1 00:00:07,460 --> 00:00:09,060 Tell me what's going on, Bonnie. 2 00:00:09,664 --> 00:00:10,664 Nothing. 3 00:00:10,934 --> 00:00:13,745 Something's in the air, Bonnie, and I don't like it. 4 00:00:16,673 --> 00:00:18,540 What's this about a theater director? 5 00:00:20,044 --> 00:00:21,390 You misheard that. 6 00:00:21,913 --> 00:00:23,832 Hold on, hold on! What are you... 7 00:00:25,265 --> 00:00:29,490 I will not, not be rich! 8 00:00:32,085 --> 00:00:35,821 Did Chloe Mackenzie say anything to you about who your father is? 9 00:00:36,125 --> 00:00:38,613 She said it was Max and Josh's dad. 10 00:00:40,663 --> 00:00:44,208 You learned of his infidelity just 10 seconds 11 00:00:44,240 --> 00:00:48,543 before he went falling down a flight of stairs to his death. 12 00:00:48,714 --> 00:00:51,717 Oh, you left that out, too. 13 00:01:06,555 --> 00:01:08,319 Synced & corrected by QueenMaddie www.addic7ed.com 14 00:02:49,010 --> 00:02:51,197 ? Have a little song ? 15 00:02:53,449 --> 00:02:56,150 ? Won't take long ? 16 00:02:57,587 --> 00:02:59,886 ? Sing it right ? 17 00:02:59,888 --> 00:03:01,755 I... pushed him. 18 00:03:01,757 --> 00:03:04,993 No, nobody pushed him. 19 00:03:05,018 --> 00:03:07,094 ? Oh, lordy me ? 20 00:03:07,096 --> 00:03:08,262 Nobody. 21 00:03:08,264 --> 00:03:11,283 ? Didn't I shake sugaree? ? 22 00:03:12,514 --> 00:03:14,577 ? Everything I got ? 23 00:03:14,602 --> 00:03:16,413 ? Is done and pawned ? 24 00:03:16,936 --> 00:03:22,209 ? Have a little song, won't take long ? 25 00:03:22,211 --> 00:03:27,411 ? Sing it right once or twice ? 26 00:03:27,436 --> 00:03:33,121 ? Oh, lordy me didn't I shake sugaree? ? 27 00:03:33,146 --> 00:03:37,857 ? Everything I got is done and pawned ? 28 00:03:37,859 --> 00:03:38,859 Yeah. 29 00:03:53,207 --> 00:03:54,340 I fucked up. 30 00:03:56,489 --> 00:03:58,222 There's no other way to say it. 31 00:04:00,014 --> 00:04:02,548 And I don't think that I'm gonna wrap it in a bow 32 00:04:02,550 --> 00:04:04,865 and make it better, but... 33 00:04:05,654 --> 00:04:07,381 I'm desperate to fix it. 34 00:04:09,029 --> 00:04:11,523 Have you considered why you strayed? 35 00:04:13,203 --> 00:04:15,471 How's your husband to trust it won't happen again? 36 00:04:15,496 --> 00:04:17,529 - Because it won't. - But how can he trust that? 37 00:04:19,199 --> 00:04:20,585 Why should he? 38 00:04:20,610 --> 00:04:21,701 Thank you. 39 00:04:22,476 --> 00:04:25,043 We'll turn to your betrayal in a minute. 40 00:04:25,883 --> 00:04:27,082 My betrayal? 41 00:04:27,107 --> 00:04:29,140 Adultery is one form of infidelity. 42 00:04:29,142 --> 00:04:31,219 Indifference is another. 43 00:04:31,514 --> 00:04:34,012 You describe yourself as a go-along, get-along, 44 00:04:34,014 --> 00:04:35,903 don't-make-waves kinda guy. 45 00:04:35,928 --> 00:04:37,982 That makes you either wonderfully accommodating, 46 00:04:37,984 --> 00:04:40,404 or profoundly disengaged. 47 00:04:41,537 --> 00:04:44,623 Could it be Madeline was just trying to get your attention? 48 00:04:44,981 --> 00:04:48,240 She has always had my attention. 49 00:04:49,871 --> 00:04:54,341 Devotion on my end has not been a problem. 50 00:04:58,291 --> 00:05:00,373 Why were you unfaithful? 51 00:05:00,934 --> 00:05:03,000 - I don't know. - If you were to guess? 52 00:05:04,873 --> 00:05:06,389 Should I guess? 53 00:05:08,281 --> 00:05:09,653 You don't believe in you. 54 00:05:09,678 --> 00:05:11,512 How can you trust that relational equation 55 00:05:11,537 --> 00:05:13,660 when you have no faith in the sum part of you? 56 00:05:13,693 --> 00:05:15,137 Math's not my strong suit, so... 57 00:05:15,162 --> 00:05:16,521 Because you didn't go to college? 58 00:05:17,098 --> 00:05:18,098 I'm sorry? 59 00:05:18,123 --> 00:05:19,590 You spoke earlier 60 00:05:19,592 --> 00:05:21,592 of your daughter not wanting to go to college. 61 00:05:21,896 --> 00:05:24,230 Does that have something to do with her perception... 62 00:05:24,255 --> 00:05:26,564 I don't see where that is relevant. 63 00:05:26,566 --> 00:05:28,098 Did you go to college? 64 00:05:29,813 --> 00:05:31,912 Again, I don't see the connection 65 00:05:31,937 --> 00:05:33,512 between what's going on... 66 00:05:33,537 --> 00:05:35,239 Abigail will be nothing without college 67 00:05:35,241 --> 00:05:37,107 perhaps because you are? 68 00:05:42,192 --> 00:05:43,794 Have you been feeding her this? 69 00:05:44,124 --> 00:05:46,169 Why did your first husband leave you? 70 00:05:47,443 --> 00:05:48,943 Because he's an asshole. 71 00:05:52,227 --> 00:05:54,935 Tell me about your parents. What was their marriage like? 72 00:05:55,960 --> 00:05:57,152 - Fine. - Fine? 73 00:05:57,177 --> 00:05:59,185 - Married for 40 years. - Forty years. 74 00:05:59,632 --> 00:06:01,064 You talk to them much? 75 00:06:11,778 --> 00:06:14,109 You have to be able to hold your breath, baby. 76 00:06:14,533 --> 00:06:16,567 But I don't like it. 77 00:06:18,146 --> 00:06:21,928 You know what? I hate getting my head wet too, 78 00:06:21,953 --> 00:06:24,402 but we have to be able to hold our breath underwater 79 00:06:24,427 --> 00:06:26,872 so if something ever happens, we don't drown, baby. 80 00:06:30,594 --> 00:06:32,560 I don't want to. 81 00:06:38,437 --> 00:06:40,558 Maybe when I was three, four, 82 00:06:40,591 --> 00:06:43,598 I walked into my parent's bedroom, and my dad was... 83 00:06:44,457 --> 00:06:47,287 having sex with a woman that wasn't my mom. 84 00:06:47,552 --> 00:06:49,389 And they were making all kinds of noises, 85 00:06:49,414 --> 00:06:51,559 and then I scared. 86 00:06:51,816 --> 00:06:53,549 And what happened? 87 00:06:54,722 --> 00:06:57,589 He pulled me out. Um... 88 00:06:58,656 --> 00:07:00,958 And closed the door, and he said, 89 00:07:01,426 --> 00:07:04,770 "There are things your mother doesn't ever need to know." 90 00:07:05,059 --> 00:07:06,728 And you've never talked about it? 91 00:07:07,033 --> 00:07:08,033 No. 92 00:07:10,723 --> 00:07:14,573 I guess that... maybe that's why I was so devastated 93 00:07:14,606 --> 00:07:15,864 when Nathan left me. 94 00:07:17,086 --> 00:07:19,927 'Cause it confirmed my biggest fear about marriage. 95 00:07:22,357 --> 00:07:23,974 It's not to be trusted. 96 00:07:25,182 --> 00:07:26,915 Well, I wouldn't give up on Ed. 97 00:07:29,386 --> 00:07:32,099 - All right? - I really fucked up. 98 00:07:32,512 --> 00:07:35,231 He's not gonna leave you. Not Ed. 99 00:07:38,661 --> 00:07:40,028 How are you doing? 100 00:07:41,260 --> 00:07:44,145 Have you had any more early morning joyrides? 101 00:07:46,411 --> 00:07:48,191 - Funny. - No, I'm not... 102 00:07:48,216 --> 00:07:50,575 being funny. It actually really scared me. 103 00:07:51,200 --> 00:07:53,239 What did Madam Shrink have to say about that? 104 00:07:53,648 --> 00:07:56,448 She thinks it's somehow tied to me... 105 00:07:58,895 --> 00:08:01,163 not being sufficiently over Perry. 106 00:08:03,176 --> 00:08:07,458 Life just feels colorless now. It just feels flat and dull. 107 00:08:10,215 --> 00:08:14,739 As dead as he is, sometimes I think maybe I'm deader. 108 00:08:16,106 --> 00:08:18,573 - I was a better mother. - No. Honey... 109 00:08:18,598 --> 00:08:20,339 I was a better mother with him. I was. 110 00:08:20,364 --> 00:08:22,676 - No! Don't say that. - Yes. I was. 111 00:08:25,174 --> 00:08:27,174 I need to find joy for them. 112 00:08:29,011 --> 00:08:30,844 And he helps me with that. 113 00:08:43,151 --> 00:08:44,260 Jane. 114 00:08:44,557 --> 00:08:46,360 - Yeah? - I'm Mary Louise Wright. 115 00:08:46,518 --> 00:08:47,960 We may have met. 116 00:08:47,962 --> 00:08:50,868 - I'm Max and Josh's grandmother. - Yeah, hi. 117 00:08:50,893 --> 00:08:54,434 I'm sorry to trouble you here at work, but, um... 118 00:08:54,727 --> 00:08:59,032 Celeste has shared with me some... interesting news. 119 00:08:59,782 --> 00:09:03,313 How would you feel about submitting to a paternity test? 120 00:09:04,010 --> 00:09:07,049 I mean, submitting Ziggy to a paternity test. 121 00:09:09,400 --> 00:09:12,297 I... Yeah, I don't need to take a paternity test. 122 00:09:12,322 --> 00:09:13,852 I know exactly who my son's father is. 123 00:09:13,854 --> 00:09:15,188 Hmm. Even so... 124 00:09:15,190 --> 00:09:16,922 I'm not asking you for anything. 125 00:09:16,924 --> 00:09:18,923 No, I... I realize that. 126 00:09:18,948 --> 00:09:20,799 I suppose I'm asking. 127 00:09:21,455 --> 00:09:22,455 For what? 128 00:09:22,480 --> 00:09:24,906 Well, I'm presented with the idea that my son 129 00:09:24,931 --> 00:09:28,907 was both an adulterer and a... a rapist, 130 00:09:28,932 --> 00:09:31,908 and I am desperate to squash that idea. 131 00:09:32,908 --> 00:09:36,252 Well, I can tell you that he's the only man I'd been with. 132 00:09:36,946 --> 00:09:38,479 That you recall. 133 00:09:38,728 --> 00:09:39,860 Excuse me? 134 00:09:39,885 --> 00:09:41,758 Well, things happen these days. 135 00:09:41,783 --> 00:09:44,000 Men put drugs in pretty girls' drinks, 136 00:09:44,025 --> 00:09:47,009 and things happen. People don't remember sometimes. 137 00:09:47,034 --> 00:09:48,234 I remember. 138 00:09:49,014 --> 00:09:50,247 Perfectly. 139 00:09:51,325 --> 00:09:53,390 Far more vividly than I care to. 140 00:09:54,892 --> 00:09:57,092 - Just a simple blood test. - No. 141 00:10:03,008 --> 00:10:05,313 "What a tangled web we weave... 142 00:10:05,471 --> 00:10:08,713 when first, we practice to deceive." 143 00:10:09,135 --> 00:10:10,684 But Charlotte didn't say that. 144 00:10:10,709 --> 00:10:12,063 She said, "Some Pig." 145 00:10:12,088 --> 00:10:14,077 She didn't say anything about a tangled web. 146 00:10:14,079 --> 00:10:15,572 She certainly spun one. 147 00:10:16,072 --> 00:10:18,282 I mean, she made Wilbur out to be an outlier 148 00:10:18,284 --> 00:10:20,751 when in truth, he was kinda ordinary. 149 00:10:21,387 --> 00:10:22,520 So Ziggy... 150 00:10:24,219 --> 00:10:26,018 does that make Charlotte a liar? 151 00:10:29,227 --> 00:10:30,666 It makes her a grownup. 152 00:10:30,971 --> 00:10:32,863 Lying to protect someone she loves, 153 00:10:32,865 --> 00:10:34,164 that's what grownups do. 154 00:10:34,189 --> 00:10:36,833 I think she was probably just rebranding Wilbur. 155 00:10:36,971 --> 00:10:38,439 Rebranding? 156 00:10:38,853 --> 00:10:42,687 I see. Well... You all want to know what I think? 157 00:10:42,712 --> 00:10:44,011 Mm-hmm. 158 00:10:44,036 --> 00:10:47,843 I think Charlotte didn't want Wilbur to get eaten. 159 00:10:48,312 --> 00:10:50,935 I don't think she wanted any pigs to be eaten, 160 00:10:50,960 --> 00:10:52,624 and we all know why, don't we? 161 00:10:52,649 --> 00:10:55,385 Sustainability. 162 00:10:55,410 --> 00:10:57,459 Exactly. Exactly. 163 00:10:57,484 --> 00:10:59,420 How many gallons of water does it take 164 00:10:59,445 --> 00:11:01,357 to make a single pound of sausage? 165 00:11:01,382 --> 00:11:04,537 - A thousand. - A thousand gallons. 166 00:11:04,562 --> 00:11:06,329 And how many showers does that add up to? 167 00:11:06,331 --> 00:11:10,032 - Over 50. - Over 50 showers. 168 00:11:10,249 --> 00:11:14,045 So imagine, would you have to take a shower every single day 169 00:11:14,070 --> 00:11:16,226 for almost two months to... 170 00:11:22,073 --> 00:11:24,384 Amabella, your mother's gonna meet you at the hospital, 171 00:11:24,409 --> 00:11:26,197 - okay, sweetie? - I wanna go with her. 172 00:11:26,222 --> 00:11:27,486 Yeah, yeah. We've got you covered. 173 00:11:27,511 --> 00:11:28,878 Let me get her backpack. Sarah! 174 00:11:29,394 --> 00:11:31,053 What the fu... What happened? 175 00:11:31,055 --> 00:11:34,783 - Um, Mrs. Klein. - What... I'm Amabella's mom. 176 00:11:34,808 --> 00:11:38,094 Renata Klein. What... What did she do? What's... 177 00:11:38,096 --> 00:11:39,296 I'm Dr. Feldman. 178 00:11:39,703 --> 00:11:41,808 Your daughter was brought in with an anxiety attack. 179 00:11:41,833 --> 00:11:42,998 Anxiety attack? 180 00:11:43,000 --> 00:11:44,233 We've given her a mild sedative, 181 00:11:44,235 --> 00:11:46,670 she's resting comfortably, she's not in any danger. 182 00:11:46,695 --> 00:11:47,703 - She was in a little bit of... - Can I see her? 183 00:11:47,705 --> 00:11:49,086 ... a shock when she first came in, but... 184 00:11:49,111 --> 00:11:50,876 - What? - She's fine. She's resting comfortably. 185 00:11:50,901 --> 00:11:52,334 - Okay. - Yeah. Right back... Right this way. 186 00:11:52,359 --> 00:11:54,092 What did you do? 187 00:11:57,763 --> 00:12:02,628 Did somebody hurt you or say something or... 188 00:12:02,653 --> 00:12:06,255 - No. I'm okay, Mom. - Sweetheart. 189 00:12:06,387 --> 00:12:10,246 You were discovered in a closet practically unconscious. 190 00:12:10,481 --> 00:12:13,161 - Was she checked for bite marks? - Honey, come on. 191 00:12:13,163 --> 00:12:15,697 She was bitten last year, right? So... 192 00:12:15,918 --> 00:12:18,425 Maybe somebody's bullying you again or... 193 00:12:18,450 --> 00:12:21,448 - No... - Hey baby, you okay there, my girl? 194 00:12:21,473 --> 00:12:23,572 Don't talk to her. I got this, okay? 195 00:12:23,574 --> 00:12:25,690 I think you've done enough, don't you? 196 00:12:25,715 --> 00:12:28,448 You... What the hell are you talking about? 197 00:12:28,473 --> 00:12:32,147 Gordon, she's obviously under immense stress. 198 00:12:32,149 --> 00:12:34,184 You think, Renata? 199 00:12:34,385 --> 00:12:37,440 - Team. Team. - Yes, hello, Doctor, 200 00:12:37,465 --> 00:12:40,293 I would like my daughter transferred to Stanford, please. 201 00:12:41,167 --> 00:12:43,468 - Because? - Because it's Stanford! 202 00:12:43,493 --> 00:12:44,625 I mean, please. 203 00:12:45,325 --> 00:12:46,327 Well, she's being released. 204 00:12:46,329 --> 00:12:47,909 She's cleared for discharge. 205 00:12:47,934 --> 00:12:49,848 - Oh, look at that. - There we go. 206 00:12:49,873 --> 00:12:52,482 Hey... Counseling is certainly indicated. 207 00:12:52,769 --> 00:12:53,919 Uh-huh. 208 00:12:53,944 --> 00:12:55,591 Perhaps for the entire family. 209 00:12:56,357 --> 00:12:59,116 You don't know anything about my family. Okay? 210 00:12:59,365 --> 00:13:02,910 I know your own stress... not helping the situation. 211 00:13:02,912 --> 00:13:04,154 "Your own stress..." 212 00:13:05,370 --> 00:13:06,502 Please. 213 00:13:06,527 --> 00:13:09,685 Honey, isn't that great? We're gonna go home. 214 00:13:09,710 --> 00:13:11,719 - You're going home! - Don't talk to her. 215 00:13:14,923 --> 00:13:16,529 Will you ever forgive me? 216 00:13:16,554 --> 00:13:18,888 Yes, of course, honey. It's not your fault. 217 00:13:19,494 --> 00:13:20,960 I blurted it out. 218 00:13:20,962 --> 00:13:23,129 The blurting is not the problem. 219 00:13:23,131 --> 00:13:25,060 My doing it is the problem. 220 00:13:26,177 --> 00:13:28,868 Well, you're in therapy, so that's good. Right? 221 00:13:28,870 --> 00:13:30,068 Yeah... 222 00:13:30,816 --> 00:13:34,207 I mean... the doctor's pretty much a crock. 223 00:13:34,232 --> 00:13:37,420 She... She thinks I feel like an empty sack 224 00:13:37,445 --> 00:13:38,978 because I didn't graduate from college, 225 00:13:38,980 --> 00:13:41,607 and that's why I'm obsessed with your going. 226 00:13:42,225 --> 00:13:44,453 But that is not entirely true. 227 00:13:45,053 --> 00:13:46,053 Mom... 228 00:13:46,264 --> 00:13:48,664 I mean, when we would watch The Wizard of Oz, 229 00:13:48,689 --> 00:13:50,089 you would turn into a puddle 230 00:13:50,091 --> 00:13:52,491 every time The Scarecrow got his diploma. 231 00:13:55,800 --> 00:13:57,697 Well, I'm glad you're back home. 232 00:13:58,626 --> 00:14:00,833 Otherwise, I might be totally alone. 233 00:14:02,136 --> 00:14:03,535 He's not gonna leave you. 234 00:14:08,267 --> 00:14:11,344 - Hello! - Oh! 235 00:14:11,509 --> 00:14:15,368 We had such wonderful fun together! 236 00:14:15,393 --> 00:14:17,525 - Did you, honey? - Yeah. 237 00:14:17,550 --> 00:14:20,096 - Can Dr. Peep have a sleepover? - Oh... 238 00:14:20,121 --> 00:14:23,654 Oh, sweetheart, I would love that, 239 00:14:23,915 --> 00:14:25,797 but I need to get back to my sheep. 240 00:14:25,822 --> 00:14:27,470 I'm afraid they'd miss me. 241 00:14:28,195 --> 00:14:30,836 Could I talk to your parents for a second in private? 242 00:14:30,861 --> 00:14:32,601 Maybe you want to go play outside? 243 00:14:32,626 --> 00:14:34,848 - Look at the sunset! - I promise to come see you again. 244 00:14:34,873 --> 00:14:37,116 I'll bring tea and crumpets! 245 00:14:37,141 --> 00:14:38,307 Cool! 246 00:14:39,139 --> 00:14:40,538 I'll be right out. 247 00:14:40,563 --> 00:14:43,484 We arranged all her stuffies into a petting zoo. 248 00:14:43,509 --> 00:14:44,941 It was wonderful! 249 00:14:50,704 --> 00:14:52,460 Nobody's bullying her. 250 00:14:52,485 --> 00:14:54,343 She's worried about the end of the planet. 251 00:14:54,368 --> 00:14:55,765 - What? - Her class is evidently 252 00:14:55,790 --> 00:14:57,069 talking about climate change, 253 00:14:57,094 --> 00:14:59,089 and she's gotten the message that we're doomed. 254 00:14:59,114 --> 00:15:00,958 - Oh, my God. - Oh, for fuck's sake... 255 00:15:00,960 --> 00:15:02,460 You gotta be kidding me. 256 00:15:02,462 --> 00:15:04,477 She's also worried about you going to jail. 257 00:15:04,502 --> 00:15:05,711 Well, hello... 258 00:15:05,882 --> 00:15:07,352 And she's worried about you. 259 00:15:08,035 --> 00:15:09,287 Me? 260 00:15:09,312 --> 00:15:11,054 She thinks something is going on with you 261 00:15:11,079 --> 00:15:12,610 and has been for a long time. 262 00:15:13,653 --> 00:15:16,516 So there's you, you... 263 00:15:17,141 --> 00:15:18,641 mostly the end of the world. 264 00:15:20,008 --> 00:15:21,641 Do you know if it's wild or farmed? 265 00:15:21,943 --> 00:15:23,577 I believed it's farmed. 266 00:15:23,650 --> 00:15:25,819 - Land based or net-pen? - Sorry? 267 00:15:25,844 --> 00:15:27,602 Were they raised on land-based facilities 268 00:15:27,627 --> 00:15:28,883 or in net-pens in the ocean? 269 00:15:29,562 --> 00:15:33,645 Well, um... it's a fish, so I'm guessing the ocean. 270 00:15:33,679 --> 00:15:34,771 Could you check? 271 00:15:35,981 --> 00:15:38,060 - Sure... - Thanks. 272 00:15:39,296 --> 00:15:40,379 S... Sorry. 273 00:15:40,404 --> 00:15:41,531 It's okay. 274 00:15:41,533 --> 00:15:43,224 You have to be careful with some of the farm shit. 275 00:15:43,679 --> 00:15:45,574 So you just eat wild? 276 00:15:45,599 --> 00:15:48,438 Yeah. Yeah, mostly. But there's problems there, too. 277 00:15:48,440 --> 00:15:50,973 Some wild fish have tested positive for microplastics. 278 00:15:50,998 --> 00:15:53,543 Some wild salmon have tested positive for antidepressants. 279 00:15:55,080 --> 00:15:57,283 People have to ask where the fish come from, 280 00:15:57,308 --> 00:15:59,900 what they ate, how they lived, even how they died. 281 00:15:59,925 --> 00:16:00,982 If they're processed post-rigor, 282 00:16:01,007 --> 00:16:04,375 the bacteria can leech right into the flesh... 283 00:16:07,505 --> 00:16:08,505 Sorry. 284 00:16:09,085 --> 00:16:10,828 No, you don't have to apologize. 285 00:16:11,140 --> 00:16:12,828 I used to work at Santa Monica Seafood, 286 00:16:12,830 --> 00:16:15,163 so I was really into all this shit. 287 00:16:15,165 --> 00:16:17,631 It's great. And you're teaching me a lot. 288 00:16:17,656 --> 00:16:19,301 I'm trying to come off intelligent. 289 00:16:19,303 --> 00:16:20,503 It's working. 290 00:16:26,043 --> 00:16:27,416 I'm... I'm so sorry. 291 00:16:27,441 --> 00:16:29,645 I'm so sorry to be such a nuisance. 292 00:16:29,925 --> 00:16:32,244 Look, I was just... I was just wondering 293 00:16:32,269 --> 00:16:35,002 if there are any new developments in the case. 294 00:16:36,521 --> 00:16:39,971 We told you we would call if there were. 295 00:16:40,156 --> 00:16:42,721 Yes. Hmm... 296 00:16:43,136 --> 00:16:46,798 I have personally worked very hard to be mindful 297 00:16:46,823 --> 00:16:49,307 - of your unspeakable pain. - I know you care. 298 00:16:49,573 --> 00:16:52,190 I, perhaps, do seek out those who do. 299 00:16:52,541 --> 00:16:55,588 I know you are not allowed to say anything about the... 300 00:16:56,235 --> 00:16:59,916 case, or what you believe, but... 301 00:17:03,765 --> 00:17:04,998 A mother nee... 302 00:17:07,037 --> 00:17:08,870 A mother needs to know. 303 00:17:11,921 --> 00:17:15,288 You don't believe my son just slipped... 304 00:17:18,848 --> 00:17:19,914 do you? 305 00:17:22,164 --> 00:17:24,180 You don't think it's healthy to... to... 306 00:17:24,205 --> 00:17:26,232 To cling to the good memories? 307 00:17:26,393 --> 00:17:28,936 It can be. I don't think so here. 308 00:17:28,938 --> 00:17:31,033 But there are so many positives. 309 00:17:31,717 --> 00:17:35,330 So many. The way he loved me, the way he loved the boys. 310 00:17:35,355 --> 00:17:36,846 The boys loved him. I... 311 00:17:38,385 --> 00:17:42,415 I shouldn't erase all of that simply because you feel that... 312 00:17:42,417 --> 00:17:44,923 He almost killed you. 313 00:17:44,948 --> 00:17:46,383 He didn't almost kill me. 314 00:17:46,408 --> 00:17:48,621 He nearly smothered you with a cushion. 315 00:17:48,823 --> 00:17:51,692 If one of his kicks had landed on your head, 316 00:17:51,717 --> 00:17:53,250 you might very well be dead. 317 00:17:57,401 --> 00:18:01,301 I work with and treat quite a few veterans. 318 00:18:01,417 --> 00:18:03,228 Many want to return to combat. 319 00:18:03,253 --> 00:18:05,738 They can't handle the mundane. Normal life is dull. 320 00:18:08,481 --> 00:18:10,691 You miss the war, Celeste. 321 00:18:12,761 --> 00:18:14,261 I miss what was good. 322 00:18:14,460 --> 00:18:16,159 I don't miss what was bad. 323 00:18:16,184 --> 00:18:19,485 And keeping him in my heart. The good... The good part of him, 324 00:18:19,487 --> 00:18:22,121 that works for me. It works for the boys. 325 00:18:22,146 --> 00:18:25,003 It works for my family. That works. 326 00:18:26,594 --> 00:18:29,528 How did you get that bruise on your arm? 327 00:18:29,902 --> 00:18:31,877 I broke up a fight between the boys. 328 00:18:31,902 --> 00:18:32,902 Mm-hmm. 329 00:18:32,927 --> 00:18:35,246 Last week. I probably got whacked or something. 330 00:18:36,737 --> 00:18:38,814 Do you self-inflict your bruises? 331 00:18:38,839 --> 00:18:41,039 - What? - It's not uncommon. 332 00:18:41,041 --> 00:18:43,980 Victims of abuse, sometimes, they feel some... 333 00:18:44,904 --> 00:18:47,071 attachment to their wounds. 334 00:18:48,849 --> 00:18:50,636 Perhaps they remind you of him. 335 00:18:50,957 --> 00:18:54,449 I do not self-inflict any wounds. 336 00:18:55,582 --> 00:18:57,755 And your other patients do not inform on me. 337 00:18:57,757 --> 00:18:59,128 I'm not a statistic. 338 00:19:00,055 --> 00:19:01,955 Are you addict, Celeste? 339 00:19:02,696 --> 00:19:04,096 Is Perry your drug? 340 00:19:08,292 --> 00:19:09,900 I think it's really neat 341 00:19:09,902 --> 00:19:12,510 how passionate you are about things. 342 00:19:12,535 --> 00:19:15,527 Thank you. Are you passionate about things? 343 00:19:16,238 --> 00:19:18,699 Um... yeah, of course, I am. You know, I... 344 00:19:19,152 --> 00:19:22,313 I used to paint a lot. I was really into art. 345 00:19:23,650 --> 00:19:28,183 Now, I'm mostly passionate about my son. 346 00:19:28,871 --> 00:19:32,189 I have a kid. I probably should've told you that earlier, 347 00:19:32,221 --> 00:19:34,998 but it's kind of a weird thing to bring up. 348 00:19:36,563 --> 00:19:39,676 He's great. His name is Ziggy. He's in second grade. 349 00:19:39,709 --> 00:19:40,997 I would love to meet him. 350 00:19:41,882 --> 00:19:43,857 Yeah, maybe one day. 351 00:19:44,732 --> 00:19:47,136 I'm sure you guys would get along great. 352 00:19:47,138 --> 00:19:49,418 He knows a lot of random shit, too. 353 00:19:49,451 --> 00:19:53,217 You guys could talk about a lot of weird facts. 354 00:19:56,081 --> 00:19:57,380 Um... 355 00:19:57,382 --> 00:19:59,529 I'm sorry. I'm sorry. 356 00:20:01,123 --> 00:20:04,498 No, no, it's fine. It's uh... Not you. 357 00:20:07,873 --> 00:20:10,600 I just gotta idle in neutral for a little bit. That's... 358 00:20:10,861 --> 00:20:12,701 kinda my M.O. right now. 359 00:20:13,235 --> 00:20:15,202 - Neutral. Okay. - Yeah. 360 00:20:16,227 --> 00:20:17,399 I can do that. 361 00:20:26,939 --> 00:20:28,204 I... 362 00:20:29,024 --> 00:20:33,774 am... the greatest... 363 00:20:33,799 --> 00:20:36,047 monster! 364 00:20:36,072 --> 00:20:40,355 And I come to devour... 365 00:20:40,357 --> 00:20:43,124 two young chickadees! 366 00:20:43,126 --> 00:20:44,978 My heavens! 367 00:20:46,783 --> 00:20:48,572 He was the best monster. 368 00:20:49,572 --> 00:20:50,883 Show her the angry beaver. 369 00:20:50,908 --> 00:20:52,330 Yeah, let me see that one. 370 00:20:52,900 --> 00:20:55,035 Did your mom make this for you? 371 00:20:55,037 --> 00:20:56,369 We all did. 372 00:20:58,409 --> 00:20:59,961 He sounds like a bear. 373 00:20:59,986 --> 00:21:01,720 He liked to combine animals. 374 00:21:01,745 --> 00:21:04,750 - Yeah. - Oh, here's the teacup one. 375 00:21:05,202 --> 00:21:06,450 How we doing here? 376 00:21:07,148 --> 00:21:08,687 We're showing Grandma the memory book. 377 00:21:08,712 --> 00:21:10,412 It's wonderful. 378 00:21:12,161 --> 00:21:13,404 Here's Guess How Much I Love You. 379 00:21:13,429 --> 00:21:14,867 That one's kinda boring. 380 00:21:14,892 --> 00:21:17,375 No, no, no. Let me... I want to see that one. 381 00:21:17,400 --> 00:21:20,604 - We loved that book. - Okay... 382 00:21:20,629 --> 00:21:23,474 "He was almost too sleepy to think anymore. 383 00:21:24,140 --> 00:21:26,500 Then he looked beyond the thorn bushes, 384 00:21:26,835 --> 00:21:29,039 out into the big dark night. 385 00:21:30,071 --> 00:21:32,656 Nothing could be further than the sky. 386 00:21:33,336 --> 00:21:36,576 'I love you right up to the moon,' he said, 387 00:21:36,578 --> 00:21:38,289 and closed his eyes. 388 00:21:38,679 --> 00:21:43,092 'Oh, that's far. That is very, very far.' 389 00:21:43,117 --> 00:21:45,836 Big Nutbrown Hare settled Little Nutbrown Hare 390 00:21:45,861 --> 00:21:47,528 into his bed of leaves. 391 00:21:47,867 --> 00:21:49,990 "He leaned over and kissed him goodnight." 392 00:21:50,024 --> 00:21:51,537 Right on the forehead. 393 00:22:06,553 --> 00:22:08,618 Chloe said Amabella had a stroke. 394 00:22:08,643 --> 00:22:11,106 She didn't have a stroke. She just had a panic attack. 395 00:22:11,131 --> 00:22:13,240 They're different. She's totally okay. 396 00:22:14,100 --> 00:22:16,602 And Max thinks she got possessed by Satan. 397 00:22:16,920 --> 00:22:18,395 You can tell Max that he's wrong 398 00:22:18,420 --> 00:22:21,537 because Satan can only be so many places at once. 399 00:22:22,880 --> 00:22:26,709 Come on, get in the car. Let's go. Please get in the car. 400 00:22:27,427 --> 00:22:28,493 Ziggy... 401 00:23:09,993 --> 00:23:11,903 That's Perry's brother, Raymond? 402 00:23:11,905 --> 00:23:12,905 Yes. 403 00:23:12,930 --> 00:23:14,715 Oh my God, he looks just like Ziggy. 404 00:23:14,740 --> 00:23:16,500 It... It's uncanny, isn't it? 405 00:23:18,914 --> 00:23:20,139 Oh my God. 406 00:23:20,164 --> 00:23:21,547 Wait, look. 407 00:23:22,929 --> 00:23:25,453 They have the same cheeks. That's crazy. 408 00:23:25,478 --> 00:23:26,547 Wow... 409 00:23:27,258 --> 00:23:31,219 It's a bit... unsettling. 410 00:23:31,936 --> 00:23:34,350 I should like to be in Ziggy's life. I... 411 00:23:36,006 --> 00:23:39,139 I mean, I'm... I'm his grandmother. 412 00:23:39,579 --> 00:23:40,579 Yeah. 413 00:23:40,910 --> 00:23:44,745 I just needed a... some time to wrestle with that idea but... 414 00:23:44,770 --> 00:23:45,879 Is he sweet? 415 00:23:48,808 --> 00:23:51,536 Yeah. He's the best. 416 00:23:51,561 --> 00:23:53,444 My boys were so sweet. 417 00:23:54,647 --> 00:23:56,888 I don't think there was a gentler 418 00:23:56,913 --> 00:24:01,889 or more tender little boy than Perry. 419 00:24:03,614 --> 00:24:07,517 He was so sweet and gentle. 420 00:24:09,694 --> 00:24:11,861 Um... grew up to be neither. 421 00:24:14,483 --> 00:24:17,163 This is perhaps an unfair question... 422 00:24:17,788 --> 00:24:21,804 On the night of your... rendez-vous with my son, 423 00:24:21,806 --> 00:24:24,061 who initiated the encounter? 424 00:24:26,041 --> 00:24:28,642 Does that make a difference? 425 00:24:29,600 --> 00:24:32,949 I know how devoted he was to Celeste, 426 00:24:33,920 --> 00:24:35,663 and I... I just... 427 00:24:36,631 --> 00:24:40,061 can't conceive how he... Unless he was tempted. 428 00:24:40,866 --> 00:24:43,559 As men can be in a moment of weakness. 429 00:24:44,405 --> 00:24:46,819 Did you initiate, Jane? 430 00:24:47,957 --> 00:24:49,055 No. 431 00:24:52,717 --> 00:24:55,318 You trying to apologize on his behalf? 432 00:24:55,359 --> 00:24:57,428 To just... justify what he did? 433 00:24:57,756 --> 00:25:01,373 Celeste has shared with me that she and Perry had a... 434 00:25:02,123 --> 00:25:04,412 a complicated sex life... 435 00:25:05,091 --> 00:25:08,220 - one that included violence. - She shared that with you? 436 00:25:09,068 --> 00:25:10,333 Yes. 437 00:25:10,842 --> 00:25:15,401 And I'm... It makes me wonder if, perhaps, he misinterpreted 438 00:25:15,426 --> 00:25:18,127 or misread a signal from you. 439 00:25:19,428 --> 00:25:21,197 Your son raped me... 440 00:25:22,066 --> 00:25:23,298 and as he was doing so, 441 00:25:23,300 --> 00:25:25,377 I was screaming for him to get off. 442 00:25:28,672 --> 00:25:30,869 I don't think that you "misread" that. 443 00:25:33,650 --> 00:25:35,961 I don't mean to offend you, I just... 444 00:25:35,986 --> 00:25:40,353 It's... I just can't surrender to this notion that he was... 445 00:25:43,687 --> 00:25:45,806 evil. I can't... 446 00:25:48,039 --> 00:25:51,438 I just do so want to be believe there was good in him. 447 00:25:51,923 --> 00:25:55,503 I can't... did you see good in him? 448 00:25:56,440 --> 00:26:01,440 Before the bad... Did you see... good in him? 449 00:26:40,706 --> 00:26:43,915 It's literally like... it couldn't be dumber. 450 00:26:43,948 --> 00:26:45,946 I know! I know! 451 00:26:45,948 --> 00:26:47,964 - Hey. - Hey! How are you? 452 00:26:49,050 --> 00:26:51,612 Yeah, I'm good. Good. What are you doing? 453 00:26:52,386 --> 00:26:54,431 Just, um... chattin'. 454 00:26:54,456 --> 00:26:56,089 Having some coffee. What's up with you? 455 00:26:58,126 --> 00:26:59,823 You... You look better. Brighter. 456 00:27:00,454 --> 00:27:01,519 Thanks. 457 00:27:07,323 --> 00:27:10,069 Um, I should get going to the studio. 458 00:27:10,344 --> 00:27:12,365 Yeah, I'll let you guys, um... 459 00:27:12,540 --> 00:27:13,606 All right. 460 00:27:14,060 --> 00:27:16,300 Thanks for the chat... and the laugh. 461 00:27:16,568 --> 00:27:17,998 - Totally. - I needed that, so... 462 00:27:18,889 --> 00:27:20,412 - Good to see ya. - Yeah, you too. 463 00:27:20,414 --> 00:27:21,480 Bye. 464 00:27:21,482 --> 00:27:23,382 - Bye, Maddie. - Okay, bye. 465 00:27:25,318 --> 00:27:27,453 I should probably get going, too, here. 466 00:27:27,455 --> 00:27:30,088 So... what were you talking about? 467 00:27:30,090 --> 00:27:31,957 Her, uh, mother. 468 00:27:33,227 --> 00:27:35,732 It seems everyone has mother issues. 469 00:27:39,068 --> 00:27:40,920 How long are you gonna punish me? 470 00:27:41,654 --> 00:27:46,969 Well, for as long as I need or want, I guess. 471 00:27:46,994 --> 00:27:50,650 Wow, that was just cold and mean when just a few seconds ago, 472 00:27:50,675 --> 00:27:52,704 you were so warm and friendly with Bonnie. 473 00:27:53,361 --> 00:27:56,234 Yeah, I guess, that would be sort of a twofer, wouldn't it? 474 00:27:56,259 --> 00:27:58,751 Could piss off both you and Nathan at the same time. 475 00:27:58,776 --> 00:28:00,375 That's a good idea. 476 00:28:01,900 --> 00:28:03,650 Well, that's just cruel, Ed. 477 00:28:04,564 --> 00:28:06,158 And you're not cruel. 478 00:28:06,626 --> 00:28:11,296 Well, whatever I am or have been 479 00:28:11,298 --> 00:28:13,765 hasn't netted the desired results, 480 00:28:13,767 --> 00:28:15,734 so why not mix it up? 481 00:28:19,947 --> 00:28:22,148 I don't even know who he is right now. 482 00:28:22,173 --> 00:28:23,876 He'll play through it. He will. 483 00:28:23,901 --> 00:28:25,301 He just... 484 00:28:26,290 --> 00:28:28,384 He's just being so hateful. 485 00:28:28,409 --> 00:28:30,828 How could I think even think anything about my life is real? 486 00:28:30,853 --> 00:28:33,001 My first marriage was not real. 487 00:28:34,204 --> 00:28:36,148 My second marriage, turns out I'm the fraud. 488 00:28:36,173 --> 00:28:38,406 I can't even believe in myself anymore, 489 00:28:38,431 --> 00:28:41,058 and, like, look at my friendships and... 490 00:28:42,447 --> 00:28:44,061 What about your friendships? 491 00:28:44,063 --> 00:28:46,263 I had no clue, Celeste. 492 00:28:46,525 --> 00:28:48,765 I didn't even have the slightest idea 493 00:28:48,790 --> 00:28:50,304 that you were living through that, 494 00:28:50,329 --> 00:28:52,320 and it makes me feel like you couldn't even tell me. 495 00:28:52,345 --> 00:28:53,938 - I'm sorry for keeping... - Don't say sorry. 496 00:28:53,940 --> 00:28:56,134 ... this secret... But I am. It's... 497 00:28:56,790 --> 00:28:59,015 If I was in your situation, I probably... 498 00:28:59,040 --> 00:29:00,142 Probably what? 499 00:29:00,167 --> 00:29:02,812 Would have done the same things as me? Hmm? 500 00:29:02,837 --> 00:29:05,369 - No, Madeline, you wouldn't. - I don't know. 501 00:29:05,567 --> 00:29:08,501 You would have been out of that marriage so fast. 502 00:29:09,329 --> 00:29:10,492 I wish. 503 00:29:10,517 --> 00:29:12,889 I wish I had told you. I do. 504 00:29:16,115 --> 00:29:18,616 You would have jumped into that pool, pulled me out. 505 00:29:23,470 --> 00:29:26,164 What possesses two idiots like yourselves 506 00:29:26,189 --> 00:29:28,820 to teach eight-year-olds that the planet is doomed? 507 00:29:28,845 --> 00:29:31,318 The children are constantly bombarded with climate change. 508 00:29:31,343 --> 00:29:32,883 It is all over the news. 509 00:29:32,908 --> 00:29:36,112 It's our job to deconstruct it so that they can process it. 510 00:29:36,276 --> 00:29:39,845 Good for you. You deconstructed my little girl into a coma. 511 00:29:39,870 --> 00:29:42,306 Renata, look. We scheduled an assembly for this evening. 512 00:29:42,339 --> 00:29:44,487 Okay? You are not the only parent complaining. 513 00:29:44,489 --> 00:29:46,386 Just, by far, the loudest. 514 00:29:47,560 --> 00:29:48,659 You're pitiful. 515 00:29:48,685 --> 00:29:51,552 Okay, this is gonna come as a shock to you. 516 00:29:51,847 --> 00:29:56,246 This school is actually here to serve all the children, 517 00:29:56,271 --> 00:29:57,970 not just Amabella. 518 00:29:58,276 --> 00:30:00,824 You think 'cause of this whole bankruptcy thing... 519 00:30:01,528 --> 00:30:03,410 that the school thinks I don't matter? 520 00:30:03,908 --> 00:30:05,213 Please. 521 00:30:05,238 --> 00:30:08,104 I will be rich again. I will rise up. 522 00:30:08,129 --> 00:30:11,745 I will buy a fucking polar bear for every kid in this school. 523 00:30:11,770 --> 00:30:15,498 And then, I will squish you like the bug that you are. 524 00:30:15,523 --> 00:30:16,943 Pretends like he's not a smoker. 525 00:30:16,968 --> 00:30:18,904 Hasn't been laid in 15 fucking years. 526 00:30:18,929 --> 00:30:20,355 Don't you talk to me like that! 527 00:30:20,357 --> 00:30:23,139 And you, I can't be bothered to squish you. 528 00:30:23,164 --> 00:30:24,748 You're a model citizen, Renata. 529 00:30:24,773 --> 00:30:25,927 I told you, 530 00:30:25,929 --> 00:30:27,796 these second-grade mothers, they are Shakespearean. 531 00:30:29,032 --> 00:30:32,500 That woman, she's the fucking Medusa of Monterey. 532 00:30:32,710 --> 00:30:34,736 And yes, I smoke. Do you want one of these? 533 00:30:35,148 --> 00:30:36,805 - Yes, please. - Yeah, I got a spot outside 534 00:30:36,807 --> 00:30:38,521 where the kids can't fucking see us. 535 00:30:38,546 --> 00:30:40,764 Fuck them. Oh, my God, I am so livid. 536 00:30:40,789 --> 00:30:42,043 - Okay, let's... - I am so livid. 537 00:30:42,068 --> 00:30:43,668 Let's go get a coffee or something. 538 00:30:43,773 --> 00:30:45,500 Please. The teacher was in on it. 539 00:30:45,525 --> 00:30:47,521 He really said, "Go to hell?" 540 00:30:47,546 --> 00:30:48,928 - Yeah, he's a shit. - Oh, my God. 541 00:30:48,953 --> 00:30:50,250 They practically kill my daughter, 542 00:30:50,252 --> 00:30:54,170 and then he's just dismissing me like that? What a pus-fuck. 543 00:30:54,195 --> 00:30:55,826 - And then... - Oh. 544 00:30:55,851 --> 00:30:58,373 Mary Louise. D-Did you find a place? 545 00:30:58,398 --> 00:30:59,760 Maybe. Just saw one. 546 00:30:59,762 --> 00:31:00,994 Good, good, good. 547 00:31:00,996 --> 00:31:02,396 You know Renata Klein? 548 00:31:02,398 --> 00:31:03,873 - We do... - I don't believe I do. 549 00:31:03,898 --> 00:31:07,686 We... We did meet. At the funeral. I'm so sorry. 550 00:31:07,711 --> 00:31:10,414 - I was a friend of Perry's. - You were there. 551 00:31:11,007 --> 00:31:12,481 When he fell. 552 00:31:13,248 --> 00:31:16,781 I was. That was, uh... devastating. 553 00:31:17,813 --> 00:31:20,875 Mm-hmm. So sorry to interrupt. 554 00:31:22,109 --> 00:31:23,626 - I... - Come on. Let's get out of here. 555 00:31:23,651 --> 00:31:26,343 - What... What... What the fuck is that? - I don't know. She's very strange. 556 00:31:26,955 --> 00:31:28,488 Whoo! 557 00:31:28,779 --> 00:31:30,412 - Whoo! - Jane. 558 00:31:30,859 --> 00:31:32,325 - Hey. - Hi! 559 00:31:32,327 --> 00:31:34,332 Oh, my God! What are you doing here? 560 00:31:34,357 --> 00:31:35,832 - Just going for a run. - How are you? 561 00:31:35,857 --> 00:31:37,463 - I'm good. How are you? - I'm good. 562 00:31:37,465 --> 00:31:38,918 Oh, my gosh, that's so funny. 563 00:31:38,943 --> 00:31:41,122 Ziggy's learning to surf. Corey's teaching him. 564 00:31:41,147 --> 00:31:42,576 This is getting kinda serious, huh? 565 00:31:42,607 --> 00:31:44,286 No, no... Told Ziggy about him 566 00:31:44,311 --> 00:31:46,567 and told him that he was teaching me to surf, 567 00:31:46,592 --> 00:31:48,108 so of course, he wanted to learn. 568 00:31:48,110 --> 00:31:49,209 Yeah. 569 00:31:49,234 --> 00:31:50,341 Yeah. 570 00:31:50,366 --> 00:31:52,042 He did try to kiss me the other night, though. 571 00:31:52,080 --> 00:31:53,445 - And? - It was... 572 00:31:53,447 --> 00:31:55,014 extremely awkward. 573 00:31:55,016 --> 00:31:57,549 I don't know. My body just shut down. 574 00:31:57,842 --> 00:31:59,232 Does he know about your history? 575 00:31:59,257 --> 00:32:00,489 Mm-mm. Not yet. 576 00:32:01,085 --> 00:32:02,293 You should talk to him. 577 00:32:02,318 --> 00:32:04,248 I don't know if I'm ready for that. 578 00:32:05,123 --> 00:32:07,333 Look, any real relationship you're gonna have, 579 00:32:07,358 --> 00:32:08,522 if you wanna have one... 580 00:32:09,655 --> 00:32:11,063 he's gotta know who you are, right? 581 00:32:11,065 --> 00:32:13,299 Yeah. I guess that's true. 582 00:32:16,121 --> 00:32:17,121 What? 583 00:32:18,493 --> 00:32:19,921 I'm such a hypocrite. 584 00:32:20,522 --> 00:32:22,350 Nathan has no idea who I am. 585 00:32:24,412 --> 00:32:26,543 Oh, my God! Go, Ziggy! Go, baby, yes! 586 00:32:26,576 --> 00:32:30,310 Stand up! Stand up! Stand up! Stand up! Ah, you're doing it! 587 00:32:35,658 --> 00:32:37,290 Turn that shit off. 588 00:32:43,286 --> 00:32:44,286 Three things: 589 00:32:44,311 --> 00:32:46,264 one, we're throwing Amabella a birthday party, 590 00:32:46,289 --> 00:32:48,569 and I'm sparing no cost. She's unhappy. 591 00:32:48,967 --> 00:32:50,512 Two, I had it out with Nippal. 592 00:32:50,537 --> 00:32:52,137 I've gotta go back to the school. 593 00:32:52,162 --> 00:32:53,371 They wanna talk about climate change 594 00:32:53,373 --> 00:32:56,075 and the end of the world, which actually, if it comes, 595 00:32:56,100 --> 00:32:57,820 - it might be a sweet relief. - Damn right. 596 00:32:57,845 --> 00:33:00,294 And three, sell your fucking toys. 597 00:33:00,319 --> 00:33:01,526 It's not just me, you know. 598 00:33:01,551 --> 00:33:03,946 - Excuse me? - Putting stress on Amabella. 599 00:33:03,971 --> 00:33:05,455 I mean, what I did didn't help, of course, but... 600 00:33:05,480 --> 00:33:07,581 - What did I do? - You tell me. 601 00:33:09,252 --> 00:33:10,821 I mean, when I first met you, you... 602 00:33:10,823 --> 00:33:13,493 You had your guardrails up to your earlobes. 603 00:33:13,518 --> 00:33:15,159 - Please. - Penetrating you was like... 604 00:33:15,549 --> 00:33:17,595 It was like piercing a cement wall. 605 00:33:18,066 --> 00:33:20,708 It took some time, but I eventually chipped through, you know. 606 00:33:20,948 --> 00:33:23,434 Well, guess what? The last, I don't know, 12 months or so, 607 00:33:23,436 --> 00:33:25,073 the guardrails are back up. 608 00:33:25,424 --> 00:33:27,238 Fuck, I mean you are here, you're there, you're everywhere, 609 00:33:27,240 --> 00:33:30,791 but you are never present, and I feel it. 610 00:33:31,311 --> 00:33:33,026 And Amabella feels it. 611 00:33:34,314 --> 00:33:36,579 - Did she say that? - I'm saying it. 612 00:33:36,581 --> 00:33:38,557 Your husband is saying it. 613 00:33:41,137 --> 00:33:43,637 There is something going on with you. 614 00:33:45,071 --> 00:33:46,330 Correct. 615 00:33:46,522 --> 00:33:48,955 My husband put us in the poorhouse. 616 00:33:49,549 --> 00:33:50,715 Sell your shit. 617 00:33:52,564 --> 00:33:54,041 First off, thank you all for coming 618 00:33:54,066 --> 00:33:57,860 to a special evening assembly at our wonderful, 619 00:33:57,885 --> 00:33:59,587 wonderful Otter Bay, 620 00:33:59,612 --> 00:34:01,766 and a special thanks to those parents 621 00:34:01,791 --> 00:34:04,282 who took special time out of their busy lives 622 00:34:04,307 --> 00:34:06,696 to reach out to me directly about this important issue, 623 00:34:06,721 --> 00:34:09,424 - so thank you. - You're welcome. Yeah. 624 00:34:09,799 --> 00:34:13,092 Now, as we all know, anxiety is an epidemic 625 00:34:13,117 --> 00:34:14,417 in our schools. 626 00:34:14,419 --> 00:34:16,685 Really? It wouldn't be if you weren't teaching them... 627 00:34:16,687 --> 00:34:17,953 All right, let's take a breath, everybody, 628 00:34:17,978 --> 00:34:19,920 and let's try and keep this constructive, shall we? 629 00:34:20,343 --> 00:34:24,396 Climate change and the toll that it takes on our students, 630 00:34:24,421 --> 00:34:26,544 it is a complicated matter, okay? 631 00:34:26,569 --> 00:34:27,930 That is why we called this ad hoc 632 00:34:27,955 --> 00:34:30,255 Golden Bell Award-winning assembly: 633 00:34:30,280 --> 00:34:32,411 because not only will you hear from me, 634 00:34:32,436 --> 00:34:35,071 we would love to hear from you. The parents. 635 00:34:35,495 --> 00:34:36,649 Okay, hold up. 636 00:34:36,674 --> 00:34:38,840 We've already told you how we feel about it. 637 00:34:38,842 --> 00:34:40,630 This is not how I want this to go. 638 00:34:40,663 --> 00:34:42,209 Everybody, please sit down... 639 00:34:42,746 --> 00:34:44,150 Shut up! 640 00:34:44,175 --> 00:34:45,175 Really? 641 00:34:45,200 --> 00:34:47,297 Are you seriously telling us to shut up? 642 00:34:47,322 --> 00:34:48,664 Madeline Mackenzie. Lovely. 643 00:34:48,689 --> 00:34:51,086 Okay, since you've taken this opportunity to speak up, 644 00:34:51,088 --> 00:34:52,845 let us first hear from you. 645 00:34:52,870 --> 00:34:54,345 Would you like to come up here please, Madeline? 646 00:34:54,370 --> 00:34:55,503 Why... Why me? 647 00:34:55,528 --> 00:34:58,156 Because you're a beacon among us, Madeline. 648 00:34:58,181 --> 00:35:00,180 - Now, please, come up here. - Fine. No, no, I'm fine. 649 00:35:00,205 --> 00:35:01,697 - Thank you. - And make sure they know 650 00:35:01,699 --> 00:35:03,632 - my daughter was in a coma. - Okay. Okay, yeah. 651 00:35:03,634 --> 00:35:05,205 Madeline Mackenzie, everyone. Please. 652 00:35:11,208 --> 00:35:12,707 Just share your thoughts. 653 00:35:15,712 --> 00:35:18,361 I mean, where do we even begin? Honestly? 654 00:35:18,548 --> 00:35:20,947 About everything? 655 00:35:21,994 --> 00:35:24,820 I mean, Principal Nippal, you have a very good point. 656 00:35:24,845 --> 00:35:27,287 Climate change is important. It's important. 657 00:35:27,455 --> 00:35:30,625 But it's also a lot to load up on a lot of second graders. 658 00:35:30,627 --> 00:35:31,806 - I'm sorry. - Yes. 659 00:35:31,831 --> 00:35:34,331 That the whole world might go kapooey. 660 00:35:34,356 --> 00:35:35,556 They need to know that? 661 00:35:35,939 --> 00:35:37,697 You know, I think part of the problem is... 662 00:35:38,641 --> 00:35:40,129 we lie to our kids. 663 00:35:40,361 --> 00:35:42,670 We fill their heads full of Santa Claus 664 00:35:42,695 --> 00:35:45,023 and stories with happy endings, when most of us know 665 00:35:45,048 --> 00:35:47,818 most endings to most stories fucking suck. 666 00:35:48,367 --> 00:35:50,533 Right? Let's just get real. 667 00:35:51,553 --> 00:35:53,013 There aren't a lot of happy endings 668 00:35:53,015 --> 00:35:54,536 for a lot of people, you know. 669 00:35:54,561 --> 00:35:57,998 Be it climate change, be it guns in schools. 670 00:35:58,920 --> 00:36:01,762 And our kids are afraid. They're afraid to go to school. 671 00:36:01,795 --> 00:36:03,547 They're afraid they're gonna get shot. 672 00:36:03,792 --> 00:36:05,191 We don't prepare them. 673 00:36:05,193 --> 00:36:07,527 We fill their heads full of happy endings 674 00:36:07,529 --> 00:36:10,211 and happy stories and lies. 675 00:36:11,078 --> 00:36:13,070 And... And we tell them things like, "You're fine." 676 00:36:13,095 --> 00:36:15,470 You're gonna be fine," and we tell ourselves... 677 00:36:16,252 --> 00:36:18,291 We tell ourselves we're gonna be fine. 678 00:36:18,853 --> 00:36:20,072 But we're not. 679 00:36:21,192 --> 00:36:23,664 You know that song that we used to sing when we were little, 680 00:36:23,689 --> 00:36:24,861 "The Rainbow Connection"? 681 00:36:24,886 --> 00:36:25,955 There's a line in it, 682 00:36:25,980 --> 00:36:28,378 they talk about rainbows are illusions. 683 00:36:28,403 --> 00:36:29,541 And then... 684 00:36:29,900 --> 00:36:31,583 there's another line, and it goes on, 685 00:36:31,585 --> 00:36:32,875 and it says that, that... 686 00:36:32,900 --> 00:36:35,892 "Who said every wish would be granted... 687 00:36:36,877 --> 00:36:39,624 would be... if you wish on a morning star." 688 00:36:39,649 --> 00:36:40,743 Do you remember that? 689 00:36:41,632 --> 00:36:43,455 But this is the part that I thought... 690 00:36:45,946 --> 00:36:48,179 Is that "Somebody thought of that..." 691 00:36:49,713 --> 00:36:51,595 Then someone believed them. 692 00:36:52,106 --> 00:36:54,106 "And look what it's done..." 693 00:36:54,108 --> 00:36:56,445 We have to tell the children that... that... 694 00:36:56,470 --> 00:36:59,517 Life is an illusion and things don't work out sometimes, 695 00:36:59,908 --> 00:37:02,898 and that... and... you can't tell them part of the truth. 696 00:37:02,923 --> 00:37:04,868 You have to tell them the whole truth. 697 00:37:15,744 --> 00:37:17,220 She's not picking up. 698 00:37:17,767 --> 00:37:21,973 Um, is this a full blown breakdown or something? I mean... 699 00:37:21,998 --> 00:37:24,381 Too much to get up there and help her, Ed? 700 00:37:25,162 --> 00:37:27,572 Hmm? She's your fucking wife. 701 00:37:27,574 --> 00:37:29,973 Well, thanks for the tip, Celeste. 702 00:37:30,099 --> 00:37:32,527 Maybe we could get coffee, you and me, 703 00:37:32,552 --> 00:37:35,446 and you could fill me in on whatever else I've missed. 704 00:37:38,962 --> 00:37:41,234 You don't think he knows about... 705 00:37:41,754 --> 00:37:42,853 No. 706 00:37:57,737 --> 00:37:58,969 Where is he? 707 00:37:59,838 --> 00:38:01,037 I don't know. 708 00:38:02,484 --> 00:38:03,836 Is he moving out? 709 00:38:05,929 --> 00:38:07,982 Well, he hasn't packed his things yet. 710 00:38:18,681 --> 00:38:20,296 Well, I heard... 711 00:38:21,493 --> 00:38:23,926 about your speech tonight. 712 00:38:23,928 --> 00:38:25,555 Can you get me some wine? 713 00:38:28,249 --> 00:38:29,537 He'll be back. 714 00:38:34,575 --> 00:38:35,853 Thank you, honey. 715 00:38:46,140 --> 00:38:48,684 - What are you doing? - Oh, sweet Jesus! 716 00:38:48,827 --> 00:38:50,522 You gave me such a fright. 717 00:38:51,121 --> 00:38:54,513 Well... Okay, I won't lie. 718 00:38:54,538 --> 00:38:56,919 I have been having trouble sleeping of late 719 00:38:56,952 --> 00:39:00,502 and so I thought you might have a little helper or two. 720 00:39:01,031 --> 00:39:02,287 You're snooping. 721 00:39:02,312 --> 00:39:05,022 You have quite an impressive array. 722 00:39:08,491 --> 00:39:11,071 I think it's probably best if you find another place. 723 00:39:11,096 --> 00:39:13,832 Celeste, I am on your side. 724 00:39:14,027 --> 00:39:16,421 So you keep saying. Hmm. 725 00:39:16,446 --> 00:39:17,702 Vicodin. 726 00:39:18,342 --> 00:39:21,372 You have to be so careful of these opioids, dear. 727 00:39:21,851 --> 00:39:23,451 Sometimes I needed it. 728 00:39:24,787 --> 00:39:26,186 For the pain. 729 00:39:32,836 --> 00:39:34,502 Like when after he kicked me. 730 00:39:44,538 --> 00:39:46,239 I had a really good time again. 731 00:39:56,733 --> 00:39:58,433 I'm not gonna try and kiss you. 732 00:40:01,200 --> 00:40:04,216 But I would like to give you a goodnight hug. 733 00:40:05,246 --> 00:40:06,512 How does that sound? 734 00:40:07,055 --> 00:40:08,488 That sounds great. 735 00:40:12,447 --> 00:40:15,083 - Okay. - This is a weird hug. 736 00:40:19,308 --> 00:40:20,575 We're touching. 737 00:40:21,175 --> 00:40:23,443 - I'm blushing. - How's it going? 738 00:40:26,715 --> 00:40:29,549 Are we dancing? Is that... Is that what this is? 739 00:40:29,997 --> 00:40:32,378 Is that your secret scheme? To get me to dance with you? 740 00:40:32,403 --> 00:40:33,886 It's really good idea, yeah. 741 00:40:33,911 --> 00:40:35,597 I'm not that smooth, but yeah, 742 00:40:35,622 --> 00:40:37,731 I guess we could dance if you want to dance, sure. 743 00:40:56,911 --> 00:40:58,153 Hey, Sparkles. 744 00:40:59,914 --> 00:41:01,919 I'm just calling to say good night. 745 00:41:02,516 --> 00:41:05,918 But you've probably already gone to bed. 746 00:41:08,336 --> 00:41:10,302 I'm having a little trouble sleeping. 747 00:41:12,059 --> 00:41:13,872 And I was hoping you could help me. 748 00:41:17,431 --> 00:41:19,598 But I guess I'm on my own. 749 00:41:21,649 --> 00:41:23,817 Though not really. 750 00:41:24,137 --> 00:41:26,145 I can just close my eyes and... 751 00:41:28,542 --> 00:41:30,372 and pretend that you're here. 752 00:41:35,381 --> 00:41:36,848 I love you, baby. 753 00:41:38,350 --> 00:41:39,582 Love you. 754 00:42:50,087 --> 00:42:53,487 Synced & corrected by QueenMaddie www.addic7ed.com