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- Previously on "Chance"...
- Hey.

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Woman found with her throat cut,
a kid shot in the head

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breaking into a car
registered to Ryan Winter.

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I'm gonna need you to get into
Ryan Winter's head for me.

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You were attacked by a stranger,
targeted for whatever reason.

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Rear choke like that
for longer than 40 seconds,

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and you wouldn't be here.

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Winter is here in my office.

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Change rattles him.

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If I keep him here,

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can you get into his house?

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- Already out the door, Doc.
- You spread that shit around

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about me and John.

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- Chill out.
- And then just sit here.

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You are not my friend!

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Whatever, stalker freak.

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Someone's broken into my house

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and taken things, moved things.

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What they stole has no value
other than to me.

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- Did you call the police?
- He is the police.

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Detective Kevin Hynes.

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It really freaked him out, what you did.

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Look, I don't give a shit,
but I can't lose this job.

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- In case you get hungry.
- Why didn't you scream

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- when you saw me in the house?
- 'Cause you're not scary.

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When I was 8, I was standing
on a train platform.

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This woman had come out
of the crowd, grabbed him,

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and tossed him in front of the train.

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I found a way to cope.

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There's this asshole
bullied me or whatever.

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Anytime somebody bullies you,
you should thank them every day.

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Learn to stand up for yourself now.

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Anything can be a weapon.

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- Oh.
- Oh!

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- Thank you.
- Hey, take a bow.

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- For what?
- Your good work

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made this happen.

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Ryan Winter just donated
$1 million to the unit

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in Josefa's name.

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Synced & corrected by -robtor-
www.addic7ed.com

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Pinch me, right?

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This is too good to be true.

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I agree.

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What?

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Come on.

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I don't think you should
take this money.

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What do you mean, don't? Based on what?

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Well, he's a patient with
head trauma for one thing.

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We've accepted money from victims

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and families of victims before.

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I mean, not this much money,
but they donate all the time.

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It's not unethical.

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It's what helps keep our doors open.

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Will you... will you just
listen to me for a second?

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I'm just concerned that this donation

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is gonna come with strings.

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Access.

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This is not the type of guy
who can give a million dollars

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and just leave it at that.

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Fine.

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He can have my parking spot.

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I'm serious.

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So am I.

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Do I really have to tell you
what a million dollars

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means for this unit?

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I know, I know. I just...

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I just don't want him

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to distract from the people
who actually need us.

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Yeah?

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Whoa, whoa, whoa.
Christina, s-slow down.

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Is she with you now? Okay.

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Uh, I'll meet you
at my place in 20 minutes.

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- Nicole?
- Yeah.

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I got to go. I'll call you later.

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Hey. This money,

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it'll be a good thing.

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Jesus, carryout check stand 2.

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Folic acid and iron and a stool softener

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for the iron side effects.

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You know they have flowers here.

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Folic acid helps protect
your baby against birth defects,

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and the iron prevents anemia.

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What's your name?

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D.

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D.

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I have a doctor, D.

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An O. B. For the baby.

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She tells me not to eat raw fish
and weird cheeses or whatever.

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And she tells me to take
vitamins, so I do that.

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But thank you.

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Okay, then.

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So, you're stalking me
at the supermarket

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because of birth defects?

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Hmm?

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Then why?

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Your boss, he's a very bad man.

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That's all I know is bad men.

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You're gonna have to say more than that.

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He kills people.

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- What people?
- Women, mostly.

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So, he's gonna kill me?

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Doubt it. That'd be too obvious,

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although I guess you never know.

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- You a cop?
- No.

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Good.

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You ever kill anybody?

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Nobody anyone would miss.

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So, what do you want from me, anyway?

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I just figured you should know.

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Yeah, that's an answer,
but it's not the whole answer.

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You like Chinese food?

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Sure.

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Golden Pagoda, tomorrow at 2:00.

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You can take me to lunch.

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The baby likes the chicken
in black bean sauce.

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Okay.

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Good.

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Price check in produce.
Price check in produce.

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Cashier 2.

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You can tell me the rest
of the answer then.

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Nic thanked Pepper?

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Right after she broke her nose.

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And that Pepper is a piece of work,

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just pretending to be her friend

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so she could humiliate her?

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So, what now?

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Expulsion, possibly. I don't know.

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I'll know more when I talk
to the dean tomorrow.

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What time? I'll come with you.

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There's another shoe.

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Of course there is.

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Her parents are pressing charges,

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aggravated assault.

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Aggravated?

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They're saying the book was
a weapon, a blunt instrument.

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The hospital's holding her
overnight for observation.

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That's standard concussion protocol.

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Okay, well, I guess
I'll go talk to the parents.

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And then I'll handle the dean?

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Eldon, she's going to be
charged with a felony.

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Is there a scenario
where she goes to jail

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or some kind of, like,
juvenile detention center?

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No.

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That's not gonna happen.

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I really thought that
we were over this. I...

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She was doing so well.

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I'll go talk to her.

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Do you ever think that
maybe this is our fault?

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I mean, she's so bright
and beautiful and young

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and unjaded and unspoiled.

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I don't know where this is coming from.

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I mean, the stalking last year, and now?

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I-I keep thinking that the only
common denominator is...

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is us.

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You had nothing to do with this.

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Pepper humiliated me
in front of basically everyone,

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so forget putting anything
behind me or starting over.

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Not to mention ruining any chance

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I had at making any
other friends besides her.

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And the rest, as they say, is history.

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Look, I... I understand
the impulse, I do.

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I just...

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You ever feel like your life
is just some ride?

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You're at a carnival,
you strap yourself in,

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and then somebody else decides
how fast or high you go?

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But you do have control.

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It might not always
feel like that, but...

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Yeah, but even before this.

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Too many times I'd get up
in the morning and think,

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"Here we go again."

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Walking the school halls,
worried, wondering what's next,

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what's out there waiting for me now?

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But today with Pepper?

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I was what was waiting.

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And to be honest, it felt awesome.

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Look, after what Pepper did,
you had every right to be upset.

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This is not the way to deal with it.

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Really?

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You tried "walking and reading"
at the same time lately?

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Look, do me a favor.

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In the future,
will you talk to me first?

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Well, I tried, and I could not
find you anywhere,

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so I talked to D.

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D?

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Yeah, he thinks we should thank bullies.

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What? We should... Thank them for what?

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Well, he says everyone else
just wants to keep us

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weak and calm, but bullies challenge us,

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show us how to handle adversity

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and give us insight into who we are.

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Mm-hmm. So this is
who you really are now?

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Mm. I don't know.

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I just know that whoever I was today,

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I like her way more than who I've been.

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This is not smart, you being here.

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You got no way of knowing

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whether you're gonna run into him.

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I wouldn't have had to come

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if you'd answer your fucking cell.

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Besides, you said you were
gonna keep him out of here.

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He noticed and wrote a check so big,

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no one cares what I think.

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So, his story about a kid
being throw on the train tracks?

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The woman's name is Amy Debbs.

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Has a history of mental illness,

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in and out of psych wards
until July of '82,

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where she tossed this kid on the tracks

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at the Emeryville train station.

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So that really happened.
Winter was telling the truth.

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Yep. And there's more.

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The kid, with the grace of fucking God

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ends up under the train or
beside the train and survives.

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And Debbs was arrested on the scene

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and brought straight in to be processed.

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But no one ever claims the kid.

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In 1982, Winter would have been 6 or 7.

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Yeah, I could never get
anything on Winter's childhood.

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I mean, the things I did get,

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I couldn't be sure it wasn't
some revisionist history

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done after he shot into
rich people stratosphere.

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And I don't even know
where he was originally from

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or if Winter was even his name.

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Where is Amy Debbs now?

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Do we know if she's still alive?

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Patton State Hospital.

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All right, well, I know
one of the deputy chiefs

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of psychiatry down there.

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I'll give him a call,

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see what kind of cocktail
they've got her on.

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If she would talk to me.

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About?

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About why she tried to kill her son.

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Thank you so much.

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The VOVC. I'm one of the schedulers.

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Right. I thought what you did

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was pretty cool.

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What I did?

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I've done a lot of things.

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Oh, right.

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The donation...
the ginormous amount of money.

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I thought it was pretty awesome.

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Oh, yeah.

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Well, thanks.

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That was pretty awesome, wasn't it?

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Have you worked there a long time?

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The unit? Uh, no,
but I used to work with

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Dr. Chance when he had his own practice.

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No kidding.

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You know, I'm working
with Dr. Chance right now.

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Yeah, I know.

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- You do?
- I mean, I don't know-know.

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I mean, I know you are.
I do the scheduling.

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I don't know anything else,
so don't worry.

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Oh, wow.

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It literally sounds like I've never had

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an adult conversation before.

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So, how long have you known him?

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A couple of years. Um...
I used to run his practice.

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Anyway, I just wanted to say
that what you did was amazing,

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and we all really appreciate it.

261
00:14:07,949 --> 00:14:09,309
What is your name?

262
00:14:09,310 --> 00:14:10,631
Lucy.

263
00:14:10,632 --> 00:14:11,952
Baek.

264
00:14:11,953 --> 00:14:14,114
I'm Ryan Winter, but you know that.

265
00:14:14,115 --> 00:14:15,956
Mm-hmm.

266
00:14:15,957 --> 00:14:19,039
Not just because of stalky
scheduling weirdness.

267
00:14:19,040 --> 00:14:22,282
Also because I'm kind of a tech nerd.

268
00:14:22,283 --> 00:14:23,644
Well, those and "Star Wars"

269
00:14:23,645 --> 00:14:25,446
are my two favorite kinds of nerds.

270
00:14:27,529 --> 00:14:30,370
You know, I'm actually
speaking at a thing...

271
00:14:30,371 --> 00:14:32,372
- Oh.
- ...that you might like.

272
00:14:32,373 --> 00:14:35,335
It's a conference on mixed reality.

273
00:14:35,336 --> 00:14:39,195
Oh! Um, yeah. Uh...

274
00:14:40,702 --> 00:14:42,823
It's just with work and my kid,
it's a little hard

275
00:14:42,824 --> 00:14:45,265
to get away for last-minute stuff.

276
00:14:45,266 --> 00:14:46,987
You're a mom.

277
00:14:46,988 --> 00:14:49,430
Yeah, the single kind.

278
00:14:52,674 --> 00:14:54,502
Well, listen.

279
00:14:56,918 --> 00:14:59,359
If you can get away...

280
00:14:59,360 --> 00:15:00,842
Mm-hmm.

281
00:15:03,204 --> 00:15:04,887
...here's the information.

282
00:15:07,288 --> 00:15:10,310
I... it could be interesting, too.

283
00:15:11,453 --> 00:15:13,934
So, bye. Bye.

284
00:15:29,070 --> 00:15:30,371
Hi.

285
00:15:31,673 --> 00:15:35,460
I'm Nicole's father, Eldon Chance.

286
00:15:36,277 --> 00:15:38,959
I just wanted to check on Pepper,

287
00:15:38,960 --> 00:15:41,722
tell how sorry we all are
that this has happened.

288
00:15:41,723 --> 00:15:44,164
Not as sorry as you're gonna be, pal.

289
00:15:44,165 --> 00:15:46,687
- It's okay.
- I understand your being upset.

290
00:15:46,688 --> 00:15:48,328
Oh, do you?

291
00:15:48,329 --> 00:15:50,330
Because I didn't see you
sleeping in a plastic chair...

292
00:15:50,331 --> 00:15:51,892
- Hey, hey, hey.
- ...all night while nurses

293
00:15:51,893 --> 00:15:53,934
came in to check your daughter's
pupils every hour.

294
00:15:53,935 --> 00:15:55,480
Bob.

295
00:15:56,417 --> 00:15:58,539
Pepper has a nasal fracture.

296
00:15:58,540 --> 00:16:01,944
Thankfully, there's no sign
of concussion.

297
00:16:02,824 --> 00:16:05,425
Just spoke with the attending physician.

298
00:16:05,426 --> 00:16:07,908
What? You talked to her.

299
00:16:07,909 --> 00:16:09,868
I'm a neuropsychiatrist.

300
00:16:09,869 --> 00:16:11,267
I work with a lot
of head trauma patients.

301
00:16:11,268 --> 00:16:12,312
Yeah, it figures, huh?

302
00:16:12,313 --> 00:16:13,914
It's always the shrink's kids
that are the fucking...

303
00:16:13,915 --> 00:16:14,957
Stop it!

304
00:16:16,958 --> 00:16:20,120
Just take it outside, okay? Both of you.

305
00:16:20,121 --> 00:16:21,642
Maybe this is not the best time.

306
00:16:21,643 --> 00:16:23,924
What was your first clue?

307
00:16:23,925 --> 00:16:25,325
Bob, please.

308
00:16:25,326 --> 00:16:27,327
Once again, I'm so sorry
that this has happened.

309
00:16:27,328 --> 00:16:29,289
And maybe when you're ready,

310
00:16:29,290 --> 00:16:31,211
we can all sit down and talk
about what to do next.

311
00:16:31,212 --> 00:16:33,694
Your daughter fucking broke
our daughter's nose.

312
00:16:33,695 --> 00:16:35,656
There is nothing for us to talk about.

313
00:16:35,657 --> 00:16:38,272
At all. Okay?
That's what lawyers are for.

314
00:16:40,782 --> 00:16:42,623
Okay, come on. Get your stuff.
Let's get out of here.

315
00:16:51,753 --> 00:16:53,353
Lyndsay!

316
00:16:53,354 --> 00:16:55,315
- Lyndsay!
- Yes?

317
00:16:55,316 --> 00:16:57,157
- Where is the briefc...
- Right here.

318
00:16:57,158 --> 00:16:59,800
Thank you. Listen,
a talk and a lunch, too,

319
00:16:59,801 --> 00:17:01,842
is too much for me.
I'm not gonna be able to d it.

320
00:17:01,843 --> 00:17:03,604
I'm sorry. I told them that you probably

321
00:17:03,605 --> 00:17:05,405
wouldn't be staying to eat.

322
00:17:05,406 --> 00:17:07,047
Did you call them yet?

323
00:17:07,048 --> 00:17:08,168
No.

324
00:17:08,169 --> 00:17:09,490
Do you want me to do it?

325
00:17:09,491 --> 00:17:11,772
No, I will, but just not right now.

326
00:17:11,773 --> 00:17:13,814
- Is the car here?
- It's out front.

327
00:17:13,815 --> 00:17:16,018
You know, trespassing is a crime.

328
00:17:17,178 --> 00:17:19,260
Yeah, I know that.

329
00:17:21,663 --> 00:17:23,383
What am I gonna tell 'em?

330
00:17:23,384 --> 00:17:25,425
That Detective Hynes broke into my house

331
00:17:25,426 --> 00:17:27,508
and rearranged my shirts?

332
00:17:27,509 --> 00:17:29,670
I wouldn't even have known he was here

333
00:17:29,671 --> 00:17:31,993
except he stole my rock.

334
00:17:33,515 --> 00:17:34,995
I would tell me to fuck off.

335
00:17:34,996 --> 00:17:37,678
- Be that as it may...
- I hate when people say that.

336
00:17:37,679 --> 00:17:40,400
Why is he doing this?
Why is he doing it again?

337
00:17:40,401 --> 00:17:43,283
It's been four years.
Why is he doing it?

338
00:17:43,284 --> 00:17:47,247
Because he wants
to torment you, and he is,

339
00:17:47,248 --> 00:17:49,209
and you can't let him get away with it.

340
00:17:49,210 --> 00:17:50,851
We can't.

341
00:17:50,852 --> 00:17:53,374
We have to deal with it.

342
00:17:55,537 --> 00:17:57,417
Okay, but not right now.

343
00:17:57,418 --> 00:17:59,460
I can't think about this right now.

344
00:17:59,461 --> 00:18:01,221
And you don't have to.

345
00:18:01,222 --> 00:18:02,543
I'm here for that.

346
00:18:03,825 --> 00:18:05,426
Kitchen door open.

347
00:18:06,708 --> 00:18:09,751
Don't schedule
without talking to me first.

348
00:18:15,156 --> 00:18:16,957
You act like you didn't
start this whole shit here.

349
00:18:16,958 --> 00:18:19,239
Like you didn't just wake up
one day and say,

350
00:18:19,240 --> 00:18:21,401
"Fuck them, this is how it's gonna be."

351
00:18:21,402 --> 00:18:23,484
Yes, one day I woke up.

352
00:18:23,485 --> 00:18:25,726
But I never said fuck you or anyone.

353
00:18:25,727 --> 00:18:27,215
And you know that.

354
00:18:27,729 --> 00:18:29,850
Don't you put that on me.

355
00:18:29,851 --> 00:18:31,251
I guess you could just
remember it however

356
00:18:31,252 --> 00:18:32,693
you want to remember it, huh? Huh?

357
00:18:32,694 --> 00:18:34,855
What I want is for you to tell me

358
00:18:34,856 --> 00:18:36,617
what else I can do to help you.

359
00:18:36,618 --> 00:18:38,739
Carl still jawing
at that guy in the alley?

360
00:18:38,740 --> 00:18:40,741
- Yeah.
- God damn toyboys.

361
00:18:40,742 --> 00:18:42,623
What the fuck were you doing,

362
00:18:42,624 --> 00:18:43,864
talking to Nicole like that?

363
00:18:43,865 --> 00:18:45,626
What the fuck were you thinking?

364
00:18:45,627 --> 00:18:48,749
Careful, Doc. Lacquer's wet.

365
00:18:48,750 --> 00:18:50,591
Fuck the lacquer.

366
00:18:50,592 --> 00:18:52,593
She broke a girl's nose.

367
00:18:52,594 --> 00:18:54,635
I didn't tell her to do that.

368
00:18:54,636 --> 00:18:55,876
Just showed her how.

369
00:18:55,877 --> 00:18:58,438
Yeah, you showed her how, all right.

370
00:18:58,439 --> 00:19:00,641
How to get fucking suspended

371
00:19:00,642 --> 00:19:03,163
and probably expelled
from a public school.

372
00:19:03,164 --> 00:19:04,765
How to go to prison for assault.

373
00:19:04,766 --> 00:19:07,448
She's 16, D. She's a child.

374
00:19:07,449 --> 00:19:09,129
A confident member of the tribe

375
00:19:09,130 --> 00:19:11,532
who isn't afraid to
stand up for themselves.

376
00:19:11,533 --> 00:19:13,173
Who's ready to deal on her own

377
00:19:13,174 --> 00:19:14,735
with the reality of the world.

378
00:19:14,736 --> 00:19:16,617
What are you, a life coach?
Listen to yourself.

379
00:19:16,618 --> 00:19:18,459
This isn't a half-empty glass.

380
00:19:18,460 --> 00:19:20,380
This fucking glass is full.

381
00:19:20,381 --> 00:19:22,342
If she was my kid, I'd take her out

382
00:19:22,343 --> 00:19:23,904
for fucking ice cream and nunchucks.

383
00:19:23,905 --> 00:19:26,386
She's not your kid. She's mine.

384
00:19:26,387 --> 00:19:28,469
Think of it as a brush-back pitch.

385
00:19:28,470 --> 00:19:30,671
At the very least, Nicole showed this

386
00:19:30,672 --> 00:19:32,112
Pepper to herself.

387
00:19:32,113 --> 00:19:33,353
Oh!

388
00:19:33,354 --> 00:19:35,155
Showed her where that road leads,

389
00:19:35,156 --> 00:19:37,958
and I bet Pepper will give her
a wide berth from now on.

390
00:19:37,959 --> 00:19:39,680
Pepper spent last night in the hospital.

391
00:19:39,681 --> 00:19:41,361
She's a mess.

392
00:19:41,362 --> 00:19:43,043
Parents are on the warpath,
and I don't blame them.

393
00:19:43,044 --> 00:19:45,486
I do. She's a piece of shit.

394
00:19:45,487 --> 00:19:47,488
Pretty sure they had
something to do with that.

395
00:19:47,489 --> 00:19:49,650
You don't start worrying
about their child's morality

396
00:19:49,651 --> 00:19:51,371
- until she's a teenager?
- Oh, Jesus, will...

397
00:19:51,372 --> 00:19:53,133
- They're already broken.
- Will you stop

398
00:19:53,134 --> 00:19:55,845
talking to me about parenting?!

399
00:19:57,218 --> 00:20:01,341
It's a good thing, Doc,
Nicole wanting to stand up,

400
00:20:01,342 --> 00:20:04,465
face her struggle
with honor and dignity.

401
00:20:04,466 --> 00:20:05,986
That's badass.

402
00:20:05,987 --> 00:20:09,029
I don't want my daughter to be badass,

403
00:20:09,030 --> 00:20:12,713
not the way you mean,
not the way you are.

404
00:20:12,714 --> 00:20:16,197
If she ever comes here again
for advice, you better go deaf.

405
00:20:21,803 --> 00:20:23,664
You're welcome.

406
00:20:31,813 --> 00:20:34,055
Yeah.

407
00:20:36,017 --> 00:20:38,012
He sent me signs.

408
00:20:38,860 --> 00:20:41,862
I didn't recognize them at first,

409
00:20:41,863 --> 00:20:46,812
but when I did, they were everywhere.

410
00:20:47,909 --> 00:20:49,710
What was the first sign you saw?

411
00:20:49,711 --> 00:20:51,233
Do you remember?

412
00:20:52,193 --> 00:20:56,076
I had the dishes in the sink.

413
00:20:56,077 --> 00:20:57,865
The TV was on.

414
00:20:58,520 --> 00:21:04,382
And a child had been mauled
by a lion at a zoo in Milwaukee.

415
00:21:05,847 --> 00:21:07,448
And what did that tell you?

416
00:21:07,449 --> 00:21:08,822
That He was coming,

417
00:21:09,654 --> 00:21:12,713
and I had to prove myself.

418
00:21:13,294 --> 00:21:15,296
So, what did you do?

419
00:21:17,619 --> 00:21:19,637
I told Matthew.

420
00:21:20,982 --> 00:21:22,903
Told him what?

421
00:21:22,904 --> 00:21:26,427
That the Lord wanted me to kill him.

422
00:21:28,750 --> 00:21:31,632
How old was he when you told him that?

423
00:21:31,633 --> 00:21:33,150
3.

424
00:21:34,275 --> 00:21:36,957
His eyes were like stars.

425
00:21:36,958 --> 00:21:39,010
I would look in them and...

426
00:21:40,925 --> 00:21:42,668
I just couldn't.

427
00:21:44,285 --> 00:21:46,727
You couldn't... you couldn't do
what the Lord was asking?

428
00:21:46,728 --> 00:21:48,082
No.

429
00:21:49,931 --> 00:21:51,452
Did He stop asking?

430
00:21:51,453 --> 00:21:53,333
I thought so.

431
00:21:53,334 --> 00:21:57,658
But then I went into Matthew's
room in the morning,

432
00:21:57,659 --> 00:21:59,660
and Matthew rolled over on his bed,

433
00:21:59,661 --> 00:22:01,662
and he looked at me.

434
00:22:01,663 --> 00:22:05,766
And there was a spider on his pajamas.

435
00:22:06,508 --> 00:22:08,769
So that night, I did it.

436
00:22:11,473 --> 00:22:13,914
You... you tried to kill Matthew.

437
00:22:13,915 --> 00:22:15,276
No.

438
00:22:15,837 --> 00:22:17,653
Myself.

439
00:22:21,883 --> 00:22:24,005
But it didn't work.

440
00:22:26,007 --> 00:22:31,051
The way He wanted me to do it
after that was so much worse.

441
00:22:31,052 --> 00:22:33,494
Because I was fighting it.

442
00:22:33,495 --> 00:22:37,698
He wanted Matthew strangled, stabbed,

443
00:22:37,699 --> 00:22:43,545
cut up because I wouldn't listen.

444
00:22:45,587 --> 00:22:47,387
Is that when He told you
about the train?

445
00:22:47,388 --> 00:22:50,190
That's not exactly what he said.

446
00:22:50,191 --> 00:22:51,937
What did he say?

447
00:22:52,834 --> 00:22:54,356
Metal.

448
00:22:54,956 --> 00:22:57,158
Metal was His message.

449
00:22:59,160 --> 00:23:01,572
I couldn't put my hands on my baby.

450
00:23:03,044 --> 00:23:06,327
Not like God wanted me to,
not like that.

451
00:23:07,208 --> 00:23:11,572
Not cut him and stab him
and beat him to death.

452
00:23:11,573 --> 00:23:16,777
But when I stopped fighting, I knew.

453
00:23:21,903 --> 00:23:24,303
I stepped out in faith.

454
00:23:24,866 --> 00:23:29,189
The train would fulfill him.

455
00:23:29,190 --> 00:23:31,752
It would be quick.

456
00:23:31,753 --> 00:23:33,729
It would be enough.

457
00:23:56,938 --> 00:23:59,547
People thought I was crazy, too.

458
00:24:00,061 --> 00:24:02,703
I mean, not Amy Debbs crazy,

459
00:24:02,704 --> 00:24:06,267
but they washed their hands
of me pretty much.

460
00:24:07,949 --> 00:24:10,671
I guess I was glad
when the brass shipped me

461
00:24:10,672 --> 00:24:14,516
to Fremont after I, uh...

462
00:24:15,477 --> 00:24:17,478
I told myself, hey,
that's just what I needed

463
00:24:17,479 --> 00:24:19,800
was a clean slate, you know?

464
00:24:19,801 --> 00:24:22,322
That didn't fucking last.

465
00:24:22,323 --> 00:24:23,684
I mean, Winter for me

466
00:24:23,685 --> 00:24:25,846
is like the princess
and the fucking pea.

467
00:24:25,847 --> 00:24:27,287
No matter what I do,

468
00:24:27,288 --> 00:24:29,851
that piece of shit keeps me awake.

469
00:24:32,654 --> 00:24:34,373
Why do you think that is?

470
00:24:35,416 --> 00:24:38,085
I mean, to that extent. Is it Travis?

471
00:24:38,580 --> 00:24:41,101
- 'Cause you and he were...
- What?

472
00:24:41,102 --> 00:24:42,704
Us two were what?

473
00:24:45,226 --> 00:24:47,028
Forget it.

474
00:24:52,874 --> 00:24:55,996
You know, we weren't...
if that's what you were thinking.

475
00:24:55,997 --> 00:24:58,999
It wasn't like that.
I've only been with women.

476
00:24:59,000 --> 00:25:01,859
Almost got married, even, twice.

477
00:25:02,844 --> 00:25:06,246
I took the road I knew,
and once I got going,

478
00:25:06,247 --> 00:25:08,328
I ended up where it took me.

479
00:25:08,329 --> 00:25:09,992
Till Travis.

480
00:25:10,532 --> 00:25:13,093
I told myself it was just
a mentor thing,

481
00:25:13,094 --> 00:25:16,457
a parental, like a dad and a son.

482
00:25:16,458 --> 00:25:18,125
You know, but inside,

483
00:25:18,700 --> 00:25:21,542
it all just felt like a load of shit.

484
00:25:21,543 --> 00:25:24,214
Everything felt like shit.

485
00:25:24,866 --> 00:25:28,028
And so, one day, I just...

486
00:25:28,029 --> 00:25:30,190
I just stopped fighting,
and then I said to myself,

487
00:25:30,191 --> 00:25:33,307
I'm gonna just feel what I'm feeling.

488
00:25:34,035 --> 00:25:36,268
Secretly to myself.

489
00:25:37,839 --> 00:25:39,641
In case I was wrong.

490
00:25:42,524 --> 00:25:44,318
What happened?

491
00:25:47,008 --> 00:25:49,657
I guess that's what happiness is.

492
00:25:50,732 --> 00:25:53,035
Got a glimpse of it.

493
00:26:19,240 --> 00:26:21,401
Barrio Cazadores.

494
00:26:21,402 --> 00:26:24,845
Your tattoo, the hunters, Tijuana gang.

495
00:26:24,846 --> 00:26:27,111
You affiliated?

496
00:26:27,609 --> 00:26:29,780
It was another life.

497
00:26:30,852 --> 00:26:33,117
Is that where your baby's daddy is?

498
00:26:33,735 --> 00:26:35,896
You don't take girls out
a whole lot, do you?

499
00:26:35,897 --> 00:26:37,659
No.

500
00:26:39,180 --> 00:26:42,142
How'd you become a murderer's maid?

501
00:26:42,143 --> 00:26:43,864
I was a coyote.

502
00:26:43,865 --> 00:26:46,672
Just outside of Tecate.

503
00:26:47,148 --> 00:26:49,790
I would take people
10, 12, 14 hours, on foot,

504
00:26:49,791 --> 00:26:51,592
through the mountains,
until they were picked up

505
00:26:51,593 --> 00:26:53,193
outside Highway 94.

506
00:26:53,194 --> 00:26:54,795
I'd smuggled so many other
people across the border,

507
00:26:54,796 --> 00:26:57,718
I figured I could go ahead
and smuggle myself over.

508
00:26:57,719 --> 00:27:00,080
And I did.

509
00:27:00,081 --> 00:27:01,762
I stayed with a friend.

510
00:27:01,763 --> 00:27:04,364
She would clean houses under the table.

511
00:27:04,365 --> 00:27:05,726
And she couldn't make all of her jobs,

512
00:27:05,727 --> 00:27:07,901
so I started to fill in for her,

513
00:27:08,730 --> 00:27:14,895
and that's how I met Mr. Ryan's
assistant, Lyndsay.

514
00:27:14,896 --> 00:27:16,897
So, what's it like?

515
00:27:16,898 --> 00:27:19,059
It's pretty boring.

516
00:27:19,060 --> 00:27:21,782
There's cleaning, errands,

517
00:27:21,783 --> 00:27:27,908
and Mr. Ryan has
talked to me maybe twice.

518
00:27:27,909 --> 00:27:29,429
He talks to himself a lot, though.

519
00:27:29,430 --> 00:27:31,191
What do you mean, like, he mumbles?

520
00:27:31,192 --> 00:27:35,235
No, more like full-on conversations.

521
00:27:35,236 --> 00:27:36,917
- With who?
- Nobody.

522
00:27:36,918 --> 00:27:38,679
There's nobody there.

523
00:27:38,680 --> 00:27:41,762
It's passionate, or he just
yell, or maybe he's crying,

524
00:27:41,763 --> 00:27:42,803
but there's nobody there.

525
00:27:42,804 --> 00:27:45,606
Mr. Ryan is not all there.

526
00:27:45,607 --> 00:27:48,168
He has his ways.

527
00:27:48,169 --> 00:27:51,612
He hates certain plates,
so a salad plate he hates,

528
00:27:51,613 --> 00:27:54,134
and he has, you know,
this beautiful swimming pool,

529
00:27:54,135 --> 00:27:56,016
but he never uses his swimming pool.

530
00:27:56,017 --> 00:27:57,698
Except maybe one time.

531
00:27:57,699 --> 00:28:00,741
One time a man came over,
and teached him how to swim.

532
00:28:01,330 --> 00:28:02,382
To swim?

533
00:28:02,383 --> 00:28:05,025
Mm-hmm, and he's never been in it since.

534
00:28:06,788 --> 00:28:08,545
You like pie?

535
00:28:09,791 --> 00:28:10,991
I don't like it.

536
00:28:10,992 --> 00:28:12,466
Oh.

537
00:28:12,954 --> 00:28:14,556
I love it.

538
00:28:16,758 --> 00:28:18,038
Awesome.

539
00:28:18,039 --> 00:28:19,680
I'm gonna make a quick phone call,

540
00:28:19,681 --> 00:28:21,483
and then let's go get some pie.

541
00:28:33,014 --> 00:28:34,374
What is this?

542
00:28:34,375 --> 00:28:37,137
Pretty awesome is what it is.

543
00:28:37,138 --> 00:28:40,781
Ryan Winter replaced the whole
unit's computers for free.

544
00:28:40,782 --> 00:28:42,329
Baller.

545
00:28:42,744 --> 00:28:45,225
When? Why... why would he do that?

546
00:28:45,226 --> 00:28:46,747
Apparently, he heard someone say

547
00:28:46,748 --> 00:28:49,710
something about our computers
being slow and shitty,

548
00:28:49,711 --> 00:28:52,713
and he just, you know, made the call.

549
00:28:52,714 --> 00:28:56,077
No biggie for him. Huge deal for us.

550
00:29:00,161 --> 00:29:02,443
I'm excited, too.

551
00:29:45,086 --> 00:29:46,447
Hey.

552
00:29:46,448 --> 00:29:48,248
Hi.

553
00:29:48,249 --> 00:29:51,251
Listen, I have to cancel group tonight.

554
00:29:51,252 --> 00:29:53,934
I got a family issue.

555
00:29:53,935 --> 00:29:57,177
Wondered if you wanted to
get together this afternoon.

556
00:29:57,178 --> 00:29:58,614
The two of us?

557
00:29:59,180 --> 00:30:01,158
If that works for you.

558
00:30:02,023 --> 00:30:04,505
I wanted to continue with what
we discussed the other day,

559
00:30:04,506 --> 00:30:06,747
but I don't want too much time

560
00:30:06,748 --> 00:30:09,229
to lapse between sessions.

561
00:30:09,230 --> 00:30:11,071
Do you like to walk?

562
00:30:11,072 --> 00:30:13,545
Sure, what did you have in mind?

563
00:30:14,836 --> 00:30:16,757
Beach.

564
00:30:16,758 --> 00:30:20,681
Dune Point, just north
of the old baths, you know it?

565
00:30:20,682 --> 00:30:22,763
I know of it.

566
00:30:22,764 --> 00:30:25,286
Great. So, in about an hour?

567
00:30:27,609 --> 00:30:29,311
Sure, fine.

568
00:30:30,932 --> 00:30:32,854
I hope everything's okay?

569
00:30:34,896 --> 00:30:36,652
What do you mean?

570
00:30:38,259 --> 00:30:41,783
With your family, with your
family issue, I hope it's okay.

571
00:30:43,785 --> 00:30:45,702
Thank you for saying so.

572
00:30:47,188 --> 00:30:49,269
You're welcome.

573
00:31:52,293 --> 00:31:55,095
D? Is that you, D?

574
00:31:55,096 --> 00:31:58,178
You're calling my phone, Carl.

575
00:31:58,179 --> 00:32:00,502
I need you to come, son.

576
00:32:01,783 --> 00:32:05,025
There's, um, trouble brewing.

577
00:32:05,026 --> 00:32:07,427
I bought a lot of drinks
for a lot of people.

578
00:32:07,428 --> 00:32:08,509
Bring money now.

579
00:32:08,510 --> 00:32:10,120
Where are you?

580
00:32:11,192 --> 00:32:13,755
I'm at the Admiral's Arms.

581
00:32:17,238 --> 00:32:19,680
Quickly, D.

582
00:32:19,681 --> 00:32:21,201
Coming.

583
00:32:21,202 --> 00:32:23,043
S.O.S. from a friend. You game?

584
00:32:23,044 --> 00:32:24,259
Okay.

585
00:32:30,411 --> 00:32:32,267
How do I cope?

586
00:32:33,374 --> 00:32:37,898
You said that after you saw
the boy being thrown

587
00:32:37,899 --> 00:32:40,300
in front of the train,
you found ways to cope.

588
00:32:40,301 --> 00:32:42,784
I just wondered what they were.

589
00:32:45,066 --> 00:32:46,823
Back then, it was school.

590
00:32:48,590 --> 00:32:50,160
How about now?

591
00:32:51,833 --> 00:32:54,555
Work. I run sometimes.

592
00:32:54,556 --> 00:32:56,638
Nothing too unusual.

593
00:32:58,800 --> 00:33:03,084
For me, it was work, and then
drink when work wasn't enough.

594
00:33:06,047 --> 00:33:08,408
What are you talking about?

595
00:33:08,409 --> 00:33:10,180
I had a fall.

596
00:33:11,252 --> 00:33:14,496
Actually in a place
not very different from this.

597
00:33:16,578 --> 00:33:19,379
- You fell off a cliff?
- Uh-huh.

598
00:33:19,380 --> 00:33:20,899
How?

599
00:33:22,824 --> 00:33:24,264
One moment I was walking.

600
00:33:24,265 --> 00:33:26,547
Next thing I knew,
I woke up in an ambulance

601
00:33:26,548 --> 00:33:28,323
with my head in a cage.

602
00:33:29,110 --> 00:33:32,633
My PET scan was not
very dissimilar to yours.

603
00:33:32,634 --> 00:33:35,315
Way to bury a lead, Doc.

604
00:33:35,316 --> 00:33:37,357
Yeah, well, protocol is,

605
00:33:37,358 --> 00:33:40,802
we're not supposed to share
personal details with patients.

606
00:33:43,164 --> 00:33:45,340
Did you feel different after?

607
00:33:45,967 --> 00:33:48,248
Besides the physicals effects?

608
00:33:48,249 --> 00:33:50,251
Double vision, memory loss?

609
00:33:52,534 --> 00:33:55,496
I find I am more prone to anger.

610
00:33:55,497 --> 00:33:57,818
And it has been pointed out to me

611
00:33:57,819 --> 00:34:00,300
that I have grown reckless.

612
00:34:00,301 --> 00:34:06,426
Okay, okay, but you... you must
do something to... to cope.

613
00:34:06,427 --> 00:34:07,821
Not really.

614
00:34:09,631 --> 00:34:11,271
I just embrace.

615
00:34:13,274 --> 00:34:14,995
Whoa!

616
00:34:16,758 --> 00:34:19,159
I think the tide's coming in.

617
00:34:19,160 --> 00:34:23,323
So, I mean, what the fuck
are we supposed to do now?

618
00:34:23,324 --> 00:34:24,324
Wait it out?

619
00:34:24,325 --> 00:34:26,727
Not with this swell.

620
00:34:26,728 --> 00:34:29,801
This whole place is gonna be
under water very soon.

621
00:34:30,371 --> 00:34:31,732
I hope you can swim.

622
00:34:31,733 --> 00:34:32,733
You're kidding me.

623
00:34:34,656 --> 00:34:36,577
- That's not funny.
- I... It's...

624
00:34:36,578 --> 00:34:38,258
That water is freezing!

625
00:34:38,259 --> 00:34:40,103
It's 56.

626
00:34:41,062 --> 00:34:44,264
I caught the surf report driving in.

627
00:34:44,265 --> 00:34:46,026
Just never thought
to actually check and see

628
00:34:46,027 --> 00:34:47,147
what the tide was doing.

629
00:34:47,148 --> 00:34:48,709
It never occurred to me. Sorry.

630
00:34:48,710 --> 00:34:50,711
But you can swim, right?

631
00:34:50,712 --> 00:34:52,753
Yeah, I can swim,
but I'm not going in there!

632
00:34:52,754 --> 00:34:54,595
Okay. Come on!

633
00:34:54,596 --> 00:34:57,037
This is just, like, five minutes.

634
00:34:57,038 --> 00:34:59,159
Go out around the point,
swells from the north,

635
00:34:59,160 --> 00:35:01,643
that'll help, easy.

636
00:35:02,884 --> 00:35:04,845
You know, I told Dr. Clayton
we should have a sign

637
00:35:04,846 --> 00:35:07,848
emblazoned over the door saying,

638
00:35:07,849 --> 00:35:11,732
"Life begins when things go wrong."

639
00:35:39,240 --> 00:35:40,789
Eldon!

640
00:35:42,243 --> 00:35:43,804
Eldon!

641
00:36:32,894 --> 00:36:34,775
And who, may I ask,

642
00:36:34,776 --> 00:36:39,780
is this lovely young lady
who came to my rescue?

643
00:36:39,781 --> 00:36:41,301
Lorena.

644
00:36:41,302 --> 00:36:44,905
- Lorena.
- Why this, and why today?

645
00:36:44,906 --> 00:36:48,064
Have something to do with
that new boyfriend of yours?

646
00:36:48,470 --> 00:36:51,311
The guy I saw you
talking to in the alley?

647
00:36:51,312 --> 00:36:53,403
All amped up?

648
00:36:54,916 --> 00:36:59,199
That was my son, Alvin.

649
00:36:59,200 --> 00:37:01,041
My son.

650
00:37:01,042 --> 00:37:04,084
The last time I saw him,
he was just a little boy.

651
00:37:04,085 --> 00:37:05,165
What happened?

652
00:37:05,166 --> 00:37:07,327
I'm gay is what happened.

653
00:37:07,328 --> 00:37:11,171
Carl came out,
they cut him off... his family.

654
00:37:11,172 --> 00:37:13,333
Wanted him out of their lives
and said so.

655
00:37:13,334 --> 00:37:18,338
She's sick and dying, Olivia, my wife.

656
00:37:18,339 --> 00:37:19,820
Once.

657
00:37:19,821 --> 00:37:22,222
Had insurance from a job,

658
00:37:22,223 --> 00:37:24,665
but the out-of-pocket expenses
crippled them.

659
00:37:24,666 --> 00:37:27,347
That's what the fucking
stolen Mayan shit is about?

660
00:37:27,348 --> 00:37:29,430
They needed my help, D.

661
00:37:32,393 --> 00:37:35,956
They're so broke,
it forced them to come to me.

662
00:37:35,957 --> 00:37:38,559
You risked your reputation,
your business.

663
00:37:38,560 --> 00:37:42,122
No more than what you
and I have done together.

664
00:37:42,123 --> 00:37:43,684
Yeah, it is.

665
00:37:43,685 --> 00:37:45,045
We may fudge names and dates,

666
00:37:45,046 --> 00:37:47,127
but the product is all top drawer.

667
00:37:47,128 --> 00:37:51,532
You start letting in hot shit,
third-party assholes,

668
00:37:51,533 --> 00:37:53,253
risk it all for what?

669
00:37:53,254 --> 00:37:55,696
People who dumped you out
like a dirty ashtray.

670
00:37:55,697 --> 00:37:58,219
He's my son, D.

671
00:38:03,745 --> 00:38:05,467
My first son.

672
00:38:10,391 --> 00:38:13,314
When I left here today,
I had no idea what would...

673
00:38:15,436 --> 00:38:17,487
I almost didn't come back here.

674
00:38:18,560 --> 00:38:22,163
I almost died.

675
00:38:23,925 --> 00:38:28,049
You had a limit experience,
swim philosophers call it.

676
00:38:32,093 --> 00:38:34,054
It's a near-death experience,

677
00:38:34,055 --> 00:38:37,978
that point of living
that lies as close as possible

678
00:38:37,979 --> 00:38:40,927
to the impossibility of living.

679
00:38:41,783 --> 00:38:43,464
It can give you knowledge about yourself

680
00:38:43,465 --> 00:38:45,866
that you can't get any other way.

681
00:38:45,867 --> 00:38:48,068
Whether you like it or not.

682
00:38:48,069 --> 00:38:50,270
Like when you fell off that cliff.

683
00:38:50,271 --> 00:38:54,675
Yeah. Going beyond without
actually going beyond.

684
00:38:54,676 --> 00:38:56,276
How'd you feel?

685
00:38:57,158 --> 00:38:58,862
You saved me.

686
00:39:00,281 --> 00:39:02,407
You would have done the same.

687
00:39:03,645 --> 00:39:06,119
I would like to think so.

688
00:39:07,368 --> 00:39:11,453
But I don't think so.

689
00:39:14,095 --> 00:39:17,738
I've done some things
that I know are bad,

690
00:39:17,739 --> 00:39:21,551
and I don't think I would take
them back, even if I could.

691
00:39:27,709 --> 00:39:30,111
How do you feel about
saving my life now?

692
00:39:33,154 --> 00:39:36,608
Maybe you should tell me
about those bad things.

693
00:39:37,599 --> 00:39:40,962
Because you can't decide
how you feel unless you know?

694
00:39:46,367 --> 00:39:47,994
Fine.

695
00:39:48,850 --> 00:39:50,872
Tell me something else, then.

696
00:39:52,534 --> 00:39:55,335
Something else that
I've wondered for a long time.

697
00:39:56,738 --> 00:39:58,979
You remember the story that I told you

698
00:39:58,980 --> 00:40:01,966
about the boy on the train platform?

699
00:40:03,144 --> 00:40:06,012
If I hadn't seen that,

700
00:40:06,508 --> 00:40:09,750
I mean, if I hadn't had
to explain that to myself,

701
00:40:09,751 --> 00:40:15,355
like you said, would I be
the person that I am now?

702
00:40:16,117 --> 00:40:17,558
Would I do the things I do now,

703
00:40:17,559 --> 00:40:23,725
be whatever it is I am,
if I hadn't been there?

704
00:40:26,247 --> 00:40:28,409
You want to know what I think?

705
00:40:30,171 --> 00:40:33,093
I think it might be
the reason why we met.

706
00:40:33,094 --> 00:40:37,018
I'll tell you what I think when
you tell me the whole story.

707
00:40:40,261 --> 00:40:41,782
I don't follow.

708
00:40:41,783 --> 00:40:44,625
The whole story about
why you were there.

709
00:40:44,626 --> 00:40:46,511
Who you were there.

710
00:40:47,108 --> 00:40:49,309
That woman on the platform
was your mother.

711
00:40:49,310 --> 00:40:50,932
The boy was you.

712
00:40:51,513 --> 00:40:53,153
I knew that when you were
telling it to me.

713
00:40:53,154 --> 00:40:54,635
I could hear it in your voice.

714
00:40:54,636 --> 00:40:56,316
You were testing me to see if I could

715
00:40:56,317 --> 00:40:58,523
really hear you, and I can.

716
00:40:59,841 --> 00:41:01,693
That's why I saved you.

717
00:41:02,924 --> 00:41:05,085
And that's the reason we met.

718
00:41:05,086 --> 00:41:08,248
I still need you to trust me,
and you don't.

719
00:41:08,249 --> 00:41:11,252
Until you do, I don't think
we can keep doing this.

720
00:41:13,655 --> 00:41:16,176
Don't forget to have
someone go to the beach,

721
00:41:16,177 --> 00:41:18,018
pick up your car.

722
00:41:39,027 --> 00:41:40,674
I filed it this afternoon.

723
00:41:40,675 --> 00:41:42,483
They promised to look into it further.

724
00:41:42,484 --> 00:41:44,485
The sergeant seemed to already know

725
00:41:44,486 --> 00:41:47,769
something about your history
with Detective Hynes.

726
00:41:51,493 --> 00:41:53,453
Why did you do this?

727
00:41:54,255 --> 00:41:55,456
We had to.

728
00:41:55,457 --> 00:41:57,738
No, I said... I said not right now.

729
00:41:57,739 --> 00:42:00,043
I said I wanted to think about it.

730
00:42:00,622 --> 00:42:02,402
No. Ryan.

731
00:42:02,403 --> 00:42:04,545
I'm sorry.

732
00:42:04,546 --> 00:42:07,668
No. No, no.

733
00:42:08,670 --> 00:42:10,551
- Oh, God.
- But if...

734
00:42:10,552 --> 00:42:14,515
Ryan, if you could see you
the way that I see you.

735
00:42:14,516 --> 00:42:18,436
How upset you are by all this, how hurt.

736
00:42:19,000 --> 00:42:20,641
I couldn't wait.

737
00:42:20,642 --> 00:42:23,243
I couldn't let him do that to you again.

738
00:42:23,244 --> 00:42:27,247
You are too good of a man
to have to deal with this.

739
00:42:27,248 --> 00:42:29,930
I had to do something.

740
00:42:29,931 --> 00:42:32,493
Because we're a team.

741
00:42:32,494 --> 00:42:34,414
Aren't we? Aah!

742
00:42:57,559 --> 00:43:00,040
I'm sorry.

743
00:43:00,041 --> 00:43:01,081
I'm sorry.

744
00:43:01,082 --> 00:43:02,643
You are not her.

745
00:43:02,644 --> 00:43:05,046
You will never be her.

746
00:43:06,407 --> 00:43:08,486
Be glad about that.

747
00:43:09,691 --> 00:43:11,239
I am.

748
00:43:34,155 --> 00:43:36,717
Mrs. Atkinson. I'm sorry.

749
00:43:36,718 --> 00:43:40,280
I should have called ahead,
but I was hoping

750
00:43:40,281 --> 00:43:42,270
maybe we could talk.

751
00:43:43,204 --> 00:43:45,365
Uh, look, my husband's not here, okay?

752
00:43:45,366 --> 00:43:47,167
He's at a work dinner.

753
00:43:47,168 --> 00:43:48,317
Oh.

754
00:43:49,771 --> 00:43:55,033
Okay, well, I can talk out here
if it's more comfortable.

755
00:43:55,737 --> 00:43:57,243
How's Pepper?

756
00:44:00,421 --> 00:44:02,062
She's asleep.

757
00:44:02,063 --> 00:44:05,906
I was just wondering if you
and your husband would be open

758
00:44:05,907 --> 00:44:07,588
to sitting down
with Nicole's mother and me

759
00:44:07,589 --> 00:44:09,797
and just talking about what happened.

760
00:44:10,992 --> 00:44:12,300
Civilly.

761
00:44:16,317 --> 00:44:19,079
No offense, but don't you think the time

762
00:44:19,080 --> 00:44:21,041
for that would have been
the moment before your daughter

763
00:44:21,042 --> 00:44:23,003
decided to break my daughter's nose?

764
00:44:23,004 --> 00:44:27,315
Pepper humiliated Nicole
in front of the entire school.

765
00:44:28,329 --> 00:44:30,931
For no other reason apparently
than a sadistic enjoyment

766
00:44:30,932 --> 00:44:34,735
of her own power and moral bankruptcy.

767
00:44:34,736 --> 00:44:37,738
A less charitable person might
call your daughter broken.

768
00:44:37,739 --> 00:44:39,660
Wow, this is what
you call civility, huh?

769
00:44:39,661 --> 00:44:41,742
You know how many kids kill themselves

770
00:44:41,743 --> 00:44:43,544
over things like this?

771
00:44:43,545 --> 00:44:45,786
I'm sure you could imagine
an alternate landscape

772
00:44:45,787 --> 00:44:47,868
in which Nicole takes
a handful of pills instead.

773
00:44:47,869 --> 00:44:50,751
I don't know why Pepper did this, okay?

774
00:44:50,752 --> 00:44:52,713
I have no idea. Maybe it's me, you know.

775
00:44:52,714 --> 00:44:54,434
Maybe I'm... I'm the reason.

776
00:44:54,435 --> 00:44:56,511
Maybe I'm the broken one.

777
00:44:57,799 --> 00:44:59,560
I don't really care what I am anyway

778
00:44:59,561 --> 00:45:03,404
because I know that she knows
that I've got her back.

779
00:45:07,288 --> 00:45:09,169
Want to try it?

780
00:45:09,170 --> 00:45:11,653
No, I'm good, thank you.

781
00:45:13,575 --> 00:45:15,055
What's wrong?

782
00:45:15,056 --> 00:45:16,977
Listen.

783
00:45:16,978 --> 00:45:19,661
There's something I want
to talk to you about.

784
00:45:22,343 --> 00:45:24,906
It's something I've been
putting off for a long time.

785
00:45:26,948 --> 00:45:28,469
But so much has happened.

786
00:45:28,470 --> 00:45:31,071
It's time you heard the truth.

787
00:45:31,072 --> 00:45:34,340
About what? You're kind of scaring me.

788
00:45:35,236 --> 00:45:39,800
The reason... I think the reason

789
00:45:39,801 --> 00:45:46,102
that frightening things
feel good to you,

790
00:45:47,208 --> 00:45:50,731
I think it's because I had
a version of that myself.

791
00:45:51,533 --> 00:45:53,013
What are you talking about?

792
00:45:53,014 --> 00:45:54,455
When I was in my 20s,

793
00:45:54,456 --> 00:45:59,940
I was doing my residency,
and, uh, I met a girl.

794
00:45:59,941 --> 00:46:04,144
And it was, uh... it was serious.

795
00:46:04,145 --> 00:46:07,582
I thought it was serious.
And she broke it off.

796
00:46:08,109 --> 00:46:11,002
I didn't take it well.
I did not take it well.

797
00:46:11,553 --> 00:46:14,881
And she moved to San Diego,
and I followed.

798
00:46:15,757 --> 00:46:19,093
I followed, and I followed, and...

799
00:46:20,041 --> 00:46:22,564
She took out a restraining order.

800
00:46:24,926 --> 00:46:27,208
Which I broke, I violated.

801
00:46:29,891 --> 00:46:31,439
Many times.

802
00:46:32,253 --> 00:46:34,896
So eventually I was arrested.

803
00:46:36,498 --> 00:46:38,098
And I was hospitalized,

804
00:46:38,099 --> 00:46:41,823
and I was on suicide watch for 28 days.

805
00:46:46,468 --> 00:46:49,389
I could just feel my life unravel.

806
00:46:49,390 --> 00:46:52,994
And I was powerless to stop it.

807
00:46:57,038 --> 00:46:59,239
And when I got out, I had
no money for med school.

808
00:46:59,240 --> 00:47:03,244
I had... I had nothing left.

809
00:47:07,288 --> 00:47:09,018
So, what are we?

810
00:47:11,012 --> 00:47:13,231
I mean, is it some kind
of brain disease?

811
00:47:15,096 --> 00:47:16,943
No, it's, uh...

812
00:47:20,341 --> 00:47:24,033
It's a propensity to compulsion.

813
00:47:25,467 --> 00:47:28,869
Think of it as a genetic predisposition.

814
00:47:28,870 --> 00:47:31,231
To being fucked up?

815
00:47:31,232 --> 00:47:33,542
Nic, it's... Does mom know?

816
00:47:34,355 --> 00:47:36,677
About what happened,
about everything you said?

817
00:47:36,678 --> 00:47:38,238
No, she does not know any of this.

818
00:47:38,239 --> 00:47:39,674
Oh, my God.

819
00:47:40,241 --> 00:47:41,642
Here I've been thinking I'm crazy,

820
00:47:41,643 --> 00:47:43,564
and now you're telling me I am.

821
00:47:43,565 --> 00:47:45,365
No, you're not. That's what I'm saying.

822
00:47:45,366 --> 00:47:48,182
You're not crazy. We are not crazy.

823
00:47:48,930 --> 00:47:51,612
We just... we just have
to figure out a way

824
00:47:51,613 --> 00:47:54,455
to make this work for us
and not against us.

825
00:47:54,456 --> 00:47:57,458
You need to learn how
to recognize the triggers

826
00:47:57,459 --> 00:47:59,219
and how not to act on them.

827
00:47:59,220 --> 00:48:00,945
- Trust me.
- Why?

828
00:48:02,263 --> 00:48:03,904
You didn't trust me.

829
00:48:03,905 --> 00:48:05,666
Letting me go this long,
thinking that it was me,

830
00:48:05,667 --> 00:48:07,708
that I was nuts.

831
00:48:07,709 --> 00:48:10,070
Every time you talked to me
about what I did,

832
00:48:10,071 --> 00:48:11,330
you were lying.

833
00:48:13,274 --> 00:48:14,500
Why?

834
00:48:15,717 --> 00:48:17,169
I don't know.

835
00:48:19,160 --> 00:48:21,441
I was reluctant to admit the possible...

836
00:48:21,442 --> 00:48:24,004
- I don't know.
- Well, how can you not know?

837
00:48:24,005 --> 00:48:26,967
- Because I...
- You're a neuropsychiatrist!

838
00:48:26,968 --> 00:48:29,090
You should have told me.

839
00:48:31,733 --> 00:48:33,519
You should have told me.

840
00:48:34,215 --> 00:48:36,256
I'm telling you now.

841
00:48:36,257 --> 00:48:39,100
Well, now is too late.

842
00:48:43,465 --> 00:48:46,226
You call that a fucking plan?

843
00:48:46,227 --> 00:48:48,589
You trap him on the beach,
and you force him to swim,

844
00:48:48,590 --> 00:48:50,911
and you count on yourself
to be able to save his ass?

845
00:48:50,912 --> 00:48:53,634
Yeah, and he's starting to break.

846
00:48:53,635 --> 00:48:55,075
It's working.

847
00:48:55,076 --> 00:48:56,597
Because you knew everything was gonna

848
00:48:56,598 --> 00:48:58,038
play out just like it did.

849
00:48:58,039 --> 00:48:59,760
You were sure.

850
00:48:59,761 --> 00:49:03,884
As opposed to, he drowns,
or he pulls you under,

851
00:49:03,885 --> 00:49:08,048
and you both drown,
or you drown, and he makes it,

852
00:49:08,049 --> 00:49:10,771
or you get eaten by a fucking shark.

853
00:49:10,772 --> 00:49:13,373
Listen to me, Detective Hynes.

854
00:49:13,374 --> 00:49:15,696
Winter is about to talk.

855
00:49:15,697 --> 00:49:18,619
He's already admitted
to doing bad things

856
00:49:18,620 --> 00:49:21,021
because he was pushed
to a place of extremity.

857
00:49:21,022 --> 00:49:22,262
Somewhere he never would have gotten

858
00:49:22,263 --> 00:49:25,906
if he'd been sitting on a couch.

859
00:49:25,907 --> 00:49:27,828
I don't know, Doc.

860
00:49:27,829 --> 00:49:31,111
But what I do know is that
you just put everything

861
00:49:31,112 --> 00:49:33,393
we've been toward to at risk.

862
00:49:33,394 --> 00:49:35,596
This hump at the bar of justice,

863
00:49:35,597 --> 00:49:38,278
facing a reckoning before this world

864
00:49:38,279 --> 00:49:40,920
for what he's done.

865
00:49:41,362 --> 00:49:43,123
What the fuck?

866
00:49:43,124 --> 00:49:44,805
What?

867
00:49:44,806 --> 00:49:46,527
You're at home, right?

868
00:49:46,528 --> 00:49:50,137
Turn on your TV now, local news.

869
00:49:55,697 --> 00:49:57,578
And it looks like
they're gonna substitute him.

870
00:49:57,579 --> 00:49:59,740
This morning, a couple
was hiking with their dog

871
00:49:59,741 --> 00:50:01,502
when they found a body.

872
00:50:01,503 --> 00:50:04,465
All this a week after
the body of Travis Webber

873
00:50:04,466 --> 00:50:06,266
was found buried.

874
00:50:06,267 --> 00:50:08,388
Causing the excavation that led to...

875
00:50:08,389 --> 00:50:11,311
Tell me you're seeing this shit.

876
00:50:11,312 --> 00:50:13,193
I'm seeing it.

877
00:50:13,194 --> 00:50:15,315
Now, police are saying
that as many three bodies

878
00:50:15,316 --> 00:50:16,957
have been found...

879
00:50:16,958 --> 00:50:21,401
You forced this guy
to a breaking point, Doc.

880
00:50:21,402 --> 00:50:24,164
Pushing him to an extremity
like you said,

881
00:50:24,165 --> 00:50:27,367
and he may tell you secrets
because of it, but...

882
00:50:27,368 --> 00:50:29,530
but what else?

883
00:50:29,531 --> 00:50:32,013
What else might you have
pushed him to do?

884
00:50:34,816 --> 00:50:36,858
Do you even know?

885
00:50:38,860 --> 00:50:41,181
Sorry this was last minute.

886
00:50:41,182 --> 00:50:43,441
I'm glad you could get free.

887
00:50:44,425 --> 00:50:45,746
You ever have one of those weeks

888
00:50:45,747 --> 00:50:49,511
that kind of turns you on your head?

889
00:50:50,672 --> 00:50:53,515
It's sort of an hour-to-hour
proposition for me.

890
00:50:57,839 --> 00:51:00,040
I feel like we're getting away
with something.

891
00:51:00,041 --> 00:51:02,803
I mean, you're sure this is okay?

892
00:51:02,804 --> 00:51:05,245
Us going out like this?

893
00:51:05,246 --> 00:51:09,049
I'm actually not sure because it isn't.

894
00:51:09,050 --> 00:51:12,813
But if we just keep this
on the DL, we should be fine.

895
00:51:12,814 --> 00:51:17,137
I mean, it's not like
we're hurting anyone, right?

896
00:51:24,826 --> 00:51:32,895
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