1 00:00:33,198 --> 00:00:35,165 No. I still haven't heard anything. 2 00:00:35,166 --> 00:00:37,001 I'm really trying not to freak out, Tobe. 3 00:00:39,404 --> 00:00:41,972 Wait, someone's at the door. 4 00:00:43,174 --> 00:00:44,508 No, it's just Kevin and Madison. 5 00:00:44,509 --> 00:00:46,577 Oh, well, hello to you, too. 6 00:00:46,578 --> 00:00:48,679 Um, will you just keep looking? 7 00:00:48,680 --> 00:00:50,481 Just... I'll call you if I hear anything. 8 00:00:50,482 --> 00:00:51,915 Okay. 9 00:00:51,917 --> 00:00:54,084 - What's up? - Oh, God. 10 00:00:54,085 --> 00:00:56,887 Mom went to get a birthday cake, and she hasn't come back. 11 00:00:56,888 --> 00:00:58,689 I tried calling her. She's not answering. 12 00:00:58,690 --> 00:01:00,691 So, Toby went to the bakery, 13 00:01:00,692 --> 00:01:02,526 and apparently, she didn't even make it there. 14 00:01:02,527 --> 00:01:04,762 - Oh, my God. - Okay. I-I'm-I'm gonna go... 15 00:01:04,763 --> 00:01:06,363 I'm gonna go look for her. I'm gonna go help. 16 00:01:06,364 --> 00:01:08,132 - Uh, are you okay? - Yeah. 17 00:01:08,133 --> 00:01:09,233 - No, yeah, go. - You sure? 18 00:01:09,234 --> 00:01:10,401 - Yeah. - Wait, what's going on? 19 00:01:10,402 --> 00:01:12,803 Uh, no, nothing. I had a little morning sickness, 20 00:01:12,804 --> 00:01:15,172 - but... - Oh, thank God. Um... 21 00:01:15,173 --> 00:01:16,340 Yes. 22 00:01:16,341 --> 00:01:18,442 Yes. Of course. 23 00:01:18,443 --> 00:01:20,177 Um, thank you very much. 24 00:01:20,178 --> 00:01:21,779 Yeah, we're here. 25 00:01:21,780 --> 00:01:23,714 Okay. 26 00:01:25,650 --> 00:01:27,584 S-So, the cops have her. 27 00:01:27,585 --> 00:01:30,788 She, uh... She had an episode. 28 00:01:30,789 --> 00:01:33,590 They're bringing her back here. 29 00:01:34,960 --> 00:01:36,794 Let's all just, um... 30 00:01:36,795 --> 00:01:38,195 Let's just stay calm. 31 00:01:38,196 --> 00:01:39,997 We don't know what kind of state she's gonna be in, 32 00:01:39,998 --> 00:01:41,632 and-and I don't want to panic her. 33 00:01:46,805 --> 00:01:48,372 All right, ma'am, you're home. 34 00:01:48,373 --> 00:01:50,140 Everything's gonna be okay. 35 00:01:52,844 --> 00:01:54,111 Mom, come on in. 36 00:01:54,112 --> 00:01:55,746 - Hi. - Hi. 37 00:01:55,747 --> 00:01:57,781 Thank you very much for bringing her home. 38 00:02:04,089 --> 00:02:06,857 Okay, thanks. Oh, how's she doing back there? 39 00:02:06,858 --> 00:02:08,292 Uh, she's laying down. 40 00:02:08,293 --> 00:02:10,260 She's a little nauseous. 41 00:02:10,261 --> 00:02:11,662 My fiancée's got morning sickness 42 00:02:11,663 --> 00:02:13,030 at all hours of the day. 43 00:02:13,031 --> 00:02:15,265 Oh. Try ginger tea. 44 00:02:21,272 --> 00:02:23,373 - Hey. - Madison okay? 45 00:02:23,375 --> 00:02:25,109 Yeah. Yeah, she's okay. 46 00:02:25,110 --> 00:02:27,244 - Did you hear anything from Mom's doctor? - No. 47 00:02:27,245 --> 00:02:29,313 Miguel left her a message. 48 00:02:31,282 --> 00:02:33,250 Kev, she was... 49 00:02:33,251 --> 00:02:35,219 she was gone. 50 00:02:35,220 --> 00:02:39,089 Like, like, her face was not her face. 51 00:02:39,090 --> 00:02:40,591 I know. 52 00:02:40,592 --> 00:02:43,427 It's too soon. I'm not ready for this. 53 00:02:44,362 --> 00:02:46,163 Yeah, me neither. 54 00:02:48,500 --> 00:02:50,467 Obviously, at some point, 55 00:02:50,468 --> 00:02:53,036 you're gonna need to explain your use of the word "fiancée." 56 00:02:53,038 --> 00:02:55,372 Yeah, it's a long story. 57 00:02:55,373 --> 00:02:56,507 - Yeah? - Yeah. 58 00:02:56,508 --> 00:02:58,208 Well, it's a long car ride home. 59 00:02:58,209 --> 00:03:00,477 True that. Yeah. 60 00:03:03,415 --> 00:03:06,650 Okay, so, Kev, I tried calling you 61 00:03:06,651 --> 00:03:08,919 for, like, two hours, and you weren't answering. 62 00:03:08,920 --> 00:03:11,288 I'm sorry. 63 00:03:25,223 --> 00:03:30,568 Subtitle sync and corrections by awaqeded for www.addic7ed.com. 64 00:03:32,043 --> 00:03:34,244 I didn't... I didn't know you were, uh... 65 00:03:34,245 --> 00:03:35,879 Yeah. 66 00:03:35,880 --> 00:03:37,581 - Hey. - Hey. 67 00:03:42,754 --> 00:03:43,820 Hi. 68 00:03:43,822 --> 00:03:45,455 Hey. 69 00:03:45,457 --> 00:03:48,325 I was just gonna call you about Mom. 70 00:03:48,326 --> 00:03:49,993 The cops found her. They brought her home, 71 00:03:49,994 --> 00:03:51,428 so she's-she's here. 72 00:03:51,429 --> 00:03:54,431 She's safe. She's-she's resting, so... 73 00:03:59,204 --> 00:04:01,338 Well, I wish I could give you a massive hug, 74 00:04:01,339 --> 00:04:03,540 - but I don't know when you were... - I'm-I'm good. 75 00:04:03,541 --> 00:04:05,776 I get COVID tested three times a week at city hall. 76 00:04:05,777 --> 00:04:08,545 Plus Beth's turned into Fauci at home, so... 77 00:04:11,716 --> 00:04:12,916 You guys? 78 00:04:12,917 --> 00:04:15,319 Yeah, we're g... We, um, we quarantined 79 00:04:15,320 --> 00:04:17,647 for 20 days before we got here, so we're all good. 80 00:04:17,672 --> 00:04:20,090 Okay. 81 00:04:20,091 --> 00:04:21,758 I want to see her. 82 00:04:21,759 --> 00:04:23,694 - She upstairs? - Yeah. 83 00:04:23,695 --> 00:04:25,762 Randall. 84 00:04:28,566 --> 00:04:31,168 There's no way we could've known this was gonna happen. 85 00:04:31,169 --> 00:04:33,870 She was great before this. You can ask Kate. 86 00:04:33,872 --> 00:04:36,273 I'm not questioning you, Kev. I believe you. 87 00:04:36,274 --> 00:04:38,675 She's home, and that's what matters. 88 00:04:38,676 --> 00:04:40,344 It's cool. 89 00:04:42,180 --> 00:04:44,281 Cool. 90 00:04:44,282 --> 00:04:46,383 Oh, hey... 91 00:04:47,418 --> 00:04:49,319 Thank you for coming. 92 00:04:49,320 --> 00:04:51,455 I know the last thing that you need right now is 93 00:04:51,456 --> 00:04:53,624 a terrified, panicked text from your sister. 94 00:05:42,407 --> 00:05:44,207 Randall. 95 00:05:44,209 --> 00:05:46,043 - What... - Hey. 96 00:05:46,044 --> 00:05:47,277 Sweetheart, I thought... 97 00:05:47,278 --> 00:05:49,413 I thought you weren't gonna make it. 98 00:05:49,414 --> 00:05:51,581 What, you think I'd miss our birthday? 99 00:05:51,583 --> 00:05:54,217 Oh... 100 00:05:56,588 --> 00:05:57,587 You know. 101 00:05:57,589 --> 00:06:00,557 - Kate called me. - Mm. 102 00:06:02,860 --> 00:06:05,429 Are Beth and the girls with you? 103 00:06:05,430 --> 00:06:07,364 No, they're back home. 104 00:06:07,365 --> 00:06:09,333 Next time. 105 00:06:09,334 --> 00:06:12,369 I'm clear. Kev said you are, too. 106 00:06:12,370 --> 00:06:13,904 I just want to be vigilant. 107 00:06:13,905 --> 00:06:15,305 - Sit. - Oh. 108 00:06:22,714 --> 00:06:24,881 You want to tell me what happened? 109 00:06:26,784 --> 00:06:28,819 Mm... 110 00:06:28,820 --> 00:06:31,421 I, uh... 111 00:06:31,422 --> 00:06:35,292 I don't even know what to say. 112 00:06:35,293 --> 00:06:39,129 Um, I went into town... 113 00:06:40,898 --> 00:06:44,167 ...and then the next thing I knew... 114 00:06:44,168 --> 00:06:47,170 William was there. 115 00:06:48,840 --> 00:06:51,541 I mean, obviously not William, but I... 116 00:06:51,542 --> 00:06:54,444 Oh, God, I could have sworn it was him. 117 00:06:59,384 --> 00:07:02,853 I've been thinking about him a lot lately. 118 00:07:05,156 --> 00:07:08,191 Ever since we had our conversation about the trial, 119 00:07:08,192 --> 00:07:12,028 and about me, um... keeping him from you. 120 00:07:12,030 --> 00:07:15,132 We don't have to talk about that right now, Mom. That's... 121 00:07:17,535 --> 00:07:20,270 Well, then, when? 122 00:07:22,340 --> 00:07:23,874 Hmm? 123 00:07:26,511 --> 00:07:29,179 Wh-What's going on there? 124 00:07:29,180 --> 00:07:32,315 Oh, that's just some poison ivy. 125 00:07:32,317 --> 00:07:33,784 Miguel and I have been gardening. 126 00:07:33,785 --> 00:07:35,485 I already took something for it. 127 00:07:38,990 --> 00:07:41,858 Do you think this would have happened in St. Louis? 128 00:07:41,859 --> 00:07:44,594 I don't know. 129 00:07:46,864 --> 00:07:50,033 - I'm sorry I pushed that on you. - No. 130 00:07:50,034 --> 00:07:51,501 No, no, no, sweetheart. 131 00:07:51,502 --> 00:07:54,471 You have nothing to apologize for. 132 00:07:59,444 --> 00:08:02,145 Are Beth and the girls with you? 133 00:08:05,550 --> 00:08:07,784 No, Mom. 134 00:08:07,785 --> 00:08:09,886 - Uh, next time. - Okay. 135 00:08:20,921 --> 00:08:23,704 Hey, excuse me, excuse me, um... 136 00:08:23,705 --> 00:08:25,306 My wife is Rebecca Pearson. 137 00:08:25,307 --> 00:08:27,675 I don't have an update yet, sir. 138 00:08:27,676 --> 00:08:30,444 Okay, wait, I-I don't... I don't know what to do. 139 00:08:30,445 --> 00:08:34,081 Um, what can I do? 140 00:08:34,082 --> 00:08:36,417 You could pray. 141 00:08:44,926 --> 00:08:46,827 Heh! 142 00:08:46,828 --> 00:08:49,864 - What are you doing? - Kevin, you need to talk to Randall. 143 00:08:52,134 --> 00:08:55,069 Kev, I have tried my best to stay out of this, 144 00:08:55,070 --> 00:08:57,872 but now Randall's acting all weird with me, too. 145 00:08:57,873 --> 00:09:00,007 We haven't even done our birthday chant, 146 00:09:00,008 --> 00:09:01,041 and that's like canon. 147 00:09:01,042 --> 00:09:03,110 - Oh, Kate, Kate... - No, Kevin. 148 00:09:03,111 --> 00:09:05,779 The world is on fire. 149 00:09:05,781 --> 00:09:09,416 This is enough. Fix it. 150 00:09:41,583 --> 00:09:42,816 Hey. 151 00:09:42,818 --> 00:09:45,819 You know, after seeing all those Internet videos 152 00:09:45,821 --> 00:09:48,455 of random objects that are actually cakes, 153 00:09:48,456 --> 00:09:51,358 it's kind of a letdown to have a cake that just... 154 00:09:51,359 --> 00:09:52,860 looks like a cake. 155 00:09:57,098 --> 00:10:00,901 You know... 156 00:10:00,902 --> 00:10:02,469 ...when Rebecca and I first got here, 157 00:10:02,470 --> 00:10:03,971 we thought we were gonna be here for a week. 158 00:10:03,972 --> 00:10:08,008 Two, max. Then that turned into a month. 159 00:10:08,009 --> 00:10:10,778 Then two months. 160 00:10:10,779 --> 00:10:13,447 But... 161 00:10:13,448 --> 00:10:15,549 she just kept feeling better. 162 00:10:17,385 --> 00:10:19,920 And I... I'm not an idiot or anything like that. 163 00:10:19,921 --> 00:10:22,289 I know that there's-there's no secret magic 164 00:10:22,290 --> 00:10:24,425 in the air that's gonna cure this, 165 00:10:24,426 --> 00:10:26,860 but... she just seemed like Rebecca again. 166 00:10:26,862 --> 00:10:28,262 You know? 167 00:10:29,965 --> 00:10:32,032 And now, with this... 168 00:10:32,033 --> 00:10:34,501 Oh, man. It's just gonna take the legs 169 00:10:34,502 --> 00:10:36,770 right out from underneath her. 170 00:10:42,177 --> 00:10:45,112 Okay, I'm gonna try to say something meaningful 171 00:10:45,113 --> 00:10:47,414 right now, Migs, and I got to warn you, 172 00:10:47,415 --> 00:10:51,418 it is gonna be a reach. So, you just bear with me, okay? 173 00:10:51,419 --> 00:10:53,287 Okay. 174 00:10:57,425 --> 00:11:02,529 So every morning, I take 20 milligrams of an antidepressant. 175 00:11:02,530 --> 00:11:05,899 Uh, I'm not sure who else knows that besides Kate, 176 00:11:05,901 --> 00:11:08,502 but it's-it's not a big deal. 177 00:11:08,503 --> 00:11:13,607 So, about a month after I started taking, uh, the meds, 178 00:11:13,608 --> 00:11:16,744 I called my doctor to renew my prescription. 179 00:11:16,745 --> 00:11:18,579 And he said, "Oh, no, don't worry about it. 180 00:11:18,580 --> 00:11:20,614 You have automatic refills." 181 00:11:22,284 --> 00:11:25,652 That hit me... really hard. 182 00:11:25,654 --> 00:11:28,989 You know, it just made it feel so indefinite, 183 00:11:28,990 --> 00:11:31,191 so... so permanent. 184 00:11:31,192 --> 00:11:34,628 I said, "Is there ever gonna be a time 185 00:11:34,629 --> 00:11:36,764 "when I am not on these meds? 186 00:11:36,765 --> 00:11:38,899 I mean, is-is this ever gonna end?" 187 00:11:38,900 --> 00:11:41,702 And... and then he... 188 00:11:41,703 --> 00:11:44,304 He says, "One day at time." 189 00:11:44,306 --> 00:11:46,573 - Hmm. - One day at a time. 190 00:11:46,574 --> 00:11:50,677 An excellent TV show, and a terrible answer to my question. 191 00:11:50,679 --> 00:11:54,448 Now, I don't know how it feels 192 00:11:54,449 --> 00:11:57,518 to stare down Alzheimer's. 193 00:12:00,922 --> 00:12:02,956 But I do know how it feels 194 00:12:02,958 --> 00:12:05,259 to look at your life 195 00:12:05,260 --> 00:12:07,761 and to see all the things that you want from it, 196 00:12:07,762 --> 00:12:11,765 and to have them all seem so unattainable. 197 00:12:13,702 --> 00:12:15,869 Rebecca had a bad day. 198 00:12:15,870 --> 00:12:17,971 She's gonna have more. 199 00:12:17,973 --> 00:12:20,607 You know. 200 00:12:20,608 --> 00:12:24,878 My long-winded advice is for you 201 00:12:24,879 --> 00:12:28,048 to remind her that to you, 202 00:12:28,049 --> 00:12:30,984 her happy future is very real. 203 00:12:32,454 --> 00:12:34,555 One day at a time. 204 00:12:38,026 --> 00:12:40,027 It's a great show. 205 00:12:40,028 --> 00:12:42,096 The reboot is better. 206 00:12:42,097 --> 00:12:43,931 I know. 207 00:12:43,932 --> 00:12:45,866 I'm the one who started the hashtag to get it revived 208 00:12:45,867 --> 00:12:47,634 - after it got canceled. - Is that right? 209 00:12:47,635 --> 00:12:49,236 You don't cancel Rita Moreno. 210 00:12:49,237 --> 00:12:50,637 Amen. 211 00:12:50,638 --> 00:12:52,039 Yeah. 212 00:12:52,040 --> 00:12:53,540 Oh, this is Rebecca's doctor from L.A. 213 00:12:53,541 --> 00:12:55,042 - Yeah, go ahead. - I got to take this. 214 00:12:55,043 --> 00:12:57,911 Hello. Hi, uh, Dr. Whitaker. 215 00:12:57,912 --> 00:12:59,613 Is that her doctor? I need to speak with her. 216 00:12:59,614 --> 00:13:01,515 Yeah, yeah. This, uh... It was this afternoon. 217 00:13:01,516 --> 00:13:03,283 - Give me the... - It was a very severe episode. 218 00:13:03,284 --> 00:13:05,085 Miguel, I'd like to talk to her. 219 00:13:05,086 --> 00:13:06,620 Randall, just hold on one second, please. Uh... 220 00:13:06,621 --> 00:13:08,322 Ask her if anything could have 221 00:13:08,323 --> 00:13:10,257 - negatively interacted with her meds. - Just... 222 00:13:10,258 --> 00:13:12,659 Ask her about the allergy medicine, 223 00:13:12,660 --> 00:13:15,362 the one she took for poison ivy. Here. 224 00:13:16,264 --> 00:13:19,133 Are you sure she took this? 225 00:13:19,134 --> 00:13:20,534 Yeah, she told me. 226 00:13:20,535 --> 00:13:23,337 Hey, Dr. Whitaker, uh, yeah. 227 00:13:23,338 --> 00:13:26,807 It looks like Rebecca took an antihistamine with... 228 00:13:26,808 --> 00:13:28,876 Yes, diphenhydramine. 229 00:13:30,512 --> 00:13:33,046 I do remember it from the list. 230 00:13:33,048 --> 00:13:34,948 Okay. Right. 231 00:13:34,949 --> 00:13:37,351 So it could have been a reaction to the... 232 00:13:38,286 --> 00:13:40,821 Thank God. Okay. 233 00:13:40,822 --> 00:13:43,590 Yes, she's resting right now. 234 00:13:43,591 --> 00:13:45,692 Yes. 235 00:13:45,693 --> 00:13:47,694 Absolutely. Yes, I will. 236 00:14:20,905 --> 00:14:22,572 Please forgive me. 237 00:14:22,573 --> 00:14:25,742 I'm so sorry. 238 00:14:25,743 --> 00:14:31,214 She was in... so much pain. 239 00:14:31,215 --> 00:14:33,383 Shh. 240 00:14:33,384 --> 00:14:35,752 It's okay. Shh. 241 00:14:35,753 --> 00:14:38,922 It's okay. You've been crying all night. 242 00:14:38,923 --> 00:14:41,057 Aren't you tired? Huh? 243 00:14:42,994 --> 00:14:45,795 Still bad? 244 00:14:46,797 --> 00:14:48,632 We should go to the clinic, 245 00:14:48,633 --> 00:14:50,634 - try to get you looked at. - No. 246 00:14:50,635 --> 00:14:53,803 If I tell that doctor I'm on methadone to get clean, 247 00:14:53,804 --> 00:14:55,839 he'll look at me like I'm dirt. Less than. 248 00:14:55,840 --> 00:14:57,607 - Laurel, please. - No! 249 00:15:04,949 --> 00:15:09,152 I need you to get me some stuff for the pain. 250 00:15:12,623 --> 00:15:16,292 Please. I've been good. 251 00:15:16,294 --> 00:15:18,128 I have. 252 00:15:18,129 --> 00:15:20,463 It just... It hurts so bad. 253 00:15:20,464 --> 00:15:24,200 I just need a little help. Just need a little help. 254 00:15:24,201 --> 00:15:25,735 Okay? Just one more time. 255 00:15:28,205 --> 00:15:31,841 So I can be there for the baby. 256 00:15:46,824 --> 00:15:49,526 I-I can't do it by myself. 257 00:15:53,331 --> 00:15:56,066 I can't take care of him. 258 00:15:59,070 --> 00:16:01,504 I'm so sorry. 259 00:16:04,742 --> 00:16:06,943 Please be with him. 260 00:16:08,446 --> 00:16:10,847 Please take care of him. 261 00:16:19,924 --> 00:16:21,558 Excuse me. 262 00:16:46,817 --> 00:16:48,585 He used to pray so hard 263 00:16:48,586 --> 00:16:50,253 you could see the veins in his neck. 264 00:16:53,758 --> 00:16:54,958 Yeah, I remember that. 265 00:16:54,959 --> 00:16:57,594 The veins in his neck. 266 00:17:00,031 --> 00:17:02,398 Never knew what he was asking for. 267 00:17:04,001 --> 00:17:08,138 I used to tell myself he was asking to be better. 268 00:17:08,139 --> 00:17:10,907 Better to us. 269 00:17:10,908 --> 00:17:13,943 A better man. 270 00:17:13,944 --> 00:17:17,514 And then I would pray. 271 00:17:17,515 --> 00:17:21,151 Pray that it would work. That he would change. 272 00:17:27,024 --> 00:17:31,594 Then, when he never did... 273 00:17:31,595 --> 00:17:33,963 that's when I gave up on all of this. 274 00:17:40,705 --> 00:17:43,773 Every hand you've dealt me has been crap. 275 00:17:43,774 --> 00:17:47,610 But still, I kept trying. 276 00:17:47,611 --> 00:17:51,080 All these years... 277 00:17:51,082 --> 00:17:55,652 trying to always do what's right. 278 00:17:55,653 --> 00:17:59,055 Trying to be the better man; the man that he never was. 279 00:18:03,661 --> 00:18:08,298 Has that made you laugh... seeing me try? 280 00:18:09,233 --> 00:18:13,570 Knowing that, somewhere deep down... 281 00:18:13,571 --> 00:18:17,207 in spite of everything, that I probably still believed. 282 00:18:26,317 --> 00:18:28,785 The only good thing that has ever happened to me is her, 283 00:18:28,786 --> 00:18:30,587 and if you... 284 00:18:52,610 --> 00:18:56,212 Please do not take her away from me. 285 00:18:59,083 --> 00:19:00,550 I am begging you. 286 00:19:00,551 --> 00:19:03,920 I'm on my knees begging for her. 287 00:19:07,424 --> 00:19:09,726 Begging for my children. 288 00:19:12,263 --> 00:19:15,832 Take me if you want, just don't... 289 00:19:30,447 --> 00:19:32,515 Just don't. 290 00:19:34,752 --> 00:19:37,153 Don't you dare. 291 00:19:42,082 --> 00:19:44,650 I had no idea that medications could interact that way. 292 00:19:44,652 --> 00:19:48,055 - And they're sure it's temporary? - That's what the doctor said. 293 00:19:48,056 --> 00:19:50,224 Said a reaction like that can cause an episode 294 00:19:50,225 --> 00:19:51,692 and then it can just wear off. 295 00:19:51,693 --> 00:19:54,328 It was a hell of a catch, Randall. 296 00:19:54,329 --> 00:19:56,263 Back at you. 297 00:19:56,264 --> 00:19:59,032 We're lucky you came, Randall. 298 00:19:59,034 --> 00:20:00,934 - Honestly. - Yeah. 299 00:20:00,935 --> 00:20:04,304 I'm just happy she's okay. 300 00:20:06,641 --> 00:20:10,110 So, um... I'm gonna take off. 301 00:20:10,111 --> 00:20:11,979 Wait, what? Now? 302 00:20:11,980 --> 00:20:14,414 - But cake. - I, uh... 303 00:20:14,416 --> 00:20:16,850 I promised Beth and the girls that I'd get home tonight. 304 00:20:16,851 --> 00:20:19,686 They got a whole thing planned, so... 305 00:20:21,623 --> 00:20:22,890 - Miguel. - Drive safe. 306 00:20:22,891 --> 00:20:24,525 Tobias. 307 00:20:24,526 --> 00:20:26,560 Sis. 308 00:20:27,395 --> 00:20:29,096 Kev. 309 00:20:29,097 --> 00:20:31,165 Bye again. 310 00:20:38,640 --> 00:20:40,073 Hey, Randall. 311 00:20:41,910 --> 00:20:44,444 So, I was, uh... I was hoping 312 00:20:44,446 --> 00:20:46,947 that you and Kev would talk, you know? 313 00:20:46,948 --> 00:20:50,484 - Clear the air. - Kate... 314 00:20:50,485 --> 00:20:52,653 I'm not taking any sides. 315 00:20:52,654 --> 00:20:54,054 I know I live in L.A. with him, 316 00:20:54,055 --> 00:20:56,857 but I am totally Switzerland on this one. 317 00:20:56,858 --> 00:20:59,960 Okay. 318 00:20:59,961 --> 00:21:02,229 Randall. 319 00:21:02,230 --> 00:21:03,630 Are we good? 320 00:21:04,566 --> 00:21:07,201 I mean, I've been texting and reaching out, 321 00:21:07,202 --> 00:21:09,670 and I haven't heard anything back, really, and... 322 00:21:09,671 --> 00:21:11,638 I'm just so worried about... 323 00:21:11,639 --> 00:21:14,241 about you and Beth and the girls. 324 00:21:14,242 --> 00:21:17,277 You know, with everything that's going on in the news. 325 00:21:17,278 --> 00:21:19,079 I'm so overwhelmed by it, I can't even imagine 326 00:21:19,080 --> 00:21:23,684 what you guys are all going through, so.. 327 00:21:23,685 --> 00:21:25,219 I'm so sorry. 328 00:21:30,158 --> 00:21:31,758 Sorry about what? 329 00:21:33,995 --> 00:21:37,531 Specifically, what are you apologizing for? 330 00:21:39,534 --> 00:21:43,270 I'm just... I'm... sorry about what's going on in the country 331 00:21:43,271 --> 00:21:46,073 - and the protests and... - Okay. 332 00:21:46,074 --> 00:21:48,609 But you've never apologized before. 333 00:21:48,610 --> 00:21:50,744 And this isn't the first Black person 334 00:21:50,745 --> 00:21:52,746 to be killed on camera. 335 00:21:54,649 --> 00:21:58,352 No, it's... it's not. 336 00:22:02,557 --> 00:22:03,991 I don't know, this feels different. 337 00:22:03,992 --> 00:22:06,693 Not for me, Kate. 338 00:22:06,694 --> 00:22:09,763 It-It's never been different for me. 339 00:22:11,699 --> 00:22:13,567 We grew up in the same house. 340 00:22:13,568 --> 00:22:15,669 Things like this have been happening to Black people 341 00:22:15,670 --> 00:22:18,739 for years, and we've never talked about it. 342 00:22:18,740 --> 00:22:20,607 Not once. 343 00:22:20,608 --> 00:22:23,310 Not once in 40 years. 344 00:22:28,516 --> 00:22:30,851 I don't know what to say. I don't want to say... 345 00:22:30,852 --> 00:22:33,587 - I don't want to say the wrong thing. - Okay. 346 00:22:33,588 --> 00:22:36,857 So, growing up, I, uh, I just had to keep 347 00:22:36,858 --> 00:22:40,694 so many things to myself because... 348 00:22:40,695 --> 00:22:44,064 I didn't want to make you guys feel bad. 349 00:22:44,065 --> 00:22:45,732 I didn't want you to have to worry about 350 00:22:45,733 --> 00:22:48,302 saying the wrong thing. 351 00:22:49,537 --> 00:22:51,305 Oh, God... 352 00:22:53,441 --> 00:22:56,276 Well, you're right. I mean, we never talked about it 353 00:22:56,277 --> 00:22:59,146 as kids, and I think Mom and Dad did the best they could, 354 00:22:59,147 --> 00:23:01,648 I guess, but... 355 00:23:01,649 --> 00:23:03,483 but I didn't get involved, I-I didn't even... 356 00:23:03,484 --> 00:23:07,020 See, I hate this, Kate. 357 00:23:07,021 --> 00:23:09,356 I hate seeing you upset. 358 00:23:09,357 --> 00:23:12,125 And normally I would hug you, 359 00:23:12,126 --> 00:23:15,562 and I would tell you that you did all the right things. 360 00:23:15,563 --> 00:23:18,265 I would try to make it all okay for you. 361 00:23:18,266 --> 00:23:19,933 But if I did that, Kate... 362 00:23:19,934 --> 00:23:24,671 If I made things better for you, then where does that leave me? 363 00:23:26,774 --> 00:23:28,976 I'm sorry, but I can't do that. 364 00:23:28,977 --> 00:23:33,313 That has been my pattern all my life. 365 00:23:33,314 --> 00:23:36,383 And honestly, Kate, it is exhausting. 366 00:23:39,621 --> 00:23:43,290 I'm exhausted. 367 00:23:43,291 --> 00:23:46,460 And all I want to do right now is go home and be with my wife 368 00:23:46,461 --> 00:23:49,262 and my girls. 369 00:23:52,267 --> 00:23:53,266 Okay. 370 00:23:53,268 --> 00:23:55,802 Okay, um... 371 00:23:58,640 --> 00:23:59,639 I love you. 372 00:23:59,641 --> 00:24:01,675 I love you, too. 373 00:24:04,979 --> 00:24:06,847 Happy birthday, Sis. 374 00:24:06,848 --> 00:24:09,082 Happy birthday. 375 00:24:45,785 --> 00:24:48,119 Yeah? 376 00:24:48,120 --> 00:24:50,589 It's Jack. 377 00:24:55,261 --> 00:24:57,295 Been a while. 378 00:25:00,032 --> 00:25:01,466 Yeah. 379 00:25:03,903 --> 00:25:05,070 You okay? 380 00:25:05,071 --> 00:25:07,172 Yeah. I... 381 00:25:10,243 --> 00:25:12,043 No, I... 382 00:25:13,412 --> 00:25:14,546 I don't know. 383 00:25:17,149 --> 00:25:19,818 Can I ask you something? 384 00:25:24,023 --> 00:25:27,225 What were you praying for? I mean, you know, 385 00:25:27,226 --> 00:25:29,294 back when we used to go to church. 386 00:25:32,431 --> 00:25:34,232 You need money again or something? 387 00:25:34,233 --> 00:25:36,635 Wh-What's going on? 388 00:25:36,636 --> 00:25:38,136 No, I'm good. 389 00:25:40,439 --> 00:25:43,475 I don't know why I called. I was just... having a day. 390 00:25:43,476 --> 00:25:45,844 Uh... I'll let you go. 391 00:25:45,845 --> 00:25:47,712 - I hope you're okay. - Jack. 392 00:25:49,649 --> 00:25:50,915 Yeah? 393 00:25:53,452 --> 00:25:57,389 Uh, I prayed my kids would turn out better than I did. 394 00:26:03,262 --> 00:26:05,163 I'm trying, Pop. 395 00:26:06,732 --> 00:26:08,166 I'm really trying. 396 00:26:08,167 --> 00:26:10,301 Yeah, I-I know. 397 00:26:12,772 --> 00:26:15,807 - I gotta go. - Hey, Jackie? 398 00:26:17,743 --> 00:26:19,177 Yeah? 399 00:26:20,646 --> 00:26:23,014 Happy birthday, kid. 400 00:26:28,287 --> 00:26:29,421 Thanks, Pop. 401 00:27:05,324 --> 00:27:08,326 And he wound up here. 402 00:27:08,327 --> 00:27:11,930 Exact same place, exact same day. 403 00:27:15,735 --> 00:27:17,569 Just look at him, Bec. 404 00:27:17,570 --> 00:27:19,738 Placed right there. 405 00:27:19,739 --> 00:27:21,406 Right next to ours. 406 00:27:23,109 --> 00:27:24,375 Hey, Randall. 407 00:27:25,845 --> 00:27:27,779 Hey, listen, I just wanted to, uh... 408 00:27:27,780 --> 00:27:31,082 Just wanted to say thanks for, uh... 409 00:27:31,083 --> 00:27:32,383 thanks for coming out, you know, 410 00:27:32,385 --> 00:27:33,818 I really appreciate it. If you hadn't, we, uh... 411 00:27:33,819 --> 00:27:36,020 No. Yeah, of course. 412 00:27:39,892 --> 00:27:41,192 Yeah. 413 00:27:41,193 --> 00:27:44,229 - I should go to beat the traffic. - Yeah. 414 00:27:44,230 --> 00:27:46,731 Hey, Randall, uh... 415 00:27:46,732 --> 00:27:50,235 I'm having a-a girl. 416 00:27:50,236 --> 00:27:53,404 A girl and a boy. We just found out. 417 00:27:59,011 --> 00:28:00,678 Congratulations, Kev. That's great news. 418 00:28:00,680 --> 00:28:03,114 Thanks. 419 00:28:03,115 --> 00:28:05,917 Yeah, you're the first person I've told. 420 00:28:09,488 --> 00:28:10,989 And I feel like, I don't know, I feel like the boy, 421 00:28:10,990 --> 00:28:13,057 you know, I was a boy once, I can handle a boy, right? 422 00:28:13,059 --> 00:28:15,994 But the girl, I... 423 00:28:15,995 --> 00:28:18,630 Ooh! So... 424 00:28:20,599 --> 00:28:23,234 Anyway, you got any advice for me? 425 00:28:26,639 --> 00:28:29,240 You'll let her get away with anything. 426 00:28:31,510 --> 00:28:34,345 But her mom will be there to fix your mistakes. 427 00:28:34,346 --> 00:28:37,315 Mom will probably be better at everything, honestly. 428 00:28:37,316 --> 00:28:40,552 Yeah. 429 00:28:40,553 --> 00:28:43,555 Yeah, she probably will be. 430 00:28:46,225 --> 00:28:50,595 You know, in the strangest of ways... 431 00:28:50,596 --> 00:28:53,097 I feel like I might have... 432 00:28:53,099 --> 00:28:56,801 really found someone really special, you know? 433 00:29:06,412 --> 00:29:08,079 I gotta go. 434 00:29:10,249 --> 00:29:12,750 Happy birthday. 435 00:29:14,220 --> 00:29:15,987 Happy birthday, Randall. 436 00:29:45,411 --> 00:29:47,111 You gonna keep staring at me, 437 00:29:47,112 --> 00:29:48,947 or you gonna tell me your name? 438 00:29:48,948 --> 00:29:50,748 I don't know. 439 00:29:50,749 --> 00:29:53,518 You gonna tell me your name? 440 00:29:55,488 --> 00:29:57,789 - I'm Laurel. - William. 441 00:29:57,790 --> 00:29:59,824 But around here they call me... 442 00:29:59,825 --> 00:30:01,793 Shakespeare! 443 00:30:01,794 --> 00:30:03,962 Shakespeare, it's your stop. You're home, kid. 444 00:30:03,963 --> 00:30:05,730 You getting off or what? 445 00:30:05,731 --> 00:30:10,468 No, I'm not getting off. So just... keep going. 446 00:30:39,131 --> 00:30:40,898 Hi, Randall. 447 00:30:40,900 --> 00:30:44,402 Hi, Dr. Leigh. Uh, sorry to bother you. 448 00:30:44,403 --> 00:30:46,938 I hope it's an okay time to... 449 00:30:48,407 --> 00:30:50,975 No, of course. I-I saw your name, 450 00:30:50,976 --> 00:30:53,578 and I wanted to make sure everything was all right. 451 00:30:55,080 --> 00:30:58,783 Yeah, no, everything's all right. 452 00:30:58,784 --> 00:31:00,852 But... 453 00:31:03,188 --> 00:31:04,989 When we first met, Dr. Leigh, 454 00:31:04,990 --> 00:31:07,825 you made a point of pointing out 455 00:31:07,826 --> 00:31:10,962 just how few Black men seek you out for therapy. 456 00:31:10,963 --> 00:31:14,999 It's a "very small number," were your words. 457 00:31:15,000 --> 00:31:17,235 I remember. 458 00:31:17,236 --> 00:31:19,871 I made a conscious choice to start seeing 459 00:31:19,872 --> 00:31:22,006 a white female therapist. 460 00:31:23,242 --> 00:31:25,076 I know that. 461 00:31:25,077 --> 00:31:26,644 It's complicated for me, 462 00:31:26,645 --> 00:31:28,379 and I can't claim to understand it, 463 00:31:28,380 --> 00:31:30,481 but I... but I do know it. 464 00:31:30,482 --> 00:31:33,017 If that makes sense. 465 00:31:37,089 --> 00:31:41,159 There are things, Dr. Leigh, that I don't feel comfortable 466 00:31:41,160 --> 00:31:43,294 talking to you about. 467 00:31:44,530 --> 00:31:49,701 There's stuff I-I put away when I enter your office, and... 468 00:31:49,702 --> 00:31:53,538 that doesn't help me get better. 469 00:31:53,539 --> 00:31:55,606 And there's nothing you can do to make me more comfortable. 470 00:31:55,608 --> 00:31:58,609 I just... 471 00:31:58,611 --> 00:32:00,912 I need something different. 472 00:32:05,284 --> 00:32:10,188 I'm gonna make a change and find a Black therapist. 473 00:32:10,189 --> 00:32:14,158 And I just wanted to tell you that directly. 474 00:32:18,530 --> 00:32:22,533 Randall, obviously your mental health is what's important here, 475 00:32:22,534 --> 00:32:25,536 and if that's something that you're feeling strongly about... 476 00:32:29,742 --> 00:32:31,542 Hey. 477 00:32:31,543 --> 00:32:36,948 I knew that the meal was important to you, so... 478 00:32:36,949 --> 00:32:38,783 I'm doing the best that I can. 479 00:32:38,784 --> 00:32:42,754 So be gentle in your critique. 480 00:32:50,396 --> 00:32:54,699 Is that what it's gonna feel like... 481 00:32:54,700 --> 00:32:56,567 when I eventually... 482 00:32:56,568 --> 00:32:58,436 We don't have to worry about that. 483 00:32:58,437 --> 00:33:00,972 Not-not today. 484 00:33:06,311 --> 00:33:09,981 - You know what's so strange? - Hmm? 485 00:33:09,982 --> 00:33:13,417 I'm not worried about forgetting about the big stuff. 486 00:33:17,122 --> 00:33:19,423 It's the little things. 487 00:33:19,425 --> 00:33:22,360 It's the... 488 00:33:22,361 --> 00:33:25,530 It's the regular... 489 00:33:25,531 --> 00:33:28,533 Saturday when the kids were little. 490 00:33:32,037 --> 00:33:36,007 A day when nothing big really happens. J... 491 00:33:36,008 --> 00:33:38,576 We were just there, a normal family, 492 00:33:38,577 --> 00:33:40,545 like any other normal family. 493 00:33:40,546 --> 00:33:44,816 Laughing and talking and... 494 00:33:46,618 --> 00:33:49,854 ...playing pin the tail on the donkey. 495 00:33:55,861 --> 00:33:59,163 That's the stuff I'm not ready to let go of yet. 496 00:34:01,667 --> 00:34:03,768 I want to show you something. 497 00:34:05,504 --> 00:34:06,504 Come on. 498 00:34:06,505 --> 00:34:08,639 - Come on. - What... 499 00:34:18,050 --> 00:34:20,184 - I chopped down the dead tree. - Hmm. 500 00:34:20,185 --> 00:34:23,287 And I know that you said you wanted to plant a sapling... 501 00:34:23,288 --> 00:34:25,756 - Mm-hmm. - ...so that we could get fruit sooner, but, 502 00:34:25,758 --> 00:34:29,894 I don't know, it just seemed, um... too easy. 503 00:34:29,895 --> 00:34:33,865 So, instead, I got these. 504 00:34:33,866 --> 00:34:35,867 Oh... 505 00:34:36,935 --> 00:34:40,705 Now, these should bear fruit 506 00:34:40,706 --> 00:34:44,175 in about... six to ten years. 507 00:34:46,278 --> 00:34:48,279 Six to ten years? I don't... 508 00:34:48,280 --> 00:34:49,981 I am not in a rush. 509 00:34:49,982 --> 00:34:52,650 One day at a time. 510 00:34:52,651 --> 00:34:55,586 And then another... 511 00:34:55,587 --> 00:34:58,522 And then another. 512 00:34:58,524 --> 00:35:00,625 I love you. 513 00:35:00,626 --> 00:35:03,427 - I love you. - Thank you. 514 00:35:07,032 --> 00:35:09,100 Hey. 515 00:35:10,369 --> 00:35:12,203 Guess what. 516 00:35:15,174 --> 00:35:17,275 What's going on? 517 00:35:20,445 --> 00:35:22,980 I can't stop thinking about what Randall said. 518 00:35:25,517 --> 00:35:27,551 I've been so oblivious. 519 00:35:30,923 --> 00:35:33,624 - What can I do? - Noth-Nothing. 520 00:35:33,625 --> 00:35:36,193 That's sweet, but I'm gonna have to 521 00:35:36,195 --> 00:35:38,229 sit with these feelings a while. 522 00:35:40,732 --> 00:35:45,369 Well, we'll just have to get it all right raising our children. 523 00:35:45,370 --> 00:35:47,371 Yeah. Yes. 524 00:35:47,372 --> 00:35:50,341 Raising our children, 525 00:35:50,342 --> 00:35:53,878 - which is the plural of "child." - Mm-hmm. 526 00:35:53,879 --> 00:35:56,080 Children. 527 00:35:56,081 --> 00:35:58,149 Are you doing something confusing? 528 00:35:58,150 --> 00:35:59,417 'Cause I don't... I don't get it. 529 00:35:59,418 --> 00:36:01,118 Apparently. Listen. 530 00:36:01,119 --> 00:36:04,088 I just got six messages from the adoption agency. 531 00:36:04,089 --> 00:36:07,725 Kate, we have a match. 532 00:36:07,726 --> 00:36:10,061 Wh... 533 00:36:10,062 --> 00:36:12,163 What? 534 00:36:12,164 --> 00:36:13,831 They found us a match. 535 00:36:13,832 --> 00:36:16,534 - For real? - Yes. 536 00:36:16,535 --> 00:36:20,338 - We're getting a baby? - We gettin' a Ba... 537 00:37:20,465 --> 00:37:22,299 And another one. 538 00:37:24,870 --> 00:37:27,371 Mmm. 539 00:37:36,715 --> 00:37:39,583 I'm not having a breakdown, Beth. I'm really not. 540 00:37:41,486 --> 00:37:45,456 I'm healthier than I've been in years. 541 00:37:47,359 --> 00:37:50,661 But what I'm dealing with at work, 542 00:37:50,662 --> 00:37:53,064 and what we're dealing with as a people, 543 00:37:53,065 --> 00:37:55,599 day after day... 544 00:37:58,170 --> 00:38:02,706 - It's just so tragic, Beth. - Mm-hmm. 545 00:38:02,708 --> 00:38:05,643 So much loss. 546 00:38:09,281 --> 00:38:12,049 It's just so sad. 547 00:38:15,020 --> 00:38:18,956 I-I'm not falling apart. I'm not having a breakdown. 548 00:38:21,360 --> 00:38:25,062 I'm just really, really sad, baby. 549 00:38:30,769 --> 00:38:34,572 When my dad was dying, I... 550 00:38:34,573 --> 00:38:37,208 remember he said that it's the tragedies 551 00:38:37,209 --> 00:38:39,543 that define our lives. 552 00:38:41,446 --> 00:38:43,080 "They are the fence posts on which 553 00:38:43,081 --> 00:38:46,283 the rest of our lives hang, baby girl." 554 00:38:48,186 --> 00:38:50,855 I always think about that. 555 00:38:50,856 --> 00:38:53,090 Like... 556 00:38:53,091 --> 00:38:56,994 our lives just hanging there, 557 00:38:56,995 --> 00:39:00,297 between these really sad fence posts. 558 00:39:06,271 --> 00:39:08,706 Baby. 559 00:39:08,707 --> 00:39:10,407 You were born out of tragedy. 560 00:39:13,478 --> 00:39:16,313 Multiple tragedies. 561 00:39:20,185 --> 00:39:22,786 All that loss, all that sadness. 562 00:39:26,825 --> 00:39:29,760 And look at what you've hung on your fence posts. 563 00:39:31,296 --> 00:39:33,330 Look right in front of you. 564 00:39:33,331 --> 00:39:36,700 Right here in this room, and... 565 00:39:36,701 --> 00:39:39,003 I mean, look what you did with all of that. 566 00:39:43,742 --> 00:39:46,377 Do you see it? 567 00:39:46,378 --> 00:39:48,312 I see it. 568 00:39:49,214 --> 00:39:53,851 You are a beautiful, resilient man. 569 00:39:53,852 --> 00:39:58,355 The world is a brilliant, resilient place. 570 00:40:00,258 --> 00:40:02,793 We fight on. 571 00:40:04,629 --> 00:40:06,897 Darkest before dawn and all that? 572 00:40:06,898 --> 00:40:08,966 Sourest lemons life has to offer. 573 00:40:08,967 --> 00:40:10,568 Okay, that's your thing, you know what I mean? 574 00:40:10,569 --> 00:40:11,769 - I was doing my thing. - Mm-hmm. 575 00:40:11,770 --> 00:40:13,003 Can we stay with my thing? 576 00:40:13,004 --> 00:40:15,673 - Yeah. - Okay. 577 00:40:15,674 --> 00:40:18,242 This pain is not forever. 578 00:40:20,145 --> 00:40:22,713 This moment in time is not forever. 579 00:40:23,648 --> 00:40:28,285 Nothing is forever, except us. 580 00:40:31,289 --> 00:40:35,392 - We fight on. - We fight on. 581 00:40:51,943 --> 00:40:53,577 - Be honest with me. - Hmm? 582 00:40:53,578 --> 00:40:55,312 You're not, like, secretly expecting 583 00:40:55,313 --> 00:40:58,449 - some big surprise party or anything? - Mm-mm, no. 584 00:40:58,450 --> 00:41:01,919 All I need is in this room right now. 585 00:41:03,455 --> 00:41:07,291 I think we could all use a year with no surprises. 586 00:41:07,292 --> 00:41:09,693 Mm. Yes. 587 00:41:09,694 --> 00:41:11,428 - Yeah. - Mm. 588 00:41:12,964 --> 00:41:14,531 Let's mark the time and call it in. 589 00:41:14,533 --> 00:41:16,500 We need to call the cops and Child Services, too. 590 00:41:16,501 --> 00:41:17,835 This is a mess. 591 00:41:17,836 --> 00:41:19,970 Sir, we're gonna need you to wait here. 592 00:41:22,841 --> 00:41:24,642 Where'd he go? 593 00:41:24,643 --> 00:41:27,077 I'll let the cops figure out what to do about that. 594 00:41:36,655 --> 00:41:37,688 Wait. 595 00:41:37,689 --> 00:41:40,958 Wait. I think I've got a pulse. 596 00:41:58,765 --> 00:42:03,229 Subtitle sync and corrections by awaqeded for www.addic7ed.com.