1 00:00:00,388 --> 00:00:01,746 Previously on The Affair... 2 00:00:01,773 --> 00:00:04,062 I don't want to have to pay the rent by myself every month. 3 00:00:04,089 --> 00:00:05,875 Let's just go get married at city hall tonight. 4 00:00:05,902 --> 00:00:08,289 I want a wedding, at my grandparents' house. 5 00:00:08,316 --> 00:00:09,812 Whitney, this marriage thing, 6 00:00:09,839 --> 00:00:10,921 you don't have to do it, you know. 7 00:00:10,948 --> 00:00:13,116 But, actually, Dad, I do, because if I don't, 8 00:00:13,143 --> 00:00:14,479 then Colin has to leave the country. 9 00:00:14,506 --> 00:00:18,226 I'm desperate for a date to my opening tomorrow. 10 00:00:18,523 --> 00:00:20,732 - Dashiell Boucicault. - Hi. 11 00:00:21,381 --> 00:00:23,334 He likes to watch. 12 00:00:23,529 --> 00:00:25,335 He could give you a gallery. 13 00:00:25,821 --> 00:00:28,494 - I'm married. - Thank you for finally telling me. 14 00:00:28,578 --> 00:00:30,382 - That's it? - What do you want me to say? 15 00:00:30,409 --> 00:00:32,851 - Doesn't matter. You love me, too. - Oh, it does matter. 16 00:00:33,642 --> 00:00:35,213 And I don't forgive you. 17 00:00:35,500 --> 00:00:38,460 And how can I tell you I love you? I don't even know you. 18 00:00:51,180 --> 00:00:52,764 You're working so calmly 19 00:00:52,848 --> 00:00:54,883 in the place where your mother died. 20 00:00:55,259 --> 00:00:56,695 You were right. 21 00:00:56,722 --> 00:00:58,223 She died at the jetty. 22 00:00:58,489 --> 00:01:00,711 Why was your dad obsessing about a Marine 23 00:01:00,738 --> 00:01:02,313 named Benjamin Cruz? 24 00:01:02,641 --> 00:01:03,976 I think he killed her. 25 00:02:09,800 --> 00:02:19,961 www.subtitulamos.tv 26 00:02:21,350 --> 00:02:25,283 _ 27 00:03:25,161 --> 00:03:27,425 Thank God you're here. 28 00:03:27,509 --> 00:03:30,430 Your grandfather's been driving me bonkers. 29 00:03:31,768 --> 00:03:33,180 - Noah. - Margaret. 30 00:03:33,264 --> 00:03:35,099 - Where's Helen? - Oh, I told you, Grandma. 31 00:03:35,183 --> 00:03:36,809 She couldn't come. She had to work. 32 00:03:36,893 --> 00:03:38,206 Well, that's just disgusting. 33 00:03:38,290 --> 00:03:40,020 I don't think so. 34 00:03:40,104 --> 00:03:41,241 Well, of course it is. 35 00:03:41,325 --> 00:03:42,587 This is your wedding. 36 00:03:42,671 --> 00:03:45,651 What could be more important than your wedding, Whitney? 37 00:03:45,735 --> 00:03:47,857 I swear I brought your mother up better than that. 38 00:03:47,941 --> 00:03:49,947 I really did. 39 00:03:50,031 --> 00:03:52,180 Oh, well. She's a lost cause. 40 00:03:52,264 --> 00:03:54,786 You're my only hope for happiness now. 41 00:03:55,495 --> 00:03:56,674 Ugh. Come upstairs. 42 00:03:56,701 --> 00:03:59,330 I've laid out all the bridal magazines. 43 00:03:59,423 --> 00:04:00,915 Noah, take Whitney's things to the blue room. 44 00:04:00,942 --> 00:04:02,303 You're in the basement. 45 00:04:02,475 --> 00:04:04,632 Oh, and see if you can find Bruce. 46 00:04:04,659 --> 00:04:06,059 He'd be thrilled to see you. 47 00:04:13,111 --> 00:04:15,931 Hey. Hey, Bruce. 48 00:04:16,460 --> 00:04:18,072 - Hi. - H-Hello. 49 00:04:21,221 --> 00:04:22,392 Who are you? 50 00:04:23,516 --> 00:04:24,697 Uh, Noah. 51 00:04:26,442 --> 00:04:28,287 Noah. N-Noah Solloway? 52 00:04:28,314 --> 00:04:29,435 I'm your ex... 53 00:04:29,462 --> 00:04:33,073 Oh, oh. Yes, of course. I'm so sorry. Uh, Bruce Butler. 54 00:04:33,157 --> 00:04:35,576 Margaret told me you were coming. 55 00:04:35,660 --> 00:04:36,926 The writer. Uh... 56 00:04:37,122 --> 00:04:39,364 She says you've published multiple books. 57 00:04:39,504 --> 00:04:40,520 That's right, yeah. 58 00:04:40,690 --> 00:04:42,583 Wow, that's impressive. 59 00:04:43,864 --> 00:04:46,155 You know, there's a great expression. 60 00:04:46,239 --> 00:04:47,692 Uh... 61 00:04:48,382 --> 00:04:51,247 "No one has one book in him, but..." 62 00:04:53,344 --> 00:04:55,841 I think it's, "Everyone has one book in them. 63 00:04:55,868 --> 00:04:57,542 Almost nobody has two." 64 00:05:01,223 --> 00:05:02,812 That's not very nice. 65 00:05:03,137 --> 00:05:06,254 Uh, you know, I always wanted to be a writer. 66 00:05:06,500 --> 00:05:09,297 But there never seemed to be enough hours in the day. 67 00:05:09,501 --> 00:05:10,836 Yeah... 68 00:05:10,863 --> 00:05:13,653 Are you hungry? I was craving some, uh, 69 00:05:13,864 --> 00:05:15,407 some of these, uh... 70 00:05:15,548 --> 00:05:16,841 - some of these... - Here. 71 00:05:16,868 --> 00:05:18,327 Bruce, let-let me make those for you. 72 00:05:18,411 --> 00:05:19,957 No. No, no, you're our guest. 73 00:05:19,991 --> 00:05:22,965 You know... No, no. You... have-have some coffee. 74 00:05:24,536 --> 00:05:27,503 I have no idea how to use that machine. 75 00:05:27,587 --> 00:05:29,255 Sure, I'll make some. 76 00:05:30,807 --> 00:05:32,164 Um, are you, uh, 77 00:05:33,136 --> 00:05:34,688 you married? 78 00:05:35,992 --> 00:05:38,384 Uh, no. Divorced. 79 00:05:39,066 --> 00:05:40,406 Twice, actually. 80 00:05:40,433 --> 00:05:43,602 Well, that's probably why you have so much time to write. 81 00:05:43,686 --> 00:05:46,208 I'm more of a family man, myself. 82 00:05:47,587 --> 00:05:48,670 Bruce, no. 83 00:05:49,008 --> 00:05:50,641 - Bruce. - Oh, Jesus. 84 00:05:52,904 --> 00:05:53,985 It's okay. 85 00:05:54,446 --> 00:05:56,149 - No... - I just, I just wanted to... 86 00:05:56,176 --> 00:05:57,672 It's-it's all right, it's all right. Shh, shh. 87 00:06:00,327 --> 00:06:02,803 We're trying to set boundaries for Bruce. 88 00:06:02,997 --> 00:06:04,605 Some new expectations. 89 00:06:04,689 --> 00:06:06,159 While you're here, I'd appreciate it 90 00:06:06,243 --> 00:06:07,272 if you could help with that. 91 00:06:07,299 --> 00:06:08,654 I'm sorry. I didn't... I didn't know. 92 00:06:08,795 --> 00:06:10,004 Well, now you do. 93 00:06:12,365 --> 00:06:13,382 Hi. 94 00:06:14,607 --> 00:06:15,885 Ah. What are you doing here? 95 00:06:15,969 --> 00:06:19,805 - I'm getting married. - What? To this fellow? 96 00:06:19,889 --> 00:06:22,349 Why, Helly-Belly, that's fantastic. 97 00:06:22,433 --> 00:06:24,101 Does this mean that you've finally broken up 98 00:06:24,185 --> 00:06:25,912 with that kid from Pennsylvania? 99 00:06:25,939 --> 00:06:27,561 The-the one that was practically a mute? 100 00:06:27,647 --> 00:06:29,299 Bruce, t-this is Whitney. 101 00:06:29,326 --> 00:06:32,276 Helen is your daughter. This is your granddaughter. 102 00:06:33,065 --> 00:06:34,490 G-Granddaughter? 103 00:06:34,647 --> 00:06:35,967 I can't do this anymore. 104 00:06:35,994 --> 00:06:37,061 It's okay. Margaret, it's okay. 105 00:06:37,088 --> 00:06:38,574 Let's-let's focus on the wedding. Uh... 106 00:06:38,658 --> 00:06:40,770 Whitney has this huge agenda for us, 107 00:06:40,854 --> 00:06:42,411 and, uh, she needs your help. 108 00:06:42,495 --> 00:06:44,084 Uh, that's right, Grandma. 109 00:06:44,842 --> 00:06:47,050 Um, I need to decide on a florist. 110 00:06:47,134 --> 00:06:49,630 I've narrowed it down to three, but I'm sure you'll have an opinion. 111 00:06:50,373 --> 00:06:52,212 Um, I need to figure out a caterer. 112 00:06:52,296 --> 00:06:54,131 I wanted to find somebody who could do vegan options. 113 00:06:54,158 --> 00:06:55,722 I don't know if you know anybody. 114 00:06:55,811 --> 00:06:56,785 And... 115 00:06:56,936 --> 00:06:58,454 Oh, well, we already got a tent. 116 00:06:58,523 --> 00:07:01,026 Oh, that reminds me. The bill for the tent came. 117 00:07:03,573 --> 00:07:05,076 Margaret, I'm... 118 00:07:05,642 --> 00:07:06,844 I thought I was doing the catering, 119 00:07:06,929 --> 00:07:08,437 and you and Bruce were gonna pay for the tent. 120 00:07:08,464 --> 00:07:11,537 Noah, we can't pay for this. It's $20,000. 121 00:07:13,168 --> 00:07:14,240 We don't have any money. 122 00:07:14,267 --> 00:07:16,803 And whose fault is that, Marie Antoinette? 123 00:07:19,147 --> 00:07:22,506 Whitney, I just had a splendid idea. 124 00:07:22,590 --> 00:07:25,357 Why don't I call Dean at our tennis club? 125 00:07:25,470 --> 00:07:27,491 They do a marvelous brunch. 126 00:07:27,518 --> 00:07:30,793 And if we do the wedding reception outside of peak hours, 127 00:07:30,877 --> 00:07:34,029 I'm sure we can get a discount on the cabana. 128 00:07:34,231 --> 00:07:38,283 They have a waffle station and a make-your-own-omelette bar. 129 00:07:38,930 --> 00:07:40,344 Excuse me, please. 130 00:07:44,373 --> 00:07:47,348 Okay, M-Margaret, the-the wedding is happening here. 131 00:07:47,709 --> 00:07:49,436 Okay? So, if you want to help, 132 00:07:49,636 --> 00:07:52,122 help us figure out a way to make that happen. 133 00:07:56,624 --> 00:07:57,529 Hey. 134 00:08:01,616 --> 00:08:03,696 We can't afford a wedding, can we? 135 00:08:03,904 --> 00:08:06,279 No one can afford a wedding. Not really. 136 00:08:06,467 --> 00:08:07,724 We can figure it out. 137 00:08:07,808 --> 00:08:09,937 No, I-I need to get back to reality. 138 00:08:10,021 --> 00:08:11,223 I... Work has been crazy. 139 00:08:11,250 --> 00:08:12,683 I had to miss three days to be here. 140 00:08:12,710 --> 00:08:15,059 Andrea already wants to fucking kill me. 141 00:08:15,389 --> 00:08:16,934 It's fine. We'll just... 142 00:08:17,489 --> 00:08:19,249 we'll get married at city hall. 143 00:08:19,276 --> 00:08:21,543 Come on, Whitney. You've been talking about having a wedding 144 00:08:21,570 --> 00:08:23,747 in this house since before you were in braces. 145 00:08:23,774 --> 00:08:25,563 I already found a red-eye that we can get on tonight. 146 00:08:25,590 --> 00:08:27,040 It has seats available. 147 00:08:27,225 --> 00:08:28,609 Give me six hours. 148 00:08:28,636 --> 00:08:30,318 Okay? Let's at least try. 149 00:08:30,373 --> 00:08:32,132 Then if you still want to go to city hall, 150 00:08:32,186 --> 00:08:33,553 then we'll go to city hall. 151 00:08:33,580 --> 00:08:35,035 Come on. Have you got a pen? 152 00:08:41,903 --> 00:08:43,531 Right. What's the first thing? 153 00:08:44,167 --> 00:08:45,282 Tent. 154 00:08:46,152 --> 00:08:48,235 Okay, I just received the last part of my advance, 155 00:08:48,319 --> 00:08:49,995 and I can't think of a better thing to spend it on. 156 00:08:50,079 --> 00:08:52,192 - Dad, no. - So that's that done. 157 00:08:52,276 --> 00:08:53,640 - Next? - Dad, you don't get it. 158 00:08:53,667 --> 00:08:56,624 A-A tent is no good if you don't have things to put in it. 159 00:08:56,708 --> 00:08:58,456 Backyard weddings are so expensive 160 00:08:58,483 --> 00:09:01,854 because you have to pay for every single little thing. See? 161 00:09:05,073 --> 00:09:06,261 Okay. 162 00:09:06,546 --> 00:09:08,506 Let's start with plates. 163 00:09:10,596 --> 00:09:12,498 Well, this house has got to have plenty of those. 164 00:09:13,737 --> 00:09:17,624 I always hoped your mother would inherit this, 165 00:09:17,651 --> 00:09:19,390 but she insists on feeding you all 166 00:09:19,417 --> 00:09:22,002 from earthenware as if she grew up on a riverbank. 167 00:09:22,143 --> 00:09:23,377 But no matter, 168 00:09:23,404 --> 00:09:25,204 because now it'll go to someone who appreciates it. 169 00:09:25,288 --> 00:09:28,033 - Thank you, Grandma. - This is helpful. 170 00:09:28,581 --> 00:09:29,927 Thanks. What's next? 171 00:09:30,167 --> 00:09:32,999 Oh, I have an appointment at an East Hampton bridal boutique at two, 172 00:09:33,026 --> 00:09:34,679 but it's crazy expensive. 173 00:09:34,706 --> 00:09:37,418 - I think we should cancel it. - You don't have a dress yet? 174 00:09:37,502 --> 00:09:39,211 Perfect. Come on, let's go. 175 00:09:39,721 --> 00:09:41,552 Oh, Margaret, can we borrow your car? 176 00:09:41,636 --> 00:09:43,007 Only if Whitney drives. 177 00:09:43,175 --> 00:09:45,245 - Why? - Because the last time you drove 178 00:09:45,272 --> 00:09:47,829 a car in Montauk, you killed Scott Lockhart. 179 00:09:57,093 --> 00:09:59,298 So, what do you want to do about music? 180 00:09:59,534 --> 00:10:01,042 You want dancing, right? 181 00:10:01,442 --> 00:10:03,569 Honestly, I kind of wanted a flash mob. 182 00:10:04,096 --> 00:10:06,327 - What? - You know, a flash mob? 183 00:10:06,354 --> 00:10:08,940 It's, like, a surprise dance, but everyone knows the steps. 184 00:10:09,386 --> 00:10:11,909 How could everybody know the steps to a surprise dance? 185 00:10:11,936 --> 00:10:14,428 Because somebody teaches them ahead of time, and it's like a... 186 00:10:15,350 --> 00:10:16,467 Never mind. 187 00:10:19,434 --> 00:10:20,996 Oh, look. 188 00:10:23,357 --> 00:10:26,010 We have to stop and see what they've done to the Lobster Roll. 189 00:10:26,037 --> 00:10:28,080 No, Whit-Whitney, we don't have time. 190 00:10:28,107 --> 00:10:30,201 Yes, we do. Come on. It'll be hilarious. 191 00:10:53,840 --> 00:10:55,300 Hi, we okay here? 192 00:10:59,232 --> 00:11:01,490 - Not as friendly as they used to be. - Yeah. 193 00:11:07,388 --> 00:11:10,302 Hey, remember when Stacey almost choked and Mom saved her? 194 00:11:11,144 --> 00:11:12,333 What? 195 00:11:12,584 --> 00:11:14,223 Yeah, you remember. We were sitting right there, 196 00:11:14,307 --> 00:11:15,709 and Trevor and Stacey were playing that game, 197 00:11:15,736 --> 00:11:17,849 and then Stacey put a marble in her mouth. 198 00:11:18,970 --> 00:11:21,162 No, it wasn't, uh, it wasn't your mom who saved her. 199 00:11:21,360 --> 00:11:22,935 It was, it was Alison. 200 00:11:24,225 --> 00:11:25,318 What? 201 00:11:25,694 --> 00:11:27,552 No, that's-that's not how I remember it at all. 202 00:11:27,579 --> 00:11:28,830 No, I'm pretty sure it was her. 203 00:11:28,857 --> 00:11:31,114 Stacey was choking and Alison was right there. 204 00:11:36,946 --> 00:11:38,909 So, was that the day you met Alison? 205 00:11:40,768 --> 00:11:42,027 Yeah, I think it was. 206 00:11:44,236 --> 00:11:47,245 So you bonded over the fact that Stacey almost choked to death? 207 00:11:48,636 --> 00:11:50,538 Whitney, if you ever want to talk about what happened 208 00:11:50,622 --> 00:11:51,813 - between Alison and me... - Yeah. 209 00:11:51,840 --> 00:11:53,898 Sure. I do, actually. Go ahead. 210 00:11:55,932 --> 00:11:58,475 Well, there's not... I didn't exactly have a prepared speech. 211 00:11:58,559 --> 00:11:59,685 - But if you... - Yeah. That's what I thought. 212 00:11:59,769 --> 00:12:01,890 No, I mean, if you want to ask questions about it... 213 00:12:01,917 --> 00:12:03,439 - Stop. - Noah? 214 00:12:04,605 --> 00:12:06,148 Luisa, hi. 215 00:12:06,245 --> 00:12:08,671 - Hey. - Hey, you remember Whitney, my daughter? 216 00:12:08,698 --> 00:12:10,180 Yeah, of course. Uh... 217 00:12:10,238 --> 00:12:11,718 I babysat you one summer at the Butlers'. 218 00:12:11,745 --> 00:12:13,157 I remember. Nice to see you. 219 00:12:13,241 --> 00:12:15,427 Yeah, we're in town planning Whitney's wedding, 220 00:12:15,511 --> 00:12:16,528 if you can believe it. 221 00:12:16,964 --> 00:12:19,383 Cool. Congratulations. 222 00:12:19,529 --> 00:12:20,628 Thank you. 223 00:12:21,124 --> 00:12:22,761 So this is different. 224 00:12:23,918 --> 00:12:24,918 Yeah. 225 00:12:25,128 --> 00:12:27,713 It's officially in the hands of the new owners now. 226 00:12:27,740 --> 00:12:30,267 I just came by to empty a few things out of the office. 227 00:12:31,698 --> 00:12:33,113 End of an era. 228 00:12:33,872 --> 00:12:34,874 Yep. 229 00:12:36,820 --> 00:12:38,405 I have to get going. 230 00:12:38,432 --> 00:12:40,349 What's, uh, what's next for you? 231 00:12:41,243 --> 00:12:43,272 I'm going back to New York. 232 00:12:43,645 --> 00:12:44,747 Really? 233 00:12:45,706 --> 00:12:48,608 I can't believe you got Cole to go to the city. 234 00:12:50,206 --> 00:12:51,663 We're separated, Noah. 235 00:12:51,967 --> 00:12:54,031 He and Joanie are moving to Vermont. 236 00:12:54,514 --> 00:12:57,842 This afternoon, actually, so I have to get going. 237 00:12:57,926 --> 00:12:59,819 Congratulations on your wedding. Good luck. 238 00:13:03,840 --> 00:13:05,081 I'll be right back. 239 00:13:05,108 --> 00:13:06,981 No, Dad, she doesn't want to talk to us. 240 00:13:10,310 --> 00:13:11,727 Hey, Luisa. 241 00:13:11,754 --> 00:13:14,182 I'm sorry if I offended you there. I had no idea. 242 00:13:14,209 --> 00:13:15,406 It's fine. 243 00:13:16,137 --> 00:13:18,066 That's terrible about you and Cole. 244 00:13:18,916 --> 00:13:21,107 Well, the writing was on the wall, wasn't it? 245 00:13:22,021 --> 00:13:24,832 Look, I was wondering, have you any idea when they're leaving? 246 00:13:24,916 --> 00:13:27,606 - Why? - 'Cause I want to see Joanie. 247 00:13:29,129 --> 00:13:32,008 You can't just waltz in and out of her life when it's convenient. 248 00:13:32,035 --> 00:13:35,407 I know that. I know that. I raised her as my own for two years. I care about her. 249 00:13:35,434 --> 00:13:37,520 Noah, I don't feel like getting in the middle of this. 250 00:13:37,547 --> 00:13:40,250 No, I understand. If you could just tell me when they're leaving, 251 00:13:40,277 --> 00:13:42,516 then I can swing by, and if Cole doesn't want me to see her, 252 00:13:42,543 --> 00:13:45,315 that's fine, I just, I don't want her to think I just disappeared. 253 00:13:46,977 --> 00:13:48,379 They're leaving at five. 254 00:13:48,489 --> 00:13:49,948 Thanks. 255 00:13:51,505 --> 00:13:53,707 I'm sorry about how it turned out here, and... 256 00:13:54,055 --> 00:13:55,942 I hope there are good things ahead. 257 00:13:56,955 --> 00:13:59,705 Noah, I babysat your kids. 258 00:14:00,200 --> 00:14:02,015 My mother worked at your house. 259 00:14:02,661 --> 00:14:04,277 Don't pretend we're friends. 260 00:14:16,988 --> 00:14:19,093 _ 261 00:14:23,913 --> 00:14:26,749 - Hey, can I get a menu, please? - You order on that. 262 00:14:42,385 --> 00:14:44,474 Hey, just-just pull over right here, will you? 263 00:14:44,558 --> 00:14:47,158 - What, here? - Yeah. Just for a second. 264 00:15:08,687 --> 00:15:10,500 You think these would look good in a bouquet? 265 00:15:10,584 --> 00:15:12,794 Uh, you know th... that's poison ivy, right? 266 00:15:12,878 --> 00:15:13,957 This is not poison ivy. 267 00:15:14,042 --> 00:15:15,886 Not the stuff you got in your hand, man. 268 00:15:16,265 --> 00:15:19,351 The three-leafed plants that are all around where you were secret gardening. 269 00:15:19,484 --> 00:15:21,452 Poison ivy doesn't grow in the winter. 270 00:15:21,742 --> 00:15:24,089 Oh, yeah. It definitely does. 271 00:15:25,327 --> 00:15:26,651 Oh, fuck. 272 00:15:34,137 --> 00:15:35,433 Yay. 273 00:15:35,609 --> 00:15:37,548 - Are you Mr. Solloway? - Yeah. Hi. 274 00:15:37,575 --> 00:15:40,572 Yeah, hi. They told me at the front that Whitney might be back here. 275 00:15:40,599 --> 00:15:43,244 - She sure is. Welcome. - Thank you. 276 00:15:46,778 --> 00:15:49,385 - Hi, Dad. - Hey, Whit. How's it going? 277 00:15:49,412 --> 00:15:50,371 Good. 278 00:15:50,895 --> 00:15:51,823 Oh, thanks. 279 00:15:51,907 --> 00:15:53,418 It is so cute that you're here. 280 00:15:53,502 --> 00:15:55,950 We almost never see dads in the shop. 281 00:15:56,850 --> 00:15:58,882 - What do you do? - He's a writer. 282 00:15:59,958 --> 00:16:01,687 Anything I'd know? 283 00:16:01,714 --> 00:16:02,939 I doubt it. 284 00:16:02,966 --> 00:16:06,451 He's being very modest. He has a movie coming out starring Sasha Mann. 285 00:16:06,948 --> 00:16:09,909 Sasha Mann? I fucking love Sasha Mann, wow. 286 00:16:10,675 --> 00:16:12,181 Hey, Hannah, could you come back here 287 00:16:12,265 --> 00:16:13,686 and give me a hand with these clamps? 288 00:16:13,856 --> 00:16:15,043 Coming. 289 00:16:27,995 --> 00:16:29,181 Okay... 290 00:16:43,189 --> 00:16:46,435 _ 291 00:16:46,462 --> 00:16:49,704 _ 292 00:16:53,168 --> 00:16:54,751 Well? 293 00:16:56,997 --> 00:16:58,582 What do you think? 294 00:17:01,109 --> 00:17:02,485 Oh, Whit. 295 00:17:03,181 --> 00:17:04,442 You're beautiful. 296 00:17:04,760 --> 00:17:06,126 Thanks, Dad. 297 00:17:06,492 --> 00:17:09,860 You guys are gonna make the cutest father-daughter ever. 298 00:17:11,110 --> 00:17:15,292 Whitney, it's 19, but I'll knock it down to 17 because it's... 299 00:17:15,376 --> 00:17:17,548 it's just so... it's perfect. 300 00:17:17,681 --> 00:17:19,077 Uh, wh... That's, uh... 301 00:17:20,005 --> 00:17:21,862 17, as in thousand? 302 00:17:21,946 --> 00:17:25,271 Mm, sometimes dads just need a little convincing. 303 00:17:25,298 --> 00:17:28,946 Do you mind pulling a few less expensive options? 304 00:17:29,328 --> 00:17:31,900 Uh, Lizzie! Can you come here a second? 305 00:17:34,439 --> 00:17:35,791 Sweetheart. 306 00:17:36,423 --> 00:17:40,525 You are front-cover Martha-Stewart gorgeous. 307 00:17:41,014 --> 00:17:42,474 - Isn't it perfect? - Mm-hm. 308 00:17:42,775 --> 00:17:43,817 Whitney thinks so, too. 309 00:17:43,901 --> 00:17:46,884 Actually, I was wondering if you could pull some cheaper options? 310 00:17:47,150 --> 00:17:48,599 Ah, she is such a doll. 311 00:17:48,626 --> 00:17:50,076 Is she your first to get married? 312 00:17:50,103 --> 00:17:51,661 Yeah. Yeah. 313 00:17:52,056 --> 00:17:55,071 Okay. So, like, what price range were you thinking? 314 00:17:56,868 --> 00:17:58,232 I-I don't know, I-I... 315 00:17:58,259 --> 00:17:59,625 He's a big screenwriter. 316 00:18:00,454 --> 00:18:02,214 He works with Sasha Mann. 317 00:18:02,298 --> 00:18:03,439 Really? 318 00:18:03,523 --> 00:18:05,649 Let me ask you something, Mr. Hollywood. 319 00:18:05,733 --> 00:18:07,761 When will there ever be a more important time 320 00:18:07,788 --> 00:18:10,056 to splurge than for your eldest daughter's wedding? 321 00:18:10,763 --> 00:18:12,938 She loves this dress. 322 00:18:14,571 --> 00:18:17,259 Look, maybe... maybe I can... 323 00:18:17,559 --> 00:18:19,945 Don't, Dad. It's okay. It's okay. I'm gonna change. 324 00:18:20,189 --> 00:18:22,571 I'm sorry, what, what's happening here? 325 00:18:22,598 --> 00:18:24,963 I didn't know the dresses were this expensive. I... 326 00:18:24,990 --> 00:18:26,749 I haven't earned that kind of money yet. 327 00:18:26,776 --> 00:18:28,961 Well, then why did you waste our time with this appointment? 328 00:18:28,988 --> 00:18:31,537 It was my idea, Hannah, and it was a big mistake. 329 00:18:31,564 --> 00:18:35,330 What kind of psycho spends $17,000 on a dress? 330 00:18:35,414 --> 00:18:37,060 Do you know how many clean water wells 331 00:18:37,087 --> 00:18:38,926 you could build in Africa with that money? 332 00:18:39,221 --> 00:18:42,132 - No. Do you? - I bet it's a lot, you cunt. 333 00:18:43,773 --> 00:18:45,361 Nice work, Dad. 334 00:18:59,243 --> 00:19:01,555 Dad... what's up with the itching? 335 00:19:01,582 --> 00:19:02,814 It's fucking... 336 00:19:03,708 --> 00:19:05,256 - poison ivy. - What? 337 00:19:05,956 --> 00:19:08,155 Yeah, I tried to pick you some wildflowers. 338 00:19:08,239 --> 00:19:09,949 Thought you might like them. 339 00:19:18,251 --> 00:19:19,255 What? 340 00:19:19,737 --> 00:19:21,864 I know what you're trying to do. 341 00:19:22,461 --> 00:19:24,104 And I appreciate it. 342 00:19:25,019 --> 00:19:26,545 What am I trying to do? 343 00:19:28,601 --> 00:19:30,579 You're trying to make amends. 344 00:19:37,367 --> 00:19:39,520 Oh, look, a daytime moon. 345 00:19:40,706 --> 00:19:43,407 Your mom always used to say they were good luck. 346 00:19:45,859 --> 00:19:50,155 ? I wandered out in the woods for years ? 347 00:19:50,970 --> 00:19:54,775 ? While you just stayed in your room ? 348 00:19:54,859 --> 00:19:56,786 ? I saw the crescent ? 349 00:19:57,501 --> 00:20:00,790 ? You saw the whole of the moon ? 350 00:20:02,099 --> 00:20:04,211 - ? The whole of... ? - Who's that? 351 00:20:04,295 --> 00:20:06,365 - Who sings that? - I don't know. 352 00:20:06,392 --> 00:20:08,632 Colin's always playing it, it stuck in my head. 353 00:20:09,001 --> 00:20:11,510 It was the Waterboys. That's my generation. 354 00:20:11,594 --> 00:20:14,721 Yeah, I think they're Irish. I don't know, Colin's obsessed. 355 00:20:14,805 --> 00:20:16,973 Mmm, boy's got good taste. 356 00:20:20,608 --> 00:20:24,650 Hey, I got an idea, but, uh, you may hate it. 357 00:20:25,566 --> 00:20:28,315 Your mom had a really beautiful wedding dress. 358 00:20:30,111 --> 00:20:32,177 And I don't know where it is now, but your grandmother, 359 00:20:32,353 --> 00:20:33,773 she'd probably have it. 360 00:20:33,857 --> 00:20:35,284 We know she's a hoarder. 361 00:20:37,689 --> 00:20:40,298 - Okay. It was a terrible idea. - No. 362 00:20:42,251 --> 00:20:43,571 I love it. 363 00:20:47,895 --> 00:20:49,990 - How'd it go? - Hey, Margaret, do you know 364 00:20:50,017 --> 00:20:51,716 where Helen's wedding dress is? 365 00:20:51,857 --> 00:20:55,052 She looked like a vagabond whore in that dress. Why? 366 00:20:55,383 --> 00:20:57,193 Okay, let's just check the attic. 367 00:21:27,492 --> 00:21:28,993 Sorry, I need a minute. 368 00:21:35,043 --> 00:21:36,256 What's wrong? 369 00:21:40,896 --> 00:21:42,078 You hate it? 370 00:21:43,634 --> 00:21:44,993 - You hate it, right? - No. 371 00:21:45,020 --> 00:21:46,688 Don't worry, don't worry. We'll get another one. 372 00:21:46,745 --> 00:21:48,442 It's not the dress. I love the dress. 373 00:21:48,469 --> 00:21:49,608 What is it? 374 00:21:49,692 --> 00:21:52,164 This wedding is gonna be a fucking disaster. 375 00:21:52,191 --> 00:21:54,312 What? No, it's not. Come on, we're pulling it together. 376 00:21:54,339 --> 00:21:56,684 We got a tent, we got the plates, now we got a dress. 377 00:21:56,768 --> 00:21:57,938 That's not what I mean. 378 00:21:58,023 --> 00:21:59,317 Then what is it? 379 00:22:07,360 --> 00:22:08,810 I cheated on Colin. 380 00:22:14,312 --> 00:22:15,148 Okay. 381 00:22:15,175 --> 00:22:17,458 Okay? That's what you have to say to me? 382 00:22:17,542 --> 00:22:20,316 - No, no. - God, why am I not surprised? 383 00:22:20,343 --> 00:22:22,013 When did this happen? Recently? 384 00:22:22,040 --> 00:22:23,148 Yeah. 385 00:22:24,466 --> 00:22:26,009 After you got engaged? 386 00:22:26,801 --> 00:22:27,984 Yeah. 387 00:22:29,842 --> 00:22:32,545 And I have to tell him, right? 388 00:22:38,468 --> 00:22:39,886 Not necessarily. 389 00:22:42,090 --> 00:22:43,900 Did you want to be with this other guy? 390 00:22:44,390 --> 00:22:46,289 No. God, no. 391 00:22:47,101 --> 00:22:49,104 Well, is there any other way that Colin might find out? 392 00:22:49,188 --> 00:22:51,961 I mean, is it someone who's around a lot, do you have 393 00:22:52,045 --> 00:22:55,257 - friends in common? - No. Why? 394 00:22:56,925 --> 00:22:59,654 Because, in that case, telling Colin might just 395 00:22:59,738 --> 00:23:01,218 hurt him unnecessarily. 396 00:23:01,302 --> 00:23:02,851 And end your relationship. 397 00:23:04,400 --> 00:23:05,651 I mean, unless... 398 00:23:06,039 --> 00:23:07,785 - What? - Well, unless 399 00:23:07,869 --> 00:23:09,376 that's what you were trying to do. 400 00:23:10,172 --> 00:23:11,056 I... 401 00:23:13,653 --> 00:23:15,194 I don't know. 402 00:23:16,749 --> 00:23:18,097 Maybe. 403 00:23:20,587 --> 00:23:22,178 Whitney? 404 00:23:22,910 --> 00:23:24,639 Do you want to marry Colin? 405 00:23:25,307 --> 00:23:27,985 If you're asking if he's the only person I'll ever love, 406 00:23:28,070 --> 00:23:29,861 I... I have no fucking idea. 407 00:23:29,946 --> 00:23:30,917 How am I supposed to know that? 408 00:23:31,001 --> 00:23:33,032 Look, I don't think anybody knows that. 409 00:23:33,116 --> 00:23:35,365 Yes, they do. Some people do. Colin does. 410 00:23:35,392 --> 00:23:37,183 You don't know that. You're not in his head. 411 00:23:37,377 --> 00:23:40,218 For all you know, he's... he's having major doubts, too. 412 00:23:40,923 --> 00:23:43,255 No, not about you, about marriage. 413 00:23:44,651 --> 00:23:46,761 When I got married, I thought that if you, 414 00:23:46,788 --> 00:23:48,362 if you, if you chose the right person, 415 00:23:48,446 --> 00:23:50,464 then you'd be happy forever, and if you were unhappy, 416 00:23:50,491 --> 00:23:51,536 then they were the wrong person. 417 00:23:51,563 --> 00:23:53,481 But that's just not how it works. 418 00:23:53,565 --> 00:23:55,024 - It's not? - No. No. 419 00:23:55,108 --> 00:23:57,186 Marriage is... it's not magic, it's, 420 00:23:57,270 --> 00:23:59,181 it's just a decision that you have to make. 421 00:23:59,265 --> 00:24:02,186 And keep on making, over and over, to stay. 422 00:24:03,830 --> 00:24:05,634 Whitney, deciding you're not ready 423 00:24:05,661 --> 00:24:07,209 doesn't mean you're a bad person. 424 00:24:07,293 --> 00:24:08,660 It means you know yourself 425 00:24:08,744 --> 00:24:10,702 much better than I knew when I was your age. 426 00:24:12,478 --> 00:24:14,544 No, I'm not hurting Colin. I'm not doing it. 427 00:24:14,628 --> 00:24:16,421 - He's my best friend. - He'll be okay. 428 00:24:16,505 --> 00:24:18,890 He, he... he'll survive. 429 00:24:18,974 --> 00:24:21,049 You hurt Mom so badly. 430 00:24:23,598 --> 00:24:25,116 Yeah, but that was... 431 00:24:26,474 --> 00:24:28,662 that was different. We had four kids. 432 00:24:28,746 --> 00:24:31,721 I don't want to ever hurt anyone the way you hurt her. 433 00:24:32,062 --> 00:24:32,920 Right. 434 00:24:33,413 --> 00:24:34,985 Why did you do it? 435 00:24:35,030 --> 00:24:37,366 If marriage is a choice, if you can decide to stay, 436 00:24:37,393 --> 00:24:38,894 why did you go? 437 00:24:43,187 --> 00:24:44,961 I don't know how to answer that. 438 00:24:46,326 --> 00:24:47,690 Was it Alison? 439 00:24:48,120 --> 00:24:50,415 Did you just love her more than you loved us? 440 00:24:50,442 --> 00:24:51,414 No. 441 00:24:51,498 --> 00:24:52,958 What was it, then? 442 00:24:57,212 --> 00:24:58,489 I don't know. 443 00:24:58,672 --> 00:25:00,235 See, the thing that I don't get is, 444 00:25:00,262 --> 00:25:01,800 you were a good dad. 445 00:25:01,884 --> 00:25:05,505 And Mom was a great mom, and-and we were happy. 446 00:25:05,589 --> 00:25:07,182 Or at least I thought we were. 447 00:25:07,266 --> 00:25:08,557 And then... 448 00:25:11,435 --> 00:25:13,561 I guess I just worry that, 449 00:25:13,645 --> 00:25:15,484 if that wasn't real 450 00:25:15,568 --> 00:25:17,669 and if that wasn't good, then... 451 00:25:19,536 --> 00:25:21,152 then maybe nothing is. 452 00:25:21,784 --> 00:25:23,908 Whitney, look, I fucked up. 453 00:25:24,087 --> 00:25:25,106 I... 454 00:25:29,191 --> 00:25:31,569 I was thinking about myself, and I fucked up. 455 00:25:35,547 --> 00:25:38,920 Which is why I want you to give yourself the time 456 00:25:39,004 --> 00:25:40,464 to make the right decision. 457 00:25:43,637 --> 00:25:46,377 I love you, Whit. I just want you to be happy. 458 00:25:48,104 --> 00:25:49,801 I love you, too. 459 00:25:51,468 --> 00:25:52,590 Come on. 460 00:25:59,941 --> 00:26:01,901 I got to change out of this dress. 461 00:26:13,369 --> 00:26:15,202 Oh, fuck. 462 00:26:30,326 --> 00:26:31,532 Hello? 463 00:26:31,906 --> 00:26:35,438 Noah, hi. This is Petra Ranes from Vanity Fair. 464 00:26:35,666 --> 00:26:38,078 Oh, hi, Petra. It's been a while. 465 00:26:38,105 --> 00:26:39,718 - How are you? - I'm good. 466 00:26:39,745 --> 00:26:41,884 And the piece is really coming together. 467 00:26:42,025 --> 00:26:42,852 - Great. 468 00:26:42,946 --> 00:26:46,003 - I'm just doing a last little bit of fact-checking, if you have a second. 469 00:26:46,087 --> 00:26:48,031 - Sure. - Great. 470 00:26:48,115 --> 00:26:50,903 So, do you happen to know a woman named Eden Bishop? 471 00:26:53,595 --> 00:26:55,228 No, I don't think so. 472 00:26:55,313 --> 00:26:56,389 That's her married name. 473 00:26:56,474 --> 00:26:59,235 Maybe you know her as Ellery? Eden Ellery? 474 00:26:59,418 --> 00:27:01,580 Oh, yeah, yeah, she was, uh, she was my publicist 475 00:27:01,664 --> 00:27:03,630 on the book tour for Descent. 476 00:27:03,714 --> 00:27:05,225 That's what she said, too. 477 00:27:06,798 --> 00:27:08,059 Okay? 478 00:27:08,346 --> 00:27:10,079 Did you two have a relationship? 479 00:27:10,450 --> 00:27:11,890 Beyond the professional? 480 00:27:13,118 --> 00:27:14,584 Me and Eden? 481 00:27:14,669 --> 00:27:16,517 She claims you pressured her into sleeping with you 482 00:27:16,601 --> 00:27:17,848 on the book tour. 483 00:27:17,932 --> 00:27:19,896 Does that match your recollection? 484 00:27:25,235 --> 00:27:28,419 Sorry, wh-what did you say? The reception here is terrible. 485 00:27:28,560 --> 00:27:30,783 Eden claims you coerced her into having sex 486 00:27:30,810 --> 00:27:32,272 while on the book tour together. 487 00:27:32,413 --> 00:27:34,827 I'm asking if you remember something like that happening 488 00:27:34,854 --> 00:27:36,773 between you and her during that time. 489 00:27:38,373 --> 00:27:40,708 No. Absolutely not. 490 00:27:41,026 --> 00:27:42,195 Are you sure? 491 00:27:42,276 --> 00:27:45,014 This is fucking shit! What? No! 492 00:27:45,098 --> 00:27:46,370 So that's not your memory? 493 00:27:46,480 --> 00:27:48,925 - No! - Okay. That's it, then. 494 00:27:49,009 --> 00:27:51,808 I just needed a comment. Thanks for your time. 495 00:27:55,930 --> 00:27:57,144 What...? 496 00:28:00,345 --> 00:28:01,933 Oh, fuck. 497 00:28:46,902 --> 00:28:49,352 _ 498 00:29:33,247 --> 00:29:34,503 Yes? 499 00:29:35,591 --> 00:29:38,661 Hi, I'm looking for Benjamin Cruz. 500 00:29:44,529 --> 00:29:46,284 I'm Ben Cruz. 501 00:29:46,735 --> 00:29:48,111 Can I help you? 502 00:29:50,399 --> 00:29:53,189 I just wanted to ask about your clinic. 503 00:29:56,219 --> 00:29:57,535 I need help. 504 00:29:58,162 --> 00:30:00,247 I think I have PTSD. 505 00:30:01,224 --> 00:30:02,484 Ah. 506 00:30:03,977 --> 00:30:05,601 What's your name? 507 00:30:06,508 --> 00:30:07,956 Gabrielle. 508 00:30:11,279 --> 00:30:12,562 Very nice to meet you. 509 00:30:13,520 --> 00:30:14,926 Come on inside. 510 00:30:22,180 --> 00:30:24,831 Danny, Isla, meet Gabrielle. 511 00:30:24,915 --> 00:30:26,916 She's here to learn about our community. 512 00:30:27,000 --> 00:30:28,735 - Hey there. - Hey. 513 00:30:30,499 --> 00:30:31,583 Hi. 514 00:30:32,599 --> 00:30:35,545 I thought I was the only one who read real books anymore. 515 00:30:40,698 --> 00:30:42,602 How about I give you a tour? 516 00:30:47,952 --> 00:30:50,407 I believe in the healing power 517 00:30:50,747 --> 00:30:53,719 of fresh air and tilling the land. 518 00:30:54,141 --> 00:30:56,977 Everything here has been designed to be self-sustaining. 519 00:30:57,368 --> 00:31:00,408 My patients get free lodging 520 00:31:00,492 --> 00:31:03,030 in return for their time in the garden. 521 00:31:04,483 --> 00:31:06,593 So, a-are you a veteran, Gabrielle? 522 00:31:08,696 --> 00:31:10,126 No, I'm not. 523 00:31:11,092 --> 00:31:12,545 How did you find us, then? 524 00:31:13,418 --> 00:31:14,881 Recommendation. 525 00:31:17,690 --> 00:31:21,444 I only ask because we mostly service ex-military. 526 00:31:21,599 --> 00:31:23,127 When I was a young vet, 527 00:31:23,154 --> 00:31:26,142 I started my post-service career at the VA, 528 00:31:26,434 --> 00:31:28,774 during what I thought was a really exciting time 529 00:31:28,801 --> 00:31:30,549 for PTSD therapy. 530 00:31:30,690 --> 00:31:33,576 Newer, integrative psychotherapeutic approaches 531 00:31:33,603 --> 00:31:36,840 like exposure therapy, EMDR. 532 00:31:36,924 --> 00:31:39,147 They all seemed to be taking root 533 00:31:39,174 --> 00:31:40,994 in the mainstream community, 534 00:31:41,533 --> 00:31:44,799 but then, of course, they were obliterated 535 00:31:45,327 --> 00:31:47,779 as soon as the government deregulated 536 00:31:47,806 --> 00:31:49,603 psychopharmaceutical drugs. 537 00:31:49,697 --> 00:31:51,334 If vets want alternative therapies, 538 00:31:51,418 --> 00:31:53,920 they have to seek them under the table, 539 00:31:54,004 --> 00:31:57,681 pay out of pocket, get treatments in secret. 540 00:31:57,775 --> 00:32:00,816 If the VA finds out, people lose their health care. 541 00:32:02,637 --> 00:32:03,817 Anyway, 542 00:32:04,431 --> 00:32:07,845 that's why I have to be extra careful 543 00:32:08,393 --> 00:32:10,186 when people knock on my door. 544 00:32:10,512 --> 00:32:14,473 Well, you weren't that careful. You kind of just let me in. 545 00:32:16,392 --> 00:32:17,658 True. 546 00:32:19,349 --> 00:32:21,299 But you have an honest face. 547 00:32:24,447 --> 00:32:26,443 We grow all our own food. 548 00:32:26,470 --> 00:32:27,852 There's something so 549 00:32:27,936 --> 00:32:30,497 satisfying about putting your hands in the dirt, 550 00:32:30,814 --> 00:32:33,903 turning the soil, caring for the space, 551 00:32:34,228 --> 00:32:38,447 and then watch it as it bears fruit. 552 00:32:39,356 --> 00:32:40,518 Here, 553 00:32:40,545 --> 00:32:43,427 the land that we've taken care of 554 00:32:43,568 --> 00:32:45,903 then turns around and cares for us. 555 00:32:46,226 --> 00:32:47,916 I firmly believe, 556 00:32:48,605 --> 00:32:51,250 if we can remember how to care for a garden, 557 00:32:54,044 --> 00:32:56,274 we can remember how to care for each other. 558 00:33:05,795 --> 00:33:07,257 Thank you. 559 00:33:10,371 --> 00:33:12,228 Let's head back inside. 560 00:33:12,905 --> 00:33:14,853 Get to know each other a bit better. 561 00:33:20,556 --> 00:33:21,757 So... 562 00:33:21,841 --> 00:33:23,187 Gabrielle. 563 00:33:24,141 --> 00:33:26,053 That's a beautiful name, by the way. 564 00:33:26,246 --> 00:33:27,472 Thank you. 565 00:33:28,087 --> 00:33:29,475 Is it a family name? 566 00:33:31,141 --> 00:33:32,260 Yes. 567 00:33:35,317 --> 00:33:36,430 So tell me, 568 00:33:37,033 --> 00:33:38,332 how can I help you? 569 00:33:43,424 --> 00:33:45,540 I think I suffer from PTSD. 570 00:33:45,764 --> 00:33:46,939 Okay. 571 00:33:47,469 --> 00:33:49,173 How does that manifest? 572 00:33:51,496 --> 00:33:54,817 I can't connect with people. I think I'm incapable of love. 573 00:33:56,096 --> 00:33:59,478 Well, sometimes such feelings are connected to 574 00:33:59,627 --> 00:34:02,241 a significant loss or trauma 575 00:34:03,049 --> 00:34:04,828 at an early age. 576 00:34:06,441 --> 00:34:09,026 Does that resonate with you? 577 00:34:10,073 --> 00:34:11,365 No. 578 00:34:14,223 --> 00:34:16,877 Are you familiar with EMDR? 579 00:34:17,478 --> 00:34:18,564 No. 580 00:34:19,064 --> 00:34:21,257 It's an old form of therapy. 581 00:34:22,020 --> 00:34:25,077 Nobody really understands why it works or how, 582 00:34:25,161 --> 00:34:27,242 but it does. 583 00:34:27,326 --> 00:34:30,033 There's something almost magical about it. 584 00:34:31,845 --> 00:34:33,373 Mm. You don't believe in magic? 585 00:34:33,400 --> 00:34:34,591 No. 586 00:34:36,210 --> 00:34:38,426 Maybe that's why you have such... 587 00:34:39,483 --> 00:34:41,041 trouble with love. 588 00:34:43,759 --> 00:34:47,131 Would you like to try EMDR? 589 00:34:47,158 --> 00:34:51,595 J-Just to see if we can get a little closer to understanding 590 00:34:52,822 --> 00:34:54,283 why you came. 591 00:34:57,724 --> 00:34:58,684 Sure. 592 00:34:59,720 --> 00:35:00,840 Why not? 593 00:35:00,976 --> 00:35:02,213 Excellent. 594 00:35:02,775 --> 00:35:06,347 I record all my sessions. Do you mind? 595 00:35:07,965 --> 00:35:12,647 And this is just our standard release form. 596 00:35:16,526 --> 00:35:17,637 It's on paper. 597 00:35:17,908 --> 00:35:19,667 I know. What can I say? 598 00:35:19,751 --> 00:35:22,306 I am nostalgic for the analog world. 599 00:35:23,009 --> 00:35:25,131 I suspect you are, too. 600 00:35:26,681 --> 00:35:29,541 Well, take a moment, read it through. 601 00:35:29,824 --> 00:35:30,970 What's the date? 602 00:35:31,275 --> 00:35:32,596 Oh, don't worry about that. 603 00:35:32,680 --> 00:35:34,130 I just need your signature. 604 00:35:37,595 --> 00:35:39,838 Okay. Thank you. 605 00:35:40,936 --> 00:35:42,311 So... 606 00:35:42,618 --> 00:35:45,109 the way EMDR works. 607 00:35:46,402 --> 00:35:50,213 We pick one specific traumatic event 608 00:35:50,846 --> 00:35:52,696 and then we basically rewrite the script 609 00:35:53,326 --> 00:35:56,579 so it doesn't trigger the same debilitating response. 610 00:35:56,720 --> 00:35:58,833 Does that make sense? Good. 611 00:35:59,502 --> 00:36:02,545 We can start on any memory, really. 612 00:36:03,712 --> 00:36:06,755 Is there a moment, a... 613 00:36:07,473 --> 00:36:10,064 a night where you remember this, 614 00:36:10,135 --> 00:36:13,219 as you say, "inability to love" 615 00:36:13,303 --> 00:36:15,345 really manifesting itself, 616 00:36:16,166 --> 00:36:18,501 impeding your life in some way? 617 00:36:21,090 --> 00:36:22,095 I... 618 00:36:25,019 --> 00:36:28,110 I had a fight with my boyfriend recently. 619 00:36:29,258 --> 00:36:30,429 Excellent. 620 00:36:30,849 --> 00:36:33,835 That is the perfect thing to unpack with this therapy. 621 00:36:35,260 --> 00:36:36,594 Let's start there. 622 00:36:36,978 --> 00:36:40,456 Can you please, um, move your chair 623 00:36:41,337 --> 00:36:42,773 to face me. 624 00:36:45,606 --> 00:36:46,982 Good. 625 00:36:50,661 --> 00:36:53,761 No, see, you need to be a little closer. 626 00:36:56,090 --> 00:36:57,162 There you go. 627 00:36:57,827 --> 00:36:59,350 Okay, to begin, 628 00:36:59,676 --> 00:37:03,179 just follow my fingers with your eyes. 629 00:37:07,193 --> 00:37:09,653 - Th-That makes me dizzy. - Okay. 630 00:37:10,335 --> 00:37:13,552 Let's switch to something else. 631 00:37:15,410 --> 00:37:17,296 Your palms up. 632 00:37:17,729 --> 00:37:18,994 There you go. 633 00:37:22,646 --> 00:37:24,220 Close your eyes 634 00:37:25,082 --> 00:37:27,372 and take a deep breath. 635 00:37:31,346 --> 00:37:34,014 Now think back to the night of the fight. 636 00:37:35,127 --> 00:37:36,723 What do you notice? 637 00:37:37,622 --> 00:37:38,730 Where are you? 638 00:37:41,511 --> 00:37:42,851 I'm in my apartment. 639 00:37:43,020 --> 00:37:44,648 Where is that? 640 00:37:45,394 --> 00:37:47,020 Montauk. 641 00:37:47,844 --> 00:37:49,598 How about your boyfriend, is he there? 642 00:37:50,337 --> 00:37:51,647 He's on his way. 643 00:37:52,648 --> 00:37:53,946 How do you feel? 644 00:37:55,192 --> 00:37:56,312 Scared. 645 00:37:56,544 --> 00:37:59,016 Good. Go with that. 646 00:38:01,160 --> 00:38:02,884 Same as before. 647 00:38:03,873 --> 00:38:05,010 Tell me... 648 00:38:05,880 --> 00:38:07,559 what do you notice? 649 00:38:08,873 --> 00:38:12,848 My apartment is warm, cozy. 650 00:38:12,932 --> 00:38:15,217 There's a fire in the fireplace. 651 00:38:16,297 --> 00:38:18,746 My daughter's drawings 652 00:38:18,830 --> 00:38:20,484 are on the refrigerator. 653 00:38:21,590 --> 00:38:23,618 It's raining outside. 654 00:38:24,489 --> 00:38:28,772 Pouring, actually. There's a storm, a... a bad one. 655 00:38:29,215 --> 00:38:30,630 The windows are rattling. 656 00:38:31,145 --> 00:38:32,832 Good. Go with that. 657 00:38:33,098 --> 00:38:36,090 Now what do you see happening? 658 00:38:36,532 --> 00:38:38,223 My boyfriend arrives. 659 00:38:38,653 --> 00:38:41,410 He's soaking wet. He dries himself by the fire. 660 00:38:41,657 --> 00:38:42,965 How's he dressed? 661 00:38:43,576 --> 00:38:45,456 Jeans and a military jacket. 662 00:38:46,363 --> 00:38:47,887 He's a veteran. 663 00:38:49,365 --> 00:38:50,495 Good. 664 00:38:51,172 --> 00:38:52,692 Close your eyes. 665 00:38:54,248 --> 00:38:55,736 Notice what he says 666 00:38:56,989 --> 00:38:58,366 and go with that. 667 00:38:58,950 --> 00:39:01,512 - He's angry. - Why is he angry? 668 00:39:01,596 --> 00:39:03,120 Because he's married, 669 00:39:04,780 --> 00:39:06,764 and I want him to leave his wife. 670 00:39:08,997 --> 00:39:10,031 We have a fight. 671 00:39:10,116 --> 00:39:13,114 I tell him that if he doesn't leave her, I will kill myself. 672 00:39:13,200 --> 00:39:14,404 Keep going. 673 00:39:14,488 --> 00:39:17,149 He tells me that I'm ugly and stupid 674 00:39:17,176 --> 00:39:18,782 and that nobody will ever love me, 675 00:39:18,809 --> 00:39:21,604 and that the best I could hope for is to be someone's slut. 676 00:39:21,631 --> 00:39:23,697 Okay. That's enough. 677 00:39:25,258 --> 00:39:28,136 EMDR doesn't work if you're lying. 678 00:39:41,378 --> 00:39:43,192 I never said those things. 679 00:39:44,351 --> 00:39:46,473 I respected your mother greatly. 680 00:39:48,514 --> 00:39:50,624 I would never have spoken that way to her. 681 00:40:04,761 --> 00:40:06,304 Hello, Joanie. 682 00:40:06,943 --> 00:40:08,403 Hello, Ben. 683 00:40:10,089 --> 00:40:13,467 I'm so glad you are finally here. 684 00:40:17,534 --> 00:40:19,967 Why don't we start again with the same question? 685 00:40:21,244 --> 00:40:22,763 How can I help you? 686 00:40:27,576 --> 00:40:29,176 Did you kill my mother? 687 00:40:34,930 --> 00:40:36,110 Yes. 688 00:40:37,165 --> 00:40:38,311 I did. 689 00:40:46,385 --> 00:40:49,983 I can only imagine what you think of me right now. 690 00:40:50,635 --> 00:40:52,549 It's all so new for you. 691 00:40:54,439 --> 00:40:57,786 The truth is, I've been thinking about you for years. 692 00:40:58,455 --> 00:41:00,205 I've tried to imagine 693 00:41:00,518 --> 00:41:03,766 where you've been living your life and-and how. 694 00:41:04,104 --> 00:41:08,260 I've awaited our reunion with great anticipation. 695 00:41:12,376 --> 00:41:14,300 Is there anything else... 696 00:41:15,033 --> 00:41:16,312 you want to ask me? 697 00:41:16,816 --> 00:41:18,081 Anything at all. 698 00:41:19,601 --> 00:41:21,561 Go back behind your desk. 699 00:41:21,884 --> 00:41:23,916 I need a barrier between us. 700 00:41:24,821 --> 00:41:25,948 Of course. 701 00:41:33,544 --> 00:41:35,476 I-I want to be held accountable, Joanie. 702 00:41:36,127 --> 00:41:39,458 I've always known I would eventually have to answer for what I did. 703 00:41:40,673 --> 00:41:44,302 I welcome the opportunity. 704 00:41:48,587 --> 00:41:51,585 I know this might be hard for you to believe, 705 00:41:52,018 --> 00:41:53,018 but... 706 00:41:54,385 --> 00:41:56,772 I think of your mother every day. 707 00:41:57,090 --> 00:41:59,275 Every minute, in fact. 708 00:42:00,462 --> 00:42:02,673 She is constantly with me, 709 00:42:03,961 --> 00:42:04,892 and... 710 00:42:06,588 --> 00:42:09,758 I hate myself for what I did. 711 00:42:09,983 --> 00:42:12,151 Okay. So why did you do it? 712 00:42:14,238 --> 00:42:15,957 I had a psychotic break. 713 00:42:16,042 --> 00:42:17,125 What? 714 00:42:17,209 --> 00:42:18,960 When I met your mother... 715 00:42:20,637 --> 00:42:22,907 The doctors at the VA had me on a lot of drugs. 716 00:42:22,934 --> 00:42:24,976 Antidepressants, MDMA, 717 00:42:25,381 --> 00:42:27,135 antipsychotics. 718 00:42:27,572 --> 00:42:29,062 I was losing my mind. 719 00:42:30,114 --> 00:42:32,300 I couldn't sleep. 720 00:42:32,601 --> 00:42:35,683 I-I-I was paranoid. I started hearing voices. 721 00:42:35,710 --> 00:42:37,812 I didn't tell anyone, of course, because... 722 00:42:39,132 --> 00:42:41,400 I, I was afraid they'd lock me up for good. 723 00:42:42,649 --> 00:42:43,898 That night... 724 00:42:44,464 --> 00:42:46,834 I became a monster, 725 00:42:47,169 --> 00:42:49,033 uh, completely out of control. 726 00:42:51,090 --> 00:42:52,494 What did you do to her? 727 00:42:52,878 --> 00:42:54,265 Well, we had an argument 728 00:42:55,689 --> 00:42:58,017 in her apartment, as you guessed. 729 00:42:58,101 --> 00:42:59,357 About what? 730 00:43:00,134 --> 00:43:01,597 The fact that I was married. 731 00:43:03,157 --> 00:43:04,673 So I was right. 732 00:43:04,757 --> 00:43:05,783 Yes. 733 00:43:06,518 --> 00:43:07,518 But... 734 00:43:08,252 --> 00:43:10,304 she told me to leave. 735 00:43:13,142 --> 00:43:16,187 It was me who was begging to stay. 736 00:43:17,000 --> 00:43:18,024 Why? 737 00:43:19,903 --> 00:43:21,758 Have you ever met someone 738 00:43:22,613 --> 00:43:24,526 who-who looked at you, 739 00:43:25,939 --> 00:43:27,182 all of you, 740 00:43:27,401 --> 00:43:29,031 even the savage parts, 741 00:43:29,488 --> 00:43:31,400 and they didn't flinch? 742 00:43:33,419 --> 00:43:34,437 No. 743 00:43:34,787 --> 00:43:36,872 I thought she was gonna be the one to bring me back, 744 00:43:36,899 --> 00:43:40,289 restore me to the man I was before I went to war. 745 00:43:40,917 --> 00:43:42,015 That night 746 00:43:42,692 --> 00:43:45,250 we tried to make love... 747 00:43:47,195 --> 00:43:48,312 ...and... 748 00:43:49,321 --> 00:43:51,174 I found that I couldn't. 749 00:43:51,814 --> 00:43:54,007 For years after Afghanistan, 750 00:43:54,424 --> 00:43:56,812 I had thought the problem was my wife. 751 00:43:58,120 --> 00:44:00,140 But then, all of a sudden, it was clear. 752 00:44:01,842 --> 00:44:04,654 The problem had been me all along. 753 00:44:07,297 --> 00:44:08,820 My fate was sealed. 754 00:44:10,289 --> 00:44:12,755 I would never be the man I was before the war. 755 00:44:13,909 --> 00:44:18,544 And I was never going to be enough for Alison or any woman. 756 00:44:19,042 --> 00:44:20,704 So you killed her? 757 00:44:22,883 --> 00:44:25,192 I never felt such rage. 758 00:44:26,461 --> 00:44:28,297 And because Alison was in front of me, 759 00:44:28,324 --> 00:44:30,134 I-I directed it at her. 760 00:44:31,403 --> 00:44:33,402 She said she was leaving. 761 00:44:34,320 --> 00:44:36,149 She ran to the door. 762 00:44:36,943 --> 00:44:39,724 And I didn't want her to go, so I grabbed her by the arm 763 00:44:40,186 --> 00:44:43,515 to try to bring her back, 764 00:44:44,190 --> 00:44:48,645 and I lost my grip, and she fell, hard, 765 00:44:49,985 --> 00:44:51,697 against the bookshelf. 766 00:44:53,679 --> 00:44:55,333 Before I could reach her, 767 00:44:55,631 --> 00:44:57,883 this statue, a heavy statue, 768 00:44:58,913 --> 00:45:00,317 it fell on her head. 769 00:45:02,480 --> 00:45:04,130 And she was gone. 770 00:45:07,013 --> 00:45:08,013 So... 771 00:45:08,294 --> 00:45:09,730 it was an accident? 772 00:45:10,099 --> 00:45:11,692 Yes, of course. 773 00:45:12,510 --> 00:45:15,638 I never wanted to hurt your mother. 774 00:45:28,890 --> 00:45:30,725 I have... I have tried... 775 00:45:32,571 --> 00:45:35,907 to find a way to make what I did bearable. 776 00:45:35,991 --> 00:45:39,177 I have dedicated the last 777 00:45:39,204 --> 00:45:42,061 30 years of my life creating this place: 778 00:45:42,370 --> 00:45:44,776 a safe haven for veterans. 779 00:45:47,503 --> 00:45:50,650 So nobody again 780 00:45:50,677 --> 00:45:53,817 will ever lose control the way I did. 781 00:45:54,468 --> 00:45:58,184 Hurt someone the way I hurt your mother. 782 00:45:58,811 --> 00:46:00,411 You didn't just hurt her. 783 00:46:01,310 --> 00:46:02,763 You killed her. 784 00:46:04,206 --> 00:46:06,848 Yes, and I'm sorry, Joanie. 785 00:46:09,072 --> 00:46:11,584 If you're so sorry, then why didn't you turn yourself in? 786 00:46:12,544 --> 00:46:15,519 I-I don't know what good it would have done. 787 00:46:18,935 --> 00:46:21,251 I-I-I could help more people... 788 00:46:23,616 --> 00:46:27,065 make more amends by being of service to these men, 789 00:46:27,572 --> 00:46:30,363 rather than waste the rest of my life 790 00:46:30,390 --> 00:46:32,553 rotting away in some cell. 791 00:46:33,233 --> 00:46:35,916 Don't you think you should have let a jury make that call? 792 00:46:37,760 --> 00:46:40,369 Y-You know who I think should make that call? 793 00:46:42,941 --> 00:46:44,002 You. 794 00:46:45,611 --> 00:46:46,666 Me? 795 00:46:47,813 --> 00:46:51,526 I promised myself a long time ago, Joanie, 796 00:46:52,101 --> 00:46:53,564 that when you found me... 797 00:46:55,010 --> 00:46:58,221 And I knew it was a "when," not an "if"... 798 00:46:59,032 --> 00:47:00,463 That I would submit 799 00:47:00,883 --> 00:47:04,516 to whatever accountability you demanded, 800 00:47:05,049 --> 00:47:07,916 and I-I-I would not resist. 801 00:47:09,370 --> 00:47:10,345 So... 802 00:47:11,041 --> 00:47:14,672 if you want to call the police right now, 803 00:47:15,302 --> 00:47:16,776 I'll give you my phone. 804 00:47:19,456 --> 00:47:20,609 If you want to... 805 00:47:20,994 --> 00:47:22,621 you want to kill me... 806 00:47:26,219 --> 00:47:27,666 I'll give you my gun. 807 00:47:28,714 --> 00:47:30,424 I am completely in your hands. 808 00:47:38,958 --> 00:47:40,677 If I were going to kill you, 809 00:47:41,822 --> 00:47:43,372 I wouldn't use a gun. 810 00:47:44,973 --> 00:47:46,391 It's too quick. 811 00:47:47,473 --> 00:47:48,531 Okay. 812 00:47:49,422 --> 00:47:50,830 How would you do it? 813 00:47:51,571 --> 00:47:53,343 I'd like to cut off your dick 814 00:47:53,833 --> 00:47:57,755 and let you bleed out like a pig until you die. 815 00:48:01,129 --> 00:48:02,263 Well... 816 00:48:03,896 --> 00:48:05,527 that's an option, too. 817 00:48:09,146 --> 00:48:11,174 I have to go. I need to think. 818 00:48:11,201 --> 00:48:12,646 Okay, but, Joanie, 819 00:48:13,289 --> 00:48:14,880 you know where to find me now. 820 00:48:15,830 --> 00:48:17,427 And I'm not gonna run. 821 00:48:19,806 --> 00:48:23,033 I'll be right here whenever you decide. 822 00:48:23,380 --> 00:48:24,827 I have to go. 823 00:48:34,378 --> 00:48:36,005 So, what are you gonna do? 824 00:48:36,499 --> 00:48:37,818 I don't know. 825 00:48:38,279 --> 00:48:40,208 How about calling the police? 826 00:48:41,584 --> 00:48:43,177 I guess I should? 827 00:48:44,841 --> 00:48:47,767 This man murdered your mother and then sat there and gave you 828 00:48:47,794 --> 00:48:49,588 a detailed description of how he did it. 829 00:48:49,615 --> 00:48:52,015 That's a special kind of psychopath. 830 00:48:52,646 --> 00:48:54,427 He's a lot of things, 831 00:48:54,872 --> 00:48:57,076 but I-I don't think he's a psychopath. 832 00:48:59,880 --> 00:49:01,013 What? 833 00:49:02,031 --> 00:49:05,279 He seemed sorry. 834 00:49:05,752 --> 00:49:08,515 Truly sorry. 835 00:49:09,466 --> 00:49:12,424 He spent his entire life trying to make amends. 836 00:49:12,451 --> 00:49:14,542 Uh, Joanie, most murderers are sorry for what they did. 837 00:49:14,626 --> 00:49:16,102 They still have to go to prison. 838 00:49:16,310 --> 00:49:18,003 He said I could kill him if I liked. 839 00:49:18,599 --> 00:49:21,049 - I think that would be a mistake. - I wasn't being serious. 840 00:49:21,133 --> 00:49:22,549 - Yes, you were. - No, I wasn't. 841 00:49:22,576 --> 00:49:24,011 - I think you were. - EJ. 842 00:49:24,038 --> 00:49:25,771 Joanie, listen to me. 843 00:49:26,221 --> 00:49:28,072 This problem is above your pay grade. 844 00:49:28,156 --> 00:49:29,652 There are people who specialize 845 00:49:29,736 --> 00:49:31,330 in crime and punishment for a living. 846 00:49:31,357 --> 00:49:32,950 That's why they're called the authorities. 847 00:49:33,034 --> 00:49:34,970 How about we let them decide what to do 848 00:49:35,054 --> 00:49:37,409 before we take vengeance into our own hands. 849 00:49:37,646 --> 00:49:41,069 Ben may be sorry, but he was clearheaded enough at the time 850 00:49:41,153 --> 00:49:43,742 to use your mother's history of mental illness against her 851 00:49:43,769 --> 00:49:46,226 and make everyone believe she drowned herself. 852 00:49:51,336 --> 00:49:52,643 That's right. 853 00:49:54,735 --> 00:49:56,121 She drowned. 854 00:49:57,541 --> 00:49:59,540 They found water in her lungs. 855 00:50:31,897 --> 00:50:33,152 Benjamin Cruz? 856 00:50:33,894 --> 00:50:35,123 Can I help you? 857 00:50:35,394 --> 00:50:37,752 I'm Detective Clark, this is Detective Woods. 858 00:50:37,836 --> 00:50:40,727 We'd like to ask you a few questions pertaining to the death of Alison Bailey. 859 00:50:40,811 --> 00:50:42,038 May we come in? 860 00:50:43,204 --> 00:50:44,957 I've made my decision. 861 00:50:47,394 --> 00:50:48,808 Where did you find her? 862 00:50:49,894 --> 00:50:52,223 She's one of the patients from my facility. 863 00:50:52,661 --> 00:50:54,253 She went AWOL last night... 864 00:50:55,057 --> 00:50:56,717 and we've been worried sick. 865 00:50:58,144 --> 00:50:59,189 What? 866 00:50:59,589 --> 00:51:02,345 This is her signature, committing herself to psychiatric care. 867 00:51:02,372 --> 00:51:03,052 What? 868 00:51:03,110 --> 00:51:05,430 And this is my case study for Joanie Lockhart. 869 00:51:05,457 --> 00:51:06,813 She was admitted three weeks ago. 870 00:51:06,897 --> 00:51:08,746 - That's not true. None of this is true. - Joanie suffers from 871 00:51:08,773 --> 00:51:10,484 severe depression and PTSD. 872 00:51:10,596 --> 00:51:14,511 Her mother tragically committed suicide when she was seven years old. 873 00:51:14,721 --> 00:51:17,568 And lately she's been experiencing homicidal 874 00:51:17,659 --> 00:51:19,101 fantasies and delusions. 875 00:51:19,186 --> 00:51:20,595 - This is all horseshit. - We have been exploring 876 00:51:20,679 --> 00:51:22,879 some of them in a safe, therapeutic space, 877 00:51:22,963 --> 00:51:26,598 but, um, yesterday she had a turn for the worse 878 00:51:26,791 --> 00:51:28,386 and she threatened my life. 879 00:51:31,312 --> 00:51:33,063 I'd like to cut off your dick 880 00:51:33,563 --> 00:51:37,055 and let you bleed out like a pig until you die. 881 00:51:37,227 --> 00:51:38,635 That is not what I said. 882 00:51:38,719 --> 00:51:40,146 That isn't your voice on the recording? 883 00:51:40,230 --> 00:51:42,532 Of course it is, but it was meant as a hypothetical, like... 884 00:51:42,712 --> 00:51:44,193 iif I were to kill him. 885 00:51:47,644 --> 00:51:50,918 He knew my mother. He isn't just a random doctor I came to see. 886 00:51:51,248 --> 00:51:53,410 He was dating her when she died. 887 00:51:53,793 --> 00:51:55,537 He told me that he set up this whole clinic 888 00:51:55,621 --> 00:51:58,594 because he felt like such a shit for what he did 30 years ago. 889 00:51:58,621 --> 00:52:00,571 Officers, I have nothing to hide. 890 00:52:00,902 --> 00:52:04,811 I was cleared of any wrongdoing in Alison Bailey's death years ago. 891 00:52:04,838 --> 00:52:06,646 The police ruled it as a suicide. 892 00:52:06,673 --> 00:52:08,945 Joanie just can't accept it. 893 00:52:08,972 --> 00:52:11,219 She needs someone to blame. 894 00:52:12,119 --> 00:52:16,090 She herself has made a series of suicide attempts, 895 00:52:16,400 --> 00:52:19,511 as you can see referenced on pages five and six. 896 00:52:22,381 --> 00:52:24,190 Ms. Lockhart, what are you doing? 897 00:52:24,368 --> 00:52:25,900 Where is it, Ben? 898 00:52:26,360 --> 00:52:28,646 - Where's your fucking gun? - There's no gun. 899 00:52:28,673 --> 00:52:30,767 He said I could kill him with it if I wanted to. 900 00:52:30,915 --> 00:52:32,899 I don't have a gun, Joanie. 901 00:52:33,228 --> 00:52:36,621 I run a therapeutic center for PTSD recovery. 902 00:52:36,978 --> 00:52:39,552 A gun would be a very dangerous thing to have 903 00:52:39,579 --> 00:52:41,324 on these premises, wouldn't it? 904 00:52:41,408 --> 00:52:43,649 Ms. Lockhart, is it true what he's saying? 905 00:52:43,959 --> 00:52:45,753 Are you a patient at this facility? 906 00:52:45,894 --> 00:52:48,647 - No, of course not. - All right, but... 907 00:52:48,955 --> 00:52:51,199 this is your signature on this form? 908 00:52:51,788 --> 00:52:53,797 I wasn't paying attention to what I was signing. 909 00:52:53,978 --> 00:52:56,265 So you didn't read what the form said? 910 00:52:56,564 --> 00:52:58,391 You aren't listening to me. 911 00:52:58,475 --> 00:53:00,064 I'm telling the truth. 912 00:53:00,409 --> 00:53:02,868 I'm not the crazy one. He is. 913 00:53:02,962 --> 00:53:05,607 Okay, well, why would you sign something you didn't read, ma'am? 914 00:53:05,691 --> 00:53:08,308 Because I was too busy thinking about how I was gonna kill him. 915 00:53:10,897 --> 00:53:14,571 Mr. Cruz, do you want us to remove Ms. Lockhart from the property? 916 00:53:14,813 --> 00:53:16,232 That won't be necessary. 917 00:53:16,410 --> 00:53:17,767 Are you sure, sir? 918 00:53:18,161 --> 00:53:19,668 More than anything, right now, 919 00:53:20,101 --> 00:53:21,573 she needs my support. 920 00:53:22,032 --> 00:53:24,125 Sorry to have wasted your time, Officers. 921 00:53:24,380 --> 00:53:25,370 Okay. 922 00:53:38,397 --> 00:53:40,221 I'm gonna fucking kill you. 923 00:53:40,821 --> 00:53:42,810 You can't touch me now, Joanie. 924 00:53:44,039 --> 00:53:46,554 Police are watching you now. 925 00:53:47,567 --> 00:53:49,477 You'll go to prison for the rest of your life. 926 00:53:49,950 --> 00:53:51,830 Your kids will grow up without a mother. 927 00:53:52,557 --> 00:53:54,280 That's not what you want, is it? 928 00:53:54,991 --> 00:53:56,491 What do you know about my kids? 929 00:53:56,575 --> 00:53:57,894 I meant what I said. 930 00:53:58,531 --> 00:54:02,605 I thought about you over the years, wondered how you were. 931 00:54:02,632 --> 00:54:04,172 Were you watching me? 932 00:54:05,452 --> 00:54:07,001 I looked you up online. 933 00:54:07,397 --> 00:54:09,133 When did you know it was me? 934 00:54:10,063 --> 00:54:11,839 When you took off your sunglasses. 935 00:54:11,923 --> 00:54:13,607 Why didn't you say something then? 936 00:54:13,634 --> 00:54:16,743 What was the point of this whole exercise? 937 00:54:19,766 --> 00:54:22,040 My mother was still breathing 938 00:54:22,067 --> 00:54:24,060 when her body went into the water. 939 00:54:24,313 --> 00:54:26,497 She didn't die in our apartment like you said she did. 940 00:54:26,524 --> 00:54:28,696 She had water in her lungs. 941 00:54:28,907 --> 00:54:30,358 She fucking drowned. 942 00:54:30,442 --> 00:54:31,571 Calm down. 943 00:54:32,391 --> 00:54:34,544 Can I get you something? A drink? 944 00:54:34,571 --> 00:54:36,438 You wanted me to call the police. 945 00:54:36,570 --> 00:54:38,359 So you could show them my signature 946 00:54:38,443 --> 00:54:41,894 and play them the tape and make me seem like a nutjob. 947 00:54:42,235 --> 00:54:44,868 The one person left alive who knows what you did. 948 00:54:45,123 --> 00:54:46,461 You killed her, 949 00:54:46,488 --> 00:54:49,094 and then you dumped her body in the water. You made it look like a suicide. 950 00:54:49,121 --> 00:54:53,006 You used her history and you set her up just like you set me up, didn't you? 951 00:54:55,335 --> 00:54:56,382 Yes. 952 00:54:57,077 --> 00:54:58,201 Why? 953 00:54:58,436 --> 00:54:59,705 I didn't want to go to prison. 954 00:54:59,732 --> 00:55:02,003 Oh, you're a killer. You belong in prison. 955 00:55:02,312 --> 00:55:04,211 Oh, thou shall not kill. 956 00:55:04,884 --> 00:55:07,757 Well... except sometimes. 957 00:55:08,470 --> 00:55:10,937 I killed people in Afghanistan, plenty of them. 958 00:55:11,111 --> 00:55:13,952 Some of them innocent civilians. 959 00:55:15,679 --> 00:55:17,312 It wasn't a crime there. 960 00:55:18,189 --> 00:55:19,827 Why should it be a crime here? 961 00:55:20,730 --> 00:55:23,753 You took my mother from me. 962 00:55:26,367 --> 00:55:27,827 I was a child. 963 00:55:30,568 --> 00:55:31,739 You took her. 964 00:55:38,007 --> 00:55:41,763 You know, you are just so much like her. 965 00:55:42,495 --> 00:55:45,156 When you showed up at my door, you seemed so... 966 00:55:45,644 --> 00:55:47,824 strong, so tough. 967 00:55:49,502 --> 00:55:51,461 I should have known it was a mask. 968 00:55:52,232 --> 00:55:53,789 Just like hers. 969 00:55:53,940 --> 00:55:55,978 You're just as sad 970 00:55:56,062 --> 00:55:59,007 and as frightened as she was. 971 00:56:16,882 --> 00:56:17,927 Harder. 972 00:56:19,997 --> 00:56:21,239 Harder. 973 00:56:26,137 --> 00:56:28,528 I understand why you came here now. 974 00:56:31,010 --> 00:56:32,755 It wasn't for Alison at all. 975 00:56:35,594 --> 00:56:38,410 You just want someone to put you out of your pain. 976 00:56:43,188 --> 00:56:45,054 I'm not gonna do you that favor. 977 00:56:53,568 --> 00:56:56,244 I'm sorry for your pain, Joanie. 978 00:56:57,015 --> 00:56:58,260 I really am. 979 00:57:00,673 --> 00:57:01,705 But... 980 00:57:02,307 --> 00:57:05,679 if I go away, what happens to these patients? 981 00:57:07,652 --> 00:57:09,028 They need me here. 982 00:57:09,113 --> 00:57:12,520 You are so full of shit, and you know it. 983 00:57:13,033 --> 00:57:15,086 I've paid for my sins. 984 00:57:17,765 --> 00:57:19,739 I can live with myself. 985 00:57:25,140 --> 00:57:27,743 You're the one, apparently, 986 00:57:28,666 --> 00:57:29,829 who cannot. 987 00:57:33,757 --> 00:57:39,694 www.subtitulamos.tv