1 00:00:33,800 --> 00:00:34,947 Meeting in the beanery. 2 00:00:34,971 --> 00:00:37,510 Now? I got childcare, and shift is over. 3 00:00:37,534 --> 00:00:39,251 Call the babysitter. You're gonna be late. 4 00:00:39,275 --> 00:00:41,198 How late? 5 00:00:44,180 --> 00:00:45,826 Do we know what this is? 6 00:00:45,850 --> 00:00:46,996 We do. 7 00:00:47,627 --> 00:00:50,045 Do we want to tell our team what this is? 8 00:00:50,601 --> 00:00:52,229 Critical incident stress debriefing. 9 00:00:52,254 --> 00:00:53,873 - No. - Why?! 10 00:00:53,898 --> 00:00:55,120 I'm too tired for head shrinking. 11 00:00:55,145 --> 00:00:57,182 My eyes are starting to move independently of each other. 12 00:00:57,207 --> 00:00:58,628 Uh, I have a baby. 13 00:00:58,653 --> 00:01:00,077 Yeah, I have his baby. 14 00:01:00,102 --> 00:01:01,425 I have a couple of teenagers 15 00:01:01,450 --> 00:01:03,240 and a wife who gets mad 16 00:01:03,265 --> 00:01:05,274 if I don't come home after my 24-hour shift. 17 00:01:05,299 --> 00:01:06,553 I have... 18 00:01:06,959 --> 00:01:08,501 a deep desire to not be here. 19 00:01:08,526 --> 00:01:10,103 - Sit down. - Thank you. I'd love to. 20 00:01:10,128 --> 00:01:12,226 This isn't my call. It's over my head. 21 00:01:12,251 --> 00:01:14,697 But even if it was my call, I wouldn't let you leave. 22 00:01:14,722 --> 00:01:16,473 Vasquez was on our team. 23 00:01:16,498 --> 00:01:18,913 Captain Bishop, you might want to 24 00:01:18,938 --> 00:01:20,897 take your A shift powwow somewhere else. 25 00:01:20,922 --> 00:01:22,220 We have to cook in here, 26 00:01:22,245 --> 00:01:24,818 and unless you want us to fillet Gibson for breakfast... 27 00:01:25,770 --> 00:01:26,790 I'd get him out of our sight. 28 00:01:49,261 --> 00:01:50,942 Team. 29 00:01:50,966 --> 00:01:52,613 This is Dr. Diane Lewis. 30 00:01:52,637 --> 00:01:54,492 She's a psychologist and a trauma specialist. 31 00:01:54,516 --> 00:01:57,240 Doctor Lewis, is it legal for our employers 32 00:01:57,264 --> 00:01:59,292 to hold us hostage in the gym 33 00:01:59,316 --> 00:02:01,233 and force us to talk about our feelings? 34 00:02:01,257 --> 00:02:04,503 No. We don't use the "F" word here when we're at work. 35 00:02:04,527 --> 00:02:06,173 Miller, Hughes, don't push it. 36 00:02:06,197 --> 00:02:09,082 And if it is legal, is it psychologically sound? 37 00:02:09,106 --> 00:02:10,661 Did they lead you here at gunpoint? 38 00:02:10,685 --> 00:02:11,845 - Emotional gunpoint. - Mm-hmm. 39 00:02:11,869 --> 00:02:13,271 - "Mandatory" gunpoint. - Mm-hmm. 40 00:02:13,295 --> 00:02:15,415 I swear to God, if y'all don't shut up... 41 00:02:18,118 --> 00:02:20,707 Doctor, I will leave you to it. 42 00:02:26,997 --> 00:02:31,496 So, your battalion chief has a hair trigger temper. 43 00:02:31,520 --> 00:02:33,235 Who wants to talk about that? 44 00:02:33,259 --> 00:02:35,079 I thought we were here to talk about Vasquez. 45 00:02:35,103 --> 00:02:37,099 We're here to talk about whatever needs talking about. 46 00:02:40,039 --> 00:02:42,868 Last year, more firefighters died from suicide 47 00:02:42,893 --> 00:02:44,700 than in the line of duty. 48 00:02:46,013 --> 00:02:47,659 Whatsamatter? 49 00:02:47,684 --> 00:02:50,270 Big, strong firefighters afraid to use your words? 50 00:02:50,295 --> 00:02:51,697 What kind of therapist are you? 51 00:02:51,745 --> 00:02:53,322 The kind who used to jump out of helicopters 52 00:02:53,347 --> 00:02:55,397 and rappel into wildfires. 53 00:02:57,234 --> 00:02:59,054 I know you because I am you. 54 00:02:59,079 --> 00:03:00,447 I know what you see every day. 55 00:03:00,472 --> 00:03:02,499 I know how it feels to lose one of your own. 56 00:03:03,958 --> 00:03:06,091 Vasquez had a pulmonary embolism 57 00:03:06,116 --> 00:03:07,519 the day he was supposed to go home. 58 00:03:07,544 --> 00:03:09,642 Now, that hurts me, and I never even met the guy. 59 00:03:09,667 --> 00:03:12,413 So, yes, I am holding you hostage today. 60 00:03:13,626 --> 00:03:15,304 At emotional gunpoint. 61 00:03:17,513 --> 00:03:20,572 Um, am I seriously supposed to do this in the gym? 62 00:03:21,618 --> 00:03:27,527 Synced & corrected by -robtor- www.addic7ed.com 63 00:03:33,350 --> 00:03:37,036 This is so good. 64 00:03:38,511 --> 00:03:40,039 Are you mocking me? 65 00:03:40,910 --> 00:03:42,556 Mocking you? 66 00:03:42,581 --> 00:03:44,505 No. 67 00:03:44,530 --> 00:03:48,264 I've got a 15-year-old and two pre-teens at home. 68 00:03:48,289 --> 00:03:50,282 Trust me, I love silence. 69 00:03:50,307 --> 00:03:51,590 Love it. 70 00:03:52,716 --> 00:03:54,468 I don't know what you want me to say. 71 00:03:54,963 --> 00:03:56,918 I didn't think Vasquez was a good guy. 72 00:03:56,943 --> 00:03:58,282 Didn't think he was a good firefighter. 73 00:03:58,644 --> 00:04:01,125 He didn't listen to authority, which made him a liability, 74 00:04:01,150 --> 00:04:04,144 and he was that way from the beginning, way before I... 75 00:04:06,226 --> 00:04:07,963 Way before you...? 76 00:04:08,450 --> 00:04:09,540 I'm sure you've heard. 77 00:04:09,565 --> 00:04:10,828 I'm interested in hearing your take. 78 00:04:10,853 --> 00:04:12,429 Way before I broke the code. 79 00:04:12,454 --> 00:04:15,530 Way before I made myself a viper. 80 00:04:15,811 --> 00:04:17,944 Way before I lost even my own respect 81 00:04:17,969 --> 00:04:19,803 and way before I lost yours. 82 00:04:20,161 --> 00:04:21,564 I'm not here to judge you, Jack. 83 00:04:21,589 --> 00:04:23,025 You used to be a firefighter. 84 00:04:23,050 --> 00:04:24,244 So you're judging what I did 85 00:04:24,269 --> 00:04:25,429 whether it's your job or not. 86 00:04:25,454 --> 00:04:26,566 Because that code 87 00:04:26,590 --> 00:04:27,862 has been hammered into us from day one. 88 00:04:27,886 --> 00:04:28,892 So, why'd you break it? 89 00:04:28,916 --> 00:04:29,928 I didn't know who she was. 90 00:04:29,952 --> 00:04:31,575 And once you knew, you stopped? 91 00:04:31,599 --> 00:04:33,175 Never went there again? 92 00:04:37,725 --> 00:04:39,057 Why do you think you broke it? 93 00:04:39,082 --> 00:04:40,554 I tried to stop. 94 00:04:40,579 --> 00:04:41,808 Are you a sex addict? 95 00:04:41,833 --> 00:04:43,479 No. No. 96 00:04:43,504 --> 00:04:45,602 I don't know. I don't think so. 97 00:04:45,627 --> 00:04:47,134 So, what was going on for you 98 00:04:47,159 --> 00:04:49,189 before you made the decisions you made? 99 00:04:49,214 --> 00:04:50,790 Aren't you supposed to be talking 100 00:04:50,815 --> 00:04:53,192 about trauma or something? 101 00:04:53,217 --> 00:04:55,545 Rigo's death hasn't been traumatic for you? 102 00:04:56,003 --> 00:04:57,510 I've lived through worse. 103 00:04:57,589 --> 00:04:58,782 Then tell me about the worse. 104 00:04:58,807 --> 00:05:00,593 - I don't get it. - Don't get...? 105 00:05:00,618 --> 00:05:01,881 That you quit firefighting 106 00:05:01,906 --> 00:05:03,552 so you can sit in rooms and force people 107 00:05:03,577 --> 00:05:05,662 to relive their worst memories? 108 00:05:07,331 --> 00:05:09,429 I made a bad drop out of a helicopter 109 00:05:09,453 --> 00:05:11,030 and shattered my leg. 110 00:05:11,054 --> 00:05:12,874 I was supposed to be there putting out the fire, 111 00:05:12,898 --> 00:05:14,914 and I became the rescue. 112 00:05:15,395 --> 00:05:17,493 The family lost their house and their dog 113 00:05:17,517 --> 00:05:20,625 because my team had to come rescue me instead of Aldo. 114 00:05:20,649 --> 00:05:23,348 That was the dog's name... Aldo. 115 00:05:23,746 --> 00:05:25,323 I would hear him barking 116 00:05:25,347 --> 00:05:27,202 and those kids crying 117 00:05:27,226 --> 00:05:28,732 and screaming for someone to help him 118 00:05:28,756 --> 00:05:30,241 every time I tried to sleep. 119 00:05:30,265 --> 00:05:33,337 And the way it was barking at the end? 120 00:05:33,361 --> 00:05:35,968 I don't think it was the smoke that took it out. 121 00:05:36,602 --> 00:05:38,666 I got a pin in my hip, 15 screws in my leg, 122 00:05:38,691 --> 00:05:39,885 and a metal knee. 123 00:05:39,910 --> 00:05:41,034 And none of it hurt as bad 124 00:05:41,059 --> 00:05:42,844 as the sound of Aldo barking. 125 00:05:42,869 --> 00:05:45,537 It was like... It was like tinnitus. 126 00:05:46,082 --> 00:05:47,797 It never stopped. 127 00:05:47,822 --> 00:05:50,424 Until someone like me came to my bedside 128 00:05:50,449 --> 00:05:51,810 and got me to talk. 129 00:05:51,835 --> 00:05:53,829 And the barking got quieter. 130 00:05:53,854 --> 00:05:56,756 And the more I talked, the quieter it got. 131 00:05:57,218 --> 00:05:59,907 So, when my leg never fully healed 132 00:05:59,932 --> 00:06:01,503 and I needed a new plan, 133 00:06:01,528 --> 00:06:03,439 I learned how to do this. 134 00:06:04,634 --> 00:06:06,099 Now you. 135 00:06:06,721 --> 00:06:08,528 Tell me your worst thing. 136 00:06:14,298 --> 00:06:16,139 I keep thinking about my dad. 137 00:06:17,397 --> 00:06:19,112 I was a foster kid. 138 00:06:19,137 --> 00:06:21,236 Grew up in group homes mostly. 139 00:06:21,261 --> 00:06:25,118 But one year, I almost got adopted. 140 00:06:26,485 --> 00:06:30,079 I had a sister and brother, 141 00:06:30,104 --> 00:06:32,202 and I had a mom and a dad. 142 00:06:32,227 --> 00:06:34,116 Had a hard time calling them that at first 143 00:06:34,141 --> 00:06:36,021 because it was, you know, weird. 144 00:06:36,046 --> 00:06:38,005 But that's what they wanted me to call them. 145 00:06:38,030 --> 00:06:39,920 He was a high school science teacher, 146 00:06:39,945 --> 00:06:43,178 and she was a receptionist in a dentist's office. 147 00:06:43,203 --> 00:06:44,711 I thought they couldn't have kids, 148 00:06:44,736 --> 00:06:46,555 but they said they could. 149 00:06:46,580 --> 00:06:48,121 They just didn't want them. 150 00:06:48,146 --> 00:06:52,333 He was preoccupied with overpopulation. 151 00:06:52,358 --> 00:06:56,265 Said it was the greatest threat to our planet. 152 00:06:56,290 --> 00:07:01,238 So they fostered us and planned to adopt us. 153 00:07:02,368 --> 00:07:04,524 And... 154 00:07:07,673 --> 00:07:09,249 What just happened? 155 00:07:09,273 --> 00:07:10,328 Hmm? 156 00:07:10,352 --> 00:07:11,754 You were talking about your dad. 157 00:07:11,778 --> 00:07:13,781 I was thinking about a call I went on. 158 00:07:13,805 --> 00:07:15,520 When? 159 00:07:15,544 --> 00:07:17,170 Last Christmas. 160 00:07:17,944 --> 00:07:19,278 You asked about the worst thing. 161 00:07:19,302 --> 00:07:21,538 I think that was the worst thing. 162 00:07:28,417 --> 00:07:29,471 Tree's on fire! 163 00:07:29,495 --> 00:07:31,246 Ma'am? Ma'am! Step away from the tree. 164 00:07:31,270 --> 00:07:32,847 - I have to put out the fire! - Step away from the tree. 165 00:07:32,871 --> 00:07:34,516 - Ma'am, ma'am, ma'am, ma'am. - Step away from the fire. 166 00:07:34,540 --> 00:07:35,525 Come with me, come with me, come with me. 167 00:07:37,567 --> 00:07:38,800 The tree's on fire! 168 00:07:38,824 --> 00:07:40,018 We've got it under control. Okay? 169 00:07:40,042 --> 00:07:41,827 Calm down, calm down. 170 00:07:43,660 --> 00:07:45,585 The tree's on fire! 171 00:07:45,609 --> 00:07:47,637 The tree's on fire! 172 00:07:49,784 --> 00:07:51,847 The tree's on fire. 173 00:07:55,070 --> 00:07:56,298 The tree's on fire. 174 00:07:56,322 --> 00:07:57,377 Ma'am. 175 00:07:57,401 --> 00:07:59,151 Do you have anyone we can call? 176 00:07:59,175 --> 00:08:01,553 The tree's on fire. 177 00:08:11,840 --> 00:08:14,544 The tree's on fire. 178 00:08:14,569 --> 00:08:16,620 That's the worst call you've ever been on? 179 00:08:18,088 --> 00:08:19,456 Yeah. 180 00:08:19,481 --> 00:08:22,275 Well, you've been at this awhile. 181 00:08:22,300 --> 00:08:25,129 So I'm assuming you've seen... 182 00:08:25,154 --> 00:08:26,281 you know... 183 00:08:26,306 --> 00:08:28,126 whole families cooked to death. 184 00:08:28,151 --> 00:08:29,275 Yeah. 185 00:08:29,300 --> 00:08:32,150 So, what made this one the worst? 186 00:08:34,709 --> 00:08:36,272 Your name's Diane. 187 00:08:37,261 --> 00:08:38,302 Yes. 188 00:08:39,415 --> 00:08:42,975 ? Little ditty about Jack and Diane ? 189 00:08:43,000 --> 00:08:46,824 ? Two American kids growing up in the heartland ? 190 00:08:50,987 --> 00:08:53,886 It was the worst call 'cause she was all alone. 191 00:08:53,911 --> 00:08:55,560 She was just all alone 192 00:08:55,762 --> 00:08:58,035 in that crappy little apartment. 193 00:08:58,060 --> 00:09:01,024 And somehow, through the whiskey and the loneliness, 194 00:09:01,583 --> 00:09:03,472 she got herself up off the couch, 195 00:09:03,497 --> 00:09:05,212 and she got herself a tree, 196 00:09:05,237 --> 00:09:08,031 and she decorated it with whatever she could find. 197 00:09:08,444 --> 00:09:10,283 But she was all alone. 198 00:09:11,464 --> 00:09:13,368 She didn't have any family photos 199 00:09:13,393 --> 00:09:14,537 or anyone to call. 200 00:09:14,562 --> 00:09:16,331 Just that tree. 201 00:09:18,603 --> 00:09:20,710 And her tree burned down. 202 00:09:32,943 --> 00:09:35,620 Ah. 203 00:09:40,289 --> 00:09:42,500 Oh, you're not gonna give me a tissue? 204 00:09:42,525 --> 00:09:43,719 No. 205 00:09:43,744 --> 00:09:44,938 No? 206 00:09:44,963 --> 00:09:46,295 Tissues kind of suggest 207 00:09:46,320 --> 00:09:48,580 you should wipe your tears away, 208 00:09:48,605 --> 00:09:50,198 suck 'em back in. 209 00:09:51,508 --> 00:09:53,493 And I want all of them out. 210 00:10:09,025 --> 00:10:11,750 I'm angry with Gibson for breaking the code. 211 00:10:11,774 --> 00:10:14,150 I'm angry with Bishop for putting him in the field. 212 00:10:14,174 --> 00:10:15,750 I'm a little angry with Sullivan 213 00:10:15,774 --> 00:10:17,247 for promoting Bishop over me, 214 00:10:17,271 --> 00:10:20,308 but other than that, I'm... 215 00:10:20,332 --> 00:10:22,291 You know, I'm pretty good. 216 00:10:29,830 --> 00:10:31,998 You were a... You were a smokejumper? 217 00:10:32,022 --> 00:10:33,320 - Yep. - Yeah, that's... 218 00:10:33,344 --> 00:10:34,886 that's pretty hardcore. 219 00:10:34,910 --> 00:10:36,765 Not nearly as hardcore as my new line of work. 220 00:10:36,789 --> 00:10:38,783 Yeah. I could never... 221 00:10:38,807 --> 00:10:41,253 Yeah, no, I could jump out of a helicopter 222 00:10:41,277 --> 00:10:43,758 into a wildfire, but I could not do what you do now. 223 00:10:43,782 --> 00:10:45,428 Mm, you're a doer, not a talker. 224 00:10:45,452 --> 00:10:47,335 - Yeah. - Let me guess. 225 00:10:47,359 --> 00:10:48,796 You were a cheerleader in high school. 226 00:10:48,820 --> 00:10:50,118 Dance squad. 227 00:10:50,142 --> 00:10:52,345 Dance squad! 228 00:10:52,369 --> 00:10:53,319 That's even better. 229 00:10:53,343 --> 00:10:54,433 Are you making fun of me? 230 00:10:54,457 --> 00:10:55,859 Why do you all think I'm making fun of you? 231 00:10:55,883 --> 00:10:57,494 Maybe that's a question you should ask yourself. 232 00:10:57,518 --> 00:10:59,964 Is it because I take joy in my work? 233 00:10:59,988 --> 00:11:01,531 Because I like getting to know my clients 234 00:11:01,555 --> 00:11:04,092 and it makes me smile and it makes me laugh? 235 00:11:06,077 --> 00:11:07,358 Maybe. 236 00:11:07,921 --> 00:11:09,903 Did you like dance squad? 237 00:11:10,426 --> 00:11:14,449 Not really. I... I preferred salsa. 238 00:11:14,984 --> 00:11:16,352 You can do salsa? 239 00:11:16,376 --> 00:11:17,660 State champion. 240 00:11:18,914 --> 00:11:21,360 You're a state champion salsa dancer? 241 00:11:21,384 --> 00:11:23,378 Seriously? 242 00:11:23,402 --> 00:11:26,509 Well, that takes sex appeal and showmanship 243 00:11:26,533 --> 00:11:28,040 and athleticism all at the same time, 244 00:11:28,064 --> 00:11:29,398 which is kind of a rare combination. 245 00:11:29,422 --> 00:11:32,946 So, what made you want to jump into fires? 246 00:11:32,970 --> 00:11:34,408 Okay. 247 00:11:34,432 --> 00:11:36,530 Who told you what? 248 00:11:36,554 --> 00:11:37,608 What? 249 00:11:37,632 --> 00:11:39,313 Why are you talking about my sex appeal? 250 00:11:39,337 --> 00:11:41,366 Uh, I was talking about salsa. 251 00:11:41,390 --> 00:11:43,175 Did someone say something about me and Sullivan? 252 00:11:43,199 --> 00:11:44,902 Sullivan the battalion chief? 253 00:11:47,304 --> 00:11:48,638 You didn't hear that? 254 00:11:48,662 --> 00:11:50,318 I did now. 255 00:11:53,358 --> 00:11:56,291 This is like doctor-patient privilege, right? 256 00:11:56,315 --> 00:11:59,352 You can't report me or write down anything? 257 00:11:59,376 --> 00:12:01,406 - That's right. - Okay, good. 258 00:12:01,430 --> 00:12:02,728 Well, I'm not just sleeping with him. 259 00:12:02,752 --> 00:12:04,040 I'm in love with him. 260 00:12:04,905 --> 00:12:06,239 And now you hate me. 261 00:12:06,263 --> 00:12:07,525 Why do you think I hate you? 262 00:12:07,549 --> 00:12:09,201 Because my behavior is a blight 263 00:12:09,225 --> 00:12:11,666 on the plight of female firefighters everywhere. 264 00:12:11,690 --> 00:12:13,380 A blight on the plight? 265 00:12:13,404 --> 00:12:14,833 - Now you're mocking me. - Only a little. 266 00:12:14,857 --> 00:12:16,392 All right, we're here to talk about Vasquez. 267 00:12:16,416 --> 00:12:17,654 - So can we do that? - Sure. 268 00:12:17,679 --> 00:12:19,055 Were you close with him? 269 00:12:20,429 --> 00:12:22,179 He's a salsa dancer, too. 270 00:12:22,204 --> 00:12:23,660 - Vasquez? - Sullivan. 271 00:12:23,685 --> 00:12:24,670 Oh. 272 00:12:24,695 --> 00:12:25,924 He can dance salsa. 273 00:12:25,949 --> 00:12:28,256 And I know I'm supposed to feel guilty. 274 00:12:28,281 --> 00:12:29,301 About Vasquez? 275 00:12:29,326 --> 00:12:31,600 - About Sullivan. - Okay. 276 00:12:31,625 --> 00:12:32,826 You're supposed to feel guilty, 277 00:12:32,851 --> 00:12:33,980 - but you actually feel... - Yes, I... 278 00:12:34,005 --> 00:12:35,345 Electric! I feel electric. 279 00:12:35,370 --> 00:12:37,816 I feel... awake. 280 00:12:37,841 --> 00:12:39,766 I feel awake all the time. 281 00:12:39,791 --> 00:12:41,124 This man undoes me. 282 00:12:41,149 --> 00:12:42,134 He... 283 00:12:42,159 --> 00:12:43,909 I love him. I'm in love with him. 284 00:12:43,934 --> 00:12:46,798 You know, love all by itself is not electric. 285 00:12:46,823 --> 00:12:48,608 By itself, it's calming. 286 00:12:48,633 --> 00:12:50,592 It gets electric when you combine it 287 00:12:50,617 --> 00:12:51,706 with stuff that isn't love. 288 00:12:51,731 --> 00:12:53,690 Rule breaking. Intrigue. Danger. 289 00:12:53,715 --> 00:12:55,083 Mm, so you are judging me. 290 00:12:55,108 --> 00:12:57,206 I'm not. I'm just trying to understand you. 291 00:12:57,231 --> 00:12:58,947 You're angry with Jack for breaking the code, 292 00:12:58,972 --> 00:13:00,201 but you're breaking it yourself. 293 00:13:00,226 --> 00:13:01,906 You coin phrases like "blight on the plight," 294 00:13:01,931 --> 00:13:03,473 but you keep doing it, and you don't feel guilty. 295 00:13:03,498 --> 00:13:04,517 You feel electrified. 296 00:13:04,542 --> 00:13:05,540 I'm just trying to figure out why. 297 00:13:05,565 --> 00:13:07,524 The plight of female firefighters 298 00:13:07,549 --> 00:13:08,987 isn't mine to carry. 299 00:13:09,012 --> 00:13:10,415 Okay. My mother was a firefighter. 300 00:13:10,440 --> 00:13:11,424 Or she was gonna be 301 00:13:11,449 --> 00:13:12,851 until she met my dad at the academy 302 00:13:12,876 --> 00:13:14,523 and got pregnant with me. 303 00:13:14,548 --> 00:13:16,194 So, your father was a firefighter? 304 00:13:16,219 --> 00:13:18,804 Yes, he was the captain of this house. 305 00:13:18,829 --> 00:13:19,844 And your mother is still... 306 00:13:19,869 --> 00:13:21,799 She died when I was 9. 307 00:13:21,824 --> 00:13:23,852 - So you were raised by a single dad. - Yes. 308 00:13:23,877 --> 00:13:24,871 You grew up. 309 00:13:24,896 --> 00:13:27,308 Joined the same house your father ran. 310 00:13:27,333 --> 00:13:29,222 And then... 311 00:13:29,247 --> 00:13:30,617 you start sleeping with the battalion chief? 312 00:13:30,642 --> 00:13:34,651 Okay, whoa, whoa. This... This has nothing to do with my father. 313 00:13:37,322 --> 00:13:39,964 This has nothing to do with my father. 314 00:13:43,544 --> 00:13:45,526 Are we done here? 315 00:13:45,551 --> 00:13:47,127 - No. - I think we are. 316 00:13:47,152 --> 00:13:49,563 Talk to me about Vasquez. 317 00:13:49,588 --> 00:13:51,522 Was he your friend? 318 00:13:58,553 --> 00:14:01,035 She's dying! My wife is dying! 319 00:14:01,060 --> 00:14:02,925 Sir, where is she? 320 00:14:02,950 --> 00:14:04,243 She's in the back. 321 00:14:05,296 --> 00:14:06,838 Help her! 322 00:14:06,863 --> 00:14:09,936 Please help her. Please! 323 00:14:09,961 --> 00:14:11,258 Whoa, whoa, whoa, stop. 324 00:14:11,283 --> 00:14:12,390 Sir, stop! Stop! 325 00:14:12,415 --> 00:14:14,304 - She's choking! - Yes, I... I can see that, 326 00:14:14,329 --> 00:14:16,324 but she's also wheezing, which means air is getting through. 327 00:14:16,349 --> 00:14:17,774 The Heimlich won't work. You'll just break her ribs. 328 00:14:17,799 --> 00:14:19,376 Okay, ma'am, you are able to get air through, 329 00:14:19,401 --> 00:14:20,768 so I just need you to relax. 330 00:14:20,793 --> 00:14:22,195 Do me a favor... I need you to cough. 331 00:14:24,413 --> 00:14:26,094 - Raccoon! Raccoon! - What the hell? 332 00:14:28,591 --> 00:14:31,162 Oh! Well, the Heimlich's gonna work now. 333 00:14:36,673 --> 00:14:37,797 - All right. - You got it? 334 00:14:37,822 --> 00:14:38,876 All right. 335 00:14:41,726 --> 00:14:44,277 It's... It's all right. 336 00:14:44,302 --> 00:14:45,704 It's all right, Herrera. 337 00:14:45,729 --> 00:14:47,386 You know, raccoons are... 338 00:14:47,411 --> 00:14:50,240 scary little creatures. 339 00:14:51,836 --> 00:14:52,890 I mean... 340 00:14:54,132 --> 00:14:58,457 What were you doing jumping up on a table? 341 00:15:02,901 --> 00:15:06,377 I thought you said I needed a check-up at the hospital. 342 00:15:11,175 --> 00:15:12,514 Shh. 343 00:15:12,539 --> 00:15:14,464 We're... We're gonna get you there, ma'am. 344 00:15:14,489 --> 00:15:15,891 Sorry. 345 00:15:15,916 --> 00:15:17,736 Oh. 346 00:15:23,723 --> 00:15:25,286 I barely knew him. 347 00:15:26,728 --> 00:15:27,994 Hm. 348 00:15:39,012 --> 00:15:40,276 Montgomery? 349 00:15:40,300 --> 00:15:41,595 You're up. 350 00:15:41,619 --> 00:15:42,865 Four alarm fire. 351 00:15:42,889 --> 00:15:43,960 I heard the alarm. 352 00:15:43,984 --> 00:15:45,007 Yeah, when the alarm went off, 353 00:15:45,031 --> 00:15:46,329 they were cooking a bunch of stuff for Eva. 354 00:15:46,353 --> 00:15:47,268 For Rigo's widow. 355 00:15:47,292 --> 00:15:48,486 They'll be gone for hours, 356 00:15:48,510 --> 00:15:52,070 so I'm going to finish what they started. 357 00:15:52,094 --> 00:15:54,401 That's a nice gesture. But I can't excuse you from... 358 00:15:54,425 --> 00:15:55,792 I'm not asking to be excused. 359 00:15:55,816 --> 00:15:58,436 I'm just asking if we can talk while I cook. 360 00:15:58,460 --> 00:16:01,011 Well, counseling is generally a private conversation. 361 00:16:01,035 --> 00:16:02,669 Probie, beat it. 362 00:16:08,550 --> 00:16:09,918 Little tension there. 363 00:16:09,942 --> 00:16:11,553 Yeah, he's in the closet, and I have no respect for him. 364 00:16:11,577 --> 00:16:12,945 Okay, let's not... 365 00:16:12,969 --> 00:16:14,371 He has a girlfriend. It's serious. 366 00:16:14,395 --> 00:16:15,867 She has no idea that he cheats on her, 367 00:16:15,891 --> 00:16:17,201 even less idea that he does it with dudes. 368 00:16:17,226 --> 00:16:19,555 Travis, stop. We are in a public space. 369 00:16:19,579 --> 00:16:21,607 And if you want to talk about your own issues publicly, 370 00:16:21,631 --> 00:16:22,762 I'm fine with that. 371 00:16:22,786 --> 00:16:26,096 But I'm not okay with you outing someone else on my watch. 372 00:16:29,599 --> 00:16:31,662 My pet rabbit likes his cage. 373 00:16:31,686 --> 00:16:33,054 Can I talk about that? 374 00:16:33,078 --> 00:16:35,212 We're doing code words now? 375 00:16:35,236 --> 00:16:37,577 - You made the rules. - Sure. 376 00:16:37,602 --> 00:16:39,771 Tell me about your pet rabbit, Travis. 377 00:16:39,796 --> 00:16:41,303 Well, he's a sweet rabbit. 378 00:16:41,328 --> 00:16:43,043 A well-intentioned rabbit. 379 00:16:43,068 --> 00:16:46,036 A rabbit that was bullied by his father into working here, 380 00:16:46,061 --> 00:16:47,254 and I'm pretty sure bullied 381 00:16:47,279 --> 00:16:48,543 into becoming a firefighting rabbit 382 00:16:48,568 --> 00:16:49,622 in the first place. 383 00:16:49,647 --> 00:16:51,502 He studied art history in college, 384 00:16:51,527 --> 00:16:53,763 and when his adrenaline starts to surge, he panics, 385 00:16:53,788 --> 00:16:55,816 which is cute... in a rabbit. 386 00:16:55,841 --> 00:16:57,717 Not super cute in a firefighter. 387 00:16:57,742 --> 00:16:59,610 - Okay. - The father also bullies him 388 00:16:59,635 --> 00:17:00,969 to stay in his cage. 389 00:17:00,994 --> 00:17:02,118 And I don't know 390 00:17:02,143 --> 00:17:03,834 if the father even knows that he's a rabbit, 391 00:17:03,859 --> 00:17:05,192 but I know that he doesn't see him. 392 00:17:05,217 --> 00:17:06,793 Doesn't let him be who he is. 393 00:17:06,818 --> 00:17:08,673 And I know that he just rolls with that. 394 00:17:08,698 --> 00:17:10,379 Doesn't push back, 395 00:17:10,404 --> 00:17:12,710 doesn't fight for the right to be who he is 396 00:17:12,735 --> 00:17:13,929 and not be caged his whole life. 397 00:17:13,954 --> 00:17:16,887 And that, it makes me crazy. 398 00:17:16,912 --> 00:17:18,176 And it makes me hate him. 399 00:17:18,201 --> 00:17:19,942 I hate my pet rabbit. 400 00:17:19,967 --> 00:17:21,334 Ooh! 401 00:17:21,359 --> 00:17:23,249 God, it feels good to admit that. 402 00:17:23,274 --> 00:17:24,711 You want to tell me about your dad? 403 00:17:24,736 --> 00:17:25,790 Why would I want to do that? 404 00:17:25,815 --> 00:17:26,781 You're out. 405 00:17:26,806 --> 00:17:28,158 You're an openly gay firefighter. 406 00:17:28,183 --> 00:17:29,586 I honestly think you might be the only one 407 00:17:29,611 --> 00:17:31,396 in the city of Seattle. 408 00:17:31,421 --> 00:17:33,520 You're the only one I've met. 409 00:17:33,545 --> 00:17:35,573 So... it's not that your pet rabbit 410 00:17:35,598 --> 00:17:37,070 is such a backwards rabbit. 411 00:17:37,095 --> 00:17:39,250 It's that you are braver than most. 412 00:17:39,275 --> 00:17:40,956 We run toward fire for a living. 413 00:17:40,981 --> 00:17:42,489 Mm-hmm. Brave is a prerequisite. 414 00:17:42,514 --> 00:17:45,607 Yes, and I'm saying that you are braver. 415 00:17:46,370 --> 00:17:47,703 How does that make you feel? 416 00:17:47,728 --> 00:17:49,339 It's 2020. 417 00:17:49,364 --> 00:17:51,149 When I was a kid, 2020 felt like 418 00:17:51,174 --> 00:17:53,342 the oldest the world was ever gonna get. 419 00:17:53,367 --> 00:17:56,648 I thought there would be flying cars in 2020. 420 00:17:56,673 --> 00:17:58,424 I shouldn't have to be brave 421 00:17:58,449 --> 00:18:00,164 to be out of the closet in 2020. 422 00:18:00,189 --> 00:18:02,148 You shouldn't have to be, but you do. 423 00:18:02,173 --> 00:18:03,646 You do. 424 00:18:03,671 --> 00:18:05,151 And you are. 425 00:18:05,777 --> 00:18:07,110 Why is that so hard to take in? 426 00:18:07,135 --> 00:18:09,018 My husband was an out, gay firefighter. 427 00:18:09,042 --> 00:18:10,966 Got it. So there were two. 428 00:18:10,990 --> 00:18:11,941 You're exaggerating. 429 00:18:11,965 --> 00:18:13,506 Not by much. 430 00:18:13,530 --> 00:18:16,985 Why don't you want to acknowledge how brave you are? 431 00:18:17,009 --> 00:18:19,734 Why would you rather think of your pet rabbit as a coward 432 00:18:19,758 --> 00:18:21,391 than own your own strength? 433 00:18:26,464 --> 00:18:29,154 How did your parents react when you came out? 434 00:18:29,179 --> 00:18:31,138 Was it easy? Were they supportive? 435 00:18:31,163 --> 00:18:32,809 - Can we talk about something else? - Sure. 436 00:18:32,834 --> 00:18:33,916 Why'd you become a firefighter? 437 00:18:33,941 --> 00:18:36,490 Because I had an overdeveloped sense of responsibility 438 00:18:36,515 --> 00:18:39,101 and an underdeveloped interest in the family business. 439 00:18:39,126 --> 00:18:40,598 What was the family business? 440 00:18:40,623 --> 00:18:41,747 Irish pub, 441 00:18:41,772 --> 00:18:43,035 and I could never hold my drink. 442 00:18:44,228 --> 00:18:47,902 Also I got raped in the backroom when I was 17, 443 00:18:48,446 --> 00:18:50,446 and I didn't want to go there after that. 444 00:18:53,196 --> 00:18:54,877 I thought you said this was a public space. 445 00:18:54,902 --> 00:18:57,591 You think I should keep it a secret that I got raped? 446 00:18:57,616 --> 00:18:59,680 I don't have shame about that. 447 00:18:59,705 --> 00:19:01,594 The rapist is the one who should be ashamed. 448 00:19:01,619 --> 00:19:04,379 I hope he is. I hope he learned something. 449 00:19:04,404 --> 00:19:06,212 I hope he didn't do that again. 450 00:19:09,704 --> 00:19:11,142 I've had a fair amount of therapy, 451 00:19:11,167 --> 00:19:12,638 and I have never had a therapist... 452 00:19:12,663 --> 00:19:13,927 Disclose her personal history? 453 00:19:13,952 --> 00:19:15,563 Yeah, typically, we don't. 454 00:19:15,588 --> 00:19:17,896 But with firefighters, 455 00:19:17,921 --> 00:19:19,323 it's hard to get people to talk 456 00:19:19,348 --> 00:19:21,217 if I don't do some talking myself. 457 00:19:21,242 --> 00:19:24,211 So I tell you my story 458 00:19:24,236 --> 00:19:25,973 in the hopes that you will tell me yours. 459 00:19:29,256 --> 00:19:31,598 You want me to tell you why I became a firefighter? 460 00:19:31,623 --> 00:19:33,744 Unless there's something else you want to talk about. 461 00:19:35,900 --> 00:19:37,789 Hurry up! I don't want to be late for the show. 462 00:19:37,813 --> 00:19:39,181 Dammit, Janet! 463 00:19:39,205 --> 00:19:41,269 I don't understand how women wear these shoes every day. 464 00:19:41,293 --> 00:19:42,904 Yeah, but your legs do look good. 465 00:19:42,928 --> 00:19:44,400 My legs do look really good. 466 00:19:44,424 --> 00:19:45,965 Help! 467 00:19:45,989 --> 00:19:47,531 He's gonna kill me! 468 00:19:47,555 --> 00:19:48,794 Somebody help me! 469 00:19:48,818 --> 00:19:50,410 Travis, no! Call the police! 470 00:19:50,434 --> 00:19:51,473 You call. I'm going in. 471 00:19:51,497 --> 00:19:53,104 What are you gonna do? Blind him with your high heel? 472 00:19:53,128 --> 00:19:54,814 I don't know! Call 911! 473 00:19:54,838 --> 00:19:56,587 Help me! Help! 474 00:19:56,611 --> 00:19:58,292 Help! 475 00:20:00,369 --> 00:20:01,737 Hey! What the hell?! 476 00:20:01,762 --> 00:20:03,477 Get away from her. Who the hell are you?! 477 00:20:03,502 --> 00:20:04,766 Get up. Run. 478 00:20:04,791 --> 00:20:06,124 Get down, Jane! 479 00:20:07,855 --> 00:20:09,592 Oh, my God! 480 00:20:10,638 --> 00:20:11,762 Run! 481 00:20:18,445 --> 00:20:20,856 Wait. 482 00:20:20,881 --> 00:20:22,214 You were dressed... 483 00:20:22,239 --> 00:20:24,372 As Frank-N-Furter from "Rocky Horror Picture Show." 484 00:20:25,686 --> 00:20:27,297 And you... you half-nelsoned him? 485 00:20:27,322 --> 00:20:29,107 Yeah. I mean, it wasn't a big deal. 486 00:20:29,132 --> 00:20:30,917 I wrestled in high school, and that guy... 487 00:20:30,942 --> 00:20:33,006 I mean, men who beat women are just cowards. 488 00:20:33,031 --> 00:20:34,711 But, you know, it gave me 489 00:20:34,736 --> 00:20:35,930 a taste for the hero thing, I guess, 490 00:20:35,955 --> 00:20:36,940 and I never looked back. 491 00:20:36,965 --> 00:20:38,611 - You did it again. - Did what? 492 00:20:38,636 --> 00:20:40,391 You dismissed your own bravery. 493 00:20:40,416 --> 00:20:42,515 You are a straight-up hero in that story, Travis. 494 00:20:42,540 --> 00:20:43,629 How many people do you think 495 00:20:43,654 --> 00:20:45,091 would shoulder their way through a door 496 00:20:45,116 --> 00:20:46,309 instead of just calling the police? 497 00:20:46,334 --> 00:20:47,528 In drag, no less. 498 00:20:47,553 --> 00:20:48,897 She could have died if I waited for the police. 499 00:20:48,922 --> 00:20:50,175 Yeah, your friend didn't go in. 500 00:20:50,200 --> 00:20:51,842 Dammit Janet? He didn't want to mess up his makeup. 501 00:20:51,867 --> 00:20:52,956 Travis. 502 00:20:52,981 --> 00:20:54,071 Why is it so hard 503 00:20:54,096 --> 00:20:56,128 for you to acknowledge who you are? 504 00:20:56,152 --> 00:20:58,286 Who gave you so much shame to carry? 505 00:20:58,310 --> 00:20:59,330 I'm not ashamed. 506 00:20:59,354 --> 00:21:00,442 Right. You're not ashamed. 507 00:21:00,466 --> 00:21:01,575 You're just not all that brave. 508 00:21:01,599 --> 00:21:02,681 And then when you are brave, 509 00:21:02,706 --> 00:21:03,652 it's not that you were brave, 510 00:21:03,676 --> 00:21:05,248 it's that everyone else is a coward. 511 00:21:05,272 --> 00:21:07,196 Do you know how many men would like to try drag 512 00:21:07,220 --> 00:21:08,727 - but can't let themselves? - It wasn't drag. 513 00:21:08,751 --> 00:21:10,502 It was "Rocky Horror Picture Show." 514 00:21:10,526 --> 00:21:12,509 Do you know how few gay firefighters, gay cops, 515 00:21:12,533 --> 00:21:15,015 gay soldiers will ever come out of the closet? 516 00:21:15,039 --> 00:21:16,720 Do you know how few human beings 517 00:21:16,744 --> 00:21:19,178 will tackle the men who are beating their wives? 518 00:21:19,526 --> 00:21:22,773 You are brave. You are fierce. 519 00:21:22,798 --> 00:21:24,100 And your pet rabbit 520 00:21:24,125 --> 00:21:26,571 is just a guy figuring things out. 521 00:21:26,596 --> 00:21:28,521 He's not on your level. 522 00:21:28,546 --> 00:21:31,899 Doesn't make him a monster. Doesn't make him a coward. 523 00:21:31,924 --> 00:21:34,096 It makes you extraordinary. 524 00:21:40,025 --> 00:21:42,158 I'm sorry. I'm just, uh... 525 00:21:45,591 --> 00:21:47,283 I'm sad Rigo died. 526 00:22:00,733 --> 00:22:02,310 You're in the club. 527 00:22:02,334 --> 00:22:03,423 Which one? 528 00:22:03,447 --> 00:22:05,127 Changing careers midstream club. 529 00:22:06,405 --> 00:22:08,085 I might be the president of that club. 530 00:22:08,109 --> 00:22:09,859 Oh, I am definitely the president. 531 00:22:09,883 --> 00:22:11,147 I mean, you can be my VP. 532 00:22:11,171 --> 00:22:13,691 Haven't we had enough male presidents already? 533 00:22:13,715 --> 00:22:15,182 - Hmm. - True. Okay, I'll... I'll be your VP. 534 00:22:16,250 --> 00:22:17,279 Uh, how many careers have you had? 535 00:22:17,303 --> 00:22:18,319 Only the two. 536 00:22:18,343 --> 00:22:19,532 Unless you count bartending, 537 00:22:19,556 --> 00:22:21,028 which I did for most of my twenties. 538 00:22:21,052 --> 00:22:22,523 How many careers for you? 539 00:22:22,547 --> 00:22:23,915 Oh, a lot. A lot. 540 00:22:23,939 --> 00:22:25,272 But I found a way to pull them all together. 541 00:22:25,296 --> 00:22:26,698 Ah, I heard. 542 00:22:26,722 --> 00:22:29,308 The whole department's talking about your, uh, DRT. 543 00:22:29,332 --> 00:22:30,595 Oh, PRT. 544 00:22:30,619 --> 00:22:32,788 It's the, uh, Physician Response Team. 545 00:22:32,812 --> 00:22:34,214 Mm, surgery on the side of the road. 546 00:22:34,238 --> 00:22:35,327 Exactly. 547 00:22:35,351 --> 00:22:36,789 Incredible. 548 00:22:36,813 --> 00:22:38,340 You miss fighting fires? 549 00:22:38,796 --> 00:22:40,094 Yes. Yes. 550 00:22:40,118 --> 00:22:42,181 And there's nothing to say I can't do it if I'm needed. 551 00:22:42,205 --> 00:22:43,311 But, you know... 552 00:22:43,335 --> 00:22:45,671 You have a finely honed skill set 553 00:22:45,695 --> 00:22:46,959 that was going to waste. 554 00:22:46,983 --> 00:22:48,176 Exactly what my wife said. 555 00:22:48,200 --> 00:22:49,290 Hmm. 556 00:22:49,314 --> 00:22:51,725 Yeah, she wishes you still worked in a safe, quiet hospital. 557 00:22:51,749 --> 00:22:53,290 Oh, very much, yes. 558 00:22:53,314 --> 00:22:54,891 I get that. 559 00:22:54,915 --> 00:22:57,151 I married a firefighter once. 560 00:22:57,354 --> 00:22:58,652 I wouldn't ever do it again. 561 00:22:58,677 --> 00:22:59,871 Really? 562 00:22:59,896 --> 00:23:01,612 Even thought you were a firefighter yourself? 563 00:23:01,637 --> 00:23:03,700 When I was fighting fires, I was always thinking 564 00:23:03,725 --> 00:23:05,545 about the people I was saving. 565 00:23:05,570 --> 00:23:07,321 But when my husband was fighting fires... 566 00:23:07,346 --> 00:23:09,618 - "Was"? - Divorced, not dead. 567 00:23:09,643 --> 00:23:12,680 When he was fighting fires, I was always worried about him. 568 00:23:12,705 --> 00:23:14,977 It's a sickening feeling. 569 00:23:15,002 --> 00:23:17,518 A powerless, awful feeling. 570 00:23:17,543 --> 00:23:19,537 Okay. 571 00:23:19,562 --> 00:23:22,635 I'm saying to you all the things your wife isn't saying. 572 00:23:22,688 --> 00:23:23,778 Is it helpful? 573 00:23:23,803 --> 00:23:24,927 Mm... 574 00:23:24,952 --> 00:23:26,320 Not really. 575 00:23:26,345 --> 00:23:28,025 Because you know how scared she is 576 00:23:28,050 --> 00:23:29,696 and you're not prepared to change your life. 577 00:23:29,721 --> 00:23:31,227 No, I... I did change my life. 578 00:23:31,252 --> 00:23:33,699 I... I created the PRT. 579 00:23:33,724 --> 00:23:35,126 Okay. 580 00:23:35,151 --> 00:23:37,039 - Look, I... I saved Rigo. - Mm. 581 00:23:37,064 --> 00:23:38,328 Like, I was there on the scene. 582 00:23:38,353 --> 00:23:39,721 It was my first day with the PRT. 583 00:23:39,746 --> 00:23:41,919 And if I hadn't been there, he never would have made it. 584 00:23:41,944 --> 00:23:44,216 I mean, he wouldn't have lived the day. 585 00:23:44,241 --> 00:23:45,817 I saved him. 586 00:23:45,842 --> 00:23:47,576 You know, and then... 587 00:23:50,500 --> 00:23:51,664 And then? 588 00:23:53,286 --> 00:23:54,833 He threw a clot. 589 00:23:54,858 --> 00:23:56,226 Which is kinda like God's "screw you" 590 00:23:56,251 --> 00:23:59,010 to doctors like me, with God complexes. 591 00:23:59,277 --> 00:24:01,758 He was sliced open by shrapnel, he was bleeding out, 592 00:24:01,783 --> 00:24:03,533 and we used every single thing we knew 593 00:24:03,558 --> 00:24:04,578 to put him back together. 594 00:24:04,603 --> 00:24:06,632 He was up, and he was talking. 595 00:24:06,657 --> 00:24:07,970 I went to see him. He thanked me. 596 00:24:07,995 --> 00:24:10,199 We joked, we laughed. He said it hurt to laugh. 597 00:24:10,224 --> 00:24:13,005 And I left there patting myself on the back. 598 00:24:14,784 --> 00:24:16,661 And then God laughed. 599 00:24:18,087 --> 00:24:21,299 Do you believe in a punishing God? 600 00:24:21,324 --> 00:24:22,796 No. 601 00:24:22,821 --> 00:24:24,321 Sounds like you do. 602 00:24:25,175 --> 00:24:28,455 Yeah, look, I don't... I don't know what I believe. 603 00:24:28,480 --> 00:24:30,683 I did Sunday school when I was a kid, 604 00:24:30,708 --> 00:24:35,207 and they always taught us that God rewards the righteous 605 00:24:35,232 --> 00:24:37,418 and punishes the wicked. 606 00:24:38,249 --> 00:24:39,930 But the stuff I've seen since I've been working here? 607 00:24:39,955 --> 00:24:41,149 I mean, what, 608 00:24:41,174 --> 00:24:42,589 is everyone wicked? 609 00:24:42,827 --> 00:24:44,856 Does everyone deserve to be punished? 610 00:24:44,881 --> 00:24:46,353 Did Rigo? 611 00:24:46,378 --> 00:24:48,233 Did I? 612 00:24:48,258 --> 00:24:50,239 When were you punished? 613 00:24:52,429 --> 00:24:54,768 My wife was having a baby. 614 00:24:55,938 --> 00:24:59,349 And then just like that... she wasn't. 615 00:24:59,374 --> 00:25:00,369 Hmm. 616 00:25:00,394 --> 00:25:03,467 And my wife, she... she is not wicked. 617 00:25:03,492 --> 00:25:05,868 She just brought home a 17-year-old foster kid. 618 00:25:05,893 --> 00:25:07,053 She's like some kind of saint. 619 00:25:07,078 --> 00:25:11,459 So... it's your fault she miscarried. 620 00:25:12,840 --> 00:25:15,998 If God was punishing the wicked... 621 00:25:16,023 --> 00:25:17,795 you're the wicked? 622 00:25:22,109 --> 00:25:23,894 I don't know you very well, 623 00:25:23,919 --> 00:25:26,823 so I need to try and get a handle on this 624 00:25:26,848 --> 00:25:29,991 before I can decide if you're wicked or not. 625 00:25:34,267 --> 00:25:37,161 What's the angriest you've ever been? 626 00:25:43,490 --> 00:25:45,485 Oh, man. 627 00:26:02,031 --> 00:26:04,617 Keep your hands on the wheel, where I can see them. 628 00:26:04,642 --> 00:26:06,413 They are on the wheel, Officer. Uh, was I speeding? 629 00:26:06,440 --> 00:26:08,225 - Let me see your hands! - Officer, my name is... 630 00:26:08,249 --> 00:26:10,034 Okay, get out of the car and keep your hands up! 631 00:26:10,058 --> 00:26:12,595 My name is Ben Warren, and I'm a firefighter. 632 00:26:13,641 --> 00:26:15,704 Get out of the car now. 633 00:26:26,179 --> 00:26:28,612 Now lie facedown on the ground. 634 00:26:29,693 --> 00:26:31,115 Do it! 635 00:26:40,454 --> 00:26:42,018 Now show me your ID. 636 00:26:43,686 --> 00:26:45,089 Okay, I'm gonna reach for my back pocket. 637 00:26:45,114 --> 00:26:46,099 May I reach for my back... 638 00:26:46,124 --> 00:26:47,874 Show me your ID! 639 00:27:01,795 --> 00:27:03,689 Taillight's out. 640 00:27:04,503 --> 00:27:07,005 Better get that fixed. 641 00:27:08,409 --> 00:27:10,473 I'm not just a firefighter. 642 00:27:10,498 --> 00:27:12,144 I'm a surgeon. 643 00:27:12,169 --> 00:27:15,032 I'm a husband, man. I'm a human being! 644 00:27:15,057 --> 00:27:16,774 I am a human being, 645 00:27:16,799 --> 00:27:19,858 and you just had me lie on the ground at your feet! 646 00:27:32,462 --> 00:27:34,511 How many days did you spend 647 00:27:34,536 --> 00:27:36,263 planning that cop's murder? 648 00:27:36,288 --> 00:27:39,952 Oh, I had a few revenge fantasies, I'm not gonna lie. 649 00:27:39,977 --> 00:27:41,310 Good. 650 00:27:41,335 --> 00:27:42,811 And what did you do? 651 00:27:42,836 --> 00:27:44,203 I went home. 652 00:27:44,228 --> 00:27:45,562 Hugged my wife and my son. 653 00:27:45,587 --> 00:27:47,198 And then I called the Chief of Police 654 00:27:47,223 --> 00:27:48,521 and the city council, 655 00:27:48,546 --> 00:27:50,569 and I reported my experience. 656 00:27:50,594 --> 00:27:53,841 I requested the officer receive suspension without pay 657 00:27:53,866 --> 00:27:56,533 and the unconscious bias training. 658 00:27:56,558 --> 00:27:59,861 And then I made a monthly donation to the ACLU. 659 00:28:03,254 --> 00:28:06,752 What's the opposite of wicked, again? 660 00:28:06,777 --> 00:28:08,587 From Sunday school? 661 00:28:08,612 --> 00:28:09,898 Righteous. 662 00:28:10,987 --> 00:28:13,003 That's what you are. 663 00:28:26,496 --> 00:28:27,934 Hughes. 664 00:28:27,958 --> 00:28:29,743 Wanna join me in the Captain's office? 665 00:28:29,767 --> 00:28:31,065 Can I go first? 666 00:28:31,089 --> 00:28:32,909 I have a baby, and I've already been away from her 667 00:28:32,933 --> 00:28:34,196 for, like, 28 hours already. 668 00:28:34,220 --> 00:28:35,797 I'm fine with that. 669 00:28:35,821 --> 00:28:36,735 Okay. 670 00:28:36,759 --> 00:28:38,544 And I don't need an office. 671 00:28:38,568 --> 00:28:42,198 Anything I need to say, I can say in front of Vic. 672 00:28:42,222 --> 00:28:44,947 I should say no to that, but my gut says okay. 673 00:28:44,971 --> 00:28:46,060 Why should you say no? 674 00:28:46,084 --> 00:28:47,366 - Because protocol. - Yep. 675 00:28:47,390 --> 00:28:48,426 And what does your gut say? 676 00:28:48,450 --> 00:28:50,478 That there's something you want her to hear 677 00:28:50,502 --> 00:28:52,601 and that's the only way you're gonna say it. 678 00:28:54,120 --> 00:28:55,906 Yeah, your gut's wrong. 679 00:28:57,740 --> 00:28:59,281 I just want to finish my workout. 680 00:28:59,305 --> 00:29:01,891 Guns like these don't grow on trees. 681 00:29:03,271 --> 00:29:04,500 What's your baby's name? 682 00:29:04,524 --> 00:29:06,274 Pruitt Arike Miller. 683 00:29:06,298 --> 00:29:07,283 Pruitt? 684 00:29:07,307 --> 00:29:08,362 Yep. 685 00:29:08,386 --> 00:29:11,625 Yeah, we call her Pru, but she's named after our old captain. 686 00:29:11,649 --> 00:29:12,704 And Arike? 687 00:29:12,728 --> 00:29:16,183 It's a Nigerian name. Of the Yoruba people. 688 00:29:16,207 --> 00:29:18,132 That's my mother's tribe. 689 00:29:18,156 --> 00:29:19,871 It means "cherished one." 690 00:29:19,895 --> 00:29:22,063 And is your mother pleased with the name? 691 00:29:22,087 --> 00:29:24,603 Well, my mother won't meet her. 692 00:29:24,627 --> 00:29:26,223 She won't meet her because? 693 00:29:26,248 --> 00:29:28,207 Because she has a very specific idea 694 00:29:28,232 --> 00:29:29,392 of how I should live my life, 695 00:29:29,417 --> 00:29:32,663 and having a baby out of wedlock, it ain't it. 696 00:29:32,688 --> 00:29:34,577 So, your mother won't meet the baby. 697 00:29:34,602 --> 00:29:35,701 What does that mean for you? 698 00:29:35,726 --> 00:29:36,781 It means that my father won't meet her, either. 699 00:29:36,806 --> 00:29:38,034 It means that I've disappointed them 700 00:29:38,059 --> 00:29:39,288 beyond their lowest expectations. 701 00:29:39,313 --> 00:29:40,681 It means... 702 00:29:41,118 --> 00:29:43,378 - they're cutting me off. - What? 703 00:29:44,011 --> 00:29:45,692 Sorry, what? Um... 704 00:29:45,717 --> 00:29:47,436 Sorry. I'll be quiet. 705 00:29:48,945 --> 00:29:50,814 They're cutting you off financially or emotionally? 706 00:29:50,839 --> 00:29:52,507 - Both. - When did they tell you that? 707 00:29:53,434 --> 00:29:55,325 Sorry. Sorry. I'm sorry. 708 00:29:55,350 --> 00:29:58,621 Hang on, just so I'm clear, are you two friends? 709 00:29:58,646 --> 00:29:59,979 Or are you a couple? 710 00:30:00,004 --> 00:30:01,476 - Friends. - Friends. I'm just helping him with Pru. 711 00:30:01,501 --> 00:30:03,843 And I... I moved in, and we take it in shifts. 712 00:30:03,868 --> 00:30:05,514 - It's... - You moved in? 713 00:30:05,539 --> 00:30:07,010 - She needed a place. - Yeah, I needed a place. 714 00:30:07,035 --> 00:30:08,334 - But you're just friends. - Yeah. 715 00:30:08,359 --> 00:30:09,657 Why is that so hard for everyone to believe? 716 00:30:09,682 --> 00:30:11,154 Who's everyone? 717 00:30:11,179 --> 00:30:12,269 Her boyfriend. 718 00:30:12,294 --> 00:30:13,626 My ex-boyfriend. 719 00:30:13,651 --> 00:30:15,332 He broke up with me 'cause I moved in with Dean, 720 00:30:15,357 --> 00:30:16,794 and he doesn't believe there's nothing between us. 721 00:30:16,819 --> 00:30:18,117 He broke up with you 722 00:30:18,142 --> 00:30:19,684 because you moved in with him without telling him 723 00:30:19,709 --> 00:30:21,072 and then you moved in with me without consulting him. 724 00:30:21,097 --> 00:30:22,048 Why are you taking his side? 725 00:30:22,073 --> 00:30:23,440 I'm not taking his side. 726 00:30:23,465 --> 00:30:24,906 I am your friend... 727 00:30:24,931 --> 00:30:26,195 - Okay. - I am. 728 00:30:26,220 --> 00:30:28,318 And as your friend, it is my job to tell you the truth, 729 00:30:28,343 --> 00:30:30,163 even when you don't want to hear it. 730 00:30:30,188 --> 00:30:32,008 And I am not gonna be your yes man 731 00:30:32,033 --> 00:30:34,166 specifically because you're, I don't know, 732 00:30:34,191 --> 00:30:36,567 the closest thing to family that I've got anymore. 733 00:30:36,592 --> 00:30:39,858 I mean, I... I have a sister, but she's in Chicago, 734 00:30:39,883 --> 00:30:40,903 and she's a lawyer, 735 00:30:40,928 --> 00:30:43,071 she's working 80 hours a week. 736 00:30:43,712 --> 00:30:45,845 A miserable profession that my parents approve of. 737 00:30:45,870 --> 00:30:47,168 I hate them. 738 00:30:47,193 --> 00:30:48,247 You don't know them. 739 00:30:48,272 --> 00:30:50,566 And I don't hate them. I can't. 740 00:30:52,469 --> 00:30:54,358 When I was a kid, 741 00:30:54,383 --> 00:30:56,621 my mother, she'd walk me to school every morning. 742 00:30:56,646 --> 00:31:00,136 And the kids, they'd, uh... they'd call us names 743 00:31:00,161 --> 00:31:02,607 and they'd make fun of me because we looked different 744 00:31:02,632 --> 00:31:04,104 and because she sounded different, 745 00:31:04,129 --> 00:31:06,471 and she'd pull me aside. 746 00:31:06,496 --> 00:31:08,211 She'd look me right in my eye, 747 00:31:08,236 --> 00:31:10,580 and she would say, "We are Nigerians." 748 00:31:10,605 --> 00:31:11,700 - You know? - Mm-hmm. 749 00:31:11,725 --> 00:31:13,301 And that... 750 00:31:13,326 --> 00:31:14,751 There's a lot of pride in that. 751 00:31:15,602 --> 00:31:17,004 And such high expectations. 752 00:31:17,029 --> 00:31:19,962 So to my parents, there are literally four careers... 753 00:31:19,987 --> 00:31:22,364 a doctor, a lawyer, a banker, 754 00:31:22,389 --> 00:31:24,683 and a disappointment. 755 00:31:25,983 --> 00:31:27,700 I crushed her when I became a firefighter. 756 00:31:27,725 --> 00:31:29,859 That's what my mother said. 757 00:31:29,884 --> 00:31:31,218 Those are the words that she used. 758 00:31:31,243 --> 00:31:33,653 She said I crushed her, and I brought her so much shame, 759 00:31:33,678 --> 00:31:35,533 and I couldn't understand how my choices 760 00:31:35,558 --> 00:31:37,239 could've brought her so much shame, 761 00:31:37,264 --> 00:31:38,395 and now I do. 762 00:31:38,420 --> 00:31:41,180 Because it's exactly what her choices are doing to me. 763 00:31:41,205 --> 00:31:44,277 I feel so much shame. 764 00:31:44,302 --> 00:31:45,704 For her. 765 00:31:45,729 --> 00:31:47,688 'Cause she won't meet my little girl. 766 00:31:47,713 --> 00:31:49,394 My perfect little girl 767 00:31:49,419 --> 00:31:51,657 with her perfect little fingers and her perfect little eyes, 768 00:31:51,682 --> 00:31:53,729 and my mother won't know her. 769 00:31:53,754 --> 00:31:56,396 And I don't hate my mother, but shame on her. 770 00:31:59,191 --> 00:32:00,976 Vic, I need you in my life. 771 00:32:01,001 --> 00:32:02,264 I don't want you to move out. 772 00:32:02,290 --> 00:32:04,195 Pru and I are grateful for you every day. 773 00:32:04,220 --> 00:32:05,657 But there's something that has been on my mind 774 00:32:05,682 --> 00:32:07,154 that I've been wanting to say, 775 00:32:07,179 --> 00:32:09,381 and, uh, I'm not gonna hold my tongue 776 00:32:09,406 --> 00:32:10,566 just to make you happy 777 00:32:10,591 --> 00:32:12,205 or because I-I need you to stay. 778 00:32:12,722 --> 00:32:14,054 Fine. 779 00:32:14,079 --> 00:32:16,108 I think you loved Jackson. 780 00:32:16,133 --> 00:32:18,197 I think you sabotaged things with him 781 00:32:18,222 --> 00:32:21,816 because you feel guilty about moving on from Ripley so fast. 782 00:32:21,841 --> 00:32:24,149 And if you were my girl and you pulled what you pulled, 783 00:32:24,174 --> 00:32:25,472 I'd have ended it. 784 00:32:25,497 --> 00:32:26,899 I think you should fix things with him 785 00:32:26,924 --> 00:32:28,096 because I don't want to be the reason 786 00:32:28,121 --> 00:32:29,824 why you're brokenhearted again. 787 00:32:33,791 --> 00:32:35,750 My best friend when I was in college 788 00:32:35,775 --> 00:32:36,969 was a 90-year-old 789 00:32:36,994 --> 00:32:39,057 in my grandmother's assisted-living facility. 790 00:32:39,082 --> 00:32:40,485 Mm. His name was Milton. 791 00:32:40,510 --> 00:32:45,238 And way after my grandmother didn't recognize me anymore, 792 00:32:45,495 --> 00:32:47,420 uh, I would go and visit him. 793 00:32:47,445 --> 00:32:48,673 Do you think that's weird? 794 00:32:48,698 --> 00:32:50,076 No. 795 00:32:50,483 --> 00:32:52,790 So we would... we would laugh and play cards, 796 00:32:52,815 --> 00:32:54,879 and he would give me excellent advice about my life 797 00:32:54,904 --> 00:32:56,272 because my parents were always working, 798 00:32:56,297 --> 00:32:57,768 so I couldn't ask them for much. 799 00:32:57,793 --> 00:33:01,755 So, when Milton died, I cried a lot for a while, 800 00:33:02,179 --> 00:33:06,086 and then I made a new best friend. 801 00:33:06,111 --> 00:33:08,627 I didn't feel guilty for moving on from him. 802 00:33:08,652 --> 00:33:10,614 - You think I should've? - No. 803 00:33:10,639 --> 00:33:14,191 And when my fiancé died... not that long ago... 804 00:33:15,850 --> 00:33:17,687 I don't feel guilty 805 00:33:19,064 --> 00:33:21,254 for moving on so fast. 806 00:33:23,258 --> 00:33:24,834 I feel relief 807 00:33:24,859 --> 00:33:27,189 from the unbearable pain of losing him. 808 00:33:29,311 --> 00:33:32,036 Do you think that makes me... wrong? 809 00:33:32,061 --> 00:33:33,499 Or bad? Or shallow? 810 00:33:33,524 --> 00:33:35,587 Do you think it does? 811 00:33:35,612 --> 00:33:36,597 No. 812 00:33:36,622 --> 00:33:38,256 Then no. 813 00:33:41,216 --> 00:33:44,136 I didn't sabotage it with Jackson. 814 00:33:45,192 --> 00:33:46,734 I just didn't ask his permission 815 00:33:46,759 --> 00:33:48,307 before I moved in with a friend. 816 00:33:48,332 --> 00:33:49,526 And I think you're a little backwards 817 00:33:49,551 --> 00:33:51,440 for thinking I should have. 818 00:33:51,465 --> 00:33:53,703 And I won't move out because you told me your truth, 819 00:33:53,728 --> 00:33:54,886 but I hope you won't kick me out 820 00:33:54,911 --> 00:33:56,685 for telling you your truth is stupid. 821 00:34:00,588 --> 00:34:03,525 Okay. 822 00:34:06,204 --> 00:34:07,385 I feel better. 823 00:34:07,964 --> 00:34:09,053 Thanks for the therapy. 824 00:34:09,078 --> 00:34:11,163 I feel better. 825 00:34:12,164 --> 00:34:14,458 Sorry about your parents. 826 00:34:19,502 --> 00:34:21,740 When we fall in love with our friends, 827 00:34:21,765 --> 00:34:23,962 we often try to fix them up with other people. 828 00:34:23,987 --> 00:34:25,564 It's common. 829 00:34:25,589 --> 00:34:26,643 But be careful. 830 00:34:26,668 --> 00:34:27,792 Okay, I'm... I'm sorry. 831 00:34:27,817 --> 00:34:28,942 What... What are... What's... 832 00:34:28,967 --> 00:34:30,508 If you tell her you love her too soon, 833 00:34:30,533 --> 00:34:32,827 you could blow the whole thing. 834 00:34:33,430 --> 00:34:35,320 And for the record, 835 00:34:35,345 --> 00:34:37,809 my gut is never wrong. 836 00:34:43,696 --> 00:34:46,526 Dr. Lewis, why do you think I did it? 837 00:34:46,550 --> 00:34:47,744 Why do you think I broke the code 838 00:34:47,768 --> 00:34:49,598 and lost even my own self-respect? 839 00:34:49,622 --> 00:34:51,267 Only you know the answer to that. 840 00:34:51,291 --> 00:34:52,938 I'm interested in your take. 841 00:34:52,962 --> 00:34:54,573 We got one hour together, Jack. 842 00:34:54,597 --> 00:34:56,382 I would be irresponsible to presume to... 843 00:34:56,406 --> 00:34:58,574 Dr. Lewis, you're a firefighter. 844 00:34:58,598 --> 00:35:00,208 You think fast. You have a take. 845 00:35:00,232 --> 00:35:02,000 Even after just one hour. 846 00:35:02,025 --> 00:35:03,971 Give me your take. 847 00:35:06,878 --> 00:35:10,229 You had a family for one year when you were a kid. 848 00:35:10,254 --> 00:35:12,526 You had a dad and a mom and a sister and a brother, 849 00:35:12,551 --> 00:35:14,406 and I'm picturing a white picket fence. 850 00:35:14,431 --> 00:35:16,042 You did years alone 851 00:35:16,067 --> 00:35:17,748 on the streets, in group homes. 852 00:35:17,773 --> 00:35:21,054 And then for one shining year, you got the opposite. 853 00:35:21,079 --> 00:35:22,237 You got a family. 854 00:35:22,262 --> 00:35:24,047 For the first and only time in your life. 855 00:35:24,072 --> 00:35:26,191 Until you joined this family. 856 00:35:26,381 --> 00:35:29,072 A fire took your family away from you back then. 857 00:35:29,097 --> 00:35:32,691 So your body is wired for that particular pattern. 858 00:35:32,934 --> 00:35:34,301 Comfort and love are followed 859 00:35:34,326 --> 00:35:37,494 by sudden and shocking loss and loneliness. 860 00:35:38,574 --> 00:35:41,251 Eva was the fire, and I burned down the family. 861 00:35:42,031 --> 00:35:44,408 This family is still alive, Jack. 862 00:35:44,433 --> 00:35:46,496 But Rigo isn't. 863 00:35:46,521 --> 00:35:49,003 Look, trauma wires us for certain patterns, 864 00:35:49,028 --> 00:35:51,230 and until we name them and heal them, 865 00:35:51,255 --> 00:35:52,657 we'll find ways to relive them, 866 00:35:52,682 --> 00:35:55,547 which, in my humble and limited estimation, 867 00:35:55,572 --> 00:35:58,014 is why you broke the code. 868 00:35:58,039 --> 00:35:59,964 But it's not why Rigo died. 869 00:36:00,349 --> 00:36:03,395 By all accounts, Rigo didn't follow orders. 870 00:36:03,420 --> 00:36:06,982 His own psychology got him in the end, not yours. 871 00:36:08,647 --> 00:36:10,328 Take care of yourself, Jack. 872 00:36:10,353 --> 00:36:12,695 I'm here if you want to talk more. 873 00:36:28,134 --> 00:36:29,537 So, lay it on me, Dr. Lewis. 874 00:36:29,562 --> 00:36:31,756 How are we doing as a house? 875 00:36:32,306 --> 00:36:34,614 I'm not looking for confidential information. 876 00:36:34,639 --> 00:36:36,690 I just want to know how everyone's taking Rigo. 877 00:36:37,646 --> 00:36:39,744 How are you taking Rigo? 878 00:36:39,769 --> 00:36:42,353 I put Rigo and Jack together that day. 879 00:36:42,378 --> 00:36:43,851 They wouldn't have been at each other's throats 880 00:36:43,876 --> 00:36:45,603 if I'd made a different call. 881 00:36:46,710 --> 00:36:48,878 Well, I can't divulge what's been discussed in session, 882 00:36:48,903 --> 00:36:52,762 but I can tell you, that's not your team's narrative. 883 00:36:54,619 --> 00:36:56,195 I'm a horrible person. 884 00:36:56,220 --> 00:36:57,901 Because you believed your team 885 00:36:57,926 --> 00:36:59,641 when they said they could handle their issues in house? 886 00:36:59,666 --> 00:37:01,103 Because a man died and all I care about 887 00:37:01,128 --> 00:37:02,566 is how it reflects on me. 888 00:37:02,591 --> 00:37:04,655 - Eyes forward. - Hm? 889 00:37:04,680 --> 00:37:06,256 That's the rule that was pounded into me. 890 00:37:06,281 --> 00:37:07,509 Eyes forward at all times. 891 00:37:07,534 --> 00:37:09,544 The only thing that matters is the finish line. 892 00:37:11,690 --> 00:37:13,298 I think about dying. 893 00:37:14,199 --> 00:37:15,149 Since Rigo? 894 00:37:15,174 --> 00:37:16,926 Since I was 12. 895 00:37:17,308 --> 00:37:19,894 It soothes me. When I can't sleep. 896 00:37:19,919 --> 00:37:21,425 When I'm anxious. 897 00:37:21,450 --> 00:37:24,851 I think about dying, and then I can fall asleep. 898 00:37:25,746 --> 00:37:27,948 Eyes forward at all times. It's exhausting. 899 00:37:27,973 --> 00:37:29,355 I'm exhausted. 900 00:37:30,492 --> 00:37:32,451 Is it a suicidal impulse? 901 00:37:32,476 --> 00:37:34,140 Do you seriously consider hurting yourself? 902 00:37:34,165 --> 00:37:36,459 No. No, it's... 903 00:37:38,635 --> 00:37:40,116 You know, it's an escape. 904 00:37:41,062 --> 00:37:42,135 When I was little, 905 00:37:42,160 --> 00:37:45,963 I would fly all over the country for track meets, 906 00:37:45,988 --> 00:37:47,494 and I would look down at the clouds, 907 00:37:47,519 --> 00:37:49,479 - and they looked like a bed. - Mm. 908 00:37:49,504 --> 00:37:52,194 You know, they looked so soft. 909 00:37:52,219 --> 00:37:55,291 Like nothing could hurt inside those clouds. 910 00:37:55,316 --> 00:37:57,519 Like I could sleep in. Like I could rest. 911 00:37:57,544 --> 00:37:59,956 Like I could... love, 912 00:37:59,981 --> 00:38:03,631 if I could just jump into those clouds. 913 00:38:06,417 --> 00:38:09,141 Truth is, I'm a little bit jealous of Rigo right now. 914 00:38:10,524 --> 00:38:11,926 Who taught you eyes forward? 915 00:38:13,797 --> 00:38:15,686 My father. 916 00:38:15,711 --> 00:38:18,644 Have you considered the possibility that he was wrong? 917 00:38:21,432 --> 00:38:23,704 Maya, isn't it possible, 918 00:38:23,729 --> 00:38:26,141 with everything else you've accomplished, 919 00:38:26,166 --> 00:38:29,743 that you could learn to let yourself rest and sleep 920 00:38:29,768 --> 00:38:32,180 and love in this life 921 00:38:32,205 --> 00:38:35,027 instead of waiting for death to set you free? 922 00:39:01,585 --> 00:39:04,727 Mrs. Vasquez, I know I didn't know Rigo all that well, 923 00:39:04,751 --> 00:39:08,763 but I just... I wanted to say that, uh, I'm so sorry. 924 00:39:10,561 --> 00:39:13,147 We are... so sorry. 925 00:39:15,884 --> 00:39:18,470 I don't want to be a widow. 926 00:39:18,494 --> 00:39:21,392 I don't want to never see my husband again. 927 00:39:21,416 --> 00:39:22,712 I don't want this. 928 00:39:22,736 --> 00:39:24,345 I... 929 00:39:25,452 --> 00:39:26,576 I don't want this food. 930 00:39:36,001 --> 00:39:37,334 Who's there? 931 00:39:37,358 --> 00:39:39,387 Uh, Seattle Fire Department. 932 00:39:41,116 --> 00:39:43,267 Yes? Is there a gas leak or something? 933 00:39:43,291 --> 00:39:45,111 Oh, no, ma'am. I, uh... 934 00:39:45,135 --> 00:39:46,712 I brought you groceries. 935 00:39:46,736 --> 00:39:48,521 You did what, now? 936 00:39:48,545 --> 00:39:49,982 I thought you might be hungry. 937 00:39:50,006 --> 00:39:51,339 I'm Jack Gibson. 938 00:39:51,363 --> 00:39:53,524 I-I was here when your... your tree burnt down. 939 00:39:53,549 --> 00:39:54,813 I put it out. 940 00:39:54,838 --> 00:39:56,170 Oh, holy hell, that was a night. 941 00:39:56,195 --> 00:39:58,120 Yeah. It was. 942 00:39:58,145 --> 00:39:59,930 You put it out? 943 00:39:59,955 --> 00:40:01,507 I did. 944 00:40:02,374 --> 00:40:04,021 You brought me groceries? 945 00:40:04,046 --> 00:40:06,423 I did. 946 00:40:06,706 --> 00:40:08,264 That's awful nice of you. 947 00:40:08,614 --> 00:40:11,721 Come on in. 948 00:40:17,939 --> 00:40:19,300 That's dope. All right. 949 00:40:19,325 --> 00:40:21,048 Hey! Hey, y'all got room for one more? 950 00:40:21,073 --> 00:40:22,543 - Hey! Yes, sir. - Yeah! 951 00:40:22,568 --> 00:40:24,492 Sir? How old do you think I am? 952 00:40:24,517 --> 00:40:25,711 All right, yes, Ben. 953 00:40:25,736 --> 00:40:26,895 All right, that's better. 954 00:40:29,077 --> 00:40:30,584 - Oh! - Oh. Oh! 955 00:40:30,609 --> 00:40:32,535 - Right back. - I'm going, I'm g... 956 00:40:32,560 --> 00:40:33,997 - Oh! - No way! 957 00:40:35,763 --> 00:40:37,444 What you got? 958 00:40:37,469 --> 00:40:38,663 - Oh! - Oh! 959 00:40:41,220 --> 00:40:42,797 You know, I was thinking... 960 00:40:42,822 --> 00:40:44,233 Hmm? 961 00:40:44,874 --> 00:40:47,842 Uh, could you take some days off? 962 00:40:47,867 --> 00:40:50,487 Could we try to go somewhere? 963 00:40:50,512 --> 00:40:52,454 I thought you have to work. 964 00:40:53,808 --> 00:40:56,184 I have some personal days saved up. 965 00:40:56,209 --> 00:40:58,169 - How many? - Uh... 966 00:40:58,194 --> 00:40:59,180 Like a hundred, maybe? 967 00:41:00,319 --> 00:41:02,452 I-I don't take days off. But... 968 00:41:03,904 --> 00:41:06,490 But I would like to try. 969 00:41:06,515 --> 00:41:08,266 Yes. 970 00:41:08,291 --> 00:41:09,832 - Yeah? - Yes! 971 00:41:09,857 --> 00:41:11,712 Really?