tried, but she insisted on coming and helping. 53 00:03:49,758 --> 00:03:51,358 Did the department clear you? 54 00:03:51,359 --> 00:03:53,926 I didn't know I needed clearance for peeling potatoes. 55 00:03:54,552 --> 00:03:56,152 This is your work environment. 56 00:03:56,154 --> 00:03:57,553 There will be alarms that could put 57 00:03:57,555 --> 00:03:59,588 undue stress on your heart. 58 00:03:59,590 --> 00:04:00,656 Thank you, Lieutenant. 59 00:04:00,658 --> 00:04:01,982 I appreciate the second opinion, 60 00:04:01,983 --> 00:04:03,082 but my heart is fine. 61 00:04:03,083 --> 00:04:04,349 And who was the first opinion? 62 00:04:05,763 --> 00:04:07,196 Guys, I just need one thing to feel 63 00:04:07,198 --> 00:04:09,097 just a little bit normal today, 64 00:04:09,099 --> 00:04:11,266 or is that something that's gonna make my heart explode? 65 00:04:13,303 --> 00:04:14,603 It's fine. It's fine. 66 00:04:14,605 --> 00:04:16,238 I just got a little excited about the Yukon golds. 67 00:04:16,240 --> 00:04:17,506 I'm fine. 68 00:04:18,242 --> 00:04:19,508 Are you serious? 69 00:04:19,510 --> 00:04:21,010 Okay. 70 00:04:22,446 --> 00:04:24,580 Are you happy? 71 00:04:38,863 --> 00:04:40,696 Hughes... 72 00:04:40,697 --> 00:04:41,763 You alright? 73 00:04:41,766 --> 00:04:44,461 Yeah, I'm as okay as someone can be after 74 00:04:45,000 --> 00:04:47,682 a casual electrocution and a heart attack. 75 00:04:49,405 --> 00:04:51,205 It's just an alarm for me to take a pill. 76 00:04:51,207 --> 00:04:52,740 Um... 77 00:04:54,544 --> 00:04:56,311 How are you... doing? 78 00:04:56,598 --> 00:04:58,212 Gibson... 79 00:04:58,214 --> 00:05:00,548 I'm s... you gotta do something. 80 00:05:00,550 --> 00:05:02,984 You can't just sit here in all this pain. 81 00:05:02,986 --> 00:05:04,485 Otherwise the pain is... 82 00:05:05,922 --> 00:05:07,088 You gotta do something. 83 00:05:07,090 --> 00:05:09,090 - I don't want to. - Yeah, I know. I know. 84 00:05:09,092 --> 00:05:11,407 But get up anyway, and why don't you just go... 85 00:05:12,562 --> 00:05:15,362 I don't... Go help Travis cook. 86 00:05:15,364 --> 00:05:17,098 I'm serious. 87 00:05:23,372 --> 00:05:26,240 So I just got word that the investigation 88 00:05:26,241 --> 00:05:28,675 into my insubordination is finally happening. 89 00:05:28,678 --> 00:05:30,984 Well, I guess McCallister's cleaning out his inbox 90 00:05:30,985 --> 00:05:32,562 after the pipeline explosion. 91 00:05:32,563 --> 00:05:33,930 Is he being blamed for that? 92 00:05:33,931 --> 00:05:35,583 Not yet. 93 00:05:35,585 --> 00:05:37,585 Hey. 94 00:05:37,587 --> 00:05:38,952 It's Thanksgiving. 95 00:05:38,954 --> 00:05:40,621 Mm-hmm. 96 00:05:40,623 --> 00:05:42,089 So I'm gonna cook. 97 00:05:43,092 --> 00:05:45,126 Well, I'm kinda already doing that. 98 00:05:45,128 --> 00:05:47,161 Yeah, but now... now... now I'm gonna do it. 99 00:05:47,163 --> 00:05:49,130 You know, I-I need this. It'll be good for me. 100 00:05:49,132 --> 00:05:50,598 Sure, um... but, I mean, 101 00:05:50,600 --> 00:05:52,867 you know we invited all of our families, 102 00:05:52,868 --> 00:05:54,987 - Mm-hmm. Yep. - so there's a lot of cooking. 103 00:05:54,988 --> 00:05:56,621 Yep, I know. 104 00:05:57,573 --> 00:05:58,872 It's fine. 105 00:05:58,874 --> 00:06:00,508 Okay. 106 00:06:01,577 --> 00:06:02,743 Okay. 107 00:06:02,745 --> 00:06:03,844 Okay. 108 00:06:04,780 --> 00:06:06,713 Are you really gonna let him just do it all? 109 00:06:07,716 --> 00:06:09,082 Well, he's a pretty good cook, 110 00:06:09,084 --> 00:06:10,985 and I think he needs it more than I do. 111 00:06:10,986 --> 00:06:12,197 Okay. 112 00:06:12,198 --> 00:06:14,298 - Thanks, Gibson. - Yep. 113 00:06:18,127 --> 00:06:19,609 Gibson... 114 00:06:20,362 --> 00:06:21,628 You alright? 115 00:06:23,298 --> 00:06:25,098 Yeah, I'm, uh, cooking. 116 00:06:27,302 --> 00:06:28,501 Right. 117 00:06:32,041 --> 00:06:36,209 And this is where your dad would sit. 118 00:06:36,461 --> 00:06:38,561 Where's Daddy? 119 00:06:45,020 --> 00:06:46,252 What's she doing here? 120 00:06:46,503 --> 00:06:47,916 Um... 121 00:06:49,442 --> 00:06:50,775 Thanksgiving. 122 00:06:51,626 --> 00:06:53,626 Yeah, yeah. Sure, yeah. Of course. 123 00:06:53,628 --> 00:06:56,529 Hey, look who it is! It's Auntie Vic. 124 00:06:58,500 --> 00:06:59,899 What is that, a heart-rate tracker? 125 00:06:59,901 --> 00:07:01,025 Um... 126 00:07:02,040 --> 00:07:04,036 You know what? I think Travis needs help upstairs. 127 00:07:04,038 --> 00:07:05,905 Hughes, you should sit... 128 00:07:05,907 --> 00:07:09,342 Engine 19 requested to 6547 Seaway Place. 129 00:07:11,012 --> 00:07:12,278 That's Ingrid's shop. 130 00:07:12,280 --> 00:07:13,479 Again? 131 00:07:13,481 --> 00:07:16,982 Okay, you are gonna stay here with... 132 00:07:16,984 --> 00:07:18,233 Auntie Maya! 133 00:07:19,254 --> 00:07:21,321 Oh, yeah. You're fine. You're fine. 134 00:07:21,323 --> 00:07:23,022 Just, uh, you know, just... 135 00:07:23,024 --> 00:07:24,145 Keep her entertained. 136 00:07:24,146 --> 00:07:25,592 Okay, but why is it the woman 137 00:07:25,594 --> 00:07:28,094 gets left with the baby like it's the 1950s, huh? 138 00:07:28,096 --> 00:07:29,429 Can you guys watch her? 139 00:07:29,431 --> 00:07:32,700 I've got my own babysitting gig today. 140 00:07:37,371 --> 00:07:38,371 Hi. 141 00:07:42,584 --> 00:07:44,084 Why did you send me to get enough food 142 00:07:44,085 --> 00:07:45,750 for an entire Thanksgiving dinner 143 00:07:45,751 --> 00:07:48,252 when you already had everything here? 144 00:07:48,425 --> 00:07:51,393 Because she's captain and you're a grunt. 145 00:07:51,395 --> 00:07:52,894 She's acting captain. 146 00:07:53,082 --> 00:07:55,149 Either way, show some respect. 147 00:07:55,932 --> 00:07:57,809 We're making extra for 148 00:07:57,810 --> 00:08:00,369 Aquino's and Morse's families. 149 00:08:00,371 --> 00:08:02,003 Firefighters take care of their own. 150 00:08:02,005 --> 00:08:03,204 Any word on Aquino? 151 00:08:03,206 --> 00:08:06,107 He's out of critical care, which is good. 152 00:08:06,109 --> 00:08:09,043 He still has a long road ahead, you know? 153 00:08:09,045 --> 00:08:10,445 So... 154 00:08:10,447 --> 00:08:11,946 Where do you want turkey number two? 155 00:08:11,948 --> 00:08:14,423 Oh, leave it on the counter. Turkey number one... 156 00:08:14,424 --> 00:08:16,951 Is almost ready to come out. 157 00:08:16,953 --> 00:08:18,552 Wait. Did I baste already? 158 00:08:18,554 --> 00:08:20,155 Yes, like 30 seconds ago. 159 00:08:20,157 --> 00:08:22,360 God, I'm losing my mind. 160 00:08:23,160 --> 00:08:24,625 Okay. 161 00:08:26,296 --> 00:08:28,897 Did you see Miller's little girl at 19? 162 00:08:28,899 --> 00:08:29,998 Oh, my God. 163 00:08:30,000 --> 00:08:31,532 She looks so freakin' cute 164 00:08:31,534 --> 00:08:32,801 in her Thanksgiving dress. 165 00:08:32,803 --> 00:08:34,769 I wanted to eat her little arm. 166 00:08:37,607 --> 00:08:39,340 Why the face? 167 00:08:39,342 --> 00:08:40,931 I just... 168 00:08:41,509 --> 00:08:42,643 You know, Vic is going in, 169 00:08:42,645 --> 00:08:45,446 and I don't know if she's ready to see Pru. 170 00:08:45,448 --> 00:08:47,182 Why? Vic loves Pru. 171 00:08:47,184 --> 00:08:50,718 Yeah, but she's kind of a walking, talking reminder 172 00:08:50,720 --> 00:08:53,020 that Miller's gone. 173 00:08:53,022 --> 00:08:55,289 And I think she's scared Pru's mom's gonna come back 174 00:08:55,291 --> 00:08:57,291 and take her to Hong Kong or something. 175 00:08:57,293 --> 00:08:58,710 J.J.? 176 00:08:59,128 --> 00:09:01,028 You think... you think she'll take her back? 177 00:09:01,030 --> 00:09:02,129 I don't know any of these people. 178 00:09:02,131 --> 00:09:03,563 I'm just saying what Vic told me. 179 00:09:03,565 --> 00:09:05,032 No, J.J. gave up her right to be a mom 180 00:09:05,034 --> 00:09:07,234 when she left her daughter with her father. 181 00:09:07,236 --> 00:09:08,302 I'm... 182 00:09:09,994 --> 00:09:12,660 I got to... get the groceries. 183 00:09:17,279 --> 00:09:19,546 Okay. Okay. 184 00:09:19,617 --> 00:09:21,484 So what... what should we do? 185 00:09:29,324 --> 00:09:30,847 What? Potty? 186 00:09:30,848 --> 00:09:31,891 I need potty. 187 00:09:31,893 --> 00:09:33,226 Potty? Okay. 188 00:09:33,228 --> 00:09:35,840 Let's go to the bath... Let's go to the bathroom. Yep. 189 00:09:37,466 --> 00:09:38,732 Oh, God. 190 00:09:38,734 --> 00:09:41,701 Oh, my God. 191 00:09:42,704 --> 00:09:44,838 Uh... oh... 192 00:09:44,840 --> 00:09:46,840 Help. She's leaking. 193 00:09:46,842 --> 00:09:47,974 Give her to me. 194 00:09:47,976 --> 00:09:49,676 Hello, Bella. 195 00:09:49,678 --> 00:09:52,245 - Oh. - Should we get changed? 196 00:09:52,247 --> 00:09:53,580 Oh, God. It smells so bad. 197 00:09:53,582 --> 00:09:55,615 That's right. 198 00:09:55,617 --> 00:09:58,385 Everybody's poo-poo stinks. 199 00:09:58,387 --> 00:10:00,386 Even Maya's. 200 00:10:01,522 --> 00:10:03,288 How are you so good at this? 201 00:10:03,290 --> 00:10:04,490 You've never babysat? 202 00:10:04,492 --> 00:10:06,291 - Oh, thank you. - Uh... 203 00:10:06,293 --> 00:10:08,193 Or had friends with kids? 204 00:10:09,162 --> 00:10:10,562 No. 205 00:10:12,032 --> 00:10:13,866 Nothing? 206 00:10:14,769 --> 00:10:16,935 - No. - Yeah, uh-huh. 207 00:10:16,937 --> 00:10:18,670 "Uh-huh" what? 208 00:10:18,672 --> 00:10:19,772 It's nothing. 209 00:10:19,774 --> 00:10:23,575 It just explains a lot about your personality. 210 00:10:23,577 --> 00:10:26,445 Once you spend a little time with kids, 211 00:10:26,447 --> 00:10:30,215 you realize that plans and rules and rigid diets 212 00:10:30,217 --> 00:10:32,451 don't really make sense when you're always 213 00:10:32,453 --> 00:10:35,553 two minutes away from an exploding diaper! 214 00:10:38,991 --> 00:10:40,858 And you're all set. 215 00:10:41,336 --> 00:10:44,470 Oh. We might need to change the socks, too. 216 00:10:45,131 --> 00:10:46,898 Let's see what color we have... 217 00:10:46,900 --> 00:10:49,400 - Pink! - Look at that! 218 00:10:52,305 --> 00:10:54,472 Thank you so much for coming out on a holiday. 219 00:10:54,474 --> 00:10:55,840 I-I'm so embarrassed. 220 00:10:55,842 --> 00:10:57,508 I was sure I smelled something. 221 00:10:57,510 --> 00:10:59,644 Ingrid, there's no sign of gas, smoke, 222 00:10:59,646 --> 00:11:01,979 or anything that makes your shop in any way vulnerable. 223 00:11:01,981 --> 00:11:04,315 Are you positive? I-I was sure I smelled gas. 224 00:11:04,317 --> 00:11:06,684 Like, so much so that i-it made me a little dizzy. 225 00:11:06,686 --> 00:11:08,819 These things are scary accurate, alright? 226 00:11:08,821 --> 00:11:10,120 More sensitive than drug dogs 227 00:11:10,122 --> 00:11:11,555 or those little, uh... those little pigs 228 00:11:11,557 --> 00:11:12,990 - that look for, um... - Truffle pigs. 229 00:11:12,992 --> 00:11:14,291 Yes. Truffle pigs. 230 00:11:14,293 --> 00:11:16,327 Uh, could it be a stroke? Should I see a doctor? 231 00:11:16,329 --> 00:11:18,462 I mean, don't you smell things before a stroke? 232 00:11:18,464 --> 00:11:21,098 I-I know I sound paranoid, but I smelled... 233 00:11:21,100 --> 00:11:22,454 I didn't imagine it. 234 00:11:22,455 --> 00:11:24,068 Okay, look, Ingrid, the... 235 00:11:24,070 --> 00:11:26,016 The holidays can be tough when you're grieving, 236 00:11:26,017 --> 00:11:27,783 e-especially after the loss of a spouse. 237 00:11:29,208 --> 00:11:30,674 You know, w-we're having Thanksgiving 238 00:11:30,676 --> 00:11:31,842 at the station this afternoon. 239 00:11:31,844 --> 00:11:33,610 Why don't you drop by, grab a slice of pie, 240 00:11:33,612 --> 00:11:35,912 and, you know, be around people? 241 00:11:35,914 --> 00:11:38,782 That's so sweet. I... 242 00:11:38,784 --> 00:11:40,351 Yes, I-I would love to. 243 00:11:40,353 --> 00:11:42,353 Great, okay. Then we'll see you in a bit. 244 00:11:42,355 --> 00:11:43,987 Okay. Alright. Alright. 245 00:11:45,756 --> 00:11:46,822 She's lonely. 246 00:11:46,824 --> 00:11:48,257 - You're asking for it. - No, I'm not... 247 00:11:51,296 --> 00:11:53,762 Dad, could you at least silence your phone? 248 00:11:53,764 --> 00:11:55,764 Then what's the point of notifications, Travis? 249 00:11:55,766 --> 00:11:57,233 Why do you need notifications 250 00:11:57,235 --> 00:11:59,335 when you're with your family on Thanksgiving? 251 00:11:59,337 --> 00:12:01,204 It's the holidays. 252 00:12:01,206 --> 00:12:03,672 I would never ask you not to see Emmett on the holidays. 253 00:12:03,674 --> 00:12:05,208 Except you would. And you did. 254 00:12:05,210 --> 00:12:06,609 Because when I first started dating Michael, 255 00:12:06,611 --> 00:12:08,111 you wouldn't let me invite him to Christmas dinner. 256 00:12:10,781 --> 00:12:12,948 Wait a minute. You... 257 00:12:14,752 --> 00:12:16,919 You're not trying to meet up with Kyle today, are you? 258 00:12:16,921 --> 00:12:19,087 What I do with my personal life is none of your business. 259 00:12:19,089 --> 00:12:21,690 Except it is when it concerns my mother. 260 00:12:21,692 --> 00:12:23,526 Your mother is my wife. 261 00:12:23,528 --> 00:12:26,426 Don't worry about our marriage. Your mom and I are happy. 262 00:12:26,898 --> 00:12:28,964 I know it's impossible for you to believe 263 00:12:28,966 --> 00:12:31,166 that anyone could be happy who doesn't live their life 264 00:12:31,168 --> 00:12:33,536 according to your standards, but we are. 265 00:12:33,538 --> 00:12:35,971 Well, you're asking me to lie, and I can't live with that. 266 00:12:37,775 --> 00:12:41,010 Then tell your mother. Go ahead. 267 00:12:41,012 --> 00:12:42,778 You're not going to, are you, Travis? 268 00:12:42,780 --> 00:12:44,647 'Cause then you won't have a reason to write me off 269 00:12:44,649 --> 00:12:47,382 like you do anybody else who doesn't play by your rules. 270 00:12:51,187 --> 00:12:52,683 Travis... 271 00:12:53,524 --> 00:12:55,023 I love you and I love your mother. 272 00:12:55,025 --> 00:12:57,025 No, Dad, you don't love us, 273 00:12:57,027 --> 00:12:58,693 because if you did, you wouldn't lie to us. 274 00:12:58,695 --> 00:13:01,463 Travis, you've never lied to anyone to protect them? 275 00:13:01,465 --> 00:13:02,664 Dad, protect who? 276 00:13:02,666 --> 00:13:04,966 The only person that you're protecting is yourself. 277 00:13:04,968 --> 00:13:07,169 You are having an affair. 278 00:13:07,171 --> 00:13:08,703 Gay or straight, it doesn't matter. 279 00:13:08,705 --> 00:13:10,605 When you met Emmett, he was engaged to someone else. 280 00:13:10,607 --> 00:13:12,140 That is such... 281 00:13:15,745 --> 00:13:18,380 Um, I have an idea. 282 00:13:18,382 --> 00:13:20,415 Why don't we do that thing, you know, 283 00:13:20,417 --> 00:13:23,484 where you go around and say what you're grateful for? 284 00:13:24,788 --> 00:13:27,021 Isn't that a "dinner table" thing, Paul? 285 00:13:27,023 --> 00:13:29,557 We can occupy ourselves while we work. 286 00:13:29,559 --> 00:13:31,826 I think that's really cute, right? 287 00:13:31,828 --> 00:13:33,260 I-I-I'll go first. 288 00:13:33,262 --> 00:13:35,897 Uh, okay, in this, uh, you know, 289 00:13:35,899 --> 00:13:37,198 uncertain world, 290 00:13:37,200 --> 00:13:39,667 I am grateful for my love. 291 00:13:41,037 --> 00:13:42,870 Um... 292 00:13:42,872 --> 00:13:46,808 I am grateful I got out of bed this morning. 293 00:13:48,578 --> 00:13:50,612 Trav? You want to...? 294 00:13:51,681 --> 00:13:53,514 Yeah, yeah. I'll go. 295 00:13:53,516 --> 00:13:56,538 Uh, I'm grateful for truth. 296 00:13:56,703 --> 00:13:57,852 Yeah, you know? 297 00:13:57,853 --> 00:14:01,452 'Cause life is too short to live it in a lie. 298 00:14:02,024 --> 00:14:04,325 Yeah, uh, Nari, why don't you go next? 299 00:14:04,327 --> 00:14:05,726 - Oh, me? - Yeah. 300 00:14:05,728 --> 00:14:08,249 Well, I'm grateful for my son, 301 00:14:08,897 --> 00:14:10,697 and for Emmett, 302 00:14:10,699 --> 00:14:12,366 and for my loving husband, Paul. 303 00:14:12,368 --> 00:14:13,501 Aww. 304 00:14:13,503 --> 00:14:15,136 Dad, why don't you go? 305 00:14:15,138 --> 00:14:16,570 Are you grateful for you loving wife? 306 00:14:16,572 --> 00:14:18,105 - For God's sake, Travis... - That's a terrible start, Dad. 307 00:14:18,107 --> 00:14:19,206 Would you stop it?! 308 00:14:19,208 --> 00:14:21,808 You push and you push and you push 309 00:14:21,810 --> 00:14:23,777 and you don't know when to quit! 310 00:14:23,779 --> 00:14:24,802 Honey! 311 00:14:24,803 --> 00:14:26,079 I'm gay, alright? 312 00:14:26,081 --> 00:14:27,948 I'm in love with a man! 313 00:14:28,160 --> 00:14:31,594 And my son won't give me one day of peace! 314 00:14:39,060 --> 00:14:40,393 Mom... 315 00:14:40,395 --> 00:14:42,428 Excuse me. 316 00:14:46,972 --> 00:14:48,705 I'm sorry. 317 00:14:48,706 --> 00:14:50,639 I'm grateful for nervous laughter. 318 00:14:50,790 --> 00:14:52,677 Travis. 319 00:14:59,853 --> 00:15:02,830 - Mom. Mom, wait. - Travis, I do not want to speak to you. 320 00:15:02,840 --> 00:15:04,940 - To me? - You had to push him. 321 00:15:04,942 --> 00:15:06,074 I didn't, Mom. 322 00:15:06,076 --> 00:15:08,677 I saw you. The constant harassing. 323 00:15:08,679 --> 00:15:11,313 We would have been fine if you hadn't said anything. 324 00:15:11,315 --> 00:15:13,248 Wait, did... you know? 325 00:15:13,250 --> 00:15:14,783 Of course not. 326 00:15:15,486 --> 00:15:18,220 I knew something was off. 327 00:15:18,222 --> 00:15:19,305 Our sex life hasn't been 328 00:15:19,306 --> 00:15:20,490 - Oh, God. - the same for years... 329 00:15:20,491 --> 00:15:22,725 ... but we still go to the farmers' market together 330 00:15:22,727 --> 00:15:24,226 every weekend, 331 00:15:24,228 --> 00:15:27,295 and he helps me do the dishes every night after dinner. 332 00:15:27,297 --> 00:15:28,633 Our little things. 333 00:15:28,634 --> 00:15:30,615 No marriage is perfect. 334 00:15:30,616 --> 00:15:32,716 Why did you have to push him? 335 00:15:39,709 --> 00:15:40,809 Oh, my. 336 00:15:40,811 --> 00:15:42,009 Mrs. Montgomery, I-I-I was gonna... 337 00:15:42,011 --> 00:15:43,277 You're making a mess. Give me that. 338 00:15:43,279 --> 00:15:44,846 No, I was gonna do it on my own, 339 00:15:44,848 --> 00:15:46,577 - if that's... I'm just trying to... - No, you weren't. 340 00:15:46,578 --> 00:15:48,211 I'm helping. 341 00:15:49,853 --> 00:15:51,319 Stop! 342 00:15:51,321 --> 00:15:53,822 Sorry, it's the... the watch. 343 00:15:55,692 --> 00:15:56,957 What are you doing, Nari? 344 00:15:56,959 --> 00:15:58,425 Cooking. 345 00:15:58,427 --> 00:15:59,427 Why? 346 00:15:59,428 --> 00:16:00,761 It soothes me. 347 00:16:00,763 --> 00:16:02,696 People think they know what's best for you. 348 00:16:02,698 --> 00:16:05,165 Keeping information and then doling it out as they see fit 349 00:16:05,167 --> 00:16:07,000 to "protect" you. 350 00:16:08,143 --> 00:16:09,943 When it just hurts worse than the thing they think 351 00:16:09,944 --> 00:16:11,444 they're protecting you from, right? 352 00:16:13,375 --> 00:16:14,741 Because in addition to the pain 353 00:16:14,743 --> 00:16:16,480 of the actual thing, you think, 354 00:16:17,179 --> 00:16:19,980 "Did everyone just think I couldn't deal with the truth?" 355 00:16:19,982 --> 00:16:21,381 And then it's too late anyway, 356 00:16:21,383 --> 00:16:24,417 because the truth just exploded, 357 00:16:24,419 --> 00:16:25,521 like it does. 358 00:16:25,522 --> 00:16:26,587 Exactly. 359 00:16:26,589 --> 00:16:28,689 Though I suppose I now have all the information, 360 00:16:28,691 --> 00:16:30,858 and it doesn't feel very good, either. 361 00:16:30,859 --> 00:16:33,651 You know, I used to think things happened for a reason. 362 00:16:34,428 --> 00:16:37,376 But the truth is, there's nothing. There's no meaning. 363 00:16:37,966 --> 00:16:39,331 You know, you're... 364 00:16:39,333 --> 00:16:41,033 You're in a building or you're outside of a building. 365 00:16:41,035 --> 00:16:43,566 The building blows up or it doesn't blow up. 366 00:16:43,567 --> 00:16:44,927 Your best friend's in love with you 367 00:16:44,928 --> 00:16:46,205 or he isn't in love with you. 368 00:16:46,207 --> 00:16:47,874 You live and you die, and... 369 00:16:47,876 --> 00:16:50,476 It's all just random, meaningless cruelty. 370 00:16:50,478 --> 00:16:52,211 Is that supposed to make me feel better? 371 00:16:55,349 --> 00:16:57,416 Sorry. I'm sorry. 372 00:16:58,953 --> 00:17:01,153 Hey. Where is she? 373 00:17:01,155 --> 00:17:03,055 - In the...? - It's okay. It's okay. 374 00:17:03,057 --> 00:17:05,790 She... She's upstairs with Bishop and DeLuca. 375 00:17:05,792 --> 00:17:07,559 Oh. Sorry. 376 00:17:07,561 --> 00:17:12,131 J... That call from the lawyers has me on high alert, 377 00:17:12,133 --> 00:17:15,334 'cause they are her family, and if they want... 378 00:17:15,336 --> 00:17:17,336 Miranda, you know better than anyone 379 00:17:17,338 --> 00:17:19,571 that blood does not a family make. 380 00:17:19,573 --> 00:17:21,473 We are also her family. 381 00:17:23,610 --> 00:17:24,843 Oh. 382 00:17:24,845 --> 00:17:25,877 Ben. 383 00:17:25,879 --> 00:17:27,346 Oh, "Ben"? 384 00:17:28,482 --> 00:17:31,016 Um, Ingrid, uh, this is Miranda. 385 00:17:31,018 --> 00:17:32,584 Dr. Miranda Bailey. 386 00:17:32,586 --> 00:17:33,885 And you are? 387 00:17:33,887 --> 00:17:36,588 Ingrid Saunders. I live in the neighborhood. 388 00:17:36,590 --> 00:17:38,990 I'm gonna go check on Pru. 389 00:17:38,992 --> 00:17:40,859 Okay. 390 00:17:45,398 --> 00:17:47,832 - Miranda is... - My wife. 391 00:17:49,703 --> 00:17:51,097 Oh. 392 00:17:51,805 --> 00:17:53,504 Oh, of course. 393 00:17:53,679 --> 00:17:55,312 Yes, you're... you're married. 394 00:17:55,313 --> 00:17:57,609 - Mm-hmm. - Um... 395 00:17:57,611 --> 00:17:59,410 You know what? I'm gonna... I'm gonna go. 396 00:17:59,412 --> 00:18:00,743 Uh, keep the pie. 397 00:18:00,744 --> 00:18:02,333 - It's the least I can do. - Um, I-Ingrid, Ingrid, Ingrid. 398 00:18:02,334 --> 00:18:04,482 Ingrid, please. Just... stay. 399 00:18:04,484 --> 00:18:06,517 You don't have to be alone today. 400 00:18:08,055 --> 00:18:09,617 Just, um... 401 00:18:23,669 --> 00:18:25,470 Miller was clear on what he wanted. 402 00:18:25,472 --> 00:18:27,772 He wanted Warren to raise Pru. 403 00:18:27,774 --> 00:18:30,241 J.J. doesn't get to have a say, not one word. 404 00:18:30,243 --> 00:18:32,743 And I'm sorry, but neither do Miller's parents. 405 00:18:32,745 --> 00:18:35,746 Miller raised that baby. He raised her. 406 00:18:35,748 --> 00:18:38,483 He did the work. He poured the love in. 407 00:18:38,485 --> 00:18:40,518 Her Station 19 family picked up the slack, 408 00:18:40,520 --> 00:18:42,153 so no one gets to take her away. 409 00:18:43,156 --> 00:18:44,888 So, uh... 410 00:18:46,091 --> 00:18:48,892 Did you know that Miller was in love with Vic? 411 00:18:48,894 --> 00:18:51,128 Please tell me you're not so insecure in your manhood 412 00:18:51,130 --> 00:18:53,517 that you're jealous of Dean. 413 00:18:53,518 --> 00:18:54,983 He's gone. 414 00:18:55,968 --> 00:18:58,302 He's... He's... He's... 415 00:18:58,304 --> 00:19:00,037 He's dead! 416 00:19:00,039 --> 00:19:01,805 And Vic had a... had a heart attack. 417 00:19:01,807 --> 00:19:03,340 How are you making this about you? 418 00:19:03,341 --> 00:19:04,475 Whoa. 419 00:19:04,477 --> 00:19:06,146 How am I...? 420 00:19:08,847 --> 00:19:11,180 You know, why is everyone else 421 00:19:11,182 --> 00:19:13,517 allowed to process their feelings around here but me? 422 00:19:13,657 --> 00:19:15,523 I didn't say I was losing sleep over it. 423 00:19:15,525 --> 00:19:18,501 I'm just talking to my friend about something that... 424 00:19:19,102 --> 00:19:21,996 I don't know, kind of feels like a big deal to me. 425 00:19:21,998 --> 00:19:25,933 Sorry that my worries aren't as important as yours, Captain. 426 00:19:25,935 --> 00:19:26,968 Damn. 427 00:19:31,975 --> 00:19:34,308 Hysterical/historical. 428 00:19:35,344 --> 00:19:36,477 What? 429 00:19:36,479 --> 00:19:39,213 I'm hysterical, which I have been told means 430 00:19:39,215 --> 00:19:41,515 that it's historical. It's... 431 00:19:41,517 --> 00:19:44,819 I'm... I'm making Miller's death 432 00:19:44,821 --> 00:19:47,988 and that poor little girl's life all about me. 433 00:19:47,990 --> 00:19:51,491 And I'm mad at you because I'm mad at the world, 434 00:19:51,493 --> 00:19:54,027 because I'm mad at my own mother. 435 00:19:59,902 --> 00:20:01,514 Damn. 436 00:20:10,179 --> 00:20:13,860 I-I didn't know Miller was in love with Vic, 437 00:20:14,616 --> 00:20:16,850 but once I found out, it made sense. 438 00:20:16,852 --> 00:20:19,557 But I don't think she loved him back. 439 00:20:20,689 --> 00:20:22,355 Because if she did, she would have recognized 440 00:20:22,357 --> 00:20:23,924 that he loved her, and instead, 441 00:20:23,926 --> 00:20:26,125 she just chose not to see it. 442 00:20:34,235 --> 00:20:35,567 Hey, I've been looking for you. 443 00:20:35,569 --> 00:20:37,069 I needed a shower. 444 00:20:38,472 --> 00:20:40,606 You are very understanding 445 00:20:40,608 --> 00:20:43,542 and very forgiving of my father. 446 00:20:43,544 --> 00:20:45,544 Because I've been where he is. 447 00:20:45,546 --> 00:20:48,313 Yeah, that man didn't show up to my wedding, 448 00:20:48,315 --> 00:20:51,016 and he didn't let my mom come, either. 449 00:20:51,018 --> 00:20:54,486 And I understand that he was mired in self-loathing. 450 00:20:54,488 --> 00:20:56,055 I get that now. 451 00:20:56,057 --> 00:20:58,157 But does that mean that all the pain that he caused 452 00:20:58,159 --> 00:21:00,626 my whole life and the pain that he's causing my mother now, 453 00:21:00,628 --> 00:21:03,161 that it's just... it's nothing? 454 00:21:03,163 --> 00:21:05,430 It's just instantly forgiven? 455 00:21:05,432 --> 00:21:07,733 I need you on my side. 456 00:21:07,735 --> 00:21:08,867 And, yeah, that... 457 00:21:08,869 --> 00:21:11,809 It's selfish and it's irrational. 458 00:21:14,007 --> 00:21:15,974 But I'm in pain, too. 459 00:21:15,976 --> 00:21:17,842 I know. I... 460 00:21:17,844 --> 00:21:20,545 It would just be nice if someone could... 461 00:21:20,547 --> 00:21:22,447 You know, be on my side. 462 00:21:24,285 --> 00:21:26,518 Trav, there are no sides here, okay? 463 00:21:26,520 --> 00:21:29,755 No. I'm sorry. I love you. 464 00:21:29,757 --> 00:21:31,657 But there's work to be done. 465 00:21:40,833 --> 00:21:42,099 Not officially back. 466 00:21:42,101 --> 00:21:44,568 But... No, I'm not. I just... 467 00:21:44,570 --> 00:21:46,236 I did just find out 468 00:21:46,238 --> 00:21:48,939 that this is where I'm gonna be benched 469 00:21:48,941 --> 00:21:50,073 for the next several weeks 470 00:21:50,075 --> 00:21:52,242 while my fragile, fragile heart heals. 471 00:21:52,244 --> 00:21:53,477 Mm. 472 00:21:55,181 --> 00:21:57,032 Hey, thank you for... 473 00:21:57,033 --> 00:21:58,882 Taking over Crisis One. 474 00:21:59,819 --> 00:22:01,985 It means a lot, and I'll be ready to help again soon. 475 00:22:01,987 --> 00:22:03,554 It's just... 476 00:22:03,556 --> 00:22:05,522 Sullivan's been helping. 477 00:22:05,524 --> 00:22:07,542 And Warren and Montgomery. 478 00:22:08,393 --> 00:22:11,761 That program will not die with Dean Miller. 479 00:22:11,763 --> 00:22:13,730 It's his legacy, and we will all protect it. 480 00:22:15,767 --> 00:22:17,216 That sounds concerning. 481 00:22:17,217 --> 00:22:19,560 Oh, it's not. It's just my heart. 482 00:22:19,805 --> 00:22:21,604 Your heart is not concerning? 483 00:22:21,606 --> 00:22:24,174 Metaphor. Cool. Okay. 484 00:22:25,744 --> 00:22:27,144 Thank you. Thank you so much. 485 00:22:27,146 --> 00:22:28,979 - Thanks for the pie. - Mm-hmm. 486 00:22:28,981 --> 00:22:31,315 And, you know, thanks for checking in. 487 00:22:31,317 --> 00:22:32,916 I don't want to keep you from your family, 488 00:22:32,918 --> 00:22:34,750 so I'll... I'll take this upstairs for you. 489 00:22:36,187 --> 00:22:37,653 Nothing you want to get off your chest? 490 00:22:37,655 --> 00:22:38,955 Um... 491 00:22:38,957 --> 00:22:40,811 You know, I'm just kinda... 492 00:22:41,692 --> 00:22:43,092 Doing my thing. 493 00:22:43,094 --> 00:22:45,594 You know, my push through it and... 494 00:22:45,596 --> 00:22:47,429 Keep it light and feel the feelings 495 00:22:47,431 --> 00:22:49,999 but don't dwell on them thing. 496 00:22:52,107 --> 00:22:54,741 The truth is, I want to crawl into a hole. 497 00:23:00,411 --> 00:23:02,011 And I want to let that hole swallow me 498 00:23:02,013 --> 00:23:04,247 and hope that no one finds me. 499 00:23:04,249 --> 00:23:06,182 And why can't you let yourself do that? 500 00:23:06,184 --> 00:23:08,018 Because everyone expects me 501 00:23:08,019 --> 00:23:09,851 to be me and to make jokes 502 00:23:09,853 --> 00:23:11,926 and make them feel better and... 503 00:23:13,290 --> 00:23:16,342 laugh through the tears, like I did when Lucas... 504 00:23:18,962 --> 00:23:21,863 Why do you care about what they expect? 505 00:23:21,865 --> 00:23:23,298 Because if I don't, 506 00:23:23,300 --> 00:23:26,167 it means that this death hurt more than that one, 507 00:23:26,169 --> 00:23:28,603 and I can't let that be true, 'cause it's... 508 00:23:30,259 --> 00:23:31,926 It's not. 509 00:23:33,777 --> 00:23:35,553 We all have a 510 00:23:36,361 --> 00:23:38,834 psychological immune system. 511 00:23:39,516 --> 00:23:41,816 Just like our physiological immune system 512 00:23:41,818 --> 00:23:44,351 helps our bodies recover from physical attacks, 513 00:23:44,353 --> 00:23:46,453 our brains are working to protect us 514 00:23:46,455 --> 00:23:48,255 from psychological ones. 515 00:23:48,257 --> 00:23:50,190 Maybe when your fiancé died, 516 00:23:50,192 --> 00:23:51,858 that's how your brain protected you, 517 00:23:51,860 --> 00:23:55,229 and now it's dealing with the attack a little differently. 518 00:23:56,966 --> 00:23:58,358 Yeah. 519 00:24:01,103 --> 00:24:02,693 Miller was... 520 00:24:03,272 --> 00:24:05,472 He was in love with me, it turns out. 521 00:24:05,474 --> 00:24:06,673 I know. 522 00:24:06,675 --> 00:24:09,376 Why did everybody know that but me? What... 523 00:24:09,378 --> 00:24:11,111 Psychological immune system, maybe? 524 00:24:11,113 --> 00:24:12,913 Yeah. 525 00:24:12,915 --> 00:24:14,248 I can't. 526 00:24:14,250 --> 00:24:16,316 Your love for him can be as real 527 00:24:16,318 --> 00:24:18,751 as it feels for you right now... 528 00:24:18,753 --> 00:24:23,656 As real and immense and significant as it was and is 529 00:24:23,658 --> 00:24:26,225 without you having been in love with him back. 530 00:24:27,996 --> 00:24:29,595 You're punishing yourself 531 00:24:29,597 --> 00:24:31,931 for not being in love with him back... 532 00:24:31,933 --> 00:24:34,133 something your brain knew on some level, 533 00:24:34,135 --> 00:24:35,846 because you're not dumb. 534 00:24:37,111 --> 00:24:41,647 You were just afraid of what would happen if it were true. 535 00:24:45,580 --> 00:24:46,833 Thank you... 536 00:24:47,148 --> 00:24:48,505 For the... 537 00:24:50,918 --> 00:24:52,818 ... for the pie. 538 00:24:52,819 --> 00:24:55,195 You guys always feel better when you talk to me. 539 00:24:55,197 --> 00:24:57,656 - Yeah. - I do not understand 540 00:24:57,775 --> 00:25:00,643 why you always fight me on it first. 541 00:25:02,222 --> 00:25:04,222 Enjoy that pie. 542 00:25:04,365 --> 00:25:06,131 Thanks. 543 00:25:13,741 --> 00:25:17,543 Isn't Thanksgiving supposed to be one of our busier days? 544 00:25:17,545 --> 00:25:20,846 So, uh, Paul? 545 00:25:22,483 --> 00:25:24,082 What do you do for work? 546 00:25:24,084 --> 00:25:25,217 Hey, Warren. 547 00:25:25,219 --> 00:25:26,351 Oh, thank God. 548 00:25:26,353 --> 00:25:28,153 That, uh, woman you invited? 549 00:25:28,155 --> 00:25:30,088 I just saw her wandering around the locker room. 550 00:25:30,090 --> 00:25:32,057 Um, you invited her? 551 00:25:32,059 --> 00:25:33,615 Wh... S-She's a widow. 552 00:25:33,616 --> 00:25:34,981 What... Okay, where'd you see her last? 553 00:25:34,982 --> 00:25:36,561 I don't know, poking around the bunks? 554 00:25:36,563 --> 00:25:37,913 Alright. I'll find her. 555 00:25:37,914 --> 00:25:40,565 Yeah, you find her, and then later, 556 00:25:40,567 --> 00:25:42,534 we're having a conversation. 557 00:25:46,507 --> 00:25:50,075 How are we doing? Is that a turkey? 558 00:25:50,077 --> 00:25:52,576 Thought you'd be off with your boyfriend by now. 559 00:25:53,280 --> 00:25:55,513 I'm not leaving. 560 00:25:55,515 --> 00:25:56,780 I love your mother. 561 00:25:56,782 --> 00:25:58,973 I'm sorry for the way things came out, but... 562 00:25:59,652 --> 00:26:02,086 I'm not sorry I said it. 563 00:26:02,088 --> 00:26:05,156 I feel... free. 564 00:26:05,158 --> 00:26:08,159 I have held onto that for decades. 565 00:26:08,161 --> 00:26:09,960 I never let myself feel okay. 566 00:26:09,962 --> 00:26:12,596 I never let myself feel. 567 00:26:12,598 --> 00:26:14,565 I'm not you. 568 00:26:14,567 --> 00:26:16,711 I'm not brave like you. 569 00:26:17,503 --> 00:26:19,456 But I'm learning from your example, 570 00:26:20,506 --> 00:26:21,872 so I'm not leaving. 571 00:26:21,874 --> 00:26:23,541 I want your mom to know that I'm here. 572 00:26:23,543 --> 00:26:25,876 I want her to know that, at least. 573 00:26:25,878 --> 00:26:28,245 I'm still here for her... 574 00:26:28,247 --> 00:26:30,381 And I'm still here for you. 575 00:26:35,054 --> 00:26:37,888 I'm gonna, uh... grab more dishes. 576 00:26:44,129 --> 00:26:46,063 He'll come around. 577 00:26:46,065 --> 00:26:48,098 Sorry, w-we haven't met. 578 00:26:48,100 --> 00:26:49,432 Paul. Paul Montgomery. 579 00:26:49,434 --> 00:26:51,935 Paul. Hi, uh, Dr. Miranda Bailey. 580 00:26:51,937 --> 00:26:53,236 Hi. 581 00:26:53,238 --> 00:26:54,238 Happy Thanksgiving. 582 00:26:54,239 --> 00:26:55,772 Happy Thanksgiving. 583 00:27:01,113 --> 00:27:02,946 I feel so stupid. 584 00:27:02,948 --> 00:27:04,981 You're married. Of course you are. 585 00:27:04,983 --> 00:27:06,381 I-I'm sorry if I ever gave you 586 00:27:06,383 --> 00:27:08,217 the wrong impression about my intentions. 587 00:27:08,219 --> 00:27:11,053 Yeah, that... that's like an "I'm sorry you feel that way" sorry. 588 00:27:11,055 --> 00:27:13,188 I don't know how I got this so wrong. 589 00:27:13,190 --> 00:27:15,390 - Ingrid, I never meant to... - I know! 590 00:27:15,392 --> 00:27:17,226 Please stop saying that. It's more embarrassing. 591 00:27:17,228 --> 00:27:18,894 You have nothing to be embarrassed about. 592 00:27:18,896 --> 00:27:22,364 You invited me here like a stray dog you felt bad for, 593 00:27:22,366 --> 00:27:24,667 and I thought it was a date. 594 00:27:26,504 --> 00:27:28,804 Just put out a bowl of water for me. 595 00:27:28,806 --> 00:27:29,806 I'll be fine. 596 00:27:29,807 --> 00:27:31,140 Ingrid. Ingrid, look at me. 597 00:27:31,142 --> 00:27:33,007 Have you ever lost anyone? 598 00:27:34,679 --> 00:27:37,346 - Actually... - Someone you loved? 599 00:27:38,105 --> 00:27:42,451 Someone you'd slept beside every night for 10 years? 600 00:27:43,019 --> 00:27:46,655 No. Not... Not someone like that. 601 00:27:46,657 --> 00:27:48,423 Ugh, I didn't used to be like this! 602 00:27:48,425 --> 00:27:50,913 I used to like being alone, but... 603 00:27:52,196 --> 00:27:57,052 Scott, he became a part of me, and now... 604 00:27:57,968 --> 00:27:59,234 And now... 605 00:27:59,236 --> 00:28:00,969 Ingrid. Ingrid. Ingrid, no, no, no, no! 606 00:28:00,971 --> 00:28:02,171 No, Ingrid, listen to me. 607 00:28:02,173 --> 00:28:04,706 No, no, no, please, just leave me alone. 608 00:28:06,881 --> 00:28:08,881 I want to be alone. 609 00:28:14,162 --> 00:28:15,797 Ingrid, please. 610 00:28:15,798 --> 00:28:16,930 I can't. 611 00:28:17,181 --> 00:28:19,317 I can't do this anymore. 612 00:28:19,318 --> 00:28:20,401 I can't. 613 00:28:20,403 --> 00:28:21,802 Ingrid. 614 00:28:21,851 --> 00:28:23,896 - No, no, no. - J-J-Just stay... stay back. 615 00:28:23,897 --> 00:28:26,030 Look, this building is not that tall, okay? 616 00:28:26,031 --> 00:28:27,698 If you jump, the worst that's gonna happen is, 617 00:28:27,700 --> 00:28:29,432 you break both your legs and you're in terrible pain. 618 00:28:29,434 --> 00:28:32,235 Yeah, well, that sounds better than how I feel right now. 619 00:28:32,237 --> 00:28:34,538 Besides, then I won't be alone. 620 00:28:34,540 --> 00:28:36,974 I'll... I'll be in the hospital and... 621 00:28:36,976 --> 00:28:40,377 And people will check on me and bring me food. 622 00:28:40,379 --> 00:28:43,445 Do you know what it's like to cook for yourself 623 00:28:43,447 --> 00:28:46,949 all by yourself every day, all the time? 624 00:28:46,951 --> 00:28:48,450 The hospital sounds better than that. 625 00:28:48,452 --> 00:28:50,019 Well, your next meal won't be alone 626 00:28:50,021 --> 00:28:52,889 if you'd just come downstairs and e-eat with us. 627 00:28:52,891 --> 00:28:54,891 Yeah, what would your wife say about that? 628 00:28:55,459 --> 00:28:56,559 Ingrid. 629 00:28:56,561 --> 00:28:57,827 I'm sorry. 630 00:28:57,828 --> 00:28:59,094 What am I even saying? 631 00:28:59,096 --> 00:29:02,097 I-It's not even... It's not about... 632 00:29:05,703 --> 00:29:07,503 No one would even miss me. 633 00:29:07,505 --> 00:29:08,905 That's not true. 634 00:29:09,552 --> 00:29:11,953 I might break both my legs, but... 635 00:29:13,832 --> 00:29:15,597 But maybe I'll get lucky 636 00:29:15,598 --> 00:29:18,099 and hit my head and never wake up. 637 00:29:27,457 --> 00:29:28,957 You know, Jack, I... 638 00:29:28,958 --> 00:29:30,825 Lost my brother, too. 639 00:29:31,194 --> 00:29:33,061 And it feels like... 640 00:29:33,063 --> 00:29:36,347 Like you can't get air in your lungs, like... 641 00:29:36,636 --> 00:29:38,967 Like nothing will ever be okay again, 642 00:29:38,969 --> 00:29:41,570 like you will never feel joy again. 643 00:29:41,572 --> 00:29:42,971 So you try to push it down, 644 00:29:42,973 --> 00:29:45,706 and you try not to feel it, and the awful irony is that 645 00:29:45,708 --> 00:29:48,119 the further you push it down, 646 00:29:48,396 --> 00:29:50,426 the longer it stays. 647 00:29:50,546 --> 00:29:52,312 So you have to let it out... 648 00:29:52,314 --> 00:29:55,148 To cry, to laugh, and... and cry again... 649 00:29:55,150 --> 00:29:56,650 which is all the same thing, by the way, 650 00:29:56,652 --> 00:29:59,278 crying and laughing and... and screaming and... 651 00:29:59,279 --> 00:30:00,946 And dancing. 652 00:30:00,947 --> 00:30:02,723 I-It lets it out of your body, 653 00:30:02,725 --> 00:30:05,279 and you need it out of your body, because... 654 00:30:05,280 --> 00:30:07,896 Because when it comes out, 655 00:30:07,897 --> 00:30:11,799 it makes room for light to come back in. 656 00:30:12,450 --> 00:30:15,818 Why do I smell... smoke?! 657 00:30:16,305 --> 00:30:17,571 Oh, my God. 658 00:30:20,976 --> 00:30:22,109 It's locked! 659 00:30:22,111 --> 00:30:23,876 It was set to "clean" instead of "bake." 660 00:30:23,878 --> 00:30:25,512 Oh, come on, I can't put it out 661 00:30:25,514 --> 00:30:26,846 if we can't get in there. 662 00:30:26,848 --> 00:30:28,047 Come on, pull. 663 00:30:29,585 --> 00:30:32,033 It feels so spiky and awful and I just... 664 00:30:33,288 --> 00:30:35,288 I should be at the acceptance phase already. 665 00:30:35,290 --> 00:30:37,857 I-It's been over a year. I don't get it. 666 00:30:37,859 --> 00:30:38,992 I just don't get it. 667 00:30:38,994 --> 00:30:41,309 Who says you should be at acceptance yet? 668 00:30:41,638 --> 00:30:44,974 A year, it... it... it's not that long, 669 00:30:44,975 --> 00:30:46,870 n-not for grief. 670 00:30:47,042 --> 00:30:49,493 That... That study, 671 00:30:49,494 --> 00:30:51,004 Uh, the five stages? 672 00:30:51,006 --> 00:30:52,872 It's, um... 673 00:30:52,874 --> 00:30:55,408 It's crap, okay? I-It's utter nonsense. 674 00:30:55,410 --> 00:30:58,612 It... It... It was about terminally ill patients 675 00:30:58,879 --> 00:31:01,495 coming to terms with their own death. 676 00:31:02,149 --> 00:31:04,750 I mean, a person accepting the end of their own life 677 00:31:04,752 --> 00:31:06,885 is totally different than accepting 678 00:31:06,887 --> 00:31:09,555 losing someone you love. 679 00:31:09,557 --> 00:31:11,624 Look, we... we... we're, um... 680 00:31:12,486 --> 00:31:14,437 We're all living that 681 00:31:14,789 --> 00:31:16,739 firsthand right now. 682 00:31:17,698 --> 00:31:19,665 You sign up to be a firefighter, 683 00:31:19,667 --> 00:31:21,565 on some level you're accepting that 684 00:31:22,080 --> 00:31:24,736 you could lose your own life. 685 00:31:24,738 --> 00:31:27,005 B-But, um, when it's... 686 00:31:27,007 --> 00:31:28,707 When it's someone else's, you know, 687 00:31:28,709 --> 00:31:31,699 one of your brothers or sisters, 688 00:31:32,580 --> 00:31:37,081 I-I don't know how we'll ever "accept" that. 689 00:31:38,098 --> 00:31:41,166 I-I'm not sure we ever will. 690 00:31:45,091 --> 00:31:46,224 What is happening?! 691 00:31:46,226 --> 00:31:47,492 Everything's on fire! 692 00:31:47,494 --> 00:31:49,126 - My turkey! - Pru. 693 00:31:49,128 --> 00:31:50,662 I-It's okay. Vic took her to Bailey. 694 00:31:50,664 --> 00:31:52,029 Open the patio door! 695 00:31:52,031 --> 00:31:54,065 Okay. 696 00:31:56,069 --> 00:31:57,268 What are you doing?! 697 00:31:57,270 --> 00:31:58,803 I'm getting that turkey out! 698 00:31:58,805 --> 00:32:00,791 Travis, that oven is really expensive! 699 00:32:00,792 --> 00:32:02,057 Mom, please! 700 00:32:09,573 --> 00:32:11,840 Uh, Ingrid? 701 00:32:14,853 --> 00:32:19,319 You don't really want to jump, do you? 702 00:32:19,891 --> 00:32:21,225 I-I don't think you do. 703 00:32:21,227 --> 00:32:22,826 You don't know me. 704 00:32:22,828 --> 00:32:24,628 I'm just some crazy lady 705 00:32:24,630 --> 00:32:27,397 who thought we were getting romantically involved. 706 00:32:27,399 --> 00:32:28,665 Well, hey, you know what? 707 00:32:28,667 --> 00:32:30,200 I might be married, 708 00:32:30,202 --> 00:32:32,969 but the next guy might not be. 709 00:32:32,971 --> 00:32:35,939 You are a person who cares. 710 00:32:35,941 --> 00:32:39,225 You're grateful and you're kind 711 00:32:39,845 --> 00:32:42,912 and anyone would be lucky to have you around. 712 00:32:43,781 --> 00:32:45,514 But no one will be Scott. 713 00:32:47,071 --> 00:32:48,625 No. 714 00:32:49,420 --> 00:32:50,836 No one will. 715 00:32:51,522 --> 00:32:52,722 Life is painful. 716 00:32:52,724 --> 00:32:53,956 There's no two ways about it. 717 00:32:53,958 --> 00:32:57,494 It's love and it's grief... 718 00:32:58,072 --> 00:33:00,229 A-and it's love and it's grief 719 00:33:00,231 --> 00:33:01,588 and it's love... 720 00:33:02,718 --> 00:33:04,254 And it's grief, 721 00:33:04,255 --> 00:33:06,802 a-and our job... our job 722 00:33:06,804 --> 00:33:08,278 is to make sure that 723 00:33:08,801 --> 00:33:10,668 the love we feel... 724 00:33:12,104 --> 00:33:15,305 Is worth the grief. 725 00:33:21,467 --> 00:33:24,135 Okay. There you go. 726 00:33:24,388 --> 00:33:26,121 - Yeah. - I'm sorry. 727 00:33:26,123 --> 00:33:27,656 No, don't be sorry. 728 00:33:27,658 --> 00:33:28,924 Okay, you're okay. 729 00:33:35,833 --> 00:33:37,365 Honey, you don't have to... 730 00:33:37,367 --> 00:33:39,868 I paid 150 bucks for this turkey! 731 00:33:39,870 --> 00:33:42,771 It's heritage! It's organic! 732 00:33:42,773 --> 00:33:45,640 It's burning! It's coming out if I have to... 733 00:33:45,642 --> 00:33:47,409 Okay, yeah, I heard it. 734 00:33:47,411 --> 00:33:48,510 Come on! 735 00:33:48,512 --> 00:33:49,945 Please! 736 00:33:49,947 --> 00:33:51,813 Ahh! 737 00:34:11,802 --> 00:34:14,302 What the... hell happened here? 738 00:34:14,304 --> 00:34:18,005 I just destroyed an oven that costs more than my car. 739 00:34:18,007 --> 00:34:20,308 What in holy hell did you guys do? 740 00:34:23,880 --> 00:34:25,012 You alright? 741 00:34:25,014 --> 00:34:27,982 Uh, yeah, I'm... I'm... I'm good. 742 00:34:32,055 --> 00:34:33,888 I'm sorry. I'm sorry. 743 00:34:35,758 --> 00:34:38,326 - Yeah. - Yeah, this seems about right. 744 00:34:38,328 --> 00:34:40,127 Well, I guess you don't need this, then. 745 00:34:40,129 --> 00:34:41,495 No! No! No! 746 00:34:41,497 --> 00:34:42,596 Hey, hey! 747 00:34:44,567 --> 00:34:46,299 Whew. 748 00:35:14,096 --> 00:35:16,497 I don't know why this happened. I-I'm sorry. 749 00:35:16,499 --> 00:35:18,799 I... I swear I'm not crazy. 750 00:35:18,801 --> 00:35:20,100 I know. I know. 751 00:35:20,102 --> 00:35:22,168 I mean, grief is a powerful thing, 752 00:35:22,170 --> 00:35:24,588 especially on a day like today. 753 00:35:25,445 --> 00:35:26,907 So, listen, my friend here 754 00:35:26,908 --> 00:35:28,775 is gonna take you to Grey Sloan. 755 00:35:28,777 --> 00:35:30,376 - The hospital? - And they'll check you out 756 00:35:30,378 --> 00:35:32,378 and get you the help you need. 757 00:35:32,380 --> 00:35:34,313 - I don't think I need... - Ingrid. 758 00:35:34,315 --> 00:35:36,649 Your husband passed from CO2 poisoning. 759 00:35:36,651 --> 00:35:38,451 You almost died in a fire. 760 00:35:38,453 --> 00:35:40,152 You call the station every day. 761 00:35:40,154 --> 00:35:42,154 You smell gas or smoke every day. 762 00:35:42,156 --> 00:35:44,290 It's not gas. It's not smoke. 763 00:35:44,292 --> 00:35:47,026 It's grief and PTSD, 764 00:35:47,028 --> 00:35:50,048 and you need to let the professionals take over now 765 00:35:50,498 --> 00:35:52,698 and help... 766 00:35:52,700 --> 00:35:54,233 Okay? 767 00:35:56,337 --> 00:35:57,569 Okay. 768 00:35:59,473 --> 00:36:01,072 And, hey, you know, 769 00:36:01,074 --> 00:36:02,474 come back and visit us, you know, 770 00:36:02,476 --> 00:36:04,309 when you're feeling better. 771 00:36:05,178 --> 00:36:06,711 Thank you. 772 00:36:17,481 --> 00:36:19,448 Dr. Bailey. 773 00:36:19,481 --> 00:36:20,625 Baby. 774 00:36:20,627 --> 00:36:21,927 Hey, baby. 775 00:36:21,929 --> 00:36:24,395 It's Grandpa. 776 00:36:24,397 --> 00:36:25,430 Hi. 777 00:36:26,967 --> 00:36:28,600 So cute. 778 00:36:29,702 --> 00:36:32,302 Oh, I missed you. 779 00:36:34,660 --> 00:36:36,340 I understand that you love 780 00:36:36,341 --> 00:36:37,757 my granddaughter very much, 781 00:36:37,758 --> 00:36:38,924 but it is Thanksgiving, 782 00:36:38,926 --> 00:36:41,021 and my wife has gone through enough with Dean. 783 00:36:42,096 --> 00:36:43,596 She needs her granddaughter. 784 00:36:43,598 --> 00:36:47,092 Mr. Miller, I cannot imagine 785 00:36:47,093 --> 00:36:49,334 the loss you've suffered. 786 00:36:49,336 --> 00:36:51,936 I'm so deeply sorry. 787 00:36:51,938 --> 00:36:54,406 I'm so sorry for your loss. 788 00:36:54,408 --> 00:36:57,242 Your son was a wonderful man. 789 00:36:57,244 --> 00:37:00,412 Please, please stay for dinner. 790 00:37:01,215 --> 00:37:03,481 Stay so you can get to know us, 791 00:37:03,483 --> 00:37:06,618 'cause we don't just love Pru, we... 792 00:37:06,620 --> 00:37:09,954 We all are her family, too. 793 00:37:09,956 --> 00:37:11,723 She's lost so much. 794 00:37:11,725 --> 00:37:14,829 She can't lose this family... 795 00:37:15,429 --> 00:37:18,534 The family whose arms 796 00:37:18,535 --> 00:37:21,065 she was literally born into. 797 00:37:21,067 --> 00:37:24,603 Yes, there's... there's family that blood makes, 798 00:37:24,605 --> 00:37:29,006 but there's also the family made of this... 799 00:37:29,008 --> 00:37:32,576 Made of shared experience 800 00:37:32,578 --> 00:37:35,446 and familiarity and sensibility 801 00:37:35,448 --> 00:37:40,883 and shared passions and understanding and love. 802 00:37:41,687 --> 00:37:43,387 Please. 803 00:37:46,056 --> 00:37:47,753 Alright. We'll stay for dinner. 804 00:37:48,561 --> 00:37:50,628 Thank you. 805 00:37:50,630 --> 00:37:52,047 But after... 806 00:37:53,332 --> 00:37:55,166 I'm leaving with my granddaughter. 807 00:39:19,490 --> 00:39:22,657 Look at him with her. 808 00:39:24,521 --> 00:39:26,922 - Today was a lot for him. - Mm. 809 00:39:28,259 --> 00:39:30,559 It was a lot for everyone. 810 00:39:30,561 --> 00:39:33,562 Yeah, it was a disaster. 811 00:39:33,564 --> 00:39:34,864 A pretty beautiful one. 812 00:39:36,688 --> 00:39:37,688 It was. 813 00:39:37,689 --> 00:39:38,888 Mm. 814 00:39:39,281 --> 00:39:40,480 I mean, all of it. 815 00:39:40,709 --> 00:39:43,571 There were disasters happening in the kitchen... 816 00:39:43,573 --> 00:39:47,189 - Mm-hmm... - and in families and on the roof... 817 00:39:48,444 --> 00:39:50,678 and we're all in pain and heartbroken. 818 00:39:51,082 --> 00:39:52,906 - Yeah. - And yet... 819 00:39:53,049 --> 00:39:54,815 when there was a child in the building, 820 00:39:54,817 --> 00:39:56,351 we were all fine. 821 00:39:56,353 --> 00:39:59,053 When there was a child in my arms 822 00:39:59,055 --> 00:40:00,521 in the middle of it all, I was fine. 823 00:40:00,523 --> 00:40:03,324 We kept her fine. We knew how to keep her fine. 824 00:40:03,326 --> 00:40:05,526 We can do this. 825 00:40:05,528 --> 00:40:06,980 I can do this. 826 00:40:06,981 --> 00:40:08,429 Let's have a baby. 827 00:40:09,832 --> 00:40:10,965 Sorry, what? 828 00:40:10,967 --> 00:40:12,466 I want to have a baby. 829 00:40:14,104 --> 00:40:17,274 Okay, it's usually not best to make decisions 830 00:40:17,275 --> 00:40:18,539 while in mourning. 831 00:40:18,540 --> 00:40:19,983 I'm not. I mean... 832 00:40:20,509 --> 00:40:23,647 I am in mourning, but... 833 00:40:24,980 --> 00:40:26,579 I've been thinking this whole time 834 00:40:26,581 --> 00:40:28,648 that I needed to stick to some plan, 835 00:40:28,650 --> 00:40:30,951 but plans don't work. 836 00:40:30,953 --> 00:40:34,121 People die. Families fall apart. 837 00:40:36,358 --> 00:40:37,925 Let's have a baby. 838 00:40:39,228 --> 00:40:40,727 Mm-hmm. 839 00:40:41,663 --> 00:40:43,430 - Are you serious? - Yes. 840 00:40:45,134 --> 00:40:46,766 There you go. Choose. 841 00:40:46,768 --> 00:40:48,435 - Thank you. - Good pick. 842 00:40:55,310 --> 00:40:56,742 It's not how it should have gone. 843 00:40:56,744 --> 00:40:58,444 - Oh, Travis... - Okay. 844 00:40:58,446 --> 00:40:59,745 ... please let's not do this again. 845 00:40:59,747 --> 00:41:02,014 And who knows what mess lies ahead, 846 00:41:02,016 --> 00:41:04,336 but just let me say... 847 00:41:05,119 --> 00:41:07,320 It gets better. 848 00:41:07,322 --> 00:41:09,700 I know from experience. 849 00:41:10,191 --> 00:41:13,993 This is the worst it'll ever feel. 850 00:41:18,666 --> 00:41:20,199 You don't want to join us for dinner? 851 00:41:20,201 --> 00:41:23,035 No, that sounds like a 19 kind of thing. 852 00:41:23,037 --> 00:41:25,503 Well, you are the captain of 19. 853 00:41:25,505 --> 00:41:27,705 I'm pretty sure no one wants me there. 854 00:41:30,444 --> 00:41:32,643 No one blames you for Miller's death. 855 00:41:32,645 --> 00:41:34,346 Everyone's just glad you made it. 856 00:41:35,160 --> 00:41:37,915 You know, if I had died, 857 00:41:37,917 --> 00:41:39,750 there'd be nobody to take that phone call. 858 00:41:39,752 --> 00:41:42,587 My ex-wife's in Florida. Parents are dead. 859 00:41:42,589 --> 00:41:46,557 My brother is an alcoholic who doesn't take my calls. 860 00:41:46,559 --> 00:41:48,226 The only people who might have mourned me 861 00:41:48,228 --> 00:41:50,557 are the people in this building, and they'd be busy... 862 00:41:51,131 --> 00:41:53,331 Mourning the guy they actually liked. 863 00:41:56,669 --> 00:42:01,205 But, hey, if you ever, uh, change your mind about 864 00:42:01,207 --> 00:42:02,974 taking me up on that drink... 865 00:42:02,976 --> 00:42:05,142 A-Appreciate it, Beckett. 866 00:42:05,144 --> 00:42:06,878 Please call me Sean. 867 00:42:06,880 --> 00:42:08,513 - Sean. - Mm-hmm. 868 00:42:10,550 --> 00:42:12,650 Things are still messy with Robert. 869 00:42:12,652 --> 00:42:14,284 It's just... 870 00:42:14,286 --> 00:42:15,828 It's just not a good idea. 871 00:42:19,025 --> 00:42:21,225 Thank you for the pie. 872 00:42:23,162 --> 00:42:25,563 Yeah. 873 00:42:36,241 --> 00:42:38,508 - She's gonna wear him out. - Arike! 874 00:42:38,510 --> 00:42:39,543 It's time to go. 875 00:42:39,545 --> 00:42:42,311 Oh... Oh, you're using her middle name? 876 00:42:42,313 --> 00:42:43,413 It is her true name. 877 00:42:43,415 --> 00:42:45,982 Th... This doesn't have to be a battle. 878 00:42:45,984 --> 00:42:47,817 Alright, we all love her. 879 00:42:47,819 --> 00:42:50,620 You don't love her as much as her grandparents do. 880 00:42:50,622 --> 00:42:51,855 Arike. 881 00:42:52,357 --> 00:42:53,723 Okay, w-when... 882 00:42:53,725 --> 00:42:55,191 when should we pick her up? 883 00:42:58,830 --> 00:43:00,930 Thank you for dinner, 884 00:43:00,932 --> 00:43:03,066 and for looking after my granddaughter. 885 00:43:03,068 --> 00:43:05,468 Oh. Here, baby. 886 00:43:07,305 --> 00:43:09,205 Take care. 887 00:43:18,316 --> 00:43:20,450 Bye, honey. 888 00:43:36,055 --> 00:43:39,619 - Synced and corrected by medvidecek007 - - www.addic7ed.com -