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OK, Mr Ryland. Would you
like to take a seat?

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Thank you.Just raise the
microphone up a little.

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Hello, my name's Bill Ryland.

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I'm 65 years young

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and I'm looking to meet someone
special

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for long walks, nice chats,
cosy nights in,

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and sexual intercourse.

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I can say that, can't I?

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Er, you have to be a woman,

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just to make that clear.

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I've had quite enough of male
company, thank you very much.

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Apart from that,
I don't have too many requirements,

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although I did write a few things
down, just to... narrow the search.

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No big girls,

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no Eastern Europeans, no pensioners,

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no loonies, no lefties,

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no Liverpudlians and no lady-boys.

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Anyone else, feel free to contact me
via the website thingy.

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So what can I tell you about me?

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I was married a few years ago,
but my wife passed away, sadly.

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And I've found it difficult to be
with another woman ever since.

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I think about her a lot.

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Her name was Doreen.

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That sounds like an old woman's name
now, but it wasn't then.

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She had blonde hair, blue eyes...

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She reminded me of Twiggy.

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Not the early years when she looked
like a fella... '70s Twiggy.

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Like in the Marks & Spencer's
adverts.

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We courted for six months,
then we got married...

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and then, a little while
after the baby come...

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..things went downhill.

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There were complications,
visits to the hospital.

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I don't want to dwell on that,
but it happened

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and it's part of who I am,
so you ought to know.

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I'm not looking for a medal,
I just got through it,

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that's the main thing, and now
I'm back.

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Looking to start a new chapter.

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I joined a gym recently,

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got myself a personal trainer -
Nooh.

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He's Muslim, ,
but we have a laugh about it.

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We were just finishing Seniorcise
and he says to me,

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"You got any plans for the weekend,
Bill?"

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And I said "No, not really, no,

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"but I might have a run out
to the RAF Museum in Hendon."

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He says "Oh, I've never heard
of that."

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Well, 45 minutes later, we're still
stood there talking about it,

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and he chimes in,
"Bill, Bill, let me stop you there.

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"You need to get yourself a
lady-friend.

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"Someone to look after you
and listen to all your stories."

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I said, "Where am I gonna meet
anyone? I'm not going on Twinder."

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And he says, "Bill, you're in luck,"

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and he's heading back
into the locker room at this point.

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He says, "Video dating's
coming back, like in the '80s.

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"I'll write all the links down for
you, it's dead easy.

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"All you've got to do is keep it
brief."

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So here I am.

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Like I say,
looking to turn a new leaf.

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So why not contact me?

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Please.

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Was that longer than 30 seconds?

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We had some good news this week.

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Kelly's best friend, Sophie,
who she goes to school with,

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well, her parents
are both really well-educated,

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really attractive and really
sociable...

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..and they're getting divorced.

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I said to Tim, "You'll never
guess what -

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"the Smugs are splitting up!"

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He said, "Oh, my God, that's brilliant
news!" And he gave me a hug.

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We actually high-fived
in the kitchen.

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They'd invited us
to a dinner party last year.

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She said, "Text me any Saturday that
works for you "between now and Easter."

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This was in November.

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Tim said, "Oh, tell them
to fuck off,"

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but I said we couldn't, you know.

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I wanted to do it for Kelly's sake.

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And she said, "Mum, you can't just
air them forever."

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I said, "What does that mean?"

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You air clothes or bedsheets,
you don't air people!

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It means blanking someone,
apparently. Anyway, we went.

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Their house was like a show-home,
of course.

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Not a thing out of place.
I mean, not like ours.

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Ours is all wonky pictures
and muddy shoes

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and crap on every surface.

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I said to Tim,
"I know where I'd rather live.

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"Our house may be chaotic...

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"..but at least we're living
in the real world."

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He didn't say anything.

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Then one of the women,

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some big streak of piss
who works high-up in Asda,

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she said, "Ooh,
let's do our porn names!"

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And we all had to go round the
table.

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"I'm Lady Minchkin,"

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"I'm Pumpkin McAllister,"

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"Ooh, I'm Blackie Gough!"

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Hilarious.

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And then they turned to the au pair
who'd just come in from the kitchen

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and said, "Alessia,
what's YOUR porn star name?"

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She went bright red

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and said, "It's Connie Lingus...

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"..but how did you know?"

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And then she ran out of the room
crying.

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Well, she's Italian.

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Porn's like Bake-Off to them.

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The husband laughed
and the wife, ooh,

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she gave him such evils.

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I should have known then
there were trouble at t'mill.

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And then she said, "Nadia,
what's yours?"

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I said, "Jaws."

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She said "Jaws what?

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"It's your first pet followed
by your mother's maiden name."

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I said, "I know that.

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"My goldfish was called Jaws
and I never knew who my mother was,

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"so it'll just have to be
Jaws Blank."

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Everyone looked down at their
plates.

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I might have sworn,
I can't remember now.

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And then the husband says,
"Ooh, who fancies some Eton mess?"

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And Tim, bless him...

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..said, "How did you guess
my porn name?"

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And then everyone started laughing
again

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and talking about fucking
house prices.

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So, anyway, yeah,

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they're splitting up now, so...

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happy ending.

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How did it feel,
talking about your mother?

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Sorry, what did you say?

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How did it feel,
talking about your mother,

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the fact that you can't remember
her?

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Oh, it's not
that I can't remember her, I...

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..I never knew her.

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See, I... I was an orphan.

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Both my parents died.

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Nobody knows what happened.

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It's just a mystery.

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Is this thing on?

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Hello, this is Galen J Landry
coming to you live

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from the Jefferson Parish
Correctional Facility in L'isiana,

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the Sugar State, mm-mm!

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Ma'am, you know how long
this gon' take?

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I already told you
I killed a whole bunch of people.

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Y'all want me to tell you their
names? I can't tell you their names.

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It ain't a kinda
"howdy doody" situation,

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sticking a knife in someone's belly.

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I can tell you the first lady
I killed.

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Doreen Grace Landry.

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She was my momma.

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I was just a young'un, maybe 14, 15,

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and I was in the house skinning
a little rabbit

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that my daddy done shot,

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when she comes marching in,
all ornery like.

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"What you doin' in the kitchen,
Galen?

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"Get that God-dang varmint
off my table!"

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I said, "I ain't doing nothing
wrong, Momma. We gotta eat."

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Then she starts striking me
about the head,

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madder than a mule
chewin' on a bumblebee...

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what you folks might nowadays
call "domestic abuse".

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And something in my brain just
snapped.

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I turned around, I held up my knife,

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a big old L'isiana toothpick,

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and I stuck her right in the bread
basket.

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My, my, the look on her face.

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When my daddy come home,
he was not best pleased.

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I'd skinned the rabbit
and a little bit of Momma, too.

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Kitchen was a mess,
Daddy starts boo-hooing,

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talking about calling the po-lice

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and being about as much use
as tits on a bull,

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so I bashed his brains in
with the griddling iron.

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Seemed the kindest thing to do.

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The pigs did not go hungry
that winter, no siree.

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When I went into town to get
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folks'd holler,
"Hey, Galen, where's your daddy at?"

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And I'd just say, "Oh, you know,
he's working the land."

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And then I laughed
cos it was kinda true,

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seeing as he was now pig poop.

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You ever eaten human brains, ma'am?

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Kinda mushy, like scrambled eggs.

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See, I like to get
into other folks' heads,

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know a bit of what they know.

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And that's why I'm smarter than
you...

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..even though I'm sitting here in
chains

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and you're the one
with the fancy video camera,

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the nice husband,
the perfect daughter.

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Oh, yeah, I know you.

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And when I get outta this hellhole,
which I know I will,

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I'm gonna come pay y'all a visit.

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Treat you to some of that
Southern hospitality.

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Galen...

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Hi, blogging angels!
Hi, vlogging angels!

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This video is for any vloggy-virgins
out there

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that want to pop their cherry.

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OK, so...

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..for those of who you don't know -
hi, my name's Angel.

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I am a social media influencer,

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which basically means I get to share
things with you, my Angel Army.

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Angel Army!

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And the more followers I get,
the more influence I have.

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Does that make sense? Anyway,
some of my favourite videos...

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and judging by your comments,
some of your favourites as well...

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are the Storytimes where I just...

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Yeah, I get to tell you about my
life and what's been happening.

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So grab yourselves a cup of tea,
put your phone on silent,

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put your onesie on
if you want to feel all shnuggly,

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because I have got the mother,
the mama,

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the madre of all Storytimes for you.

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Here goes.

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So, last Tuesday, I'd done
a three-hour social media blackout

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as a fundraiser for... charity.

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So I hadn't looked at my phone,
Insta, Twitter,

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nothing at all, since 10am.

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I know, right?!

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When I put my phone back on,
all hell breaks loose.

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I had so many notifications...

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it was buzzing away
like my mother's Rabbit.

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Don't tell her I said that, boo!

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LAUGHING: Do not tell her
I said that!

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I'm crying!

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But first of all,
I need to rewind a little bit.

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Rewind!

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I'd been given a T-shirt
from dragtrade.com...

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bit like this one,
but with the word "babe" on it.

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Then, when I see my comments,

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the first one was from a new
follower called GalenLandryFan...

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which was not at all creepy,
given the fact

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that he's that serial killer dude
in America - not cool...

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and it said, "Hi, Angel,
love the T-shirt.

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"You are a Babe...

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"what a great film that was."

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Well, I didn't know this,
but apparently

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Babe was a film from years ago
about a pig.

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A pig that talks.

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Can you believe this guy?
Can you believe this guy?!

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So I'm reading this and feeling
all these different emojis,

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and somewhere, from my
sub-sub-conscience,

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I get a voice telling me,
"This is someone you know,

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"someone you've already met."

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Oh, my God, I can literally,
like, feel the hairs going up

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on the back of my arms!

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Anyway, I'd posted a response
saying,

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"I don't know what film
you're referring to,

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"but I would advise you
not to mess with Angel's Army.

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00:13:08,254 --> 00:13:11,442
"You might think I look like a pig,
but let's see how you like spam."

242
00:13:11,532 --> 00:13:13,243
So I'd screen-shotted it to Twitter,

243
00:13:13,310 --> 00:13:15,521
asked all my followers
to repost it with...

244
00:13:15,552 --> 00:13:18,767
#timesup, #bodyshaming

245
00:13:18,852 --> 00:13:21,907
He must have gotten, like,
5,000 retweets within the hour.

246
00:13:21,972 --> 00:13:24,675
Thank you, guys, LUSMs...

247
00:13:25,470 --> 00:13:28,663
So I just thought,
"You know what? Serves you right."

248
00:13:28,734 --> 00:13:31,203
You can't go making jokes on social
media,

249
00:13:31,294 --> 00:13:33,951
not when you don't know the person
and you've only just started

250
00:13:33,982 --> 00:13:35,763
following them, like,
the day before.

251
00:13:40,126 --> 00:13:44,810
So, anyway, upshot is Galen got
spammed, whammed, thank-you-ma'amed,

252
00:13:44,862 --> 00:13:46,737
and I think no more of it
and I go shopping!

253
00:13:46,812 --> 00:13:49,159
If you wanna see my haul,
there's a "What's In My Bag?" video

254
00:13:49,214 --> 00:13:51,745
with links to all the products down
below, so you can get the same look.

255
00:13:51,972 --> 00:13:54,714
But when I get in my Uber
and I check my Story,

256
00:13:54,782 --> 00:13:57,325
there's a DM from GalenLandryFan.

257
00:13:57,409 --> 00:14:00,870
And it just says,
"I know where you live."

258
00:14:01,246 --> 00:14:02,465
WTAF?

259
00:14:02,654 --> 00:14:04,276
So, do you know what I'm going to
do?

260
00:14:04,510 --> 00:14:07,214
I'm going to give him a piece of my
mind.

261
00:14:14,942 --> 00:14:16,864
Your mother brought me breakfast
in bed this morning.

262
00:14:17,502 --> 00:14:19,393
I said, "I should be doing this
for you."

263
00:14:19,934 --> 00:14:21,950
She said, "Well, I was up early.

264
00:14:22,012 --> 00:14:25,963
"Next door's dog was howling again,
probably the milkman."

265
00:14:26,014 --> 00:14:27,664
I said, "For your information,
darling,

266
00:14:27,742 --> 00:14:30,249
"the milkman comes at midnight,
not first thing.

267
00:14:30,686 --> 00:14:33,194
"He wants it over and done with
so he can have a lie-in."

268
00:14:34,782 --> 00:14:36,860
When I was little, it used
to be half-six in the morning.

269
00:14:37,982 --> 00:14:39,200
You'd hear the chink of the bottles,

270
00:14:39,262 --> 00:14:40,950
the whir and hiss
of the little buggy thing

271
00:14:41,054 --> 00:14:43,223
as it headed off down the next
street,

272
00:14:43,277 --> 00:14:45,035
and you knew then
you had to get up for school.

273
00:14:46,494 --> 00:14:48,978
It's funny how some sounds
or bits of music

274
00:14:49,197 --> 00:14:50,676
have certain connotations.

275
00:14:51,614 --> 00:14:54,598
Like Sunday morning radio
with Dave Lee Travis.

276
00:14:55,969 --> 00:14:58,235
My parents always had it on -
I could hear it through the walls.

277
00:14:58,932 --> 00:15:00,457
He'd do a quiz-type thing,

278
00:15:00,574 --> 00:15:02,667
and whenever anyone got a question
wrong,

279
00:15:02,686 --> 00:15:04,534
you would hear,
"Quack, quack, oops."

280
00:15:06,334 --> 00:15:08,545
And I don't know why, but that sound
used to really depress me.

281
00:15:10,110 --> 00:15:11,938
It was the Sunday-ness of it,
I suppose.

282
00:15:13,212 --> 00:15:14,743
Big arguments with my brothers

283
00:15:14,782 --> 00:15:18,954
about whose turn it was
to tape songs from the Top 40.

284
00:15:19,070 --> 00:15:21,640
You'd get a C-90, put it in the
stereo,

285
00:15:21,780 --> 00:15:24,261
and you'd hover with your finger
over the pause button,

286
00:15:25,150 --> 00:15:26,627
ready to cut out all
the bits of

287
00:15:26,628 --> 00:15:28,916
Gary Davies or Peter
Powell, or whoever it was.

288
00:15:32,254 --> 00:15:34,736
Anyway, none of this
will mean anything to you, will it?

289
00:15:36,252 --> 00:15:38,635
I just... I want you to have
some sense of who I was.

290
00:15:40,766 --> 00:15:44,016
After breakfast in bed, we went to
the hospital for your 18-week scan.

291
00:15:44,094 --> 00:15:45,914
It was the miserable
Norwegian woman again.

292
00:15:46,654 --> 00:15:47,771
The Valkyrie.

293
00:15:49,470 --> 00:15:53,103
We asked if we could find out
whether you were... a boy or a girl,

294
00:15:53,156 --> 00:15:55,555
and she didn't want to tell us at
first, but...

295
00:15:56,830 --> 00:15:58,252
..after we explained...

296
00:16:03,422 --> 00:16:04,438
it turns out...

297
00:16:07,390 --> 00:16:08,398
you're a girl.

298
00:16:16,286 --> 00:16:17,614
My beautiful angel.

299
00:16:20,463 --> 00:16:23,557
As we came out of antenatal,
we bumped into Dr Wesley,

300
00:16:23,619 --> 00:16:27,065
who did my last biopsy. We told him...
the good news.

301
00:16:28,092 --> 00:16:30,449
"Congratulations," he said,
"do you have a name?"

302
00:16:31,966 --> 00:16:34,754
"Yes," said your mum.
"It's Doreen, after Aidan's mother."

303
00:16:36,830 --> 00:16:38,471
"That's a very fine name," he said.

304
00:16:39,902 --> 00:16:41,019
"When's the big day?"

305
00:16:42,526 --> 00:16:43,894
I said, "Hers or mine?"

306
00:16:46,110 --> 00:16:47,602
And he didn't laugh.

307
00:16:49,630 --> 00:16:51,036
Quack, quack, oops.

308
00:16:54,817 --> 00:16:57,192
"She's due at the end of May,
and I'm due in the middle of March."

309
00:16:59,870 --> 00:17:01,464
"Ah," he said.

310
00:17:02,174 --> 00:17:03,206
"Rotten luck."

311
00:17:08,382 --> 00:17:13,265
? Amazing grace

312
00:17:13,630 --> 00:17:17,982
? How sweet the sound

313
00:17:18,252 --> 00:17:22,900
? That saved a wretch

314
00:17:23,102 --> 00:17:27,454
? Like me

315
00:17:27,774 --> 00:17:32,204
? I once was lost

316
00:17:32,532 --> 00:17:37,259
? But now I'm found

317
00:17:37,572 --> 00:17:40,127
? Was blind

318
00:17:40,212 --> 00:17:46,345
? But now I see

319
00:17:46,910 --> 00:17:51,777
? 'Twas grace that taught

320
00:17:51,972 --> 00:17:56,066
? My heart to fear

321
00:17:56,318 --> 00:17:58,542
? And grace

322
00:17:58,750 --> 00:18:04,734
? My fears relieved

323
00:18:05,172 --> 00:18:09,149
? How precious did

324
00:18:09,374 --> 00:18:13,460
? That grace appear

325
00:18:13,854 --> 00:18:22,187
? The hour I first believed

326
00:18:23,454 --> 00:18:27,985
? Amazing grace

327
00:18:28,190 --> 00:18:32,346
? How sweet the sound

328
00:18:32,542 --> 00:18:36,933
? That saved a wretch

329
00:18:37,092 --> 00:18:42,154
? Like me

330
00:18:42,372 --> 00:18:46,786
? I once was lost

331
00:18:47,070 --> 00:18:51,492
? But now I'm found

332
00:18:51,709 --> 00:18:53,975
? Was blind

333
00:18:54,280 --> 00:19:04,424
? But now I see. ?

334
00:19:07,934 --> 00:19:10,325
I hope that's what you were looking
for.

335
00:19:15,422 --> 00:19:17,836
We've found a nice girl
to sing at the funeral.

336
00:19:18,750 --> 00:19:20,167
If she's available, that is.

337
00:19:20,222 --> 00:19:22,878
You can't book one in
like you can a Caesarean.

338
00:19:25,022 --> 00:19:27,335
I've already lasted a lot longer
than they said I would.

339
00:19:28,222 --> 00:19:29,894
It's the thought of you.

340
00:19:31,102 --> 00:19:35,463
The tiny chance of seeing your arrival
in the world is keeping me going.

341
00:19:36,990 --> 00:19:40,060
Your mum is being a rock, as always.

342
00:19:41,594 --> 00:19:42,684
I've been trying to persuade her

343
00:19:42,754 --> 00:19:45,153
to sign up to one
of these dating sites, but she...

344
00:19:45,732 --> 00:19:46,818
..she won't hear of it.

345
00:19:49,150 --> 00:19:49,986
You know, I...

346
00:19:52,030 --> 00:19:54,085
..I said in my first video...

347
00:19:55,870 --> 00:19:57,104
Second video?

348
00:19:59,652 --> 00:20:00,699
I can't remember.

349
00:20:01,182 --> 00:20:02,886
..er, that I would die for you.

350
00:20:04,702 --> 00:20:06,780
Well, it looks like I'm going
to make good on that promise.

351
00:20:08,455 --> 00:20:09,518
But what I...

352
00:20:10,270 --> 00:20:11,684
..what I really meant was I...

353
00:20:13,092 --> 00:20:14,553
..I would kill for you.

354
00:20:16,606 --> 00:20:19,192
If it were necessary,
if it meant keeping you safe.

355
00:20:26,412 --> 00:20:29,814
There are so many good people
in the world...

356
00:20:31,262 --> 00:20:33,204
..protecting you, wishing you well.

357
00:20:33,950 --> 00:20:35,552
But there are some bad ones, too.

358
00:20:35,609 --> 00:20:36,187
And, er,

359
00:20:36,845 --> 00:20:39,259
when you look back on these
messages, if you do...

360
00:20:46,302 --> 00:20:47,443
..then know this.

361
00:20:48,492 --> 00:20:51,008
I'm... here.

362
00:20:52,766 --> 00:20:54,078
Inside here.

363
00:20:58,459 --> 00:20:59,686
I...always will be.

364
00:21:03,390 --> 00:21:05,007
Goodnight, my angel.

365
00:21:10,430 --> 00:21:13,008
Hi, guys, it's Angel here

366
00:21:13,092 --> 00:21:16,358
with a live - get this - live
AMA vlog,

367
00:21:16,574 --> 00:21:19,145
which means you get to ask me
any burning questions

368
00:21:19,230 --> 00:21:21,637
and I will do my best
to give you honest answers.

369
00:21:21,694 --> 00:21:23,382
So let's dive straight in

370
00:21:23,422 --> 00:21:25,624
and see if anyone's been quick
off the mark.

371
00:21:25,692 --> 00:21:29,400
Yes! Briony Watkins -
hi, Briony! - Asks,

372
00:21:29,772 --> 00:21:34,642
"Harry Potter, Ron Weasley,
Draco Malfoy - snog, marry, avoid."

373
00:21:34,757 --> 00:21:37,950
Oh, my days, I love these! OK, so...

374
00:21:38,462 --> 00:21:42,012
Snog Draco, because we all know
I love a bad boy!

375
00:21:42,252 --> 00:21:43,393
Marry...

376
00:21:43,582 --> 00:21:45,775
Harry, because he's steady and
sensible,

377
00:21:45,886 --> 00:21:48,722
and let's face it, girls,
he's head of the company,

378
00:21:48,894 --> 00:21:50,308
which means avoid Ron.

379
00:21:50,430 --> 00:21:52,345
Soz, Ron, babes.
I'm not ginge-ist or anything

380
00:21:52,478 --> 00:21:53,920
and I would have an affair with you
on the side

381
00:21:53,951 --> 00:21:57,248
as long as Harry and Hermione
never found out, obvs!

382
00:21:57,947 --> 00:22:00,517
Maddiepops - hi! - Asks,

383
00:22:00,744 --> 00:22:03,768
"How do you keep such a positive
attitude all the time?

384
00:22:03,870 --> 00:22:07,542
"You're awesome."
Aw, thank you, Mads!

385
00:22:07,812 --> 00:22:12,127
Well, as you lot know,
my attitude is #YOLO,

386
00:22:12,190 --> 00:22:15,948
#KYHIG - Keep Your Head In The Game.

387
00:22:16,030 --> 00:22:18,600
And that last one is so important

388
00:22:18,654 --> 00:22:21,749
because, being an influencer,
especially in here,

389
00:22:21,790 --> 00:22:23,306
can mess with your head so much

390
00:22:23,390 --> 00:22:25,742
that you just have to drown out
all the negative shit

391
00:22:26,014 --> 00:22:27,755
and tune into the positive, yeah?

392
00:22:28,254 --> 00:22:29,427
One love.

393
00:22:29,818 --> 00:22:32,685
Right, I have got to skip
to the loo, my darlings,

394
00:22:32,763 --> 00:22:34,849
but please, please keep firing
all your Qs at me

395
00:22:34,927 --> 00:22:37,158
and I will get my As in gear
as soon as I get back!

396
00:22:37,214 --> 00:22:39,173
You get me? See you in a bit!

397
00:22:48,252 --> 00:22:49,471
Well, now...

398
00:22:50,590 --> 00:22:52,785
..would you at look what we got
here?

399
00:22:53,470 --> 00:22:55,879
A whole bunch of people asking
questions.

400
00:22:56,414 --> 00:22:58,625
Kinda puts me
in mind of being back on trial.

401
00:22:59,550 --> 00:23:02,430
"Why'd you kill them people, Galen?
Why, why, why?"

402
00:23:03,262 --> 00:23:04,590
You know what I said?

403
00:23:05,502 --> 00:23:09,846
"It wasn't me, "it was the voices
in my head done told me to do it."

404
00:23:12,132 --> 00:23:15,476
Yeah, I played the crazy card,
and they believed it.

405
00:23:15,998 --> 00:23:18,756
I sat in my prison cell
playing with my own poop

406
00:23:18,757 --> 00:23:20,662
like a
big dumbass retard

407
00:23:20,717 --> 00:23:23,201
till they said I could go
to a mental institution.

408
00:23:24,510 --> 00:23:26,775
The judge said I was as much
a victim

409
00:23:26,814 --> 00:23:28,986
as those poor folks I'd slaughtered.

410
00:23:30,206 --> 00:23:31,956
Ain't that a kick in the head?

411
00:23:33,470 --> 00:23:36,439
So I thought I'd take advantage
of the somewhat lax security

412
00:23:36,501 --> 00:23:38,613
in my place of incarceration...

413
00:23:39,580 --> 00:23:41,510
..and come and visit my Angel.

414
00:23:43,262 --> 00:23:46,285
She promised to give me
a piece of her mind...

415
00:23:47,652 --> 00:23:48,986
..and I'm here to collect.

416
00:23:49,470 --> 00:23:51,579
Do you recognise
this man, Galen?

417
00:23:53,054 --> 00:23:55,216
The man in the photograph?

418
00:24:00,926 --> 00:24:02,785
No, I do not.

419
00:24:03,742 --> 00:24:05,539
He look like
he done fell out the ugly tree

420
00:24:05,726 --> 00:24:08,351
and hit every branch on the way
down.

421
00:24:08,798 --> 00:24:10,043
Look again.

422
00:24:11,230 --> 00:24:14,028
Do you think Nadia knows who it is?

423
00:24:16,932 --> 00:24:18,534
Sorry, what...

424
00:24:19,102 --> 00:24:19,946
..what did you say?

425
00:24:20,446 --> 00:24:24,602
The man in the
photograph. Do you recognise him?

426
00:24:30,750 --> 00:24:34,820
? Amazing Grace

427
00:24:34,910 --> 00:24:37,371
- ? How sweet
- Nadia...

428
00:24:37,470 --> 00:24:40,931
- ? the sound that...
- Diana... ?

429
00:24:40,990 --> 00:24:46,053
Diana, have you realised that your
name has the same letters as Nadia's?

430
00:24:46,174 --> 00:24:48,291
And the same as Aidan?

431
00:24:48,862 --> 00:24:51,085
Nadia, Diana, Aidan,

432
00:24:51,132 --> 00:24:53,288
they're all anagrams of each other.

433
00:24:53,342 --> 00:24:56,881
Like Angel and Galen,
two sides of the same coin.

434
00:24:57,132 --> 00:24:59,288
They're all part of you, Nadia.

435
00:24:59,550 --> 00:25:04,181
And the man in the photograph,
William Ryland, is your father.

436
00:25:04,350 --> 00:25:05,827
When you were four years old,

437
00:25:05,892 --> 00:25:10,439
you repeatedly witnessed your father
beat your mother in a drunken rage.

438
00:25:10,814 --> 00:25:13,416
When he found out
she was going to leave him,

439
00:25:13,572 --> 00:25:17,939
he attacked her so savagely
that she later died in hospital.

440
00:25:18,622 --> 00:25:20,751
This severe trauma created

441
00:25:20,892 --> 00:25:23,533
a subconscious psychological
defence mechanism

442
00:25:23,550 --> 00:25:26,628
we call dissociative identity
disorder.

443
00:25:26,688 --> 00:25:30,314
Your mind split
into these different personalities.

444
00:25:30,654 --> 00:25:33,256
Diana is the child who remembers,

445
00:25:33,372 --> 00:25:34,997
but who was repeatedly told...

446
00:25:35,134 --> 00:25:36,890
You haven't seen anything,
right?

447
00:25:37,182 --> 00:25:40,742
Singing to herself
to drown out her mother's screams.

448
00:25:41,412 --> 00:25:44,896
Galen is the persecutor,
an introject of the abuser

449
00:25:44,990 --> 00:25:47,388
who holds all the self-hatred
and negativity

450
00:25:47,742 --> 00:25:50,919
so the other parts of the personal
system are not aware of them.

451
00:25:51,390 --> 00:25:54,530
And what thanks do I get? None.

452
00:25:54,910 --> 00:25:57,715
Angel and Aidan are the protectors,

453
00:25:57,918 --> 00:26:02,428
Angel tries to influence the system
to fight back against the abuse.

454
00:26:03,166 --> 00:26:05,252
Aidan acts as a caretaker,

455
00:26:05,350 --> 00:26:08,583
a constant source of love and
reassurance.

456
00:26:08,990 --> 00:26:10,653
My beautiful angel.

457
00:26:10,718 --> 00:26:12,741
There may be other fragments
of personalities

458
00:26:12,780 --> 00:26:14,397
living in the same system.

459
00:26:14,652 --> 00:26:17,037
This is why I asked you
to use the video recorder,

460
00:26:17,310 --> 00:26:18,826
to help bring them all out.

461
00:26:19,422 --> 00:26:20,670
And you.

462
00:26:21,708 --> 00:26:22,968
You're part of the system.

463
00:26:23,070 --> 00:26:24,711
I am the gatekeeper.

464
00:26:24,862 --> 00:26:27,510
I try to control the switching
of the personalities

465
00:26:27,678 --> 00:26:30,524
so you can function
without breaking down completely.

466
00:26:30,686 --> 00:26:32,795
So that's why I have the
memory loss.

467
00:26:33,054 --> 00:26:33,874
Indeed.

468
00:26:34,270 --> 00:26:36,270
But when you discovered
your father was coming

469
00:26:36,271 --> 00:26:38,583
out of prison,
the trauma resurfaced.

470
00:26:38,814 --> 00:26:41,345
And when we found him
online, I was like...

471
00:26:41,694 --> 00:26:46,249
#Amazeballs! Let's contact him
and invite him over."

472
00:26:48,612 --> 00:26:51,846
Are you sure
this is a good idea, my angel?

473
00:26:56,606 --> 00:26:58,012
What are we gonna do?

474
00:26:58,812 --> 00:27:05,120
? O mio babbino caro

475
00:27:05,950 --> 00:27:13,114
? Mi piace, e bello, bello

476
00:27:13,246 --> 00:27:18,254
? Vo' andare in Porta Rossa... ?

477
00:27:18,494 --> 00:27:20,267
Hello, pleased to meet you,
I'm Bill.

478
00:27:20,338 --> 00:27:21,604
Oh, come in.

479
00:27:21,758 --> 00:27:25,727
Thanks. Bit parky out there today.

480
00:27:26,814 --> 00:27:28,572
- Through there?
- Yeah, just through there.

481
00:27:30,270 --> 00:27:32,931
Have you come far?
Wandsworth, not too bad.

482
00:27:33,470 --> 00:27:34,610
It's a nice place.

483
00:27:35,172 --> 00:27:37,899
- You live here on your own?
- No, with my husband and daughter.

484
00:27:38,334 --> 00:27:39,521
Can I take your coat?

485
00:27:39,678 --> 00:27:41,256
Um, yeah, sure.

486
00:27:43,710 --> 00:27:44,913
Thanks.

487
00:27:46,846 --> 00:27:50,211
Er... You didn't say in your e-mail
you were married.

488
00:27:51,070 --> 00:27:52,281
It's, er...

489
00:27:53,246 --> 00:27:54,129
..well,

490
00:27:54,782 --> 00:27:56,910
not what I expected, that's all.

491
00:27:58,174 --> 00:28:00,080
But still, if you're comfortable
with it.

492
00:28:00,150 --> 00:28:07,715
? Mi struggo e mi tormento! ?

493
00:28:08,094 --> 00:28:12,602
O Dio

494
00:28:12,734 --> 00:28:18,491
? Vorrei morir

495
00:28:20,652 --> 00:28:24,043
? Babbo, pieta

496
00:28:24,350 --> 00:28:30,709
? Pieta!

497
00:28:31,526 --> 00:28:35,456
? Babbo, pieta

498
00:28:36,132 --> 00:28:41,936
? Pieta. ?

499
00:28:43,584 --> 00:28:49,404
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