1 00:00:09,778 --> 00:00:12,190 It's a natural progression in any profession 2 00:00:12,214 --> 00:00:14,559 for the student to become the teacher, 3 00:00:14,583 --> 00:00:16,327 the mentee to become the mentor. 4 00:00:34,236 --> 00:00:36,514 It's not that much different from parenting. 5 00:00:36,538 --> 00:00:37,582 I'm your son. 6 00:00:39,708 --> 00:00:43,921 We learn from our ancestors how to make the perfect soup. 7 00:00:47,649 --> 00:00:51,229 How to soothe an aching head or heart. 8 00:00:51,253 --> 00:00:52,396 Your call has been forwarded 9 00:00:52,420 --> 00:00:55,433 to an automated voice messaging system. 10 00:01:28,290 --> 00:01:30,868 We measure milestones and percentiles 11 00:01:30,892 --> 00:01:32,470 and first steps... 12 00:01:32,494 --> 00:01:36,274 ...to try and gain insight into the person they'll grow into. 13 00:01:38,099 --> 00:01:40,218 - Hello? - ? October 33 14 00:01:40,242 --> 00:01:42,847 Tate, you're early. 15 00:01:42,871 --> 00:01:45,216 I've just started packing lunches. 16 00:01:52,881 --> 00:01:55,259 As if knowing a bunch of numbers on charts 17 00:01:55,283 --> 00:01:58,618 is any true measure of what we might make of ourselves. 18 00:01:59,102 --> 00:02:00,798 Jackson. 19 00:02:02,439 --> 00:02:03,968 Hey, Dad. 20 00:02:29,216 --> 00:02:31,262 Alright. 21 00:02:31,286 --> 00:02:32,997 I know it seems, like, impulsive and out of nowhere, 22 00:02:33,021 --> 00:02:34,805 but it's not... It's just, uh... 23 00:02:35,256 --> 00:02:36,767 uh, fast. 24 00:02:36,791 --> 00:02:39,103 But it's not, like... 25 00:02:39,127 --> 00:02:40,104 impulsive, impulsive. 26 00:02:40,128 --> 00:02:41,728 It's... 27 00:02:43,063 --> 00:02:44,775 I thought it through. It's just I thought it through... 28 00:02:45,934 --> 00:02:47,778 Oh! 29 00:02:58,279 --> 00:03:05,169 Synced & corrected by -robtor- www.addic7ed.com 30 00:03:10,023 --> 00:03:11,369 Everybody alive? 31 00:03:11,393 --> 00:03:13,304 Yeah. Yeah, yeah. That's not... 32 00:03:13,328 --> 00:03:15,439 Not why I'm here. 33 00:03:15,463 --> 00:03:16,974 I thought you were Tate. 34 00:03:16,998 --> 00:03:20,044 He delivers meals for me to people in the community that need them. 35 00:03:20,068 --> 00:03:22,135 Okay. Not Tate. 36 00:03:22,644 --> 00:03:24,404 Well, come on in. Take a load off. 37 00:03:24,730 --> 00:03:27,718 I tested clean yesterday and haven't seen anyone. 38 00:03:27,742 --> 00:03:29,153 I haven't seen anyone, either. 39 00:03:29,177 --> 00:03:30,788 I just made a fresh pot of coffee. 40 00:03:30,812 --> 00:03:32,678 - Want some? - I'm good. 41 00:03:34,072 --> 00:03:35,993 How have you been? 42 00:03:36,017 --> 00:03:37,661 I've been thinking a lot about you lately, 43 00:03:37,685 --> 00:03:39,397 what with everything going on in the world. 44 00:03:39,421 --> 00:03:40,798 I was gonna call, 45 00:03:40,822 --> 00:03:42,366 but the way we left things last time, 46 00:03:42,390 --> 00:03:44,157 I figured you did not want to talk to me. 47 00:03:45,500 --> 00:03:48,939 And I didn't want to be one of those added things 48 00:03:48,963 --> 00:03:51,197 on top of the pandemic to deal with. 49 00:03:53,467 --> 00:03:54,979 How have you been? 50 00:03:55,003 --> 00:03:56,580 How's your little girl? 51 00:03:56,604 --> 00:03:58,182 She must be, what... 52 00:03:58,206 --> 00:04:00,418 She's 3 1/2 years old. Her name is Harriet. 53 00:04:00,442 --> 00:04:01,600 Right. 54 00:04:04,019 --> 00:04:06,290 Look, I didn't travel all this way 55 00:04:06,314 --> 00:04:09,260 to just catch up, so, um... 56 00:04:09,284 --> 00:04:11,150 I need... answers. 57 00:04:11,485 --> 00:04:14,265 Well, I've got about 150 lunches to put together, 58 00:04:14,289 --> 00:04:15,588 so if we're gonna talk, 59 00:04:15,903 --> 00:04:17,714 why don't you grab a pair of gloves over here with me 60 00:04:17,738 --> 00:04:19,358 and, uh... 61 00:04:19,382 --> 00:04:21,106 help me out? 62 00:04:23,811 --> 00:04:25,680 Oh, my God, it's your night. 63 00:04:25,726 --> 00:04:27,057 It's... Wait... It's your night? 64 00:04:27,081 --> 00:04:28,792 How can it be your night with Harriet? 65 00:04:28,816 --> 00:04:30,754 She's not packed, she's not ready, she's sick, 66 00:04:30,778 --> 00:04:31,825 and I have a calendar. It's okay, no, no, it's not... 67 00:04:31,864 --> 00:04:32,781 - It's not my night. - No? 68 00:04:32,805 --> 00:04:34,164 Alright? April, hey. 69 00:04:34,188 --> 00:04:35,432 - It's not? - No, no, no, it's alright. 70 00:04:35,456 --> 00:04:36,533 - Okay. - Just take a breath. 71 00:04:36,557 --> 00:04:37,968 What's going on? What's wrong? 72 00:04:37,992 --> 00:04:40,837 She has a temp of 102, and... and she's coughing... 73 00:04:40,861 --> 00:04:42,105 - ...and she has no appetite. - Come here. 74 00:04:42,129 --> 00:04:43,840 But I-I took a rapid test... It's not COVID. 75 00:04:43,864 --> 00:04:45,675 Come here, munchkin. Come here. That's good. 76 00:04:45,699 --> 00:04:47,056 - Hey. Why didn't you call me? - I don't know what it is. 77 00:04:47,080 --> 00:04:49,065 Whooping cough or RSV or rickets? 78 00:04:49,089 --> 00:04:51,214 - It's not rickets. - People get rickets, Jackson. 79 00:04:51,238 --> 00:04:52,787 And... And Matthew just went out East with Ruby 80 00:04:52,813 --> 00:04:53,843 to see his sister, 81 00:04:53,867 --> 00:04:55,452 and the power keeps going on and off, 82 00:04:55,476 --> 00:04:56,560 and I know, I am a doctor, 83 00:04:56,604 --> 00:04:58,437 I need to take a deep breath and I should be cool, 84 00:04:58,461 --> 00:04:59,899 but I am... You're not being cool right now. 85 00:04:59,923 --> 00:05:00,851 You're not even breathing, 86 00:05:00,875 --> 00:05:02,058 - okay? Go ahead. - Oh, God. 87 00:05:02,082 --> 00:05:03,393 She's been sick before, obviously, 88 00:05:03,417 --> 00:05:05,811 but, like, COVID just makes everything feel so... big. 89 00:05:05,835 --> 00:05:06,954 And I know I need to calm down, 90 00:05:06,978 --> 00:05:08,094 but no one in the history of calming down 91 00:05:08,118 --> 00:05:09,274 has ever calmed down by being told to calm down, 92 00:05:09,298 --> 00:05:11,026 I'm not gonna tell you to calm down, alright? 93 00:05:11,050 --> 00:05:12,752 I'm not telling you to calm down, I promise. I just... 94 00:05:12,776 --> 00:05:14,120 Why don't you let me in the house, maybe? 95 00:05:14,144 --> 00:05:15,388 - Yeah, yes, okay. Just... sorry. - Okay? 96 00:05:15,412 --> 00:05:18,391 - Come in. - Hey, sweetheart. 97 00:05:18,415 --> 00:05:20,226 I can't tell you how long it took me 98 00:05:20,250 --> 00:05:21,994 to come up with this nifty system. 99 00:05:22,018 --> 00:05:23,863 First, we start with a bunch of these, 100 00:05:23,887 --> 00:05:26,132 what I've coined the brawn bundle. 101 00:05:26,156 --> 00:05:29,135 Here's how we do it... Two pieces of smoked ham, 102 00:05:29,159 --> 00:05:32,538 one slice of honey turkey, and provolone. 103 00:05:32,562 --> 00:05:34,040 Are you serious with all this? 104 00:05:34,064 --> 00:05:36,676 Roll it up, and once you have your ingredients set, 105 00:05:36,700 --> 00:05:38,010 you move down here to the bread. 106 00:05:38,034 --> 00:05:41,213 You won't believe how much time that saves. 107 00:05:41,237 --> 00:05:42,415 Try a piece. 108 00:05:42,439 --> 00:05:44,884 Look, I'll make the damn sandwiches with you 109 00:05:44,908 --> 00:05:46,776 in order to... It's fine. 110 00:05:46,800 --> 00:05:49,322 Okay? But I don't need to taste anything 111 00:05:49,346 --> 00:05:50,556 or have any food or coffee. 112 00:05:50,580 --> 00:05:53,092 Just... I don't need anything from you, honestly. 113 00:05:53,116 --> 00:05:54,327 I just need answers. 114 00:05:56,131 --> 00:05:57,340 Okay. 115 00:05:59,601 --> 00:06:01,769 Answers? 116 00:06:01,858 --> 00:06:03,836 Mom said something to me 117 00:06:03,860 --> 00:06:05,471 that I cannot get out of my head. 118 00:06:05,495 --> 00:06:07,106 Yeah, she has a talent for that. 119 00:06:07,130 --> 00:06:10,142 She said, for the first time ever, 120 00:06:10,166 --> 00:06:12,071 that I sounded like you. 121 00:06:12,095 --> 00:06:13,980 Did you piss her off? 122 00:06:14,004 --> 00:06:15,514 I said I can't really see change 123 00:06:15,538 --> 00:06:17,083 coming from inside the foundation. 124 00:06:17,107 --> 00:06:19,251 - There's too much bureaucracy. - Well, to be honest, 125 00:06:19,275 --> 00:06:21,976 I haven't thought about the foundation in a long time. 126 00:06:22,240 --> 00:06:24,178 Yeah, but what do you think she meant by that? 127 00:06:24,493 --> 00:06:25,825 Years ago, I learned 128 00:06:25,849 --> 00:06:28,461 to never put words in your mother's mouth. 129 00:06:28,485 --> 00:06:29,884 If you had to guess. 130 00:06:31,053 --> 00:06:33,833 I've never been one for the establishment. 131 00:06:33,857 --> 00:06:35,757 I always thought the whole system is rigged. 132 00:06:36,992 --> 00:06:38,926 So, how we doing over there? 133 00:06:40,029 --> 00:06:41,140 You know, I don't think 134 00:06:41,164 --> 00:06:43,342 ham-and-turkey sandwiches get enough credit. 135 00:06:43,366 --> 00:06:46,012 They're simple, but they get the job done. 136 00:06:46,036 --> 00:06:48,714 So I said that the whole system's just broken, 137 00:06:48,738 --> 00:06:50,583 needs to be thrown out and rebuilt, 138 00:06:50,607 --> 00:06:52,852 understanding that that's damn near impossible 139 00:06:52,876 --> 00:06:54,453 considering how many people benefit from it 140 00:06:54,477 --> 00:06:55,955 the way it is right now. 141 00:06:55,979 --> 00:06:57,901 That does sound a little like me. 142 00:07:01,884 --> 00:07:04,218 You look like you could use some more turkey. 143 00:07:04,366 --> 00:07:06,332 Ever use a commercial meat slicer? 144 00:07:06,356 --> 00:07:08,656 - When would I have done that? - Summer job? 145 00:07:09,892 --> 00:07:12,738 Anyway, it reminds me of the O.R., 146 00:07:12,762 --> 00:07:15,541 without the pressure of possibly killing someone. 147 00:07:15,565 --> 00:07:17,045 Come on, let me show you. 148 00:07:23,172 --> 00:07:25,584 Yeah, I can figure it out, thank you. 149 00:07:25,608 --> 00:07:26,852 Okay. 150 00:07:31,280 --> 00:07:32,425 You might want to... 151 00:07:32,449 --> 00:07:34,248 You might want to turn it on first. 152 00:07:34,771 --> 00:07:35,995 Yeah, right. 153 00:07:39,609 --> 00:07:40,966 Just, what is it? 154 00:07:40,990 --> 00:07:42,601 - Here, let me show you. - Okay. 155 00:07:42,625 --> 00:07:44,503 First of all, you gotta lift this. 156 00:07:44,527 --> 00:07:45,805 Here's your gauge for how thick 157 00:07:45,829 --> 00:07:47,540 you want to make the slice of meat. 158 00:07:47,564 --> 00:07:48,808 Okay. Got it. Thank you. 159 00:07:48,832 --> 00:07:50,428 - The carriage goes back and forth. - Great. 160 00:07:52,068 --> 00:07:53,167 I got it. 161 00:07:56,338 --> 00:07:59,087 Kinda relaxing when you get a rhythm going, huh? 162 00:07:59,542 --> 00:08:01,954 So... you're saying you wanted change, 163 00:08:01,978 --> 00:08:03,322 but what? 164 00:08:03,346 --> 00:08:05,191 You felt powerless 'cause you were an Avery or...? 165 00:08:05,215 --> 00:08:06,358 As you know, 166 00:08:06,382 --> 00:08:07,727 the Avery name carries a great deal of influence, 167 00:08:07,751 --> 00:08:09,083 but it also carries... 168 00:08:09,681 --> 00:08:11,130 a great deal of baggage. 169 00:08:11,154 --> 00:08:12,298 That amount of money 170 00:08:12,322 --> 00:08:14,633 can become a burden pretty quickly. 171 00:08:14,657 --> 00:08:16,936 Everybody knows you have it, so... 172 00:08:16,960 --> 00:08:19,171 they expect you to be responsible 173 00:08:19,195 --> 00:08:20,706 to fix everything with it. 174 00:08:20,730 --> 00:08:22,908 And there's almost no one in your shoes, 175 00:08:22,932 --> 00:08:25,032 so almost no one seems to get it. 176 00:08:25,363 --> 00:08:26,812 At least not when I said it. 177 00:08:26,836 --> 00:08:29,315 Certainly not when the name is synonymous 178 00:08:29,339 --> 00:08:31,751 with just the worst behavior imaginable. 179 00:08:31,775 --> 00:08:34,876 Well, not here it's not. 180 00:08:35,206 --> 00:08:37,189 Here, nobody knows who my father was 181 00:08:37,213 --> 00:08:38,579 or that I come from money. 182 00:08:39,044 --> 00:08:40,359 Out here, they just think 183 00:08:40,383 --> 00:08:43,284 I'm Robert who runs the diner. 184 00:08:48,191 --> 00:08:49,802 God. 185 00:08:49,826 --> 00:08:52,171 Uh, Matthew's been working a lot. 186 00:08:52,195 --> 00:08:53,973 I mean, I've been working a lot. 187 00:08:53,997 --> 00:08:55,474 Yeah, don't worry about it. My place is, uh... 188 00:08:55,498 --> 00:08:56,776 Please don't do that. 189 00:08:56,800 --> 00:08:58,644 Don't be all weird-nice with your voice an octave higher 190 00:08:58,668 --> 00:09:00,913 like you do with people at hotels or at the bank. 191 00:09:00,937 --> 00:09:02,681 I have a weird bank voice now? 192 00:09:02,705 --> 00:09:03,949 It's making you nuts. 193 00:09:03,973 --> 00:09:05,284 You... You can say it. 194 00:09:05,308 --> 00:09:07,153 Just mess everywhere. 195 00:09:07,177 --> 00:09:08,554 Pillows all over the place. 196 00:09:08,578 --> 00:09:09,989 I maintain that throw pillows 197 00:09:10,013 --> 00:09:12,491 are useless and stupid, yeah. 198 00:09:12,515 --> 00:09:15,127 How long has my munchkin been sick? 199 00:09:15,151 --> 00:09:17,051 Couple days. 200 00:09:17,415 --> 00:09:18,998 She just hasn't wanted to do anything, 201 00:09:19,022 --> 00:09:20,299 just lie on me. 202 00:09:20,323 --> 00:09:22,268 Also, she needs a bath. She smells like feet. 203 00:09:22,292 --> 00:09:23,813 Well, I hate to break it to you... that's you. 204 00:09:23,837 --> 00:09:25,504 - No, it's not. - 100 percent you. 205 00:09:26,763 --> 00:09:28,808 - Oh, God. That is me. - Yeah. 206 00:09:28,832 --> 00:09:29,842 Go take a shower. 207 00:09:29,866 --> 00:09:31,143 Jackson, I... 208 00:09:31,167 --> 00:09:33,134 April, go take a shower, please. 209 00:09:34,870 --> 00:09:36,715 - Hey, Jackson. - Mm-hmm? 210 00:09:36,739 --> 00:09:38,184 I'm calming down. 211 00:09:38,208 --> 00:09:39,752 - See? - I am. I am. 212 00:09:39,776 --> 00:09:41,821 - 10 minutes. - 10 minutes. 213 00:09:41,845 --> 00:09:44,790 She ever taken a 10-minute shower in her life? 214 00:09:44,814 --> 00:09:46,277 I don't think so. 215 00:09:47,216 --> 00:09:48,947 Some tunes? Good idea. 216 00:09:49,319 --> 00:09:51,385 Let's see what she's got. 217 00:10:00,330 --> 00:10:02,608 We got this, right? 218 00:10:02,632 --> 00:10:04,844 We got this, baby. 219 00:10:04,868 --> 00:10:06,512 We got this. 220 00:10:06,536 --> 00:10:08,714 You're gonna feel better in no time. 221 00:10:08,738 --> 00:10:10,482 Harriet and Dad. 222 00:10:12,108 --> 00:10:13,118 We got this. 223 00:10:14,377 --> 00:10:15,988 Oh, come on! 224 00:10:16,012 --> 00:10:17,590 Or maybe we don't. 225 00:10:30,059 --> 00:10:32,397 I gotta give it to you... That's some good turkey. 226 00:10:32,421 --> 00:10:33,772 Best in the state. 227 00:10:33,796 --> 00:10:35,975 Yeah, I'll take your word for it. 228 00:10:36,900 --> 00:10:38,277 So, what'd your dad think 229 00:10:38,301 --> 00:10:40,379 when you decided to walk away from it all? 230 00:10:40,403 --> 00:10:43,182 At first, he thought it was just a phase. 231 00:10:43,206 --> 00:10:45,253 But then when he realized I was serious, 232 00:10:45,975 --> 00:10:47,853 he stopped speaking to me. 233 00:10:47,877 --> 00:10:48,954 Completely? 234 00:10:48,978 --> 00:10:51,390 He said I was selfish, compulsive, lazy, 235 00:10:51,414 --> 00:10:53,726 a stain on the family name. 236 00:10:53,750 --> 00:10:57,463 Which I now see is such a complete joke. 237 00:10:57,487 --> 00:11:00,232 No, he was never interested in talking to me, 238 00:11:00,256 --> 00:11:02,768 unless it was about the hospital image 239 00:11:02,792 --> 00:11:04,503 or profits or expansion. 240 00:11:04,527 --> 00:11:06,605 If I have to have one more conversation 241 00:11:06,629 --> 00:11:08,774 about cutting hospital costs, I swear... 242 00:11:08,798 --> 00:11:10,175 Someone's got to do it. 243 00:11:10,199 --> 00:11:11,999 I just knew it wasn't gonna be me. 244 00:11:12,405 --> 00:11:14,647 I was never gonna be the son my father wanted 245 00:11:14,671 --> 00:11:18,517 because I didn't want to be the man the role required. 246 00:11:22,040 --> 00:11:23,277 That's why you're here. 247 00:11:24,198 --> 00:11:25,202 Why's that? 248 00:11:25,227 --> 00:11:26,226 Because... 249 00:11:26,587 --> 00:11:28,227 you're ready to leave it all behind. 250 00:11:42,626 --> 00:11:44,537 Why does anyone have an electric water heater? 251 00:11:44,561 --> 00:11:47,307 A power outage is when you need hot water the most. 252 00:11:47,331 --> 00:11:50,276 Well, Harriet cried herself to sleep. 253 00:11:50,300 --> 00:11:52,379 I propped her head up to help with the coughing. 254 00:11:52,403 --> 00:11:53,647 Okay, thank you. 255 00:11:53,671 --> 00:11:56,249 And I found a flashlight and a few candles, 256 00:11:56,273 --> 00:11:58,051 but I can't find any damn matches in this place. 257 00:11:58,075 --> 00:11:59,986 Oh, yeah, well, I'm married to a first responder. 258 00:12:00,010 --> 00:12:02,722 The matches are in a drawer even I've never found. 259 00:12:02,746 --> 00:12:04,858 Alright. Well, then, stove it is. 260 00:12:04,882 --> 00:12:06,715 Geez. 261 00:12:06,960 --> 00:12:08,728 Can you get some more candles? 262 00:12:09,987 --> 00:12:12,087 What? 263 00:12:13,441 --> 00:12:14,852 Oh, crap! Sorry. 264 00:12:14,876 --> 00:12:16,487 This is a nun. 265 00:12:16,511 --> 00:12:18,790 - I just grabbed the, uh... - The first nun you could find? 266 00:12:18,814 --> 00:12:20,615 Saying I'm going to hell? 267 00:12:20,639 --> 00:12:22,860 - Since when do you believe in hell? - True. 268 00:12:22,884 --> 00:12:25,029 But they're your candles, so you're going to hell. 269 00:12:25,053 --> 00:12:26,364 Okay. 270 00:12:26,388 --> 00:12:28,656 - Alright, just give me this. - Yeah, grab that. 271 00:12:28,680 --> 00:12:29,891 Her fever's at 102, 272 00:12:29,915 --> 00:12:32,160 so you might be right about RSV. 273 00:12:32,184 --> 00:12:33,261 Okay. 274 00:12:33,285 --> 00:12:35,063 So we just give her acetaminophen 275 00:12:35,087 --> 00:12:37,031 and wait it out unless she gets short of breath? 276 00:12:37,055 --> 00:12:39,400 Versus driving in a blackout to Grey-Sloan in a pandemic? 277 00:12:39,424 --> 00:12:40,968 Yeah, we're not going anywhere. 278 00:12:40,992 --> 00:12:42,403 The risk of exposure alone... 279 00:12:42,427 --> 00:12:44,572 We don't need doctors, April. We are doctors. 280 00:12:44,596 --> 00:12:45,873 And if she gets worse... 281 00:12:45,897 --> 00:12:47,108 Which she probably won't. 282 00:12:47,132 --> 00:12:48,164 Exactly. 283 00:12:48,751 --> 00:12:50,333 Yeah. 284 00:12:50,962 --> 00:12:52,280 How's Meredith doing? 285 00:12:52,304 --> 00:12:53,981 I've been praying for her. 286 00:12:54,005 --> 00:12:56,150 - Oh, she's, uh... She's awake. - Yeah? 287 00:12:56,174 --> 00:12:58,086 And she's getting better every day, stronger. 288 00:12:58,110 --> 00:12:59,209 - Oh. - Yeah. 289 00:13:00,444 --> 00:13:02,356 So, tonight wasn't your night. 290 00:13:02,380 --> 00:13:05,026 Yes. As usual, your calendar is impeccable. 291 00:13:05,050 --> 00:13:06,094 Well done. 292 00:13:06,118 --> 00:13:07,762 No, I'm just saying, uh, tonight... 293 00:13:07,786 --> 00:13:09,864 Tonight wasn't your night, so why are you... 294 00:13:09,888 --> 00:13:11,632 How have I never been to your place? 295 00:13:11,656 --> 00:13:13,835 I feel like I guess we must always do drop-offs 296 00:13:13,859 --> 00:13:15,069 at mine or work. 297 00:13:15,093 --> 00:13:16,838 It's... It's nice. It looks really nice. 298 00:13:16,862 --> 00:13:18,406 - I like what you've done. - Jackson... 299 00:13:18,430 --> 00:13:20,308 You guys are happy, you and... you and Matthew? 300 00:13:20,332 --> 00:13:21,843 We're busy, like everyone else. 301 00:13:21,867 --> 00:13:23,544 And Harriet and you and him and Ruby, 302 00:13:23,568 --> 00:13:25,446 the same house, it's going... 303 00:13:25,470 --> 00:13:27,315 Exposed brick is... is cool. I know you've always liked... 304 00:13:27,339 --> 00:13:28,716 Do you really think I can't tell when you're being cagey? 305 00:13:28,740 --> 00:13:30,818 - I'm not being cagey. - Am I happy? 306 00:13:30,842 --> 00:13:32,854 Exposed brick? Would you just talk like a person? 307 00:13:36,716 --> 00:13:38,259 I went to see my dad again. 308 00:13:38,283 --> 00:13:39,393 Oh, God. Is he sick? 309 00:13:39,417 --> 00:13:40,862 No, he's the same as always. 310 00:13:40,886 --> 00:13:44,120 Obliviously medium happy about his obliviously medium life. 311 00:13:45,422 --> 00:13:47,368 I thought you never wanted to see him again. 312 00:13:47,392 --> 00:13:48,625 I didn't. 313 00:13:49,187 --> 00:13:51,773 I needed to know if I was right about what I... 314 00:13:52,564 --> 00:13:53,997 what I wanted. 315 00:13:54,692 --> 00:13:56,310 And we're back to being cagey. 316 00:13:56,334 --> 00:13:58,846 I'm not trying to be cagey, April. 317 00:13:58,870 --> 00:14:01,115 He couldn't handle it. 318 00:14:01,139 --> 00:14:02,383 Okay? 319 00:14:02,407 --> 00:14:05,186 He couldn't step up or step into his own, 320 00:14:05,210 --> 00:14:06,721 and I can. 321 00:14:08,456 --> 00:14:10,758 I want to take over the foundation. 322 00:14:14,212 --> 00:14:15,763 Is this the, uh, coffee you showed me 323 00:14:15,787 --> 00:14:17,131 last time I was here? 324 00:14:17,155 --> 00:14:18,900 We sold out of our first batch. 325 00:14:18,924 --> 00:14:20,668 The local paper wrote us up, 326 00:14:20,692 --> 00:14:22,992 so we decided to add four more roasts. 327 00:14:23,304 --> 00:14:25,439 I was gonna branch out into other parts of the state, 328 00:14:25,463 --> 00:14:27,475 and then, ah, COVID. 329 00:14:27,499 --> 00:14:29,710 Yeah, I remember. You guys got hit pretty hard. 330 00:14:29,734 --> 00:14:31,646 Hospital was turning people away, right? 331 00:14:31,670 --> 00:14:33,069 It was a lot. 332 00:14:33,481 --> 00:14:34,582 I did everything I could 333 00:14:34,606 --> 00:14:36,317 to keep this place open after COVID hit. 334 00:14:36,341 --> 00:14:39,353 But then I ended up just bagging up food 335 00:14:39,377 --> 00:14:40,354 for the regulars. 336 00:14:40,378 --> 00:14:41,848 Word spread, 337 00:14:42,340 --> 00:14:43,817 and every morning, I come in here 338 00:14:43,841 --> 00:14:46,954 and crank up the Doobie Brothers, 339 00:14:46,978 --> 00:14:48,555 start packing lunches. 340 00:14:48,579 --> 00:14:50,623 It was weirdly therapeutic. 341 00:14:51,215 --> 00:14:53,193 Kept my mind occupied. 342 00:14:53,217 --> 00:14:54,528 Well... 343 00:14:54,552 --> 00:14:56,530 you got quite the bubble out here. 344 00:14:56,554 --> 00:14:59,099 Built a very different life for yourself. 345 00:14:59,123 --> 00:15:00,234 We're all raised to think 346 00:15:00,258 --> 00:15:01,962 that's some kind of wild concept. 347 00:15:01,993 --> 00:15:04,669 But what's wild is going to work every day 348 00:15:04,693 --> 00:15:06,438 doing something you do not like, 349 00:15:06,462 --> 00:15:08,628 thinking one day, it'll just magically stop. 350 00:15:09,392 --> 00:15:10,797 Yeah. 351 00:15:11,728 --> 00:15:13,378 I just feel stuck. 352 00:15:13,402 --> 00:15:14,368 Hmm. 353 00:15:15,636 --> 00:15:17,804 Like there's two of me. Like there's this... 354 00:15:18,526 --> 00:15:21,252 This successful surgeon that I worked so hard to become, 355 00:15:21,276 --> 00:15:23,321 was trying to push the foundation 356 00:15:23,345 --> 00:15:24,422 to be more progressive. 357 00:15:24,446 --> 00:15:26,324 And also just the guy 358 00:15:26,348 --> 00:15:29,494 that didn't ask for any of this, you know? 359 00:15:29,518 --> 00:15:32,415 I'm worried that maybe it's too late... 360 00:15:32,788 --> 00:15:34,959 The system's beyond repair. 361 00:15:35,491 --> 00:15:38,370 Maybe I could be effective from the outside. 362 00:15:38,394 --> 00:15:40,338 Or maybe you could let go of the idea 363 00:15:40,362 --> 00:15:43,130 that it's your job to save the world. 364 00:15:44,510 --> 00:15:45,677 You know, there's nothing wrong 365 00:15:45,701 --> 00:15:47,801 with wanting to keep things simpler. 366 00:15:48,097 --> 00:15:50,170 Yeah, I think about that a lot. 367 00:15:50,391 --> 00:15:52,183 Actually, I think, you know, 368 00:15:52,207 --> 00:15:54,986 I could get a small place in the woods, 369 00:15:55,010 --> 00:15:57,155 maybe open a private practice, 370 00:15:57,179 --> 00:15:59,400 do things I really care about. 371 00:15:59,882 --> 00:16:03,150 Explore the great outdoors with Harriet. 372 00:16:03,529 --> 00:16:05,730 We all deserve to live our lives however we want. 373 00:16:05,754 --> 00:16:06,998 Sure, yeah. 374 00:16:07,022 --> 00:16:09,456 You are an older white guy who's always had money, so... 375 00:16:09,952 --> 00:16:11,269 If nothing changes in the world, 376 00:16:11,293 --> 00:16:13,872 you're still gonna be fine, but I... I hear you. 377 00:16:13,896 --> 00:16:16,641 You given any thought to what if? 378 00:16:16,665 --> 00:16:18,376 What if I didn't come back here? 379 00:16:18,400 --> 00:16:20,167 What if you chose differently, yeah. 380 00:16:22,370 --> 00:16:25,176 Well, I'm more of a, hmm... 381 00:16:26,574 --> 00:16:28,287 "never look back" type. 382 00:16:31,780 --> 00:16:33,580 Right, yeah. 383 00:16:34,936 --> 00:16:36,161 Yeah, um... 384 00:16:40,656 --> 00:16:43,968 When I was here last time, I wanted to ask you why, 385 00:16:43,992 --> 00:16:46,037 and I... I didn't... I couldn't... 386 00:16:46,061 --> 00:16:48,006 I guess I used to say I was over it, 387 00:16:48,030 --> 00:16:49,074 but I'm not. 388 00:16:49,098 --> 00:16:50,827 I need to know why you left. 389 00:16:53,469 --> 00:16:54,946 'Cause, um... 390 00:16:57,806 --> 00:17:00,418 ...I realize that it's really messed me up... 391 00:17:00,442 --> 00:17:01,920 pretty badly. 392 00:17:01,944 --> 00:17:03,588 And, um... 393 00:17:04,646 --> 00:17:06,124 It just made it hard to, like, 394 00:17:06,148 --> 00:17:08,886 maintain relationships and stuff. 395 00:17:09,717 --> 00:17:11,796 Having this inclination to run away all the time. 396 00:17:11,820 --> 00:17:12,997 And I know, I know... 397 00:17:13,021 --> 00:17:14,732 Running away doesn't actually solve anything. 398 00:17:14,756 --> 00:17:15,878 I know that. 399 00:17:17,659 --> 00:17:19,337 So... And I've tried. 400 00:17:19,361 --> 00:17:23,430 I've tried really hard to rid myself of the shame 401 00:17:23,776 --> 00:17:26,144 and the pain that comes with all that, and, uh... 402 00:17:26,168 --> 00:17:28,179 You know, just kind of doubled-down 403 00:17:28,203 --> 00:17:30,074 on being the best at everything... 404 00:17:30,772 --> 00:17:32,450 The best father I could possibly be. 405 00:17:32,474 --> 00:17:34,853 I probably stayed in my marriage longer than I should have, 406 00:17:34,877 --> 00:17:36,321 went along with foundation business 407 00:17:36,345 --> 00:17:37,589 longer than I should have, 408 00:17:37,613 --> 00:17:39,657 but no matter what, when it gets rough, 409 00:17:39,681 --> 00:17:42,282 I just end up... right there, 410 00:17:42,670 --> 00:17:44,484 running, into the woods. 411 00:17:44,881 --> 00:17:46,865 Try to fight the you in me. 412 00:17:49,324 --> 00:17:52,103 Can you not just sit there looking at me? Can you say something? 413 00:17:52,127 --> 00:17:53,638 Pretend that I'm worth talking to? 414 00:17:53,662 --> 00:17:55,607 I don't know how you can just say nothing all the... Ow! 415 00:17:55,631 --> 00:17:57,931 God! Aah! Damn it! 416 00:17:58,760 --> 00:18:00,111 God! 417 00:18:00,135 --> 00:18:01,574 Oh, man. You alright? 418 00:18:01,598 --> 00:18:03,481 No, I'm not alright! Give it... I got it! 419 00:18:03,505 --> 00:18:05,416 Pressure, pressure, pressure. 420 00:18:12,869 --> 00:18:14,904 Okay. 421 00:18:20,811 --> 00:18:22,990 Temp's down to 101. 422 00:18:23,014 --> 00:18:24,658 It's just a bad dream. 423 00:18:24,682 --> 00:18:27,227 - Oh, yeah? How's her breathing? - It's better. 424 00:18:27,251 --> 00:18:28,696 - Oh, good, alright. - Yeah. 425 00:18:28,720 --> 00:18:30,927 - So we could be out of the woods. - Yeah. 426 00:18:34,055 --> 00:18:35,302 So, were you hoping 427 00:18:35,326 --> 00:18:37,204 - Matthew wasn't gonna be here tonight? - What? 428 00:18:37,228 --> 00:18:38,492 No, I don't have a problem with Matthew. 429 00:18:38,516 --> 00:18:39,940 - Really? - What? 430 00:18:39,964 --> 00:18:41,809 Whenever you guys are in the same room together, 431 00:18:41,833 --> 00:18:43,377 you say one of three things... 432 00:18:43,401 --> 00:18:45,279 "Yup," "Sure," "Not a problem." 433 00:18:45,303 --> 00:18:46,513 Well, okay, yeah. 434 00:18:46,537 --> 00:18:49,683 We're not best friends, but, I mean, it's civil. 435 00:18:49,707 --> 00:18:51,585 He seems like a fine guy. 436 00:18:51,609 --> 00:18:55,054 - He seems, uh, kind. - Kind? 437 00:18:55,078 --> 00:18:56,529 I don't have a bad word to say about him. 438 00:18:56,553 --> 00:18:57,797 That... That's something. 439 00:18:57,821 --> 00:19:00,922 So then why did you want to come tell me this in person? 440 00:19:02,257 --> 00:19:04,036 You're considering running the foundation. 441 00:19:04,060 --> 00:19:05,337 What's that got to do with me? 442 00:19:05,361 --> 00:19:06,372 That's the thing... 443 00:19:06,396 --> 00:19:09,141 I'm not just considering it. 444 00:19:09,165 --> 00:19:10,264 I'm doing it. 445 00:19:11,533 --> 00:19:14,535 Running the foundation means I got to move to Boston. 446 00:19:14,971 --> 00:19:17,650 W... Without Harriet? 447 00:19:17,674 --> 00:19:19,285 No. God, no. 448 00:19:19,309 --> 00:19:20,553 I'm moving to Boston, 449 00:19:20,577 --> 00:19:23,322 and I really need you all to come. 450 00:19:24,547 --> 00:19:26,058 The foundation will employ you and Matthew. 451 00:19:26,082 --> 00:19:27,193 You'll be set. 452 00:19:27,217 --> 00:19:28,527 You can do whatever you want 453 00:19:28,551 --> 00:19:31,230 in terms of an outreach program or design or build. 454 00:19:31,254 --> 00:19:32,998 Anything you want to do, we'll fund it. 455 00:19:34,023 --> 00:19:36,469 I would never leave Harriet. 456 00:19:37,794 --> 00:19:40,773 I could never, ever leave Harriet, 457 00:19:40,797 --> 00:19:43,958 which means I really need you all to come with me. 458 00:19:44,901 --> 00:19:46,245 Please. 459 00:19:51,757 --> 00:19:54,386 Doesn't look like there are any tendon injuries. 460 00:19:54,410 --> 00:19:55,754 Yeah, the cut's not that deep. 461 00:19:55,778 --> 00:19:56,822 Okay. 462 00:19:56,846 --> 00:19:59,291 Another wash, then let's glue it. 463 00:20:00,416 --> 00:20:01,527 I can handle it from here. 464 00:20:01,551 --> 00:20:02,817 Actually, just hand me the glue. 465 00:20:03,936 --> 00:20:05,553 Okay. 466 00:20:07,690 --> 00:20:08,789 Ow. 467 00:20:12,528 --> 00:20:13,973 Just give me your hand. 468 00:20:13,997 --> 00:20:16,264 - Come on, man. Let me do this. - Okay. 469 00:20:16,991 --> 00:20:18,811 I may not have practiced in a while, 470 00:20:18,835 --> 00:20:21,647 but it is like riding a bike. 471 00:20:21,671 --> 00:20:23,604 Not exactly, but okay. 472 00:20:24,279 --> 00:20:26,146 Hold it together. 473 00:20:27,175 --> 00:20:29,154 - See? - Alright. 474 00:20:29,178 --> 00:20:30,222 That is not bad. 475 00:20:30,246 --> 00:20:31,712 Okay. Does it hurt? 476 00:20:32,256 --> 00:20:34,059 - Do you want any Tylenol or anything? - Um. 477 00:20:34,083 --> 00:20:36,295 No, no, no. It's actually just... 478 00:20:36,319 --> 00:20:38,931 It stings a little bit, but that's fine. 479 00:20:38,955 --> 00:20:40,599 - Thank you. - Look at us. 480 00:20:40,623 --> 00:20:42,601 We ought to open up a family practice. 481 00:20:47,396 --> 00:20:48,707 You know, I'm gonna... 482 00:20:50,300 --> 00:20:52,244 I'm just gonna grab some air. 483 00:20:58,141 --> 00:20:59,919 I get it, Jackson. 484 00:20:59,943 --> 00:21:01,687 You're not the only person in quarantine 485 00:21:01,711 --> 00:21:03,255 who's drowning in big 486 00:21:03,279 --> 00:21:04,523 "What the hell am I doing with my life?" 487 00:21:04,547 --> 00:21:05,758 Kind of questions. 488 00:21:05,782 --> 00:21:07,726 But you don't just up and move across the country 489 00:21:07,750 --> 00:21:09,194 on a whim. 490 00:21:09,218 --> 00:21:11,263 No, no, no, that's not what this is. It's not on a whim. 491 00:21:11,287 --> 00:21:13,432 Since the moment I met you at Mercy West, 492 00:21:13,456 --> 00:21:16,368 you have rejected your family name, the legacy, 493 00:21:16,392 --> 00:21:17,670 even the freaking plane. 494 00:21:17,694 --> 00:21:20,039 You've... You've wanted nothing to do with any of it. 495 00:21:20,063 --> 00:21:21,340 - I resisted. That's not necess... - No, no, no. 496 00:21:21,364 --> 00:21:23,475 Sorry, you've been running, kicking and screaming. 497 00:21:23,499 --> 00:21:25,077 That is not where this is coming from. 498 00:21:25,101 --> 00:21:26,779 Okay? I can use this as an opportunity 499 00:21:26,803 --> 00:21:28,948 to make some profound changes in the world. 500 00:21:28,972 --> 00:21:30,115 You understand? 501 00:21:30,139 --> 00:21:32,409 I respect that. I mean, I-I admire that, Jackson. 502 00:21:32,433 --> 00:21:35,254 As long as it's not an inconvenience to your perfect little life here? 503 00:21:35,278 --> 00:21:38,757 Uprooting my entire life is not an inconvenience. 504 00:21:38,781 --> 00:21:40,092 Okay, you're right. 505 00:21:40,116 --> 00:21:41,827 But I need this. 506 00:21:41,851 --> 00:21:43,729 I know that I need to do this. 507 00:21:43,753 --> 00:21:45,719 I can feel it in my gut, and I just want to trust that for once. 508 00:21:45,743 --> 00:21:46,665 Okay. 509 00:21:46,689 --> 00:21:49,134 How many times have you "felt in your gut"... 510 00:21:49,158 --> 00:21:51,236 - Don't - ...the need to just pack up a tent 511 00:21:51,260 --> 00:21:52,805 and go for a walkabout 512 00:21:52,829 --> 00:21:54,907 and talk to yourself amongst the trees? 513 00:21:54,931 --> 00:21:57,508 So I'm the only one that's walked away when I was having a hard time? 514 00:21:58,367 --> 00:21:59,378 Just me, huh? 515 00:21:59,402 --> 00:22:00,546 How many times have you been 516 00:22:00,570 --> 00:22:01,747 sitting in the front pew at a church, 517 00:22:01,771 --> 00:22:04,283 talking to God about the plans for your life? 518 00:22:04,307 --> 00:22:05,951 It's not the same thing. I... Why not? 519 00:22:05,975 --> 00:22:08,354 Why is it that you can find solace and purpose in a church, 520 00:22:08,378 --> 00:22:09,809 but I can't find it in nature, 521 00:22:09,833 --> 00:22:10,856 where I can actually 522 00:22:10,880 --> 00:22:12,157 have some time that's quiet... 523 00:22:12,181 --> 00:22:13,993 ...hear myself think, think about what I want, 524 00:22:14,017 --> 00:22:15,628 not what everybody else expects of me? 525 00:22:15,652 --> 00:22:16,996 So how long did you spend 526 00:22:17,020 --> 00:22:18,986 thinking about going to see your father? 527 00:22:19,405 --> 00:22:20,886 How much time did you spend doing that? 528 00:22:20,910 --> 00:22:21,932 - Don't reduce it to that! - Or did you just, like, 529 00:22:21,956 --> 00:22:23,669 - get in a car and... and go... - No, it's not on a whim, okay? 530 00:22:23,693 --> 00:22:24,903 - It was a realization. - Okay, I... 531 00:22:24,927 --> 00:22:26,005 I needed clarity, 532 00:22:26,029 --> 00:22:28,607 and I went and talked to Robert, and I got it. 533 00:22:28,631 --> 00:22:32,800 You have never wanted any of this. 534 00:22:33,544 --> 00:22:36,115 And... And I'm just supposed to roll with it 535 00:22:36,139 --> 00:22:37,816 and see what happens? 536 00:22:37,840 --> 00:22:40,252 What... What happens when you regret it? 537 00:22:40,276 --> 00:22:42,921 What happens when you realize that you actually hate it? 538 00:22:42,945 --> 00:22:44,256 What you're asking of me, 539 00:22:44,280 --> 00:22:46,807 of... of our family, of our daughter, it's... 540 00:22:49,091 --> 00:22:51,057 What happens if it doesn't work? 541 00:22:53,188 --> 00:22:55,634 Matthew got on one knee and proposed to you... 542 00:22:55,658 --> 00:22:57,469 - Please don't. Jackson, I'm... - No, no, no, it's true. 543 00:22:57,493 --> 00:22:58,771 He got on one knee and proposed to you 544 00:22:58,795 --> 00:23:00,105 in front of me. 545 00:23:00,129 --> 00:23:01,607 I stood there, 546 00:23:01,631 --> 00:23:03,642 watched another man become your husband 547 00:23:03,666 --> 00:23:06,133 and stepfather to my child... Our child... 548 00:23:06,591 --> 00:23:08,614 ...and at no point did I come to you and say, 549 00:23:08,638 --> 00:23:10,249 "Yeah, but what if it doesn't work?" 550 00:23:10,273 --> 00:23:11,350 I didn't do that. 551 00:23:11,374 --> 00:23:13,375 I had your back that day and every day since. 552 00:23:14,668 --> 00:23:16,455 He bugs the hell out of you, doesn't he? 553 00:23:16,479 --> 00:23:18,323 I'm allowed to be frustrated at the guy 554 00:23:18,347 --> 00:23:19,858 who makes sandwiches weird. 555 00:23:19,882 --> 00:23:21,116 Who... I-It's... And he 556 00:23:21,140 --> 00:23:22,394 - calls her Hair-Hair. - I know. 557 00:23:22,418 --> 00:23:23,662 I know. I'm working on that. 558 00:23:26,013 --> 00:23:27,966 What I'm not allowed to do, April, 559 00:23:27,990 --> 00:23:30,202 what... what I've actually never done, 560 00:23:30,226 --> 00:23:31,437 is stand in the way 561 00:23:31,461 --> 00:23:33,872 of the happiness that you chose for yourself. 562 00:23:35,264 --> 00:23:36,831 I had your back. 563 00:23:37,274 --> 00:23:38,844 I know this is a surprise, 564 00:23:38,868 --> 00:23:41,980 but I'm just asking you... Do the same for me. 565 00:23:43,406 --> 00:23:45,573 I... 566 00:23:45,866 --> 00:23:48,911 I... I want you to be happy, Jackson. 567 00:23:49,345 --> 00:23:50,996 You deserve it. 568 00:23:52,456 --> 00:23:55,461 But running the foundation? 569 00:23:55,485 --> 00:23:58,063 I... I'm sorry. 570 00:23:58,087 --> 00:23:59,587 It's just... 571 00:24:00,130 --> 00:24:01,734 You're not that guy. 572 00:24:02,925 --> 00:24:04,927 I don't think you ever will be. 573 00:24:11,218 --> 00:24:13,746 So, that's it? I'm either gonna fail or quit? 574 00:24:13,770 --> 00:24:15,391 I'm sorry, Jackson. I didn't... I didn't mean that... 575 00:24:15,416 --> 00:24:16,515 Yeah, you did. That's exactly what you meant. 576 00:24:16,928 --> 00:24:18,495 Ok... 577 00:24:18,520 --> 00:24:20,598 Fine. Yeah. I did. 578 00:24:20,622 --> 00:24:23,434 Jackson, you are a brilliant surgeon. 579 00:24:23,458 --> 00:24:26,175 You rebuild people's faces, you rebuild their lives. 580 00:24:26,200 --> 00:24:27,510 You find a way to make them breathe 581 00:24:27,534 --> 00:24:29,679 when... When it seems impossible. 582 00:24:29,703 --> 00:24:32,048 You gave a little boy back his hands. 583 00:24:32,072 --> 00:24:34,184 You prayed me back into the world 584 00:24:34,208 --> 00:24:35,719 when I was almost dead. 585 00:24:35,743 --> 00:24:37,854 Y-You take out impossible tumors, 586 00:24:37,878 --> 00:24:40,056 and you make people walk out into the world 587 00:24:40,080 --> 00:24:41,491 with their heads held high. 588 00:24:41,515 --> 00:24:44,194 That's where you've left your mark. 589 00:24:44,218 --> 00:24:46,629 It's what makes you exceptional. 590 00:24:46,653 --> 00:24:47,797 Wh... 591 00:24:47,821 --> 00:24:50,367 Why would you want to give all of that up? 592 00:24:50,391 --> 00:24:52,437 It's not about what I want. It's what I need to do. 593 00:24:52,461 --> 00:24:54,170 Well, you know what? It's a little late to decide that. 594 00:24:54,194 --> 00:24:55,287 Excuse me? 595 00:24:55,316 --> 00:24:57,118 You don't get to choose who I am in this world, April. 596 00:24:57,142 --> 00:24:58,219 Nobody does. 597 00:24:58,243 --> 00:25:00,288 Not my father, not Mom... nobody. 598 00:25:00,312 --> 00:25:02,089 And you don't get to choose your career over mine. 599 00:25:02,113 --> 00:25:03,357 - That's... - I am happy. 600 00:25:03,381 --> 00:25:04,358 I'm helping people. 601 00:25:04,382 --> 00:25:06,694 I'm really helping them. 602 00:25:06,718 --> 00:25:08,162 I am building support systems 603 00:25:08,186 --> 00:25:10,331 and resources for people in rural communities, 604 00:25:10,355 --> 00:25:11,766 and they need so much, 605 00:25:11,790 --> 00:25:13,768 and I can actually do that for them. 606 00:25:13,792 --> 00:25:15,369 And you can keep doing that. 607 00:25:15,393 --> 00:25:17,238 You can do it on an even bigger scale. 608 00:25:17,262 --> 00:25:18,573 You can do it across the country. 609 00:25:18,597 --> 00:25:20,808 I'm... You're literally just gaining resources. 610 00:25:20,832 --> 00:25:22,910 April, I am not trying to diminish your work. 611 00:25:22,934 --> 00:25:24,345 We have an opportunity 612 00:25:24,369 --> 00:25:26,247 to do something really amazing for all of us. 613 00:25:26,271 --> 00:25:28,115 Matthew will go along with it. 614 00:25:28,139 --> 00:25:30,151 He'll follow you. 615 00:25:30,175 --> 00:25:32,086 That's why I like him so much. 616 00:25:34,479 --> 00:25:36,379 Oh, God. 617 00:25:40,818 --> 00:25:41,985 You know what? 618 00:25:42,608 --> 00:25:46,153 You... You didn't always have my back. 619 00:25:48,325 --> 00:25:50,738 When I found what I needed in Jordan, 620 00:25:50,762 --> 00:25:52,340 you didn't go with me. 621 00:25:52,364 --> 00:25:54,275 You left me alone. I went alone. 622 00:25:54,299 --> 00:25:56,833 April, that's not fair. You ran away from me. 623 00:25:57,373 --> 00:25:59,780 And Samuel and the pain and the grief, 624 00:25:59,804 --> 00:26:02,283 which is understandable. 625 00:26:02,307 --> 00:26:04,552 You know, I was resentful at the time, 626 00:26:04,576 --> 00:26:05,708 but I get it. 627 00:26:06,048 --> 00:26:07,288 You were surviving. 628 00:26:07,312 --> 00:26:09,679 You had to do what you had to do to survive. 629 00:26:10,511 --> 00:26:12,059 But this isn't that, anyway. 630 00:26:12,083 --> 00:26:13,883 I'm not running from something. 631 00:26:14,264 --> 00:26:15,663 I'm trying to run to something. 632 00:26:15,687 --> 00:26:18,332 Trying to make something my own. 633 00:26:23,482 --> 00:26:25,895 It's not fair, Jackson. 634 00:26:26,902 --> 00:26:28,342 If you had the opportunity 635 00:26:28,366 --> 00:26:33,703 to finally make it all make sense, 636 00:26:34,326 --> 00:26:36,817 to become what you were meant to be, 637 00:26:36,841 --> 00:26:41,022 wouldn't you try really, really hard to get there? 638 00:26:42,480 --> 00:26:43,794 I would. 639 00:26:44,795 --> 00:26:46,894 I did. 640 00:26:46,918 --> 00:26:49,764 That's all I'm asking for. 641 00:26:56,227 --> 00:26:57,738 I got it. 642 00:27:09,765 --> 00:27:11,185 99.3. 643 00:27:11,209 --> 00:27:12,286 - Oh, good. Alright. - Yeah. 644 00:27:12,310 --> 00:27:13,621 So she's a little more comfortable. 645 00:27:13,645 --> 00:27:15,656 Yeah. She's talking in her sleep. 646 00:27:15,680 --> 00:27:16,891 - Oh, yeah? - Yeah. 647 00:27:16,915 --> 00:27:17,959 Anything good? 648 00:27:17,983 --> 00:27:19,427 Just gibberish. 649 00:27:19,451 --> 00:27:21,662 She said, "Amananome." 650 00:27:21,686 --> 00:27:23,706 Ah. That is the sea anemone. 651 00:27:23,730 --> 00:27:24,665 Oh. 652 00:27:24,689 --> 00:27:26,334 She's been waking me up the last few weeks 653 00:27:26,358 --> 00:27:28,803 with a different sea creature fact. 654 00:27:28,827 --> 00:27:30,304 Are they really "facts," though? 655 00:27:30,328 --> 00:27:32,340 In her head, they are. 656 00:27:33,598 --> 00:27:36,177 It's the best alarm clock, ever, I'll tell you. 657 00:27:36,201 --> 00:27:37,924 Last week, she told me 658 00:27:37,962 --> 00:27:40,648 that she could hear "werewoofs" throwing up in your basement. 659 00:27:40,672 --> 00:27:42,450 Really? I don't even have a basement. 660 00:27:42,474 --> 00:27:43,484 Oh, I'm aware. 661 00:27:43,508 --> 00:27:45,419 There's no convincing her otherwise. 662 00:27:45,443 --> 00:27:46,754 So stubborn. 663 00:27:46,778 --> 00:27:48,789 Which I would say comes from her mother... 664 00:27:48,813 --> 00:27:50,324 ...but I think we both know... 665 00:27:50,348 --> 00:27:52,058 - 50/50 split. - ...right down the middle. 666 00:27:52,082 --> 00:27:53,427 Yeah. 667 00:27:53,451 --> 00:27:55,663 I could never give that up going to Boston. 668 00:27:55,687 --> 00:27:58,532 Sea creature alarm clocks, holding her when she's sick. 669 00:27:58,556 --> 00:28:00,167 But I can't walk away from this chance 670 00:28:00,191 --> 00:28:01,769 to make real change in the foundation. 671 00:28:01,793 --> 00:28:04,305 I mean, Mom was able to do both. 672 00:28:04,329 --> 00:28:06,640 And I know in my gut, that I can, too. 673 00:28:06,664 --> 00:28:09,043 I mean, I owe it to Harriet to try, at least. 674 00:28:09,067 --> 00:28:11,045 - I know. - And I know I can't do it all, 675 00:28:11,069 --> 00:28:12,668 but, April, I am telling you, 676 00:28:13,383 --> 00:28:16,288 I can take this foundation to a whole new chapter. 677 00:28:16,312 --> 00:28:18,452 I mean, creating real racial equity in medicine. 678 00:28:18,476 --> 00:28:19,620 Are you kidding? 679 00:28:19,644 --> 00:28:21,878 It's a revolutionary, lasting change. 680 00:28:22,267 --> 00:28:24,158 I could look my daughter in the face 681 00:28:24,182 --> 00:28:26,416 and know that I've done everything I possibly can 682 00:28:26,953 --> 00:28:28,208 to give her a better world. 683 00:28:28,232 --> 00:28:30,086 I know. I know. 684 00:28:31,026 --> 00:28:32,099 I could do all that 685 00:28:32,123 --> 00:28:35,102 and... and be the father that mine never was. 686 00:28:37,950 --> 00:28:40,744 And all I need to do is turn my life upside down. 687 00:28:58,863 --> 00:29:01,056 Puts a lot into perspective, huh? 688 00:29:05,561 --> 00:29:07,015 Yeah, I come out here every morning 689 00:29:07,039 --> 00:29:08,906 just to take it all in. 690 00:29:10,524 --> 00:29:12,354 Feel like I got a lot more thinking done 691 00:29:12,378 --> 00:29:13,622 these last few days out here 692 00:29:13,646 --> 00:29:16,380 than probably all year. 693 00:29:19,417 --> 00:29:20,996 Might find it hard to believe, 694 00:29:21,020 --> 00:29:23,632 but I've been thinking a lot about our last visit. 695 00:29:23,656 --> 00:29:25,289 Everything you said. 696 00:29:26,540 --> 00:29:28,036 And the truth is, 697 00:29:28,060 --> 00:29:30,338 I left because that's what I do. 698 00:29:30,362 --> 00:29:33,441 I chose this place because it's safe. 699 00:29:33,465 --> 00:29:36,745 Running the restaurant, bagging lunches, 700 00:29:36,769 --> 00:29:39,403 none of it requires much of me. 701 00:29:39,653 --> 00:29:42,620 I can walk away and not look back any time. 702 00:29:45,642 --> 00:29:48,304 And just forget about who you're leaving behind, yeah? 703 00:29:48,328 --> 00:29:50,373 I was convinced you were better off without me. 704 00:29:50,397 --> 00:29:51,574 Without a father? 705 00:29:51,598 --> 00:29:54,151 How would you think I'm better off without... 706 00:29:54,935 --> 00:29:58,247 my father never being there for any birthdays, 707 00:29:58,271 --> 00:29:59,582 any graduations? 708 00:29:59,606 --> 00:30:02,841 That time I got beat up by Billy Paxton? 709 00:30:03,130 --> 00:30:04,362 At my wedding? 710 00:30:04,536 --> 00:30:07,278 The birth of my child, your granddaughter. 711 00:30:07,706 --> 00:30:09,792 My divorce... maybe that would've been a good time 712 00:30:09,816 --> 00:30:12,851 for you to step in and share some wisdom. 713 00:30:13,045 --> 00:30:14,630 A hug, I don't know. 714 00:30:14,654 --> 00:30:16,599 Help me make some decisions? 715 00:30:16,623 --> 00:30:19,724 It's not like it was a few months, man. 716 00:30:20,010 --> 00:30:21,604 Or a year or 10 years. 717 00:30:21,628 --> 00:30:23,339 It's my entire life. 718 00:30:23,363 --> 00:30:26,075 - How could you think that's better? - In my father's eyes, 719 00:30:26,099 --> 00:30:27,810 I was the screw-up in the family, 720 00:30:27,834 --> 00:30:29,112 and I absorbed that story. 721 00:30:29,136 --> 00:30:31,013 Maybe I became it. 722 00:30:31,037 --> 00:30:33,382 And I didn't want to pass that down to you. 723 00:30:33,406 --> 00:30:35,734 I did not want to mess you up. 724 00:30:38,140 --> 00:30:39,122 Congrats. 725 00:30:39,146 --> 00:30:40,445 I get that now. 726 00:30:40,697 --> 00:30:42,616 I hurt a lot of people. 727 00:30:43,316 --> 00:30:45,683 You, your mother. 728 00:30:46,453 --> 00:30:49,498 And to have found out I have a granddaughter that I... 729 00:30:52,376 --> 00:30:53,796 may never meet... 730 00:30:53,820 --> 00:30:56,105 Yeah, well, it didn't have to be that way, did it? 731 00:30:56,129 --> 00:30:57,773 You're absolutely right. 732 00:30:57,797 --> 00:30:59,575 So I buy her presents. 733 00:30:59,599 --> 00:31:02,979 An art set, a basketball, tricycle, board games. 734 00:31:03,003 --> 00:31:04,814 What are you saying? And you didn't send them? 735 00:31:04,838 --> 00:31:05,848 I don't have the right. 736 00:31:05,872 --> 00:31:07,474 I don't deserve... 737 00:31:08,341 --> 00:31:12,010 to take your time, be in your space. 738 00:31:13,179 --> 00:31:15,424 Not one day has passed 739 00:31:15,448 --> 00:31:18,394 that I haven't regretted leaving you. 740 00:31:18,418 --> 00:31:20,685 It haunts me in my sleep, 741 00:31:21,238 --> 00:31:23,099 when I wake up in the morning. 742 00:31:23,123 --> 00:31:25,501 And I am truly, truly sorry. 743 00:31:25,525 --> 00:31:28,738 And yet I know an apology will never make up for it. 744 00:31:28,762 --> 00:31:30,728 And I have to live with that. 745 00:31:31,248 --> 00:31:33,198 I will never get over it. 746 00:31:35,419 --> 00:31:37,013 Oh, Jackson. 747 00:31:37,037 --> 00:31:39,682 Crossroads like this, you don't arrive at them often, 748 00:31:39,706 --> 00:31:42,340 but I know you will be okay, 749 00:31:42,676 --> 00:31:44,761 no matter what road you choose. 750 00:31:45,579 --> 00:31:47,056 I'm still an Avery, right? 751 00:31:47,080 --> 00:31:48,791 I still find some way to... 752 00:31:48,815 --> 00:31:50,326 walk away from it all. 753 00:31:50,350 --> 00:31:51,994 Apple doesn't fall far from the tree. 754 00:31:52,018 --> 00:31:53,229 Isn't that what they say? 755 00:31:53,253 --> 00:31:55,431 Nice. 756 00:31:55,455 --> 00:31:57,366 - That's great. - No, I'm sorry. 757 00:31:57,390 --> 00:31:58,968 I just thought that was funny. 758 00:31:58,992 --> 00:32:01,192 I'm the tree, you're the apple. 759 00:32:01,570 --> 00:32:03,072 Do you really think that? 760 00:32:03,096 --> 00:32:04,974 I'm sitting here, aren't I? 761 00:32:04,998 --> 00:32:07,910 Jackson, let me assure you, you are not me. 762 00:32:07,934 --> 00:32:10,079 The fact that you're even questioning your choices 763 00:32:10,103 --> 00:32:11,480 is proof of that. 764 00:32:11,504 --> 00:32:12,982 And if that's not enough, 765 00:32:13,006 --> 00:32:14,684 you are committed, Jackson. 766 00:32:14,708 --> 00:32:16,919 Committed to your work, to your family, 767 00:32:16,943 --> 00:32:18,487 to people in need. 768 00:32:20,013 --> 00:32:22,992 And I know sometimes you want to run away from it all, 769 00:32:23,016 --> 00:32:25,127 but anybody with any sense does that. 770 00:32:25,151 --> 00:32:26,295 It's very different 771 00:32:26,319 --> 00:32:28,631 from actually following through with it. 772 00:32:29,923 --> 00:32:31,823 I was scared. 773 00:32:32,517 --> 00:32:33,836 I'm scared. 774 00:32:33,860 --> 00:32:36,594 Yeah, but you're scared of doing the wrong thing. 775 00:32:36,897 --> 00:32:39,608 I was too scared to do the right thing. 776 00:32:42,235 --> 00:32:43,479 You're not a runner. 777 00:32:43,503 --> 00:32:46,182 If you were, you would have been long gone by now. 778 00:32:46,206 --> 00:32:47,550 Do you know how easy it would have been 779 00:32:47,574 --> 00:32:48,884 for you to walk away from everything 780 00:32:48,908 --> 00:32:51,120 after it all came out about the foundation? 781 00:32:51,144 --> 00:32:53,155 Did you even consider it? 782 00:32:55,123 --> 00:32:56,092 Not really, no. 783 00:32:56,116 --> 00:32:57,526 Of course not. 784 00:32:57,550 --> 00:33:00,296 'Cause you have it in your soul to do the right thing, 785 00:33:00,320 --> 00:33:01,631 to make things right. 786 00:33:01,655 --> 00:33:03,733 And you didn't just fix a disaster, 787 00:33:03,757 --> 00:33:05,133 you made it better. 788 00:33:05,759 --> 00:33:09,472 So if you don't want to stay, don't. 789 00:33:09,496 --> 00:33:10,806 But don't blame it on me. 790 00:33:13,833 --> 00:33:15,278 'Cause on your worst day, 791 00:33:15,302 --> 00:33:17,647 you are 10 times the man I am. 792 00:33:38,850 --> 00:33:40,562 - Jackson? - Hey. 793 00:33:40,586 --> 00:33:41,811 - Come in. - I can't stay. 794 00:33:41,835 --> 00:33:43,181 Honey, it's pouring out here. 795 00:33:43,205 --> 00:33:44,382 Here, Mom. 796 00:33:44,406 --> 00:33:46,001 I mean, I can't stay at Grey-Sloan in Seattle. 797 00:33:46,025 --> 00:33:47,752 I can't keep doing what we've always done. 798 00:33:47,776 --> 00:33:49,254 You know how many people of color 799 00:33:49,278 --> 00:33:51,222 we've already lost since the pandemic started? 800 00:33:51,246 --> 00:33:53,158 The system keeps diminishing and erasing us. 801 00:33:53,182 --> 00:33:55,193 T-They're literally letting people just die in the streets, 802 00:33:55,217 --> 00:33:56,561 and we can do something about it. 803 00:33:56,585 --> 00:33:58,563 I got to show Harriet that we can put our money 804 00:33:58,587 --> 00:34:00,265 and our attention where our mouths are. 805 00:34:00,289 --> 00:34:02,267 And we can acknowledge the connection between our work 806 00:34:02,291 --> 00:34:03,568 and what's actually happening in the streets 807 00:34:03,592 --> 00:34:06,905 and give a sense of equity in this world, okay? 808 00:34:06,929 --> 00:34:08,673 It's not gonna change after COVID. 809 00:34:08,697 --> 00:34:10,208 We know that. 810 00:34:10,232 --> 00:34:13,011 White supremacy is woven into the fabric of this country, 811 00:34:13,035 --> 00:34:14,612 and that means medicine, too. 812 00:34:14,636 --> 00:34:16,314 People that look like us 813 00:34:16,338 --> 00:34:18,650 should not have to be gaslit, shamed, and ignored 814 00:34:18,674 --> 00:34:20,018 when they're just going to the doctor, 815 00:34:20,042 --> 00:34:22,120 constantly having to prove that their lives have any value. 816 00:34:22,144 --> 00:34:24,522 It's like this constant cycle of stress 817 00:34:24,546 --> 00:34:26,724 from poverty and trauma and racism, 818 00:34:26,748 --> 00:34:29,360 and it's definitely impacting mental health... 819 00:34:29,384 --> 00:34:31,162 It's definitely killing us. 820 00:34:31,186 --> 00:34:32,397 Where are people supposed to turn? 821 00:34:32,421 --> 00:34:33,965 They don't feel safe going to the doctor. 822 00:34:33,989 --> 00:34:35,600 They're scared to call the cops. 823 00:34:35,624 --> 00:34:37,802 This is like a deep-seated neglect. 824 00:34:37,826 --> 00:34:40,538 And if our deaths are not affecting their profit margin, 825 00:34:40,562 --> 00:34:42,395 then it's not gonna change. 826 00:34:45,166 --> 00:34:46,511 I want to take over the foundation. 827 00:34:46,535 --> 00:34:47,912 What? 828 00:34:47,936 --> 00:34:49,514 I want to reallocate every penny that we have 829 00:34:49,538 --> 00:34:50,915 to equity in medicine... 830 00:34:50,939 --> 00:34:53,084 Women's health, trans health, racial equity. 831 00:34:53,108 --> 00:34:56,955 I want everyone who this country abuses to be served, okay? 832 00:34:56,979 --> 00:34:59,457 We need to challenge all the ways that we teach, 833 00:34:59,481 --> 00:35:01,047 everything that we're doing. 834 00:35:01,625 --> 00:35:03,561 If that means dismantling the whole medical system 835 00:35:03,585 --> 00:35:06,264 a-and... and designing something that actually serves everyone, 836 00:35:06,288 --> 00:35:07,632 then that's what I want to do. 837 00:35:07,656 --> 00:35:08,800 I-I see that now. I'm ready. 838 00:35:08,824 --> 00:35:10,735 Jackson, where have you been? 839 00:35:10,759 --> 00:35:12,370 It doesn't even matter anymore, Mom. 840 00:35:12,394 --> 00:35:14,706 It matters that I'm back and I know where I belong. 841 00:35:14,730 --> 00:35:15,907 Oh! 842 00:35:15,931 --> 00:35:17,375 - I gotta go. I love you. - Ah! 843 00:35:17,399 --> 00:35:19,110 Where on God's earth are you going now? 844 00:35:19,134 --> 00:35:20,378 I got to go talk to April. 845 00:35:20,402 --> 00:35:21,973 What?! Jackson... 846 00:35:28,777 --> 00:35:31,656 Here we go. Yummy! 847 00:35:31,680 --> 00:35:33,891 Are you gonna go with crazy fork? 848 00:35:35,017 --> 00:35:37,595 Pancakes go in your belly. 849 00:35:37,619 --> 00:35:39,030 Why do you always go for the big ones? 850 00:35:39,054 --> 00:35:40,164 Hey. 851 00:35:40,188 --> 00:35:41,799 Take all the small pieces, alright? 852 00:35:41,823 --> 00:35:43,101 You want to cut your own little piece? 853 00:35:43,125 --> 00:35:44,636 A small one. What are you doing... 854 00:35:44,660 --> 00:35:47,071 A small one this time, that's soaked up in syrup? 855 00:35:47,095 --> 00:35:48,473 Extra syrup? 856 00:35:48,497 --> 00:35:49,807 Ooh. There she is. 857 00:35:49,831 --> 00:35:51,809 - There she is. - Hi! 858 00:35:51,833 --> 00:35:53,044 Mommy! 859 00:35:53,068 --> 00:35:55,480 Hi! 860 00:35:55,504 --> 00:35:57,615 - Oh! - No fever. 861 00:35:57,639 --> 00:36:00,218 Oh, good, good, good. 862 00:36:00,242 --> 00:36:01,586 I want orange juice. 863 00:36:01,610 --> 00:36:03,154 Yeah, you can have some orange juice. 864 00:36:03,178 --> 00:36:04,522 You want me to get it for you, baby? 865 00:36:04,546 --> 00:36:05,923 No, I get it myself. 866 00:36:05,947 --> 00:36:07,358 - Okay. - Okay. 867 00:36:08,517 --> 00:36:10,261 Go ahead, baby. 868 00:36:10,285 --> 00:36:13,453 Are you gonna unscrew the top and pour it? 869 00:36:16,791 --> 00:36:19,359 You are that guy, Jackson. 870 00:36:19,953 --> 00:36:22,329 I was an ass for saying otherwise. 871 00:36:22,704 --> 00:36:23,836 Yeah? 872 00:36:24,832 --> 00:36:27,211 Pillows in every room. 873 00:36:27,235 --> 00:36:28,846 They come in handy. 874 00:36:28,870 --> 00:36:31,404 Hey, are you sure about this? 875 00:36:31,881 --> 00:36:33,606 I'm not sure it's gonna work, but... 876 00:36:33,842 --> 00:36:35,508 I'm sure it's what I want, yeah. 877 00:36:36,136 --> 00:36:39,123 Why is our timing always so terrible? 878 00:36:39,147 --> 00:36:41,359 I thought that was kind of our thing... bad timing. 879 00:36:41,383 --> 00:36:42,827 We just never figured out 880 00:36:42,851 --> 00:36:44,996 how to want the same thing at the same time. 881 00:36:45,020 --> 00:36:46,264 Even with Harriet. 882 00:36:46,288 --> 00:36:49,155 Yeah, but, I mean, it worked out pretty well. 883 00:36:49,608 --> 00:36:51,069 Yeah, but we were fighting, 884 00:36:51,093 --> 00:36:52,470 and then we had sex 885 00:36:52,494 --> 00:36:54,272 while our marriage was falling apart. 886 00:36:54,296 --> 00:36:55,907 That was actually our thing... 887 00:36:55,931 --> 00:36:58,743 Arguing until we were blue in the face and then having sex. 888 00:36:58,767 --> 00:37:01,067 Yeah, I guess we were doomed, huh? 889 00:37:01,661 --> 00:37:05,083 Look, if you're really living your dream here, 890 00:37:05,107 --> 00:37:06,751 I'll give it up, because you're right. 891 00:37:06,775 --> 00:37:08,286 I'm totally springing it on you guys. 892 00:37:08,310 --> 00:37:09,320 No. What? 893 00:37:09,344 --> 00:37:11,222 You do not get to do all the speeches 894 00:37:11,246 --> 00:37:12,390 and the convincing 895 00:37:12,414 --> 00:37:15,326 and that thing where your face just lights up 896 00:37:15,350 --> 00:37:16,327 just to take it all back again. 897 00:37:16,351 --> 00:37:17,650 Don't take it all back. 898 00:37:18,553 --> 00:37:20,053 You deserve this. 899 00:37:20,513 --> 00:37:22,033 Wait. What are you saying? 900 00:37:22,057 --> 00:37:23,683 I am saying... 901 00:37:25,172 --> 00:37:27,607 ...we will make Boston work. 902 00:37:28,629 --> 00:37:30,208 I'm saying yes. 903 00:37:30,232 --> 00:37:32,443 What? You're saying yes? 904 00:37:32,467 --> 00:37:33,678 - To my question, you're saying yes? - Yes. 905 00:37:33,702 --> 00:37:36,080 I'm saying... Yeah. I thought that's what you wanted. 906 00:37:36,104 --> 00:37:37,548 Yeah, but... Yes? 907 00:37:37,572 --> 00:37:39,851 Like, I didn't think it would be that easy. 908 00:37:39,875 --> 00:37:41,652 I'm sorry. You call this night easy? 909 00:37:41,676 --> 00:37:43,121 No, not... Not easy like that, 910 00:37:43,145 --> 00:37:46,357 but, like, I thought you'd have to pray 911 00:37:46,381 --> 00:37:49,327 or consult with Matthew, maybe get your pastor involved, 912 00:37:49,351 --> 00:37:51,629 - some additional praying... - Yeah. Yeah. Matthew will be fine. 913 00:37:51,653 --> 00:37:53,097 Alright, well, when does he get back? 914 00:37:53,121 --> 00:37:54,866 I can help with the pitch. I can talk to him. 915 00:37:54,890 --> 00:37:57,201 - What do you want me to...? - Uh, no. No. No. 916 00:37:57,225 --> 00:37:58,936 No, that's a horrible and weird idea... 917 00:37:58,960 --> 00:38:00,204 - Yes. - ...obviously. 918 00:38:00,228 --> 00:38:02,240 Um, but tell him that I can help him with work. 919 00:38:02,264 --> 00:38:04,175 I'll make sure everything is arranged for him and for Ruby. 920 00:38:04,199 --> 00:38:05,725 We split up. 921 00:38:09,792 --> 00:38:10,948 Oh. 922 00:38:18,380 --> 00:38:22,293 We kept trying to tell ourselves that our whole winding road 923 00:38:22,317 --> 00:38:25,096 was God's plan to bring us back together. 924 00:38:26,321 --> 00:38:29,749 But he was still so angry and so hurt. 925 00:38:30,659 --> 00:38:33,638 I mean, I left him at the altar, and then his wife died. 926 00:38:33,662 --> 00:38:35,873 You know, you don't just stop feeling hurt 927 00:38:35,897 --> 00:38:37,475 'cause it's a better story 928 00:38:37,499 --> 00:38:41,279 if God brought us together in our pain. 929 00:38:41,303 --> 00:38:43,047 He denied it for so long. 930 00:38:43,071 --> 00:38:46,083 You know, he tried so hard not to hate me. 931 00:38:46,107 --> 00:38:49,620 I think loving me, making us a full circle 932 00:38:49,644 --> 00:38:52,123 was the story he was writing. 933 00:38:52,147 --> 00:38:54,759 I mean, I guess it was the story we were both writing. 934 00:38:54,783 --> 00:38:56,461 I mean, I was trying to get past my guilt. 935 00:38:56,485 --> 00:38:58,496 He was... He was trying to forgive God 936 00:38:58,520 --> 00:39:00,565 for the loss of Karin. 937 00:39:03,658 --> 00:39:08,506 But, y-you know, ultimately, we learned that... 938 00:39:10,232 --> 00:39:14,612 ...life just isn't always so tidy. 939 00:39:17,439 --> 00:39:21,118 And God's plan isn't always so easy to understand. 940 00:39:22,477 --> 00:39:24,055 He's always been so good with Harriet, 941 00:39:24,079 --> 00:39:25,556 and I adore Ruby, 942 00:39:25,580 --> 00:39:27,658 but we both started working longer hours, 943 00:39:27,682 --> 00:39:29,026 just avoiding coming home. 944 00:39:29,050 --> 00:39:31,829 And then, his sister got sick. She lives in Philadelphia. 945 00:39:31,853 --> 00:39:34,232 So he and Ruby went to Philadelphia to be with her, 946 00:39:34,256 --> 00:39:36,667 and... now she's better, 947 00:39:36,691 --> 00:39:38,769 uh, but they're still in Philadelphia. 948 00:39:40,695 --> 00:39:42,197 And... 949 00:39:43,365 --> 00:39:45,283 they are not coming back. 950 00:39:48,803 --> 00:39:50,503 I had no idea. 951 00:39:52,139 --> 00:39:53,851 Yeah, I mean, I was gonna tell you, 952 00:39:53,875 --> 00:39:56,554 but, you know, hundreds of thousands of people were dying. 953 00:39:56,578 --> 00:40:00,625 I just didn't think my marriage counted as a casualty. 954 00:40:00,649 --> 00:40:05,129 And you were maybe a little too proud to tell me? 955 00:40:05,153 --> 00:40:07,098 Yeah, fine. 956 00:40:07,122 --> 00:40:09,122 I was a little... A little too proud. 957 00:40:11,651 --> 00:40:13,218 You okay? 958 00:40:16,223 --> 00:40:17,623 It's hard to say. 959 00:40:20,610 --> 00:40:22,153 But... 960 00:40:22,837 --> 00:40:25,082 it looks like I'm moving to Boston. 961 00:40:26,474 --> 00:40:27,552 So... 962 00:40:29,177 --> 00:40:32,078 Fingers crossed for new horizons. 963 00:40:32,914 --> 00:40:35,693 Fingers crossed for new horizons. 964 00:40:38,853 --> 00:40:40,298 No one said it was easy, 965 00:40:40,322 --> 00:40:42,099 becoming the person you're meant to be. 966 00:40:45,060 --> 00:40:48,439 It takes bravery a step into the power you found 967 00:40:48,463 --> 00:40:50,141 and earned and deserve. 968 00:40:53,435 --> 00:40:55,112 He'll come back. 969 00:40:55,136 --> 00:40:57,848 And you'll visit, and he'll visit. 970 00:40:57,872 --> 00:40:58,983 I know. 971 00:40:59,007 --> 00:41:00,940 You know, it's okay to be sad. 972 00:41:01,484 --> 00:41:04,455 It's hard handing over something you put your life into. 973 00:41:05,847 --> 00:41:07,458 I'm not sad. 974 00:41:07,482 --> 00:41:13,130 It's just, like, I never in my life 975 00:41:13,154 --> 00:41:17,134 felt pride quite like this. 976 00:41:30,572 --> 00:41:33,951 The trick is, to take the people who were there for you, 977 00:41:33,975 --> 00:41:35,186 with you. 978 00:41:35,210 --> 00:41:37,121 To remind you you're not alone. 979 00:41:37,145 --> 00:41:39,023 It's gonna take a few days, 980 00:41:39,047 --> 00:41:41,492 figure out what to tell the chief. 981 00:41:41,516 --> 00:41:43,694 Feels weird to say Boston. 982 00:41:44,896 --> 00:41:45,896 Feels like a... 983 00:41:47,864 --> 00:41:49,200 I don't know. 984 00:41:49,224 --> 00:41:52,036 It feels "I don't know" to me, too. 985 00:41:54,462 --> 00:41:56,507 - Thank you. - Oh! 986 00:41:57,532 --> 00:41:58,643 Mommy, Daddy! 987 00:41:59,968 --> 00:42:01,012 I got her. 988 00:42:01,036 --> 00:42:02,213 You go. 989 00:42:02,237 --> 00:42:03,848 Get ready to go. 990 00:42:07,409 --> 00:42:10,521 You have an entire legacy behind you 991 00:42:10,545 --> 00:42:12,590 as you create your own. 992 00:42:17,027 --> 00:42:22,027 CREDITS