1 00:00:05,442 --> 00:00:07,720 Until pretty recently, 2 00:00:07,744 --> 00:00:09,756 doctors would slap a newborn on the back 3 00:00:09,780 --> 00:00:11,024 immediately after birth. 4 00:00:19,356 --> 00:00:20,900 It's not that they wanted to make the baby cry. 5 00:00:20,924 --> 00:00:22,669 They needed the baby to cry. 6 00:00:41,178 --> 00:00:42,488 Thank you. 7 00:00:47,084 --> 00:00:48,561 Lexie! 8 00:00:56,093 --> 00:00:57,570 It meant the baby could breathe on her own. 9 00:00:58,829 --> 00:01:01,841 Thankfully, we don't do that anymore. 10 00:01:12,109 --> 00:01:14,587 But we still hold our own breath until we hear that cry. 11 00:01:38,835 --> 00:01:42,148 And it doesn't matter if you're the baby's doctor or mother... 12 00:01:48,645 --> 00:01:51,391 ...it's the most beautiful sound in the world. 13 00:01:58,889 --> 00:02:01,200 The first time, anyway. 14 00:02:25,549 --> 00:02:29,195 Boston doesn't need you as much as I do. 15 00:02:29,219 --> 00:02:31,343 You know I'd stay if I could. 16 00:02:34,524 --> 00:02:36,002 Morning playlist. 17 00:02:39,529 --> 00:02:41,441 It's better than coffee. 18 00:02:56,546 --> 00:02:57,957 Yeah. 19 00:03:05,255 --> 00:03:07,300 Marcella Diaz, 62... 20 00:03:07,324 --> 00:03:10,670 ...recently admitted to ICU after sats dropped below 87%. 21 00:03:10,694 --> 00:03:12,672 She was in a lot of discomfort last night. 22 00:03:12,696 --> 00:03:14,340 Ah, this one worries too much. 23 00:03:14,364 --> 00:03:16,175 He needs more patients. 24 00:03:16,199 --> 00:03:17,844 Or a hobby. 25 00:03:17,868 --> 00:03:20,480 Well, when are you gonna start my singing lessons? 26 00:03:20,504 --> 00:03:23,483 Marcella taught music in high school for 35 years. 27 00:03:23,507 --> 00:03:24,817 Recent chest films? 28 00:03:24,841 --> 00:03:26,319 Opacities in both lungs. 29 00:03:26,343 --> 00:03:27,820 Veronica... 30 00:03:27,844 --> 00:03:29,322 Of course. 31 00:03:29,346 --> 00:03:30,490 And... And... 32 00:03:30,514 --> 00:03:33,092 Yes, I will call my mother, too. 33 00:03:33,116 --> 00:03:34,594 Veronica's her daughter. 34 00:03:34,618 --> 00:03:36,596 She's positive, too, but her symptoms are mild. 35 00:03:38,288 --> 00:03:39,765 Mama! 36 00:03:39,789 --> 00:03:41,234 How are you feeling? 37 00:03:41,258 --> 00:03:42,568 Okay. 38 00:03:45,095 --> 00:03:47,273 It's... It's just a cough, Mom. 39 00:03:47,297 --> 00:03:49,108 Don't worry. 40 00:03:49,132 --> 00:03:51,777 You focus on you, alright? 41 00:03:51,801 --> 00:03:54,614 And do everything that Dr. Pierce says, alright? 42 00:03:54,638 --> 00:03:56,949 Okay, I love you. 43 00:04:01,611 --> 00:04:03,923 And when did you first start to feel the pain? 44 00:04:03,947 --> 00:04:05,424 Uh, a few nights ago. 45 00:04:05,448 --> 00:04:08,161 I was watching these cat videos online when... 46 00:04:08,185 --> 00:04:09,662 For God's sake, what happened? 47 00:04:09,686 --> 00:04:11,297 The boys are fine. 48 00:04:11,321 --> 00:04:12,632 A little worried. 49 00:04:12,656 --> 00:04:14,400 - I told them you'd call. - They called me. 50 00:04:14,424 --> 00:04:15,468 They thought I might be interested to know 51 00:04:15,492 --> 00:04:16,903 that their aunt left in an ambulance. 52 00:04:16,927 --> 00:04:18,971 She has a history of acid reflux and lives with MS. 53 00:04:18,995 --> 00:04:20,306 Right, yes. She told me. 54 00:04:20,330 --> 00:04:23,476 Irene, are you on any medications other than steroids? 55 00:04:23,500 --> 00:04:24,977 And those damn teas. 56 00:04:25,001 --> 00:04:26,846 She has an infantile resistance to Western medicine. 57 00:04:26,870 --> 00:04:29,682 She's had a catastrophic family experience 58 00:04:29,706 --> 00:04:31,517 with Western medicine. 59 00:04:31,541 --> 00:04:34,187 Okay, it... it... it looks to me like it's kidney stones, 60 00:04:34,211 --> 00:04:35,621 but I'd like to get a CT just to... 61 00:04:35,645 --> 00:04:36,956 Then what are you waiting for? Let's go. 62 00:04:36,980 --> 00:04:38,758 I'm waiting for you to let me finish a single sentence, 63 00:04:38,782 --> 00:04:40,927 but I'll give up on that now. 64 00:04:40,951 --> 00:04:43,017 Life of the party, isn't he? 65 00:04:45,288 --> 00:04:47,833 I appreciate everyone pulling extra shifts. 66 00:04:47,857 --> 00:04:49,502 Bailey does, too. 67 00:04:49,526 --> 00:04:51,337 Uh, she'll be back in a few days. 68 00:04:51,361 --> 00:04:53,839 Thank you, Dr. Ndugu, for pitching in where needed. 69 00:04:53,863 --> 00:04:56,676 Boston's hit another surge, so we need to let him get back. 70 00:04:56,700 --> 00:04:58,511 - How's Meredith? - Her vital signs are stable. 71 00:04:58,535 --> 00:04:59,712 Her morning labs were good. 72 00:04:59,736 --> 00:05:01,814 Oxygen requirements are decreasing. 73 00:05:01,838 --> 00:05:03,115 Enough to take her off the vent? 74 00:05:03,139 --> 00:05:04,517 Let's see if the trend continues. 75 00:05:04,541 --> 00:05:06,686 Well, let's hope it does, and not just for her sake. 76 00:05:06,710 --> 00:05:08,421 As of 5:00 this morning, 77 00:05:08,445 --> 00:05:11,524 we are down to our last four available ventilators. 78 00:05:11,548 --> 00:05:15,027 So, until relief arrives, I need us all to think creatively. 79 00:05:15,051 --> 00:05:17,029 Ventilators are our last resort. 80 00:05:17,053 --> 00:05:20,700 Put them on BiPAP, the hyperbaric chamber, uh, proning. 81 00:05:20,724 --> 00:05:23,536 Let's exhaust all options first. 82 00:05:23,560 --> 00:05:25,037 So, if you extubate Meredith 83 00:05:25,061 --> 00:05:26,672 and she starts to trend downward again, 84 00:05:26,696 --> 00:05:28,975 we may not have another one available. 85 00:05:28,999 --> 00:05:30,843 So let's not make the call to pull her off 86 00:05:30,867 --> 00:05:33,942 until we are 100% certain. 87 00:05:34,571 --> 00:05:41,571 Synced & corrected by -robtor- www.addic7ed.com 88 00:05:43,099 --> 00:05:46,805 It's so beautiful. 89 00:05:46,830 --> 00:05:48,137 I love it here. 90 00:05:48,161 --> 00:05:49,172 Me, too. 91 00:05:50,330 --> 00:05:51,808 Are you gonna stay? 92 00:05:51,832 --> 00:05:53,142 I don't know. 93 00:05:53,166 --> 00:05:54,811 I don't know the rules. 94 00:05:54,835 --> 00:05:56,479 I don't think there are rules, 95 00:05:56,503 --> 00:05:58,481 which is, um... 96 00:05:58,505 --> 00:06:00,983 well, it takes some getting used to. 97 00:06:01,007 --> 00:06:02,819 I was big on rules. 98 00:06:02,843 --> 00:06:04,454 I actually, like... 99 00:06:04,478 --> 00:06:07,123 I think I loved rules. 100 00:06:07,147 --> 00:06:08,825 You totally did. 101 00:06:13,366 --> 00:06:14,831 Mark! 102 00:06:17,657 --> 00:06:18,901 You're early, killer. 103 00:06:20,327 --> 00:06:21,337 What? 104 00:06:21,361 --> 00:06:22,338 Too early. 105 00:06:23,663 --> 00:06:25,675 Your oldest is Sofia's age? 106 00:06:25,699 --> 00:06:27,677 I promise you, it's too early. 107 00:06:27,701 --> 00:06:29,512 I don't know how to get back. 108 00:06:29,536 --> 00:06:31,814 I keep seeing Derek, and he won't help me get back 109 00:06:31,838 --> 00:06:33,149 or come close enough to touch. 110 00:06:33,173 --> 00:06:35,651 It's not up to him. It's up to you. 111 00:06:35,675 --> 00:06:37,320 What do you mean? 112 00:06:37,344 --> 00:06:40,156 The sand isn't real, Meredith. 113 00:06:40,180 --> 00:06:42,759 I wish everybody would stop saying that to me. 114 00:06:45,967 --> 00:06:48,426 ? Rain, rain, go away 115 00:06:48,450 --> 00:06:50,933 ? Come again another day 116 00:06:50,957 --> 00:06:52,735 So, you two are together? 117 00:06:52,759 --> 00:06:54,036 ? Rain, rain, go away 118 00:06:54,060 --> 00:06:56,038 On your beach? Looks like we are. 119 00:07:03,370 --> 00:07:04,614 Ah! 120 00:07:04,638 --> 00:07:07,049 ? Come what may come my way 121 00:07:08,141 --> 00:07:09,585 Stop it! 122 00:07:10,877 --> 00:07:12,989 - Get away! Run away! Quick, quick! - Whoo! 123 00:07:13,013 --> 00:07:14,056 Yes! 124 00:07:14,080 --> 00:07:16,292 Yes! 125 00:07:16,316 --> 00:07:17,427 I like it here. 126 00:07:26,870 --> 00:07:28,571 Alive and well. Sorry to disappoint. 127 00:07:30,230 --> 00:07:31,541 - You heard about the vents? - I did. 128 00:07:31,565 --> 00:07:33,263 So you know if we pull Grey's tube 129 00:07:33,287 --> 00:07:34,435 too soon, we don't have... 130 00:07:34,467 --> 00:07:35,586 I heard about the vents, Tom. 131 00:07:35,610 --> 00:07:36,646 ...to Nuclear Medicine. 132 00:07:36,670 --> 00:07:39,415 Dr. Sellers to Nuclear Medicine. 133 00:07:42,108 --> 00:07:44,420 - Hi! - Hey. 134 00:07:44,444 --> 00:07:45,888 - Leo threw up on the way over here. - Oh, no! 135 00:07:45,912 --> 00:07:47,223 Do you have a shirt that I can borrow? 136 00:07:47,247 --> 00:07:48,558 - Yeah, come on in. - Thank you. 137 00:07:48,582 --> 00:07:51,227 - Okay. - Okay. 138 00:07:51,251 --> 00:07:53,095 Hey, Leo, come this way with me. 139 00:07:53,119 --> 00:07:54,964 Here, let me take off this jacket. 140 00:07:54,988 --> 00:07:57,133 Let me just sit down for a sec. 141 00:07:57,157 --> 00:07:58,634 - Yeah, he gets carsick. - Okay. 142 00:07:58,658 --> 00:08:02,305 He once puked on my op notes for a glioblastoma. 143 00:08:02,329 --> 00:08:04,307 You know, Ellis really wants to show you 144 00:08:04,331 --> 00:08:05,808 what she's working on in the playroom. 145 00:08:05,832 --> 00:08:08,144 Do you want to go see her? She's right there. Look. 146 00:08:08,168 --> 00:08:10,480 Go say hi. Okay, bye-bye. 147 00:08:10,504 --> 00:08:11,814 If you had told me two years ago 148 00:08:11,838 --> 00:08:13,649 that you and I would be excited 149 00:08:13,673 --> 00:08:16,486 to spend the afternoon together with six small children... 150 00:08:16,510 --> 00:08:18,988 I know that Owen asked you to babysit me. 151 00:08:19,012 --> 00:08:21,234 You don't have to put on a show. 152 00:08:21,848 --> 00:08:23,826 Both things can be true. 153 00:08:23,850 --> 00:08:24,994 I need company. 154 00:08:25,018 --> 00:08:27,597 We can have tea and discuss life pre-pandemic, 155 00:08:27,621 --> 00:08:30,466 and we don't have to be covered in puke alone for an afternoon. 156 00:08:30,490 --> 00:08:31,868 It's great. 157 00:08:34,393 --> 00:08:36,372 I just told Liam and Austin not to worry. 158 00:08:36,396 --> 00:08:38,040 Please tell me I wasn't lying. 159 00:08:38,064 --> 00:08:40,009 You know it's probably minor, right? 160 00:08:40,033 --> 00:08:41,410 It's not that. 161 00:08:41,434 --> 00:08:42,912 I mean, it is that, but... 162 00:08:42,936 --> 00:08:45,248 Irene insisted on moving down here when the pandemic started, 163 00:08:45,272 --> 00:08:46,282 and we drive each other mad. 164 00:08:46,306 --> 00:08:47,783 We do. 165 00:08:47,807 --> 00:08:49,552 But I'd be lost without her. 166 00:08:49,576 --> 00:08:51,431 You're trying to make me cry. 167 00:08:52,599 --> 00:08:54,290 Don't go getting a big head in there, now. 168 00:08:54,314 --> 00:08:55,291 Hm. 169 00:08:58,151 --> 00:09:00,229 Kidney stone, like I thought. 170 00:09:00,253 --> 00:09:01,898 In the right ureter. 171 00:09:01,922 --> 00:09:05,401 It's big, so we should get urology to weigh in. 172 00:09:05,425 --> 00:09:06,903 Is Catherine Fox here today? 173 00:09:06,927 --> 00:09:07,970 For a kidney stone? 174 00:09:07,994 --> 00:09:09,405 My boys already lost their mother. 175 00:09:09,429 --> 00:09:11,574 Irene's her sister and the only family they have left. 176 00:09:11,598 --> 00:09:13,943 So, yes, I want the best. 177 00:09:15,602 --> 00:09:18,047 Nurse Hydren to the OR. Nurse Hydren to the OR. 178 00:09:18,071 --> 00:09:19,382 Well, there he is. 179 00:09:19,406 --> 00:09:20,716 This is happening? 180 00:09:20,740 --> 00:09:21,884 It is definitely happening. 181 00:09:21,908 --> 00:09:23,252 I hope this wasn't a bad time. 182 00:09:23,276 --> 00:09:25,087 I abandoned a play date, and I need a calendar 183 00:09:25,111 --> 00:09:26,756 to remember the last time I operated. 184 00:09:26,780 --> 00:09:28,925 So, definitely not a bad time. 185 00:09:28,949 --> 00:09:30,760 How severe is it? 186 00:09:30,784 --> 00:09:32,555 See for yourself. 187 00:09:32,953 --> 00:09:34,819 Crosswalks, am I right? 188 00:09:36,388 --> 00:09:37,967 Okay, folks, let's get the OR ready 189 00:09:37,991 --> 00:09:39,702 with the ex-fix set and the C-arm. 190 00:09:39,726 --> 00:09:41,704 - Let's fix this bad boy. - Mm. 191 00:09:41,728 --> 00:09:43,039 And, Dr. Webber? 192 00:09:43,063 --> 00:09:44,874 Thank you so much. 193 00:09:48,401 --> 00:09:49,879 Sorry to keep paging you, Dr. Pierce, 194 00:09:49,903 --> 00:09:52,048 but her breathing is becoming more labored by the hour. 195 00:09:52,072 --> 00:09:56,218 Let's consider BiPAP if she continues to decompensate. 196 00:09:56,242 --> 00:09:57,887 But it may be time to consider next steps. 197 00:09:57,911 --> 00:09:59,555 There's no directive. 198 00:09:59,579 --> 00:10:01,891 Marcella says that her daughter 199 00:10:01,915 --> 00:10:03,712 will be making all decisions for her. 200 00:10:04,587 --> 00:10:06,228 Then... 201 00:10:06,252 --> 00:10:08,049 it's time to call her. 202 00:10:14,460 --> 00:10:16,939 Hi. Who's calling? 203 00:10:16,963 --> 00:10:18,329 Jackson? 204 00:10:19,465 --> 00:10:21,444 Maggie, over here. 205 00:10:21,468 --> 00:10:23,379 Rig brought her in about half an hour ago. 206 00:10:23,403 --> 00:10:24,380 Hey, Dr. Pierce. 207 00:10:32,781 --> 00:10:34,728 Dr. Fox, thank for coming in. 208 00:10:34,752 --> 00:10:37,313 I know how busy you must be, so I appreciate you being here. 209 00:10:37,338 --> 00:10:39,816 I told you not to give me special treatment. 210 00:10:39,840 --> 00:10:41,535 Did you pull strings? 211 00:10:41,709 --> 00:10:42,886 He pulled the biggest one. 212 00:10:42,910 --> 00:10:44,221 I sign his checks. 213 00:10:44,245 --> 00:10:45,522 Dr. Wilson? 214 00:10:45,546 --> 00:10:49,192 Irene Davis, 35, nephrolithiasis with a history of MS. 215 00:10:49,216 --> 00:10:52,863 - These are her scans and a CT. - Mm. Mm-hmm. 216 00:10:52,887 --> 00:10:54,865 They say it's kidney stones. 217 00:10:54,889 --> 00:10:56,533 Which is apparently my fault. 218 00:10:56,557 --> 00:10:58,034 I did not say that. 219 00:10:58,058 --> 00:11:00,537 She gets some very strong teas from her acupuncturist 220 00:11:00,561 --> 00:11:02,038 to help manage her MS pain. 221 00:11:02,062 --> 00:11:04,307 You got to drink a lot of water to flush those out. 222 00:11:04,331 --> 00:11:05,675 - Which she knows. - Which she usually does. 223 00:11:05,699 --> 00:11:08,678 So, this stone is apparently lodged in your ureter. 224 00:11:08,702 --> 00:11:10,847 That's the tube between your kidney and your bladder. 225 00:11:10,871 --> 00:11:13,016 I'm going to have to perform a lithotripsy... 226 00:11:13,040 --> 00:11:15,519 That's a procedure with a tiny, tiny laser 227 00:11:15,543 --> 00:11:17,721 that breaks it down into smaller pieces. 228 00:11:17,745 --> 00:11:19,389 Broken into pieces? 229 00:11:19,413 --> 00:11:20,857 That's what killed my sister. 230 00:11:20,881 --> 00:11:23,193 No, this is nothing like the morcellator, Irene. 231 00:11:23,217 --> 00:11:25,429 If it was, I wouldn't let it anywhere near you. 232 00:11:25,453 --> 00:11:27,764 - So it's safe? - Completely routine. 233 00:11:27,788 --> 00:11:29,933 Takes about 45 minutes, in typical cases. 234 00:11:29,957 --> 00:11:32,241 I have MS. Am I still a typical case? 235 00:11:32,265 --> 00:11:33,394 No. 236 00:11:33,418 --> 00:11:35,929 Because you have me for your doctor. 237 00:11:36,630 --> 00:11:38,640 See you in the OR. 238 00:11:39,900 --> 00:11:41,578 Another screw, please. 239 00:11:41,602 --> 00:11:43,079 Everything okay? 240 00:11:43,103 --> 00:11:44,581 - Yes. - Mm-hmm. 241 00:11:44,605 --> 00:11:47,717 - I just wanted to enjoy the moment. - Mm-hmm. 242 00:11:47,741 --> 00:11:49,252 Lord knows when it'll happen again. 243 00:11:49,276 --> 00:11:50,754 After this, we'll secure the frame. 244 00:11:50,778 --> 00:11:52,923 You'd never know you didn't do three of these this morning. 245 00:11:52,947 --> 00:11:54,424 Well, I didn't. 246 00:11:54,448 --> 00:11:56,092 But I did change three diapers. 247 00:11:56,116 --> 00:11:57,726 One was what Amelia has dubbed 248 00:11:57,750 --> 00:11:59,729 the "poo-tastrophe." 249 00:11:59,753 --> 00:12:02,065 That's when the poo actually kind of explodes 250 00:12:02,089 --> 00:12:03,834 out of the diaper and hits the wall. 251 00:12:05,893 --> 00:12:08,872 Got it. That is impolite adult conversation. 252 00:12:08,896 --> 00:12:10,941 - Sorry, I rarely get to talk to adults. - Mm. 253 00:12:12,117 --> 00:12:13,276 Wait. What happened? 254 00:12:13,300 --> 00:12:15,345 Heart rate's in the 120s and his sats are dropping. 255 00:12:15,369 --> 00:12:17,214 - He could have thrown a fat embolism. - Oh, come on! 256 00:12:17,238 --> 00:12:18,348 A-Alright, push fluids, 257 00:12:18,372 --> 00:12:20,050 and let's get him packed up for a CTA. 258 00:12:22,176 --> 00:12:24,352 Did you call your mom? 259 00:12:24,845 --> 00:12:28,158 I did, and she was at a grocery store, 260 00:12:28,182 --> 00:12:29,526 which I have asked her not to go to 261 00:12:29,550 --> 00:12:30,861 at least a hundred times. 262 00:12:30,885 --> 00:12:32,229 She's stubborn, like you. 263 00:12:33,254 --> 00:12:34,631 Marcella? 264 00:12:36,957 --> 00:12:39,936 Marcella, Veronica's just been admitted to the hospital. 265 00:12:39,960 --> 00:12:42,071 No. No. 266 00:12:42,096 --> 00:12:43,406 She was mild. 267 00:12:43,430 --> 00:12:44,908 I know. 268 00:12:44,932 --> 00:12:47,744 But her symptoms became more pronounced. 269 00:12:47,768 --> 00:12:51,336 Use your time with her, not me. 270 00:12:53,373 --> 00:12:54,885 Marcella, you need care, too. 271 00:12:54,909 --> 00:12:57,187 I don't care about me! 272 00:12:57,211 --> 00:12:58,755 Save my baby girl! 273 00:13:02,883 --> 00:13:04,327 Okay. Come on. 274 00:13:07,588 --> 00:13:10,467 But my mom's still alive. 275 00:13:10,491 --> 00:13:12,869 She is, but she isn't improving. 276 00:13:12,893 --> 00:13:15,305 Veronica, we need to know whether your mom would want 277 00:13:15,329 --> 00:13:17,474 - a machine to breathe for her if she... - No, no. She wants to live. 278 00:13:17,498 --> 00:13:19,309 So instead of scaring the hell out of me, 279 00:13:19,333 --> 00:13:21,311 can you go and concentrate on that? 280 00:13:21,335 --> 00:13:23,947 Do whatever you can to save her. 281 00:13:23,971 --> 00:13:26,049 Maybe now's not the best time, Maggie. 282 00:13:26,073 --> 00:13:28,051 It may be the only time. 283 00:13:28,075 --> 00:13:29,719 This is my fault. 284 00:13:29,743 --> 00:13:31,555 I'm so sorry. 285 00:13:31,579 --> 00:13:33,089 I'm so, so sorry. 286 00:13:35,683 --> 00:13:37,327 Her sats are in the 80s. I'm gonna increase the O2. 287 00:13:37,351 --> 00:13:38,995 This is my fault. 288 00:13:39,019 --> 00:13:40,330 All of this. 289 00:13:41,689 --> 00:13:44,701 I-It was her birthday, and... 290 00:13:44,725 --> 00:13:46,369 and she'd... 291 00:13:46,393 --> 00:13:49,039 She'd been alone so long, 292 00:13:49,063 --> 00:13:53,209 so I went over to her house to... to cook for her. 293 00:13:53,233 --> 00:13:55,812 We wore masks and we ate outside 294 00:13:55,836 --> 00:13:59,649 and w-we... we tried to stay distanced, 295 00:13:59,673 --> 00:14:02,319 but it was her birthday, and she's my mom, 296 00:14:02,343 --> 00:14:04,321 so I gave her a hug. 297 00:14:04,345 --> 00:14:06,756 I just gave her one hug. 298 00:14:06,780 --> 00:14:10,148 And I might have killed her. 299 00:14:11,284 --> 00:14:13,830 I killed my mom. 300 00:14:13,854 --> 00:14:15,165 No, no, no, no. Listen to me. 301 00:14:15,189 --> 00:14:17,000 Listen to me. 302 00:14:17,024 --> 00:14:19,502 This is not your fault, okay? 303 00:14:19,526 --> 00:14:22,839 And I promise you, your mom will never regret that hug. 304 00:14:22,863 --> 00:14:24,441 Never. 305 00:14:24,465 --> 00:14:26,309 Okay? 306 00:14:26,333 --> 00:14:28,712 And, listen, my daughter's a doctor here, too. 307 00:14:28,736 --> 00:14:30,280 And she's with your mom right now, 308 00:14:30,304 --> 00:14:32,649 and she's taking care of her, okay? 309 00:14:32,673 --> 00:14:34,584 It's okay. 310 00:14:35,676 --> 00:14:37,554 It's okay. 311 00:14:37,578 --> 00:14:40,557 Down that hallway is PACU. 312 00:14:40,581 --> 00:14:42,726 That's recovery. 313 00:14:42,750 --> 00:14:44,394 This is a supply closet. 314 00:14:44,418 --> 00:14:47,430 - Nice. - Here we have someone's office. 315 00:14:47,454 --> 00:14:49,599 You're an incredible tour guide. 316 00:14:49,623 --> 00:14:51,768 Well, not much to see in a pandemic. 317 00:14:51,792 --> 00:14:54,337 Is she here today, or are you keeping me from her? 318 00:14:54,361 --> 00:14:56,172 - She? Who's she? - Come on, Mac. 319 00:14:56,196 --> 00:14:57,674 The boys tell me everything. 320 00:14:57,698 --> 00:15:00,010 Said you've been talking about somebody that you work with, 321 00:15:00,034 --> 00:15:01,344 a general surgeon? 322 00:15:01,368 --> 00:15:03,213 I work with several general surgeons. 323 00:15:03,237 --> 00:15:04,381 Oh, okay. 324 00:15:04,405 --> 00:15:06,549 Do you smile when you talk about all of them? 325 00:15:07,574 --> 00:15:09,141 I'd like to meet her. 326 00:15:11,577 --> 00:15:13,223 Yeah, well, you can't. 327 00:15:13,247 --> 00:15:14,605 Why? 328 00:15:14,915 --> 00:15:17,608 'Cause she's on a breathing tube in the ICU. 329 00:15:18,419 --> 00:15:19,996 Mac... 330 00:15:20,020 --> 00:15:21,386 again? 331 00:15:24,457 --> 00:15:26,102 I'll, uh... 332 00:15:26,126 --> 00:15:27,937 check in on you after the procedure. 333 00:15:27,961 --> 00:15:29,673 Yeah, okay. 334 00:15:38,939 --> 00:15:41,584 Well, he's stable, 335 00:15:41,608 --> 00:15:43,253 but with that large of an embolism, 336 00:15:43,277 --> 00:15:44,554 he's gonna have to stay on the vent 337 00:15:44,578 --> 00:15:46,137 for at least a few days. 338 00:15:46,580 --> 00:15:48,914 This never should have happened! 339 00:15:49,916 --> 00:15:51,227 I know I'm a little rusty, 340 00:15:51,251 --> 00:15:52,729 and I probably shouldn't have been talking 341 00:15:52,753 --> 00:15:53,897 about exploding diapers, but... 342 00:15:53,921 --> 00:15:56,733 No, I am not angry at you, Lincoln. 343 00:15:56,757 --> 00:15:58,735 This was a... a complication. 344 00:15:58,759 --> 00:16:00,070 I mean, there's nothing 345 00:16:00,094 --> 00:16:01,471 you could or should have done better. 346 00:16:01,495 --> 00:16:04,941 I'm just angry with this whole situation! 347 00:16:04,965 --> 00:16:06,443 I mean, saving this young man's life 348 00:16:06,467 --> 00:16:08,712 means we're down to one available vent! 349 00:16:08,736 --> 00:16:11,548 Which now means I have to close the doors to our trauma! 350 00:16:11,572 --> 00:16:14,806 Which means people will die unnecessarily! 351 00:16:15,742 --> 00:16:17,887 Even more people will die. 352 00:16:21,915 --> 00:16:24,027 We're closing to trauma? 353 00:16:24,051 --> 00:16:25,462 Looks like it. 354 00:16:39,655 --> 00:16:41,633 ? _ 355 00:16:42,791 --> 00:16:44,702 ? _ 356 00:16:44,726 --> 00:16:46,738 Okay. 357 00:16:46,762 --> 00:16:48,039 Cristina. 358 00:16:48,063 --> 00:16:50,842 ? _ 359 00:16:54,036 --> 00:16:55,380 ? _ 360 00:17:12,454 --> 00:17:13,933 This is nice... 361 00:17:15,023 --> 00:17:17,268 just being able to talk to you. 362 00:17:17,292 --> 00:17:18,601 What do you mean? 363 00:17:18,625 --> 00:17:21,706 Well, I spend a fair amount of time 364 00:17:21,730 --> 00:17:23,541 trying to talk to people. 365 00:17:23,565 --> 00:17:26,377 Sofia, Callie, Arizona. 366 00:17:26,401 --> 00:17:28,546 I try to warn them sometimes. 367 00:17:28,570 --> 00:17:30,048 Warn them about what? 368 00:17:30,072 --> 00:17:31,742 I can't let go. 369 00:17:33,075 --> 00:17:35,204 When you have a little kid like that... 370 00:17:35,744 --> 00:17:37,623 hard to let go. 371 00:17:38,747 --> 00:17:42,727 So I hang out, watch her grow up. 372 00:17:42,751 --> 00:17:44,595 Sometimes I see something coming. 373 00:17:44,619 --> 00:17:46,757 - Like the divorce? - Yep. 374 00:17:47,207 --> 00:17:49,334 I stand beside them. I yell in their ears, "Wake up!" 375 00:17:50,459 --> 00:17:53,504 "Wake up! You're missing it! 376 00:17:53,528 --> 00:17:55,840 You're missing the best part of life!" 377 00:17:55,864 --> 00:17:58,231 When you love someone, you tell them. 378 00:18:00,621 --> 00:18:03,690 And then w-what do they do when you yell in their ears? 379 00:18:03,715 --> 00:18:05,815 Well, sometimes they listen. Sometimes they hear me. 380 00:18:05,840 --> 00:18:08,063 I never get the credit, though. 381 00:18:08,088 --> 00:18:10,088 They think it's their own idea. 382 00:18:23,930 --> 00:18:25,832 She looks so much like you. 383 00:18:26,690 --> 00:18:27,855 Ellis? 384 00:18:27,880 --> 00:18:29,493 Everybody says she looks like Meredith. 385 00:18:29,551 --> 00:18:33,711 Yeah, she does, but also weirdly just like you. 386 00:18:33,735 --> 00:18:35,602 You really are sisters. 387 00:18:37,811 --> 00:18:39,145 I'm not gonna ask. 388 00:18:39,170 --> 00:18:41,337 You can. I just... I don't know anything. 389 00:18:41,362 --> 00:18:43,528 And Richard won't even let me near the hospital 390 00:18:43,578 --> 00:18:44,655 or any of the charts. 391 00:18:44,679 --> 00:18:46,654 Well, that's because you need a break, 392 00:18:46,678 --> 00:18:48,823 not because you did anything wrong. 393 00:18:48,847 --> 00:18:50,825 DeLuca was not your fault. 394 00:18:50,849 --> 00:18:52,660 We all lost him. 395 00:18:52,684 --> 00:18:53,995 That grief belongs to all of us, 396 00:18:54,019 --> 00:18:55,785 and it might... 397 00:18:56,688 --> 00:18:59,834 be easier if you learn to share that. 398 00:19:03,528 --> 00:19:06,507 Is there a recovery program for people who trash their lives 399 00:19:06,531 --> 00:19:08,977 and can't blame drugs, so that I can get some of that 400 00:19:09,001 --> 00:19:11,179 sweet program zen master stuff you have? 401 00:19:13,405 --> 00:19:14,716 You don't have to be an addict... 402 00:19:14,740 --> 00:19:16,347 It's called therapy. 403 00:19:17,109 --> 00:19:18,419 Hmm. 404 00:19:18,443 --> 00:19:20,255 How many sessions until Owen feels safe 405 00:19:20,279 --> 00:19:22,311 to leave me alone with the kids? 406 00:19:22,948 --> 00:19:25,827 I tried therapy. It makes me uncomfortable. 407 00:19:25,851 --> 00:19:27,328 Mammograms make us uncomfortable, 408 00:19:27,352 --> 00:19:28,985 but we still get them. 409 00:19:29,855 --> 00:19:32,834 Yeah, the man stared at me and nodded 410 00:19:32,858 --> 00:19:34,669 and grunted on every fourth word. 411 00:19:34,693 --> 00:19:36,337 I counted the grunts. 412 00:19:36,361 --> 00:19:38,840 It was an... an expensive kind of torture. 413 00:19:38,864 --> 00:19:41,342 So, when the first therapist you tried 414 00:19:41,366 --> 00:19:44,679 was clearly the wrong fit, did you... 415 00:19:44,703 --> 00:19:45,960 try another one? 416 00:19:46,538 --> 00:19:47,849 You know I was just being nice 417 00:19:47,873 --> 00:19:49,317 when I said Ellis looked like you. 418 00:19:49,341 --> 00:19:51,119 Now we're both right side up. 419 00:19:53,811 --> 00:19:55,790 How'd the mom take it? 420 00:19:55,814 --> 00:19:57,792 How do you think? 421 00:19:57,816 --> 00:19:59,794 Is it just me, or did this job used to be fun? 422 00:19:59,818 --> 00:20:02,897 Like, not even 10 years ago. Like, very recently, fun. 423 00:20:02,921 --> 00:20:06,089 This used to be the greatest job in the world. 424 00:20:07,091 --> 00:20:09,070 Please tell me Veronica's okay. 425 00:20:09,094 --> 00:20:11,539 Well, I'd hoped with oxygen therapy and antivirals, 426 00:20:11,563 --> 00:20:13,141 we'd see a better response, but... 427 00:20:14,333 --> 00:20:16,177 ...that hasn't been the case. 428 00:20:16,201 --> 00:20:17,745 Crap. 429 00:20:17,769 --> 00:20:19,113 - I need you to get back in bed. - Take me back. Take me back. 430 00:20:19,137 --> 00:20:20,114 - I know, baby. I know. - Ortiz, what the hell? 431 00:20:20,138 --> 00:20:21,616 - Sweetheart. - No, no, no, no. 432 00:20:21,640 --> 00:20:22,817 I found her halfway to the elevator, almost collapsed. 433 00:20:22,841 --> 00:20:23,985 - Let's get you back in bed. - I need to... 434 00:20:24,009 --> 00:20:25,186 - Alright. - I need to see my mom, please. 435 00:20:25,210 --> 00:20:26,321 - Shh, shh, shh, shh, shh. - Okay. 436 00:20:26,345 --> 00:20:27,388 - Please, I need to see my mom. - Okay. 437 00:20:27,412 --> 00:20:28,790 We want to get you feeling better first, 438 00:20:28,814 --> 00:20:30,458 then we can talk about visitation, okay? 439 00:20:30,482 --> 00:20:33,294 No, no. Everyone here is dying, 440 00:20:33,318 --> 00:20:35,963 and you guys have no clue how to save us, 441 00:20:35,987 --> 00:20:38,966 so at least let me see my mom. 442 00:20:38,990 --> 00:20:40,568 Let me say goodbye. 443 00:20:40,592 --> 00:20:41,803 Before... 444 00:20:41,827 --> 00:20:43,137 Veronica. 445 00:20:43,161 --> 00:20:44,138 Veronica? Hey! 446 00:20:44,162 --> 00:20:45,807 - Blood pressure's tanking. - Veronica? 447 00:20:45,831 --> 00:20:46,974 I've got no pulse. 448 00:20:46,998 --> 00:20:48,543 Alright, get me epi and a crash cart in here, now! 449 00:20:48,567 --> 00:20:49,644 Okay. 450 00:20:49,668 --> 00:20:50,978 I want to start compressions right away. 451 00:20:51,002 --> 00:20:52,647 Okay, go, go, go. 452 00:20:55,006 --> 00:20:56,017 Come on, Veronica. 453 00:20:56,041 --> 00:20:57,741 - Come on, Veronica. - Here we go. 454 00:21:00,044 --> 00:21:01,856 You're doing great, Marcella. 455 00:21:01,880 --> 00:21:03,580 Stay positive. 456 00:21:05,716 --> 00:21:08,751 If you can make it to Friday without needing a vent... 457 00:21:10,055 --> 00:21:12,033 you're on your way. 458 00:21:12,057 --> 00:21:14,202 You know, we're, um... 459 00:21:14,226 --> 00:21:16,842 We're almost there, because it's... 460 00:21:17,529 --> 00:21:19,607 ? Hump Day ? 461 00:21:19,631 --> 00:21:21,275 ? What do you say? ? 462 00:21:21,299 --> 00:21:24,278 ? You look at the week and you say, "Half way!" ? 463 00:21:24,302 --> 00:21:26,114 ? Half what? Half way ? 464 00:21:26,138 --> 00:21:28,116 ? That's 'cause it's Hump Day ? 465 00:21:28,140 --> 00:21:31,119 ? The next thing you know, it's gonna be Friday ? 466 00:21:32,477 --> 00:21:33,921 My mom gives me that exact same look 467 00:21:33,945 --> 00:21:35,123 every time I do that rap. 468 00:21:35,147 --> 00:21:38,459 Mnh-mnh. No, no, that is not rap. 469 00:21:40,685 --> 00:21:41,996 Oh, God. She's decompensating. 470 00:21:42,020 --> 00:21:43,664 I need a crash cart in here, now! 471 00:21:43,688 --> 00:21:45,333 And someone page Dr. Pierce! 472 00:21:45,357 --> 00:21:47,001 What? Are you sure you don't want to wait until the... 473 00:21:47,025 --> 00:21:49,103 No! Her saturation levels are plummeting and... 474 00:21:49,127 --> 00:21:51,205 Code Blue. Code Blue. 475 00:21:51,229 --> 00:21:53,207 Oxygenate patient. 476 00:21:53,231 --> 00:21:56,811 Uh, prep induction and paralytic agent. 477 00:21:56,835 --> 00:21:59,313 Uh, ch-check, uh, pa... patent cuff. 478 00:21:59,337 --> 00:22:00,715 Tube ready? 479 00:22:00,739 --> 00:22:02,550 Code Blue. Code Blue. 480 00:22:21,927 --> 00:22:24,105 You're in. 481 00:22:25,363 --> 00:22:26,340 No. No! 482 00:22:28,200 --> 00:22:29,510 Schmitt, what did you do? 483 00:22:29,534 --> 00:22:31,312 She was desaturating. I had no choice. 484 00:22:31,336 --> 00:22:33,915 Now, can we please get a ventilator in here? 485 00:22:35,507 --> 00:22:37,298 Oh, my God. 486 00:22:38,009 --> 00:22:40,210 There isn't one. 487 00:22:44,165 --> 00:22:47,259 For fast Removing the last pieces of stone. 488 00:22:47,283 --> 00:22:48,399 Stent? 489 00:22:48,423 --> 00:22:51,739 Stent's gonna stay in place to ensure proper drainage. 490 00:22:51,763 --> 00:22:53,908 You know, you have a really good touch, Wilson. 491 00:22:53,932 --> 00:22:56,578 We don't have nearly enough women in urology. 492 00:22:56,602 --> 00:22:59,914 Have you ever considered changing specialties? 493 00:22:59,938 --> 00:23:02,584 Change specialties? 494 00:23:02,608 --> 00:23:04,919 That would be just... No. 495 00:23:04,943 --> 00:23:06,254 I... No. 496 00:23:06,278 --> 00:23:09,090 Uh, n-no. No. 497 00:23:09,114 --> 00:23:10,831 Mm. 498 00:23:11,450 --> 00:23:14,484 Okay, all done here. Removing the scope. 499 00:23:16,087 --> 00:23:18,566 Oh, my God. Is that...? 500 00:23:18,590 --> 00:23:20,735 I have never seen this before, 501 00:23:20,759 --> 00:23:22,570 only read about it in a textbook. 502 00:23:22,594 --> 00:23:24,472 This is the patient's ureter. 503 00:23:24,496 --> 00:23:26,240 Her tissues are so friable, 504 00:23:26,264 --> 00:23:27,909 the scope pulled the whole damn thing out. 505 00:23:27,933 --> 00:23:29,344 We're gonna have to open her up. 506 00:23:29,368 --> 00:23:31,012 Prepare an ex lap! 507 00:23:35,874 --> 00:23:38,519 Veronica's X-rays show worsening consolidations. 508 00:23:38,543 --> 00:23:39,554 I put her on BiPAP. 509 00:23:39,578 --> 00:23:40,755 Her oxygen levels keep decreasing. 510 00:23:40,779 --> 00:23:42,523 She needs this vent. She needs to be in ICU. 511 00:23:42,547 --> 00:23:44,192 Marcella is already intubated. 512 00:23:44,216 --> 00:23:45,660 Schmitt can't bag her forever. 513 00:23:45,684 --> 00:23:46,661 Well... 514 00:23:46,685 --> 00:23:47,829 Save the daughter. 515 00:23:47,853 --> 00:23:49,864 Protocols say you have to save the patient 516 00:23:49,888 --> 00:23:51,366 most likely to recover. 517 00:23:51,390 --> 00:23:53,374 - We know. - Yeah, we know. 518 00:23:53,892 --> 00:23:56,204 If she wakes up and finds out we chose her over her mother, 519 00:23:56,228 --> 00:23:57,878 she's not gonna be able to forgive herself. 520 00:23:58,563 --> 00:24:01,931 Marcella's last words to me were, "Save my baby girl." 521 00:24:04,202 --> 00:24:05,880 Put Veronica on the vent. 522 00:24:05,904 --> 00:24:07,570 Before somebody else takes it. 523 00:24:11,042 --> 00:24:13,688 How in the hell does her ureter come out with a kidney stone? 524 00:24:13,712 --> 00:24:16,124 We will try to reattach it to her bladder 525 00:24:16,148 --> 00:24:18,192 without having to remove the kidney. 526 00:24:18,216 --> 00:24:21,195 Irene is everything to my boys, Wilson. 527 00:24:21,219 --> 00:24:22,697 I mean, everything. 528 00:24:22,721 --> 00:24:24,699 She's always been their aunt, but now she's their teacher, 529 00:24:24,723 --> 00:24:27,035 their football coach, their... their therapist, 530 00:24:27,059 --> 00:24:29,259 their best bloody friend. 531 00:24:33,898 --> 00:24:35,710 I-I can't believe this. 532 00:24:35,734 --> 00:24:38,046 I can't. I can't. I can't. 533 00:24:38,070 --> 00:24:40,882 I cannot do this again. 534 00:24:40,906 --> 00:24:44,152 I cannot look at my boys, who've already lost everything, 535 00:24:44,176 --> 00:24:45,653 and tell them that they've lost her, too. 536 00:24:45,677 --> 00:24:47,355 - I cannot... I cannot do that. - Okay, okay. Stop. Stop. 537 00:24:47,379 --> 00:24:49,190 This is... 538 00:24:49,214 --> 00:24:52,749 This is not a catastrophe, this is a complication. 539 00:24:55,787 --> 00:24:57,855 Then what in the hell are you still doing here? 540 00:24:58,924 --> 00:25:01,257 Get in there and bloody fix her. 541 00:25:03,861 --> 00:25:06,874 We've reached out to every hospital in Washington. 542 00:25:06,898 --> 00:25:08,376 I never imagined... 543 00:25:08,400 --> 00:25:09,677 I know. 544 00:25:11,403 --> 00:25:13,548 Schmitt, you did the right thing. 545 00:25:13,572 --> 00:25:15,772 Another vent will come. 546 00:25:17,842 --> 00:25:19,420 It has to, right? 547 00:25:41,632 --> 00:25:43,244 Have a nice lunch? 548 00:25:43,268 --> 00:25:44,934 I was updating Dr. Hayes. 549 00:25:46,237 --> 00:25:47,949 You had to take the kidney? 550 00:25:47,973 --> 00:25:49,817 The remaining piece of the ureter wasn't long enough 551 00:25:49,841 --> 00:25:51,319 to do a simple reattachment. 552 00:25:51,343 --> 00:25:52,820 But Irene has MS. 553 00:25:52,844 --> 00:25:54,455 She could have bladder issues in the future, 554 00:25:54,479 --> 00:25:55,823 which would be much more complicated 555 00:25:55,847 --> 00:25:57,625 with just one kidney. 556 00:25:57,649 --> 00:26:00,061 Why would she only have one kidney? 557 00:26:00,085 --> 00:26:02,563 - What? - I'm putting it back, Wilson! 558 00:26:02,587 --> 00:26:04,232 You're doing an auto-transplant? 559 00:26:04,256 --> 00:26:05,566 I am trying to! 560 00:26:05,590 --> 00:26:08,903 It'd be a lot easier if I had a second pair of hands. 561 00:26:08,927 --> 00:26:11,072 - Are you coming or not? - Yes. Yes. 562 00:26:11,096 --> 00:26:12,540 Irrigation. 563 00:26:14,332 --> 00:26:16,978 Child, who throws away a kidney? 564 00:26:17,002 --> 00:26:18,146 Lord. 565 00:26:20,505 --> 00:26:23,384 Dr. Sikes to Recovery. 566 00:26:23,408 --> 00:26:25,686 - Dr. Sikes to Recovery. - Thanks. 567 00:26:28,045 --> 00:26:30,458 If she keeps breathing over the vent consistently, 568 00:26:30,482 --> 00:26:32,126 we should be able to take her off it soon. 569 00:26:32,150 --> 00:26:33,983 That's good to hear. 570 00:26:35,152 --> 00:26:36,898 Be a shame if someone like me got to walk away 571 00:26:36,922 --> 00:26:38,454 while someone like her... 572 00:26:41,259 --> 00:26:42,892 I'll, uh... I'll get out of your way. 573 00:26:44,128 --> 00:26:46,062 Hey, Tom? 574 00:26:47,298 --> 00:26:49,777 When I got back from Iraq, I, uh... 575 00:26:49,801 --> 00:26:51,879 I remember thinking, 576 00:26:51,903 --> 00:26:54,304 "Why do I get to keep working? 577 00:26:54,940 --> 00:26:58,753 Why do I get to cook dinner? 578 00:26:58,777 --> 00:27:00,421 Swim in a lake? 579 00:27:00,445 --> 00:27:01,789 Fall in love?" 580 00:27:03,615 --> 00:27:05,399 It's a terrible feeling. 581 00:27:05,951 --> 00:27:08,027 I wouldn't wish it on anyone. 582 00:27:08,620 --> 00:27:10,431 Even me? 583 00:27:19,898 --> 00:27:22,009 Tell me your favorite thing. 584 00:27:22,033 --> 00:27:23,010 About what? 585 00:27:23,034 --> 00:27:25,179 About life. Life right now. 586 00:27:25,203 --> 00:27:27,148 There's a global pandemic. 587 00:27:27,172 --> 00:27:28,983 That is your favorite thing? 588 00:27:29,007 --> 00:27:31,264 No. I just meant that I don't... 589 00:27:31,343 --> 00:27:32,653 Oh, okay. 590 00:27:32,677 --> 00:27:34,455 You're saying that the pandemic... 591 00:27:34,479 --> 00:27:36,524 No, it just feels very shallow 592 00:27:36,548 --> 00:27:38,159 to talk about my favorite things 593 00:27:38,183 --> 00:27:40,328 when there's people dying in record numbers. 594 00:27:40,352 --> 00:27:41,662 Oh, yeah. Okay. Alright. 595 00:27:41,686 --> 00:27:44,198 Well, that's... That's stupid. 596 00:27:44,222 --> 00:27:46,033 Excuse me? 597 00:27:46,057 --> 00:27:49,036 You're saying that you're not allowed to enjoy your life 598 00:27:49,060 --> 00:27:51,372 because people are dying in record numbers? 599 00:27:51,396 --> 00:27:54,542 That makes exactly zero sense. 600 00:27:54,566 --> 00:27:58,346 If the having of a life and a body 601 00:27:58,370 --> 00:28:00,348 isn't cause for celebration, 602 00:28:00,372 --> 00:28:03,351 then what's the point of avoiding death? 603 00:28:03,375 --> 00:28:05,553 I mean, just... if you're not gonna enjoy it, 604 00:28:05,577 --> 00:28:07,944 then you might as well join them. 605 00:28:11,415 --> 00:28:14,729 Bailey just had a birthday and I asked him what he wanted, 606 00:28:14,753 --> 00:28:17,899 and he said a whole cake, all to himself. 607 00:28:17,923 --> 00:28:19,901 He did not want to share. 608 00:28:19,925 --> 00:28:22,570 So, of course, I got him the cake. 609 00:28:22,594 --> 00:28:25,539 And so, do you know what he did as soon as he got that cake? 610 00:28:25,563 --> 00:28:26,374 What? 611 00:28:26,398 --> 00:28:27,608 Faceplant. 612 00:28:27,632 --> 00:28:31,167 Just planted his face smack in the middle of the cake. 613 00:28:33,137 --> 00:28:37,574 And we laughed and laughed and laughed. 614 00:28:38,143 --> 00:28:40,922 It was me and Zola and Ellis 615 00:28:40,946 --> 00:28:43,758 and Maggie and Amelia and Link. 616 00:28:43,782 --> 00:28:47,395 Zola laughed so hard, she peed her pants, 617 00:28:47,419 --> 00:28:49,330 so then we had a laugh at that. 618 00:28:50,221 --> 00:28:52,166 And then as we were laughing, 619 00:28:52,190 --> 00:28:54,735 Bailey started licking the frosting off each finger 620 00:28:54,759 --> 00:28:57,772 really slow and making a whole production out of it. 621 00:28:57,796 --> 00:29:00,107 And I looked at him watching us laugh, 622 00:29:00,131 --> 00:29:02,109 and I realized that that was the point. 623 00:29:02,133 --> 00:29:05,179 That was his plan... he wanted to make us all laugh, 624 00:29:05,203 --> 00:29:07,848 because the baby had been keeping us up all night 625 00:29:07,872 --> 00:29:09,583 and the pandemic was all over the news, 626 00:29:09,607 --> 00:29:11,385 and none of us were having any fun at all, 627 00:29:11,409 --> 00:29:15,556 and nobody was laughing, and he wanted to make us laugh. 628 00:29:15,580 --> 00:29:17,058 Yeah. 629 00:29:17,082 --> 00:29:20,083 And that's what he wanted for his birthday. 630 00:29:21,652 --> 00:29:24,131 And when I looked at him and I saw that light in his eyes, 631 00:29:24,155 --> 00:29:26,155 he looked just like his dad. 632 00:29:27,324 --> 00:29:29,470 That same sparkle. 633 00:29:29,494 --> 00:29:31,336 That same delight. 634 00:29:31,830 --> 00:29:33,964 That's a pretty good favorite thing. 635 00:29:51,048 --> 00:29:53,094 If I'd known I was going to have to choose 636 00:29:53,118 --> 00:29:55,363 whether to vent a mother or her daughter, 637 00:29:55,387 --> 00:29:57,420 I would have quit med school. 638 00:29:59,223 --> 00:30:04,038 If I'd seen a tenth of what I've seen these past few months, 639 00:30:04,062 --> 00:30:05,762 I would have quit, too. 640 00:30:08,732 --> 00:30:10,792 We shouldn't even be here. 641 00:30:11,403 --> 00:30:13,128 How did we get here? 642 00:30:13,405 --> 00:30:14,882 Let's quit. 643 00:30:14,906 --> 00:30:16,384 Don't go back to Boston. 644 00:30:16,408 --> 00:30:18,386 We've got each other. We've got our earbuds. 645 00:30:18,410 --> 00:30:21,544 Let's just live while we can. 646 00:30:22,913 --> 00:30:24,598 I'll go where you go. 647 00:30:25,083 --> 00:30:29,152 But we both know you won't let yourself quit. 648 00:30:30,421 --> 00:30:32,455 Take a break, okay? 649 00:30:34,925 --> 00:30:36,777 I'll check on your patients. 650 00:30:43,568 --> 00:30:45,435 We can share earbuds. 651 00:30:47,738 --> 00:30:49,272 And...? 652 00:30:51,075 --> 00:30:53,020 What if they can share a vent? 653 00:30:58,383 --> 00:31:00,883 Tell Schmitt to keep bagging! 654 00:31:05,838 --> 00:31:07,115 The machines are capable of delivering 655 00:31:07,139 --> 00:31:09,484 much stronger pressure than any one patient needs. 656 00:31:09,508 --> 00:31:10,685 And we just need to adapt the vents 657 00:31:10,709 --> 00:31:12,154 to serve two patients at once 658 00:31:12,178 --> 00:31:14,990 by using a T- or a Y-shaped splitter on the airflow tube. 659 00:31:15,014 --> 00:31:17,492 And we're using viral filters to prevent cross-contamination 660 00:31:17,516 --> 00:31:18,827 of particles between patients. 661 00:31:18,851 --> 00:31:20,328 All of this was Pierce's idea. 662 00:31:20,352 --> 00:31:22,330 It's not ideal, but it buys us some time 663 00:31:22,354 --> 00:31:23,799 until we get some reinforcements. 664 00:31:23,823 --> 00:31:25,500 Yes! 665 00:31:25,524 --> 00:31:27,502 - Hey! - Hey, hey! 666 00:31:27,526 --> 00:31:28,637 Uh-huh. 667 00:31:28,661 --> 00:31:30,238 Uh-uh-uh. 668 00:31:30,262 --> 00:31:31,740 Richard, you okay? 669 00:31:31,764 --> 00:31:33,775 I am so good. I just have to dance 670 00:31:33,799 --> 00:31:35,944 because you all doubled the amount of vents 671 00:31:35,968 --> 00:31:37,279 we have in the hospital. 672 00:31:37,303 --> 00:31:40,048 I have to dance because we can now open the doors to trauma, 673 00:31:40,072 --> 00:31:44,219 and you have to dance because you just got a raise. 674 00:31:44,243 --> 00:31:45,854 Oh, hey! 675 00:31:45,878 --> 00:31:48,023 Oh! I'll dance to that. 676 00:31:54,887 --> 00:31:57,866 Keep an eye on their vitals and get labs every hour. 677 00:31:57,890 --> 00:32:00,702 Page me for any change, no matter how small. 678 00:32:08,701 --> 00:32:10,512 Mom... 679 00:32:11,704 --> 00:32:13,348 Come here, mamita. 680 00:32:13,372 --> 00:32:15,183 I know. 681 00:32:15,207 --> 00:32:16,852 It's okay. 682 00:32:16,876 --> 00:32:19,354 It's alright, baby. 683 00:32:19,378 --> 00:32:21,078 I know. 684 00:32:23,982 --> 00:32:27,963 Your vitals look good, and you are making urine. 685 00:32:27,987 --> 00:32:30,309 One of my party tricks. 686 00:32:30,334 --> 00:32:31,978 You'll be able to go home in three days 687 00:32:32,002 --> 00:32:34,314 if your pain's under control. 688 00:32:34,338 --> 00:32:35,815 Wilson? 689 00:32:35,839 --> 00:32:37,650 Thank you. 690 00:32:37,674 --> 00:32:39,274 For, um... 691 00:32:41,844 --> 00:32:43,756 Just thank you. 692 00:32:43,780 --> 00:32:44,813 Okay. 693 00:32:48,951 --> 00:32:50,797 She single? 694 00:32:50,821 --> 00:32:52,599 - Who... Wilson? - Yeah. 695 00:32:52,623 --> 00:32:54,868 I don't know. Why? You trying to set me up? 696 00:32:54,892 --> 00:32:56,503 I was hoping you could set me up. 697 00:32:56,527 --> 00:32:58,004 Mm-hmm. 698 00:32:58,028 --> 00:32:59,672 I mean, she did have my kidney in her hands. 699 00:32:59,696 --> 00:33:01,674 It doesn't get more intimate than that. 700 00:33:01,698 --> 00:33:03,343 - Uh-huh. - Have you checked on the boys? 701 00:33:03,367 --> 00:33:05,011 Austin's supposed to be reading "Animal Farm," 702 00:33:05,035 --> 00:33:07,013 and I'm worried he hasn't made it past page 50. 703 00:33:07,037 --> 00:33:08,181 Page 50? 704 00:33:08,205 --> 00:33:09,849 We'll be lucky if he's even opened the book. 705 00:33:15,412 --> 00:33:16,923 Her lungs are clear. 706 00:33:16,947 --> 00:33:18,925 Her ABGs are showing improved oxygenation, 707 00:33:18,949 --> 00:33:20,760 and she's passed her SBTs. 708 00:33:20,784 --> 00:33:23,930 Her vitals are normalized. 709 00:33:23,954 --> 00:33:24,964 Okay. 710 00:33:29,793 --> 00:33:31,437 Prepare to extubate. 711 00:33:36,600 --> 00:33:38,300 Suction, please. 712 00:33:40,603 --> 00:33:42,415 Okay, here we go. 713 00:33:57,454 --> 00:33:59,933 So, life is pain, right? 714 00:33:59,957 --> 00:34:02,468 Life is pain, and somehow that's the point? 715 00:34:02,492 --> 00:34:04,470 - No. - No. 716 00:34:04,494 --> 00:34:06,973 I lost you both. 717 00:34:06,997 --> 00:34:08,474 I lost George. 718 00:34:08,498 --> 00:34:11,945 I lost my parents, and even before my parents died... 719 00:34:11,969 --> 00:34:14,013 They caused you a lot of pain. 720 00:34:14,037 --> 00:34:16,849 So much grief. So much loss. 721 00:34:16,873 --> 00:34:18,251 So much pain. 722 00:34:18,275 --> 00:34:19,519 Yes. 723 00:34:19,543 --> 00:34:22,055 Yeah, but what's the thing that caused the pain? 724 00:34:24,848 --> 00:34:26,526 I hate this. 725 00:34:26,550 --> 00:34:27,799 Hate what? 726 00:34:29,553 --> 00:34:31,742 You knowing things that I don't. 727 00:34:31,766 --> 00:34:34,681 What's the thing that caused the pain? 728 00:34:35,058 --> 00:34:37,704 I know it, I just don't want to say it. 729 00:34:37,728 --> 00:34:40,103 Stubborn as you ever were. 730 00:34:40,564 --> 00:34:44,877 The depth of grief that you felt with all the losses... 731 00:34:44,901 --> 00:34:47,213 It's because of the depth of love. 732 00:34:47,237 --> 00:34:50,717 As long as you're alive, you get to feel it 733 00:34:50,741 --> 00:34:53,553 and you get to do something about it. 734 00:34:53,577 --> 00:34:56,723 Everything changes all the time when you're alive, 735 00:34:56,747 --> 00:34:59,392 and all the time, you fight the change. 736 00:34:59,416 --> 00:35:02,261 You cling onto what you have and what you know 737 00:35:02,285 --> 00:35:05,098 like that's how it should always be. 738 00:35:05,122 --> 00:35:06,699 It's such a waste of life. 739 00:35:06,723 --> 00:35:07,867 Right? 740 00:35:07,891 --> 00:35:09,202 What's a waste? 741 00:35:09,226 --> 00:35:10,536 Fighting change. 742 00:35:10,560 --> 00:35:11,871 Resisting pain. 743 00:35:16,400 --> 00:35:18,711 I miss you both so much. 744 00:35:18,735 --> 00:35:20,847 That's kind of a waste of time, too. 745 00:35:20,871 --> 00:35:21,848 Why? 746 00:35:21,872 --> 00:35:25,018 Because we never left you. 747 00:35:25,042 --> 00:35:27,720 Sometimes we're right next to you, yelling in your ear. 748 00:35:29,079 --> 00:35:30,723 Don't waste it, Meredith. 749 00:35:30,747 --> 00:35:32,058 Waste what? 750 00:35:32,082 --> 00:35:33,893 Don't waste one single minute. 751 00:35:38,555 --> 00:35:42,869 The first minute in a baby's life is the most terrifying. 752 00:35:42,893 --> 00:35:46,172 In that minute, a million tiny air sacs 753 00:35:46,196 --> 00:35:48,608 have to perfectly open and fill with air. 754 00:36:09,419 --> 00:36:10,863 Whoo! 755 00:36:11,922 --> 00:36:13,666 Whoo! 756 00:36:13,690 --> 00:36:17,136 It's a pretty traumatizing way of entering the real world. 757 00:36:27,504 --> 00:36:28,725 This is the first day 758 00:36:28,749 --> 00:36:29,816 in I don't know how long... 759 00:36:29,840 --> 00:36:31,651 ...that I actually liked my job again. 760 00:36:33,143 --> 00:36:34,954 I felt inspired. 761 00:36:34,978 --> 00:36:36,761 You were inspired. 762 00:36:37,147 --> 00:36:38,458 By you. 763 00:36:38,482 --> 00:36:40,126 Well, by my earbuds. 764 00:36:40,150 --> 00:36:42,984 No, by us. 765 00:36:43,786 --> 00:36:46,699 By these moments of... Of joy and connection 766 00:36:46,723 --> 00:36:49,035 that we've managed to carve out. 767 00:36:51,328 --> 00:36:54,571 I would not have had that idea without you, Winston. 768 00:36:55,665 --> 00:36:59,479 That life-saving idea, it came from us. 769 00:37:01,872 --> 00:37:04,684 And I know that Boston needs you, 770 00:37:04,708 --> 00:37:06,252 and I know that I'm being selfish 771 00:37:06,276 --> 00:37:09,753 when I say how miserable I'm going to be if you go. 772 00:37:10,280 --> 00:37:12,258 What are you doing? 773 00:37:12,282 --> 00:37:13,659 Um... 774 00:37:13,683 --> 00:37:15,133 I thought... 775 00:37:15,919 --> 00:37:18,898 we could listen to something before I leave. 776 00:37:18,922 --> 00:37:21,968 I'm trying to tell you I don't want you to leave. 777 00:37:21,992 --> 00:37:25,693 I know, but I-I think you might really like this song. 778 00:37:28,832 --> 00:37:30,276 Oh, my God. Oh, my God. 779 00:37:30,300 --> 00:37:33,112 Winston. 780 00:37:33,136 --> 00:37:35,348 I still have my loose ends to tie up back home. 781 00:37:37,374 --> 00:37:41,020 So you have an out, if you want one. 782 00:37:41,044 --> 00:37:44,524 But I hope to God you don't. 783 00:37:44,548 --> 00:37:46,025 I hope you say yes... 784 00:37:47,350 --> 00:37:52,765 ...because I can't imagine life without you anymore. 785 00:37:54,791 --> 00:37:57,837 And I don't ever want to try. 786 00:37:57,861 --> 00:38:03,031 Margaret Pierce... 787 00:38:04,133 --> 00:38:05,910 ...will you marry me? 788 00:38:05,934 --> 00:38:10,449 In that minute, your whole world stops. 789 00:38:10,473 --> 00:38:13,753 Is that a yes? 790 00:38:13,777 --> 00:38:15,388 Yes. It's a yes. 791 00:38:26,556 --> 00:38:28,000 Whoo! 792 00:38:29,726 --> 00:38:32,205 It's as if time stands still. 793 00:38:35,966 --> 00:38:38,311 Well, today ended a lot better than it started. 794 00:38:40,770 --> 00:38:42,582 Your mom is so scary. 795 00:38:42,606 --> 00:38:44,884 What? Why would you bring up my mom 796 00:38:44,908 --> 00:38:46,219 while we're laying here naked? 797 00:38:46,243 --> 00:38:48,387 What's wrong with you? 798 00:38:48,411 --> 00:38:50,590 Come here. 799 00:38:50,614 --> 00:38:53,960 And if I'm being honest, that minute is pure hell. 800 00:38:53,984 --> 00:38:55,828 Ahh! Look what I caught in the laundry room 801 00:38:55,852 --> 00:38:56,996 when I was scrubbing down. 802 00:38:57,020 --> 00:39:00,066 I caught myself a Leofish! 803 00:39:03,693 --> 00:39:05,171 Hey, Zola. 804 00:39:05,195 --> 00:39:06,639 We, um... 805 00:39:06,663 --> 00:39:08,975 We took your mom off the ventilator today, 806 00:39:08,999 --> 00:39:11,878 and she's breathing on her own. 807 00:39:11,902 --> 00:39:14,146 Yes! Thank God! 808 00:39:14,170 --> 00:39:16,782 Bailey! Ellis! Scout! 809 00:39:16,806 --> 00:39:17,783 Hope that was alright. 810 00:39:17,807 --> 00:39:19,785 That's fine. This is amazing. 811 00:39:19,809 --> 00:39:21,487 Oh, my God. Thank you! 812 00:39:21,511 --> 00:39:23,656 But fortunately, most of the time, 813 00:39:23,680 --> 00:39:26,228 the crying starts, the baby's okay... 814 00:39:26,253 --> 00:39:27,639 Don't thank me. Thank... 815 00:39:28,449 --> 00:39:29,802 Thank Teddy. 816 00:39:29,826 --> 00:39:31,466 She, uh... She's the one who never gave up. 817 00:39:31,498 --> 00:39:33,752 She stayed with her night after night. 818 00:39:33,777 --> 00:39:36,666 I just... I just did what the numbers told me. 819 00:39:38,811 --> 00:39:40,100 ...and the rest of us in the room 820 00:39:40,124 --> 00:39:42,124 can finally breathe again. 821 00:39:42,420 --> 00:39:48,263 CREDITS