1 00:00:06,192 --> 00:00:07,737 - Whoa. - Mm-hmm. 2 00:00:07,761 --> 00:00:09,572 - Whoa. - Oh, hello. 3 00:00:09,596 --> 00:00:11,674 Oh, sorry, I had the TV on pause earlier. 4 00:00:11,698 --> 00:00:14,376 Now it's not the only thing you have on pause. 5 00:00:17,804 --> 00:00:20,049 What's wrong? Where is that thing? 6 00:00:20,073 --> 00:00:22,774 I need to turn this off. There we go. 7 00:00:24,410 --> 00:00:26,122 Hey, Martin. 8 00:00:32,185 --> 00:00:33,200 Hey. 9 00:00:34,560 --> 00:00:36,437 I like seeing you. 10 00:00:42,796 --> 00:00:44,662 - Okay. - Yeah. 11 00:00:46,966 --> 00:00:49,044 Yeah, Martin, I can't. I'm sorry, I'm sorry. 12 00:00:49,068 --> 00:00:50,713 I can't. 13 00:00:50,737 --> 00:00:52,737 You don't have to apologize. 14 00:00:54,574 --> 00:00:57,542 I'm sorry, I just, you know. 15 00:00:58,678 --> 00:01:01,157 I love you, I just... These issues are... 16 00:01:01,181 --> 00:01:03,459 I know. I said... 17 00:01:03,483 --> 00:01:05,817 you don't have to apologize. 18 00:01:09,489 --> 00:01:11,367 I get it. 19 00:01:11,391 --> 00:01:12,639 Really. 20 00:01:13,326 --> 00:01:15,293 It's late anyway. 21 00:01:33,698 --> 00:01:36,458 Synced & corrected by -robtor- www.addic7ed.com 22 00:01:36,482 --> 00:01:38,616 "We have seen some dark days. 23 00:01:39,786 --> 00:01:42,231 "A deadly pandemic, its epicenter right here 24 00:01:42,255 --> 00:01:43,499 "in New York City. 25 00:01:43,523 --> 00:01:45,901 "Americans dying by the thousands, 26 00:01:45,925 --> 00:01:49,338 "forced to face their fates scared and alone. 27 00:01:49,362 --> 00:01:51,774 "Sometimes it feels like the storm will never end. 28 00:01:51,798 --> 00:01:53,263 "But believe this: 29 00:01:53,800 --> 00:01:55,411 "It will end. 30 00:01:55,435 --> 00:01:56,850 You will make it end." 31 00:01:57,604 --> 00:01:59,782 Those words were written in 1985 32 00:01:59,806 --> 00:02:01,350 as this hospital faced, 33 00:02:01,374 --> 00:02:02,551 not the crisis we're in now, 34 00:02:02,575 --> 00:02:04,066 but a different one: 35 00:02:04,811 --> 00:02:06,322 The AIDS epidemic. 36 00:02:06,346 --> 00:02:11,615 So, here to honor National HIV Testing Day, 37 00:02:12,118 --> 00:02:15,264 please welcome the man who wrote those words. 38 00:02:15,288 --> 00:02:17,399 My personal hero, 39 00:02:17,423 --> 00:02:20,302 the former Medical Director of New Amsterdam, 40 00:02:20,326 --> 00:02:21,470 Dr. George Helms. 41 00:02:23,463 --> 00:02:25,140 Yes! All right! 42 00:02:25,164 --> 00:02:26,942 Whoo! 43 00:02:26,966 --> 00:02:28,577 Thank you, Dr. Goodwin. 44 00:02:32,205 --> 00:02:33,845 I'm so proud 45 00:02:34,540 --> 00:02:38,220 to be here on a day when we offer free care 46 00:02:38,244 --> 00:02:39,822 to every HIV patient 47 00:02:39,846 --> 00:02:42,124 that has come through these doors. 48 00:02:42,148 --> 00:02:46,262 Undocumented, uninsured, under-insured. 49 00:02:46,286 --> 00:02:49,999 It's top-to-toe coverage, and it's on the house. 50 00:02:50,023 --> 00:02:53,724 Yes, amazing. 51 00:02:57,830 --> 00:02:59,308 Luna's banned from daycare. 52 00:02:59,332 --> 00:03:00,557 Banned? 53 00:03:00,581 --> 00:03:03,145 C-can't you just give her a detention or something? 54 00:03:03,169 --> 00:03:05,381 I'm sorry, Max, but we take biting very seriously. 55 00:03:05,405 --> 00:03:07,616 - Biting? - Especially repeat offenders. 56 00:03:07,640 --> 00:03:09,351 She's teething. She's not a felon. 57 00:03:09,375 --> 00:03:11,621 Look, let me come up there, and I will calm her down, 58 00:03:11,645 --> 00:03:13,255 and then you can give her a second chance. 59 00:03:13,279 --> 00:03:14,423 We've given her three. 60 00:03:14,447 --> 00:03:15,791 Three? 61 00:03:15,815 --> 00:03:16,992 Is any family around? 62 00:03:17,016 --> 00:03:18,928 My in-laws, but, uh, 63 00:03:18,952 --> 00:03:20,243 you know what our hours are like. 64 00:03:20,267 --> 00:03:22,631 If she's not here, I'm never gonna... 65 00:03:22,655 --> 00:03:23,988 I'm never gonna see her. 66 00:03:25,992 --> 00:03:28,283 Marsha, I don't have a plan B. 67 00:03:28,307 --> 00:03:30,005 Neither do I, Max. I'm sorry. 68 00:03:30,029 --> 00:03:31,407 I'll bring up Luna. 69 00:03:38,604 --> 00:03:40,149 Ig, Ig, look. 70 00:03:40,173 --> 00:03:42,407 I told Casey I'd be out of the E.D. for like, ten minutes. 71 00:03:42,431 --> 00:03:43,798 Yeah, no, any second now he's gonna 72 00:03:43,822 --> 00:03:45,022 walk through that door and his sweet smile's 73 00:03:45,046 --> 00:03:47,147 gonna light up that perfectly round bald head of his, kay? 74 00:03:48,481 --> 00:03:50,159 Surprise! 75 00:03:50,183 --> 00:03:51,293 Shut the door, shut the... 76 00:03:51,317 --> 00:03:52,661 - He's not here yet? - Nope, nope. 77 00:03:52,685 --> 00:03:54,029 Ig, look, I really got to go. 78 00:03:54,053 --> 00:03:55,297 Fudge. No, no, no. 79 00:03:55,321 --> 00:03:57,066 Let me text Ella one more time. Don't... don't eat those. 80 00:03:57,090 --> 00:03:58,889 - Say hi for me. - Um, you know what? 81 00:03:58,913 --> 00:04:00,202 Actually I just wanted to pop my head in real quick, 82 00:04:00,226 --> 00:04:01,647 - and I got to get back to work. - Wait, wait, guys. 83 00:04:01,671 --> 00:04:03,238 Have you forgotten that he almost died? 84 00:04:03,262 --> 00:04:05,174 Okay, he had COVID, he had open heart surgery, 85 00:04:05,198 --> 00:04:06,775 then he battled through a hellish rehab. 86 00:04:06,799 --> 00:04:08,210 Now today, our friend is coming back here 87 00:04:08,234 --> 00:04:09,845 and I want to celebrate him for ten minutes 88 00:04:09,869 --> 00:04:11,046 of your time, please. 89 00:04:11,070 --> 00:04:12,147 - Surprise! - Aah! 90 00:04:12,171 --> 00:04:13,282 - Shoot! - Sorry I'm late, 91 00:04:13,306 --> 00:04:14,683 - I was working on my toast. - Agnes... 92 00:04:14,707 --> 00:04:16,251 - What, he's not here yet? - No. 93 00:04:16,275 --> 00:04:17,419 Yeah, you know what? Give him my love. 94 00:04:17,443 --> 00:04:18,988 - Just give him my love. - C'mon, Floyd... 95 00:04:19,012 --> 00:04:20,255 Just tell him to come into the E.D. and say hey. 96 00:04:20,279 --> 00:04:22,057 Oh, Brunstetter, you're back on too. 97 00:04:22,081 --> 00:04:23,292 Let me grab one more of these pastry things, 98 00:04:23,316 --> 00:04:25,361 - and then I am right behind you. - They're called laddu 99 00:04:25,385 --> 00:04:26,695 and they're decorative, Brunstetter. 100 00:04:26,719 --> 00:04:28,497 God, what is wrong with you people? 101 00:04:28,521 --> 00:04:31,900 Ten minutes! Guys, ten min... Shut the door, at least. 102 00:04:31,924 --> 00:04:33,941 Just... 103 00:04:33,965 --> 00:04:35,704 Great, now it says "Kapoop." 104 00:04:35,728 --> 00:04:37,906 And then you start placing one on each of the seats. 105 00:04:37,930 --> 00:04:39,708 Oh, and please don't forget the pens, okay? 106 00:04:39,732 --> 00:04:41,056 Thank you. 107 00:04:41,601 --> 00:04:43,729 Uh, why are you all jittery? 108 00:04:43,753 --> 00:04:45,614 Because we're about to be hit 109 00:04:45,638 --> 00:04:47,216 with an influx of HIV patients, 110 00:04:47,240 --> 00:04:48,484 and with 6 feet between each chair, 111 00:04:48,508 --> 00:04:50,719 I'm not sure we have enough hallway to accommodate them. 112 00:04:50,743 --> 00:04:52,621 No, you know what? This feels more like 113 00:04:52,645 --> 00:04:53,638 the kind of freak-out you have 114 00:04:53,662 --> 00:04:56,848 when you're 24 hours away from becoming a mum. 115 00:04:56,872 --> 00:04:58,639 Yes, Mina is coming tomorrow 116 00:04:58,663 --> 00:05:00,464 but I'm not her mum, I'm her aunt. 117 00:05:00,488 --> 00:05:03,065 And a cool aunt doesn't freak out, thank you. 118 00:05:03,089 --> 00:05:05,067 Uh, she's a 16-year-old girl. 119 00:05:05,091 --> 00:05:07,269 You're never gonna be a cool anything. 120 00:05:07,293 --> 00:05:09,194 Oh, shush. I just mean I'm gonna provide 121 00:05:09,218 --> 00:05:11,240 a calm, accepting environment. 122 00:05:11,264 --> 00:05:13,742 My role isn't to control her life, it's to follow her lead. 123 00:05:13,766 --> 00:05:15,277 And whatever may come, this cool aunt 124 00:05:15,301 --> 00:05:16,745 - is just gonna roll with it. - Ammeh Helen? 125 00:05:21,074 --> 00:05:22,751 Mina. I'm... 126 00:05:24,900 --> 00:05:26,934 I thought that you were coming tomorrow. 127 00:05:26,958 --> 00:05:29,159 I flew standby. I thought I'd surprise you. 128 00:05:29,183 --> 00:05:30,893 Hi. 129 00:05:30,917 --> 00:05:33,562 Um, yes, yes, you did. I just, um... 130 00:05:33,586 --> 00:05:35,519 Oh! I just wish you'd called. 131 00:05:39,892 --> 00:05:41,503 - I don't believe it. - Believe it. 132 00:05:41,527 --> 00:05:43,972 Full refund from the venue and from the caterer. 133 00:05:43,996 --> 00:05:45,974 Damn. What'd you have to do to pull that off? 134 00:05:45,998 --> 00:05:47,443 I played the 135 00:05:47,467 --> 00:05:49,778 "His mom has diabetes and he broke" card. 136 00:05:49,802 --> 00:05:51,680 I'm not broke. 137 00:05:51,704 --> 00:05:54,216 - Just say thank you, Floyd. - Oh, I thank you. 138 00:05:54,240 --> 00:05:57,386 So what's left on the cancelled wedding checklist? 139 00:05:57,410 --> 00:05:58,308 Nothing. 140 00:05:58,332 --> 00:06:00,355 All our business is officially handled. 141 00:06:00,379 --> 00:06:02,637 - We're done. - Good, all right. 142 00:06:04,550 --> 00:06:06,795 - How's Mama Nola? - Mama Nola's good. 143 00:06:06,819 --> 00:06:08,977 Yeah, she's, uh, she's good. 144 00:06:09,555 --> 00:06:10,799 And what about Floyd? 145 00:06:10,823 --> 00:06:12,434 Is he good? 146 00:06:12,458 --> 00:06:13,774 Uh... 147 00:06:14,360 --> 00:06:16,138 Incoming. 148 00:06:16,162 --> 00:06:17,306 Oh, uh, Evie, we got incoming. 149 00:06:17,330 --> 00:06:19,208 - I got to go. - Go do your thing. 150 00:06:19,232 --> 00:06:21,810 Kwame Adu. Passed out at HIV testing upstairs. 151 00:06:21,834 --> 00:06:23,679 Pulse 140 and thready. 152 00:06:23,703 --> 00:06:25,114 Kwame, I'm Dr. Bloom. 153 00:06:25,138 --> 00:06:27,049 You're in New Amsterdam E.D. We're gonna take 154 00:06:27,073 --> 00:06:28,450 - good care of you, okay? - Okay. 155 00:06:28,474 --> 00:06:29,440 Okay, let's get him on the bed. 156 00:06:30,443 --> 00:06:31,820 - Take a look at these. - Okay, nice and easy. 157 00:06:31,844 --> 00:06:33,377 - Okay. - Nice and easy. 158 00:06:34,614 --> 00:06:36,291 - Hey, Kwame. - Yes? 159 00:06:36,315 --> 00:06:38,794 We got the results from the HIV test you just took. 160 00:06:38,818 --> 00:06:40,351 - Uh-huh. - It's positive. 161 00:06:42,788 --> 00:06:44,137 No. 162 00:06:45,388 --> 00:06:47,836 No, that... that can't be true. 163 00:06:47,860 --> 00:06:50,682 Kwame, I'm sure it's not the result that you wanted, 164 00:06:50,706 --> 00:06:53,709 but HIV isn't a death sentence anymore. 165 00:06:53,733 --> 00:06:55,210 It's manageable. 166 00:06:55,234 --> 00:06:57,179 - This can't be happening. - Hey, hey, hey. 167 00:06:57,203 --> 00:06:59,114 Look, just take it easy, all right? 168 00:06:59,138 --> 00:07:00,616 That test is wrong. 169 00:07:00,640 --> 00:07:02,651 Okay, but the results also say that 170 00:07:02,675 --> 00:07:04,086 your pancreas is damaged. 171 00:07:04,110 --> 00:07:05,420 That's why you're sick, all right? 172 00:07:05,444 --> 00:07:08,290 - You just need to relax. - That test is wrong! 173 00:07:08,314 --> 00:07:10,192 - Okay... - Okay? Okay? 174 00:07:10,216 --> 00:07:12,861 Just... Kwame, Kwame, just have a seat right here. 175 00:07:12,885 --> 00:07:14,229 Kwame! 176 00:07:14,253 --> 00:07:16,098 If you don't get treatment, you could die. 177 00:07:16,122 --> 00:07:17,533 Okay, let him go, okay? 178 00:07:17,557 --> 00:07:19,234 You can't keep him here against his will. 179 00:07:19,258 --> 00:07:20,736 His pancreas is gonna explode. 180 00:07:20,760 --> 00:07:22,204 Then he's gonna be back. 181 00:07:22,228 --> 00:07:24,006 Mariana, get Trauma room one 182 00:07:24,030 --> 00:07:25,607 ready for an acute pancreatitis. 183 00:07:25,631 --> 00:07:26,630 Yes. 184 00:07:28,534 --> 00:07:29,711 Uh, look out. 185 00:07:29,735 --> 00:07:31,280 Oh, no, sorry about that. 186 00:07:31,304 --> 00:07:32,881 Hey. Hey, hey, Luna. 187 00:07:32,905 --> 00:07:35,350 Running from Dada is a bad, bad move. 188 00:07:35,374 --> 00:07:37,119 It's not very good, okay? If you keep doing it, 189 00:07:37,143 --> 00:07:38,387 you're gonna be on time out. 190 00:07:38,411 --> 00:07:41,056 Hey, that's just the way the world works. 191 00:07:41,080 --> 00:07:42,891 Come here. There are rules. 192 00:07:42,915 --> 00:07:45,694 And we got to follow the rules, okay? 193 00:07:45,718 --> 00:07:46,895 And when people do bad things, 194 00:07:46,919 --> 00:07:48,697 they don't just get to... 195 00:07:48,721 --> 00:07:50,412 To get away with it. 196 00:07:51,324 --> 00:07:54,469 _ 197 00:08:01,457 --> 00:08:04,737 Dr. Val! Uh, any word on the blood bank records? 198 00:08:04,761 --> 00:08:05,728 Yeah, here you go. 199 00:08:05,752 --> 00:08:07,198 All we got on Howie Cournemeyer. 200 00:08:07,222 --> 00:08:08,600 Interesting stuff. 201 00:08:08,624 --> 00:08:10,075 - Cute kid. - Yeah, she is. 202 00:08:10,099 --> 00:08:11,744 Until she gnaws your face off. 203 00:08:11,768 --> 00:08:14,346 Howie Cournemeyer donated blood in 1986. 204 00:08:14,370 --> 00:08:16,448 - This is interesting why? - Oh, it's much less the when 205 00:08:16,472 --> 00:08:17,883 than the how much. 206 00:08:17,907 --> 00:08:20,152 A thousand pints in a month? What, is he a whale? 207 00:08:20,176 --> 00:08:22,921 His blood type keeps changing. Sometimes in a single day. 208 00:08:22,945 --> 00:08:24,460 Oh, yeah, that whole thing's total B.S. 209 00:08:24,484 --> 00:08:27,259 Not sure how it'll help you catch a vandal though. 210 00:08:27,283 --> 00:08:29,495 Okay, check this out. His blood type changes, 211 00:08:29,519 --> 00:08:32,931 but his address stays the same on almost every donation. 212 00:08:32,955 --> 00:08:34,433 Max with the detective skills. 213 00:08:34,457 --> 00:08:37,102 Well, it's all about keen skills of observation. 214 00:08:37,126 --> 00:08:39,772 Like I'm observing your kid eating a plant? 215 00:08:39,796 --> 00:08:41,507 - Hey, um... - Hey. 216 00:08:41,531 --> 00:08:43,108 What if I started chewing on you? 217 00:08:43,132 --> 00:08:45,744 That's enough plant-based eating for one day. 218 00:08:45,768 --> 00:08:48,514 Okay, come here. So we are daycare-less. 219 00:08:48,538 --> 00:08:51,917 And, uh, recent development, we don't have a plan B. 220 00:08:51,941 --> 00:08:53,318 Great story. Sign these. 221 00:08:53,342 --> 00:08:55,754 - Um, you love kids. - Very much the opposite. 222 00:08:55,778 --> 00:08:57,122 Right. Let me rephrase that. 223 00:08:57,146 --> 00:08:59,391 You love being my assistant, right? 224 00:08:59,415 --> 00:09:01,260 Yes, it's my childhood dream come true. 225 00:09:01,284 --> 00:09:04,196 We would love to hang out with you, Sandra. 226 00:09:04,220 --> 00:09:06,031 - 'Cause you're so cool. - No. 227 00:09:06,055 --> 00:09:08,133 Really? Please? I'm begging you. 228 00:09:08,157 --> 00:09:10,369 - Kay, try cash. - Yeah, okay. I'll pay you. 229 00:09:10,393 --> 00:09:13,071 Double? Triple. Quadruple. Whatever it takes. 230 00:09:13,095 --> 00:09:14,673 Please. Please take my baby. 231 00:09:14,697 --> 00:09:16,141 - You're the best. - What? 232 00:09:16,165 --> 00:09:17,543 She's the sweetest thing in the world. 233 00:09:17,567 --> 00:09:19,545 Watch out, she does bite sometimes. 234 00:09:19,569 --> 00:09:21,380 - Don't drop her. Food, water. - I've... 235 00:09:23,473 --> 00:09:24,605 Hello. 236 00:09:27,710 --> 00:09:29,254 So sorry. I'm sure this isn't 237 00:09:29,278 --> 00:09:33,723 how you imagined spending your first day in America. 238 00:09:34,283 --> 00:09:37,796 But I-I have a patient who's in rough shape 239 00:09:37,820 --> 00:09:40,032 so if you need me, I'll be in the Oncology... 240 00:09:41,433 --> 00:09:43,324 What's... what's funny? 241 00:09:44,360 --> 00:09:46,611 I'm sorry. 242 00:09:47,396 --> 00:09:48,373 It's just like watching 243 00:09:48,397 --> 00:09:50,843 - Dr. Helen on TV. - Ah. 244 00:09:50,867 --> 00:09:53,812 My father would watch you sometimes, and... 245 00:09:53,836 --> 00:09:56,315 he'd say, "Look, that's your Ammeh." 246 00:09:56,339 --> 00:09:57,983 But it just felt so odd. 247 00:09:58,007 --> 00:10:00,686 Like if he said my Amoo was 248 00:10:00,710 --> 00:10:02,676 Ryan Seacrest or something. 249 00:10:04,547 --> 00:10:07,626 Uh, well. Look, if, um, 250 00:10:07,650 --> 00:10:10,635 if it feels odd, 251 00:10:11,187 --> 00:10:13,847 calling me "ammeh," then, um, 252 00:10:14,390 --> 00:10:15,901 p-please don't. 253 00:10:15,925 --> 00:10:17,202 But that would be disrespectful. 254 00:10:17,226 --> 00:10:19,471 No, no, no. No, I'm asking you to. 255 00:10:19,495 --> 00:10:21,607 Um, I should be more like your 256 00:10:21,631 --> 00:10:24,024 big sister or your friend. 257 00:10:24,634 --> 00:10:26,276 Your friend Helen. 258 00:10:27,203 --> 00:10:29,779 That's what you should call me. Just Helen. 259 00:10:30,606 --> 00:10:32,117 "Just Helen," 260 00:10:32,141 --> 00:10:35,354 I know it's rude to be so direct, 261 00:10:35,378 --> 00:10:37,162 but can I get some tea? 262 00:10:37,647 --> 00:10:39,892 Oh, yes. 263 00:10:39,916 --> 00:10:43,195 Um, course. You don't even have to ask. 264 00:10:43,219 --> 00:10:45,430 The cafeteria's on the fourth floor. 265 00:10:45,454 --> 00:10:47,633 - Cool. - Yeah. 266 00:10:47,657 --> 00:10:49,568 It is cool. 267 00:10:49,592 --> 00:10:53,071 Hi, yes, I am in desperate need of a nanny, 268 00:10:53,095 --> 00:10:55,007 and I heard you guys are the best agency around. 269 00:10:55,031 --> 00:10:56,575 No, thank you. 270 00:10:56,599 --> 00:10:58,577 Well, I'm looking for someone in the mid-town area. 271 00:10:58,601 --> 00:11:01,380 Uh, let's see, teaching experience is a must. 272 00:11:01,404 --> 00:11:02,781 Bilingual is great. 273 00:11:02,805 --> 00:11:04,816 Trilingual is better. 274 00:11:04,840 --> 00:11:07,152 Uh, what else? CPR certified, obviously. 275 00:11:07,176 --> 00:11:09,888 And, uh, oh! Like a wizard with vegetables. 276 00:11:09,912 --> 00:11:12,558 I mean an actual wizard. 277 00:11:14,617 --> 00:11:15,994 Great. 278 00:11:16,018 --> 00:11:17,429 Oh, that's great. Yeah, that's amazing. 279 00:11:17,453 --> 00:11:20,888 Um, um, starting tomorrow, if you have it. 280 00:11:23,459 --> 00:11:26,672 What... when you say "ten-month waiting list," 281 00:11:26,696 --> 00:11:30,798 do you mean actual months or is that a figure of speech? 282 00:11:33,169 --> 00:11:34,313 Yeah? 283 00:11:34,337 --> 00:11:36,081 I'm gonna have to call you back. 284 00:11:36,105 --> 00:11:39,217 Hi, are you Howie Cournemeyer? 285 00:11:39,241 --> 00:11:41,053 - Yeah. - I'm Max Goodwin, 286 00:11:41,077 --> 00:11:42,621 medical director at New Amsterdam. 287 00:11:42,645 --> 00:11:45,846 I knew you bastards would come for me one day. 288 00:11:49,672 --> 00:11:50,929 I walk in this morning with HIV, 289 00:11:50,953 --> 00:11:52,931 and now I have cancer, too? 290 00:11:52,955 --> 00:11:54,933 I mean this can't be happening. I can't even pronounce it. 291 00:11:54,957 --> 00:11:56,835 Hemangiosarcoma. 292 00:11:56,859 --> 00:11:58,573 And we don't know for certain that's what you have. 293 00:11:58,597 --> 00:11:59,944 Okay, then what do you think I do? 294 00:11:59,968 --> 00:12:01,707 I mean, you just found a lump. That could be anything, right? 295 00:12:01,731 --> 00:12:05,944 Hemangiosarcoma often occurs when HIV goes undertreated. 296 00:12:05,968 --> 00:12:09,081 We won't know anything for sure until your MRI. 297 00:12:09,105 --> 00:12:11,216 HIV is not supposed to be a big deal anymore. 298 00:12:11,240 --> 00:12:12,775 I mean, I've been on my cocktail for years 299 00:12:12,799 --> 00:12:14,386 and I've been fine. Now I miss a few check-ups 300 00:12:14,410 --> 00:12:17,956 - and I might die? - Let's not jump to conclusions. 301 00:12:20,583 --> 00:12:22,494 Oh, my God, what's happening? 302 00:12:22,518 --> 00:12:24,529 Okay, can somebody help please? 303 00:12:24,553 --> 00:12:26,286 Get her to the E.D.! 304 00:12:29,992 --> 00:12:31,336 He's back. No pulse. 305 00:12:31,360 --> 00:12:32,738 They found him in a parking lot. 306 00:12:32,762 --> 00:12:34,172 V-TACH. Charging at 360. 307 00:12:34,196 --> 00:12:35,907 Shockable rhythm present. 308 00:12:39,035 --> 00:12:40,212 - Clear. - Clear. 309 00:12:40,236 --> 00:12:41,647 Shocking. 310 00:12:43,272 --> 00:12:45,917 Screen for. 311 00:12:45,941 --> 00:12:48,320 Airway is patent. 312 00:12:48,344 --> 00:12:49,483 He's back. 313 00:12:49,507 --> 00:12:51,757 - Normal sinus rhythm. - Pulse ox, 97. 314 00:12:51,781 --> 00:12:53,692 Kwame. 315 00:12:53,716 --> 00:12:55,360 - Whoa, whoa. Hey, hey! - Are you all right? 316 00:12:55,384 --> 00:12:57,329 - No, out. You need to be out. - I'm responsible for him. 317 00:12:57,353 --> 00:12:58,696 - You don't have a mask! - I'm the president of 318 00:12:58,720 --> 00:13:00,092 his mission for the Church of Jesus Christ. 319 00:13:00,116 --> 00:13:02,934 - Elder Shumway. - It's gonna be okay. 320 00:13:02,958 --> 00:13:04,236 I'm here. 321 00:13:04,260 --> 00:13:06,038 I'll get the lidocaine drip ready. 322 00:13:06,062 --> 00:13:07,312 Tell me what happened. 323 00:13:10,700 --> 00:13:12,192 I can't. 324 00:13:12,668 --> 00:13:14,861 You can tell me anything. 325 00:13:15,538 --> 00:13:16,696 Remember? 326 00:13:18,641 --> 00:13:20,116 I was... 327 00:13:23,412 --> 00:13:25,246 with a man. 328 00:13:32,287 --> 00:13:34,387 I have HIV. 329 00:13:39,628 --> 00:13:42,174 Please don't send me back. 330 00:13:42,198 --> 00:13:43,675 I want to finish my mission. 331 00:13:43,699 --> 00:13:47,212 The Church is all I have. God is all I have. 332 00:13:47,236 --> 00:13:49,937 Then why did you turn your back on Him? 333 00:13:52,074 --> 00:13:53,865 Your mission is over. 334 00:13:56,512 --> 00:13:59,030 Elder Shumway, please. 335 00:13:59,548 --> 00:14:02,027 Please! Please. 336 00:14:02,051 --> 00:14:04,251 Hey, it's okay, it's okay. 337 00:14:06,789 --> 00:14:09,590 Vijay! Oh, hey. 338 00:14:12,995 --> 00:14:14,712 What's up? What's wrong? 339 00:14:15,865 --> 00:14:17,709 He's not coming. 340 00:14:17,733 --> 00:14:20,212 No, I don't know. He probably just forgot his glasses 341 00:14:20,236 --> 00:14:21,847 and he headed back to get them... 342 00:14:21,871 --> 00:14:23,982 I just got an email. 343 00:14:24,006 --> 00:14:26,318 The whole neurology department did. 344 00:14:26,342 --> 00:14:28,408 Dr. Kapoor just resigned. 345 00:14:33,456 --> 00:14:35,422 He's not coming back. 346 00:14:37,319 --> 00:14:39,164 Ever. 347 00:14:50,708 --> 00:14:52,209 Okay, here's what I think is happening. 348 00:14:52,843 --> 00:14:53,955 I think you're embarrassed because 349 00:14:53,979 --> 00:14:55,690 you and I talk every day. 350 00:14:55,714 --> 00:14:58,576 And now you're worried that I'm gonna be mad 351 00:14:58,600 --> 00:15:01,078 because you've been lying to me literally the entire time. 352 00:15:01,102 --> 00:15:02,780 But I'm not. I'm not mad. 353 00:15:02,804 --> 00:15:04,482 I know that you have one of those 354 00:15:04,506 --> 00:15:07,285 ancient answering machines that you can actually hear me 355 00:15:07,309 --> 00:15:08,786 leaving a message for you right now. 356 00:15:08,810 --> 00:15:10,788 You can hear me talking. So just pick up. 357 00:15:10,812 --> 00:15:12,256 I'm not mad, I swear I'm not mad. 358 00:15:14,749 --> 00:15:16,160 Okay, you know what? I am mad. 359 00:15:16,184 --> 00:15:17,995 I'm pissed. I'm furious with you 360 00:15:18,019 --> 00:15:19,564 because I'm your best friend. 361 00:15:19,588 --> 00:15:21,499 You told the entire neurology department 362 00:15:21,523 --> 00:15:23,501 that you were resigning before you told me. 363 00:15:23,525 --> 00:15:24,669 Y-you still haven't told me 364 00:15:24,693 --> 00:15:27,038 because you won't pick up the phone! 365 00:15:27,062 --> 00:15:28,606 Pick up the phone, Vijay! 366 00:15:30,098 --> 00:15:32,243 Do you want to know where I was when 367 00:15:32,267 --> 00:15:33,511 I heard your little announcement? 368 00:15:33,535 --> 00:15:36,347 I was at your surprise party. Surprise! 369 00:15:36,371 --> 00:15:38,149 I planned you a party that you didn't show up to. 370 00:15:38,173 --> 00:15:40,318 And you know, I don't... I don't deserve this. 371 00:15:40,342 --> 00:15:41,953 Vijay, I do not deserve this. 372 00:15:41,977 --> 00:15:44,288 Unless I'm just your deluded work friend 373 00:15:44,312 --> 00:15:46,324 who's been putting himself on for years. 374 00:15:46,348 --> 00:15:47,658 In that case, by all means... 375 00:15:47,682 --> 00:15:48,982 Oh, n... 376 00:15:55,657 --> 00:15:58,135 Oops. I forgot yours. 377 00:15:58,159 --> 00:16:01,038 Um, Mr. Cournemeyer. 378 00:16:01,062 --> 00:16:02,273 Howie, listen... 379 00:16:02,297 --> 00:16:03,975 No, you listen. I'm not scared of you. 380 00:16:03,999 --> 00:16:06,010 I knew what I was doing was against the law. 381 00:16:06,034 --> 00:16:07,185 That was the point. 382 00:16:07,292 --> 00:16:09,113 You're way too young to remember any of this. 383 00:16:09,137 --> 00:16:11,349 But back in the '80s, at the height of AIDS? 384 00:16:11,373 --> 00:16:13,351 The healthcare industry failed its patients. 385 00:16:13,375 --> 00:16:15,853 New Amsterdam failed its patients. 386 00:16:15,877 --> 00:16:17,221 Gay men were treated like lepers. 387 00:16:17,245 --> 00:16:19,924 Your nurses wouldn't even touch friends of mine with AIDS. 388 00:16:19,948 --> 00:16:21,859 Just left them alone in the corners to die. 389 00:16:21,883 --> 00:16:23,361 Let me assure you... 390 00:16:23,385 --> 00:16:25,296 Big pharma? Boy, do not get me started... 391 00:16:25,320 --> 00:16:26,731 I think that train's left the station. 392 00:16:26,755 --> 00:16:28,532 Big pharma profiteered 393 00:16:28,556 --> 00:16:31,235 off the gay community's desperation to survive. 394 00:16:31,259 --> 00:16:33,571 So I decided to fight on behalf of those who had it. 395 00:16:33,595 --> 00:16:36,274 I became an activist. Then I joined ACT UP. 396 00:16:36,298 --> 00:16:37,675 And we did what we had to do. 397 00:16:37,699 --> 00:16:39,977 To make things right, to make some noise. 398 00:16:40,001 --> 00:16:41,712 And, so, yeah. 399 00:16:41,736 --> 00:16:44,048 That's why I stole the New Amsterdam seal. 400 00:16:44,072 --> 00:16:46,984 And why I encased it in a gigantic condom. 401 00:16:47,008 --> 00:16:49,008 And no, I will never give it back. 402 00:16:51,146 --> 00:16:53,224 Wow, that's, uh, 403 00:16:53,248 --> 00:16:54,925 impressive, actually. 404 00:16:54,949 --> 00:16:56,727 But not why I'm here. 405 00:16:56,751 --> 00:16:58,095 No. 406 00:16:58,119 --> 00:17:00,887 Not for the... big condom. 407 00:17:02,691 --> 00:17:07,271 Uh, Mr. Cournemeyer, I came here to ask you 408 00:17:07,295 --> 00:17:08,539 how, 409 00:17:08,563 --> 00:17:11,175 in March of '86, you orchestrated a scheme 410 00:17:11,199 --> 00:17:14,211 to donate a thousand pints of blood under your name? 411 00:17:14,235 --> 00:17:16,347 What? I would never have 412 00:17:16,371 --> 00:17:19,717 donated a single drop of my blood to your hospital, 413 00:17:19,741 --> 00:17:20,785 even to make a point. 414 00:17:20,809 --> 00:17:22,286 But then why is your name... 415 00:17:22,310 --> 00:17:25,653 Come to think of it, March of '86, I was in jail. 416 00:17:26,147 --> 00:17:29,994 I demanded a coordinated national policy to fight AIDS 417 00:17:30,018 --> 00:17:32,430 by chaining myself to the Statehouse doors. 418 00:17:32,454 --> 00:17:33,931 They heard me. 419 00:17:33,955 --> 00:17:35,166 In jail. 420 00:17:35,190 --> 00:17:37,090 Wrong guy, Doc. 421 00:17:40,495 --> 00:17:41,667 Esophageal? 422 00:17:41,691 --> 00:17:43,663 No negative interactions. 423 00:17:44,799 --> 00:17:46,310 I'm thinking variceal bleeding, 424 00:17:46,334 --> 00:17:47,778 likely from liver cancer. 425 00:17:49,137 --> 00:17:51,449 BP's dropping. Have you got that tube in yet? 426 00:17:51,473 --> 00:17:53,792 - I'm trying. - STEMI ruled out at this time. 427 00:17:53,841 --> 00:17:55,619 Looks a bit more distal. 428 00:17:55,643 --> 00:17:57,355 About 2 centimeters should do it. 429 00:17:57,379 --> 00:17:59,824 Right... 430 00:17:59,848 --> 00:18:02,526 - There. - Got it? 431 00:18:02,550 --> 00:18:04,028 I think so. 432 00:18:04,052 --> 00:18:06,230 We should know once the bleeding stops. 433 00:18:06,254 --> 00:18:07,965 It's good for now. 434 00:18:08,404 --> 00:18:10,968 Fingers crossed that it holds. 435 00:18:10,992 --> 00:18:13,704 How did she let herself get so bad? 436 00:18:13,728 --> 00:18:16,440 Because apparently "HIV isn't scary anymore." 437 00:18:17,417 --> 00:18:19,599 Yeah, I guess some people need to be scared. 438 00:18:23,037 --> 00:18:24,570 Have a seat. 439 00:18:28,109 --> 00:18:30,788 I can't tell you about faith. 440 00:18:30,812 --> 00:18:32,990 But I saw what your Elder did. 441 00:18:33,014 --> 00:18:35,659 You shouldn't have to repent to someone who abandoned you 442 00:18:35,683 --> 00:18:38,496 at a time when you needed him the most. 443 00:18:38,520 --> 00:18:42,266 Elder Shumway loves me like a father. 444 00:18:42,290 --> 00:18:44,524 He knew I was gay. 445 00:18:45,059 --> 00:18:48,406 He treated me with grace and acceptance. 446 00:18:48,430 --> 00:18:51,739 All he asked of me was to not act on my desires. 447 00:18:53,157 --> 00:18:55,201 He did not turn his back. 448 00:18:55,703 --> 00:18:57,681 I did. 449 00:18:57,705 --> 00:19:00,456 I threw God away. 450 00:19:00,875 --> 00:19:02,542 And this disease, 451 00:19:03,545 --> 00:19:06,212 it means I will never get God back. 452 00:19:13,021 --> 00:19:14,929 Is there a pill? 453 00:19:15,723 --> 00:19:16,867 A surgery? 454 00:19:16,891 --> 00:19:18,569 Anything to scrape these 455 00:19:18,593 --> 00:19:20,137 disgusting urges out of my body? 456 00:19:20,161 --> 00:19:21,811 Kwame, Kwame. 457 00:19:23,565 --> 00:19:25,309 Brother, this is not disgusting. 458 00:19:25,333 --> 00:19:27,108 This is who you are. 459 00:19:31,639 --> 00:19:33,781 Sex is not who I am. 460 00:19:34,709 --> 00:19:37,054 I am my community. 461 00:19:37,078 --> 00:19:38,923 My family, my faith. 462 00:19:38,947 --> 00:19:40,424 I am an Elder 463 00:19:40,448 --> 00:19:44,128 in the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. 464 00:19:44,417 --> 00:19:45,930 That is who I am. 465 00:19:45,954 --> 00:19:47,920 That is not that simple. 466 00:19:48,423 --> 00:19:50,256 But it is that simple. 467 00:19:50,758 --> 00:19:52,470 Think of the one thing 468 00:19:52,494 --> 00:19:54,660 you can't live without. 469 00:19:59,868 --> 00:20:01,976 That is who you are. 470 00:20:07,342 --> 00:20:08,953 Well, so I gave it some thought, 471 00:20:08,977 --> 00:20:10,321 and I realized I was being 472 00:20:10,345 --> 00:20:12,256 way too stringent with the nanny requirements, 473 00:20:12,280 --> 00:20:13,958 so here's what I'm looking for now. 474 00:20:13,982 --> 00:20:17,595 Anyone. I will take anyone. Do you... do you have anyone? 475 00:20:17,619 --> 00:20:19,430 Dr. Val! Ma'am, I will take 476 00:20:19,454 --> 00:20:21,365 a well-trained Saint Bernard at this point. 477 00:20:21,389 --> 00:20:22,666 Okay, thank you very much. 478 00:20:22,690 --> 00:20:25,302 So Howie couldn't really shed any light. 479 00:20:25,326 --> 00:20:27,972 He did have a giant condom situation. 480 00:20:27,996 --> 00:20:29,406 Not really sure what that's about, 481 00:20:29,430 --> 00:20:30,594 but I'll deal with that tomorrow. 482 00:20:30,624 --> 00:20:32,109 - Makes sense. - Does it? 483 00:20:32,150 --> 00:20:34,311 I need to track down the head 484 00:20:34,335 --> 00:20:37,460 of the blood bank from 1986, and problem is, 485 00:20:37,484 --> 00:20:39,316 his information on his W-2 is outdated, 486 00:20:39,340 --> 00:20:41,118 so I was wondering if you could ask the older staff. 487 00:20:41,142 --> 00:20:42,353 Maybe they know him? 488 00:20:42,377 --> 00:20:43,821 Oh, yeah, sure thing. What's the name? 489 00:20:43,845 --> 00:20:45,589 Uh, Dale Rustin. 490 00:20:45,613 --> 00:20:47,458 - You sure? - Yeah, why? You know him? 491 00:20:47,482 --> 00:20:49,693 No, but the whole blood bank's been talking about him. 492 00:20:49,717 --> 00:20:52,196 - He's upstairs. - He still works here? 493 00:20:52,220 --> 00:20:54,628 No, he's a patient. He's dying. 494 00:20:59,527 --> 00:21:01,505 I'm sorry about that last phone call. 495 00:21:01,529 --> 00:21:04,263 Um, I didn't mean to dump all that on you. 496 00:21:07,268 --> 00:21:10,503 I love you, and I hope that you are okay. 497 00:21:13,141 --> 00:21:15,800 But I gotta draw a boundary here, Vijay. 498 00:21:18,780 --> 00:21:21,597 You need to pick up the phone, right now, 499 00:21:22,264 --> 00:21:26,018 or you and I can't ever be 500 00:21:27,522 --> 00:21:29,689 the same kind of friends anymore. 501 00:21:30,458 --> 00:21:31,557 At all, really. 502 00:21:38,800 --> 00:21:40,700 So pick up the phone. 503 00:21:47,775 --> 00:21:49,675 Pick up the phone, Vijay. 504 00:22:06,408 --> 00:22:10,111 Stage III Astrocytoma. 505 00:22:11,823 --> 00:22:12,914 I'm sorry to hear that. 506 00:22:15,184 --> 00:22:18,696 "New Amsterdam. Shame then, shame now." 507 00:22:20,429 --> 00:22:23,597 You wouldn't know anything about that, would you? 508 00:22:26,429 --> 00:22:31,777 I had worse things to say about Medical Director Helms, 509 00:22:31,801 --> 00:22:34,914 but kids do use that hallway. 510 00:22:34,938 --> 00:22:37,416 Dr. Helms is a pillar of this hospital. 511 00:22:40,410 --> 00:22:41,819 So you don't want to explain yourself? 512 00:22:41,866 --> 00:22:43,528 You just want to slander him anonymously? 513 00:22:43,552 --> 00:22:45,958 I'd slander him to his face 514 00:22:45,982 --> 00:22:48,627 if I thought anybody would care. 515 00:22:48,651 --> 00:22:50,603 Try me. 516 00:22:53,389 --> 00:22:58,637 In 1986, this hospital needed blood. 517 00:22:59,361 --> 00:23:01,028 As so many did. 518 00:23:04,467 --> 00:23:08,347 But sexually active gay men 519 00:23:08,531 --> 00:23:11,410 were banned from donating it in this country, 520 00:23:11,434 --> 00:23:15,781 even if they knew they were HIV-negative. 521 00:23:15,805 --> 00:23:17,116 That's not Helms' fault. 522 00:23:17,140 --> 00:23:18,339 It's... 523 00:23:19,208 --> 00:23:20,319 It's the way the world was then. 524 00:23:20,343 --> 00:23:22,454 Gay men can't donate 525 00:23:22,478 --> 00:23:26,625 convalescent plasma for COVID right now. 526 00:23:26,649 --> 00:23:28,627 So you tell me, 527 00:23:28,651 --> 00:23:31,563 what exactly changed? 528 00:23:34,348 --> 00:23:35,781 I'm fine. 529 00:23:39,128 --> 00:23:42,863 I was a gay HIV-negative man. 530 00:23:44,380 --> 00:23:46,413 My friends were dying. 531 00:23:48,971 --> 00:23:51,105 They needed blood. 532 00:23:53,609 --> 00:23:55,476 I couldn't donate. 533 00:23:58,520 --> 00:24:02,689 I was the head of the damn blood bank. 534 00:24:04,387 --> 00:24:07,221 You know what that feels like? 535 00:24:08,558 --> 00:24:11,517 A person has to do something. 536 00:24:12,061 --> 00:24:14,186 Has to act. 537 00:24:15,865 --> 00:24:17,876 Like Howie Cournemeyer? 538 00:24:24,006 --> 00:24:26,585 Howie was fearless. 539 00:24:26,609 --> 00:24:28,387 I never met him, 540 00:24:28,411 --> 00:24:32,246 but God, was he inspiring. 541 00:24:33,749 --> 00:24:36,041 He made it so simple. 542 00:24:37,053 --> 00:24:40,199 Just do something. 543 00:24:40,963 --> 00:24:42,901 Act up. 544 00:24:43,310 --> 00:24:45,110 And I did. 545 00:24:48,631 --> 00:24:52,511 You had gay men hide their identities 546 00:24:52,535 --> 00:24:54,226 and donate 547 00:24:54,904 --> 00:24:56,837 using Howie's name. 548 00:24:58,174 --> 00:25:00,919 That's the best thing to do in a plague. 549 00:25:01,442 --> 00:25:03,121 Give. 550 00:25:03,145 --> 00:25:04,737 Help. 551 00:25:05,815 --> 00:25:09,761 I got to see scared men going from 552 00:25:09,785 --> 00:25:13,065 helpless to heroes, 553 00:25:13,529 --> 00:25:15,623 drop by drop. 554 00:25:17,827 --> 00:25:19,418 Until... 555 00:25:20,196 --> 00:25:21,879 Helms found out. 556 00:25:22,398 --> 00:25:24,757 He said he'd fire me. 557 00:25:25,234 --> 00:25:27,426 My staff too. 558 00:25:28,594 --> 00:25:31,555 Howie Cournemeyer would have kept fighting, 559 00:25:32,141 --> 00:25:34,099 but I needed my job. 560 00:25:35,057 --> 00:25:37,324 So I shut the program down. 561 00:25:40,695 --> 00:25:42,406 And that's something I have to live with 562 00:25:42,431 --> 00:25:44,497 for the rest of my life. 563 00:25:52,295 --> 00:25:54,406 You refilled this hospital's blood bank 564 00:25:55,222 --> 00:25:58,532 in under a month during a pandemic. 565 00:26:00,770 --> 00:26:02,814 You're a hero. 566 00:26:02,838 --> 00:26:06,807 Yet you honor the man that made me a coward. 567 00:26:09,925 --> 00:26:13,927 The world is burning, Dr. Goodwin. 568 00:26:17,286 --> 00:26:20,332 And you spend your day hunting me down 569 00:26:20,356 --> 00:26:23,148 for defacing a photograph? 570 00:26:25,461 --> 00:26:30,164 Shame then, shame now. 571 00:26:36,605 --> 00:26:38,272 You came back. 572 00:26:42,835 --> 00:26:44,211 Reynolds? 573 00:26:45,848 --> 00:26:47,893 What was that? 574 00:26:47,917 --> 00:26:50,362 What Kwame wants more than anything 575 00:26:50,386 --> 00:26:53,489 is to be a Mormon husband to a Mormon wife, 576 00:26:53,513 --> 00:26:54,928 and he thought he lost that. 577 00:26:54,963 --> 00:26:56,879 He has lost that. He's gay. 578 00:26:56,903 --> 00:26:58,537 No, no. He thought he lost that 579 00:26:58,561 --> 00:27:00,539 because he's HIV-positive, 580 00:27:00,563 --> 00:27:02,974 and he thought that meant that he couldn't have children. 581 00:27:02,998 --> 00:27:06,178 Which is the cornerstone of his spiritual community. 582 00:27:06,202 --> 00:27:08,046 Gay people can have children. 583 00:27:08,070 --> 00:27:11,616 But between HART therapy and PrEP, of course, 584 00:27:11,640 --> 00:27:14,319 HIV can be untransmittable and safe for conception. 585 00:27:14,343 --> 00:27:16,755 So I called the Elder, let him know that, 586 00:27:16,779 --> 00:27:18,857 and he feels there's a path for Kwame. 587 00:27:18,881 --> 00:27:21,259 He even suggested that he can marry a woman 588 00:27:21,283 --> 00:27:23,250 who knows about his struggles. 589 00:27:25,020 --> 00:27:26,932 Are you kidding me? 590 00:27:26,956 --> 00:27:28,700 You used the science of HIV 591 00:27:28,724 --> 00:27:31,636 to put someone back into the closet. 592 00:27:31,660 --> 00:27:33,905 Well, that's... That's what he wants. 593 00:27:33,929 --> 00:27:36,675 So if he wanted to shoot himself in the head, 594 00:27:36,699 --> 00:27:38,477 where would you have stood on that? 595 00:27:38,501 --> 00:27:40,545 What if he wanted to leave the E.D. 596 00:27:40,569 --> 00:27:42,080 with a failing pancreas? 597 00:27:42,104 --> 00:27:45,009 You think I like this? I don't. 598 00:27:45,067 --> 00:27:47,085 But we can't pick and choose when to respect 599 00:27:47,109 --> 00:27:48,420 our patient's wishes. 600 00:27:48,444 --> 00:27:51,256 And being a Mormon is more important to Kwame 601 00:27:51,280 --> 00:27:52,724 than his sexuality. 602 00:27:52,748 --> 00:27:54,760 Well, the guy he had unprotected sex with 603 00:27:54,784 --> 00:27:56,762 - disagrees with you. - Oh, come on. 604 00:27:56,786 --> 00:27:59,097 Nobody's torturing him. He's choosing this. 605 00:27:59,121 --> 00:28:00,272 Yes. 606 00:28:00,307 --> 00:28:02,534 Yeah, he is choosing a life 607 00:28:02,558 --> 00:28:04,669 based on the idea that he has to 608 00:28:04,693 --> 00:28:07,205 be somebody that he's not. 609 00:28:07,229 --> 00:28:10,475 Because there's something wrong with who he is. 610 00:28:10,499 --> 00:28:13,278 Look, I get what you were trying to do here, Floyd, 611 00:28:13,884 --> 00:28:16,537 but we're talking about his heart. 612 00:28:32,861 --> 00:28:34,366 Well, hello there. 613 00:28:34,822 --> 00:28:37,803 So, I noticed that you went out earlier. 614 00:28:37,827 --> 00:28:40,539 Yes. With Kevin. He's my old friend. 615 00:28:40,563 --> 00:28:42,774 - Your old friend? - Yes. 616 00:28:42,798 --> 00:28:44,409 You've been in New York five hours, 617 00:28:44,433 --> 00:28:45,610 and you've got an old friend? 618 00:28:45,634 --> 00:28:46,745 He's a friend from the internet. 619 00:28:46,769 --> 00:28:48,480 From when we were kids. 620 00:28:48,504 --> 00:28:50,916 I see. And he's, um, 621 00:28:50,940 --> 00:28:52,339 how old? 622 00:28:52,875 --> 00:28:55,654 I'm not sure. Can I go to your office now? 623 00:28:55,678 --> 00:28:59,024 Mina. Did you get my texts? 624 00:28:59,695 --> 00:29:00,992 I was busy. 625 00:29:01,396 --> 00:29:02,491 Busy. 626 00:29:02,516 --> 00:29:03,995 Is there a problem? 627 00:29:04,019 --> 00:29:06,465 I thought you said to treat you like a friend. 628 00:29:06,489 --> 00:29:07,833 Yep, absolutely. 629 00:29:07,857 --> 00:29:10,168 And I didn't text any of my friends 630 00:29:10,192 --> 00:29:11,903 to tell them that I was hanging out with Kevin. 631 00:29:11,927 --> 00:29:13,572 Yes, no, of course. It's just, um, 632 00:29:13,596 --> 00:29:15,740 you've never been to New York before. 633 00:29:15,764 --> 00:29:18,677 Oh, it's a lot like Tehran, just a little less crowded. 634 00:29:18,967 --> 00:29:20,617 I'll see you when you're done? 635 00:29:26,141 --> 00:29:28,687 Max, you wanted to see me. 636 00:29:28,711 --> 00:29:30,919 Hey, George. I, uh... 637 00:29:32,815 --> 00:29:34,848 I heard about Howie Cournemeyer. 638 00:29:38,621 --> 00:29:41,597 Oh, I know how that looks. 639 00:29:42,458 --> 00:29:44,970 If I let that continue for one more day, 640 00:29:44,994 --> 00:29:48,187 it would have been an unmitigated disaster. 641 00:29:48,764 --> 00:29:53,545 It did circumvent a ugly, very discriminatory regulation. 642 00:29:53,569 --> 00:29:56,681 No, no, it violated federal policy. 643 00:29:56,705 --> 00:29:57,883 I may have been a maverick, 644 00:29:57,907 --> 00:30:00,018 but I wasn't about to become a criminal. 645 00:30:00,042 --> 00:30:03,488 The liability alone would have crippled us. 646 00:30:03,512 --> 00:30:05,787 What did you do with all that blood? 647 00:30:06,949 --> 00:30:08,627 Disposed of it. 648 00:30:08,651 --> 00:30:10,729 Even though all donated blood is screened? 649 00:30:10,753 --> 00:30:13,732 You threw it away, George. 650 00:30:13,756 --> 00:30:15,367 You could have helped people. 651 00:30:15,391 --> 00:30:17,424 And you chose not to. 652 00:30:23,499 --> 00:30:25,043 You know, the last time I checked, 653 00:30:25,067 --> 00:30:28,380 those were still the FDA guidelines. 654 00:30:28,404 --> 00:30:30,248 And as far as I can tell, 655 00:30:30,272 --> 00:30:35,676 you aren't doing a damn thing about them either. 656 00:30:44,920 --> 00:30:47,566 - Ella? Hi. - Hey, hey, Dr. Frome. 657 00:30:47,590 --> 00:30:49,267 Hi, are you okay? 658 00:30:49,291 --> 00:30:50,602 What about Vijay? What's happening? 659 00:30:50,626 --> 00:30:52,437 No, hey, we're good. We're all good. 660 00:30:52,461 --> 00:30:54,105 Um, I just have to be quick 661 00:30:54,129 --> 00:30:55,440 'cause he doesn't know I'm calling you. 662 00:30:55,464 --> 00:30:57,075 I heard your messages. 663 00:30:57,099 --> 00:30:59,945 Okay, well, I'm glad somebody did. 664 00:30:59,969 --> 00:31:03,281 Yeah, uh, Iggy, you have been so good to him. 665 00:31:03,305 --> 00:31:05,283 To me. 666 00:31:05,307 --> 00:31:07,933 You deserve to know what's going on. 667 00:31:09,745 --> 00:31:11,623 You know, honestly, Ella, I don't... 668 00:31:11,647 --> 00:31:14,526 I don't really care anymore, so... 669 00:31:14,550 --> 00:31:17,295 Vijay's doctor told him he's never gonna work again. 670 00:31:17,319 --> 00:31:21,199 Um, about a month ago. He didn't want to believe it. 671 00:31:21,223 --> 00:31:22,734 He kept saying that the guy was crazy, 672 00:31:22,758 --> 00:31:24,235 didn't know what he was talking about. 673 00:31:24,259 --> 00:31:26,972 But, um, a couple days after, he got ready, 674 00:31:26,996 --> 00:31:29,341 and decided to come into the hospital early, 675 00:31:29,365 --> 00:31:31,309 and surprise everybody. 676 00:31:31,333 --> 00:31:33,867 Um, he couldn't make it out the front door. 677 00:31:41,276 --> 00:31:43,955 He won't talk to me about it. 678 00:31:43,979 --> 00:31:45,857 He won't talk to anyone right now. 679 00:31:45,881 --> 00:31:48,056 So, um, 680 00:31:48,517 --> 00:31:50,475 that's why I had to call. 681 00:31:51,020 --> 00:31:53,498 - You know, so you'd know. - Yeah. 682 00:31:53,522 --> 00:31:55,900 Uh, a couple days ago, 683 00:31:55,924 --> 00:31:57,702 he told me a story about you. 684 00:31:57,726 --> 00:32:00,338 About a patient who thought he was dead? 685 00:32:00,362 --> 00:32:02,540 Yeah. Yeah, I remember. 686 00:32:02,564 --> 00:32:05,010 And Vijay said how much you helped the guy. 687 00:32:05,034 --> 00:32:08,346 Helped his fiancée to understand. 688 00:32:08,370 --> 00:32:10,181 And Vijay said that 689 00:32:10,205 --> 00:32:12,456 he might have saved the guy's life but... 690 00:32:13,242 --> 00:32:15,208 But you saved his soul. 691 00:32:15,911 --> 00:32:17,322 That's what you do. 692 00:32:17,346 --> 00:32:20,013 Dr. Frome, you just go around saving souls. 693 00:32:23,886 --> 00:32:25,802 I learned from the best. 694 00:32:31,536 --> 00:32:34,264 Great news. It's just a hemangioma, 695 00:32:34,340 --> 00:32:35,568 which is a collectionor, of blood vessels 696 00:32:35,641 --> 00:32:36,621 that should disappear on their own. 697 00:32:36,676 --> 00:32:37,838 Oh, my God. Thank God. 698 00:32:37,870 --> 00:32:40,214 - Okay. - So, next step is to 699 00:32:40,259 --> 00:32:41,745 adjust your antiretrovirals. 700 00:32:41,788 --> 00:32:43,363 I'll need to see you back here tomorrow. 701 00:32:43,387 --> 00:32:44,790 Oh, my God, I'm so behind on work. 702 00:32:44,815 --> 00:32:46,081 There's no way I can come in tomorrow. 703 00:32:47,856 --> 00:32:49,578 Your HIV care is important, Karla. 704 00:32:49,602 --> 00:32:50,935 Yes, I know it's important, 705 00:32:50,959 --> 00:32:52,737 but it didn't give me cancer, right? 706 00:32:52,761 --> 00:32:54,405 Didn't almost kill me. 707 00:32:54,429 --> 00:32:56,429 So can I call you when I come back up for air? 708 00:32:58,199 --> 00:33:00,867 Perfect. Next time I see you, it'll be in the morgue. 709 00:33:03,772 --> 00:33:06,093 You are walking out of here. 710 00:33:06,508 --> 00:33:08,018 You're lucky, 'cause the kind of cancer 711 00:33:08,042 --> 00:33:09,581 we thought you had is deadly, 712 00:33:09,628 --> 00:33:11,973 and it's God's own luck that you don't have it. 713 00:33:12,447 --> 00:33:14,959 If what you take from this is that you can continue 714 00:33:14,983 --> 00:33:16,594 treating your HIV like it's hay fever, 715 00:33:16,618 --> 00:33:18,462 then I have no doubt I'll be seeing you very soon, 716 00:33:18,486 --> 00:33:20,419 whether you have room in your schedule or not. 717 00:33:21,756 --> 00:33:23,289 Um, tomorrow's good. 718 00:33:27,562 --> 00:33:28,939 I can take him from here. 719 00:33:28,963 --> 00:33:30,808 Ah, this one. 720 00:33:30,832 --> 00:33:32,877 This one, unfortunately. You mind? 721 00:33:32,901 --> 00:33:35,613 I don't retract a word I wrote. 722 00:33:35,637 --> 00:33:37,848 Shame then, shame now. 723 00:33:37,872 --> 00:33:41,174 Yeah, well, I hope you don't, because you were right. 724 00:33:42,443 --> 00:33:45,812 Dale, I'd like you to meet Howie Cournemeyer. 725 00:33:50,251 --> 00:33:52,485 - Mr. Cournemeyer... - Howie. 726 00:33:54,589 --> 00:33:56,600 Excited to meet you. 727 00:33:56,624 --> 00:33:58,536 You know, the gay blood ban? 728 00:33:58,560 --> 00:34:00,004 It's not just a regulation. 729 00:34:00,615 --> 00:34:01,778 It's hate. 730 00:34:01,814 --> 00:34:03,874 We should be ashamed for allowing it. 731 00:34:03,898 --> 00:34:07,378 So I'm initiating a new policy regarding the gay blood ban. 732 00:34:07,402 --> 00:34:09,046 I'm ignoring it. 733 00:34:09,070 --> 00:34:11,741 And Howie is our first donor. 734 00:34:15,176 --> 00:34:17,610 You can't. They'll strip your funding. 735 00:34:20,114 --> 00:34:21,959 Yeah. 736 00:34:21,983 --> 00:34:23,661 Well, then we'll just take them to court. 737 00:34:23,685 --> 00:34:25,196 And when we win, 738 00:34:25,220 --> 00:34:29,033 they will throw that bigoted law in the trash, 739 00:34:29,057 --> 00:34:31,023 thanks to you. 740 00:34:35,530 --> 00:34:39,210 I've been screaming about this nonsense for 30 years, 741 00:34:39,234 --> 00:34:41,438 and nothing happened. 742 00:34:42,470 --> 00:34:44,774 Look what you did. 743 00:34:54,616 --> 00:34:57,061 Hey, I'm finishing my chart on Karla. 744 00:34:57,085 --> 00:34:58,562 Any surprises at discharge? 745 00:34:58,586 --> 00:35:01,065 Uh, no. She just needed a little bit of tough love. 746 00:35:01,089 --> 00:35:02,566 Scared her to death, huh? 747 00:35:02,590 --> 00:35:04,568 Love it when you get all Mama Bear. 748 00:35:04,592 --> 00:35:06,070 A quality that's deserted me now that 749 00:35:06,094 --> 00:35:08,539 there's a Baby Bear in my office. 750 00:35:08,563 --> 00:35:10,708 Um, honestly, 751 00:35:10,732 --> 00:35:12,343 Mina walked all over me today, 752 00:35:12,367 --> 00:35:13,844 and I'm just letting her do it. 753 00:35:13,868 --> 00:35:15,179 I... I don't know what to say. 754 00:35:15,203 --> 00:35:18,115 Just talk to her like she's a patient. 755 00:35:18,139 --> 00:35:19,683 But she's not. 756 00:35:19,707 --> 00:35:22,286 I mean her father's just died, she's in a new country. 757 00:35:22,310 --> 00:35:23,687 If someone should be playing bad cop with her, 758 00:35:23,711 --> 00:35:25,656 it really shouldn't be me. I barely know her. 759 00:35:25,680 --> 00:35:27,523 I'm not her aunt at all. Really, I'm just... 760 00:35:27,547 --> 00:35:29,945 some woman. 761 00:35:30,418 --> 00:35:32,730 My sister and I, we're both addicts 762 00:35:32,754 --> 00:35:34,598 who only trust chaos and 763 00:35:34,622 --> 00:35:37,701 are incapable of having intimate relationships. 764 00:35:37,725 --> 00:35:40,905 That's what happens when no one gives you boundaries. 765 00:35:40,929 --> 00:35:42,673 You're all Mina has now. 766 00:35:42,697 --> 00:35:45,509 You've got to be her mother, her aunt, her friend. 767 00:35:45,533 --> 00:35:46,610 Her everything. 768 00:35:46,962 --> 00:35:50,147 And if you can't do that then, yeah, you're right. 769 00:35:50,171 --> 00:35:53,802 You're just some woman who doesn't deserve her. 770 00:35:55,011 --> 00:35:57,521 Those are wise words coming from someone that 771 00:35:57,545 --> 00:35:59,890 let a stranger live in our storage closet. 772 00:35:59,914 --> 00:36:01,959 Well, you can't win 'em all. 773 00:36:01,983 --> 00:36:04,328 Good luck. 774 00:36:11,092 --> 00:36:13,451 - Hi! - Here's Baby Dahmer. 775 00:36:13,507 --> 00:36:15,005 That bad? 776 00:36:15,029 --> 00:36:17,541 When she wasn't gnawing on me, 777 00:36:17,565 --> 00:36:19,677 I checked out some parenting blogs. 778 00:36:19,701 --> 00:36:22,012 Um, apparently biting's pretty normal, 779 00:36:22,036 --> 00:36:23,914 so I wouldn't, like, beat yourself up. 780 00:36:23,938 --> 00:36:27,785 Yeah, I guess it's their way of, I don't know, acting out. 781 00:36:27,809 --> 00:36:31,298 I... she's trying to tell me she's missing something. 782 00:36:31,819 --> 00:36:34,587 Yeah, her data plan, by the looks of it. 783 00:36:37,618 --> 00:36:39,180 Her grandma. 784 00:36:39,787 --> 00:36:41,365 Oh, problem solved. 785 00:36:41,389 --> 00:36:43,133 Can't she just spend more time with her? 786 00:36:43,157 --> 00:36:44,811 Uh... 787 00:36:46,961 --> 00:36:48,806 Gwen would love nothing more. 788 00:36:48,830 --> 00:36:51,998 And that's bad because...? 789 00:36:55,236 --> 00:36:58,270 Just means I can't do this on my own. 790 00:37:03,955 --> 00:37:05,373 Max. 791 00:37:06,346 --> 00:37:08,479 I don't think you're supposed to. 792 00:37:13,788 --> 00:37:16,834 Days like this make me think of His mysterious ways. 793 00:37:29,871 --> 00:37:31,448 Hey. 794 00:37:31,472 --> 00:37:32,901 Floyd. 795 00:37:33,441 --> 00:37:34,985 Did the Venmo not go through? 796 00:37:35,009 --> 00:37:36,720 No, no, everything's all good. 797 00:37:36,744 --> 00:37:39,023 Uh, I was just thinking. 798 00:37:39,047 --> 00:37:40,991 Well, not thinking. 799 00:37:41,015 --> 00:37:42,648 I, uh... 800 00:37:44,519 --> 00:37:47,031 I know that... 801 00:37:47,055 --> 00:37:48,999 Know what? 802 00:37:49,023 --> 00:37:50,377 That I made a mistake. 803 00:37:52,026 --> 00:37:53,270 Floyd, I... 804 00:37:53,294 --> 00:37:54,405 You know that old school joint, 805 00:37:54,429 --> 00:37:56,240 - "If loving you is wrong..." - Floyd. 806 00:37:56,264 --> 00:37:57,630 I know you feel me. 807 00:37:59,200 --> 00:38:00,778 I do. 808 00:38:03,738 --> 00:38:04,850 I do. 809 00:38:05,234 --> 00:38:07,885 But I also know that I'm nobody's wrong. 810 00:38:07,909 --> 00:38:10,063 And if I were your right, 811 00:38:10,611 --> 00:38:13,983 we wouldn't be having this talk thousands of miles apart. 812 00:38:15,917 --> 00:38:17,895 But if our love was real, 813 00:38:17,919 --> 00:38:19,864 you know, we can cover that. 814 00:38:21,089 --> 00:38:22,742 The "if" 815 00:38:23,291 --> 00:38:25,787 is doing all the lifting in that statement. 816 00:38:27,361 --> 00:38:29,332 You saying it wasn't real? 817 00:38:29,764 --> 00:38:31,793 I'm just saying 818 00:38:32,133 --> 00:38:34,504 that whatever it was, 819 00:38:35,236 --> 00:38:37,799 it obviously wasn't enough for you. 820 00:38:38,439 --> 00:38:40,139 You need to own it, Floyd. 821 00:38:42,844 --> 00:38:44,597 You made your choice. 822 00:38:46,613 --> 00:38:48,184 And so have I. 823 00:38:49,584 --> 00:38:51,061 Evie... 824 00:39:06,534 --> 00:39:07,744 - Hi, Gwen. - Is everything okay? 825 00:39:07,768 --> 00:39:09,246 No, no, no, everything's fine. 826 00:39:09,270 --> 00:39:12,516 Um, uh... 827 00:39:12,540 --> 00:39:14,711 Well, we were just wondering if, um, 828 00:39:15,209 --> 00:39:16,963 you might be able to come over. 829 00:39:17,578 --> 00:39:18,923 Uh, 830 00:39:19,947 --> 00:39:21,384 a few days a week? 831 00:39:23,985 --> 00:39:26,830 I think Luna really needs ya. 832 00:39:26,854 --> 00:39:28,558 And, uh, 833 00:39:30,691 --> 00:39:32,970 I think I really need the help. 834 00:40:07,028 --> 00:40:08,556 - Hey. - Hey. 835 00:40:10,498 --> 00:40:12,176 How was your day? 836 00:40:12,200 --> 00:40:14,811 Ugh, long. How 'bout yours? 837 00:40:14,835 --> 00:40:18,291 Oh, my God, so long. So long. 838 00:40:20,575 --> 00:40:22,419 Can you remind me whose bright idea it was 839 00:40:22,443 --> 00:40:24,454 to put a full-length mirror in our bedroom? 840 00:40:24,478 --> 00:40:26,690 Uh, yours? 841 00:40:26,714 --> 00:40:29,202 Course. 842 00:40:30,051 --> 00:40:32,247 Glutton for punishment. 843 00:40:37,024 --> 00:40:38,920 Vijay resigned today. 844 00:40:39,827 --> 00:40:42,048 Oh, no, really? 845 00:40:42,763 --> 00:40:44,541 Yeah, I was really upset about it for 846 00:40:44,565 --> 00:40:46,443 most of the day, actually. 847 00:40:46,467 --> 00:40:48,263 Selfishly. 848 00:40:49,470 --> 00:40:51,515 - He validates me, you know. - Mm-hmm. 849 00:40:51,539 --> 00:40:53,550 Waiting most of my life for a father figure 850 00:40:53,574 --> 00:40:55,353 to tell me that I'm good enough. 851 00:40:55,977 --> 00:40:57,521 Now he's gone. 852 00:40:57,545 --> 00:41:00,546 Hey, I'm sorry. 853 00:41:03,017 --> 00:41:04,737 It's okay. 854 00:41:06,087 --> 00:41:08,074 Because I, um, 855 00:41:08,589 --> 00:41:11,535 I think it's time that I start to feel 856 00:41:11,559 --> 00:41:13,788 like I'm good enough on my own. 857 00:41:15,096 --> 00:41:17,741 I want to look in this mirror 858 00:41:17,765 --> 00:41:19,919 and I want to see someone... 859 00:41:22,203 --> 00:41:23,965 Good enough. 860 00:41:39,820 --> 00:41:42,065 You are... 861 00:41:42,089 --> 00:41:43,484 more than good enough. 862 00:41:47,128 --> 00:41:48,972 You're beautiful. 863 00:41:56,971 --> 00:41:59,349 No. No, no, no, 864 00:41:59,373 --> 00:42:01,118 Leave 'em on. 865 00:42:01,142 --> 00:42:02,795 Leave 'em on. 866 00:42:08,125 --> 00:42:13,125 CREDITS