1 00:00:00,073 --> 00:00:01,665 Previously on "New Amsterdam"... 2 00:00:01,689 --> 00:00:05,358 Somebody reported that you have a problem with Adderall. 3 00:00:05,393 --> 00:00:07,694 You're asking me if I've ever risked a patient's life 4 00:00:07,728 --> 00:00:08,728 because I'm stoned. 5 00:00:08,763 --> 00:00:10,430 Yeah, and you haven't answered the question. 6 00:00:10,464 --> 00:00:11,865 What do you think would happen 7 00:00:11,899 --> 00:00:14,267 if you stopped helping people? Who would they see? 8 00:00:14,301 --> 00:00:17,337 They would see a corny, nerdy, 9 00:00:17,371 --> 00:00:20,473 fat, worthless nothing. 10 00:00:20,508 --> 00:00:23,176 All right, since you all prescribe 79% of our opioids, 11 00:00:23,210 --> 00:00:25,045 I am giving you one year 12 00:00:25,079 --> 00:00:27,580 to prescribe 79% less, 13 00:00:27,615 --> 00:00:30,684 and anyone who doesn't will be fired. 14 00:00:32,019 --> 00:00:33,538 I think they're clean. 15 00:00:35,389 --> 00:00:37,691 The damage to his heart was extensive. 16 00:00:37,725 --> 00:00:40,060 The virus also ravaged the surrounding heart muscle. 17 00:00:40,094 --> 00:00:41,554 How bad? 18 00:00:41,584 --> 00:00:43,997 Even if you found the best heart surgeon in the world, 19 00:00:44,031 --> 00:00:46,733 I'm not sure it'd be enough. 20 00:01:43,023 --> 00:01:44,991 - Hey. - Yeah? 21 00:01:45,025 --> 00:01:46,444 Dr. Reynolds. 22 00:01:47,361 --> 00:01:49,863 I used to work here. 23 00:01:49,897 --> 00:01:51,364 Hospital ID? 24 00:01:51,398 --> 00:01:54,160 No, but I should be in the system. 25 00:01:58,906 --> 00:02:00,774 Oh, thank you. 26 00:02:50,391 --> 00:02:51,760 So? 27 00:02:52,793 --> 00:02:54,345 I can't operate. 28 00:02:55,270 --> 00:03:00,399 Synced & corrected by -robtor- www.addic7ed.com 29 00:03:00,434 --> 00:03:01,568 Here's Vijay's cardiac echo. 30 00:03:01,602 --> 00:03:03,069 What do you mean "can't operate"? 31 00:03:03,103 --> 00:03:05,004 His mitral valve, it's greater than 60% regurgitation. 32 00:03:05,039 --> 00:03:06,739 That's secondary to a ruptured papillary muscle. 33 00:03:06,774 --> 00:03:08,568 I didn't fly you out here to not operate. 34 00:03:08,596 --> 00:03:10,810 Listen, his EF is under 20%. 35 00:03:10,845 --> 00:03:12,912 These numbers aren't even compatible with life. 36 00:03:12,947 --> 00:03:15,081 Right, which is exactly why you need to fix the valve. 37 00:03:15,115 --> 00:03:16,816 I can't fix it because the virus has damaged 38 00:03:16,851 --> 00:03:18,484 the heart muscle around the valve. 39 00:03:18,519 --> 00:03:20,453 There's nothing to sew a new valve into. 40 00:03:20,487 --> 00:03:22,355 Doing nothing isn't an option. 41 00:03:22,389 --> 00:03:23,756 I didn't say I was doing nothing. 42 00:03:23,791 --> 00:03:25,558 - Look, I'm gonna use a catheter. - TAVR? 43 00:03:25,593 --> 00:03:27,908 - All right, I'm gonna place a clip... - A clip? 44 00:03:27,947 --> 00:03:30,663 Into the mitral's weakened area... that should fix it. 45 00:03:30,698 --> 00:03:32,799 He's dying, Floyd. He needs surgery. 46 00:03:32,833 --> 00:03:35,000 Okay, look, you brought me here because of my expertise, 47 00:03:35,034 --> 00:03:36,335 and because you trust me. 48 00:03:36,361 --> 00:03:38,338 Right now my expertise is saying this. 49 00:03:38,807 --> 00:03:40,266 I gotta go. 50 00:03:40,941 --> 00:03:43,076 What happened to "How can I help?" 51 00:03:44,020 --> 00:03:47,080 - The virus hit us hard. - Nothing's the same. 52 00:03:48,441 --> 00:03:50,250 My hospital had three. 53 00:03:50,284 --> 00:03:51,820 Three what? 54 00:03:52,553 --> 00:03:54,197 Only three deaths. 55 00:03:54,822 --> 00:03:57,325 I feel guilty just saying it. 56 00:03:58,125 --> 00:04:00,203 Don't. You were spared. 57 00:04:01,295 --> 00:04:02,956 I wish we were. 58 00:04:03,683 --> 00:04:05,684 Especially Lauren. 59 00:04:07,085 --> 00:04:09,087 It hit her the worst. 60 00:04:31,292 --> 00:04:33,993 - Candelario's on! - Dr. Bloom, it's Gladys. 61 00:04:34,028 --> 00:04:37,463 - Get Candelario! - It's about Iggy. 62 00:04:39,333 --> 00:04:41,369 I'm on my way out. 63 00:04:43,971 --> 00:04:45,738 He's sweaty, wobbly on his feet. 64 00:04:45,773 --> 00:04:47,240 Did he take a COVID test? 65 00:04:47,274 --> 00:04:48,608 PCR came back negative, 66 00:04:48,642 --> 00:04:50,977 but he can hardly stand. 67 00:04:56,784 --> 00:04:58,718 Ig? 68 00:05:00,354 --> 00:05:01,821 - Hey. - Hey. 69 00:05:01,855 --> 00:05:05,191 What brings you down to the... Ooh. 70 00:05:05,225 --> 00:05:07,994 - Aw, God, Gladys was right. - You gotta go home. 71 00:05:08,028 --> 00:05:10,430 No, I just... I stood up too fast. 72 00:05:10,464 --> 00:05:12,598 - I got a head rush. - You're valor is noted, 73 00:05:12,633 --> 00:05:14,200 but if you've got the flu, you gotta go. 74 00:05:14,234 --> 00:05:16,602 I don't have the flu, I'm just... I'm tired. 75 00:05:16,637 --> 00:05:18,178 You're color's not great. 76 00:05:18,226 --> 00:05:20,573 Lauren, if I feel anything flu-y, I'll, uh... 77 00:05:20,607 --> 00:05:22,141 Hey. 78 00:05:22,176 --> 00:05:23,576 - I'll page you. - Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey. 79 00:05:23,610 --> 00:05:24,811 Hey, come on, come on. Sit down. 80 00:05:24,845 --> 00:05:26,312 - Sit down. - No, no, I'm fine. 81 00:05:26,347 --> 00:05:27,981 I just... I haven't eaten. 82 00:05:28,249 --> 00:05:29,615 Since when? 83 00:05:31,685 --> 00:05:34,214 Hey. How many meals? 84 00:05:39,126 --> 00:05:40,693 How many days? 85 00:05:43,510 --> 00:05:44,844 Two. 86 00:05:47,199 --> 00:05:48,812 Maybe three. 87 00:05:52,106 --> 00:05:53,673 Hi. 88 00:05:53,707 --> 00:05:56,376 I thought you might enjoy a full-bodied Ethiopian roast, 89 00:05:56,410 --> 00:05:58,378 carefully wrapped for contactless delivery, 90 00:05:58,412 --> 00:06:00,713 - as an apology. - None needed. 91 00:06:00,748 --> 00:06:04,317 I'll take the coffee, but keep the apology. 92 00:06:04,351 --> 00:06:06,919 Um, look, all of this, um, 93 00:06:06,954 --> 00:06:09,889 being close bodies and trusting, normal, 94 00:06:09,923 --> 00:06:11,224 it's kinda like I don't remember 95 00:06:11,258 --> 00:06:12,392 how to do any of it anymore. 96 00:06:12,426 --> 00:06:15,094 I get it, if that's what it is. 97 00:06:15,129 --> 00:06:16,756 What do you mean? 98 00:06:17,164 --> 00:06:19,932 I mean, there's no reason 99 00:06:19,967 --> 00:06:22,001 to force something that's not there anymore. 100 00:06:22,036 --> 00:06:23,636 No, it's not... that's not it. 101 00:06:23,670 --> 00:06:25,371 Are you sure? 102 00:06:29,710 --> 00:06:31,744 It's okay, Helen. 103 00:06:31,779 --> 00:06:33,713 COVID took away a lot of things. 104 00:06:33,747 --> 00:06:35,415 We focus here on the lives lost, 105 00:06:35,449 --> 00:06:38,551 but there were other casualties. 106 00:06:40,788 --> 00:06:42,490 See you around. 107 00:06:43,190 --> 00:06:45,158 It's all I know right now. I'm sorry. 108 00:06:45,192 --> 00:06:46,350 I know, but Dr. Kapoor 109 00:06:46,374 --> 00:06:47,594 was supposed to be in the OR hours ago. 110 00:06:47,661 --> 00:06:49,429 So that can't be good, right? 111 00:06:49,463 --> 00:06:50,830 I know it's hard to wait. 112 00:06:50,864 --> 00:06:53,232 As soon as I have an update, I will let you know. 113 00:06:54,468 --> 00:06:56,736 Hi, Ella, I'm Dr. Sharpe, 114 00:06:56,770 --> 00:06:58,404 one of Vijay's colleagues. 115 00:06:58,439 --> 00:07:00,440 Of course, Double French Roast with a splash of agave. 116 00:07:00,474 --> 00:07:01,674 Yep. 117 00:07:01,708 --> 00:07:03,376 I'm sorry I'm not standing. 118 00:07:03,410 --> 00:07:05,411 I just... I'm worried that if I get out of this chair, 119 00:07:05,446 --> 00:07:06,979 Vijay's gonna die during surgery. 120 00:07:07,014 --> 00:07:08,227 I have OCD, 121 00:07:08,258 --> 00:07:10,716 and my irrational thoughts won this round. 122 00:07:10,751 --> 00:07:12,151 It happens. 123 00:07:12,186 --> 00:07:14,954 Ah, I wish it hadn't 124 00:07:14,988 --> 00:07:17,023 because sitting is making my leg cramps worse. 125 00:07:17,057 --> 00:07:19,459 I stretch, but they just keep coming back. 126 00:07:19,493 --> 00:07:20,760 How long has that been going on? 127 00:07:20,795 --> 00:07:22,862 Um, an hour or two? 128 00:07:22,896 --> 00:07:25,565 I woke up breathing better for the first time in months, 129 00:07:25,599 --> 00:07:27,834 but my back gets hot and now this. 130 00:07:27,868 --> 00:07:29,001 Although my pregnancy podcast 131 00:07:29,036 --> 00:07:32,038 said I was going to start feeling confident and sexy. 132 00:07:32,290 --> 00:07:34,607 Ella, it sounds like you're in labor. 133 00:07:37,511 --> 00:07:39,011 I got your page. 134 00:07:39,046 --> 00:07:40,646 We caught the guy who's been pinching Oxy 135 00:07:40,681 --> 00:07:42,482 - from the dispensary. - An orderly? 136 00:07:42,516 --> 00:07:44,684 - My name is Paul. - Paul Argento. 137 00:07:44,718 --> 00:07:46,652 Been working here for 13 months 138 00:07:46,687 --> 00:07:48,955 and stealing from you just as long. 139 00:07:48,989 --> 00:07:51,057 You mind telling me why? 140 00:07:52,226 --> 00:07:53,793 Look, if we're using, we can get you tre... 141 00:07:53,827 --> 00:07:55,428 They're not for me. 142 00:07:55,462 --> 00:07:56,496 Well, if you're selling them... 143 00:07:56,530 --> 00:07:59,098 The... they're for my mom. 144 00:08:00,033 --> 00:08:02,702 She got diagnosed with osteosarcoma a year ago. 145 00:08:02,736 --> 00:08:04,303 She used to be happy, 146 00:08:04,338 --> 00:08:05,805 but now the pain's killing her. 147 00:08:05,839 --> 00:08:08,508 She can't even walk her dog. 148 00:08:08,542 --> 00:08:10,843 The Oxy was helping, but that idiot doctor of hers... 149 00:08:10,878 --> 00:08:13,790 He's been giving me less and less for my pain. 150 00:08:14,715 --> 00:08:16,816 Told me I had to be weaned off. 151 00:08:16,850 --> 00:08:19,218 And what is he giving you as an alternative? 152 00:08:19,253 --> 00:08:20,720 Nothing. 153 00:08:20,754 --> 00:08:22,507 That's awful. 154 00:08:23,257 --> 00:08:25,758 Whoever was treating you stops today. 155 00:08:25,792 --> 00:08:28,060 You're a patient at New Amsterdam now. 156 00:08:28,095 --> 00:08:30,696 But my doctor is at New Amsterdam. 157 00:08:32,266 --> 00:08:33,297 Brenna Argento. 158 00:08:33,333 --> 00:08:35,535 - I know her well. - Stage three bone cancer. 159 00:08:35,569 --> 00:08:38,804 She can barely walk, and yet you pulled her Oxy. Why? 160 00:08:38,839 --> 00:08:41,107 Because received a letter from a Dr. Max Goodwin 161 00:08:41,141 --> 00:08:42,875 saying that if I didn't, I'd be fired. 162 00:08:42,910 --> 00:08:45,211 No, for overprescribing, needlessly, recklessly, 163 00:08:45,245 --> 00:08:47,046 - but Brenna... - Who wasn't the type 164 00:08:47,080 --> 00:08:48,915 of patient you pictured when you wrote it. 165 00:08:48,949 --> 00:08:51,150 This is what happens when you needlessly and recklessly 166 00:08:51,185 --> 00:08:53,886 make a blanket policy without a regard to individual patients. 167 00:08:53,921 --> 00:08:56,088 She is suffering. 168 00:08:56,123 --> 00:08:59,258 Of course she's suffering, but not because of me. 169 00:08:59,293 --> 00:09:00,726 Because of you. 170 00:09:08,763 --> 00:09:10,731 Don't hang up! 171 00:09:10,765 --> 00:09:12,833 Because I want whoever that is to know 172 00:09:12,867 --> 00:09:14,134 that I'm person who killed you 173 00:09:14,168 --> 00:09:15,669 for reversing this hospital's policy 174 00:09:15,703 --> 00:09:17,479 on limiting opiate prescriptions. 175 00:09:22,410 --> 00:09:23,944 I am unmoved. 176 00:09:23,978 --> 00:09:26,380 - Wow, okay, I gotta go. - Yeah, Daddy's in trouble. 177 00:09:26,414 --> 00:09:28,148 Love you. Bye. 178 00:09:28,182 --> 00:09:31,752 Opioid prescriptions at New Amsterdam are down 38%. 179 00:09:31,786 --> 00:09:34,354 We've won awards. We're a national model. 180 00:09:34,389 --> 00:09:36,490 The Nyler family's rightfully drowning 181 00:09:36,524 --> 00:09:37,824 in class-action lawsuits. 182 00:09:37,859 --> 00:09:39,993 And yet, deaths from narcotic overdoses 183 00:09:40,028 --> 00:09:42,095 are skyrocketing. Know by how much? 184 00:09:42,130 --> 00:09:44,932 240%. So mission accomplished? 185 00:09:44,966 --> 00:09:46,818 You instituted that policy. 186 00:09:46,852 --> 00:09:50,571 Yeah, to save lives, but that policy was a blunt instrument 187 00:09:50,605 --> 00:09:52,105 that put paper over people. 188 00:09:52,140 --> 00:09:54,541 So you're denouncing your own hugely successful policy? 189 00:09:54,576 --> 00:09:56,109 - Well, that's just it. - It wasn't successful. 190 00:09:56,144 --> 00:09:59,146 Our books were clean, but at the cost of hurting people 191 00:09:59,180 --> 00:10:01,014 who needed our help. We have to do better. 192 00:10:01,049 --> 00:10:02,349 By returning to the halcyon days 193 00:10:02,383 --> 00:10:05,252 when doled out highly addictive drugs like Halloween candy? 194 00:10:05,286 --> 00:10:07,788 Karen, do you know what it feels like to have bone cancer? 195 00:10:07,822 --> 00:10:09,323 - Oh, Max. - It's like being stabbed 196 00:10:09,357 --> 00:10:10,924 over and over again 197 00:10:10,959 --> 00:10:13,026 all day long with a serrated knife, 198 00:10:13,061 --> 00:10:14,895 and the only, the only thing, 199 00:10:14,929 --> 00:10:17,564 that is gonna ease that excruciating pain 200 00:10:17,599 --> 00:10:18,932 is opioids. 201 00:10:18,967 --> 00:10:20,901 Those aren't my words. 202 00:10:20,935 --> 00:10:22,369 They're Brenna Argento's, 203 00:10:22,403 --> 00:10:24,087 a patient that we... 204 00:10:24,872 --> 00:10:27,140 that I let down. 205 00:10:27,175 --> 00:10:29,943 You don't convince me opioids work. 206 00:10:29,978 --> 00:10:33,046 That was never the issue. This was always about abuse. 207 00:10:33,081 --> 00:10:35,349 About ensuring the drugs we send into the world 208 00:10:35,383 --> 00:10:37,618 aren't getting our patients hooked or being sold 209 00:10:37,652 --> 00:10:38,952 or ending up in the wrong hands. 210 00:10:38,987 --> 00:10:40,354 You're absolutely right. 211 00:10:40,388 --> 00:10:42,222 I don't like it when we're fighting, 212 00:10:42,256 --> 00:10:43,443 - and you agree with me. - No, you're right. 213 00:10:43,475 --> 00:10:45,626 We can get opioids to the people who need them 214 00:10:45,660 --> 00:10:47,427 and in quantities that are in safe... 215 00:10:47,462 --> 00:10:49,029 Karen, yes! 216 00:10:51,459 --> 00:10:53,000 Sorry, forgot this was my office. 217 00:10:53,034 --> 00:10:54,601 Uh, would you excuse me? 218 00:10:57,205 --> 00:11:00,807 Contractions are organized and four minutes apart. 219 00:11:00,842 --> 00:11:02,417 It's official. 220 00:11:02,910 --> 00:11:04,311 What's official? 221 00:11:04,627 --> 00:11:07,047 Ella, you're gonna have a baby today. 222 00:11:07,081 --> 00:11:08,749 Oh, no, that's impossible 223 00:11:08,783 --> 00:11:10,917 'cause my due date's in three weeks. 224 00:11:10,952 --> 00:11:13,353 On a Friday. And today's Tuesday. 225 00:11:13,388 --> 00:11:16,456 And Dr. Richardson was gonna delivery my baby. 226 00:11:16,491 --> 00:11:19,259 Well, looks like someone wants to crash this party early. 227 00:11:19,293 --> 00:11:21,628 I'll be covering for Dr. Richardson all day, 228 00:11:21,663 --> 00:11:23,664 so I think we'll be seeing a lot of each other. 229 00:11:23,698 --> 00:11:25,732 I'll be back in a bit to check on your progress. 230 00:11:26,367 --> 00:11:27,776 Thank you. 231 00:11:30,271 --> 00:11:33,340 This is not OCD. This is a relaxation exercise. 232 00:11:33,374 --> 00:11:35,375 Good, you know, good. Relaxing is good. 233 00:11:35,410 --> 00:11:37,010 How is this happening? 234 00:11:37,045 --> 00:11:38,787 I am not ready for this. 235 00:11:39,447 --> 00:11:41,248 Is there someone that you would like me to call? 236 00:11:41,282 --> 00:11:44,017 - Family, friends? - No, there's only Vijay, 237 00:11:44,052 --> 00:11:45,686 and he promised he'd be here for this. 238 00:11:45,720 --> 00:11:48,088 Um, okay, uh... 239 00:11:48,122 --> 00:11:50,624 Who... uh. You could try my doula, 240 00:11:50,658 --> 00:11:52,693 but I think she's in Portland this weekend 241 00:11:52,727 --> 00:11:55,295 for her great-aunt's birthday, so that feels like a dead end. 242 00:11:55,329 --> 00:11:57,397 I know a great doula here at New Amsterdam. 243 00:11:57,432 --> 00:11:59,299 Has she been working with me for the last 26 weeks 244 00:11:59,333 --> 00:12:01,868 on ways to manage my OCD for this specific moment? 245 00:12:01,903 --> 00:12:04,395 Uh, no. 246 00:12:04,939 --> 00:12:07,607 - I had a plan. - I had such a perfect plan. 247 00:12:07,642 --> 00:12:09,067 Oh. 248 00:12:09,911 --> 00:12:12,312 Surgical suite prep to OR seven. 249 00:12:16,751 --> 00:12:17,984 Uh, Leela, hi. 250 00:12:18,019 --> 00:12:19,252 Can you clear my afternoon please? 251 00:12:19,287 --> 00:12:20,954 No pagers, no patients. Nothing. 252 00:12:20,988 --> 00:12:22,539 What are you doing? 253 00:12:23,498 --> 00:12:25,525 I'm kicking off a new plan. 254 00:12:29,230 --> 00:12:30,363 Okay. 255 00:12:30,398 --> 00:12:32,933 Well, your concern is duly noted, 256 00:12:32,967 --> 00:12:35,742 but I don't need your help. But thank you. 257 00:12:35,783 --> 00:12:37,571 You know your staff's noticed? 258 00:12:37,605 --> 00:12:39,439 I mean, even I can tell you're weak on your feet, 259 00:12:39,474 --> 00:12:42,075 and you just admitted to caloric restrictions 260 00:12:42,110 --> 00:12:43,744 spanning over 72 hours. 261 00:12:43,778 --> 00:12:45,679 It's a cleanse, Lauren. 262 00:12:45,713 --> 00:12:47,948 Really, I'm fine. 263 00:12:47,982 --> 00:12:49,750 You know you sound like every first-timer 264 00:12:49,784 --> 00:12:51,284 who's just been dragged to rehab. 265 00:12:51,319 --> 00:12:53,487 Whatever it is that you think this is, 266 00:12:53,521 --> 00:12:55,722 it isn't, and I don't appreciate the accusation. 267 00:12:55,757 --> 00:12:57,699 Do you hide food? 268 00:12:58,793 --> 00:12:59,826 Lauren... 269 00:12:59,861 --> 00:13:01,892 Sometimes people starve themselves after a binge, 270 00:13:01,930 --> 00:13:04,097 and not for health reasons, but because they feel ashamed. 271 00:13:04,132 --> 00:13:05,339 Well, it's not like that. 272 00:13:05,386 --> 00:13:07,287 Must be hard to hide your stash at home 273 00:13:07,328 --> 00:13:09,736 what with Martin and the kids, so where do you keep it? 274 00:13:09,771 --> 00:13:11,772 - Nowhere, I don't have a... - Here in this office? 275 00:13:11,806 --> 00:13:13,381 No. 276 00:13:14,142 --> 00:13:15,809 Lauren, don't. Don't. 277 00:13:16,888 --> 00:13:19,250 _ 278 00:13:19,814 --> 00:13:21,765 Oh, Iggy. 279 00:13:26,988 --> 00:13:28,555 - Hey. - It's... 280 00:13:32,293 --> 00:13:34,594 The left atrium's barely moving. 281 00:13:34,629 --> 00:13:36,763 COVID really did a number on his heart. 282 00:13:36,798 --> 00:13:39,633 Vijay said he got it here at New Amsterdam? 283 00:13:39,667 --> 00:13:42,435 - He's not the only one. - Approaching the left atrium. 284 00:13:42,470 --> 00:13:44,004 You too? 285 00:13:44,038 --> 00:13:45,672 It was in the early days. 286 00:13:45,706 --> 00:13:49,042 I wore the same mask day and night for two weeks straight. 287 00:13:49,076 --> 00:13:51,211 Then I was intubating a patient, 288 00:13:51,245 --> 00:13:52,913 got a focused blast of exhaled air 289 00:13:52,947 --> 00:13:54,214 right in my face. 290 00:13:54,248 --> 00:13:56,316 I just felt the virus coming through the mask. 291 00:13:56,633 --> 00:13:59,052 Sure enough, three days later, cough, fever, headaches. 292 00:13:59,086 --> 00:14:01,788 Yeah. Vijay. 293 00:14:01,823 --> 00:14:03,824 Why was he even here, you know? 294 00:14:03,858 --> 00:14:07,260 I mean, his age, knowing the risk, why even come in? 295 00:14:07,295 --> 00:14:09,262 - How could he not? - Vitals are stable. 296 00:14:09,297 --> 00:14:12,132 We all felt a sense of duty, 297 00:14:12,166 --> 00:14:14,534 of pride even. 298 00:14:22,777 --> 00:14:24,177 What's that? You can't... 299 00:14:24,212 --> 00:14:26,446 Ah, sorry about that. 300 00:14:26,480 --> 00:14:28,281 Hi, again. 301 00:14:28,316 --> 00:14:31,852 There are quite a few of you on this call, 302 00:14:31,886 --> 00:14:33,854 and, well, you all have something in common, 303 00:14:33,888 --> 00:14:35,822 and that's that you are all victims 304 00:14:35,857 --> 00:14:38,758 of New Amsterdam's opioid policy that kept pain meds 305 00:14:38,793 --> 00:14:41,127 from the people who need them the most. 306 00:14:41,162 --> 00:14:42,729 We failed you 307 00:14:42,763 --> 00:14:45,065 in the most fundamental way 308 00:14:45,099 --> 00:14:46,666 a hospital can. 309 00:14:46,701 --> 00:14:49,035 You came to us in pain, 310 00:14:49,070 --> 00:14:52,172 you asked for our help, and we said no. 311 00:14:52,206 --> 00:14:54,274 And what's worse, 312 00:14:54,308 --> 00:14:56,234 is we shamed you for asking. 313 00:14:57,211 --> 00:14:59,579 So I'm here to apologize 314 00:14:59,614 --> 00:15:03,083 and to tell you that that cruel policy 315 00:15:03,575 --> 00:15:04,885 ends now. 316 00:15:05,853 --> 00:15:06,820 Yes! 317 00:15:06,854 --> 00:15:07,854 Finally. 318 00:15:07,889 --> 00:15:08,855 It's about damn time. 319 00:15:08,890 --> 00:15:10,557 Yeah, all patients will get 320 00:15:10,591 --> 00:15:12,325 the prescribed opioids they need 321 00:15:12,360 --> 00:15:13,793 based on their pain levels, 322 00:15:13,828 --> 00:15:15,528 and all have you to do is swing by New Amsterdam 323 00:15:15,563 --> 00:15:18,031 once a week to pick up your pills. 324 00:15:18,065 --> 00:15:19,566 Easy as pie. 325 00:15:19,600 --> 00:15:21,334 Wait, what? 326 00:15:21,369 --> 00:15:22,736 - I can't do that. - No, no. 327 00:15:22,770 --> 00:15:25,105 We're gonna make it very, very simple. 328 00:15:25,139 --> 00:15:27,107 We're gonna establish a special clinic. 329 00:15:27,141 --> 00:15:28,642 What the hell's a special clinic? 330 00:15:28,676 --> 00:15:29,769 I live in Long Island. 331 00:15:29,803 --> 00:15:31,778 It's a three-hour trip if I'm lucky. 332 00:15:31,812 --> 00:15:33,780 Excuse me, I have four kids and a job, 333 00:15:33,814 --> 00:15:35,315 and you expect me to spend my one day off 334 00:15:35,349 --> 00:15:36,616 with you every week? 335 00:15:36,651 --> 00:15:38,919 Okay, I'm hearing some concerns 336 00:15:38,953 --> 00:15:40,720 about the policy that we were 337 00:15:40,755 --> 00:15:42,856 all just very excited about. 338 00:15:42,890 --> 00:15:44,524 But I'll just be honest. 339 00:15:44,558 --> 00:15:46,760 The hospital has some concerns 340 00:15:46,794 --> 00:15:49,729 about portion control. 341 00:15:49,764 --> 00:15:52,132 Portion control? Like I'm five? 342 00:15:52,166 --> 00:15:53,533 No, no, no. 343 00:15:53,567 --> 00:15:55,869 It's just that these pills are highly addictive, 344 00:15:55,903 --> 00:15:58,163 and we do need to make sure that nobody is using 345 00:15:58,197 --> 00:16:00,774 or distributing these pills inappropriately. 346 00:16:00,808 --> 00:16:02,475 So now you think I'm dealing? 347 00:16:02,510 --> 00:16:03,944 - No. - You just said 348 00:16:03,978 --> 00:16:05,845 the shaming of chronic pain treatment was over. 349 00:16:05,880 --> 00:16:07,514 And it is, but... 350 00:16:07,548 --> 00:16:09,616 - Are you serious, Max? - Come on. 351 00:16:09,650 --> 00:16:11,384 - That's not gonna work. - No way. 352 00:16:11,419 --> 00:16:12,519 Um... 353 00:16:12,553 --> 00:16:14,487 - What a joke. - I'm outta here. 354 00:16:14,522 --> 00:16:15,922 - Come on, Max. - This is ridiculous. 355 00:16:15,957 --> 00:16:18,391 - Thanks for nothing. - I'm closing this window. 356 00:16:27,666 --> 00:16:30,867 Thank you all for responding to my multiple app requests. 357 00:16:30,902 --> 00:16:33,303 I have some deliveries for you. 358 00:16:33,337 --> 00:16:36,706 Addresses are grouped together for maximum efficiency. 359 00:16:36,985 --> 00:16:39,319 - Those burritos? - They are not. 360 00:16:39,354 --> 00:16:41,054 Are your items heat sensitive? 361 00:16:41,089 --> 00:16:43,724 - No, we're good. - So if you wanna grab your bag... 362 00:16:43,758 --> 00:16:46,126 Are dealing with breakable items like figurines? 363 00:16:46,161 --> 00:16:48,629 - Are they insured? - Are we liable here? 364 00:16:48,663 --> 00:16:51,265 I... no, it's very simple. 365 00:16:51,299 --> 00:16:53,600 Some of our patients are having a hard time 366 00:16:53,635 --> 00:16:55,836 getting to the hospital to pick up their prescriptions, 367 00:16:55,870 --> 00:16:58,672 so I am hiring all of you 368 00:16:58,706 --> 00:16:59,873 to solve that problem. 369 00:16:59,908 --> 00:17:02,102 So we're delivering drugs. 370 00:17:03,619 --> 00:17:05,253 Technically, yes? 371 00:17:06,541 --> 00:17:08,708 But uh... 372 00:17:09,784 --> 00:17:12,219 did I mention there's a 25% tip? 373 00:17:13,388 --> 00:17:14,955 All right. 374 00:17:17,325 --> 00:17:20,394 Yo, how many are we allowed to take? 375 00:17:20,428 --> 00:17:22,463 Okay, okay. 376 00:17:22,497 --> 00:17:23,664 That was smooth. 377 00:17:23,698 --> 00:17:25,098 That was the alcohol swipe. 378 00:17:25,133 --> 00:17:26,843 Getting started now. 379 00:17:27,735 --> 00:17:29,550 Oh, my God. Distract me. 380 00:17:29,585 --> 00:17:30,804 Uh, distract you? 381 00:17:30,831 --> 00:17:32,039 Say something. Anything. 382 00:17:32,071 --> 00:17:33,640 Um, okay. 383 00:17:33,675 --> 00:17:36,810 Did you know that women blink nearly twice as much as men? 384 00:17:36,845 --> 00:17:38,512 Nope, something interesting. 385 00:17:38,546 --> 00:17:40,914 Fine, fine. Okay. 386 00:17:40,949 --> 00:17:43,050 Aah, it feels like a sword! 387 00:17:43,084 --> 00:17:45,118 Like I'm literally being stabbed by a sword! 388 00:17:45,153 --> 00:17:47,154 All right, okay. Um... 389 00:17:47,188 --> 00:17:49,250 there's this gorgeous man, 390 00:17:49,275 --> 00:17:51,358 this doctor that I was seeing. 391 00:17:51,392 --> 00:17:53,160 - Yes, good. - Am seeing. 392 00:17:53,194 --> 00:17:56,196 - Well, mmm, was seeing. - I don't know. 393 00:17:56,231 --> 00:17:57,664 I don't know. 394 00:17:57,699 --> 00:18:00,634 But we started dating just when the pandemic hit, 395 00:18:00,668 --> 00:18:03,003 and I thought about him for months during the lockdown. 396 00:18:03,037 --> 00:18:04,872 I fantasized about him. 397 00:18:04,906 --> 00:18:07,174 But then, the other day, 398 00:18:07,208 --> 00:18:09,610 when he reached out to touch me, I pulled away. 399 00:18:11,126 --> 00:18:14,474 I recoiled like I was physically repelled by him... 400 00:18:16,750 --> 00:18:18,727 And I don't know. I don't know. Is it me? 401 00:18:18,752 --> 00:18:20,592 Am I that scared to be touched by someone, 402 00:18:20,617 --> 00:18:22,919 or is it him? 403 00:18:24,726 --> 00:18:26,126 Did what we have, 404 00:18:26,160 --> 00:18:28,529 did it just sort of... 405 00:18:29,419 --> 00:18:30,864 No, keep going. 406 00:18:30,899 --> 00:18:32,666 But fast forward to the interesting part. 407 00:18:32,700 --> 00:18:35,036 Did he dump you? Are you sad? 408 00:18:35,904 --> 00:18:38,138 Aah! 409 00:18:38,172 --> 00:18:40,107 Was that a contraction? 410 00:18:40,141 --> 00:18:41,208 Mm-hmm. Mmm! 411 00:18:41,242 --> 00:18:42,643 What? The epidural seems to be 412 00:18:42,677 --> 00:18:44,244 - taking its sweet time. - Yeah, it should've 413 00:18:44,279 --> 00:18:46,480 kicked in by now. Unfortunately, 414 00:18:46,514 --> 00:18:49,449 I think the catheter's tip is in the sub-dural space. 415 00:18:49,484 --> 00:18:50,984 It didn't work? 416 00:18:51,019 --> 00:18:52,254 It didn't work? 417 00:18:53,345 --> 00:18:56,156 Uh, can we try again the epidural? 418 00:18:58,153 --> 00:19:01,121 - It's too late, sweetheart. - You're too far along. 419 00:19:01,688 --> 00:19:05,386 Ella, you're gonna have to do this on your own. 420 00:19:05,413 --> 00:19:07,701 No. No. 421 00:19:07,735 --> 00:19:09,269 No, no, no, no, no, no. 422 00:19:10,305 --> 00:19:12,490 All right, I know how this looks. 423 00:19:13,107 --> 00:19:15,160 I do. Believe me. 424 00:19:16,811 --> 00:19:19,513 But these are my dad's words. 425 00:19:19,547 --> 00:19:21,481 They're his words, 426 00:19:21,516 --> 00:19:25,003 and growing up, I had to hear them practically every day. 427 00:19:25,587 --> 00:19:29,222 My father struggled with his weight his entire life, 428 00:19:29,257 --> 00:19:31,725 and he didn't want me to suffer the same fate. 429 00:19:31,759 --> 00:19:33,427 So at an early age, 430 00:19:33,461 --> 00:19:35,472 he took an interest in my weight. 431 00:19:35,930 --> 00:19:37,164 An interest? 432 00:19:37,198 --> 00:19:38,832 Mm-hmm, yeah. 433 00:19:38,866 --> 00:19:41,268 It started around the third grade. 434 00:19:41,302 --> 00:19:43,146 I filled out a little bit, and, uh, 435 00:19:44,138 --> 00:19:46,773 he would make me go on crash diets 436 00:19:46,808 --> 00:19:48,709 out of the blue, 437 00:19:48,743 --> 00:19:51,178 skip meals, take meal replacement bars to school. 438 00:19:51,212 --> 00:19:52,579 As a nine-year-old? 439 00:19:52,614 --> 00:19:53,740 Mm-hmm. 440 00:19:54,782 --> 00:19:56,451 Yeah, and... 441 00:19:57,352 --> 00:20:01,088 he would make me take my shirt off 442 00:20:01,122 --> 00:20:03,323 so he could take pictures of my body 443 00:20:03,358 --> 00:20:06,760 to, um, put up on the wall in the basement 444 00:20:06,794 --> 00:20:09,296 next to the makeshift gym that he'd built for me 445 00:20:09,330 --> 00:20:11,164 to track my process. 446 00:20:11,199 --> 00:20:14,501 There was a body progress chart. 447 00:20:14,535 --> 00:20:16,360 And if I would ever walk by him, 448 00:20:16,418 --> 00:20:18,338 he would smack my gut and say, 449 00:20:18,373 --> 00:20:19,906 "Jesus, look at that thing." 450 00:20:21,609 --> 00:20:23,910 "Got a lot of work left to do, don't we, buddy?" 451 00:20:23,945 --> 00:20:26,346 And what's worse is, 452 00:20:26,381 --> 00:20:29,549 if I ever had a good weigh-in, which was not very often, 453 00:20:29,584 --> 00:20:32,586 I, uh, I would be over the moon 454 00:20:32,620 --> 00:20:34,721 because it would make me feel loved. 455 00:20:41,258 --> 00:20:44,727 Then... this one time, 456 00:20:44,866 --> 00:20:46,900 I guess I would've been in middle school by this point, 457 00:20:46,934 --> 00:20:48,336 I just... I... 458 00:20:48,911 --> 00:20:50,511 I hated everything about myself. 459 00:20:52,549 --> 00:20:54,941 So I tried to hang myself. 460 00:20:54,976 --> 00:20:56,177 What? 461 00:20:56,778 --> 00:20:58,378 Jesus, Iggy. 462 00:20:58,413 --> 00:21:00,747 No, it's okay. 463 00:21:00,782 --> 00:21:02,725 It didn't work, obviously. 464 00:21:04,185 --> 00:21:05,986 Ironically, I was too fat 465 00:21:06,020 --> 00:21:07,654 for the rod in the basement closet 466 00:21:07,689 --> 00:21:10,691 to hold me up, and it crashed down on my head, 467 00:21:10,725 --> 00:21:13,393 and my mom heard the sound and came to help me. 468 00:21:13,428 --> 00:21:16,163 What? What did your dad say? 469 00:21:16,197 --> 00:21:17,864 Oh. 470 00:21:17,899 --> 00:21:20,796 My dad, um, well, 471 00:21:20,820 --> 00:21:22,254 that night at my weigh-in, 472 00:21:22,289 --> 00:21:24,623 he just snapped another polaroid for the wall 473 00:21:24,658 --> 00:21:26,926 and acted like nothing ever happened. 474 00:21:29,581 --> 00:21:31,649 That's my dad for you. 475 00:21:39,806 --> 00:21:41,639 These are his words, 476 00:21:42,075 --> 00:21:43,776 but they don't control me anymore. 477 00:21:43,810 --> 00:21:45,224 They do not. 478 00:21:45,263 --> 00:21:46,946 They serve as a reminder of all of the things 479 00:21:46,980 --> 00:21:49,281 that I have conquered, which is a lot, 480 00:21:49,316 --> 00:21:51,417 and sometimes I look at these words, 481 00:21:51,451 --> 00:21:53,987 and they remind that I'm not that kid anymore 482 00:21:54,033 --> 00:21:55,760 and that I'm making better decisions. 483 00:21:55,802 --> 00:21:58,457 I'm making healthy decisions in my life. 484 00:22:00,894 --> 00:22:04,797 And that I no longer need to stand around with my shirt off 485 00:22:04,831 --> 00:22:07,499 - and let others judge me. - What? 486 00:22:09,250 --> 00:22:10,903 You know that's not what I was doing, right? 487 00:22:10,937 --> 00:22:12,378 I'm fine. 488 00:22:13,421 --> 00:22:14,907 I am more than fine. 489 00:22:14,941 --> 00:22:16,442 You can rest easy. 490 00:22:16,925 --> 00:22:20,079 Now if you'll excuse me, I have patients to see. 491 00:22:22,349 --> 00:22:24,783 No, I'm... I'm being careful. 492 00:22:24,818 --> 00:22:26,434 Yeah. 493 00:22:27,120 --> 00:22:29,521 Ma, I'm gonna see you soon. 494 00:22:29,556 --> 00:22:32,458 Okay, yeah. I love you too. 495 00:22:32,492 --> 00:22:34,226 All right. 496 00:22:34,260 --> 00:22:36,695 Heard you pulled off one hell of a TAVR. 497 00:22:36,730 --> 00:22:38,464 Just this side of genius. 498 00:22:38,498 --> 00:22:40,332 I accept your apology, Max. 499 00:22:40,367 --> 00:22:41,600 You need anything else while you're here? 500 00:22:41,635 --> 00:22:43,602 Aw, no, just catching up with some folks. 501 00:22:43,637 --> 00:22:46,205 You know, I missed my favorite scrub nurse in OR today, JJ. 502 00:22:46,239 --> 00:22:47,306 - Devlin. - Yeah. 503 00:22:47,340 --> 00:22:48,741 He passed away a few months ago. 504 00:22:48,775 --> 00:22:50,142 COVID. 505 00:22:51,277 --> 00:22:52,978 That's too bad. 506 00:22:53,013 --> 00:22:54,613 Everything's changed. 507 00:22:54,648 --> 00:22:56,482 - Dr. Max Goodwin. - That's me. 508 00:22:56,516 --> 00:22:58,593 - You're under arrest. - Whoa, what's going on? 509 00:22:58,632 --> 00:22:59,766 For what? 510 00:22:59,814 --> 00:23:01,787 For writing 700 Oxycodone prescriptions, 511 00:23:01,821 --> 00:23:03,355 each one over 100 milligrams, 512 00:23:03,390 --> 00:23:04,990 and distributing them with bike messengers. 513 00:23:05,025 --> 00:23:06,825 Oh, that. 514 00:23:06,860 --> 00:23:08,927 It's nice to see some things haven't changed. 515 00:23:15,231 --> 00:23:16,368 BP's 80/40 and falling. 516 00:23:16,403 --> 00:23:17,636 Push epi, I'm coming in. 517 00:23:17,671 --> 00:23:19,571 I need an echo over here. 518 00:23:19,606 --> 00:23:20,805 What happened? 519 00:23:20,839 --> 00:23:23,709 - The clip didn't hold. - His heart is failing. 520 00:23:36,317 --> 00:23:39,653 The DA only agreed to not press charges for narcotics trafficking 521 00:23:39,687 --> 00:23:40,988 because you're an essential worker. 522 00:23:41,022 --> 00:23:43,156 - Huh. - Congratulations. 523 00:23:43,191 --> 00:23:45,192 You're one of the select few to benefit from COVID-19. 524 00:23:45,226 --> 00:23:46,526 Thanks for getting me out. 525 00:23:46,561 --> 00:23:48,195 I have half a mind to leave you in there. 526 00:23:48,229 --> 00:23:50,130 You know, pharmacies mail opioids all the time. 527 00:23:50,164 --> 00:23:52,733 Bike messengers are almost the same. 528 00:23:52,767 --> 00:23:54,801 I wonder if you've ever considered how exhausting it is 529 00:23:54,836 --> 00:23:55,969 to be your boss. 530 00:23:56,481 --> 00:23:58,071 All your wonderful ideas 531 00:23:58,106 --> 00:24:00,807 that come with such chaos, every single one. 532 00:24:00,842 --> 00:24:02,142 It's funny. 533 00:24:02,176 --> 00:24:05,012 The thing you're best at is the part of my job I hate the most. 534 00:24:05,046 --> 00:24:06,980 - You ignore reality. - That's not fair. 535 00:24:07,015 --> 00:24:10,017 Says the man who just sent 70,000 milligrams of Oxy 536 00:24:10,051 --> 00:24:11,551 out into the street via bike messenger. 537 00:24:11,586 --> 00:24:13,487 I know it seems like a good idea. 538 00:24:13,521 --> 00:24:15,656 Hell, it might even be a good idea, 539 00:24:15,690 --> 00:24:18,158 but it's my job to deal with the reality of your ideas, 540 00:24:18,192 --> 00:24:20,761 in this case criminal reality. Optics matter. 541 00:24:20,795 --> 00:24:22,217 Patients matter. 542 00:24:22,830 --> 00:24:25,599 I'm glad you're helping people, Max, truly. 543 00:24:25,633 --> 00:24:28,268 But your plan has no accountability. 544 00:24:28,302 --> 00:24:29,703 You don't know where these drugs are going. 545 00:24:29,737 --> 00:24:31,138 You just don't. 546 00:24:31,172 --> 00:24:33,603 And opioids, the potential for abuse, 547 00:24:34,208 --> 00:24:36,272 it's a very emotional issue. 548 00:24:36,844 --> 00:24:39,680 To many people, opioids aren't pain medicine. 549 00:24:39,714 --> 00:24:41,682 They're what killed someone they loved. 550 00:24:49,123 --> 00:24:51,124 Wait. Iggy. 551 00:24:51,159 --> 00:24:52,826 Iggy, I wasn't judging you. 552 00:24:52,860 --> 00:24:54,261 You could've fooled me. 553 00:24:54,295 --> 00:24:57,030 It was just... people die from what you're doing. 554 00:24:57,065 --> 00:24:58,365 What did she say? 555 00:25:04,372 --> 00:25:07,720 In here. In here. 556 00:25:12,814 --> 00:25:14,514 Ig. 557 00:25:14,549 --> 00:25:16,717 Ig, look, I'm sorry for making a scene. 558 00:25:16,751 --> 00:25:18,251 You should be. 559 00:25:18,606 --> 00:25:20,287 It's just 560 00:25:20,321 --> 00:25:23,290 I've seen people in my ED with eating disorders. 561 00:25:23,324 --> 00:25:25,225 I mean, I've known people with eating disorders. 562 00:25:25,259 --> 00:25:26,860 Some of them... 563 00:25:26,894 --> 00:25:28,128 they're not here anymore. 564 00:25:28,162 --> 00:25:29,529 Mm-hmm. 565 00:25:29,564 --> 00:25:31,331 Look. 566 00:25:31,365 --> 00:25:33,734 I know as well anyone 567 00:25:33,768 --> 00:25:36,403 that the truth is really difficult. 568 00:25:36,437 --> 00:25:39,573 I'm sorry. What are you doing? 569 00:25:39,607 --> 00:25:42,142 Are you comparing your issues to mine right now? 570 00:25:42,176 --> 00:25:43,810 Let me just mirror that back for you 571 00:25:43,845 --> 00:25:45,245 so you can hear it out loud. 572 00:25:45,279 --> 00:25:47,714 I'm on the Jimmy Kimmel diet, 573 00:25:47,749 --> 00:25:50,684 and you almost killed a patient because you are a drug addict. 574 00:25:52,687 --> 00:25:55,288 - Not the same. - That was way out of line. 575 00:25:55,323 --> 00:25:57,324 I'm outta line? It's not hard, Lauren. 576 00:25:57,358 --> 00:25:58,625 This is a hospital. 577 00:25:58,659 --> 00:26:00,260 There's only one line that matters. 578 00:26:00,294 --> 00:26:03,096 You were hurting patients. I am not. 579 00:26:03,131 --> 00:26:04,564 Plain and simple! 580 00:26:04,599 --> 00:26:06,433 Patients aren't the only people you can hurt. 581 00:26:06,467 --> 00:26:07,848 Oh, yeah? Well, I think the janitors 582 00:26:07,879 --> 00:26:10,533 - are safe from my eating too. - Yeah? What about your kids? 583 00:26:13,364 --> 00:26:14,769 - Excuse me? - You're starving yourself. 584 00:26:14,803 --> 00:26:15,981 You think they don't notice that? 585 00:26:16,016 --> 00:26:18,078 - You stop talking. - How many meals have you had with them 586 00:26:18,112 --> 00:26:19,117 - where you haven't eaten anything? - Stop! 587 00:26:19,151 --> 00:26:20,447 How many have you skipped altogether? 588 00:26:20,481 --> 00:26:21,549 I mean, what kind of screwed up issues 589 00:26:21,586 --> 00:26:23,350 are your kids gonna have with food because of you? 590 00:26:23,384 --> 00:26:25,352 Occupied! 591 00:26:27,708 --> 00:26:29,643 It's a bad time, Gladys. 592 00:26:29,824 --> 00:26:31,513 It's Dr. Kapoor. 593 00:26:31,993 --> 00:26:33,326 The clip failed, 594 00:26:33,361 --> 00:26:35,295 tore right through the valve leaflets. 595 00:26:35,329 --> 00:26:36,563 I'm gonna have to crack open his chest 596 00:26:36,597 --> 00:26:37,964 and put in an artificial valve. 597 00:26:37,999 --> 00:26:39,800 That's a big surgery. 598 00:26:39,834 --> 00:26:41,444 I thought you said you couldn't sew into the muscle. 599 00:26:41,483 --> 00:26:44,805 - What changed? - Nothing. Not a damn thing. 600 00:26:44,839 --> 00:26:47,674 But he'll make it through the surgery, right? 601 00:26:53,014 --> 00:26:54,481 That's why I thought you should see him now, 602 00:26:54,515 --> 00:26:56,162 and have one more moment with him 603 00:26:57,685 --> 00:26:59,374 in case... 604 00:26:59,887 --> 00:27:01,354 I'm gonna go prep. 605 00:27:12,693 --> 00:27:14,534 You're fully effaced and dilated, 606 00:27:14,569 --> 00:27:16,803 but the baby's still at minus three position. 607 00:27:16,838 --> 00:27:18,713 Ella, the delivery isn't progressing as I had hoped. 608 00:27:18,753 --> 00:27:19,914 What does that mean? 609 00:27:19,939 --> 00:27:23,202 When your contraction comes, you need to push real hard. 610 00:27:23,227 --> 00:27:25,128 Oh, my God, this is a disaster. 611 00:27:25,153 --> 00:27:26,734 Maybe you could hold her hand. 612 00:27:29,178 --> 00:27:30,614 E-Ella. 613 00:27:30,648 --> 00:27:31,581 Look. Look. 614 00:27:31,619 --> 00:27:33,520 Count them out with me, okay? 615 00:27:33,554 --> 00:27:35,222 Here we go. 616 00:27:35,256 --> 00:27:36,857 Give me the biggest push you got. 617 00:27:36,891 --> 00:27:38,758 You can do this. Come on, come on. 618 00:27:38,793 --> 00:27:41,583 No, I can't! Stop, I don't want to! 619 00:27:42,063 --> 00:27:45,031 What if the baby's not okay? What if I hurt it? 620 00:27:45,066 --> 00:27:47,868 What I ate undercooked meat and didn't know it? 621 00:27:47,902 --> 00:27:49,703 And seven weeks ago I took a bath 622 00:27:49,737 --> 00:27:51,004 right after the tub was cleaned, 623 00:27:51,038 --> 00:27:52,205 and the water probably had bleach in it. 624 00:27:52,240 --> 00:27:53,473 What kind of mom is that careless? 625 00:27:53,507 --> 00:27:54,741 You are not careless. 626 00:27:54,775 --> 00:27:57,410 You have disorder that sends your pregnancy into overdrive, 627 00:27:57,445 --> 00:27:59,713 but you fought it, and you've made it this far. 628 00:27:59,747 --> 00:28:02,048 I cheated. I got scans all the time. 629 00:28:02,083 --> 00:28:03,450 Sometimes two days in a row 630 00:28:03,484 --> 00:28:05,051 in case something happened while I was sleeping. 631 00:28:05,086 --> 00:28:06,653 But then everything shut down, 632 00:28:06,687 --> 00:28:08,488 and Vijay got sick, and I don't know why, 633 00:28:08,522 --> 00:28:10,257 but I just convinced myself 634 00:28:10,291 --> 00:28:12,926 that the baby was going to be okay as long as he was okay. 635 00:28:12,960 --> 00:28:14,227 What if Vijay's not okay? 636 00:28:14,262 --> 00:28:16,496 Ella! Everything on that monitor 637 00:28:16,530 --> 00:28:18,064 says that your baby is going to be okay, 638 00:28:18,099 --> 00:28:19,366 but you have to deliver it... 639 00:28:19,400 --> 00:28:20,767 No! Oh. 640 00:28:20,802 --> 00:28:22,269 - Contractions peaking. - Aah! 641 00:28:22,303 --> 00:28:23,570 You can do it. 642 00:28:23,604 --> 00:28:24,938 Your baby needs you to push now. 643 00:28:24,972 --> 00:28:27,741 Aah. 644 00:28:43,991 --> 00:28:45,625 Eh? 645 00:28:46,327 --> 00:28:48,595 Yeah, yeah, buddy? What is it? 646 00:28:49,964 --> 00:28:51,531 Hit me. 647 00:28:52,266 --> 00:28:54,197 You're such a good dad. 648 00:28:55,102 --> 00:28:56,636 Aw, I don't know. I... 649 00:29:03,311 --> 00:29:05,979 If this doesn't work out... 650 00:29:08,282 --> 00:29:10,130 Will you look after 651 00:29:10,985 --> 00:29:13,353 Ella and the baby? 652 00:29:48,089 --> 00:29:50,156 You've got this. 653 00:29:50,191 --> 00:29:52,058 You can do it. 654 00:29:53,327 --> 00:29:55,161 Hey. 655 00:29:55,196 --> 00:29:56,563 And I am dying... 656 00:29:56,597 --> 00:29:57,998 - What are you talking about? - Don't be silly. 657 00:29:58,032 --> 00:29:59,432 You are going to be annoying her 658 00:29:59,467 --> 00:30:01,034 for the rest of your life, okay? 659 00:30:02,949 --> 00:30:04,350 Please. 660 00:30:07,541 --> 00:30:09,731 If something happens, I... 661 00:30:11,212 --> 00:30:13,346 Yes. 662 00:30:13,381 --> 00:30:15,515 Obviously. 663 00:30:17,051 --> 00:30:18,051 Good. 664 00:30:34,046 --> 00:30:36,347 Listen, Iggy. 665 00:30:36,382 --> 00:30:38,116 - Lauren, I'm fine. - No. 666 00:30:38,150 --> 00:30:40,485 I never should've dragged your kids into this. 667 00:30:42,187 --> 00:30:44,155 I'm really sorry. 668 00:30:46,492 --> 00:30:48,978 A couple nights ago, I was, uh, 669 00:30:49,662 --> 00:30:51,115 I was wearing this nice new sweater 670 00:30:51,150 --> 00:30:53,164 that Martin gave me, and, um... 671 00:30:56,667 --> 00:30:58,868 Harper told me that I looked handsome in it. 672 00:31:01,106 --> 00:31:03,741 Then I immediately grabbed my stomach, 673 00:31:03,776 --> 00:31:05,710 and I told her that she was wrong. 674 00:31:08,314 --> 00:31:09,981 It just popped out of mouth. 675 00:31:15,554 --> 00:31:17,855 I say things like that all the time. 676 00:31:20,526 --> 00:31:22,427 And Vijay thinks that I'm a great father? 677 00:31:23,662 --> 00:31:25,530 I'm teaching my kids 678 00:31:25,564 --> 00:31:28,733 that someone who looks like me doesn't deserve to be loved. 679 00:31:31,370 --> 00:31:35,073 That is the same lesson that my dad taught me. 680 00:31:35,107 --> 00:31:37,075 Aw, man. 681 00:31:38,463 --> 00:31:40,655 He just used different words. 682 00:31:45,284 --> 00:31:46,551 Iggy. 683 00:31:48,520 --> 00:31:50,623 These aren't your dad's words. 684 00:31:51,256 --> 00:31:52,490 You wrote this. 685 00:31:52,524 --> 00:31:54,025 I know. 686 00:31:54,059 --> 00:31:57,475 These are your words. You're calling yourself this, 687 00:31:57,509 --> 00:32:00,842 and you're keep suffering until you stop. 688 00:32:02,518 --> 00:32:04,235 If I can't stop, 689 00:32:04,269 --> 00:32:07,772 this note, that voice... 690 00:32:09,714 --> 00:32:12,649 It's the thing about myself that feels the most true. 691 00:32:13,846 --> 00:32:16,107 How do you stop believing that? 692 00:32:18,083 --> 00:32:21,386 Well, you could try talking to a therapist. 693 00:32:25,190 --> 00:32:26,290 Hey, I did. 694 00:32:28,260 --> 00:32:29,927 He saved my life. 695 00:32:38,537 --> 00:32:40,304 Come here. 696 00:32:42,674 --> 00:32:44,761 - Thank you. - Yeah. 697 00:33:54,313 --> 00:33:58,649 ? Come on, Johnny, please 698 00:33:58,684 --> 00:34:04,589 ? Won't you speak to me? 699 00:34:08,961 --> 00:34:11,362 Ready to restart the heart. 700 00:34:11,396 --> 00:34:12,530 Everything's solid. 701 00:34:12,564 --> 00:34:14,565 Charging. Clear. 702 00:34:14,600 --> 00:34:15,967 Suctioning. 703 00:34:19,938 --> 00:34:21,939 Quarter's ready. 704 00:34:28,780 --> 00:34:30,325 We did it. 705 00:34:31,617 --> 00:34:33,351 Good job, everyone. 706 00:34:38,757 --> 00:34:39,957 Ooh. 707 00:34:39,992 --> 00:34:42,226 All right, let's close him up. 708 00:34:48,333 --> 00:34:49,901 BP is dropping. 709 00:34:49,939 --> 00:34:51,536 What? 710 00:34:51,570 --> 00:34:53,237 - Heart valve's not holding. - It's slipping. 711 00:34:53,272 --> 00:34:54,839 Give me a 3-0 proline on the needle driver. 712 00:34:54,873 --> 00:34:56,407 Times two. 713 00:34:56,441 --> 00:34:59,062 You work the septum, I'll work the free wall. 714 00:34:59,845 --> 00:35:01,445 I'm gonna have to get him back on bypass. 715 00:35:01,480 --> 00:35:03,020 We can't reestablish aortic cannulation. 716 00:35:04,191 --> 00:35:05,416 As a backup, yes. 717 00:35:07,152 --> 00:35:08,853 - My stitches aren't holding. - Neither are mine. 718 00:35:08,887 --> 00:35:10,187 - Trying 5-0. - Suction needs to be higher. 719 00:35:10,222 --> 00:35:11,822 I'm not getting any purchase. 720 00:35:11,857 --> 00:35:13,368 Another bag. 721 00:35:13,759 --> 00:35:15,560 Come on. Hold, damn it. 722 00:35:15,594 --> 00:35:17,330 Flash sterilized. 723 00:35:34,346 --> 00:35:36,013 Ansuya. 724 00:35:40,218 --> 00:35:42,286 Ansuya. 725 00:36:03,542 --> 00:36:06,243 Ansuya. 726 00:36:07,613 --> 00:36:09,714 Vijay. 727 00:36:27,124 --> 00:36:28,858 Eat this. 728 00:36:30,936 --> 00:36:32,614 I don't need it. 729 00:36:35,240 --> 00:36:37,535 All I need is you. 730 00:36:38,310 --> 00:36:40,778 It will give you strength 731 00:36:40,812 --> 00:36:42,791 for our granddaughter. 732 00:36:43,849 --> 00:36:45,216 Granddaughter? 733 00:36:45,250 --> 00:36:47,785 She needs her Dadaji. 734 00:37:11,843 --> 00:37:13,978 Vijay? 735 00:37:24,723 --> 00:37:26,557 He's waking up. 736 00:37:26,591 --> 00:37:28,125 Oh, thank God. Vijay. 737 00:37:29,828 --> 00:37:31,762 Welcome back, Dr. Kapoor. 738 00:38:01,626 --> 00:38:04,762 Happy birthday, little one. 739 00:38:12,971 --> 00:38:15,172 Uh, K-Karen! 740 00:38:15,207 --> 00:38:17,641 - Are the cops chasing you now? - Uh, I don't know, 741 00:38:17,676 --> 00:38:20,044 but I did come up with a solve for our opioid issue, 742 00:38:20,078 --> 00:38:21,679 and I think you're really gonna like it. 743 00:38:21,713 --> 00:38:23,180 And here I thought we knew each other better. 744 00:38:23,215 --> 00:38:24,882 Watermarking. 745 00:38:25,101 --> 00:38:28,552 So every single opioid that New Amsterdam sends out 746 00:38:28,587 --> 00:38:30,054 into the world will be watermarked 747 00:38:30,088 --> 00:38:32,923 with invisible, fluorescent fibers. 748 00:38:32,958 --> 00:38:35,192 Every patient will have access 749 00:38:35,227 --> 00:38:37,928 to the medicine they need and without shame. 750 00:38:37,963 --> 00:38:40,408 And they'll be able to manage their pain, 751 00:38:40,899 --> 00:38:43,620 and they'll be able to live functional lives. 752 00:38:43,645 --> 00:38:46,470 But if those pills ever do end up in the street, 753 00:38:46,505 --> 00:38:48,172 or in the wrong hands, we'll know. 754 00:38:48,206 --> 00:38:50,585 There will be no drug trafficking, 755 00:38:51,109 --> 00:38:54,712 and there will be accountability. 756 00:38:56,248 --> 00:38:58,082 Oh, and I almost forgot the best part. 757 00:38:58,116 --> 00:39:00,553 The Nylers are gonna pay for it. 758 00:39:01,119 --> 00:39:02,720 Why would they do that? 759 00:39:02,754 --> 00:39:04,455 They kinda have to. 760 00:39:04,489 --> 00:39:05,556 Part of their settlement includes 761 00:39:05,590 --> 00:39:08,103 donating millions of dollars to public hospitals, 762 00:39:08,593 --> 00:39:09,927 just like ours. 763 00:39:11,396 --> 00:39:13,497 I don't know what to say. 764 00:39:13,532 --> 00:39:15,633 It sounds like a well-thought-out 765 00:39:15,667 --> 00:39:17,034 and realistic plan. 766 00:39:17,068 --> 00:39:18,803 I know. Weird, right? 767 00:39:20,539 --> 00:39:21,866 Karen. 768 00:39:23,275 --> 00:39:26,710 Thank you for keeping me accountable. 769 00:39:26,977 --> 00:39:28,677 That's my job. 770 00:39:30,122 --> 00:39:33,324 And every once and a while, it's worth it. 771 00:39:57,541 --> 00:39:59,362 I'm not ready. 772 00:40:01,546 --> 00:40:02,824 Okay. 773 00:40:06,051 --> 00:40:10,154 I mean, I'm not ready to call it. 774 00:41:50,822 --> 00:41:52,434 I should've been here. 775 00:41:54,192 --> 00:41:56,660 Well, you're here now. 776 00:42:14,181 --> 00:42:18,181 CREDITS