1 00:00:02,740 --> 00:00:06,376 A month ago, you were in med school being taught by doctors. 2 00:00:06,410 --> 00:00:10,418 Today you are the doctors. 3 00:00:10,442 --> 00:00:12,609 The seven years you spend here as a surgical resident 4 00:00:12,644 --> 00:00:15,045 will be the best and worst of your life. 5 00:00:20,785 --> 00:00:22,920 There's an old joke doctors like to tell. 6 00:00:24,355 --> 00:00:26,757 "Hey, Doc, it hurts when I go like this." 7 00:00:30,295 --> 00:00:32,963 And the doctor says, "Well, don't go like this." 8 00:00:37,368 --> 00:00:40,571 It's a lame joke, but it's nonetheless true. 9 00:00:42,273 --> 00:00:43,740 Okay, folks. Meeting time. 10 00:00:43,775 --> 00:00:46,710 Please take your seats. 11 00:00:46,744 --> 00:00:48,679 As human beings, we can't help 12 00:00:48,713 --> 00:00:50,614 but want to follow our instincts... 13 00:00:52,784 --> 00:00:54,184 Hey! 14 00:00:54,219 --> 00:00:55,519 I, uh, went back to the loft 15 00:00:55,553 --> 00:00:56,720 and got you another bag of your stuff. 16 00:00:56,754 --> 00:00:57,971 - Oh. - Couldn't find those 17 00:00:57,996 --> 00:00:59,423 ugly, fuzzy socks you like. 18 00:01:00,792 --> 00:01:02,292 ...to follow our guts... 19 00:01:02,327 --> 00:01:04,761 That face is over socks? 20 00:01:04,796 --> 00:01:06,096 ...our primal urges... 21 00:01:06,130 --> 00:01:12,069 Uh, some bills, some junk, and, uh, top letter. 22 00:01:18,142 --> 00:01:20,647 ...no matter how much it may hurt. 23 00:01:57,148 --> 00:01:59,416 I'll sit with you. We can read it together. 24 00:01:59,450 --> 00:02:00,551 I got it. 25 00:02:01,686 --> 00:02:03,787 I got it. 26 00:02:06,124 --> 00:02:08,725 You know where to find me. 27 00:02:41,960 --> 00:02:43,360 Dear Jo... 28 00:02:44,929 --> 00:02:49,433 Mer, this is not the way I wanted to do this. 29 00:02:49,467 --> 00:02:54,137 Dear Dr. Bailey, I regret to inform you, blah, blah, blah, 30 00:02:54,205 --> 00:02:56,940 that I will not be returning to Grey-Sloan. 31 00:02:58,053 --> 00:03:01,478 The last thing on Earth I want to do is hurt you, 32 00:03:01,546 --> 00:03:03,580 but I'm leaving. 33 00:03:04,092 --> 00:03:06,086 I already left, actually. 34 00:03:07,051 --> 00:03:08,885 I'm gone. 35 00:03:08,920 --> 00:03:16,070 Synced & corrected by -robtor- www.addic7ed.com 36 00:03:16,594 --> 00:03:20,530 This is not the way I wanted to do this, but you know me. 37 00:03:20,565 --> 00:03:22,899 Any chance to take the easy way out. 38 00:03:22,967 --> 00:03:24,768 Or maybe that used to be true. I don't know. 39 00:03:24,802 --> 00:03:26,670 God, I hate nurses. 40 00:03:28,373 --> 00:03:31,575 I'm Alex. I'm with Jeremy. 41 00:03:31,609 --> 00:03:33,377 You're, uh... You're with the Nazi, right? 42 00:03:33,411 --> 00:03:34,911 She may not have pneumonia, you know? 43 00:03:34,946 --> 00:03:37,047 She could be splinting, or have a P.E. 44 00:03:37,081 --> 00:03:40,117 Like I said, I hate nurses. 45 00:03:40,151 --> 00:03:41,747 What did you just say? 46 00:03:42,620 --> 00:03:44,588 Did you just call me a nurse? 47 00:03:44,622 --> 00:03:46,256 Well, if the white cap fits. 48 00:03:46,290 --> 00:03:48,692 What I do know is I owe you the truth, 49 00:03:49,171 --> 00:03:51,094 and I don't know how else to tell you. 50 00:03:52,554 --> 00:03:55,932 But you know as well as I do if I showed up on your doorstep, 51 00:03:56,000 --> 00:03:57,768 you'd yell or give me guilt or crap 52 00:03:57,802 --> 00:04:00,637 or whatever you do that seems to always set me straight. 53 00:04:00,672 --> 00:04:02,305 We're grown-ups. 54 00:04:02,340 --> 00:04:03,427 We can't run. 55 00:04:03,462 --> 00:04:05,500 We have to face up to the stupid things we do. 56 00:04:05,524 --> 00:04:06,772 - Alex! - Get off! 57 00:04:06,797 --> 00:04:08,879 Supposedly, if you face up to them, 58 00:04:08,913 --> 00:04:11,348 something good comes out of it. I don't know what. 59 00:04:11,382 --> 00:04:13,950 You were always the one to set me straight... 60 00:04:13,985 --> 00:04:16,753 God, I smell good! 61 00:04:17,955 --> 00:04:19,489 You know what it is? 62 00:04:19,524 --> 00:04:22,793 It's the smell of open-heart surgery. 63 00:04:23,979 --> 00:04:26,063 It's awesome. It is awesome. 64 00:04:26,097 --> 00:04:29,966 - You gotta smell me. - I don't want to smell you. 65 00:04:30,034 --> 00:04:31,568 ...to point out when I was being an ass. 66 00:04:31,602 --> 00:04:34,404 You have got to be kidding me! 67 00:04:34,479 --> 00:04:38,015 Okay, I have more important things to deal with than you. 68 00:04:38,042 --> 00:04:41,244 I have roommates and boy problems and family problems. 69 00:04:41,312 --> 00:04:44,247 You wanna act like a little frat-boy bitch? That's fine. 70 00:04:44,282 --> 00:04:47,017 You wanna take credit for your saves and everybody else's? 71 00:04:47,051 --> 00:04:50,120 That's fine, too. Just stay outta my face. 72 00:04:50,188 --> 00:04:51,755 And for the record, 73 00:04:51,789 --> 00:04:53,657 you smell like crap! 74 00:04:53,691 --> 00:04:55,228 And when that didn't work, 75 00:04:55,263 --> 00:04:57,461 you'd flop in my bed and say the one perfect thing 76 00:04:57,495 --> 00:04:58,828 that would make sense. 77 00:04:58,862 --> 00:05:02,933 But the thing is, I can't come back. 78 00:05:06,971 --> 00:05:08,638 I can't face you. 79 00:05:08,706 --> 00:05:10,407 You can go. 80 00:05:10,441 --> 00:05:12,142 What are you gonna do if I leave? 81 00:05:12,176 --> 00:05:14,042 It's just us now. 82 00:05:14,077 --> 00:05:17,314 There were five of us, and now it's just you and I. 83 00:05:17,348 --> 00:05:19,015 And it can't be just me. 84 00:05:19,050 --> 00:05:20,205 It seems like five seconds ago, 85 00:05:20,239 --> 00:05:21,752 we were the interns hiding in the tunnels. 86 00:05:21,786 --> 00:05:23,220 - Alex! - Get off. 87 00:05:23,287 --> 00:05:24,462 Look, I'm not gonna stay in Seattle 88 00:05:24,496 --> 00:05:26,022 just because you don't want to be alone. 89 00:05:26,057 --> 00:05:28,492 I deserve the guilt and to be called an ass, 90 00:05:28,526 --> 00:05:31,228 but I don't want to be set straight. 91 00:05:31,262 --> 00:05:33,530 I don't want you to say the right thing 92 00:05:33,564 --> 00:05:36,833 because the one perfect thing isn't in Seattle. 93 00:05:36,901 --> 00:05:38,335 Not anymore. 94 00:05:38,402 --> 00:05:40,971 Yang left me her shares and her board seat 95 00:05:41,038 --> 00:05:43,340 and... she left me you, too. 96 00:05:44,035 --> 00:05:45,976 It's just us now. 97 00:05:46,010 --> 00:05:47,511 I don't know... if you need somebody to bitch to 98 00:05:47,545 --> 00:05:49,082 or just be... 99 00:05:50,581 --> 00:05:52,916 My person. 100 00:05:52,984 --> 00:05:54,217 I don't know what you mean. 101 00:05:54,252 --> 00:05:55,761 But you do. 102 00:05:55,795 --> 00:05:58,021 Apparently, I'm your emergency contact. 103 00:05:58,055 --> 00:05:59,481 I want waffle Sundays. 104 00:05:59,548 --> 00:06:01,424 Like a family, all of us... 105 00:06:01,459 --> 00:06:03,927 everybody, all together. 106 00:06:03,995 --> 00:06:05,228 Okay. 107 00:06:05,263 --> 00:06:07,063 I want to do that as long as we can. 108 00:06:07,098 --> 00:06:10,699 - It's important to me. - God, get off! Stop it! 109 00:06:10,767 --> 00:06:14,070 Oh, my God. Ohh. 110 00:06:17,375 --> 00:06:21,311 But I swear, it's not about work or you or Jo. 111 00:06:21,345 --> 00:06:23,280 It's about me. 112 00:06:23,314 --> 00:06:24,848 I left. 113 00:06:26,184 --> 00:06:28,151 And I'm with Izzie. 114 00:06:32,627 --> 00:06:35,431 This is probably the part where you're gonna get on your phone 115 00:06:35,465 --> 00:06:36,931 and call a million times 116 00:06:36,965 --> 00:06:38,920 and leave hateful messages on my machine 117 00:06:38,944 --> 00:06:40,812 till I call you back. 118 00:06:40,846 --> 00:06:43,047 But I can't, Mer. 119 00:06:43,081 --> 00:06:45,216 I can't lie to you, and I can't promise 120 00:06:45,250 --> 00:06:48,386 I'm gonna come home because it's not home anymore. 121 00:06:48,420 --> 00:06:50,388 - Go make her happy. - Yeah. 122 00:06:59,431 --> 00:07:02,400 When you were in danger of losing your license, 123 00:07:02,434 --> 00:07:04,068 when I called everyone to write letters 124 00:07:04,102 --> 00:07:05,700 and show up on your behalf, 125 00:07:07,085 --> 00:07:08,870 I called Izzie, too. 126 00:07:10,448 --> 00:07:12,316 I want to say I hoped she wouldn't answer, 127 00:07:12,341 --> 00:07:15,310 but the truth is I hoped she would. 128 00:07:15,514 --> 00:07:18,816 I want to say, "I had to call her for you," 129 00:07:18,884 --> 00:07:20,485 but that would be a lie. 130 00:07:20,519 --> 00:07:23,020 The truth is your trial gave me 131 00:07:23,055 --> 00:07:25,156 an excuse good enough to call her. 132 00:07:27,860 --> 00:07:29,660 'Cause I wanted to know where she landed. 133 00:07:29,695 --> 00:07:33,264 Today is the day my life begins. 134 00:07:33,298 --> 00:07:35,331 All my life, I've been just me... 135 00:07:35,366 --> 00:07:37,902 just a smart-mouth kid. 136 00:07:37,936 --> 00:07:41,339 Today I become a man. 137 00:07:41,373 --> 00:07:44,408 Today I become a husband. 138 00:07:44,443 --> 00:07:47,645 Today I become accountable to someone other than myself. 139 00:07:49,882 --> 00:07:52,583 Today I become accountable to you, 140 00:07:52,618 --> 00:07:54,124 to our future, 141 00:07:54,520 --> 00:07:58,089 to all the possibilities that our marriage has to offer. 142 00:07:58,123 --> 00:08:00,672 Together, no matter what happens, 143 00:08:01,280 --> 00:08:02,357 I'll be ready... 144 00:08:02,461 --> 00:08:05,029 I wanted to know if she was alive and well. 145 00:08:05,063 --> 00:08:06,597 Screw the DNR. 146 00:08:06,632 --> 00:08:08,299 Hand me those paddles. 147 00:08:08,333 --> 00:08:10,601 - Clear. - I wanted to hear her voice. 148 00:08:10,636 --> 00:08:14,138 I'm a bride. 149 00:08:14,172 --> 00:08:16,130 Iz, come on. I'm getting her a real one. 150 00:08:16,155 --> 00:08:17,575 I love this one, 151 00:08:17,609 --> 00:08:19,110 and that makes it a real one. 152 00:08:19,144 --> 00:08:21,546 When she picked up, I blurted out the whole thing 153 00:08:21,613 --> 00:08:23,514 about you picking up trash off the street 154 00:08:23,549 --> 00:08:26,918 and needing a letter that proved you're better than that. 155 00:08:26,985 --> 00:08:28,352 And she laughed and said, 156 00:08:28,387 --> 00:08:29,754 "Of course she'd be trash-picking, 157 00:08:29,788 --> 00:08:31,522 trying to save the world." 158 00:08:31,557 --> 00:08:34,525 Today, Izzie Stevens, our life together begins. 159 00:08:34,560 --> 00:08:36,961 And I, for one, can't wait. 160 00:08:36,995 --> 00:08:38,763 And then these voices were in the background 161 00:08:38,797 --> 00:08:40,631 and a girl was singing this song about 162 00:08:40,666 --> 00:08:43,901 "greasy, grimy gopher guts" that I learned in first grade 163 00:08:43,969 --> 00:08:48,053 and I started laughing and I asked if she had kids and... 164 00:08:49,041 --> 00:08:51,747 Izzie got quiet. 165 00:08:51,772 --> 00:08:53,439 For so long, she was quiet, 166 00:08:53,464 --> 00:08:56,500 and finally, she said, "Yeah, I have kids." 167 00:08:58,250 --> 00:09:00,284 "Twins." 168 00:09:00,309 --> 00:09:04,444 And it turns out they're my kids, Mer. 169 00:09:07,080 --> 00:09:10,632 Izzie's and my kids. 170 00:09:10,829 --> 00:09:13,130 She had our kids. 171 00:09:20,639 --> 00:09:27,678 ? Before we turn to stone 172 00:09:30,375 --> 00:09:31,875 I love Jo. 173 00:09:32,184 --> 00:09:34,651 Deeply. Still. 174 00:09:36,088 --> 00:09:38,389 I think I always will. 175 00:09:38,423 --> 00:09:40,625 And if it was just about two women I love, 176 00:09:41,106 --> 00:09:42,927 I'd choose my wife. 177 00:09:42,961 --> 00:09:44,662 You know I would. 178 00:09:44,687 --> 00:09:46,721 - Hey. - But it's not just her. 179 00:09:46,746 --> 00:09:47,846 Izzie made our kids. 180 00:09:47,871 --> 00:09:50,806 I snooched into a cup for you today. 181 00:09:51,533 --> 00:09:54,872 Um... thank you? 182 00:09:54,906 --> 00:09:56,841 She was single and wanted children 183 00:09:56,875 --> 00:09:59,610 and couldn't have 'em because the cancer nuked her eggs. 184 00:09:59,645 --> 00:10:02,046 But she had our embryos. 185 00:10:04,616 --> 00:10:05,850 Back then I was too freaked out 186 00:10:05,884 --> 00:10:09,053 to care about what she did with them if we never used them. 187 00:10:09,078 --> 00:10:10,645 You think a Dixie cup full of my swimmers 188 00:10:10,670 --> 00:10:11,937 will make everything okay? 189 00:10:11,962 --> 00:10:15,444 It's crap. This is crap. 190 00:10:16,928 --> 00:10:19,897 You just can't go messing with people's heads like that. 191 00:10:19,951 --> 00:10:21,551 Even if she freezes the embryos, 192 00:10:21,576 --> 00:10:23,644 you think... you think we'll get a chance to use them? 193 00:10:23,669 --> 00:10:25,400 You think she'll still be here? 194 00:10:26,471 --> 00:10:28,005 You think she'll survive all this? 195 00:10:28,030 --> 00:10:29,230 Do you think... 196 00:10:29,255 --> 00:10:30,489 She t-told me... 197 00:10:30,609 --> 00:10:32,943 she told me she was seeing a ghost, okay? 198 00:10:32,978 --> 00:10:35,279 And I'm so used to all the crazy chicks in my life 199 00:10:35,313 --> 00:10:36,714 that I didn't even... 200 00:10:40,719 --> 00:10:42,153 I'm a doctor. 201 00:10:42,187 --> 00:10:44,169 A doctor! 202 00:10:46,224 --> 00:10:47,725 And I didn't even think to... 203 00:10:50,796 --> 00:10:52,443 And now she's... This is... 204 00:10:53,799 --> 00:10:55,388 This is wrong. 205 00:10:56,868 --> 00:10:59,036 This isn't how it's supposed to happen. 206 00:10:59,071 --> 00:11:00,438 I know. 207 00:11:00,463 --> 00:11:02,865 - It's crap. - I know. 208 00:11:02,974 --> 00:11:04,375 I hate this. 209 00:11:04,409 --> 00:11:05,443 I know. 210 00:11:05,477 --> 00:11:07,044 This isn't... 211 00:11:10,348 --> 00:11:13,384 This isn't how we... How we were supp... 212 00:11:13,418 --> 00:11:14,919 this isn't how I wanted to do this. 213 00:11:14,953 --> 00:11:17,688 This isn't how Izzie and I were supposed to make a baby. 214 00:11:17,723 --> 00:11:19,690 So I signed papers saying she could do 215 00:11:19,725 --> 00:11:21,559 whatever she wanted with them. 216 00:11:21,593 --> 00:11:23,333 And so she used them. 217 00:11:24,334 --> 00:11:26,464 And she had twins. 218 00:11:26,531 --> 00:11:29,266 Eli and Alexis. 219 00:11:32,537 --> 00:11:35,673 I should have told Jo or told you, but I didn't. 220 00:11:35,741 --> 00:11:38,676 I got through the trial and then I came here 221 00:11:38,710 --> 00:11:40,644 and I met the kids. 222 00:11:40,669 --> 00:11:44,706 Met, my kids, Mer. 223 00:11:44,883 --> 00:11:45,983 They're five. 224 00:11:46,017 --> 00:11:50,855 And hilarious and stubborn as hell, just like Izzie. 225 00:11:52,924 --> 00:11:54,959 Like this little team that gangs up on me 226 00:11:55,026 --> 00:11:57,194 with stubbornness and sticky hands. 227 00:11:57,229 --> 00:11:59,830 Hi, horsey! 228 00:11:59,898 --> 00:12:02,299 And the second I walked in the door, 229 00:12:02,367 --> 00:12:04,168 they wanted to show me their rooms 230 00:12:04,193 --> 00:12:06,327 and the look on their faces when they were showing me 231 00:12:06,352 --> 00:12:08,754 all their toys and books and... 232 00:12:08,840 --> 00:12:12,048 asked if they could call me... 233 00:12:12,596 --> 00:12:14,300 Dad. 234 00:12:15,147 --> 00:12:16,814 They both want to be doctors, 235 00:12:16,848 --> 00:12:19,216 and Izzie teaches them to bake just like her. 236 00:12:19,251 --> 00:12:21,485 And they scribble pictures of stethoscopes 237 00:12:21,520 --> 00:12:23,687 all over the walls in chalk. 238 00:12:23,722 --> 00:12:25,723 And Alexis... 239 00:12:25,757 --> 00:12:27,057 ...oh, she's got Izzie's eyes. 240 00:12:27,897 --> 00:12:30,861 And Eli smiles crooked just like I do. 241 00:12:30,896 --> 00:12:34,832 And now I live on a freaking farm in Nowhere, Kansas. 242 00:12:37,903 --> 00:12:39,236 And the kids play with the chickens 243 00:12:39,271 --> 00:12:42,406 and Izzie goes to work as a surgical oncologist. 244 00:12:44,242 --> 00:12:46,911 Oh, and she's amazing, Mer. 245 00:12:46,945 --> 00:12:48,646 The progress she's made. 246 00:12:48,680 --> 00:12:49,814 She's alive. 247 00:12:49,848 --> 00:12:52,283 And she's a miracle and keeping other people alive. 248 00:12:52,317 --> 00:12:54,852 And I'm applying to the hospital nearby. 249 00:12:56,788 --> 00:12:59,190 And I wanted to be mad at Izzie for keeping them from me, 250 00:12:59,224 --> 00:13:03,349 but I can't because all I am is grateful she made them. 251 00:13:03,374 --> 00:13:06,109 Oh, they're so damn smart, smarter than I was at their age. 252 00:13:06,177 --> 00:13:08,612 Hell, sometimes at my age. 253 00:13:08,637 --> 00:13:09,767 And they get to have everything... 254 00:13:10,356 --> 00:13:12,703 a home where they feel safe and loved, 255 00:13:12,771 --> 00:13:14,471 and they play "sleepover," 256 00:13:14,506 --> 00:13:16,774 where they just keep swapping beds non-stop, 257 00:13:16,808 --> 00:13:19,109 all night until they land in ours at 4:00 a.m. 258 00:13:20,445 --> 00:13:22,413 And they wake up with two parents, 259 00:13:22,447 --> 00:13:24,949 when I rarely ever even had one. 260 00:13:24,983 --> 00:13:26,350 Oh, I love them, Mer, 261 00:13:26,418 --> 00:13:28,285 with every inch of me and every cell, 262 00:13:28,320 --> 00:13:30,754 and I get to be their dad. 263 00:13:30,789 --> 00:13:33,757 I'm the guy who lied and said I only had one ball 264 00:13:33,792 --> 00:13:35,680 to get into Seattle Grace. 265 00:13:35,714 --> 00:13:37,361 And it worked. 266 00:13:37,429 --> 00:13:40,231 I got a job and a career I love based on a lie 267 00:13:40,265 --> 00:13:43,567 that no one really cared about, and I made it work. 268 00:13:44,970 --> 00:13:46,904 And when I look at my kids 269 00:13:46,938 --> 00:13:49,740 and doubt if I know how to do right by them, 270 00:13:49,808 --> 00:13:53,426 I just think of you and Zola and Bailey and Ellis. 271 00:13:53,460 --> 00:13:54,540 You're so brave. 272 00:13:54,565 --> 00:13:56,548 And you've grown into this incredible mother, 273 00:13:56,592 --> 00:13:58,849 this incredible surgeon. 274 00:13:59,985 --> 00:14:01,407 You did that. 275 00:14:02,721 --> 00:14:04,922 You always said Cristina was your person. 276 00:14:04,990 --> 00:14:06,957 Then I was your person. 277 00:14:06,992 --> 00:14:09,827 But you've always been your own damn person, 278 00:14:09,861 --> 00:14:12,930 a force of freaking nature. 279 00:14:12,964 --> 00:14:16,214 You've never needed anyone but you. 280 00:14:16,902 --> 00:14:17,835 And you can come here, you know? 281 00:14:17,869 --> 00:14:19,904 You... You... You could show up at my door 282 00:14:19,938 --> 00:14:21,972 and... and get me to walk away from all this 283 00:14:22,007 --> 00:14:24,508 and just go back to you and Jo and the hospital 284 00:14:24,542 --> 00:14:26,911 - and everyone who helped me get here. - ...two... one! 285 00:14:26,945 --> 00:14:29,146 But I hope you don't. 286 00:14:29,180 --> 00:14:31,015 Mer, you are my best friend, 287 00:14:31,049 --> 00:14:32,616 and I will miss the hell out of you, 288 00:14:32,651 --> 00:14:38,589 but I'm finally exactly where I should be. 289 00:14:38,623 --> 00:14:40,905 I never had that before. 290 00:14:41,626 --> 00:14:45,296 So, I hope you do come here one day, 291 00:14:45,330 --> 00:14:48,265 but not to ask me to leave. 292 00:14:48,290 --> 00:14:50,691 I hope you come to meet my kids 293 00:14:50,716 --> 00:14:52,984 and they get to call you "Auntie Mer." 294 00:14:53,071 --> 00:14:56,254 Because you'll love them, and they'll love you. 295 00:14:56,908 --> 00:14:58,965 And until you're ready to do that, 296 00:15:00,111 --> 00:15:02,413 try not to hate me too much. 297 00:15:02,447 --> 00:15:03,761 Please? 298 00:15:05,083 --> 00:15:06,764 Alex. 299 00:15:20,162 --> 00:15:22,162 I'm sorry! 300 00:15:24,405 --> 00:15:26,640 You deserve more than a letter. 301 00:15:26,674 --> 00:15:28,141 I'm your intern for the day. 302 00:15:28,209 --> 00:15:30,064 Oh. Well, hello, intern. You have a name? 303 00:15:30,099 --> 00:15:31,178 Jo Wilson. 304 00:15:31,212 --> 00:15:33,447 Oh, nice. I like chicks with boys names. 305 00:15:34,042 --> 00:15:35,816 And this right here, 306 00:15:35,850 --> 00:15:39,720 this cowardice, this letter? 307 00:15:39,754 --> 00:15:42,289 It's officially the worst thing I've ever done. 308 00:15:43,691 --> 00:15:45,893 But it's about me, Jo. 309 00:15:45,927 --> 00:15:47,194 It's not about you. 310 00:15:47,228 --> 00:15:49,207 I don't live in my car anymore, jerk. 311 00:15:49,232 --> 00:15:50,664 It's not what you deserve. 312 00:15:50,698 --> 00:15:53,734 You deserve and have earned so much better than this. 313 00:15:53,768 --> 00:15:55,269 Hey, powdered sugar's your favorite. 314 00:15:55,303 --> 00:15:57,337 Yeah, no. Uh, this is great. 315 00:15:57,362 --> 00:15:59,063 You wanted to hear me say the words. 316 00:15:59,088 --> 00:16:01,623 So I'm... saying them right now. 317 00:16:04,245 --> 00:16:06,647 I love you, Jo. 318 00:16:06,714 --> 00:16:08,682 I love that you are brilliant and brave, 319 00:16:08,750 --> 00:16:10,350 and no matter what you go through... 320 00:16:10,385 --> 00:16:11,318 Hey, Brooke. 321 00:16:11,352 --> 00:16:13,687 Oh, wait. It's... It's "Jo" now, right? 322 00:16:15,256 --> 00:16:17,057 ...you never let it hold you back. 323 00:16:17,082 --> 00:16:19,817 - Do I look like him? - You have my father's eyes... 324 00:16:19,928 --> 00:16:21,328 You have an out. 325 00:16:24,632 --> 00:16:27,167 It makes you stronger, kinder. 326 00:16:27,201 --> 00:16:28,502 You made me kinder. 327 00:16:28,536 --> 00:16:30,203 That works? The compliments thing? 328 00:16:30,238 --> 00:16:31,405 Mm-hmm. 329 00:16:31,439 --> 00:16:32,673 God, you're sexy. 330 00:16:32,740 --> 00:16:34,441 Doesn't work on me. 331 00:16:34,475 --> 00:16:36,009 Ohh! 332 00:16:36,044 --> 00:16:38,445 Oh. A little warning when people are over 333 00:16:38,479 --> 00:16:39,546 would be nice. 334 00:16:39,581 --> 00:16:42,416 You loved me for exactly who I was, and I loved you. 335 00:16:42,450 --> 00:16:44,418 I'm gonna marry that girl. 336 00:16:44,452 --> 00:16:46,553 Ohh! Yes! 337 00:16:46,588 --> 00:16:48,121 I love you. 338 00:16:48,156 --> 00:16:51,258 Maybe it's not fair to say that, but it's true. 339 00:16:51,292 --> 00:16:52,893 What's also true is... 340 00:16:54,996 --> 00:16:56,463 ...I'm in love with Izzie. 341 00:17:03,004 --> 00:17:05,572 When I asked you if you wanted to move in with me, 342 00:17:05,607 --> 00:17:07,207 you said that you did 343 00:17:07,241 --> 00:17:08,575 and that you could picture a life with me, 344 00:17:08,610 --> 00:17:10,744 but you never said anything about babies. 345 00:17:10,778 --> 00:17:13,807 You said, "Maybe we could get a dog." 346 00:17:13,832 --> 00:17:14,961 Do you want a dog? 347 00:17:14,986 --> 00:17:16,550 No, I want to know what we're doing here. 348 00:17:16,584 --> 00:17:18,552 I love you, and you love me. 349 00:17:18,586 --> 00:17:20,220 I know, but when I look ahead... 350 00:17:20,254 --> 00:17:21,288 Why are we looking ahead? 351 00:17:21,322 --> 00:17:23,423 If you had or maybe you do have, for all I know, 352 00:17:23,458 --> 00:17:26,093 a bunch of Izzie babies walking around with your face on them... 353 00:17:26,160 --> 00:17:27,160 And why are we doing it now? 354 00:17:27,195 --> 00:17:29,463 And... And I'm just the "Let's get a dog" girl? 355 00:17:29,497 --> 00:17:31,598 You always ask about Izzie, what she was like. 356 00:17:31,633 --> 00:17:33,300 Well, that... that girl right there. 357 00:17:33,334 --> 00:17:35,002 That... That's what Izzie was like. 358 00:17:35,036 --> 00:17:38,105 I imagined this whole life for her where she was baking 359 00:17:38,139 --> 00:17:40,140 and happy and had a bunch of kids. 360 00:17:40,174 --> 00:17:42,142 Alex, if you want to know how she is, 361 00:17:42,176 --> 00:17:43,248 you should just call her. 362 00:17:43,283 --> 00:17:45,178 And I never imagined me in that picture. 363 00:17:45,213 --> 00:17:46,346 You should call Izzie. 364 00:17:46,381 --> 00:17:48,348 But suddenly, I am. 365 00:17:48,416 --> 00:17:51,184 Not suddenly. That's a lie there. 366 00:17:51,219 --> 00:17:53,353 There was a part of me that always wondered, 367 00:17:53,388 --> 00:17:54,921 always wanted to know, 368 00:17:54,989 --> 00:17:59,526 always felt like we left things unresolved, 369 00:17:59,594 --> 00:18:01,628 unfinished. 370 00:18:01,663 --> 00:18:06,333 So, when Mer needed all those letters, I reached out to her. 371 00:18:06,367 --> 00:18:08,802 I reached out to Izzie and we started talking 372 00:18:08,836 --> 00:18:10,537 and it scared the crap out of me 373 00:18:10,562 --> 00:18:13,159 because it felt like no time had passed, 374 00:18:13,875 --> 00:18:17,544 like Izzie and I were kind of frozen together in time, 375 00:18:17,612 --> 00:18:19,946 and now... now we're not. 376 00:18:19,981 --> 00:18:22,549 She's not. She's here in Kansas, 377 00:18:22,583 --> 00:18:25,786 on a farm in this incredible place in the middle of nowhere. 378 00:18:25,820 --> 00:18:27,688 And I never, in a million years, 379 00:18:27,713 --> 00:18:30,815 would think I belong here, but I do. 380 00:18:30,925 --> 00:18:32,893 And I can't lie to you... 381 00:18:32,960 --> 00:18:34,594 ...and pretend the truth isn't the truth... 382 00:18:34,629 --> 00:18:37,141 that I love you and I love Izzie. 383 00:18:38,184 --> 00:18:42,002 But if it was just me missing her or nostalgia or whatever... 384 00:18:42,036 --> 00:18:43,047 Will you stay with me? 385 00:18:43,081 --> 00:18:44,838 ...I would have been able to walk away 386 00:18:44,863 --> 00:18:46,363 and come back to you. 387 00:18:48,109 --> 00:18:50,744 But Izzie had my kids. 388 00:18:50,778 --> 00:18:54,047 And I know you get what that really means. 389 00:18:54,082 --> 00:18:55,649 I know you of all people 390 00:18:55,683 --> 00:18:57,751 understand why I can't just leave now... 391 00:18:57,785 --> 00:18:59,857 ...why I can't miss another 392 00:18:59,882 --> 00:19:02,189 second of my kids' lives. 393 00:19:02,223 --> 00:19:05,092 I have a chance to make this family whole, 394 00:19:05,126 --> 00:19:08,435 and I just hope you love me back enough to let me take it. 395 00:19:09,652 --> 00:19:12,220 I need to give these kids the family you and I never had, 396 00:19:12,245 --> 00:19:16,048 with barbecuing out on the back porch and soccer games 397 00:19:16,073 --> 00:19:18,408 and movie nights and book reports. 398 00:19:18,433 --> 00:19:19,867 Mom. 399 00:19:26,440 --> 00:19:28,341 I didn't know she would have my kids, 400 00:19:28,366 --> 00:19:30,634 and now that she does, 401 00:19:30,659 --> 00:19:33,394 I don't know how to look anyone in the eye if I don't stay 402 00:19:33,419 --> 00:19:36,688 and do everything I can to make this work... 403 00:19:36,824 --> 00:19:40,580 make this a life, make this a family. 404 00:19:41,529 --> 00:19:43,130 You were wrong. 405 00:19:43,197 --> 00:19:45,866 You're not the "Let's get a dog" girl. 406 00:19:45,891 --> 00:19:47,258 And I was never holding a candle 407 00:19:47,283 --> 00:19:48,516 or those pieces of paper 408 00:19:48,541 --> 00:19:51,257 thinking anything would ever change. 409 00:19:52,106 --> 00:19:54,474 When I asked you to marry me, I meant it. 410 00:19:56,677 --> 00:19:58,512 And we'll be together forever, right? You and me. 411 00:19:58,546 --> 00:20:00,347 And if we have kids, we'll be great. 412 00:20:00,381 --> 00:20:02,516 I'll be a great dad, and you'll be great, 413 00:20:02,550 --> 00:20:03,917 and it'll be just us. 414 00:20:03,951 --> 00:20:05,719 We won't need anybody else, okay? 415 00:20:05,753 --> 00:20:09,122 When I told you I love you, I meant it. 416 00:20:09,157 --> 00:20:12,559 But Izzie has our kids, Jo. 417 00:20:12,593 --> 00:20:14,494 Our kids. 418 00:20:14,529 --> 00:20:16,991 And the way you and I grew up, I... 419 00:20:17,598 --> 00:20:19,966 I-I came to meet them, to start to know them. 420 00:20:20,001 --> 00:20:22,369 I missed five years of their lives. 421 00:20:22,403 --> 00:20:24,404 And not because I was a junkie like my dad 422 00:20:24,438 --> 00:20:26,740 or off my meds like my mom. 423 00:20:26,808 --> 00:20:30,296 I didn't exist to them until I walked through the front door. 424 00:20:30,678 --> 00:20:34,648 And once I did, I had this family I never knew I had 425 00:20:34,682 --> 00:20:37,549 on this insane farm, and I wish I'd 426 00:20:38,619 --> 00:20:41,588 I wish getting everything I always wanted 427 00:20:41,656 --> 00:20:43,857 didn't have to hurt you in the process. 428 00:20:55,069 --> 00:20:56,947 But I can't lie to you. 429 00:20:57,505 --> 00:20:58,805 And I can't come home. 430 00:20:58,840 --> 00:21:00,707 Are you asking me to a dance? 431 00:21:00,741 --> 00:21:04,678 No, I'm... I'm asking you to come back home. 432 00:21:06,581 --> 00:21:08,281 I'm not coming home, Jo. 433 00:21:08,316 --> 00:21:09,316 I can't face you. 434 00:21:09,383 --> 00:21:10,650 I can't look you in the eye 435 00:21:10,685 --> 00:21:12,986 because I wouldn't be able to walk away. 436 00:21:13,054 --> 00:21:15,622 Maybe "I love you" is wrong to say, 437 00:21:15,647 --> 00:21:19,516 but thank you for making me better 438 00:21:19,541 --> 00:21:21,552 and taking care of me when I needed it, 439 00:21:21,629 --> 00:21:25,565 for taking care of yourself when you needed it, too. 440 00:21:25,600 --> 00:21:27,167 I went to a lawyer. 441 00:21:27,201 --> 00:21:28,735 I signed divorce papers. 442 00:21:28,769 --> 00:21:31,504 I left everything to you. It's yours. 443 00:21:31,572 --> 00:21:35,008 You worked for every cent you ever owned and then some. 444 00:21:35,076 --> 00:21:37,644 I also left you my shares in Grey-Sloan. 445 00:21:37,712 --> 00:21:40,714 Whatever you choose to do with them, I know it will be amazing. 446 00:21:40,781 --> 00:21:42,682 Just like you. 447 00:21:44,333 --> 00:21:45,600 You know, I, uh... 448 00:21:45,686 --> 00:21:48,555 I barely saw you this week, 449 00:21:48,589 --> 00:21:51,168 and it sucked. 450 00:21:52,093 --> 00:21:54,928 I'll find another job. Whatever. 451 00:21:54,962 --> 00:21:58,798 I, uh, but I don't want to never see you again. 452 00:21:58,833 --> 00:22:02,304 Oh, you deserve everything good in this life, Jo. 453 00:22:03,404 --> 00:22:06,473 I hope you find so much better than me. 454 00:22:06,507 --> 00:22:07,707 Thank you. 455 00:22:08,519 --> 00:22:10,354 I'm... I'm sorry. 456 00:22:11,112 --> 00:22:13,232 I don't know how to end this. 457 00:22:13,814 --> 00:22:15,582 I don't want to. 458 00:22:17,685 --> 00:22:19,029 Goodbye. 459 00:22:26,626 --> 00:22:28,520 I'm guessing you're not surprised by this, 460 00:22:28,544 --> 00:22:31,417 and definitely not happy about it. 461 00:22:32,428 --> 00:22:34,629 They called me Evil Spawn most of the time 462 00:22:34,697 --> 00:22:36,698 growing up in your hospital. 463 00:22:36,732 --> 00:22:38,199 Nice panties, Yang. 464 00:22:39,556 --> 00:22:41,269 In your dreams, Evil Spawn. 465 00:22:41,303 --> 00:22:43,004 It's probably one of the better nicknames 466 00:22:43,072 --> 00:22:45,373 I had most of my life, to be honest. 467 00:22:45,407 --> 00:22:47,175 I earned the name. 468 00:22:47,243 --> 00:22:48,919 I know it, you know it. 469 00:22:48,954 --> 00:22:50,154 Morning, people. 470 00:22:50,179 --> 00:22:53,272 Hell, you probably know that better than anyone. 471 00:22:54,416 --> 00:22:57,185 Truth is, you didn't like me very much in the beginning. 472 00:22:59,221 --> 00:23:01,756 I didn't really like you much, either. 473 00:23:01,790 --> 00:23:03,391 Sloppy, sloppy, sloppy. 474 00:23:03,459 --> 00:23:06,194 Redo these and return them to me before lunch, understood? 475 00:23:06,228 --> 00:23:08,096 - Understood. - Karev, don't tempt me. 476 00:23:08,130 --> 00:23:09,731 And, Karev, see the chief by the end of the day. 477 00:23:09,765 --> 00:23:10,864 What for? 478 00:23:10,898 --> 00:23:12,667 Do I look psychic to you? He's the chief. 479 00:23:12,701 --> 00:23:13,701 He asked, you go. 480 00:23:13,736 --> 00:23:15,436 Karev, go stand in the hall. 481 00:23:15,471 --> 00:23:17,205 - Karev, cover the pit. - Pit! 482 00:23:17,239 --> 00:23:18,906 Hate being an intern. 483 00:23:18,941 --> 00:23:23,177 You were mean and impatient... and knew everything, 484 00:23:23,212 --> 00:23:24,779 and you liked everyone else but me, 485 00:23:24,813 --> 00:23:26,447 even when you pretended you didn't. 486 00:23:26,482 --> 00:23:27,810 Are you sure they're balloons? 487 00:23:28,516 --> 00:23:30,718 You have reason to believe they're not balloons? 488 00:23:30,753 --> 00:23:32,720 This one here's got a face. 489 00:23:32,755 --> 00:23:34,622 They all do. 490 00:23:34,690 --> 00:23:36,224 I'll be damned. 491 00:23:36,258 --> 00:23:38,726 - They're Judys. - Judys? 492 00:23:38,794 --> 00:23:43,931 He swallowed the heads of ten Judy dolls. 493 00:23:43,999 --> 00:23:46,567 Or you were convinced I had "it"... 494 00:23:46,635 --> 00:23:50,238 that something that would make them great someday. 495 00:23:50,788 --> 00:23:53,141 Hell, you named your kid after O'Malley. 496 00:23:53,208 --> 00:23:55,977 And Mer named her kid after you, and you... 497 00:23:57,246 --> 00:24:00,415 ...you just seemed like all my other teachers before you 498 00:24:00,449 --> 00:24:03,718 who took one look at me, decided I was garbage, 499 00:24:03,786 --> 00:24:06,387 and that was all I'd ever be. 500 00:24:06,422 --> 00:24:08,156 But here's the thing. 501 00:24:08,223 --> 00:24:11,993 Unlike everyone else, you let me grow the hell up. 502 00:24:12,061 --> 00:24:14,896 - He saved a baby's life. - You gave me crap when I deserved it. 503 00:24:14,963 --> 00:24:17,265 You pushed my buttons and my limits when I needed it. 504 00:24:17,299 --> 00:24:20,001 What the hell? You are not some hotshot surgeon right now. 505 00:24:20,035 --> 00:24:22,070 Yeah, it's a teaching hospital and all that, 506 00:24:22,137 --> 00:24:25,206 but you did more than that, and you know it. 507 00:24:25,240 --> 00:24:27,241 Why is there a trailer in my parking spot? 508 00:24:27,700 --> 00:24:30,678 Is one of these yours? My bad. 509 00:24:30,713 --> 00:24:31,973 And, sure, it'd be pretty great 510 00:24:32,008 --> 00:24:33,581 if I just stayed there forever 511 00:24:33,649 --> 00:24:36,050 and repaid you for everything you did for me. 512 00:24:37,001 --> 00:24:39,220 But you and I both know I can't. 513 00:24:41,023 --> 00:24:42,824 Never could. 514 00:24:42,858 --> 00:24:44,859 You helped me grow the hell up, 515 00:24:44,927 --> 00:24:46,861 and you took a bullet out of my stomach. 516 00:24:46,895 --> 00:24:48,029 You paged me? 517 00:24:48,063 --> 00:24:50,465 I did. I have a surgery. 518 00:24:50,499 --> 00:24:52,083 You're actually gonna let me near a patient? 519 00:24:52,108 --> 00:24:53,325 You are the patient. 520 00:24:53,369 --> 00:24:55,524 - Get in there and get on that table. - Oh... 521 00:24:56,683 --> 00:24:58,651 I don't need a reminder of this thing. 522 00:24:58,676 --> 00:25:00,310 I'm gonna carry that day around with me 523 00:25:00,335 --> 00:25:02,319 every day for the rest of my life. 524 00:25:02,344 --> 00:25:04,245 I don't need a reminder every time I look at you. 525 00:25:04,279 --> 00:25:07,482 And I'm tired of bullying you, 526 00:25:07,516 --> 00:25:09,317 so I am asking you, 527 00:25:09,351 --> 00:25:13,221 please, get in there and get your shirt off. 528 00:25:15,758 --> 00:25:17,525 You protected Jo from herself, 529 00:25:17,559 --> 00:25:19,060 and if I started the whole list 530 00:25:19,094 --> 00:25:20,495 of everything I learned from you, 531 00:25:20,529 --> 00:25:22,363 I would never stop writing. 532 00:25:22,398 --> 00:25:24,332 And right now my hand hurts. 533 00:25:24,924 --> 00:25:26,842 So just know this. 534 00:25:27,142 --> 00:25:29,744 It took me a long time to say it, 535 00:25:30,005 --> 00:25:32,340 but I'm a good peds surgeon. 536 00:25:33,509 --> 00:25:35,276 I'm an okay guy. 537 00:25:35,643 --> 00:25:37,378 I'm still trying. 538 00:25:37,811 --> 00:25:41,349 But I'm a really damn good surgeon. 539 00:25:41,417 --> 00:25:42,950 - We got movement! - And I don't mind saying it now 540 00:25:42,985 --> 00:25:45,286 because I didn't figure it out myself. 541 00:25:46,195 --> 00:25:49,424 You kicked my ass and asked more of me than anyone 542 00:25:49,458 --> 00:25:51,092 and hired other teachers who kicked my ass 543 00:25:51,126 --> 00:25:52,427 and asked more of me. 544 00:25:52,461 --> 00:25:54,629 Karev, I hear that you're the future of peds. 545 00:25:54,663 --> 00:25:56,035 - Excuse me? - Yeah, a little birdie named 546 00:25:56,060 --> 00:25:57,365 Bailey whispered it in my ear. 547 00:25:57,399 --> 00:25:59,319 I want you to work with me today so I can see if she's right. 548 00:25:59,344 --> 00:26:00,472 What did she say? 549 00:26:00,507 --> 00:26:02,336 That you're the best babysitter in the hospital. 550 00:26:02,404 --> 00:26:03,771 Shut up. 551 00:26:03,806 --> 00:26:05,106 And I know who I am. 552 00:26:05,140 --> 00:26:08,910 I'm not that guy with a million Catherine Fox Awards on a shelf. 553 00:26:08,977 --> 00:26:10,244 Goodbye, Mom. 554 00:26:10,279 --> 00:26:11,637 Bye. 555 00:26:12,763 --> 00:26:15,383 A junkie dad, a crackpot mom, 556 00:26:15,451 --> 00:26:18,953 and somehow Karev still became a doctor. 557 00:26:18,987 --> 00:26:21,456 I'm not easily impressed, but I'm impressed. 558 00:26:21,523 --> 00:26:23,739 I became the guy you trusted to run the hospital 559 00:26:23,773 --> 00:26:24,838 and keep your secrets. 560 00:26:24,906 --> 00:26:26,727 And now... It's okay. 561 00:26:26,762 --> 00:26:29,397 ...and now I'm a surgeon, a friend, 562 00:26:29,431 --> 00:26:32,366 a father of two incredible kids with Izzie Stevens, 563 00:26:32,434 --> 00:26:35,202 which I'm sure is breaking your brain. 564 00:26:36,205 --> 00:26:38,239 - But it's true. - Nothing! 565 00:26:38,307 --> 00:26:40,107 I'm all these things. 566 00:26:40,142 --> 00:26:41,409 She been out there all day? 567 00:26:41,443 --> 00:26:43,644 And by the way, I have a shot 568 00:26:43,712 --> 00:26:46,113 at being Chief of Peds at Shawnee County here, 569 00:26:46,547 --> 00:26:48,983 but I'm guessing you're the last person 570 00:26:49,017 --> 00:26:51,760 I should put down as a rec right now. 571 00:26:52,821 --> 00:26:56,424 Okay, look, the... the kids keep asking for pizza sushi, 572 00:26:56,458 --> 00:26:59,060 and I have to go tell them that's not a thing. 573 00:26:59,094 --> 00:27:01,796 And if I say any more in this letter, 574 00:27:01,830 --> 00:27:04,732 there are going to be feelings all over the place. 575 00:27:04,766 --> 00:27:06,442 Yours, not mine. 576 00:27:07,035 --> 00:27:09,403 And, really, I'm just writing to say goodbye. 577 00:27:10,154 --> 00:27:11,939 And thanks. 578 00:27:11,974 --> 00:27:13,508 And that sounds lame and small 579 00:27:13,575 --> 00:27:14,775 compared to everything you've done, 580 00:27:14,843 --> 00:27:18,245 but there it is. 581 00:27:19,381 --> 00:27:21,816 Goodbye, and thanks. 582 00:27:23,719 --> 00:27:25,653 I love you, Dr. Bailey. 583 00:27:27,656 --> 00:27:29,457 Dr. Alex Karev. 584 00:27:38,552 --> 00:27:42,227 - Richard, alcoholic. - Hi, Richard. 585 00:27:46,169 --> 00:27:48,237 See one, 586 00:27:48,305 --> 00:27:50,172 do one, 587 00:27:50,207 --> 00:27:51,653 teach one. 588 00:27:52,890 --> 00:27:55,839 That's been the motto of every hospital I run, 589 00:27:55,864 --> 00:27:57,743 every teacher I've loved. 590 00:27:59,149 --> 00:28:04,353 I loved being a surgeon, saving lives, 591 00:28:04,387 --> 00:28:08,357 giving people back their families, 592 00:28:08,391 --> 00:28:11,911 their loved ones, and their friends. 593 00:28:11,935 --> 00:28:16,386 Giving them back to them when all seemed lost. 594 00:28:17,106 --> 00:28:20,275 And I loved my students, not because of ego... 595 00:28:23,379 --> 00:28:25,180 I'm done. I'm done! I'm done! 596 00:28:25,215 --> 00:28:29,985 ...but because it gave me that same rush, that same feeling... 597 00:28:30,019 --> 00:28:33,188 That's why I'm the chief. 598 00:28:33,223 --> 00:28:37,025 It's like you're helping to keep people alive, 599 00:28:37,093 --> 00:28:39,701 keep families alive. 600 00:28:40,697 --> 00:28:43,165 And then this morning, I wake up to a letter 601 00:28:43,233 --> 00:28:46,902 from a student of mine, who, well, 602 00:28:46,936 --> 00:28:51,006 let's just say he's not the one I would have put money down on. 603 00:28:51,074 --> 00:28:53,041 What happens, uh, if I... if I take the exam 604 00:28:53,076 --> 00:28:55,344 for a second time and I don't pass? 605 00:28:55,378 --> 00:28:58,013 You will no longer be a surgical resident at Seattle Grace. 606 00:28:58,081 --> 00:28:59,882 Failing again is not an option. 607 00:28:59,949 --> 00:29:02,084 - What's the big deal? - Well, the big deal is you're... 608 00:29:02,118 --> 00:29:05,787 you're sweaty and you and you smell. 609 00:29:05,822 --> 00:29:07,799 And you're not going into my OR. 610 00:29:07,834 --> 00:29:09,091 What the hell's the matter with you today? 611 00:29:09,125 --> 00:29:10,626 This is a teaching hospital, okay? 612 00:29:10,660 --> 00:29:12,528 You were the chief for 20 years. 613 00:29:12,562 --> 00:29:14,730 You're supposed to be teaching your residents. 614 00:29:14,797 --> 00:29:17,132 Oh, I think I taught you something today. 615 00:29:17,200 --> 00:29:20,035 You don't give up a once-in-a-lifetime surgery, 616 00:29:20,103 --> 00:29:24,106 not for any reason, not for anyone, not ever. 617 00:29:24,140 --> 00:29:26,074 But he... he did the work. 618 00:29:27,249 --> 00:29:29,244 Yeah. He... He showed up. 619 00:29:29,312 --> 00:29:31,837 He... He stepped up. 620 00:29:32,749 --> 00:29:35,484 Became an excellent student, 621 00:29:35,518 --> 00:29:38,253 - a stellar surgeon. - 10 blade. 622 00:29:38,288 --> 00:29:40,155 You're an underdog, aren't you, Karev? 623 00:29:40,189 --> 00:29:41,623 It's not that you don't have the skills. 624 00:29:41,691 --> 00:29:42,958 You have the skills. 625 00:29:42,992 --> 00:29:46,128 But you're scrappy. You're a fighter. 626 00:29:46,162 --> 00:29:47,603 I like that. 627 00:29:48,164 --> 00:29:49,631 I always root for the underdog. 628 00:29:49,699 --> 00:29:51,982 A fine teacher. 629 00:29:52,869 --> 00:29:55,777 He was working with the best of the best. 630 00:29:57,073 --> 00:30:00,809 But instead, 631 00:30:00,877 --> 00:30:03,345 he chose to abandon it all 632 00:30:03,379 --> 00:30:07,616 for who he says is the woman he loves. 633 00:30:07,650 --> 00:30:11,627 And for the two children they now have. 634 00:30:12,522 --> 00:30:16,158 You know, I wanted to look him straight in the eye 635 00:30:16,192 --> 00:30:19,461 and yell at him and... and tell him 636 00:30:19,495 --> 00:30:21,196 that he's made a mistake, 637 00:30:21,230 --> 00:30:24,066 that it feels like a mistake. 638 00:30:25,401 --> 00:30:27,703 I've been there before, yeah. 639 00:30:27,770 --> 00:30:31,773 I've fallen in love with two people at the same time, 640 00:30:31,808 --> 00:30:32,941 and... 641 00:30:34,711 --> 00:30:37,446 And I know all you can do is go with what your... 642 00:30:37,480 --> 00:30:40,215 your bones and your guts and your heart tell you to. 643 00:30:40,249 --> 00:30:43,885 I wanted to grab him and shake him and tell him, 644 00:30:43,920 --> 00:30:46,188 "Don't give it all away. 645 00:30:46,222 --> 00:30:48,223 Not now. Not for... for this." 646 00:30:50,893 --> 00:30:55,087 But I missed my chance to watch my own child grow into an adult. 647 00:30:56,366 --> 00:31:00,869 And I would give anything to have those years with Maggie. 648 00:31:00,903 --> 00:31:02,504 I'd do anything. 649 00:31:04,107 --> 00:31:05,931 I guess, um... 650 00:31:07,143 --> 00:31:09,351 I just wanted to say goodbye. 651 00:31:10,446 --> 00:31:12,681 I just wanted to say goodbye. 652 00:31:12,715 --> 00:31:14,147 Hey, Dr. Webber. 653 00:31:14,684 --> 00:31:16,251 I-I didn't want to work here, either. 654 00:31:16,319 --> 00:31:19,388 You know, at Grey-Sloan, I inherited a-a legacy. 655 00:31:19,422 --> 00:31:21,123 Bailey's legacy, your legacy. 656 00:31:21,157 --> 00:31:22,290 You know, I mean, every choice I made, 657 00:31:22,325 --> 00:31:25,093 I heard your voice in my head... "Don't settle. Do better." 658 00:31:25,128 --> 00:31:27,429 At Grey-Sloan, failing was our last option. 659 00:31:27,497 --> 00:31:29,197 But here, failure's the culture. 660 00:31:29,232 --> 00:31:30,499 But we can change that. 661 00:31:30,566 --> 00:31:32,167 Help me turn this place around. 662 00:31:32,201 --> 00:31:34,169 Help me do the impossible. 663 00:31:34,237 --> 00:31:37,305 I wanted to say thank you for helping me 664 00:31:37,340 --> 00:31:42,259 to be a better doctor, better teacher. 665 00:31:42,538 --> 00:31:44,072 I mean, anything. 666 00:31:46,215 --> 00:31:47,382 But he up and left... 667 00:31:47,417 --> 00:31:49,518 Karev! Do better! 668 00:31:49,552 --> 00:31:53,955 ...with only a note and an apology, and that's it, 669 00:31:53,990 --> 00:31:57,626 not considering that I might want to say goodbye 670 00:31:57,660 --> 00:31:59,061 as a teacher... 671 00:31:59,095 --> 00:32:00,562 Watch your back, Karev. 672 00:32:00,596 --> 00:32:02,931 I may decide to teach you something tomorrow. 673 00:32:03,766 --> 00:32:05,300 Time of... 674 00:32:05,334 --> 00:32:06,535 ...as a colleague... 675 00:32:06,569 --> 00:32:08,236 Time of death... 15:42. 676 00:32:08,271 --> 00:32:09,745 ...as a friend. 677 00:32:10,973 --> 00:32:12,207 See one. 678 00:32:12,664 --> 00:32:14,376 Do one. 679 00:32:14,410 --> 00:32:16,168 Teach one. 680 00:32:17,013 --> 00:32:22,451 I've seen people leave. 681 00:32:22,485 --> 00:32:24,926 I've done the leaving. 682 00:32:25,388 --> 00:32:29,458 Richard! Richard! Richard! 683 00:32:29,525 --> 00:32:31,046 I was gonna ask you to be by my side 684 00:32:31,080 --> 00:32:32,160 for the rest of our lives. 685 00:32:32,195 --> 00:32:34,262 I'm not sorry about a damn thing. 686 00:32:37,333 --> 00:32:41,036 And lately, it seems like all the people I love just... 687 00:32:42,238 --> 00:32:44,806 ...they just disappear. 688 00:32:45,447 --> 00:32:46,990 And... 689 00:32:48,177 --> 00:32:49,826 I can't... 690 00:32:50,346 --> 00:32:53,849 find a way to make it stop. 691 00:33:03,096 --> 00:33:05,264 Alex, if you want to know how she is, 692 00:33:05,332 --> 00:33:07,399 you should just call her. 693 00:33:07,434 --> 00:33:08,628 You should call Izzie. 694 00:33:08,663 --> 00:33:09,602 No. 695 00:33:09,669 --> 00:33:11,403 No, it's okay. 696 00:33:11,471 --> 00:33:12,771 No. 697 00:33:12,839 --> 00:33:15,741 I mean, I-I-I don't need to call her. 698 00:33:15,775 --> 00:33:17,312 I know how she is. 699 00:33:18,244 --> 00:33:20,112 I mean, she's, uh... 700 00:33:20,180 --> 00:33:22,848 she's married with three kids, 701 00:33:22,882 --> 00:33:28,454 and she lives somewhere, I think, uh, kind of woodsy? 702 00:33:30,357 --> 00:33:32,691 And she's a surgeon and she goes to work every day, 703 00:33:32,726 --> 00:33:37,165 so she refuses to hire help, so her house is always a mess. 704 00:33:38,264 --> 00:33:41,400 And it has Christmas decorations all over it 705 00:33:41,434 --> 00:33:44,756 because she won't let her husband take them down. 706 00:33:47,073 --> 00:33:48,440 It smells like muffins, 707 00:33:48,508 --> 00:33:50,709 and she's... 708 00:33:50,744 --> 00:33:52,177 she's smiling. 709 00:33:54,681 --> 00:33:57,102 When I picture her, she's always smiling. 710 00:33:57,817 --> 00:34:01,022 I don't need to call her because I want it to stay that way. 711 00:34:02,956 --> 00:34:07,393 I picture her as happy as I am with you. 712 00:34:08,495 --> 00:34:10,295 You imagined a whole life for her? 713 00:34:10,330 --> 00:34:13,065 Oh, yeah. It's way better than wondering. 714 00:34:17,470 --> 00:34:19,304 Hi, Izzie Stevens. Washington. 715 00:34:19,339 --> 00:34:22,274 Hi, Alex Karev. Iowa. 716 00:34:22,308 --> 00:34:23,575 What program are you in? 717 00:34:23,610 --> 00:34:25,811 Surgery. 718 00:34:25,879 --> 00:34:27,479 - Seriously? - Seriously. 719 00:34:27,514 --> 00:34:29,281 Morning, Dr. Model. 720 00:34:29,315 --> 00:34:30,783 Dr. Evil Spawn. 721 00:34:30,817 --> 00:34:33,285 Ooh. Nice tat. 722 00:34:33,319 --> 00:34:34,820 Do you ever wake up in the morning and realize 723 00:34:34,854 --> 00:34:38,190 nobody likes you and, I don't know, care? 724 00:34:38,258 --> 00:34:39,992 Oh. 725 00:34:40,026 --> 00:34:41,360 I think somebody likes me. 726 00:34:41,394 --> 00:34:43,362 What is she doing? 727 00:34:43,396 --> 00:34:46,098 She's hanging out with Alex. 728 00:34:48,201 --> 00:34:51,136 - - What? 729 00:34:51,171 --> 00:34:52,604 There's a discussion we could have 730 00:34:52,672 --> 00:34:54,807 if you wanted to have one. 731 00:34:54,841 --> 00:34:56,442 I kissed you with tongue... 732 00:34:56,476 --> 00:34:59,878 ...and I plan to do it again and again. 733 00:34:59,913 --> 00:35:01,380 Get used to it. 734 00:35:01,414 --> 00:35:03,148 Ow! 735 00:35:03,173 --> 00:35:04,184 I care about you. 736 00:35:05,418 --> 00:35:07,286 And I'm not gonna stop caring about you, 737 00:35:07,353 --> 00:35:09,154 no matter how hard you push me away. 738 00:35:09,222 --> 00:35:10,456 Shut up and get out of my room. 739 00:35:10,490 --> 00:35:11,857 No. 740 00:35:11,891 --> 00:35:14,426 I care about you. 741 00:35:14,461 --> 00:35:15,861 And I know you care about me, too. 742 00:35:15,895 --> 00:35:17,596 It is not too late for us. 743 00:35:17,630 --> 00:35:18,731 Admit that you care about me, too. 744 00:35:18,765 --> 00:35:21,033 I know you do. I care about you. 745 00:35:22,200 --> 00:35:23,426 I care about you. 746 00:35:23,470 --> 00:35:25,804 I care about you. I care about you. 747 00:35:25,872 --> 00:35:27,359 I... 748 00:35:28,108 --> 00:35:31,009 I think with you, you make me better. 749 00:35:31,077 --> 00:35:33,812 - Oh! - You make me want to be better. 750 00:35:33,847 --> 00:35:35,581 You make me want to be good. 751 00:35:35,615 --> 00:35:37,049 And I think I can. 752 00:35:37,083 --> 00:35:39,184 With you, I think I can. 753 00:35:39,252 --> 00:35:40,719 And if you want to be scared, that's okay. 754 00:35:40,754 --> 00:35:42,087 Just be scared with me. 755 00:35:42,122 --> 00:35:43,522 I don't want to be the future of this hospital 756 00:35:43,556 --> 00:35:47,626 if you're not there with me. 757 00:35:55,802 --> 00:35:57,703 I didn't know you still felt that way about me. 758 00:35:57,737 --> 00:35:58,904 Me neither. 759 00:36:00,607 --> 00:36:03,542 I love you. 760 00:36:03,576 --> 00:36:05,377 What? 761 00:36:05,411 --> 00:36:07,112 I love you. 762 00:36:07,147 --> 00:36:08,355 I freaking love you. 763 00:36:08,389 --> 00:36:10,015 I can totally see you in ten years... 764 00:36:10,049 --> 00:36:11,950 ...a little salt and pepper in your hair, 765 00:36:11,985 --> 00:36:15,254 big-shot attending. 766 00:36:15,288 --> 00:36:16,789 You're gonna be a rock star, Alex. 767 00:36:16,823 --> 00:36:18,090 Shut up. 768 00:36:23,396 --> 00:36:25,464 I love you. 769 00:36:48,555 --> 00:36:50,522 You taking my spot on the couch tonight? 770 00:36:53,993 --> 00:36:55,394 Miranda, is...? 771 00:36:55,461 --> 00:36:58,030 Alex Karev isn't coming back. 772 00:36:58,064 --> 00:37:00,076 Left his wife, 773 00:37:00,869 --> 00:37:03,204 his friends, his job. 774 00:37:04,037 --> 00:37:09,575 Alex Karev is now a father of two with Izzie Stevens. 775 00:37:13,079 --> 00:37:16,448 And, if they take my recommendation seriously, 776 00:37:16,482 --> 00:37:20,786 he'll soon be Chief of Peds at Shawnee Memorial. 777 00:37:24,157 --> 00:37:25,591 What's this got to do with Joey? 778 00:37:27,493 --> 00:37:30,495 Now, it is a matter of luck, 779 00:37:30,530 --> 00:37:35,400 of grace that Alex Karev is who he is today. 780 00:37:35,435 --> 00:37:40,272 He could have just as easily been lost to this world, 781 00:37:40,306 --> 00:37:42,574 aimless. 782 00:37:42,609 --> 00:37:46,445 But he survived his home, 783 00:37:46,479 --> 00:37:49,381 his family, his foster homes 784 00:37:49,415 --> 00:37:51,683 and became a man, 785 00:37:51,718 --> 00:37:53,672 now a father, 786 00:37:55,048 --> 00:37:58,457 a fine surgeon by luck, 787 00:37:58,885 --> 00:38:00,428 by chance. 788 00:38:02,695 --> 00:38:06,101 Joey's future shouldn't be a matter of chance. 789 00:38:06,466 --> 00:38:10,605 A child's future can't be a matter of luck. 790 00:38:14,407 --> 00:38:15,860 Okay. 791 00:38:17,076 --> 00:38:18,644 "Okay"? 792 00:38:18,678 --> 00:38:20,573 Just like that? "Okay"? 793 00:38:22,015 --> 00:38:25,584 I just wanted to talk about it. 794 00:38:25,618 --> 00:38:27,452 I mean, you and I, look, we... we both make 795 00:38:27,487 --> 00:38:31,156 these big, sweeping decisions without each other. 796 00:38:31,190 --> 00:38:34,026 You... You had a heart attack and didn't tell me. 797 00:38:34,060 --> 00:38:36,395 You... You had a miscarriage and shut me out. 798 00:38:36,429 --> 00:38:38,842 - You... - You change careers like sweaters. 799 00:38:39,432 --> 00:38:42,220 Yeah. 800 00:38:43,102 --> 00:38:46,505 And I am down for all of it. I... 801 00:38:46,572 --> 00:38:50,776 All the change and the easy and the hard that comes with it. 802 00:38:50,843 --> 00:38:53,045 Of course Joey should have you. 803 00:38:53,079 --> 00:38:54,513 Should have us. 804 00:38:54,547 --> 00:38:57,416 He should have a family. 805 00:38:57,450 --> 00:38:58,737 But... 806 00:38:59,819 --> 00:39:06,825 that family needs to learn to talk to each other first, okay? 807 00:39:10,229 --> 00:39:11,916 I'm sorry. 808 00:39:12,632 --> 00:39:13,632 I know. 809 00:39:13,700 --> 00:39:15,467 I'm sorry. I'm sorry. 810 00:39:19,072 --> 00:39:21,473 Congratulations, Miranda. 811 00:39:21,507 --> 00:39:22,741 It's a boy. 812 00:39:22,775 --> 00:39:24,876 A teenage boy! 813 00:39:26,546 --> 00:39:29,314 It's another boy. 814 00:39:39,492 --> 00:39:42,928 - You can quit hovering. - I'm not hovering. 815 00:39:44,515 --> 00:39:45,588 I'm... deciding 816 00:39:45,631 --> 00:39:48,870 whether to come in or give you space... 817 00:39:49,802 --> 00:39:52,571 ...or take you day drinking. 818 00:39:52,605 --> 00:39:54,940 ? But I come back again 819 00:39:55,008 --> 00:39:57,175 Okay, whiskey it is. 820 00:40:03,649 --> 00:40:05,851 Pierce is paging me for a cecal bascule 821 00:40:05,885 --> 00:40:07,719 for one of our cabbage patients. 822 00:40:09,956 --> 00:40:13,358 Okay. 823 00:40:13,393 --> 00:40:15,227 Whiskey tonight. 824 00:40:15,261 --> 00:40:17,662 Today I am working. 825 00:40:22,839 --> 00:40:26,138 You're my hero. 826 00:40:26,172 --> 00:40:27,172 Mine, too. 827 00:40:27,206 --> 00:40:29,035 We hold onto hope, 828 00:40:29,942 --> 00:40:32,277 thinking one small detail, 829 00:40:32,311 --> 00:40:34,179 one tiny piece of information 830 00:40:34,213 --> 00:40:36,548 will somehow make things right, 831 00:40:36,582 --> 00:40:38,050 make it different, 832 00:40:38,084 --> 00:40:40,052 make it okay... 833 00:40:40,086 --> 00:40:42,788 stop the world from spinning off its axis. 834 00:40:42,822 --> 00:40:46,391 Mom, Uncle Alex said when I finish my science project, 835 00:40:46,459 --> 00:40:47,726 I'm supposed to show him. 836 00:40:47,760 --> 00:40:48,960 Can you show me? 837 00:40:49,028 --> 00:40:50,662 He helped me come up with it. 838 00:40:50,730 --> 00:40:52,697 It's a dog feeder. See? 839 00:40:52,732 --> 00:40:54,232 When the dog walks on this lever, 840 00:40:54,267 --> 00:40:56,301 the pulley tips the bucket over and... 841 00:40:56,369 --> 00:40:58,737 That is so smart! 842 00:40:58,771 --> 00:41:01,006 All we need is a dog. 843 00:41:02,875 --> 00:41:05,844 So, can I show him? 844 00:41:05,878 --> 00:41:09,714 Can we go and show Uncle Alex right now, please? 845 00:41:09,749 --> 00:41:12,084 Um... 846 00:41:12,151 --> 00:41:13,718 Come sit here. 847 00:41:16,856 --> 00:41:20,258 Your Uncle Alex loves you so much. 848 00:41:21,527 --> 00:41:22,910 And I just got a letter from him. 849 00:41:24,117 --> 00:41:25,183 - You did? - I did. 850 00:41:25,217 --> 00:41:26,276 When the truth is... 851 00:41:28,034 --> 00:41:30,735 ...there's really no good way to say goodbye.