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I'm Alyssa.

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I'm 19.

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And I thought I'd already had
the shittest day of my life.

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You look like a princess.

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But this is actually worse.

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www.subtitulamos.tv

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I got community service for what I did,

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which wasn't as bad as
going back to school.

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It's not easy, what comes
after something like that.

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It's like you become a shit celebrity.

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You become someone else.

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Even to yourself.

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But you can't go back
to who you were before.

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I think my mum found what happened
to me even worse than I did.

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... children. Please, Tony!
Please don't leave me!

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I've kicked Tony out.

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She hadn't.

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Mum went genuinely a bit mad after that.

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She started talking about
herself in the third person.

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I think Gwen needs a nap.

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Okay.

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It was too much,
us staying there,

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in that house, that town.

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So we took the twins and left.

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It meant missing the end of school,
but Mum said that was okay.

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You can finish it later. Or get a job.

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Or marry someone rich.

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Sorry.

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We went to live with my aunt,
Leigh, Mum's half-sister.

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She runs a cafe and she
doesn't trust deodorant

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because of breast cancer.

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I like her.

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She said we could stay at her
place for as long as we wanted.

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He'll come back to me someday!

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We've been here over a year now.

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I don't think she meant that long.

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It's good that Mum has
someone else to talk to.

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Good for me.

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It makes it easier for me to be okay.

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And, actually, I am okay.

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I don't really feel anything any more.

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It's good not feeling.

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It's like a superpower.

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Leigh gave me a job,

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mainly so that I had
something to do, I think.

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This is what you might call irony.

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See if Marvin can make a banana
split for me, you fucking cu...

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What can I get you?

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Is that your real name?

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You know it is.

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Billy's Leigh's foster son.

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It's shit.

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He's a sweet kid.

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Okay.

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Work's boring.

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But I did meet Todd there.

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Hiya.

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He teaches canoeing to kids

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and he has quite
strong opinions.

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You know Finland?

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Doesn't actually exist.

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It's a fabricated landmass

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made up by the Russians in the Cold War.

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Right.

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Is this a date?

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Yeah.

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Cool.

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He's kind of like a dog.

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In a good way.

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He's also a really good kisser.

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My aunt's got a cabin by the lake.

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Cool.

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Sex is actually all
right, it turned out.

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It's not such a big deal.

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I told him about everything.

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Shit.

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Yeah.

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Do you like chicken fajitas?

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He gets it.

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Do you wanna get married?

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Yeah, fuck it, why not?

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Exactly. Fuck it.

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My mum's pretty excited
about the wedding.

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She's really thrown herself
into the whole thing.

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- Why are we dong this again?
- What, love?

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The wedding's tomorrow. It fits.

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It fit fine before.

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Now...

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it's perfect.

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Getting married young is one
of the most renegade things

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you can do these days.

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Mum's using Tony's divorce
money to pay for it,

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which is also pretty maverick.

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And I'm happy.

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For the first time in
ages, I'm really happy.

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Getting a bullet in the
post should be threatening,

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but it's hard to feel frightened

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of someone who can't
spell your name right.

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And clearly doesn't know where you live.

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Excuse me.

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You thought about killing yourself?

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What?

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I said, is there service included?

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Oh, no, don't worry about it.

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- Keep the change.
- Thanks.

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Do you know whose car that is?

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No.

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Why?

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I dunno.

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Nothing.

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I used to be really good at knowing
when someone was watching me.

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But now I'm not sure.

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I'm probably just being paranoid.

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- I'll be in the office.
- Okay.

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Oi!

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What the fuck?

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Who are you?

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Oh, my God.

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_

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_

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It was a fitting end.

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A doomed love story.

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A perfect tragedy.

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And then I didn't die.

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I was under 24-hour police surveillance

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as I waited for a court date.

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Are you gonna eat that?

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No.

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Do you, er... Do you mind?

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No.

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Where's Alyssa?

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Alyssa and I weren't
allowed to see each other.

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Not at all.

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But I thought about her all the time.

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Hello, James. I've got some
results to discuss with you.

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Would you like your dad?

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My dad's response to me
being shot was to eat or cry.

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Quite often at the same time.

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Sorry, James.

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No, that's all right.

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Fine.

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Well...

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as you know,
James, the inflammation...

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The bullet had done
quite a lot of damage.

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She talked about my injuries,

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about complications

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and things taking time...

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and long roads ahead.

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But in many ways, James, you
have been extremely lucky.

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I didn't feel lucky.

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Okay.

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I felt like I was being punished.

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And maybe I deserved it.

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James?

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I'd never met Alyssa's mum before.

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At first, she seemed quite nice.

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How are you?

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I'm okay.

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- Would you like a yoghurt?
- No, thank you.

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- How's Alyssa?
- You need to break up with her.

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What?

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The thing is, it's your fault, isn't it?

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What happened. I'm
sure you didn't mean it,

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but you've ruined her life.

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You've ruined everything.

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Sorry.

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What can you offer her...

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like... this? No offence.

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It was quite hard not to take offence.

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Are you going to be able to walk again?

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Think so.

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And they say you're going
to prison. Is that right?

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I don't know.

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Probably.

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If you loved her, you'd let her go.

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It's like that song.

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I didn't know the song
she was talking about,

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but I had a feeling she might be right.

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I thought you could write her a letter.

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I don't want to.

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Well, she needs to move on and
you're no good for her. I'm...

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I'm sorry,

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but that's the truth.

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The truth was something
I'd been trying to ignore.

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And the harsher, the better.
You know how stubborn she is.

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I've got a stamp.

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I had a feeling that
Alyssa got the letter...

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because I never
heard from her again.

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On the upside,

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after a number of operations,

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I was able to start
learning to walk again.

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And I didn't go to prison after all.

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Get in!

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The jury agreed I was
acting in defence of another

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and found me not guilty of murder.

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The videotape definitely helped.

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But I was given a suspended sentence

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for various other misdemeanours.

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I wanted to give my dad
some money for his new car.

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But he wouldn't let me.

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It's funny, the way
people lie to be kind.

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I think this is actually nicer to drive.

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After I nearly died,

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Dad signed up for an
online parenting course.

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He started talking about his feelings.

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I really value us
spending time together.

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Yeah.

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I'm proud of you.

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Thank you.

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I think we should do
more activities together.

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Okay.

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Bowling did seem slightly ambitious,

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given that I'd only recently
got the use of my legs back.

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This is brilliant, innit?

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Yeah!

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I did it!

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But in the end, it wasn't
me I should've worried about.

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I never went back inside our house.

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I couldn't even walk up the drive.

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There was too much sadness in there.

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Thank you.

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In a strange way,

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the bullet gave me a new lease of life.

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A reason to see Alyssa again.

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To check that she was okay.

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To see her again.

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Hello?

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It's strange,

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when someone's very important

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and you haven't seen
them for a long time,

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as soon as you do,
it's easier to breathe.

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I wanted to go and talk to her.

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But then I realised that it
was okay if I just watched her.

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Watched out for her.

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Because you have to be
vigilant with people.

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And I hadn't been.

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Alyssa was my only person left.

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Shit. Shit.

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Shit, shit, shit.

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Shit.

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Oi!

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Who are you?

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Oh, my God.

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Hey.

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For fuck's sake.

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