1 00:00:08,747 --> 00:00:09,922 Surgeons like to believe 2 00:00:09,966 --> 00:00:11,881 they're the center of the universe, 3 00:00:11,924 --> 00:00:13,491 that their million-dollar hands 4 00:00:13,534 --> 00:00:16,233 are the only thing that matters. 5 00:00:16,276 --> 00:00:20,237 I don't know how you do the thing you just did... 6 00:00:21,455 --> 00:00:25,155 ...but it... mm... Was...spectacular. 7 00:00:25,198 --> 00:00:26,896 Mm-hmm! 8 00:00:26,939 --> 00:00:28,898 Well, I got to give you a reason to keep me around. 9 00:00:30,073 --> 00:00:32,510 Well, maybe tonight, 10 00:00:32,553 --> 00:00:34,512 I might just return the favor. 11 00:00:36,296 --> 00:00:39,343 Maybe sooner than that. Hm? 12 00:00:39,386 --> 00:00:41,867 Richard Webber, are you still on that? 13 00:00:41,911 --> 00:00:43,869 Come on. I already told you no. 14 00:00:43,913 --> 00:00:45,828 Well, maybe it's time to reconsider. 15 00:00:45,871 --> 00:00:47,786 Well, what if something goes wrong, baby? 16 00:00:47,830 --> 00:00:49,570 Trust me. 17 00:00:52,922 --> 00:00:55,750 You only need a scalpel and the patient to use it on. 18 00:00:55,794 --> 00:00:56,926 No one else. 19 00:00:57,927 --> 00:00:59,363 I used to believe it, too. 20 00:00:59,406 --> 00:01:01,147 Levi! 21 00:01:01,191 --> 00:01:02,453 Um, I'll be right there. 22 00:01:02,496 --> 00:01:03,715 Check your phone. 23 00:01:03,758 --> 00:01:05,108 But that was before I had kids. 24 00:01:07,501 --> 00:01:09,547 - Oh, my God. - What? 25 00:01:09,590 --> 00:01:12,289 Webber's back as residency director, officially. 26 00:01:12,332 --> 00:01:13,507 What happened to Grey? 27 00:01:13,551 --> 00:01:15,205 Uh, it says she'll be splitting her time 28 00:01:15,248 --> 00:01:16,728 between doing surgery and research. 29 00:01:16,771 --> 00:01:17,685 Levi! 30 00:01:17,729 --> 00:01:18,861 Uh... 31 00:01:18,904 --> 00:01:20,732 Oh, it also says we were supposed to be 32 00:01:20,775 --> 00:01:23,256 in the skills lab 15 minutes ago! 33 00:01:24,388 --> 00:01:25,650 Okay. I'm coming! 34 00:01:30,698 --> 00:01:32,048 What? 35 00:01:34,311 --> 00:01:37,239 Truth is, from the time your patient first gets sick 36 00:01:37,265 --> 00:01:39,229 to the time they're lying on your table... 37 00:01:39,272 --> 00:01:40,883 - Hey. - Hey. 38 00:01:40,926 --> 00:01:42,536 I thought you were leaving early this morning. 39 00:01:42,580 --> 00:01:44,669 She started seizing when I was on my way to the airport, 40 00:01:44,712 --> 00:01:46,714 so I hit her with lorazepam, phenobarbital 41 00:01:46,758 --> 00:01:48,542 and put her in an induced coma. 42 00:01:48,586 --> 00:01:52,329 And now I need a world-class neurosurgeon 43 00:01:52,372 --> 00:01:53,808 to help me figure out 44 00:01:53,852 --> 00:01:56,550 why my landmark transplant patient is circling the drain. 45 00:01:58,204 --> 00:02:02,034 ...a team of internists, specialists, and nurses 46 00:02:02,078 --> 00:02:03,862 have already interacted with that patient 47 00:02:03,906 --> 00:02:05,255 more than you ever will. 48 00:02:07,213 --> 00:02:09,041 I was starting to think you weren't gonna show up. 49 00:02:09,085 --> 00:02:11,348 I almost didn't. I can't stand the whining. 50 00:02:11,391 --> 00:02:13,045 Well, you don't have to stay long. 51 00:02:13,089 --> 00:02:14,481 Is that Roy? 52 00:02:14,525 --> 00:02:16,831 When you write these testimonials, 53 00:02:16,875 --> 00:02:18,268 I want you to lay it all on the table. 54 00:02:18,311 --> 00:02:21,488 I want to know every diagnosis, every symptom. 55 00:02:21,532 --> 00:02:22,837 Did you lose 40 pounds? 56 00:02:22,881 --> 00:02:24,404 Are you sweating through your sheets? 57 00:02:24,448 --> 00:02:25,666 Explosive diarrhea. 58 00:02:25,710 --> 00:02:27,277 Do not hold back. 59 00:02:27,320 --> 00:02:28,800 Testimonials? 60 00:02:28,843 --> 00:02:30,236 Roy's headed to Washington next month to lobby. 61 00:02:30,280 --> 00:02:31,890 Won't shut up about it. 62 00:02:31,934 --> 00:02:34,762 We gotta do to the VA what Barb Simmons did to me 63 00:02:34,806 --> 00:02:36,721 in the fourth grade when I was hanging on the monkey bars... 64 00:02:36,764 --> 00:02:38,679 Pull their shorts down and expose them. 65 00:02:38,723 --> 00:02:40,725 Bastards. 66 00:02:42,945 --> 00:02:45,077 No, it couldn't be. 67 00:02:51,257 --> 00:02:52,357 Sergeant. 68 00:02:52,384 --> 00:02:53,868 Colonel. 69 00:02:53,912 --> 00:02:55,783 Thought you said you'd never be caught dead at one of these. 70 00:02:55,827 --> 00:02:59,048 Anyone's dying, it's you, old man. 71 00:02:59,091 --> 00:03:01,702 Yeah. 72 00:03:01,746 --> 00:03:02,834 It's good to see you, man. 73 00:03:02,877 --> 00:03:05,097 Good to see you. You look good. 74 00:03:05,141 --> 00:03:07,230 Roy, I want to introduce you to Major... 75 00:03:07,273 --> 00:03:09,275 Owen Hunt, Army trauma surgeon. 76 00:03:09,319 --> 00:03:11,234 Welcome. 77 00:03:11,277 --> 00:03:13,366 And what delightful disease have you been blessed with? 78 00:03:13,410 --> 00:03:15,064 None, fortunately. 79 00:03:15,107 --> 00:03:17,022 Um, I'm here because I'm hoping we might be able 80 00:03:17,066 --> 00:03:18,197 to work together. 81 00:03:18,241 --> 00:03:20,504 I'm starting a study to prove the link 82 00:03:20,547 --> 00:03:23,333 between burn pits and your illnesses 83 00:03:23,376 --> 00:03:24,377 so that the VA will have to auto... 84 00:03:24,421 --> 00:03:25,596 You okay? 85 00:03:25,639 --> 00:03:27,163 - Roy. - Roy? 86 00:03:27,206 --> 00:03:29,730 Roy, Roy! 87 00:03:29,774 --> 00:03:31,950 Put him on his side. Call 911! 88 00:03:34,590 --> 00:03:40,264 Synced & corrected by -robtor- www.addic7ed.com 89 00:03:41,960 --> 00:03:43,014 Is she okay? 90 00:03:43,050 --> 00:03:44,658 Oh, teething. 91 00:03:44,702 --> 00:03:46,573 Well, in that case, are you okay? 92 00:03:46,617 --> 00:03:48,836 I haven't slept, all I've eaten is 93 00:03:48,880 --> 00:03:50,838 a handful of cereal... No, no, no, no, no! 94 00:03:50,882 --> 00:03:51,883 And I'm late for work. 95 00:03:51,926 --> 00:03:53,189 I'm sorry I asked. 96 00:03:54,407 --> 00:03:55,756 - Thank you. - Okay. 97 00:03:55,800 --> 00:03:58,672 I knew how to be alone, but now I'm alone with Luna. 98 00:03:58,716 --> 00:04:00,457 I'm responsible for her life. 99 00:04:00,500 --> 00:04:02,850 I'm so tired, I could drop dead. 100 00:04:02,894 --> 00:04:04,330 Tough stuff being a single parent. 101 00:04:04,374 --> 00:04:07,116 You don't happen to have any teething tips, do you? 102 00:04:07,159 --> 00:04:09,292 At this point, I would try ritual sacrifice. 103 00:04:09,335 --> 00:04:10,467 - Earplugs? - Oh. 104 00:04:10,510 --> 00:04:11,685 Help! 105 00:04:11,729 --> 00:04:13,252 - I need some help! - Okay. 106 00:04:13,296 --> 00:04:15,254 Oh, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. 107 00:04:15,298 --> 00:04:16,777 I don't... I don't know what's wrong with her. 108 00:04:16,821 --> 00:04:18,562 She just started screaming and breathing and... 109 00:04:18,605 --> 00:04:20,216 Are you in labor? 110 00:04:20,259 --> 00:04:21,739 I'm not due for a couple more weeks. 111 00:04:21,782 --> 00:04:24,002 - Okay, um... - You're pregnant? 112 00:04:24,046 --> 00:04:25,134 Is it mine? 113 00:04:25,177 --> 00:04:26,265 We've been together for four weeks. 114 00:04:26,309 --> 00:04:27,397 How would it be yours? 115 00:04:27,440 --> 00:04:28,528 I'm gonna page OB. 116 00:04:28,571 --> 00:04:29,790 Oh, I am OB. 117 00:04:29,834 --> 00:04:31,488 Here. Can you, um, take her to daycare for me? 118 00:04:31,531 --> 00:04:32,924 - Bye, baby. - Gladly. 119 00:04:32,967 --> 00:04:35,666 Okay, um, go inside and ask for a wheelchair. 120 00:04:37,102 --> 00:04:38,364 - Now, now! - Yeah, okay. 121 00:04:39,713 --> 00:04:41,411 Hi. Congratulations. You're doing great. 122 00:04:41,454 --> 00:04:43,239 Okay, deep breaths. 123 00:04:43,282 --> 00:04:45,110 Nurse Tyler to the OR. Nurse Tyler to the OR. 124 00:04:45,154 --> 00:04:48,200 Grey! I thought you'd be settled in Minnesota by now. 125 00:04:48,244 --> 00:04:51,290 I leave later on this evening. 126 00:04:51,334 --> 00:04:53,901 And I'm only going for a couple of days a week. 127 00:04:53,945 --> 00:04:55,860 - Mm. - And I'm still your chief of general. 128 00:04:55,903 --> 00:04:57,862 And as long as you credit Grey-Sloan 129 00:04:57,905 --> 00:05:00,430 when you save humanity, you do you. 130 00:05:00,473 --> 00:05:03,433 What I want to know is why Webber has paged us here 131 00:05:03,476 --> 00:05:04,738 to the skills lab. 132 00:05:04,782 --> 00:05:06,000 And cleared my whole schedule. 133 00:05:06,044 --> 00:05:07,567 - You too? - Yes. 134 00:05:07,611 --> 00:05:10,004 Well, I don't know who approved this, but it sure wasn't... 135 00:05:10,048 --> 00:05:11,615 I did. 136 00:05:11,658 --> 00:05:12,738 Would you like to tell us why? 137 00:05:12,787 --> 00:05:13,878 It's a big day. 138 00:05:13,921 --> 00:05:15,662 Not only is it my first official day back 139 00:05:15,706 --> 00:05:17,186 as residency director, 140 00:05:17,229 --> 00:05:19,318 I'm debuting a new teaching method, 141 00:05:19,362 --> 00:05:21,364 and the two of you are going to help me. 142 00:05:21,407 --> 00:05:22,495 - Uh... - Come on. 143 00:05:22,539 --> 00:05:24,106 Uh... 144 00:05:24,715 --> 00:05:27,631 Alright, attention, everyone. 145 00:05:27,674 --> 00:05:29,198 Today is gonna be a day 146 00:05:29,241 --> 00:05:32,331 that you will remember for the rest of your careers. 147 00:05:32,375 --> 00:05:36,683 Each one of you is gonna perform a lap chole start to finish... 148 00:05:36,727 --> 00:05:39,599 On your own. 149 00:05:39,643 --> 00:05:42,776 Today, you will be attendings. 150 00:05:42,820 --> 00:05:44,822 - What?! - Oh, my God! 151 00:05:44,865 --> 00:05:46,780 - Are you kidding? - He's serious. 152 00:05:46,824 --> 00:05:49,218 Welcome to the Webber Method. 153 00:05:51,742 --> 00:05:52,873 I take it back. 154 00:05:52,917 --> 00:05:54,048 What? 155 00:05:54,092 --> 00:05:55,180 You can't go to Minnesota. 156 00:05:55,224 --> 00:05:56,660 This man has lost his damned mind. 157 00:05:56,703 --> 00:05:58,168 - Oh, my God. Oh, my God. - Yes, God! 158 00:06:03,673 --> 00:06:06,023 - Hunt, what's going on? - Roy Davis, 60, 159 00:06:06,066 --> 00:06:08,025 experienced syncope after an episode of hemoptysis. 160 00:06:08,068 --> 00:06:10,288 BP is 160 over 100, and he's tachycardic. 161 00:06:10,332 --> 00:06:11,942 Gonna need chest films ASAP. 162 00:06:11,985 --> 00:06:13,325 Roy. 163 00:06:13,349 --> 00:06:14,698 They won't show anything good, I can promise you that. 164 00:06:14,741 --> 00:06:16,221 Roy, I'm here. 165 00:06:16,265 --> 00:06:17,657 He has the same thing I have... Pulmonary fibrosis... 166 00:06:17,701 --> 00:06:18,912 More advanced. 167 00:06:18,943 --> 00:06:20,912 Listen, I know you'd rather chew gravel than hang out here, 168 00:06:20,955 --> 00:06:22,010 - so don't... - I'm staying. 169 00:06:22,053 --> 00:06:22,967 Trauma 1 is open. 170 00:06:23,011 --> 00:06:24,003 Okay, let's get him inside! 171 00:06:24,063 --> 00:06:25,013 You stay in the lobby. 172 00:06:25,056 --> 00:06:26,971 I'll update you as soon as I can, okay? 173 00:06:29,800 --> 00:06:31,584 Niki, you are 5 centimeters 174 00:06:31,628 --> 00:06:33,873 dilated and having this baby today. 175 00:06:33,902 --> 00:06:35,061 Congratulations. 176 00:06:35,088 --> 00:06:36,937 But it's too early. I'm not ready. 177 00:06:36,981 --> 00:06:38,896 And... And... And today's our one-month anniversary. 178 00:06:38,939 --> 00:06:40,811 Wow! It's a special day all around. 179 00:06:40,854 --> 00:06:42,900 - Who's the dad? - No dad. Just a hook-up. 180 00:06:42,943 --> 00:06:44,945 We had sex. A lot of sex. 181 00:06:44,989 --> 00:06:46,469 I had a lot of sex with a pregnant woman. 182 00:06:46,512 --> 00:06:47,905 It works just the same. 183 00:06:47,948 --> 00:06:49,472 Okay, but, like, I'm pretty sure that's 184 00:06:49,515 --> 00:06:50,821 outside of my moral code. 185 00:06:50,864 --> 00:06:52,257 W-Why didn't you tell me? 186 00:06:52,301 --> 00:06:53,389 Look at me. I thought you knew. 187 00:06:53,432 --> 00:06:54,390 I just thought you were... 188 00:06:54,433 --> 00:06:55,739 - Aaaah! - Okay. Uh, Dustin, right? 189 00:06:55,782 --> 00:06:57,306 Uh, Niki is in good hands. 190 00:06:57,349 --> 00:07:00,309 Why don't you take a breather, go find some ice chips? 191 00:07:00,352 --> 00:07:02,615 For her, not you. 192 00:07:04,008 --> 00:07:05,140 Niki, are you okay? 193 00:07:05,183 --> 00:07:06,619 My chest really hurts. 194 00:07:06,663 --> 00:07:08,621 Okay, Wilson, let's get an EKG and vitals. 195 00:07:08,665 --> 00:07:09,883 Right. 196 00:07:09,927 --> 00:07:11,276 Okay. Breathe. 197 00:07:11,320 --> 00:07:13,322 Good. 198 00:07:13,365 --> 00:07:15,976 Okay, now, this system of concurrent surgeries will allow 199 00:07:16,020 --> 00:07:19,284 us to put experienced residents in the OR as leads, 200 00:07:19,328 --> 00:07:21,025 and then attendings can rotate in and out 201 00:07:21,069 --> 00:07:22,635 for maximum efficiency. 202 00:07:22,679 --> 00:07:24,202 I don't like it. 203 00:07:24,246 --> 00:07:25,595 Look, look. If you look here, 204 00:07:25,638 --> 00:07:28,076 the average lap chole lasts what... 45 minutes? 205 00:07:28,119 --> 00:07:30,210 But the most critical part only lasts... 206 00:07:30,254 --> 00:07:31,862 - 5 to 10. - Exactly. 207 00:07:31,905 --> 00:07:33,820 Which means, if each attending rotates 208 00:07:33,864 --> 00:07:35,039 according to the schedule, 209 00:07:35,083 --> 00:07:36,867 we can be in each and every OR... 210 00:07:36,910 --> 00:07:39,043 At precisely the moment we need to be. 211 00:07:39,087 --> 00:07:40,305 Yes. 212 00:07:40,349 --> 00:07:41,437 I still don't like it. 213 00:07:41,480 --> 00:07:43,569 Bailey, this is the answer 214 00:07:43,613 --> 00:07:45,687 to our biggest challenge right now... 215 00:07:45,730 --> 00:07:47,230 The physician shortage. 216 00:07:47,256 --> 00:07:48,487 A-And it's lap choles. 217 00:07:48,531 --> 00:07:50,576 It's not transplants and Whipples. 218 00:07:50,620 --> 00:07:52,622 Look, this generation of residents... 219 00:07:52,665 --> 00:07:55,451 They don't have a thousand hours to watch us operate 220 00:07:55,494 --> 00:07:57,017 while we work them to the bone. 221 00:07:57,061 --> 00:07:59,194 I mean, they want to work smarter, not harder. 222 00:07:59,237 --> 00:08:00,282 And who would blame them? 223 00:08:00,325 --> 00:08:02,588 I don't need generation education. 224 00:08:02,632 --> 00:08:04,677 I need patients not to die. 225 00:08:04,721 --> 00:08:06,766 I've been saying for a long time that 226 00:08:06,810 --> 00:08:08,899 we need to get the residents out of the lab and into the OR. 227 00:08:08,942 --> 00:08:10,335 Uh... 228 00:08:10,379 --> 00:08:11,467 What do you say, Bailey? 229 00:08:11,510 --> 00:08:13,860 You ready to do 12 lap choles today? 230 00:08:14,992 --> 00:08:17,516 Look, the system only works with three attendings. 231 00:08:17,560 --> 00:08:19,689 We all have to be on board. 232 00:08:21,477 --> 00:08:23,305 God help us. Fine. Let's do it. 233 00:08:23,348 --> 00:08:25,176 You won't regret it. Okay. 234 00:08:25,220 --> 00:08:26,177 Let's not go that far. 235 00:08:27,961 --> 00:08:29,789 Dr. Wagner to radiology. 236 00:08:29,833 --> 00:08:31,617 Dr. Wagner to radiology. 237 00:08:33,184 --> 00:08:35,273 Oh, Hayes, hey. 238 00:08:35,317 --> 00:08:37,623 Do you have a quick second for a pediatric consult? 239 00:08:37,667 --> 00:08:39,538 For Grey's award-winning abdomen? Sure. 240 00:08:39,582 --> 00:08:41,627 A 14-year-old kid, 241 00:08:41,671 --> 00:08:43,716 plays soccer in a park near our hotel. 242 00:08:43,760 --> 00:08:45,109 - Mm-hmm. - Seemed to be getting 243 00:08:45,153 --> 00:08:46,502 extra winded the other day. 244 00:08:46,545 --> 00:08:48,286 Um, his ankles look a little swollen. 245 00:08:48,330 --> 00:08:49,940 Is that... Is that anything? 246 00:08:49,983 --> 00:08:52,421 Could be. Or not. 247 00:08:52,464 --> 00:08:54,031 I'm sorry. I'd have to examine him myself 248 00:08:54,074 --> 00:08:55,511 to tell you anything more definitive. 249 00:08:56,101 --> 00:08:57,991 I was afraid you'd say that. 250 00:09:01,386 --> 00:09:03,040 So, how'd you meet Noah? 251 00:09:03,083 --> 00:09:04,911 He avoids doctors like the plague. 252 00:09:04,955 --> 00:09:06,652 I, uh, treated him and his son recently. 253 00:09:06,696 --> 00:09:08,872 Ah, the accident. 254 00:09:08,915 --> 00:09:10,700 That tree will never be the same. 255 00:09:10,743 --> 00:09:12,528 Or the car. 256 00:09:12,571 --> 00:09:15,879 Noah's the closest thing I have to a son. 257 00:09:15,922 --> 00:09:19,099 Met him when he was a pimple-faced recruit 258 00:09:19,143 --> 00:09:20,884 whose voice had barely dropped. 259 00:09:20,927 --> 00:09:23,800 I watched him grow up, get married, 260 00:09:23,843 --> 00:09:25,715 have Danny. 261 00:09:25,758 --> 00:09:27,673 Have you met Heather yet? 262 00:09:27,717 --> 00:09:29,501 His wife? No, not yet. 263 00:09:29,545 --> 00:09:32,852 I love Noah, but he punched above his weight on that one. 264 00:09:34,506 --> 00:09:36,595 The scans are up. 265 00:09:36,639 --> 00:09:39,032 Oh, man. Damn it. 266 00:09:39,076 --> 00:09:40,454 See that nodule there? 267 00:09:40,483 --> 00:09:41,861 Lung cancer. 268 00:09:41,905 --> 00:09:43,211 Probably an early stage, 269 00:09:43,254 --> 00:09:45,213 but since he's also got pulmonary fibrosis... 270 00:09:45,256 --> 00:09:47,193 Might as well be terminal. 271 00:09:48,041 --> 00:09:50,043 All because the U.S. military couldn't be bothered 272 00:09:50,087 --> 00:09:52,437 to properly dispose of its trash. 273 00:09:52,481 --> 00:09:56,136 Lotta silence out there. Must be good news, huh? 274 00:09:59,314 --> 00:10:01,533 CT's negative, labs look good. 275 00:10:01,577 --> 00:10:02,882 She has no history of seizures? 276 00:10:02,926 --> 00:10:04,144 You don't think I would have told you if there's 277 00:10:04,188 --> 00:10:05,276 a history of seizures? 278 00:10:05,320 --> 00:10:06,406 Mm. No family history? 279 00:10:06,489 --> 00:10:07,496 Same answer. 280 00:10:07,539 --> 00:10:09,454 Okay, but it is my job to ask the questions. 281 00:10:09,498 --> 00:10:12,718 No, I get that, but maybe just ask smarter questions. 282 00:10:12,762 --> 00:10:14,764 - Are you okay? - No, I'm not the patient. 283 00:10:14,807 --> 00:10:16,722 Ask smarter questions about my patient. 284 00:10:16,766 --> 00:10:19,029 - Addie... - No. Just no, no, no. 285 00:10:19,072 --> 00:10:21,901 I'm Dr. Montgomery. You're Dr. Shepherd. 286 00:10:21,945 --> 00:10:24,034 And we are fixing this woman who's lost so many pregnancies 287 00:10:24,077 --> 00:10:25,209 and then lost her husband. 288 00:10:25,253 --> 00:10:26,515 We are fixing this woman 289 00:10:26,558 --> 00:10:28,256 whose sisters literally begged her 290 00:10:28,299 --> 00:10:29,996 not to participate in my clinical trial 291 00:10:30,040 --> 00:10:32,390 because they were so afraid of losing her, too. 292 00:10:32,434 --> 00:10:36,481 We are fixing this woman, Dr. Shepherd. 293 00:10:36,525 --> 00:10:37,743 And, ideally, we are going to fix her 294 00:10:37,787 --> 00:10:39,484 without having to remove the donor uterus, 295 00:10:39,528 --> 00:10:42,226 setting my study all the way back. 296 00:10:43,749 --> 00:10:46,796 Okay, Dr. Montgomery. I need an MRI. 297 00:10:46,839 --> 00:10:49,494 Um, because she was in status, let's get an EEG. 298 00:10:49,538 --> 00:10:51,583 And re-run her electrolyte panel 299 00:10:51,627 --> 00:10:53,019 and her immunosuppressant levels. 300 00:10:53,063 --> 00:10:54,978 That sounds like an excellent plan. 301 00:10:55,254 --> 00:10:56,691 Mm-hmm. 302 00:10:57,720 --> 00:10:59,025 Hi. 303 00:10:59,382 --> 00:11:00,905 Back so soon? 304 00:11:01,059 --> 00:11:03,239 Uh, that patient I told you about... he's here. 305 00:11:03,264 --> 00:11:04,483 Exam Room 4. 306 00:11:04,508 --> 00:11:05,857 That was fast. 307 00:11:05,939 --> 00:11:08,121 A little too fast. 308 00:11:08,165 --> 00:11:10,477 But just make sure you talk to him like a doctor. 309 00:11:10,523 --> 00:11:11,647 I am a doctor. 310 00:11:11,690 --> 00:11:13,344 Be straight with him... With both of us, okay? 311 00:11:13,388 --> 00:11:14,345 Okay. 312 00:11:15,999 --> 00:11:19,655 Dr. Hayes, this is my son, Farouk. 313 00:11:19,698 --> 00:11:21,396 Hi. 314 00:11:31,407 --> 00:11:32,470 Mm. 315 00:11:34,541 --> 00:11:36,106 - Hm. - Are you... 316 00:11:36,150 --> 00:11:37,552 Praying. Yes. 317 00:11:38,522 --> 00:11:41,102 It's going to be okay, Bailey. 318 00:11:41,145 --> 00:11:42,522 These are human beings. 319 00:11:42,660 --> 00:11:46,477 These are human beings with children and parents 320 00:11:46,502 --> 00:11:48,044 and sisters and brothers. 321 00:11:48,069 --> 00:11:50,636 And we're putting their bodies, their lives 322 00:11:50,661 --> 00:11:52,619 in the hands of... children. 323 00:11:52,644 --> 00:11:54,211 But they're not children. 324 00:11:54,236 --> 00:11:56,891 But they look like children... with scalpels. 325 00:11:57,031 --> 00:11:58,913 Well, so did we once. 326 00:12:05,779 --> 00:12:07,159 You've done this before, right? 327 00:12:07,187 --> 00:12:08,257 In Pakistan? 328 00:12:08,294 --> 00:12:10,060 Years ago. Many years ago. 329 00:12:10,141 --> 00:12:11,175 Scalpel. 330 00:12:20,794 --> 00:12:21,751 What are you doing? 331 00:12:21,795 --> 00:12:23,405 I saw Shepherd do it once. 332 00:12:25,363 --> 00:12:27,017 Scalpel. 333 00:12:29,106 --> 00:12:30,325 Scalpel. 334 00:13:19,287 --> 00:13:20,766 Hey, Doctor. 335 00:13:20,810 --> 00:13:23,117 Um, can you give this to Niki? 336 00:13:23,160 --> 00:13:26,320 She asked me to charge it, and so it's charged. 337 00:13:26,344 --> 00:13:27,649 Here. 338 00:13:27,693 --> 00:13:30,565 Oh, come on. You're leaving? 339 00:13:30,609 --> 00:13:32,698 You can't just hold her hand for a few hours 340 00:13:32,742 --> 00:13:33,830 so she doesn't give birth alone? 341 00:13:33,873 --> 00:13:36,876 We matched online a month ago. 342 00:13:36,920 --> 00:13:38,162 I'm not a bad guy. 343 00:13:38,186 --> 00:13:39,661 I work at the Post Office. 344 00:13:39,705 --> 00:13:42,142 I live in a studio apartment. I'm not ready to be a dad. 345 00:13:43,254 --> 00:13:45,169 And she lied to me. 346 00:13:45,406 --> 00:13:48,689 I mean, don't you think this is a pretty big lie? 347 00:13:49,606 --> 00:13:51,390 Just give me the phone. 348 00:14:02,249 --> 00:14:03,207 Okay. 349 00:14:03,250 --> 00:14:04,512 Um... 350 00:14:07,298 --> 00:14:10,736 Farouk's EKG shows nonspecific ST changes. 351 00:14:10,780 --> 00:14:12,085 And I hear a concerning murmur. 352 00:14:12,129 --> 00:14:14,087 So I'm not losing my mind. 353 00:14:14,131 --> 00:14:15,306 No. 354 00:14:19,310 --> 00:14:20,485 Is there anything I should know 355 00:14:20,528 --> 00:14:22,139 about Farouk's medical history? 356 00:14:22,182 --> 00:14:24,141 He used to get a lot of ear infections. 357 00:14:24,184 --> 00:14:27,231 He once fell off his bike 358 00:14:27,274 --> 00:14:29,494 and knocked out his two front teeth, and it was just... Right. 359 00:14:29,537 --> 00:14:31,148 Not relevant. 360 00:14:31,191 --> 00:14:34,064 He was treated for TB about 10 years ago in Iraq. 361 00:14:34,107 --> 00:14:36,544 I don't know anything about the first four years of his life. 362 00:14:36,588 --> 00:14:37,763 Iraq. That's where he grew up? 363 00:14:37,807 --> 00:14:39,243 He was born in Syria, 364 00:14:39,286 --> 00:14:40,853 but he came to Iraq as a refugee 365 00:14:40,897 --> 00:14:42,115 after his parents died. 366 00:14:42,159 --> 00:14:45,510 I raised him while I was being held as a POW 367 00:14:45,553 --> 00:14:47,860 and, you know, getting my abs exploded. 368 00:14:47,904 --> 00:14:49,731 You and your brother both served. 369 00:14:49,775 --> 00:14:51,037 I didn't realize. 370 00:14:51,081 --> 00:14:52,604 How would you? 371 00:14:53,910 --> 00:14:55,128 I want to do an echo. 372 00:14:55,172 --> 00:14:56,913 Do it. Do it all. 373 00:14:56,956 --> 00:14:59,829 Uh, Hayes, and do you mind 374 00:14:59,872 --> 00:15:02,005 just keeping this between us for now? 375 00:15:02,048 --> 00:15:04,137 If Owen finds out about this, he'll freak out, 376 00:15:04,181 --> 00:15:05,878 and I'm already freaking out a little bit. 377 00:15:05,922 --> 00:15:07,339 I've been there. 378 00:15:07,445 --> 00:15:09,708 - Of course. - Thank you. 379 00:15:16,193 --> 00:15:17,695 Hey there, Roy. 380 00:15:18,064 --> 00:15:21,328 Well, you two gonna tell me what you saw on those scans? 381 00:15:21,372 --> 00:15:23,635 My ex-wife looks happier to see me than you two. 382 00:15:25,245 --> 00:15:26,681 Noah, you mind giving us a minute? 383 00:15:26,725 --> 00:15:28,858 No, it's okay, Doc. He... He... He can stay. 384 00:15:31,536 --> 00:15:35,105 Roy, there was an abnormality in a section of your lung, 385 00:15:35,130 --> 00:15:36,958 and it looks like it's an early stage of cancer. 386 00:15:37,127 --> 00:15:38,549 Early. 387 00:15:39,172 --> 00:15:41,131 Doesn't sound so bad. 388 00:15:41,174 --> 00:15:43,002 Well, with cancer, the usual surgical treatment 389 00:15:43,046 --> 00:15:44,264 would be a lobectomy. 390 00:15:44,308 --> 00:15:45,918 We'd take out that entire section. 391 00:15:45,962 --> 00:15:47,833 But with fibrosis this advanced, 392 00:15:47,877 --> 00:15:49,661 you can't afford to give up 393 00:15:49,704 --> 00:15:51,184 that much of your lung function. 394 00:15:51,228 --> 00:15:52,882 Well, I didn't exactly think I had a whole decade 395 00:15:52,925 --> 00:15:54,067 in front of me. 396 00:15:55,597 --> 00:15:56,948 So, what're we talking? 397 00:15:56,973 --> 00:15:58,191 A couple years? 398 00:15:58,235 --> 00:15:59,453 Sooner? 399 00:15:59,497 --> 00:16:01,412 Hmm? 400 00:16:01,455 --> 00:16:04,415 What can you do to get me to Congress next month? 401 00:16:04,458 --> 00:16:06,025 Well, we could try a segmentectomy, 402 00:16:06,069 --> 00:16:08,245 where we'd just remove the mass. 403 00:16:08,288 --> 00:16:11,074 It's very risky, though. 404 00:16:11,117 --> 00:16:13,728 Honestly, I don't know that I'd recommend it. 405 00:16:13,753 --> 00:16:16,212 But it could buy me some more time, yeah? 406 00:16:16,906 --> 00:16:19,517 Possibly. A little. 407 00:16:19,560 --> 00:16:21,693 Well, let... let's do it. Slice me open. 408 00:16:21,736 --> 00:16:23,260 Roy, no. 409 00:16:23,303 --> 00:16:25,784 Send somebody else to Washington. 410 00:16:25,827 --> 00:16:28,221 Hey, if I collapse while I'm there, 411 00:16:28,265 --> 00:16:31,529 it might help our case, right? 412 00:16:31,572 --> 00:16:33,270 It's fine. 413 00:16:33,313 --> 00:16:35,141 I have a little cancer, yeah? 414 00:16:35,185 --> 00:16:37,709 I've spent my entire career... 415 00:16:37,752 --> 00:16:41,756 Hell, my entire life... Fighting. 416 00:16:41,800 --> 00:16:43,541 Why would I stop now? 417 00:16:43,890 --> 00:16:45,892 I want the surgery. 418 00:16:46,457 --> 00:16:48,285 Okay. 419 00:16:53,029 --> 00:16:55,001 Tell me why you left Scout's dad. 420 00:16:55,857 --> 00:16:57,076 I already told you. 421 00:16:57,120 --> 00:16:58,686 No, you told me you said no to his proposal, 422 00:16:58,730 --> 00:17:00,471 but you didn't tell me why. 423 00:17:00,514 --> 00:17:04,344 Uh. Well, everything about it was a disaster. 424 00:17:04,388 --> 00:17:07,260 I mean, it felt gaslighty and manipulative 425 00:17:07,304 --> 00:17:10,394 that he did it at Maggie's wedding, 426 00:17:10,437 --> 00:17:12,439 using Mer's kids as props. 427 00:17:12,483 --> 00:17:15,021 Is he a gas lighty and manipulative guy as a rule? 428 00:17:15,660 --> 00:17:17,357 No. 429 00:17:17,401 --> 00:17:19,707 Because, you know, the other way you could see that proposal 430 00:17:19,751 --> 00:17:22,841 is that he was being incredibly earnest and romantic. 431 00:17:22,884 --> 00:17:24,103 I mean, if you were a person 432 00:17:24,822 --> 00:17:27,237 who saw the world through rose-colored glasses, 433 00:17:27,280 --> 00:17:30,109 you know, like people in... In love do. 434 00:17:30,153 --> 00:17:31,545 Okay, I want to go back to pretending 435 00:17:31,589 --> 00:17:32,982 we don't know each other. 436 00:17:33,025 --> 00:17:34,331 And we'll do that when the films are up. 437 00:17:34,374 --> 00:17:35,810 How come you get to make all the rules? 438 00:17:35,854 --> 00:17:37,160 Because I'm older and because my patient 439 00:17:37,203 --> 00:17:39,031 might be brain-damaged, and I need to be distracted. 440 00:17:39,075 --> 00:17:41,468 So tell me why you said no. 441 00:17:41,512 --> 00:17:43,993 Um... 442 00:17:44,036 --> 00:17:46,256 I knew for months that I didn't want what he wanted. 443 00:17:46,299 --> 00:17:49,085 We had Scout, and we had Mer's kids 444 00:17:49,128 --> 00:17:51,000 because she was in the hospital with... 445 00:17:51,043 --> 00:17:53,654 - I heard. I prayed. - Yeah. 446 00:17:53,698 --> 00:17:56,179 So we were drowning in children and domesticity, 447 00:17:56,222 --> 00:18:00,096 and every day, I felt like I might die of it. 448 00:18:01,184 --> 00:18:03,186 I love all the kids, but every day, 449 00:18:03,229 --> 00:18:06,319 I thought I might die of monotony and boredom 450 00:18:06,363 --> 00:18:09,018 and dirty diapers and dirty dishes and laundry. 451 00:18:09,061 --> 00:18:12,021 And every day, I thought about doing drugs. 452 00:18:12,064 --> 00:18:15,720 And every night, I went to virtual meetings. 453 00:18:15,763 --> 00:18:17,591 And I am here to tell you that 454 00:18:17,635 --> 00:18:18,984 those virtual meetings... 455 00:18:19,028 --> 00:18:20,507 ...while better than no meetings, 456 00:18:20,551 --> 00:18:23,554 are no substitute for regular in-person meetings. 457 00:18:23,597 --> 00:18:24,598 They're not the same. 458 00:18:24,642 --> 00:18:26,948 And, so, I was hanging by a thread, 459 00:18:26,992 --> 00:18:32,345 and, um, Link... wasn't. 460 00:18:32,389 --> 00:18:35,609 He was falling in love with domesticity. 461 00:18:35,653 --> 00:18:38,786 And he was the world's most stand-up guy. 462 00:18:38,830 --> 00:18:42,790 And he started proposing all the time, 463 00:18:42,834 --> 00:18:45,010 despite me saying no. 464 00:18:45,054 --> 00:18:47,186 And he decided that he wanted more kids, 465 00:18:47,230 --> 00:18:49,493 and I felt like I couldn't breathe. 466 00:18:49,536 --> 00:18:52,887 And, um, then I judged myself for that, 467 00:18:52,931 --> 00:18:55,996 like I think you are judging me now. 468 00:18:57,066 --> 00:18:59,111 During the pandemic, I drank so much red wine, 469 00:18:59,155 --> 00:19:01,374 I seriously considered checking myself into rehab. 470 00:19:01,418 --> 00:19:03,115 - Really? - Really. 471 00:19:03,159 --> 00:19:05,161 I looked like a swollen tick. 472 00:19:06,723 --> 00:19:08,342 I lost it. 473 00:19:08,773 --> 00:19:10,253 Lost it. 474 00:19:10,296 --> 00:19:12,864 I just hated... hated... Being stuck at home. 475 00:19:12,907 --> 00:19:14,039 You know, some people loved it. 476 00:19:14,083 --> 00:19:16,128 They baked bread. I don't like bread. 477 00:19:16,172 --> 00:19:22,134 I began to truly hate my video-game-obsessed son 478 00:19:22,178 --> 00:19:24,223 and my husband, who, by the way, 479 00:19:24,267 --> 00:19:27,487 took up a model-train hobby that seemed to truly delight him. 480 00:19:27,531 --> 00:19:28,923 - No. - Exactly. 481 00:19:28,967 --> 00:19:30,142 Mm. 482 00:19:30,186 --> 00:19:35,278 Yeah, I um... I went really dark, Amelia. 483 00:19:35,321 --> 00:19:38,038 I had dark, dark thoughts. 484 00:19:39,195 --> 00:19:42,285 I was daydreaming about going to sleep and never waking up, 485 00:19:42,328 --> 00:19:47,116 and that thought... comforted me. 486 00:19:48,552 --> 00:19:50,293 I hate that for you. 487 00:19:51,990 --> 00:19:53,687 And thank you. 488 00:19:53,731 --> 00:19:55,385 Thank you. 489 00:19:55,428 --> 00:19:58,562 Because... me too. 490 00:20:00,955 --> 00:20:02,392 Films are up, Dr. Shepherd. 491 00:20:09,898 --> 00:20:12,814 Venting the ports. 492 00:20:15,388 --> 00:20:16,692 You're already finished? 493 00:20:16,735 --> 00:20:18,258 Yeah. Is that bad? 494 00:20:18,302 --> 00:20:20,217 Oh, gosh. Did I forget something? 495 00:20:20,260 --> 00:20:21,609 No, no, no. It's... It's... 496 00:20:21,653 --> 00:20:24,134 We just got one more lap chole through the ER. 497 00:20:24,177 --> 00:20:25,788 You're making excellent time. 498 00:20:25,831 --> 00:20:27,311 How's about a double feature, Schmitt? 499 00:20:27,354 --> 00:20:29,008 Hell yeah. 500 00:20:30,761 --> 00:20:32,782 Dr. Webber, sir. 501 00:20:32,826 --> 00:20:34,436 That's what I'm talking about. 502 00:20:34,480 --> 00:20:36,090 Your patient will be in OR 7. 503 00:20:36,134 --> 00:20:37,439 Khan, you'll assist. 504 00:20:40,616 --> 00:20:43,402 We got two lap choles! 505 00:20:43,445 --> 00:20:45,012 We got two lap choles! 506 00:20:45,056 --> 00:20:47,014 Yes, we did! 507 00:20:48,850 --> 00:20:50,548 0 Vicryl, please. 508 00:20:53,194 --> 00:20:54,239 Looking good, brother. 509 00:20:54,282 --> 00:20:55,588 Okay. 510 00:20:55,631 --> 00:20:57,372 Whoa! Looks like you have some visitors, Roy. 511 00:20:57,416 --> 00:20:59,026 Eh, just a few familiar faces. 512 00:20:59,070 --> 00:21:00,593 Look at this sorry lot, huh? 513 00:21:02,595 --> 00:21:04,945 Eh, Noah shouldn't have bothered you all. 514 00:21:04,989 --> 00:21:06,686 Well, you knew we had to get our last licks in 515 00:21:06,729 --> 00:21:08,166 - before you went under the knife. - Ah, yeah. 516 00:21:08,209 --> 00:21:10,211 Listen, if I don't make it out of there... 517 00:21:10,255 --> 00:21:12,518 Will you shut up? Of course you'll make it. 518 00:21:12,561 --> 00:21:14,085 You know, at our base, 519 00:21:14,128 --> 00:21:15,738 the guys from the Afghan army would bring chickens 520 00:21:15,782 --> 00:21:16,913 and cook them for us. 521 00:21:16,957 --> 00:21:19,133 Well, one day, they brought a live sheep. 522 00:21:19,177 --> 00:21:20,700 Remember this? 523 00:21:20,743 --> 00:21:22,223 And Roy insisted on helping out. 524 00:21:22,267 --> 00:21:24,747 Told 'em he'd, uh, butchered pigs before or some lie. 525 00:21:25,922 --> 00:21:27,185 I stand by that lie. 526 00:21:28,447 --> 00:21:30,362 And this sheep... well, he did not like Roy. 527 00:21:30,405 --> 00:21:31,798 The second he got near him, he got kicked in the head, 528 00:21:31,841 --> 00:21:33,104 knocked on his ass, and trampled. 529 00:21:34,453 --> 00:21:35,456 What happened to the sheep? 530 00:21:35,486 --> 00:21:36,672 Well, he took off, 531 00:21:36,716 --> 00:21:38,196 left Roy on the ground, bloody and bruised. 532 00:21:38,239 --> 00:21:39,371 That's gotta hurt. 533 00:21:39,414 --> 00:21:41,677 So I run over, and Roy is out cold. 534 00:21:41,721 --> 00:21:44,985 And just when I start to panic, his crazy eyes fly open. 535 00:21:45,029 --> 00:21:48,075 He jumps up, screaming, "Yeehaw!" 536 00:21:48,119 --> 00:21:50,121 And he takes off after that sheep. 537 00:21:50,164 --> 00:21:51,992 I have no memory of that. I... I... 538 00:21:52,036 --> 00:21:54,603 Probably because of the concussion. 539 00:21:54,647 --> 00:21:56,605 Point is, if that angry sheep can't get rid of you, 540 00:21:56,649 --> 00:21:57,998 nothing can. 541 00:22:00,131 --> 00:22:01,175 Pbht. 542 00:22:04,526 --> 00:22:05,484 Okay. 543 00:22:05,527 --> 00:22:08,313 You guys, I won't forget this. 544 00:22:10,097 --> 00:22:12,056 You all coming here for me. 545 00:22:13,970 --> 00:22:15,189 We ready? 546 00:22:15,233 --> 00:22:16,408 We're ready. 547 00:22:16,451 --> 00:22:17,931 - Go. - Yeah. 548 00:22:17,974 --> 00:22:18,961 We got your six. 549 00:22:19,015 --> 00:22:20,064 Alright, brother. 550 00:22:20,107 --> 00:22:22,022 You got this, brother. 551 00:22:22,066 --> 00:22:23,415 Get 'em, Roy. 552 00:22:25,678 --> 00:22:27,984 Niki, your EKG looks normal, 553 00:22:28,028 --> 00:22:30,074 and cardio couldn't see anything on your echo. 554 00:22:30,117 --> 00:22:33,120 So is it possible that you're experiencing a little anxiety? 555 00:22:33,164 --> 00:22:34,382 Is it possible?! 556 00:22:34,426 --> 00:22:36,123 I'm having a baby, and, somehow, 557 00:22:36,167 --> 00:22:38,256 my new boyfriend didn't notice I was pregnant. 558 00:22:38,299 --> 00:22:39,648 Of course it is possible. 559 00:22:41,128 --> 00:22:43,609 Where is Dustin with those ice chips? 560 00:22:43,652 --> 00:22:45,350 What is important right now 561 00:22:45,393 --> 00:22:46,829 is that you take some deep breaths 562 00:22:46,873 --> 00:22:48,222 and stay calm, okay? 563 00:22:49,354 --> 00:22:51,225 He left, didn't he? 564 00:22:53,358 --> 00:22:54,402 I'm all alone. 565 00:22:54,446 --> 00:22:55,969 I can't do this all alone. 566 00:22:56,012 --> 00:22:58,232 Yes, you can. I know you can. 567 00:22:58,276 --> 00:22:59,973 All my friends thought I was crazy 568 00:23:00,016 --> 00:23:02,106 for having some random guy's baby. 569 00:23:02,149 --> 00:23:04,369 And my parents told me they wanted no part of it. 570 00:23:04,412 --> 00:23:06,719 So I moved across the country. 571 00:23:06,762 --> 00:23:10,070 And I was lonely and scared. 572 00:23:10,114 --> 00:23:14,640 And then I met Dustin, and he didn't seem to mind. 573 00:23:14,683 --> 00:23:16,511 How did he not notice? 574 00:23:16,555 --> 00:23:18,687 I don't know, Niki. 575 00:23:18,731 --> 00:23:20,646 But... But you wanted to have this baby, 576 00:23:20,689 --> 00:23:22,909 and you are about to meet him. 577 00:23:22,952 --> 00:23:25,868 I just wanted someone to hold my hand. 578 00:23:25,912 --> 00:23:27,261 I'll hold your hand. 579 00:23:31,831 --> 00:23:33,920 Who's gonna deliver the baby? 580 00:23:33,963 --> 00:23:36,792 Um, hey, uh, can you page Dr. DeLuca, please? 581 00:23:36,836 --> 00:23:38,533 Now. 582 00:23:38,577 --> 00:23:40,579 Here we go. 583 00:23:40,622 --> 00:23:43,712 We almost have the critical view of safety cleared. 584 00:23:43,756 --> 00:23:45,932 Are we ready to move forward? 585 00:23:49,153 --> 00:23:50,371 The field is filling with blood. 586 00:23:50,415 --> 00:23:52,068 Why is the field filling with blood? 587 00:23:52,112 --> 00:23:53,679 Maybe you should suction. 588 00:23:53,722 --> 00:23:55,246 But you're my assist. Maybe you should suction! 589 00:23:55,289 --> 00:23:57,944 Okay, uh, indications to convert to open cholecystectomy... 590 00:23:57,987 --> 00:23:59,989 Adhesions, fibrosis, unclear anatomy, hemorrhage. 591 00:24:00,033 --> 00:24:02,514 This could be the cystic artery, the hepatic artery... 592 00:24:02,557 --> 00:24:04,429 We have to open her up. 593 00:24:04,472 --> 00:24:05,985 - We? - Get the trocars out. 594 00:24:06,029 --> 00:24:07,519 And somebody call an attending. 595 00:24:09,260 --> 00:24:10,826 Okay, the good news is, 596 00:24:10,870 --> 00:24:12,698 there's no sign of CVA, edema, or tumor. 597 00:24:12,741 --> 00:24:15,657 And there's no electrolyte abnormalities or infection. 598 00:24:15,701 --> 00:24:17,050 Okay, well, that's good news and bad news. 599 00:24:17,093 --> 00:24:18,418 Why? 600 00:24:18,443 --> 00:24:20,096 Because with everything else ruled out, 601 00:24:20,140 --> 00:24:21,533 it's likely that the seizures are being caused 602 00:24:21,576 --> 00:24:23,230 by neurotoxicity from anti-rejection meds. 603 00:24:23,274 --> 00:24:24,623 Damn it. Damn it! 604 00:24:24,666 --> 00:24:26,277 We can switch her immunosuppressants 605 00:24:26,320 --> 00:24:28,583 and keep her on anticonvulsants and watch her like a hawk. 606 00:24:28,627 --> 00:24:30,194 I live in Los Angeles, okay? 607 00:24:30,237 --> 00:24:31,412 And as much as I hated them 608 00:24:31,456 --> 00:24:32,631 when I was trapped in a house with them, 609 00:24:32,674 --> 00:24:34,198 I do love my son and my husband. 610 00:24:34,241 --> 00:24:35,721 I have to get back home to them. 611 00:24:35,764 --> 00:24:38,637 I mean, I-I had arranged for the clinical-trial team 612 00:24:38,680 --> 00:24:40,595 to monitor her from here on out. 613 00:24:40,639 --> 00:24:41,857 I can, too. 614 00:24:41,901 --> 00:24:43,207 Oh, I can't because I'm going back and forth 615 00:24:43,250 --> 00:24:44,425 to Minnesota. 616 00:24:44,469 --> 00:24:45,818 But Bailey can or s-someone can. 617 00:24:46,862 --> 00:24:48,299 What I'm saying is, we can help. 618 00:24:48,342 --> 00:24:49,996 You'll just have to share credit when you publish. 619 00:24:50,039 --> 00:24:52,825 Don't say that like it's a small thing. 620 00:24:52,868 --> 00:24:55,741 I mean, it's risky. She's had so many seizures. 621 00:24:55,784 --> 00:24:57,482 If she seizes up again, I... 622 00:24:57,525 --> 00:24:59,048 Well, we've loaded her with anticonvulsants. 623 00:24:59,092 --> 00:25:00,572 We will watch her closely. 624 00:25:00,615 --> 00:25:02,878 If we have to take out the uterus, we take out the uterus. 625 00:25:02,922 --> 00:25:05,185 But let's cross that bridge when we come to it. 626 00:25:07,492 --> 00:25:10,016 I want to agree with you. 627 00:25:10,059 --> 00:25:11,713 Okay, so what's stopping you? 628 00:25:11,757 --> 00:25:14,499 I need to not kill this patient. 629 00:25:14,542 --> 00:25:17,006 I need to not let her die. 630 00:25:18,007 --> 00:25:21,288 And... And helping her helped me. 631 00:25:21,332 --> 00:25:22,942 It excited me. A uterine transplant? 632 00:25:22,985 --> 00:25:24,683 I mean, the thought of creating something for her 633 00:25:24,726 --> 00:25:26,815 that didn't exist before her 634 00:25:26,859 --> 00:25:30,602 made me want to get out of bed in the morning. 635 00:25:30,645 --> 00:25:33,257 But I don't want to make a decision that's selfish. 636 00:25:33,300 --> 00:25:36,521 I need to prioritize her life over the study. 637 00:25:36,564 --> 00:25:38,958 And I need you to tell me 638 00:25:39,001 --> 00:25:41,352 if there's a chance that you think I'm not. 639 00:25:41,395 --> 00:25:46,226 Dr. Montgomery, your patient was so in love with her husband 640 00:25:46,270 --> 00:25:50,056 that she is having a baby with him even though he is dead. 641 00:25:50,099 --> 00:25:52,841 She's so in love with the idea of becoming a mother 642 00:25:52,885 --> 00:25:54,669 that she entered your study 643 00:25:54,713 --> 00:25:57,455 knowing that she was risking her life. 644 00:25:57,498 --> 00:25:58,891 You are not being selfish. 645 00:25:58,934 --> 00:26:02,677 You are doing every single thing you can 646 00:26:02,721 --> 00:26:04,070 to help her live her dream. 647 00:26:04,113 --> 00:26:07,334 And that is an excellent reason 648 00:26:07,378 --> 00:26:09,031 to get out of bed in the morning. 649 00:26:11,817 --> 00:26:13,340 We're almost ready here, Roy. 650 00:26:13,384 --> 00:26:15,299 Are you sure you still want to go through with this? 651 00:26:17,126 --> 00:26:19,433 I got a daughter. 652 00:26:19,477 --> 00:26:23,394 She lives on the East Coast with her husband, two kids. 653 00:26:23,437 --> 00:26:25,396 I don't ever see them. 654 00:26:25,439 --> 00:26:26,658 She took her mother's side in the divorce, 655 00:26:26,701 --> 00:26:28,442 and that... that was it. 656 00:26:28,486 --> 00:26:30,966 But if someone had done this to her, 657 00:26:31,010 --> 00:26:33,534 if someone had made her breathe in that crap 658 00:26:33,578 --> 00:26:35,449 and caused her a lifetime of pain, 659 00:26:35,493 --> 00:26:37,277 I'd want that person dead. 660 00:26:37,321 --> 00:26:39,627 Roy, we're going to stop this. 661 00:26:39,671 --> 00:26:42,759 We're going to hold the people at fault responsible, okay? 662 00:26:43,414 --> 00:26:45,416 I'm responsible. 663 00:26:46,417 --> 00:26:48,201 I'm not sure I understand. 664 00:26:48,244 --> 00:26:50,421 I authorized it. 665 00:26:50,464 --> 00:26:52,771 The burn pit on our base. 666 00:26:52,814 --> 00:26:54,076 Trash was piling up. 667 00:26:54,120 --> 00:26:57,036 There was no plumbing, no sewage system. 668 00:26:57,079 --> 00:27:00,126 And it's not like the garbageman comes on Tuesdays. I... 669 00:27:00,169 --> 00:27:03,216 I heard the, uh, other bases were burning it all. 670 00:27:05,000 --> 00:27:09,265 So... that's what I told them to do. 671 00:27:11,224 --> 00:27:12,878 I didn't invent the idea... 672 00:27:13,979 --> 00:27:15,906 ...but when I close my eyes at night, 673 00:27:15,985 --> 00:27:18,623 I see that black smoke billowing up from the ground, 674 00:27:18,666 --> 00:27:23,671 and I know that I committed the worst crime... 675 00:27:25,760 --> 00:27:27,414 ...complicity. 676 00:27:30,983 --> 00:27:34,987 So, at the end of the day, I might deserve to die. 677 00:27:35,683 --> 00:27:38,730 Everyone else deserves to live. 678 00:27:38,773 --> 00:27:40,949 Let's do it. 679 00:27:41,185 --> 00:27:43,056 Let's go. 680 00:27:47,782 --> 00:27:49,218 - What happened? - I-I don't know. 681 00:27:49,262 --> 00:27:50,829 The field filled with blood, and now I converted to open. 682 00:27:50,872 --> 00:27:52,265 - And now... - Well, you should have waited. 683 00:27:52,308 --> 00:27:54,136 - She was bleeding out. - You still should have waited. 684 00:27:54,180 --> 00:27:55,834 - I'm sorry, Chief, but... - Step aside. 685 00:27:55,877 --> 00:27:58,576 Okay, I need another suction and I need laps now. 686 00:27:58,619 --> 00:27:59,881 What can I do? 687 00:27:59,925 --> 00:28:02,057 If you want this patient to live, step aside. 688 00:28:02,101 --> 00:28:03,450 Okay. 689 00:28:03,494 --> 00:28:05,365 Okay, suction. 690 00:28:05,409 --> 00:28:06,592 Okay, clamp. 691 00:28:11,472 --> 00:28:13,997 I have never seen lung tissue like this. You? 692 00:28:14,040 --> 00:28:16,176 I have... in advanced ARDS, secondary to COVID. 693 00:28:16,237 --> 00:28:18,088 And it didn't end well. Suction. 694 00:28:18,131 --> 00:28:21,334 The tissue's just falling apart in my hands. 695 00:28:21,359 --> 00:28:22,796 Stapler. 696 00:28:22,839 --> 00:28:24,014 Thanks. 697 00:28:25,102 --> 00:28:26,539 Okay. 698 00:28:26,582 --> 00:28:28,410 Thank you for doing this. 699 00:28:28,453 --> 00:28:30,151 I know you didn't think it was a good idea. 700 00:28:30,194 --> 00:28:32,501 No, I didn't, but I believe in fighting for what's right, 701 00:28:32,545 --> 00:28:34,068 and if giving this guy a few more months 702 00:28:34,111 --> 00:28:36,287 helps make life better for others, I'm in. 703 00:28:36,331 --> 00:28:39,160 Okay. Alright. 704 00:28:40,509 --> 00:28:41,989 He's hemorrhaging. 705 00:28:42,032 --> 00:28:43,033 Hold pressure. I'll try to find the source. 706 00:28:43,077 --> 00:28:45,079 - Yep. - DeBakey clamp... now! 707 00:28:46,863 --> 00:28:48,691 Yeah, yeah. Come on. 708 00:28:48,735 --> 00:28:49,866 Come on. 709 00:28:49,910 --> 00:28:51,302 There. Got it. 710 00:28:52,739 --> 00:28:55,045 Alright. So, that's how this is gonna go, huh, Roy? 711 00:28:55,089 --> 00:28:57,004 I've only known this guy for eight hours. 712 00:28:57,047 --> 00:28:59,267 I'm pretty sure he's not going to make it easy on us. 713 00:28:59,310 --> 00:29:01,225 I operated in Boston for 15 years. 714 00:29:01,269 --> 00:29:03,097 No patient made it easy on me. 715 00:29:03,140 --> 00:29:04,402 Hemostats. 716 00:29:07,101 --> 00:29:09,233 Finished. 717 00:29:09,277 --> 00:29:11,584 And that, ladies and gentlemen, is how it's done. 718 00:29:11,627 --> 00:29:13,455 Yes, it is! 719 00:29:15,283 --> 00:29:19,243 Flawless technique on not one, but two lap choles today. 720 00:29:19,287 --> 00:29:21,289 Take notes if you want to survive. 721 00:29:21,332 --> 00:29:24,161 Thank you, sir, for the opportunity, 722 00:29:24,205 --> 00:29:26,511 the patients, the wis... You know, by working together, 723 00:29:26,555 --> 00:29:29,210 we saved 13 patients from cholecystitis... 724 00:29:29,253 --> 00:29:30,864 A hospital record. 725 00:29:30,907 --> 00:29:33,170 You should all be proud. Now, study hard. 726 00:29:33,214 --> 00:29:34,650 Today was lap chole. 727 00:29:34,694 --> 00:29:35,956 Tomorrow, it could be something more. 728 00:29:35,999 --> 00:29:37,771 Don't come unprepared. 729 00:29:38,436 --> 00:29:40,221 Yes! 730 00:29:44,138 --> 00:29:46,140 Hi, Tovah. 731 00:29:46,183 --> 00:29:48,403 I'm Dr. Shepherd. 732 00:29:48,446 --> 00:29:51,493 Is it gone? Did I... Did I lose it? 733 00:29:51,536 --> 00:29:52,929 Did you take the uterus? 734 00:29:52,973 --> 00:29:54,235 No. 735 00:29:54,278 --> 00:29:56,411 But, Tovah... 736 00:29:56,454 --> 00:29:58,282 you didn't reject it. 737 00:29:59,719 --> 00:30:00,720 Is there still a chance? 738 00:30:00,763 --> 00:30:02,722 There's still a chance. 739 00:30:02,765 --> 00:30:04,549 We're gonna step up your protocol, 740 00:30:04,593 --> 00:30:05,812 and you're still in the trial. 741 00:30:05,855 --> 00:30:07,291 Oh, my God, thank you. 742 00:30:08,815 --> 00:30:10,381 Thank you. My God. 743 00:30:11,774 --> 00:30:13,515 I'm gonna do a quick neuro check. 744 00:30:13,558 --> 00:30:16,605 Let just... give her a minute to cry. 745 00:30:20,478 --> 00:30:22,002 Wilson, what are you doing?! 746 00:30:22,045 --> 00:30:23,699 She won't let go of my hand! 747 00:30:23,743 --> 00:30:25,092 Okay, you're an OB. 748 00:30:25,135 --> 00:30:27,703 Your job is to deliver the babies, not to hold hands. 749 00:30:27,747 --> 00:30:28,791 Okay. 750 00:30:30,358 --> 00:30:31,576 A-And she's crowning. 751 00:30:31,620 --> 00:30:32,665 Niki, I need to help get the baby out, 752 00:30:32,708 --> 00:30:33,753 but I will be right over here. 753 00:30:33,796 --> 00:30:35,319 No, no, no. No, I can't do this. 754 00:30:35,363 --> 00:30:36,886 I just can't. 755 00:30:36,930 --> 00:30:37,800 Niki, you're worried about being alone. 756 00:30:37,844 --> 00:30:39,280 You're not alone. 757 00:30:39,323 --> 00:30:41,282 You have your son, and as soon as he comes out, 758 00:30:41,325 --> 00:30:42,805 he will be your whole heart. 759 00:30:42,849 --> 00:30:44,981 And it's hard, and it's exhausting, 760 00:30:45,025 --> 00:30:47,331 and there are days when you will turn around and wonder, 761 00:30:47,375 --> 00:30:48,506 "Where is this baby's mother? 762 00:30:48,550 --> 00:30:50,030 Because it absolutely cannot be me." 763 00:30:52,772 --> 00:30:54,512 But you will love him so much, 764 00:30:54,556 --> 00:30:57,472 you'll let him sleep on you anywhere, anytime, 765 00:30:57,515 --> 00:30:59,213 no matter how uncomfortable you are. 766 00:30:59,256 --> 00:31:01,258 And just one smell of his head will make you feel like 767 00:31:01,302 --> 00:31:02,999 your heart could explode. 768 00:31:03,043 --> 00:31:05,436 And that is worth so much more than your fear. 769 00:31:05,480 --> 00:31:07,482 Okay? You ready to start pushing? 770 00:31:07,525 --> 00:31:08,744 On the count of three. 771 00:31:08,788 --> 00:31:10,659 One, two, three. 772 00:31:12,313 --> 00:31:13,618 Push, push, push, push. 773 00:31:13,662 --> 00:31:14,750 - Here's the head. - Good. 774 00:31:14,794 --> 00:31:16,447 Wait, wait, wait. 775 00:31:16,491 --> 00:31:17,666 Niki, stop pushing. 776 00:31:17,710 --> 00:31:20,190 Okay, uh, shoulder dystocia. 777 00:31:20,234 --> 00:31:21,975 Baby's shoulder is caught behind the pubic bone. 778 00:31:22,018 --> 00:31:23,628 Okay, Wilson, what do you do? 779 00:31:23,672 --> 00:31:26,283 Uh, we're doing a McRoberts maneuver to get the baby out. 780 00:31:26,327 --> 00:31:27,328 Wait. A what? 781 00:31:27,371 --> 00:31:28,982 We've got you, Niki. 782 00:31:30,026 --> 00:31:32,028 Alright. We ready to push again? 783 00:31:32,072 --> 00:31:33,160 - Okay. - Alright. 784 00:31:33,203 --> 00:31:35,597 One, two, three. 785 00:31:35,640 --> 00:31:37,947 Go. 786 00:31:37,991 --> 00:31:39,122 Okay, Wilson, put your hand in and find 787 00:31:39,166 --> 00:31:40,341 the anterior shoulder, okay? 788 00:31:40,384 --> 00:31:41,429 You got it? 789 00:31:41,472 --> 00:31:43,083 - Yep. - Okay. 790 00:31:43,126 --> 00:31:45,563 Now push the back of the baby's shoulder towards the chest. 791 00:31:45,607 --> 00:31:47,391 Gently. 792 00:31:47,435 --> 00:31:49,393 Okay. 793 00:31:49,437 --> 00:31:50,786 Here he comes. 794 00:31:50,830 --> 00:31:52,614 Oh, my goodness. 795 00:31:52,657 --> 00:31:53,963 You have a boy. 796 00:31:54,007 --> 00:31:55,660 Oh, my goodness. 797 00:31:57,358 --> 00:31:58,663 Well done, Wilson. 798 00:32:16,290 --> 00:32:18,727 Farouk's echo and cardiac MRI 799 00:32:18,771 --> 00:32:20,642 show constrictive pericarditis. 800 00:32:20,685 --> 00:32:22,905 - Most likely secondary to the TB. - Hm. 801 00:32:22,949 --> 00:32:24,646 I'm so sorry. 802 00:32:24,689 --> 00:32:26,822 I-I wish it was better news. 803 00:32:26,866 --> 00:32:28,693 He's already been through so much, 804 00:32:28,737 --> 00:32:30,608 more than any kid should. 805 00:32:30,652 --> 00:32:32,654 And the hits just keep coming. 806 00:32:36,484 --> 00:32:37,746 Do you want to be alone? 807 00:32:37,790 --> 00:32:38,878 I'm sorry. I don't... 808 00:32:38,921 --> 00:32:40,793 I don't usually do this. 809 00:32:40,836 --> 00:32:42,359 It's your son. All bets are off. 810 00:32:42,403 --> 00:32:43,752 Mnh. 811 00:32:45,232 --> 00:32:47,843 Uh, okay, so... So what does this mean? 812 00:32:47,887 --> 00:32:50,498 Is he gonna need surgery or... 813 00:32:50,541 --> 00:32:52,761 I have to consult with cardio, but I think so, yes. 814 00:32:52,805 --> 00:32:55,155 Most likely a pericardiectomy. 815 00:32:55,198 --> 00:32:56,809 Oh, God. 816 00:32:56,852 --> 00:32:58,245 I'll admit him, and we'll go from there. 817 00:32:58,288 --> 00:33:00,740 Oh, Farouk! Oh, my God! 818 00:33:01,596 --> 00:33:05,687 God, he's so... He's so good. 819 00:33:05,730 --> 00:33:08,106 I mean, he's a teenager, but... 820 00:33:08,730 --> 00:33:11,428 God, he's just always been such a good kid, 821 00:33:11,453 --> 00:33:16,110 despite what this messed-up world has given him. 822 00:33:16,135 --> 00:33:18,094 He has to be okay. 823 00:33:18,119 --> 00:33:20,774 I will do everything in my power to make sure that he is. 824 00:33:20,827 --> 00:33:21,828 That's a promise. 825 00:33:22,492 --> 00:33:23,678 Okay. 826 00:33:23,966 --> 00:33:25,185 Do you want me to call your brother? 827 00:33:25,228 --> 00:33:26,926 I'll tell him, just not yet. 828 00:33:26,969 --> 00:33:28,543 I... 829 00:33:29,189 --> 00:33:31,931 I-I need to sit with this by myself 830 00:33:31,974 --> 00:33:33,149 for... for a minute. 831 00:33:34,669 --> 00:33:36,062 Take all the time you need. 832 00:33:44,344 --> 00:33:46,607 So, his lungs had more scarring than we expected. 833 00:33:46,859 --> 00:33:48,425 It's gonna be a tough road ahead. 834 00:33:48,469 --> 00:33:50,166 Well, he can handle it. 835 00:33:50,210 --> 00:33:51,385 I know he can. 836 00:33:57,260 --> 00:33:59,132 Thank you. 837 00:33:59,175 --> 00:34:00,568 Honestly, you're the first doctor I've met 838 00:34:00,611 --> 00:34:01,917 who actually gave a crap, 839 00:34:01,961 --> 00:34:04,920 who's really done anything for any of us. 840 00:34:04,964 --> 00:34:07,749 Well... I'm sorry that's the case. 841 00:34:08,083 --> 00:34:10,418 But this is personal to me, you know? 842 00:34:10,970 --> 00:34:14,451 I am in this with all of you guys, okay? 843 00:34:17,628 --> 00:34:19,108 W-What's happening? 844 00:34:19,152 --> 00:34:20,980 Dr. Hunt! 845 00:34:21,023 --> 00:34:22,329 Noah, I'm gonna need you to leave, okay? 846 00:34:22,372 --> 00:34:23,373 I'm not leaving him. 847 00:34:23,417 --> 00:34:25,898 Sergeant, step outside, now! 848 00:34:25,941 --> 00:34:27,943 Now! 849 00:34:27,987 --> 00:34:29,902 Damn it, his O2 is plummeting. 850 00:34:29,945 --> 00:34:31,251 Noah, you got to go. 851 00:34:31,294 --> 00:34:32,469 Come on, Roy. 852 00:34:32,513 --> 00:34:33,949 V-fib! Paddles! 853 00:34:36,125 --> 00:34:37,910 - Come on, Roy. - Sir, you're not allowed in here. 854 00:34:37,953 --> 00:34:38,823 - Sir, you've got to go. - Come on, Roy. 855 00:34:38,867 --> 00:34:40,347 Come on, Roy. Hang in there! 856 00:34:40,390 --> 00:34:42,349 Okay, let's charge to 120. 857 00:34:42,392 --> 00:34:43,698 Ready? And clear. 858 00:34:44,786 --> 00:34:46,135 No change. Push 1 of epi. 859 00:34:46,179 --> 00:34:48,311 Charge to 150. And... clear! 860 00:34:49,356 --> 00:34:50,661 Come on, Roy. 861 00:34:50,705 --> 00:34:51,793 200! 862 00:34:51,836 --> 00:34:52,835 And clear! 863 00:34:59,534 --> 00:35:01,797 - Who wants cider? - Congratulations, sweetheart. 864 00:35:01,840 --> 00:35:03,987 - Ah. - I know I was skeptical, 865 00:35:04,011 --> 00:35:06,995 but 13 lap choles, that is something. 866 00:35:07,048 --> 00:35:08,441 Yes. 867 00:35:08,484 --> 00:35:11,096 Even though you did con me into agreeing this morning. 868 00:35:11,139 --> 00:35:12,706 - Con? - Mm-hmm. 869 00:35:12,749 --> 00:35:14,099 Is that what you're calling it, what we did? 870 00:35:14,142 --> 00:35:15,100 Mm-hmm. 871 00:35:16,492 --> 00:35:18,277 Well, you've set the bar very high for yourself. 872 00:35:18,320 --> 00:35:20,679 The residents are going to expect this all the time. 873 00:35:20,729 --> 00:35:21,934 - Ohh. - I mean, who knows? 874 00:35:21,958 --> 00:35:23,325 The scrub nurses may walk out. 875 00:35:23,369 --> 00:35:25,327 Ah, well, everyone will adapt. 876 00:35:25,371 --> 00:35:27,025 They'll have to, because from now on, 877 00:35:27,068 --> 00:35:28,591 this is gonna be my primary method of teaching. 878 00:35:28,635 --> 00:35:29,941 - To the Webber Method. - Yeah. 879 00:35:29,984 --> 00:35:31,290 Ooh! Rolls off the tongue, doesn't it? 880 00:35:31,333 --> 00:35:33,205 Mm-hmm. 881 00:35:33,248 --> 00:35:34,989 - Ah. - You still don't like it. 882 00:35:35,033 --> 00:35:36,512 No, I don't. 883 00:35:36,556 --> 00:35:37,905 Look, Helm clipped that artery 884 00:35:37,949 --> 00:35:39,864 with no attending in the room. 885 00:35:39,907 --> 00:35:41,387 When I first walked in and saw all that blood, 886 00:35:41,430 --> 00:35:42,692 even I didn't know which way was up, 887 00:35:42,736 --> 00:35:44,259 so how was a resident supposed to? 888 00:35:44,303 --> 00:35:46,522 You know as well as I that complications 889 00:35:46,566 --> 00:35:48,089 could happened to... To... to any one of us. 890 00:35:48,133 --> 00:35:51,223 Which is why we owe it to them and the patients 891 00:35:51,266 --> 00:35:54,163 to be there in the room. 892 00:35:54,966 --> 00:35:58,447 Bailey, 10 years from now, 893 00:35:58,491 --> 00:36:01,929 we are going to be short tens of thousands of surgeons 894 00:36:01,973 --> 00:36:04,149 if we don't rethink what we're doing here. 895 00:36:04,192 --> 00:36:06,934 We're a teaching hospital, and we have a moral imperative 896 00:36:06,978 --> 00:36:08,718 to make sure that people don't die because 897 00:36:08,762 --> 00:36:10,416 there's no one to operate on them. 898 00:36:10,459 --> 00:36:12,505 That's what we owe these patients. 899 00:36:12,548 --> 00:36:14,246 Helm did prove the system worked. 900 00:36:14,289 --> 00:36:15,508 She asked for help. 901 00:36:15,551 --> 00:36:17,379 She did exactly what she was supposed to do. 902 00:36:17,423 --> 00:36:18,946 And you were there, and you helped. 903 00:36:18,990 --> 00:36:20,948 The patient's alive and stable and in recovery. 904 00:36:20,992 --> 00:36:22,471 It did work. 905 00:36:23,124 --> 00:36:25,518 Oh, yeah. To the Webber Method. 906 00:36:25,561 --> 00:36:26,823 No. I-I'm sorry. What, now? 907 00:36:26,867 --> 00:36:28,042 - To the Webber Method! - Ah! 908 00:36:43,886 --> 00:36:46,889 I'm so sorry, Noah. We did everything we could. 909 00:36:47,105 --> 00:36:51,065 Roy's lungs were just... too far gone, 910 00:36:51,109 --> 00:36:53,546 and the damage put too much stress on his heart. 911 00:36:56,157 --> 00:36:57,245 Noah... 912 00:36:58,943 --> 00:37:01,423 I can help you continue Roy's work, you know, 913 00:37:01,467 --> 00:37:03,817 the data, the testimonials. 914 00:37:03,860 --> 00:37:05,901 Yeah, I don't want your help. 915 00:37:06,472 --> 00:37:09,954 I never wanted it in the first place, but you convinced me. 916 00:37:09,997 --> 00:37:12,826 You convinced me to introduce you to my friends, 917 00:37:12,869 --> 00:37:16,482 my family, and look what happened. 918 00:37:16,525 --> 00:37:18,049 You made it so much worse. 919 00:37:32,063 --> 00:37:35,805 You know, I almost left Jake in the first lockdown, 920 00:37:35,849 --> 00:37:37,329 in the thick of it, about two months in. 921 00:37:37,372 --> 00:37:39,026 I wasn't even drinking. I was stone-cold sober. 922 00:37:39,070 --> 00:37:40,897 I just... God. 923 00:37:40,941 --> 00:37:42,987 They were bickering about "Game of Thrones," 924 00:37:43,030 --> 00:37:45,554 and I just got up off the couch, 925 00:37:45,598 --> 00:37:48,153 got in the car, and drove. 926 00:37:48,178 --> 00:37:49,614 Drove for about two hours 927 00:37:49,639 --> 00:37:51,797 before I stopped and even thought to ask myself 928 00:37:51,822 --> 00:37:53,324 what I was doing. 929 00:37:54,246 --> 00:37:55,943 Are you asking if I'm sure? 930 00:37:56,087 --> 00:37:57,523 I am saying that 931 00:37:57,566 --> 00:38:01,048 when one is in a slight mental-health crisis, 932 00:38:01,092 --> 00:38:04,710 one might regret the decisions she makes later. 933 00:38:04,735 --> 00:38:06,563 I didn't leave when I was thinking about doing drugs. 934 00:38:06,793 --> 00:38:08,708 And I didn't leave when I was wondering 935 00:38:08,751 --> 00:38:11,754 if Link would ever really understand me. 936 00:38:11,798 --> 00:38:13,104 I stayed through all of that 937 00:38:13,147 --> 00:38:14,670 because I thought I must be crazy, 938 00:38:14,714 --> 00:38:16,455 because who leaves a really good and decent guy? 939 00:38:16,498 --> 00:38:18,587 But I don't feel crazy now. 940 00:38:18,631 --> 00:38:20,328 And I don't want to get high. 941 00:38:20,372 --> 00:38:21,895 I just don't want a ring, 942 00:38:21,938 --> 00:38:23,810 and I don't want to have any more babies. 943 00:38:23,853 --> 00:38:26,378 And... And I didn't even leave him. 944 00:38:26,421 --> 00:38:28,401 He left me. But... 945 00:38:30,599 --> 00:38:32,697 But I hated the life that he loved, 946 00:38:32,722 --> 00:38:35,927 and so I think that the sanest and kindest thing 947 00:38:35,952 --> 00:38:39,739 I could possibly do is to let him go, 948 00:38:39,782 --> 00:38:42,872 no matter how much it sometimes aches. 949 00:38:44,396 --> 00:38:46,702 Look at you. 950 00:38:49,183 --> 00:38:51,055 Look at me, what? 951 00:38:51,098 --> 00:38:54,971 Look at you, Amelia Shepherd, all grown up. 952 00:39:05,982 --> 00:39:08,333 - Rough day? - Yeah, I had better. 953 00:39:08,376 --> 00:39:09,856 Sorry to hear that. 954 00:39:12,032 --> 00:39:13,338 Hey, I don't want to talk about it, 955 00:39:13,381 --> 00:39:15,644 but do you want to get a drink at Joe's? 956 00:39:15,688 --> 00:39:17,690 I think I, um... 957 00:39:17,733 --> 00:39:18,995 I think I need a minute before I go home 958 00:39:19,039 --> 00:39:20,693 to the wife and the kids. 959 00:39:21,781 --> 00:39:23,130 Yeah, sure. 960 00:39:23,174 --> 00:39:24,392 Sounds good. 961 00:39:34,707 --> 00:39:36,622 - Hey. - Hey. 962 00:39:36,665 --> 00:39:38,102 What's up? 963 00:39:41,105 --> 00:39:42,845 Mm! 964 00:39:48,851 --> 00:39:51,724 I-I heard you did two flawless lap choles today. 965 00:39:51,767 --> 00:39:52,942 I did. 966 00:39:52,986 --> 00:39:54,857 My rock-star boyfriend. 967 00:39:54,901 --> 00:39:57,469 - Huh? - Say it again. 968 00:39:57,512 --> 00:40:00,733 My rock-star boy... 969 00:40:00,776 --> 00:40:03,039 I've had to operate alone before... 970 00:40:05,041 --> 00:40:07,522 ...in circumstances I would have never thought possible. 971 00:40:10,482 --> 00:40:11,882 We'll go home in a minute. 972 00:40:13,659 --> 00:40:18,620 I just need to find the energy to walk to the car 973 00:40:18,664 --> 00:40:20,811 and get in it... 974 00:40:20,872 --> 00:40:22,798 ...which might be tomorrow. 975 00:40:22,842 --> 00:40:25,018 By now, I know what I'm capable of, 976 00:40:25,061 --> 00:40:27,238 how much I can handle on my own. 977 00:40:28,546 --> 00:40:29,936 And you know what? 978 00:40:29,979 --> 00:40:31,590 I can handle a lot. 979 00:40:35,071 --> 00:40:36,551 You're playing the surgery over and over 980 00:40:36,595 --> 00:40:38,292 in your head, right? 981 00:40:39,598 --> 00:40:41,252 When you saw that bloody field, 982 00:40:41,295 --> 00:40:46,474 you felt numb, but cold, 983 00:40:46,518 --> 00:40:48,824 and sick to your stomach? 984 00:40:48,868 --> 00:40:51,044 Yeah. How'd you know? 985 00:40:52,567 --> 00:40:55,222 You don't think I ever made a mistake in the OR before? 986 00:40:56,615 --> 00:41:00,184 Or watched Meredith Grey make a mistake? 987 00:41:02,838 --> 00:41:04,318 I feel awful. 988 00:41:04,362 --> 00:41:06,146 You should. 989 00:41:06,190 --> 00:41:07,930 Thanks. 990 00:41:07,974 --> 00:41:11,438 If you didn't, you'd be in the wrong line of work. 991 00:41:12,152 --> 00:41:16,852 It's that feeling, that... That... that awfulness... 992 00:41:16,896 --> 00:41:19,115 It sticks with us 993 00:41:19,159 --> 00:41:21,248 so we don't ever make that same mistake again. 994 00:41:23,294 --> 00:41:25,034 It's how we become great. 995 00:41:29,038 --> 00:41:30,910 Night, Helm. 996 00:41:30,953 --> 00:41:33,304 But that doesn't mean I'm going to turn down an assist 997 00:41:33,347 --> 00:41:35,262 from another pair of skilled hands. 998 00:41:45,664 --> 00:41:47,274 Because at the end of the day, 999 00:41:47,318 --> 00:41:49,189 just because I can do a surgery alone 1000 00:41:49,233 --> 00:41:50,364 doesn't mean I have to. 1001 00:41:50,408 --> 00:41:51,887 - Hi. - Let me guess... 1002 00:41:51,931 --> 00:41:53,324 Emergent kidney transplant. 1003 00:41:53,367 --> 00:41:54,847 Uh, liver, actually. 1004 00:41:54,890 --> 00:41:56,414 How'd it go? 1005 00:41:56,457 --> 00:41:58,372 - Good. Not bad. - Good. 1006 00:41:58,416 --> 00:41:59,808 You're here. 1007 00:41:59,852 --> 00:42:01,810 I'm here. 1008 00:42:01,854 --> 00:42:04,291 Should we get some dinner tonight? 1009 00:42:04,335 --> 00:42:05,510 - Yes. - Okay. 1010 00:42:05,553 --> 00:42:06,685 - Let's do it. - Let's do it. 1011 00:42:06,728 --> 00:42:07,860 - Okay. - Okay. 1012 00:42:07,903 --> 00:42:08,991 - Go get some rest. - I will. 1013 00:42:09,035 --> 00:42:10,166 See you. 1014 00:42:11,385 --> 00:42:12,995 Knowing someone else has your back? 1015 00:42:15,389 --> 00:42:16,782 It's everything.