1 00:00:52,343 --> 00:00:54,244 Tough shift? 2 00:00:57,348 --> 00:00:59,182 Hasn't even started yet. 3 00:00:59,217 --> 00:01:00,050 Oof. 4 00:01:00,084 --> 00:01:01,051 Yeah, you know it's bad when 5 00:01:01,085 --> 00:01:02,219 you're already hating the world 6 00:01:02,253 --> 00:01:05,088 and you haven't even gone in yet. 7 00:01:06,791 --> 00:01:08,725 I, uh... 8 00:01:12,430 --> 00:01:14,464 I saw the video. 9 00:01:16,301 --> 00:01:17,801 It's messed up. 10 00:01:19,237 --> 00:01:21,238 So, I'm usually 11 00:01:21,272 --> 00:01:23,240 the person that finds the good in all the bad. 12 00:01:23,274 --> 00:01:26,009 I... I'm the silver linings chick who cracks a joke 13 00:01:26,044 --> 00:01:27,511 even at the darkest of times 14 00:01:27,545 --> 00:01:29,313 to bring everyone else back up, but... 15 00:01:29,347 --> 00:01:31,114 Pretty hard to see the silver lining in that. 16 00:01:31,149 --> 00:01:32,416 Yeah. 17 00:01:32,450 --> 00:01:36,586 You know, I'm pretty good at silver linings myself. 18 00:01:36,654 --> 00:01:37,654 Yeah? 19 00:01:37,689 --> 00:01:39,122 Alright, show me what you got. 20 00:01:39,157 --> 00:01:40,057 Okay. 21 00:01:40,091 --> 00:01:41,564 Let's go. 22 00:01:42,527 --> 00:01:43,827 Hm? 23 00:01:43,861 --> 00:01:45,028 I feel like I shouldn't even tell you this. 24 00:01:45,063 --> 00:01:46,630 Oh, my God, now you have to tell me! 25 00:01:46,664 --> 00:01:48,613 Okay, um... 26 00:01:49,067 --> 00:01:51,835 I've been jogging up and down this trail all morning 27 00:01:51,869 --> 00:01:54,805 on the off-chance that I might see you. 28 00:01:57,718 --> 00:01:58,675 Uh... 29 00:02:01,779 --> 00:02:04,214 No, it's not... No, it's not... it... 30 00:02:04,248 --> 00:02:05,582 - Not so much a silver lining... - Yeah. 31 00:02:05,616 --> 00:02:07,317 ...as it is an adorable confession. 32 00:02:07,352 --> 00:02:08,351 Okay. 33 00:02:08,422 --> 00:02:09,686 - But... - Okay. 34 00:02:09,754 --> 00:02:11,388 - But it made you smile. - Yeah. 35 00:02:12,957 --> 00:02:15,826 I haven't slept for 48 hours. 36 00:02:17,428 --> 00:02:22,165 But I went for a run because 37 00:02:22,200 --> 00:02:26,069 the first time you asked me out, I, um... 38 00:02:26,104 --> 00:02:29,206 I was too scared to say yes. 39 00:02:30,341 --> 00:02:31,274 So, I guess... 40 00:02:31,309 --> 00:02:32,709 S-So you decided to stalk me instead? 41 00:02:32,744 --> 00:02:34,344 - Yeah, I guess so. - Like... Okay. Got it. 42 00:02:34,379 --> 00:02:36,079 - It worked! - Yeah, I guess it did. 43 00:02:36,114 --> 00:02:37,080 Right? 44 00:02:56,134 --> 00:02:57,834 - Okay. - Ooh. 45 00:02:57,869 --> 00:02:59,403 It's not Carina's French toast, but... 46 00:02:59,437 --> 00:03:01,038 Mmm! 47 00:03:01,072 --> 00:03:02,739 ...it's the only thing I know how to make for breakfast. 48 00:03:02,774 --> 00:03:04,608 That looks amazing. 49 00:03:04,642 --> 00:03:05,876 Mm. 50 00:03:07,145 --> 00:03:09,179 I... 51 00:03:09,247 --> 00:03:10,447 Oh! 52 00:03:10,515 --> 00:03:14,117 Um, Maya asked me to step in for her for the week. 53 00:03:14,152 --> 00:03:15,118 Step in? 54 00:03:15,153 --> 00:03:16,853 As acting captain. 55 00:03:16,921 --> 00:03:19,222 Doesn't the department usually send a sub 56 00:03:19,257 --> 00:03:20,791 for bereavement leave? 57 00:03:20,825 --> 00:03:23,226 Well, due to COVID and pods and stuff, 58 00:03:23,261 --> 00:03:24,895 they said one of the lieutenants could do it. 59 00:03:24,929 --> 00:03:26,730 And so she asked me. 60 00:03:31,035 --> 00:03:32,869 And... you've gone all quiet. 61 00:03:32,904 --> 00:03:34,304 No, no. No. 62 00:03:34,338 --> 00:03:35,172 No. 63 00:03:35,206 --> 00:03:37,307 It's good. 64 00:03:37,341 --> 00:03:38,624 - I'm happy for you. - Yeah? 65 00:03:38,648 --> 00:03:41,144 Yes. You were made for this. 66 00:03:41,179 --> 00:03:44,314 Plus, couldn't hurt to be sleeping with the boss, right? 67 00:03:44,348 --> 00:03:46,183 No, no special treatment. Mnh-mnh. 68 00:03:46,217 --> 00:03:47,217 Just like when I was your captain. 69 00:03:47,251 --> 00:03:49,286 Well, maybe a little special treatment. 70 00:03:49,353 --> 00:03:51,154 Oh! 71 00:03:51,222 --> 00:03:53,390 Oh, you're the best. Thanks, kids. 72 00:03:53,424 --> 00:03:55,325 We're so happy that you're feeling better. 73 00:03:55,359 --> 00:03:57,060 Ooh, so tell me something juicy. 74 00:03:57,095 --> 00:03:59,062 I want some gossip. 75 00:03:59,130 --> 00:04:01,631 Uh, there's not, uh... Not really anything to report. 76 00:04:01,666 --> 00:04:02,666 Mnh-mnh. 77 00:04:02,700 --> 00:04:05,135 Well, w-what about you two? 78 00:04:05,169 --> 00:04:07,137 When is that gonna happen, huh? 79 00:04:11,142 --> 00:04:12,809 - Oh! - What? 80 00:04:12,844 --> 00:04:15,812 Don't you want to make a dying woman happy? 81 00:04:15,880 --> 00:04:18,615 No, you're not... You're not dying, okay? 82 00:04:18,649 --> 00:04:19,816 Not yet. 83 00:04:19,851 --> 00:04:24,187 Some good news might help my odds. 84 00:04:29,727 --> 00:04:31,595 You have a very gentle touch. 85 00:04:31,662 --> 00:04:32,696 Oh. 86 00:04:32,730 --> 00:04:34,998 Well, we finally got the smaller swabs, so... 87 00:04:35,032 --> 00:04:36,433 Hm. You know, it's not the size, 88 00:04:36,467 --> 00:04:37,767 it's how you use it. 89 00:04:37,802 --> 00:04:40,370 Okay, guys, this is bordering on inappropriate. 90 00:04:40,404 --> 00:04:41,338 You saw The Running Guy, didn't you? 91 00:04:41,405 --> 00:04:42,339 - I don't know. - Okay. 92 00:04:42,373 --> 00:04:43,473 So, Emmett, here's the thing. 93 00:04:43,541 --> 00:04:45,242 Vic has a new crush, 94 00:04:45,276 --> 00:04:47,377 and it's a firefighter at another station. 95 00:04:47,411 --> 00:04:48,812 - Uh-huh. - And she won't tell me who it is. 96 00:04:48,846 --> 00:04:51,214 I am keeping this one close to the vest. 97 00:04:51,249 --> 00:04:52,482 Chest? What's the saying? 98 00:04:52,517 --> 00:04:54,351 I think it's playing it close to the... 99 00:04:54,385 --> 00:04:55,552 Doesn't matter. Who's the guy? 100 00:04:55,586 --> 00:04:57,621 No! No, there's nothing even to tell. 101 00:04:57,655 --> 00:04:59,322 The only thing we've done is make eyes at each other 102 00:04:59,357 --> 00:05:02,225 over our masks and some light finger brushing. 103 00:05:02,260 --> 00:05:03,860 I'm sorry, finger brushing? 104 00:05:03,928 --> 00:05:05,028 Yeah! 105 00:05:05,062 --> 00:05:06,229 How very "Pride and Prejudice" of you. 106 00:05:06,264 --> 00:05:08,565 Yes! Yes. See? Thank you! Thank you. 107 00:05:08,599 --> 00:05:11,268 It's, uh... It's Victorian. 108 00:05:11,302 --> 00:05:12,569 - Uh, Georgian. - Whatever! 109 00:05:12,637 --> 00:05:14,237 - It's annoying, - is what it is. I like it. 110 00:05:14,272 --> 00:05:15,305 No, it's... 111 00:05:15,339 --> 00:05:16,840 - You don't even know. - Oh, after you, Captain. 112 00:05:16,874 --> 00:05:18,241 By all means. 113 00:05:18,276 --> 00:05:20,243 Come on, Gibson. 114 00:05:20,311 --> 00:05:21,578 I'm not the captain. 115 00:05:21,612 --> 00:05:23,880 She just asked me to be in charge while she's gone. 116 00:05:23,915 --> 00:05:25,348 - Yeah, no, okay. - What? 117 00:05:25,383 --> 00:05:27,217 I-I just think it's interesting, that's all. 118 00:05:27,251 --> 00:05:28,318 That, you know, we're both lieutenants, 119 00:05:28,352 --> 00:05:29,653 yet she decided to put you in charge 120 00:05:29,687 --> 00:05:31,054 - while on bereavement leave. - Oh. 121 00:05:31,088 --> 00:05:32,422 - I just think it's interesting. - You think... Uh, well, 122 00:05:32,456 --> 00:05:33,456 you want me to explain it to you? 123 00:05:33,491 --> 00:05:34,824 - Okay. - See, Bishop likes me 124 00:05:34,859 --> 00:05:35,992 more than she likes you. 125 00:05:36,027 --> 00:05:39,229 Oh. Ohh! Yeah, uh... 126 00:05:39,263 --> 00:05:41,198 Y-Yeah, no, you know what? That's actually helpful. 127 00:05:41,232 --> 00:05:42,278 So thank you. 128 00:05:42,327 --> 00:05:43,867 And, uh, just to remind you. 129 00:05:43,901 --> 00:05:45,268 The whole reason Bishop's out is 'cause 130 00:05:45,303 --> 00:05:46,870 her girlfriend's brother got murdered. 131 00:05:46,938 --> 00:05:49,372 So maybe let's not make this a competition. 132 00:05:51,275 --> 00:05:53,076 And now I feel like an ass. 133 00:05:56,480 --> 00:05:57,847 Hey. 134 00:05:57,882 --> 00:05:59,883 Huh! Warren, hey, uh... 135 00:05:59,917 --> 00:06:01,384 I didn't think you'd be here today. 136 00:06:01,419 --> 00:06:02,452 - Oh. - I called in a sub. 137 00:06:02,486 --> 00:06:03,787 I-I need to be here. 138 00:06:03,821 --> 00:06:05,021 I-I need to help people. 139 00:06:05,056 --> 00:06:07,057 I-I get that. I'm the same way. 140 00:06:07,091 --> 00:06:09,059 But are you sure you shouldn't... 141 00:06:09,126 --> 00:06:10,694 - Please don't say it. - ...be at home? 142 00:06:10,728 --> 00:06:12,128 Look, my... my kids didn't know DeLuca. 143 00:06:12,196 --> 00:06:14,064 And they just lost their grandmother. 144 00:06:14,098 --> 00:06:17,234 They don't need all my extra grief up in their space. 145 00:06:17,268 --> 00:06:18,368 Yeah, I-I was just gonna ask Bishop 146 00:06:18,402 --> 00:06:19,803 if I could be on desk duty. 147 00:06:19,870 --> 00:06:21,404 Bishop's on bereavement with Carina. 148 00:06:21,439 --> 00:06:23,707 Right, right. 149 00:06:23,741 --> 00:06:25,709 S-So you're... Acting captain. 150 00:06:27,511 --> 00:06:30,046 Alright, you're on desk duty. 151 00:06:30,114 --> 00:06:31,481 Go ahead. 152 00:06:31,515 --> 00:06:33,950 Hey, head into the barn for testing. 153 00:06:46,364 --> 00:06:47,163 Hey. 154 00:06:47,198 --> 00:06:48,732 I know this looks crazy. 155 00:06:48,799 --> 00:06:50,100 Not any crazier than finding you 156 00:06:50,167 --> 00:06:52,636 lying in the hallway at 3:00 a.m. 157 00:06:52,670 --> 00:06:55,472 I can't get comfortable anywhere. 158 00:06:55,539 --> 00:06:58,975 You want to give the bed or the couch another shot? 159 00:06:59,043 --> 00:07:00,810 Too soft. 160 00:07:00,845 --> 00:07:02,468 Hm? 161 00:07:03,347 --> 00:07:06,216 When something is too soft and nice and comfortable 162 00:07:06,250 --> 00:07:08,251 right now, it makes me want to cry, 163 00:07:08,319 --> 00:07:11,087 and I can't cry anymore because it's exhausting 164 00:07:11,155 --> 00:07:14,357 and it gives me a headache, and I'm already so tired, 165 00:07:14,392 --> 00:07:17,927 but I can't fall asleep, and sleeping is the only thing 166 00:07:17,995 --> 00:07:19,529 that will turn off the crazy guilt 167 00:07:19,563 --> 00:07:21,398 screaming in my brain. 168 00:07:21,432 --> 00:07:24,501 So I'm in the shower to try to fall asleep. 169 00:07:24,535 --> 00:07:27,637 Carina... none of this is your fault. 170 00:07:27,672 --> 00:07:28,772 Hm. 171 00:07:28,806 --> 00:07:30,473 You want to scream? 172 00:07:30,508 --> 00:07:32,275 Would that make you feel better? 173 00:07:34,111 --> 00:07:35,478 Okay. 174 00:07:35,513 --> 00:07:37,447 Then scream. 175 00:07:42,153 --> 00:07:44,387 Your brother died, Carina. 176 00:07:44,422 --> 00:07:45,722 You're allowed to wake up the neighbors. 177 00:07:45,756 --> 00:07:47,324 He didn't die. 178 00:07:47,358 --> 00:07:48,558 He was murdered. 179 00:07:48,626 --> 00:07:49,626 Scream. 180 00:07:55,599 --> 00:07:57,500 Ahh. 181 00:07:59,760 --> 00:08:00,895 Andrea. 182 00:08:11,582 --> 00:08:13,316 T-Too soft. 183 00:08:13,351 --> 00:08:14,417 Too soft, too soft. 184 00:08:14,452 --> 00:08:16,853 Okay, I'm sorry. Sorry. 185 00:08:27,143 --> 00:08:33,223 Synced & corrected by -robtor- www.addic7ed.com 186 00:08:33,537 --> 00:08:37,046 Well, how about you? Uh, are you, uh, dating? 187 00:08:37,072 --> 00:08:38,907 Well, I mean, I tried to. 188 00:08:38,941 --> 00:08:41,678 I had a few online drinks with a few guys. 189 00:08:41,702 --> 00:08:44,137 And then the whole "Let me be your daddy" thing 190 00:08:44,171 --> 00:08:45,405 happened and... Yeah. 191 00:08:45,439 --> 00:08:47,707 Yeah, that would make me never want to have sex again. 192 00:08:47,741 --> 00:08:49,442 Yeah. 193 00:08:49,476 --> 00:08:52,245 You know, um, Alicia found a picture of 194 00:08:52,279 --> 00:08:54,981 some guy's junk on my phone before I came out to her. 195 00:08:55,015 --> 00:08:55,949 Oh, wow. 196 00:08:55,983 --> 00:08:57,283 It wasn't yours, so we're good. 197 00:08:57,318 --> 00:08:59,118 Uh, I-I told her that 198 00:08:59,153 --> 00:09:01,321 it was probably just one of the guys from school 199 00:09:01,388 --> 00:09:02,555 playing a dumb prank. 200 00:09:02,589 --> 00:09:04,324 Like, you know, "locker room" crap. 201 00:09:04,358 --> 00:09:05,591 I thought I was done for. 202 00:09:05,626 --> 00:09:08,219 I packed my bags, ready for her to kick me out. 203 00:09:09,129 --> 00:09:10,254 She believed it. 204 00:09:10,297 --> 00:09:11,998 Wow. 205 00:09:12,032 --> 00:09:16,269 I find that, um, people are actually really good 206 00:09:16,303 --> 00:09:19,472 at lying to themselves when it's for self-preservation. 207 00:09:22,443 --> 00:09:24,010 Hey, is that... 208 00:09:24,044 --> 00:09:25,444 My dad. 209 00:09:26,696 --> 00:09:28,114 Are you gonna... 210 00:09:28,182 --> 00:09:30,416 Why is my dad here? 211 00:09:30,484 --> 00:09:32,185 Maybe he's here to come out. 212 00:09:33,420 --> 00:09:34,745 Travis! 213 00:09:35,356 --> 00:09:36,321 You gonna let me in? 214 00:09:36,356 --> 00:09:37,857 Put your mask on, Dad. 215 00:09:37,891 --> 00:09:40,793 - Oh, mask for masc? - Please stop. 216 00:09:48,235 --> 00:09:50,083 Oh. 217 00:09:50,110 --> 00:09:51,137 From your mother. 218 00:09:53,007 --> 00:09:54,107 Why are you here, Dad? 219 00:09:54,141 --> 00:09:55,675 I'm gonna... I'm just gonna... 220 00:09:55,743 --> 00:09:56,709 - Yeah. - Yeah. 221 00:09:56,744 --> 00:09:57,893 Good to see you. 222 00:10:03,517 --> 00:10:04,784 You've never even seen where I work, Dad. 223 00:10:04,818 --> 00:10:06,185 Spare the dramatics, Travis. 224 00:10:06,220 --> 00:10:07,220 I just brought cookies. 225 00:10:07,272 --> 00:10:09,389 Right. Travis. Dramatics. 226 00:10:09,423 --> 00:10:11,090 Travis the drama queen. 227 00:10:11,125 --> 00:10:13,393 Hey, you know, um, could you come over and help 228 00:10:13,427 --> 00:10:16,195 your mother and I install security on our computer? 229 00:10:16,230 --> 00:10:17,964 Craziest thing happened. 230 00:10:17,998 --> 00:10:20,233 My Facebook page seems to have gotten hacked. 231 00:10:20,267 --> 00:10:22,368 Someone stole my picture. 232 00:10:22,403 --> 00:10:23,503 Did they? 233 00:10:23,537 --> 00:10:25,338 Yeah, who knows where that's gonna wind up. 234 00:10:25,372 --> 00:10:27,740 Yeah. Huh. 235 00:10:27,775 --> 00:10:29,709 So this is how we're gonna talk about it? 236 00:10:29,743 --> 00:10:33,279 You're gonna make up a lie about why I saw a shirtless pic 237 00:10:33,313 --> 00:10:34,580 of you on a gay dating app? 238 00:10:34,648 --> 00:10:35,848 I don't know what you think you saw... 239 00:10:37,084 --> 00:10:39,152 Ladder 19, Aid Car 19 requested to 240 00:10:39,186 --> 00:10:42,255 2018 East Olive Avenue. Here, Dad. 241 00:10:42,289 --> 00:10:44,824 Maybe those cookies will help wash down all that shame. 242 00:10:48,262 --> 00:10:50,263 Montgomery, was that, uh, your dad? 243 00:10:50,297 --> 00:10:51,714 - He seems kinda... - Gay? 244 00:10:52,900 --> 00:10:56,002 Whoa, Probie, Probie. Probie sits in the probie seat. 245 00:10:56,070 --> 00:10:57,003 Come on, Gibson. 246 00:10:57,071 --> 00:10:58,271 Probie sits in the probie seat, man. 247 00:10:58,305 --> 00:11:00,173 I'm sorry, but... 248 00:11:00,207 --> 00:11:01,541 How it's done. 249 00:11:17,124 --> 00:11:18,124 I have to go to Italy. 250 00:11:18,158 --> 00:11:19,559 - What? - I have to tell my dad, 251 00:11:19,626 --> 00:11:21,227 and I think the best way to do it is in person. 252 00:11:21,261 --> 00:11:22,528 Carina, take a breath. Let's talk this through. 253 00:11:22,563 --> 00:11:24,697 Because I don't know how he's gonna react to the news, 254 00:11:24,731 --> 00:11:26,632 and I just need to be there in case he goes crazy or something. 255 00:11:26,700 --> 00:11:28,401 Okay, there are no flights to Italy right now. 256 00:11:28,435 --> 00:11:30,236 The border is closed there and here. 257 00:11:30,270 --> 00:11:31,204 And even if you could get there, 258 00:11:31,238 --> 00:11:33,940 we're in a pandemic, remember? 259 00:11:35,342 --> 00:11:37,577 I... 260 00:11:37,611 --> 00:11:39,745 Okay, yeah, I have... Ah! 261 00:11:39,780 --> 00:11:41,414 Okay, I feel like there's so much that I have to do, 262 00:11:41,448 --> 00:11:42,648 and I don't even know how! 263 00:11:42,683 --> 00:11:44,217 Okay, what do... What do you want? 264 00:11:44,284 --> 00:11:45,318 What do you need? What can I do? 265 00:11:45,385 --> 00:11:47,453 I-I-I have to organize the funeral, I have to... 266 00:11:47,521 --> 00:11:48,955 I have to contact his landlord, 267 00:11:48,989 --> 00:11:50,289 I have to call the bank to sort out 268 00:11:50,324 --> 00:11:51,290 all the details and paperwork. 269 00:11:51,358 --> 00:11:53,326 I have... I have to tell my dad. 270 00:11:53,360 --> 00:11:54,961 But what I want to do right now is scream. 271 00:11:55,028 --> 00:11:57,964 I want to scream until my throat hurts 272 00:11:58,031 --> 00:12:00,399 more than my head and my stomach and my chest. 273 00:12:00,434 --> 00:12:03,503 I just want to scream so that some of this pressure goes away. 274 00:12:03,570 --> 00:12:06,038 So scream. Do it. Let it out. 275 00:12:06,811 --> 00:12:08,841 I can't. 276 00:12:11,245 --> 00:12:14,013 I c... I can't. I can't. 277 00:12:14,047 --> 00:12:16,282 I can't. 278 00:12:20,654 --> 00:12:21,787 "The pressure which is normally found on 279 00:12:21,822 --> 00:12:23,189 a water distribution system is known"... 280 00:12:23,223 --> 00:12:24,223 Residual pressure. 281 00:12:24,258 --> 00:12:26,692 Can... Can we just not do this now? 282 00:12:26,727 --> 00:12:28,928 You asked me to help you study for the lieutenant's exam. 283 00:12:28,996 --> 00:12:30,796 I-I did. But that was before 284 00:12:30,831 --> 00:12:33,366 Chief Gregory called me. 285 00:12:33,433 --> 00:12:35,301 He says, although he does condone 286 00:12:35,335 --> 00:12:37,436 what Sullivan and I did for Jada and Shanice, 287 00:12:37,471 --> 00:12:39,505 and the charges were technically dropped, 288 00:12:39,573 --> 00:12:40,873 brass is concerned with 289 00:12:40,941 --> 00:12:43,276 my decision to fight for change. 290 00:12:43,343 --> 00:12:45,278 You mean your decision 291 00:12:45,312 --> 00:12:46,946 to sue the police department. 292 00:12:46,980 --> 00:12:48,714 - Mm-hmm. - Well, yeah. I can see why. 293 00:12:48,749 --> 00:12:50,449 Gregory thinks I have to choose between 294 00:12:50,484 --> 00:12:52,552 getting justice for Joyce, and applying for a promotion. 295 00:12:52,586 --> 00:12:53,753 And he won't vouch for you? 296 00:12:53,787 --> 00:12:56,122 No. And if he did, would they listen? 297 00:13:11,271 --> 00:13:13,139 What is this place? 298 00:13:13,207 --> 00:13:15,241 I'm gonna guess, uh, dance academy? 299 00:13:15,275 --> 00:13:18,211 No. No, I grew up with dance academy kids. 300 00:13:18,245 --> 00:13:19,345 This is... 301 00:13:19,379 --> 00:13:21,314 Fear is what tethers us 302 00:13:21,348 --> 00:13:23,249 to this Earth. 303 00:13:23,283 --> 00:13:28,054 I do not subscribe to fear! 304 00:13:28,088 --> 00:13:31,924 If I believe I can fly, I can fly! 305 00:13:35,128 --> 00:13:36,529 Yep. 306 00:13:36,563 --> 00:13:37,597 This is a cult. 307 00:13:44,875 --> 00:13:47,077 Sir, you're not a bird. You're a guy. 308 00:13:48,379 --> 00:13:49,913 Alright. Just get out the bag. 309 00:13:49,947 --> 00:13:51,935 Shouldn't we wait for PD? 310 00:13:52,550 --> 00:13:53,917 Are... 311 00:13:53,951 --> 00:13:55,018 Copy that. 312 00:13:55,052 --> 00:13:56,419 Our society is designed 313 00:13:56,454 --> 00:13:59,689 to raise us on fear and shame, 314 00:13:59,724 --> 00:14:03,631 on the suppression of our humanity, 315 00:14:03,656 --> 00:14:05,623 on our connectedness. 316 00:14:05,658 --> 00:14:10,361 But when we come together and unlearn all that poison, 317 00:14:10,396 --> 00:14:12,563 anything is possible. 318 00:14:12,631 --> 00:14:14,332 I can feel that. 319 00:14:14,366 --> 00:14:15,867 The vibration. 320 00:14:15,901 --> 00:14:17,201 Do you feel that?! 321 00:14:17,236 --> 00:14:19,370 Can you feel that vibration?! 322 00:14:19,405 --> 00:14:21,506 Oh, it's Marky Mark day at the dance cult. Fun. 323 00:14:21,540 --> 00:14:24,842 My children, we have unlearned the weight 324 00:14:24,877 --> 00:14:27,545 of shame and fear. 325 00:14:27,579 --> 00:14:31,382 Do you feel how powerful we are now? 326 00:14:31,417 --> 00:14:35,920 Our collective vibration is what will give me wings. 327 00:14:35,954 --> 00:14:37,555 I-I don't care how much energy 328 00:14:37,589 --> 00:14:38,589 these people are giving you. 329 00:14:38,657 --> 00:14:40,358 If you jump off that roof, 330 00:14:40,392 --> 00:14:42,393 there's a good chance you won't survive. 331 00:14:42,428 --> 00:14:43,394 You don't understand 332 00:14:43,429 --> 00:14:45,396 what Brother John's doing here. 333 00:14:45,431 --> 00:14:47,598 You don't understand how trapped you are in your own mind. 334 00:14:47,633 --> 00:14:49,067 Our minds are free! 335 00:14:49,101 --> 00:14:50,101 Free or on drugs? 336 00:14:50,135 --> 00:14:52,203 - We don't do drugs. - Mm. 337 00:14:52,237 --> 00:14:53,938 We're high on the freedom of thought. 338 00:14:53,972 --> 00:14:56,741 We're high on the magic of humanity 339 00:14:56,775 --> 00:14:59,410 that was beaten out of us as children. 340 00:14:59,478 --> 00:15:00,845 - Right. - We're high on breath... 341 00:15:00,879 --> 00:15:01,879 Okay, let me tell you something. 342 00:15:01,947 --> 00:15:03,081 If you don't put your mask back on, 343 00:15:03,148 --> 00:15:04,349 you're gonna be high on COVID. 344 00:15:06,418 --> 00:15:08,720 Can you believe these idiots? 345 00:15:08,787 --> 00:15:10,722 Dr. Warren Sterman. I live down the road a bit. 346 00:15:10,756 --> 00:15:11,956 I'm the one who called. 347 00:15:12,024 --> 00:15:13,725 Oh, you called. So, is anyone hurt? 348 00:15:13,759 --> 00:15:15,526 Not yet. But look at 'em. 349 00:15:16,395 --> 00:15:18,062 Okay. Alright. 350 00:15:18,097 --> 00:15:20,131 We need to get someone up there. 351 00:15:20,165 --> 00:15:22,100 Oh, pick me. Please. 352 00:15:22,134 --> 00:15:23,401 Winner winner, chicken dinner. 353 00:15:23,469 --> 00:15:26,304 Ugh, these people are not living in reality. 354 00:15:26,338 --> 00:15:27,905 You can't talk sense to them. 355 00:15:27,940 --> 00:15:28,873 They just believe whatever 356 00:15:28,907 --> 00:15:30,441 their whack-job guru tells them. 357 00:15:30,476 --> 00:15:31,909 Join us! 358 00:15:31,944 --> 00:15:33,644 All are welcome. 359 00:15:33,679 --> 00:15:37,281 Let your fears melt away. 360 00:15:37,316 --> 00:15:39,751 Feed on our vibrations. 361 00:15:39,785 --> 00:15:42,153 Well, I would, but I had a big breakfast. 362 00:15:44,189 --> 00:15:46,157 Do you mind telling me what you're doing up there? 363 00:15:46,191 --> 00:15:49,227 I'm demonstrating faith. 364 00:15:49,294 --> 00:15:51,996 Faith in my people. 365 00:15:52,030 --> 00:15:53,664 Faith in my family. 366 00:15:53,699 --> 00:15:56,667 Faith that all the work we do here 367 00:15:56,735 --> 00:15:58,679 - has driven us to this day. - Dispatch, this is Ladder 19 368 00:15:58,703 --> 00:16:01,139 Incident Commander. Where is PD? 369 00:16:02,207 --> 00:16:04,575 No, sir. No. Bleach is not an effective remedy. 370 00:16:04,610 --> 00:16:06,377 It... Uh... 371 00:16:06,412 --> 00:16:08,346 - Okay then. - Hey, excuse me! 372 00:16:08,380 --> 00:16:10,481 Excuse me! Can you help? 373 00:16:10,516 --> 00:16:12,784 Uh, w-what happened, sir? 374 00:16:14,019 --> 00:16:15,520 It's pretty bad. 375 00:16:15,554 --> 00:16:16,487 Okay. 376 00:16:16,522 --> 00:16:18,356 Uh, looks like it got you good. 377 00:16:18,390 --> 00:16:19,624 Uh, how'd you do it? 378 00:16:19,691 --> 00:16:21,426 I was so stupid. 379 00:16:21,493 --> 00:16:23,528 I-I've cut fabric thousands of times. 380 00:16:23,562 --> 00:16:25,696 But today I was distracted, and then the phone rang, 381 00:16:25,731 --> 00:16:28,599 and the fabric cutter just went right over my finger. 382 00:16:28,634 --> 00:16:31,135 - Well, have a seat. - Yeah. 383 00:16:35,407 --> 00:16:36,507 Okay. 384 00:16:36,542 --> 00:16:37,741 Can I take a look at that? 385 00:16:37,785 --> 00:16:39,143 Yeah. 386 00:16:39,178 --> 00:16:40,378 Let's see here. 387 00:16:40,412 --> 00:16:41,379 Aah! 388 00:16:41,413 --> 00:16:42,847 Okay, well, you don't have nerve damage. 389 00:16:42,915 --> 00:16:44,715 But you're gonna need a hand surgeon. 390 00:16:44,783 --> 00:16:45,983 Are you sure? 391 00:16:46,018 --> 00:16:47,685 Are you sure you can't just fix it here? 392 00:16:47,719 --> 00:16:49,353 I'm a surgeon, but I'm not the one 393 00:16:49,388 --> 00:16:50,354 - that you want to be seeing about this. - Really? 394 00:16:50,422 --> 00:16:51,956 You're... You're a surgeon? 395 00:16:51,990 --> 00:16:53,491 Well, how lucky am I? 396 00:16:53,525 --> 00:16:56,027 I'm a general surgeon. But I don't specialize in... 397 00:16:56,061 --> 00:16:57,929 No, well, I-I make my living playing piano, 398 00:16:57,963 --> 00:16:59,997 and I really need this finger. 399 00:17:00,065 --> 00:17:02,099 Well, then, you really need to get to a hospital. 400 00:17:02,134 --> 00:17:03,468 Now hold pressure while I call ahead. 401 00:17:03,502 --> 00:17:06,204 N-No, uh, I'm severely immunocompromised. 402 00:17:07,015 --> 00:17:08,573 I... 403 00:17:08,607 --> 00:17:10,868 I live with HIV. 404 00:17:11,443 --> 00:17:14,645 Please, there has to be another option 405 00:17:14,680 --> 00:17:16,347 than going to the hospital. 406 00:17:16,381 --> 00:17:18,416 I thought I read that... that Seattle Fire 407 00:17:18,484 --> 00:17:21,686 has some kind of mobile surgery unit or... 408 00:17:21,720 --> 00:17:24,455 Yeah, it's, uh... It's no longer in commission. 409 00:17:25,007 --> 00:17:27,024 My friend lost his partner. 410 00:17:27,059 --> 00:17:29,427 They went to the hospital for chest pains, 411 00:17:29,495 --> 00:17:32,497 and three days later, he was on a ventilator. 412 00:17:32,564 --> 00:17:34,532 And three days after that, he was gone. 413 00:17:34,566 --> 00:17:38,636 So, no, I can't. I can't go there. 414 00:17:38,670 --> 00:17:41,172 I-I'll just... I'll just put ice on it 415 00:17:41,206 --> 00:17:42,840 and, um, hope that it heals. 416 00:17:42,875 --> 00:17:43,841 Uh, thank you. 417 00:17:43,876 --> 00:17:45,776 I... I'm sorry to bother you. 418 00:17:45,811 --> 00:17:47,245 Well, no, wait. Wait, wait. 419 00:17:47,279 --> 00:17:48,613 Um... 420 00:17:48,647 --> 00:17:50,681 I... I can help you. 421 00:17:51,241 --> 00:17:53,417 Okay, just, uh... 422 00:17:53,485 --> 00:17:55,453 Just promise you won't tell anyone. 423 00:17:55,521 --> 00:17:56,754 Oh. Oh! 424 00:17:56,788 --> 00:17:57,955 Pinky swear. 425 00:18:02,794 --> 00:18:04,505 Did you sleep? 426 00:18:05,597 --> 00:18:06,697 No, but I tried. 427 00:18:06,732 --> 00:18:09,033 In the shower. Like a lunatic. 428 00:18:09,101 --> 00:18:11,435 Well, I got everything sorted out 429 00:18:11,470 --> 00:18:13,104 with the funeral home. 430 00:18:13,138 --> 00:18:14,230 You called them? 431 00:18:14,265 --> 00:18:15,640 I called everyone. 432 00:18:15,674 --> 00:18:18,435 I did the whole list. I did all the things. 433 00:18:19,545 --> 00:18:20,611 Thank you. 434 00:18:22,614 --> 00:18:23,948 No one has ever done that for me. 435 00:18:25,684 --> 00:18:29,520 Any chance you could call my dad for me too? 436 00:18:36,461 --> 00:18:38,062 I wish I could. 437 00:18:38,096 --> 00:18:39,997 - Mm-hmm. - That's one you got to do on your own. 438 00:18:40,065 --> 00:18:41,432 I know. 439 00:18:41,466 --> 00:18:43,801 I'm so scared to tell him. 440 00:18:43,835 --> 00:18:45,303 I know. 441 00:18:46,338 --> 00:18:47,605 I'm gonna try again. 442 00:18:47,639 --> 00:18:48,759 To sleep? 443 00:18:48,791 --> 00:18:50,241 To scream. 444 00:18:59,885 --> 00:19:01,185 Man, this thing is heavy. 445 00:19:01,219 --> 00:19:03,020 Been a while since you moved a bag, huh? 446 00:19:04,389 --> 00:19:05,690 Here we go. 447 00:19:05,757 --> 00:19:07,325 Don't worry. They can't touch us in uniform. 448 00:19:07,359 --> 00:19:08,659 Yeah, that's what pisses me off. 449 00:19:08,694 --> 00:19:09,660 Miller, we need them. 450 00:19:09,695 --> 00:19:10,795 We have to work with them. 451 00:19:23,342 --> 00:19:25,209 Damn it! 452 00:19:29,414 --> 00:19:31,682 Hey, man. I'm Jack. 453 00:19:31,717 --> 00:19:33,150 Brother Jack! 454 00:19:33,185 --> 00:19:34,719 Welcome! 455 00:19:34,753 --> 00:19:35,820 Dance with me. 456 00:19:35,854 --> 00:19:38,556 Uh, yeah, you do not want to see me dance, trust me. 457 00:19:38,590 --> 00:19:40,725 Ah-ha-ha! 458 00:19:40,759 --> 00:19:41,959 Shame! 459 00:19:42,027 --> 00:19:44,829 Where does that shame come from? 460 00:19:44,863 --> 00:19:46,197 Hey, brother, 461 00:19:46,231 --> 00:19:49,100 if that shame is too heavy, just sit down. 462 00:19:49,134 --> 00:19:50,801 Absorb this energy. 463 00:19:50,836 --> 00:19:53,738 How about you come sit over here with me? 464 00:19:53,805 --> 00:19:55,172 Away from the ledge. 465 00:19:55,240 --> 00:19:57,993 Sir, you need to come down right now! 466 00:19:58,777 --> 00:20:00,978 Or what? 467 00:20:01,046 --> 00:20:02,580 You'll shoot me? 468 00:20:02,614 --> 00:20:04,215 Aw, man! 469 00:20:04,249 --> 00:20:07,218 The systems our world has put into place 470 00:20:07,285 --> 00:20:09,754 to instill fear and control. 471 00:20:09,788 --> 00:20:11,756 And we eat it up! 472 00:20:11,790 --> 00:20:12,816 We do, man. 473 00:20:12,850 --> 00:20:14,191 We've been fed that since childhood. 474 00:20:14,226 --> 00:20:15,325 - Right. - Right? 475 00:20:15,359 --> 00:20:16,994 - Yeah. - Fear for breakfast. 476 00:20:17,029 --> 00:20:19,997 Fear for lunch. Fear for dinner. 477 00:20:20,032 --> 00:20:22,900 Like sugary cereal. 478 00:20:22,934 --> 00:20:25,369 Frosted Fear-i-o's! 479 00:20:26,905 --> 00:20:28,372 - Brother Jack. - Yeah? 480 00:20:28,440 --> 00:20:30,241 - You're not dancing. - Trust me, you really don't... 481 00:20:30,275 --> 00:20:31,776 Come on, shake off some of that shame. 482 00:20:31,810 --> 00:20:32,816 - I don't dance. - Come on! 483 00:20:32,847 --> 00:20:34,712 I d... Okay, okay! Okay. 484 00:20:34,746 --> 00:20:36,380 I'm dancing. Okay? 485 00:20:36,415 --> 00:20:37,415 Louder. 486 00:20:37,482 --> 00:20:38,749 How do you dance louder? 487 00:20:38,784 --> 00:20:41,786 Ask that little boy version of yourself. 488 00:20:41,820 --> 00:20:44,055 "How do I dance... louder?!" 489 00:20:44,089 --> 00:20:45,756 I don't know what you're talking about, man. 490 00:20:45,791 --> 00:20:47,558 I don't know how to dance... Okay! Okay! 491 00:20:47,592 --> 00:20:49,093 Okay. Okay. 492 00:20:49,127 --> 00:20:51,595 I'm dancing louder. Okay? 493 00:20:51,630 --> 00:20:54,632 I'm dancing louder. See? See? 494 00:20:54,666 --> 00:20:56,801 Dancing louder. 495 00:20:56,835 --> 00:20:59,170 Yeah! Louder! Ha! 496 00:20:59,204 --> 00:21:01,539 I feel a connection to you, Brother Jack. 497 00:21:01,606 --> 00:21:03,808 Good. Feel it over here. A soul connection, man. 498 00:21:03,842 --> 00:21:05,609 I feel you. 499 00:21:05,644 --> 00:21:07,044 I've been you. 500 00:21:07,079 --> 00:21:08,446 Alone. 501 00:21:08,480 --> 00:21:10,147 - Um, okay. - Afraid. 502 00:21:10,182 --> 00:21:11,916 You're lost. 503 00:21:11,950 --> 00:21:13,617 - Hey. - Yeah? 504 00:21:13,652 --> 00:21:16,654 When was the last time you felt loved? 505 00:21:16,688 --> 00:21:19,724 Actually, wait. Better question. 506 00:21:19,758 --> 00:21:21,892 When was the last time 507 00:21:21,927 --> 00:21:25,196 you felt safe to love? 508 00:21:25,230 --> 00:21:26,296 I... 509 00:21:26,324 --> 00:21:27,498 - Ah! - Okay, alright. 510 00:21:27,532 --> 00:21:28,666 Okay, alright. 511 00:21:28,700 --> 00:21:30,134 This might be the best day of my life. 512 00:21:30,168 --> 00:21:32,737 Yeah, I'm gonna need him to remember this. 513 00:21:33,872 --> 00:21:35,406 What the hell is wrong with these people? 514 00:21:36,641 --> 00:21:38,776 Is that guy hyperventilating? 515 00:21:38,844 --> 00:21:41,312 Maybe it's on purpose. 516 00:21:41,346 --> 00:21:44,048 I mean, they seem... happy. 517 00:21:44,850 --> 00:21:49,086 Calamana- skrinatchka-dancala! 518 00:21:49,121 --> 00:21:50,706 Him less so. 519 00:21:53,555 --> 00:21:55,922 I'm tired, man. Can we sit? 520 00:21:55,956 --> 00:21:58,631 You still haven't answered Two humy question, Brother Jack. 521 00:21:58,701 --> 00:21:59,659 What was the question? 522 00:21:59,694 --> 00:22:01,795 I ask because I see your pain. 523 00:22:01,829 --> 00:22:04,564 It's so much better on the other side. 524 00:22:04,598 --> 00:22:07,267 - You can be on that other side, too. - No, no, there's no... 525 00:22:07,301 --> 00:22:09,069 There's no pain. There's no pain, okay? 526 00:22:09,136 --> 00:22:11,438 Look, as long as we stay on this side of the edge, 527 00:22:11,472 --> 00:22:12,471 I'm good. 528 00:22:12,526 --> 00:22:13,506 Why stay on the roof 529 00:22:13,574 --> 00:22:15,709 when you can dance in the stars? 530 00:22:15,743 --> 00:22:17,544 We must continue harvesting. 531 00:22:17,578 --> 00:22:19,879 Okay, what are we harvesting, exactly? 532 00:22:19,914 --> 00:22:21,181 Energy. 533 00:22:21,215 --> 00:22:24,284 We got to get back to that spiritual self. 534 00:22:24,318 --> 00:22:26,119 When we all do, 535 00:22:26,153 --> 00:22:29,456 we could fill the air with such high vibration 536 00:22:29,490 --> 00:22:33,560 that when I jump, I will fly. 537 00:22:33,627 --> 00:22:34,694 - Please don't jump, man. - Dude! 538 00:22:34,729 --> 00:22:35,962 Come on, John. 539 00:22:36,030 --> 00:22:37,564 This guy's still planning to fly, 540 00:22:37,598 --> 00:22:39,032 so, uh, get that bag ready. 541 00:22:39,100 --> 00:22:41,634 Sir, why don't you just take a breather. 542 00:22:41,669 --> 00:22:42,972 - Oh! - That was a pretty hard fall 543 00:22:42,996 --> 00:22:44,204 you took back there. 544 00:22:44,238 --> 00:22:45,405 And it looks like 545 00:22:45,439 --> 00:22:47,974 you dislocated your shoulder, for starters. 546 00:22:48,008 --> 00:22:50,610 - That's got to hurt. - Pain is only in the flesh. 547 00:22:50,644 --> 00:22:53,680 Yep. Well, that's what I meant by "hurt." 548 00:22:53,714 --> 00:22:54,721 Oh, must keep vibrating! 549 00:22:54,754 --> 00:22:55,982 Okay, you can keep vibrating. 550 00:22:56,016 --> 00:22:58,385 Just let us help you while you do it, okay? 551 00:23:01,288 --> 00:23:02,589 Oh, my God. 552 00:23:02,623 --> 00:23:04,124 No. Oh, God. 553 00:23:04,191 --> 00:23:05,625 - Did he just lick me? - Yeah. Don't move. 554 00:23:05,659 --> 00:23:06,893 Don't move. Don't blink. 555 00:23:06,927 --> 00:23:08,561 Don't... breathe! Just stop. 556 00:23:08,629 --> 00:23:10,330 Aah! 557 00:23:10,364 --> 00:23:11,331 Wait. 558 00:23:11,365 --> 00:23:13,099 Wait, wait, wait, wait. 559 00:23:13,134 --> 00:23:14,100 - What? - Just, uh... 560 00:23:14,168 --> 00:23:15,468 Just... Just give me the pack. 561 00:23:15,536 --> 00:23:17,167 Heads up! 562 00:23:23,411 --> 00:23:24,744 This damn virus. 563 00:23:24,779 --> 00:23:27,213 Reminds me of the '80s. 564 00:23:27,248 --> 00:23:29,449 You, uh... You lived through the AIDS crisis? 565 00:23:30,718 --> 00:23:34,154 I went to college at the Manhattan School of Music. 566 00:23:34,221 --> 00:23:38,091 My first time away from home, first time in a big city. 567 00:23:38,125 --> 00:23:40,026 It was such freedom. 568 00:23:40,060 --> 00:23:41,761 I felt I could float. 569 00:23:41,796 --> 00:23:43,630 But then... 570 00:23:43,697 --> 00:23:45,720 the plague came. 571 00:23:47,034 --> 00:23:51,438 "Gay-Related Immune Deficiency," they called it. 572 00:23:51,505 --> 00:23:54,340 GRID. Everyone panicked. 573 00:23:54,375 --> 00:23:56,843 The queer community was isolated. 574 00:23:56,911 --> 00:24:00,780 I lost friend after friend after friend. 575 00:24:00,848 --> 00:24:04,717 And I'd worked so hard to live out loud, 576 00:24:04,752 --> 00:24:08,555 and suddenly, I was back in the fear. 577 00:24:08,589 --> 00:24:09,989 And the shame. 578 00:24:10,057 --> 00:24:11,591 Afraid to get close to anyone. 579 00:24:11,625 --> 00:24:14,374 Afraid to even live my life. 580 00:24:14,795 --> 00:24:16,167 Kinda like now. 581 00:24:16,730 --> 00:24:18,665 No one knows how it's spread, 582 00:24:18,699 --> 00:24:20,467 and there's so much misinformation, 583 00:24:20,534 --> 00:24:22,435 and the politicians refusing to even 584 00:24:22,470 --> 00:24:24,737 acknowledge that it's real. 585 00:24:24,772 --> 00:24:26,928 Suddenly, I'm 22 again. 586 00:24:27,408 --> 00:24:29,542 And scared to death. 587 00:24:33,481 --> 00:24:35,148 Calamana! 588 00:24:35,182 --> 00:24:37,050 - Dude. - Skrinatchka! 589 00:24:37,117 --> 00:24:38,218 Hey, dude. Come on. Let's just... 590 00:24:38,252 --> 00:24:39,819 - Dancala! - Dude. Dude! You could 591 00:24:39,854 --> 00:24:40,854 Come on, we're just trying 592 00:24:40,888 --> 00:24:42,255 to give you some medical attention, okay? 593 00:24:42,323 --> 00:24:43,690 No! Sir... 594 00:24:43,724 --> 00:24:46,159 Sir, please get your hands off me. 595 00:24:46,193 --> 00:24:48,995 Sir, back away now. 596 00:24:49,063 --> 00:24:49,996 Okay, come on. 597 00:24:50,030 --> 00:24:50,997 Hey, Miller. 598 00:24:51,031 --> 00:24:52,131 Feel better? Come on. 599 00:24:52,166 --> 00:24:53,700 Hey, listen, I just want to say I'm sorry. 600 00:24:53,734 --> 00:24:55,568 Okay? What Schneider did that day... 601 00:24:55,636 --> 00:24:56,736 But you didn't stop it. 602 00:24:56,770 --> 00:24:59,038 You saw what he was doing, you stood there, 603 00:24:59,073 --> 00:24:59,973 and you let it happen. 604 00:25:00,007 --> 00:25:02,275 It all happened so fast. I'm sorry. 605 00:25:02,309 --> 00:25:03,643 I-I reported him later. 606 00:25:03,677 --> 00:25:05,712 Look, I'm not even talking about what they did to me. 607 00:25:05,779 --> 00:25:06,746 It's those girls. 608 00:25:06,814 --> 00:25:07,847 If we hadn't gone in that building, 609 00:25:07,915 --> 00:25:09,449 those girls would be gone. 610 00:25:09,483 --> 00:25:10,550 You do understand that, right? 611 00:25:10,584 --> 00:25:11,851 I do. 612 00:25:11,919 --> 00:25:13,720 He's suspended, okay? 613 00:25:13,754 --> 00:25:14,754 Pending investigation. 614 00:25:14,822 --> 00:25:15,955 Well, congratulations, man. 615 00:25:16,023 --> 00:25:17,724 You picked the bad apple out of the barrel. 616 00:25:30,664 --> 00:25:31,638 You showered. 617 00:25:31,672 --> 00:25:33,072 Mm. I was already there, 618 00:25:33,107 --> 00:25:35,275 and I couldn't sleep, so, um... 619 00:25:37,111 --> 00:25:40,346 I didn't want to call you when I was in the car with Andrea 620 00:25:40,381 --> 00:25:43,483 because I knew you would talk me out of it. 621 00:25:43,517 --> 00:25:46,419 And tell me to make my brother stop. 622 00:25:46,487 --> 00:25:47,687 Tell me that it was dangerous. 623 00:25:47,721 --> 00:25:49,155 And you did. 624 00:25:49,223 --> 00:25:51,524 And you were right. 625 00:25:51,559 --> 00:25:55,695 And I still think... I feel like this is... 626 00:25:55,729 --> 00:25:57,664 Why? Why didn't I stop him? 627 00:25:57,698 --> 00:25:59,832 This is... This is all my fault. 628 00:25:59,867 --> 00:26:01,434 This is... I... My brother is dead 629 00:26:01,502 --> 00:26:02,435 because I'm an idiot. 630 00:26:02,469 --> 00:26:04,737 Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey. 631 00:26:04,772 --> 00:26:06,439 Listen to me. None of this is your fault. 632 00:26:06,473 --> 00:26:07,807 Whose fault is it, then? 633 00:26:07,841 --> 00:26:08,908 Who am I supposed to blame? 634 00:26:08,943 --> 00:26:10,677 - Who? - Blame me! 635 00:26:10,711 --> 00:26:12,345 We have to get some of this off of you. 636 00:26:12,379 --> 00:26:14,480 I will take it. Blame me. 637 00:26:14,515 --> 00:26:15,949 I should have gotten to you sooner. 638 00:26:16,016 --> 00:26:18,251 I should have been there. Blame me. 639 00:26:18,319 --> 00:26:19,686 Maya, this is not your fault. 640 00:26:19,720 --> 00:26:20,954 Then why is it yours? 641 00:26:20,988 --> 00:26:23,690 Because I let him on that train! 642 00:26:23,724 --> 00:26:25,858 I did that. 643 00:26:25,893 --> 00:26:27,694 I... I... Hey. 644 00:26:27,728 --> 00:26:29,662 Give me the guilt, okay? Give me the... the blame. 645 00:26:29,697 --> 00:26:31,631 Give me the part that stings the most. 646 00:26:31,665 --> 00:26:34,167 Okay, let me hold on to it for a... a little while. 647 00:26:34,201 --> 00:26:35,802 And when you're feeling a little stronger, 648 00:26:35,836 --> 00:26:37,337 you can have it all back. 649 00:26:37,371 --> 00:26:39,772 I promise. 650 00:26:44,745 --> 00:26:45,878 Too soft. I'm sorry. 651 00:26:45,913 --> 00:26:47,313 Mm. 652 00:26:50,684 --> 00:26:52,685 A man can't dance on his rooftop 653 00:26:52,720 --> 00:26:54,153 - on a beautiful day? - Okay, we're shutting the music down. 654 00:26:54,188 --> 00:26:55,134 What do you want to do? 655 00:26:55,182 --> 00:26:56,248 I want to let 656 00:26:56,298 --> 00:26:57,557 my lieutenant try a little longer 657 00:26:57,591 --> 00:26:58,925 to get him down. 658 00:26:58,959 --> 00:27:00,994 Watch out for this guy. He may look nuts, 659 00:27:01,061 --> 00:27:03,196 but he's a charmer and he's dangerous. 660 00:27:03,230 --> 00:27:05,698 Oh. Gibson will be okay. 661 00:27:05,766 --> 00:27:07,333 He's pretty charming himself. 662 00:27:08,502 --> 00:27:10,470 John, please, just take a step back. 663 00:27:10,537 --> 00:27:13,172 The energy is full. It's almost time. 664 00:27:13,207 --> 00:27:14,741 John, please. You're gonna get hurt. 665 00:27:14,808 --> 00:27:17,276 Is that a good reason not to do something? 666 00:27:17,311 --> 00:27:18,845 So that you don't get hurt? 667 00:27:19,642 --> 00:27:21,381 You run away from danger. 668 00:27:21,415 --> 00:27:22,915 John, I'm a firefighter. 669 00:27:22,950 --> 00:27:25,752 My job is literally to run into danger. 670 00:27:25,819 --> 00:27:28,988 But real danger... you run from. 671 00:27:37,631 --> 00:27:40,767 Everyone here has learned the same lessons as you, Jack. 672 00:27:40,834 --> 00:27:44,370 All my children came to me so bruised and alone 673 00:27:44,405 --> 00:27:47,440 from a lifetime of pain. 674 00:27:47,474 --> 00:27:49,742 Brother Jack, you have the look in your eye 675 00:27:49,777 --> 00:27:52,545 that so many of my followers do. 676 00:27:52,613 --> 00:27:53,980 You crave family. 677 00:27:54,014 --> 00:27:55,685 You crave stewardship. 678 00:27:55,723 --> 00:27:56,697 Love. 679 00:27:56,731 --> 00:27:58,251 I'm good, man. I have love. 680 00:27:58,318 --> 00:28:00,219 You're an orphan. 681 00:28:00,287 --> 00:28:02,855 Well, guess what? 682 00:28:02,890 --> 00:28:04,724 I'm an orphan, too. 683 00:28:04,758 --> 00:28:07,560 That's why I built this family. 684 00:28:08,929 --> 00:28:13,299 You don't like being alone, do you, Jack? 685 00:28:13,333 --> 00:28:14,967 Scary, isn't it? 686 00:28:18,472 --> 00:28:20,506 But look at my children. 687 00:28:20,541 --> 00:28:22,542 See how full they are. 688 00:28:22,576 --> 00:28:24,977 John, please, just take one step back. 689 00:28:25,045 --> 00:28:26,145 Please. 690 00:28:26,180 --> 00:28:27,780 Just one. 691 00:28:27,848 --> 00:28:30,049 I'll take a step if you talk to me. 692 00:28:30,084 --> 00:28:31,451 Okay, okay. 693 00:28:31,518 --> 00:28:33,820 Tell me about your heart. Are you lonely? 694 00:28:33,854 --> 00:28:35,822 Yeah, some... sometimes. Yeah. 695 00:28:35,856 --> 00:28:37,156 I'm gonna need more than that. 696 00:28:37,191 --> 00:28:38,157 Okay, okay, okay! 697 00:28:38,192 --> 00:28:40,093 I-I just, uh... I just moved in 698 00:28:40,127 --> 00:28:42,128 with this... this woman and her son, 699 00:28:42,196 --> 00:28:44,269 and she's great, but... 700 00:28:44,932 --> 00:28:46,065 But you're scared? 701 00:28:46,100 --> 00:28:48,835 Scared to open up? Scared to feel? 702 00:28:48,869 --> 00:28:50,636 Scared to lose? 703 00:28:50,671 --> 00:28:52,004 What are their names? 704 00:28:52,039 --> 00:28:54,474 Inara and Marcus. 705 00:28:57,111 --> 00:28:59,846 And you can't fully love Inara and Marcus, can you? 706 00:28:59,880 --> 00:29:02,582 No, I... I can, I just... 707 00:29:02,616 --> 00:29:04,717 We all have emotional injuries 708 00:29:04,752 --> 00:29:08,921 from our lives that prevent us from loving. 709 00:29:08,989 --> 00:29:12,125 If you cut the fear from your heart, 710 00:29:12,159 --> 00:29:14,340 you can love them. 711 00:29:14,995 --> 00:29:18,030 I want to show you what love looks like. 712 00:29:18,065 --> 00:29:24,704 I want you to know what fearlessness feels like. 713 00:29:28,976 --> 00:29:30,676 No, don't! 714 00:30:34,398 --> 00:30:35,765 What do you want? 715 00:30:35,799 --> 00:30:37,400 I'm sorry, Miller, but I got to ask him a few questions. 716 00:30:37,468 --> 00:30:38,401 He's got warrants for... 717 00:30:38,435 --> 00:30:39,969 Montgomery, switch with me. 718 00:30:40,004 --> 00:30:41,437 Yeah. 719 00:30:42,633 --> 00:30:44,155 He'll take care of you. 720 00:30:45,350 --> 00:30:47,443 Sir, there's been reports of suspicious activity coming... 721 00:30:47,478 --> 00:30:48,978 Can you meet us at Grey-Sloan? 722 00:30:49,013 --> 00:30:50,179 Talk to him after we've got him assessed. 723 00:30:50,214 --> 00:30:51,521 We got to go. 724 00:30:53,017 --> 00:30:54,784 - Sure. Yeah. - Okay. 725 00:30:56,520 --> 00:30:57,694 Hey. 726 00:30:58,082 --> 00:30:59,682 Can I, uh, ride with him? 727 00:30:59,796 --> 00:31:01,931 Join me, Brother Jack. 728 00:31:03,053 --> 00:31:04,327 You two bond up there? 729 00:31:04,361 --> 00:31:06,327 We got a lot in common. 730 00:31:11,228 --> 00:31:13,095 Grey-Sloan, this is Aid Car 19. 731 00:31:13,120 --> 00:31:14,987 We're headed towards you with a 50-year-old male 732 00:31:15,012 --> 00:31:17,814 with abdominal pain, possible internal bleeding. 733 00:31:17,839 --> 00:31:21,475 Aren't we all bleeding internally, in many ways? 734 00:31:22,493 --> 00:31:23,626 You shouldn't talk. 735 00:31:27,411 --> 00:31:29,078 Were you trying to die? 736 00:31:29,103 --> 00:31:30,737 I was trying to fly. 737 00:31:30,762 --> 00:31:32,596 But you must have known that you were gonna fall. 738 00:31:32,621 --> 00:31:33,888 But I didn't fall. 739 00:31:33,913 --> 00:31:35,780 I leapt. 740 00:31:35,847 --> 00:31:41,184 And for that moment of pure freedom, 741 00:31:41,209 --> 00:31:43,143 it was worth it. 742 00:31:53,649 --> 00:31:54,620 You okay? 743 00:31:54,645 --> 00:31:56,544 Ugh, my back. 744 00:31:57,281 --> 00:31:59,382 Does probie need a little IcyHot? 745 00:31:59,416 --> 00:32:01,031 Alright. 746 00:32:01,055 --> 00:32:03,423 Talk to me when you've had as many hot saves as me. 747 00:32:03,491 --> 00:32:05,525 Ooh. 748 00:32:08,929 --> 00:32:11,064 We have to work with them, Miller. 749 00:32:11,098 --> 00:32:12,365 Every day. 750 00:32:12,400 --> 00:32:13,833 Uh, yeah. Yeah, I know that. 751 00:32:13,901 --> 00:32:15,980 Well, then you need to fix your face. 752 00:32:16,670 --> 00:32:18,405 Have you ever thought that the reason why things 753 00:32:18,439 --> 00:32:21,508 haven't changed for us is because we're so quick 754 00:32:21,533 --> 00:32:22,900 to fix our faces? 755 00:32:22,925 --> 00:32:25,693 Well, it is what it is. They need us, we need them. 756 00:32:25,718 --> 00:32:26,985 Look, if you can't work with them, just... 757 00:32:27,010 --> 00:32:29,952 I can work with them just fine. 758 00:32:30,484 --> 00:32:33,954 I just don't think I have to fix my face to do it. 759 00:32:36,157 --> 00:32:38,058 Nobody asks Batman to fix his face. 760 00:32:38,092 --> 00:32:39,259 I'm sorry. Are you Batman? 761 00:32:39,326 --> 00:32:42,929 Yeah. I am, in this uniform. We all are. 762 00:32:42,997 --> 00:32:44,717 We're heroes. 763 00:32:45,599 --> 00:32:48,201 And heroes don't have to fix their faces. 764 00:32:52,139 --> 00:32:54,274 You're, uh... You're worried about the rule-breaking. 765 00:32:54,341 --> 00:32:56,976 No, I'm... I'm good. 766 00:32:57,011 --> 00:32:59,446 But even better, you're good. 767 00:32:59,480 --> 00:33:02,882 You should have full function of that finger in about a month. 768 00:33:09,457 --> 00:33:11,324 You're not good. 769 00:33:11,358 --> 00:33:12,992 I know the look. 770 00:33:13,027 --> 00:33:14,961 You've lost people from the virus? 771 00:33:16,964 --> 00:33:17,964 Of course you have. 772 00:33:17,998 --> 00:33:19,899 You're a doctor, a first responder. 773 00:33:19,934 --> 00:33:21,234 So's my wife. 774 00:33:21,268 --> 00:33:22,635 Oh, but she didn't... 775 00:33:22,670 --> 00:33:24,137 N-No, no. Thank God. 776 00:33:24,171 --> 00:33:26,606 But, uh... her mother. 777 00:33:26,640 --> 00:33:27,740 I'm sorry. 778 00:33:27,808 --> 00:33:29,342 And a few days ago, a friend of mine. 779 00:33:29,376 --> 00:33:31,811 He was a doctor, too. But not from the virus. 780 00:33:31,846 --> 00:33:34,267 He was, uh... He was murdered. 781 00:33:34,615 --> 00:33:37,817 Wait, not... Not that handsome young man 782 00:33:37,852 --> 00:33:40,186 who was chasing that sex predator? 783 00:33:40,254 --> 00:33:42,555 Oh! I saw that on the news. 784 00:33:42,590 --> 00:33:44,193 I said a prayer. 785 00:33:45,059 --> 00:33:47,360 You hate to lose anyone, of course, 786 00:33:47,428 --> 00:33:50,096 but someone that attractive? 787 00:33:51,565 --> 00:33:54,000 Oh, I'm so sorry, I shouldn't joke. 788 00:33:54,034 --> 00:33:56,136 It's just how I've learned to cope. 789 00:33:56,170 --> 00:33:58,037 And I've had to cope a lot. 790 00:33:58,072 --> 00:34:01,341 With this pandemic and the one back then. 791 00:34:01,375 --> 00:34:04,177 You see, you feel like you're drowning in your own grief. 792 00:34:04,245 --> 00:34:07,046 You barely get a chance to catch your breath, 793 00:34:07,081 --> 00:34:08,848 and then you're pulled back down. 794 00:34:08,883 --> 00:34:13,052 Thrashing, not knowing which way is up. 795 00:34:13,087 --> 00:34:14,932 You forget how to breathe. 796 00:34:15,356 --> 00:34:17,268 Or even that you should. 797 00:34:18,559 --> 00:34:22,662 But there's that one thing, that life preserver 798 00:34:22,696 --> 00:34:25,565 that will keep you afloat for just a few minutes 799 00:34:25,599 --> 00:34:27,800 so you can save your energy. 800 00:34:27,868 --> 00:34:31,137 And you hang on to that life preserver 801 00:34:31,205 --> 00:34:34,140 and let it keep you alive un-until you're 802 00:34:34,175 --> 00:34:36,442 no longer at sea. 803 00:34:38,179 --> 00:34:39,746 I'd imagine yours is medicine. 804 00:34:39,813 --> 00:34:42,849 Helping old fools like me. 805 00:34:42,883 --> 00:34:44,250 Mine is music. 806 00:34:44,275 --> 00:34:48,511 So thank you for patching my life preserver. 807 00:35:05,139 --> 00:35:08,074 Papa. Ciao. 808 00:35:21,922 --> 00:35:23,089 Okay. 809 00:35:26,527 --> 00:35:29,262 Okay. Okay. 810 00:35:29,296 --> 00:35:31,030 Si. Ciao. 811 00:35:33,195 --> 00:35:34,200 He heard. 812 00:35:34,268 --> 00:35:35,235 What? 813 00:35:35,269 --> 00:35:37,237 He heard that Andrea died two days ago. 814 00:35:37,271 --> 00:35:39,806 And he didn't call me. 815 00:35:50,149 --> 00:35:52,384 What are we doing? 816 00:35:57,256 --> 00:35:59,958 Okay, Maya, I'm not a child. 817 00:36:00,026 --> 00:36:01,293 I don't need a fire truck ride to feel... 818 00:36:01,327 --> 00:36:02,361 Maya! 819 00:36:02,395 --> 00:36:03,762 Scream. 820 00:36:03,796 --> 00:36:06,398 - What? - Scream! 821 00:36:06,432 --> 00:36:07,966 - I can't. - Do it! 822 00:36:08,034 --> 00:36:11,303 No, I can't... 823 00:36:11,337 --> 00:36:13,271 I c... I can't do it. 824 00:36:51,644 --> 00:36:53,845 You know, you could've had my back out there. 825 00:36:53,880 --> 00:36:56,114 Bumped me back to the probie seat. 826 00:36:56,149 --> 00:36:57,516 Put me on bag. 827 00:36:57,550 --> 00:36:59,317 I'm just doing my job, Sullivan. 828 00:36:59,352 --> 00:37:00,352 Sullivan? 829 00:37:00,386 --> 00:37:02,521 I'm sorry, is that not your name? 830 00:37:02,555 --> 00:37:04,276 It's Robert. 831 00:37:04,342 --> 00:37:06,091 At least that's what you called me in bed this morning. 832 00:37:06,159 --> 00:37:07,192 Okay, stop it. 833 00:37:07,260 --> 00:37:09,294 I'm just trying to finish this report. 834 00:37:09,328 --> 00:37:11,329 Alright. 835 00:37:11,364 --> 00:37:12,330 Andy, look at me. 836 00:37:12,365 --> 00:37:15,200 Okay, when we're at work, I'm not Andy. 837 00:37:15,234 --> 00:37:16,501 I'm Herrera. 838 00:37:16,569 --> 00:37:19,575 You... You said no special treatment. 839 00:37:20,440 --> 00:37:21,973 Okay. 840 00:37:22,008 --> 00:37:24,664 But you're gonna have to make it up to me at home. 841 00:37:25,778 --> 00:37:28,013 Captain Herrera. 842 00:37:33,586 --> 00:37:35,046 Expect a high near 52 degrees... 843 00:37:35,080 --> 00:37:36,789 Looks like Father Bust-A-Move is gonna make it. 844 00:37:36,815 --> 00:37:38,056 Oh, good! 845 00:37:38,090 --> 00:37:40,262 He'll live to dance another day. 846 00:37:41,093 --> 00:37:42,494 Spread your feet apart. 847 00:37:42,528 --> 00:37:44,729 I'm gonna need to apply pressure to your fingers. 848 00:37:44,764 --> 00:37:46,364 I don't want you to move. 849 00:37:46,432 --> 00:37:48,400 Can... Can you just change it? 850 00:37:48,434 --> 00:37:50,635 Do you have any weapons or sharp objects on your person? 851 00:37:52,238 --> 00:37:53,705 You want to run through some test questions? 852 00:37:53,773 --> 00:37:55,907 I decided I'm not applying. 853 00:37:55,942 --> 00:37:57,613 What? Why? 854 00:37:58,244 --> 00:38:00,545 A crazed cult dude puts a cop in a vise grip, 855 00:38:00,580 --> 00:38:02,814 - and they call him "sir." - Okay. 856 00:38:02,849 --> 00:38:04,883 I pull a kidnapped girl out of a burning building, 857 00:38:04,951 --> 00:38:06,852 and they shove my head into the pavement. 858 00:38:06,919 --> 00:38:08,553 Yeah, yeah, but so what? 859 00:38:08,621 --> 00:38:10,255 Look, you've known that's how it is your entire life. 860 00:38:10,323 --> 00:38:12,491 Exactly. You have to apply, Miller. 861 00:38:12,525 --> 00:38:14,326 You have to change things, right? 862 00:38:14,393 --> 00:38:16,728 Why? Why is it always us who have to change things 863 00:38:16,762 --> 00:38:17,929 or fix our faces? 864 00:38:17,997 --> 00:38:19,197 Because it is. 865 00:38:19,232 --> 00:38:21,433 And you still think that by getting a seat 866 00:38:21,467 --> 00:38:23,973 at the table, that I'm gonna change anything? 867 00:38:24,604 --> 00:38:26,538 Look at Gregory. Look at Sullivan. 868 00:38:26,572 --> 00:38:30,146 No shade, but what has changed? 869 00:38:30,743 --> 00:38:33,044 Yep. They say change 870 00:38:33,112 --> 00:38:34,913 the system from the inside, and then you're inside, 871 00:38:34,981 --> 00:38:36,681 and you're part of the system. 872 00:38:36,716 --> 00:38:38,683 The only part of this job that's not corruptible, 873 00:38:38,718 --> 00:38:42,787 the reason why I left, like, a cushy corporate life... 874 00:38:42,822 --> 00:38:44,456 It's the helping people part. 875 00:38:44,490 --> 00:38:45,671 You know? 876 00:38:45,739 --> 00:38:48,226 So I'm... I'm gonna help Joyce. 877 00:38:48,294 --> 00:38:50,262 And if that means that I have to put my career 878 00:38:50,296 --> 00:38:53,932 on the back burner, then that's what I'm gonna do. 879 00:38:56,335 --> 00:38:58,103 Well, okay, then. 880 00:38:58,137 --> 00:38:59,800 Fair enough. 881 00:39:03,643 --> 00:39:05,110 I can't believe a dude licked me today. 882 00:39:06,679 --> 00:39:08,225 It's not funny. 883 00:39:08,614 --> 00:39:11,061 I can't believe I'm kinda jealous. 884 00:39:30,369 --> 00:39:34,406 Ruiz, Ruiz, Ruiz, Ruiz... 885 00:39:34,440 --> 00:39:35,740 Okay. 886 00:39:38,811 --> 00:39:41,146 - Hello? - Hi. It's Vic. 887 00:39:41,180 --> 00:39:43,915 Hughes. It's... It's Vic Hughes. 888 00:39:43,950 --> 00:39:45,483 From Station 19. 889 00:39:45,551 --> 00:39:46,785 Hey, what's up? 890 00:39:46,819 --> 00:39:50,655 Hi. Uh, so, I got your number from the sub sheet, but... 891 00:39:50,690 --> 00:39:51,690 You need a sub? 892 00:39:51,724 --> 00:39:53,658 What? No. 893 00:39:53,693 --> 00:39:55,360 No, sorry, did I, uh... 894 00:39:55,394 --> 00:39:56,928 Did I catch you at a bad time, or...? 895 00:39:56,996 --> 00:39:58,964 Uh, kinda, yeah. 896 00:39:59,031 --> 00:40:00,599 Yeah, I'm... I'm sorry, 897 00:40:00,666 --> 00:40:02,696 I'm actually about to meet someone. 898 00:40:03,736 --> 00:40:05,971 Got it. Okay, um... 899 00:40:06,038 --> 00:40:07,672 S-Sorry for the violation. 900 00:40:07,740 --> 00:40:09,495 That was just... 901 00:40:10,076 --> 00:40:12,164 Okay. Bye. 902 00:40:17,283 --> 00:40:21,252 Hi. Can I speak to, uh, Vic Hughes of Station 19? 903 00:40:24,924 --> 00:40:26,971 - Hi. - Hi. 904 00:40:29,486 --> 00:40:31,183 Silver lining. 905 00:40:32,064 --> 00:40:33,164 Sorry to just show up... 906 00:40:33,199 --> 00:40:34,699 Uh, when is your next swab? 907 00:40:34,734 --> 00:40:36,167 For, uh, COVID. 908 00:40:36,235 --> 00:40:37,869 When do you get tested again? 909 00:40:37,903 --> 00:40:39,471 - Tuesday. - Perfect. Me too. 910 00:40:41,140 --> 00:40:44,075 So... see you... 911 00:40:44,110 --> 00:40:45,644 - Wednesday? - Yeah. 912 00:40:45,711 --> 00:40:46,678 Yeah. 913 00:40:50,848 --> 00:40:52,717 Oh! 914 00:40:52,752 --> 00:40:53,752 Thanks. 915 00:40:55,655 --> 00:40:57,756 Alright. 916 00:41:06,399 --> 00:41:07,832 Victorian. 917 00:41:13,039 --> 00:41:14,906 Jack? 918 00:41:14,940 --> 00:41:16,508 Is everything okay? 919 00:41:23,582 --> 00:41:25,350 I'm taking a leap. 920 00:41:34,193 --> 00:41:35,960 What do you think? 921 00:41:37,296 --> 00:41:39,964 Think that I could, uh, be your mom's boyfriend? 922 00:41:39,999 --> 00:41:41,599 Oh, say yes, Marcus! 923 00:41:41,634 --> 00:41:43,401 Say yes, yes! _ 924 00:41:48,841 --> 00:41:50,642 Aww! 925 00:41:50,676 --> 00:41:52,944 Oh.