1 00:00:00,167 --> 00:00:01,701 Previously on New Amsterdam"... 2 00:00:01,733 --> 00:00:03,608 You've been accused of form 3 00:00:03,633 --> 00:00:06,020 a non therapeutic alliance with your patient, Avi Mantell. 4 00:00:06,047 --> 00:00:08,415 Rules exist for a reason. And I broked them 5 00:00:08,449 --> 00:00:09,650 Now, the only thing for me to do 6 00:00:09,684 --> 00:00:12,219 is to be a different therapist. 7 00:00:12,253 --> 00:00:13,820 I was actually here to talk to Max 8 00:00:13,855 --> 00:00:15,489 about extending my leave. 9 00:00:15,523 --> 00:00:17,734 - Oh, for how long? - Forever. 10 00:00:17,769 --> 00:00:19,526 Max? 11 00:01:04,138 --> 00:01:09,977 _ 12 00:01:21,255 --> 00:01:25,058 Wow, Dora, you really are as terrifying as Max says. 13 00:01:25,093 --> 00:01:26,760 And I'm going easy 'cause you're 14 00:01:26,794 --> 00:01:28,462 new to the role of medical director. 15 00:01:28,496 --> 00:01:31,064 Deputy medical director. I'm only taking on Max's duties 16 00:01:31,099 --> 00:01:32,454 while he's recuperating. 17 00:01:32,488 --> 00:01:34,167 Yeah, well, you're ten minutes late 18 00:01:34,202 --> 00:01:36,236 to your first meeting, which is a baller move 19 00:01:36,270 --> 00:01:37,504 so soon into your tenure. 20 00:01:37,538 --> 00:01:39,239 I'm on my way. 21 00:01:39,273 --> 00:01:42,669 Could you, um, message this to Dr. Valentina Castro? 22 00:01:42,703 --> 00:01:43,910 Max's DNA? 23 00:01:43,945 --> 00:01:45,846 Please don't Jurassic Park him. 24 00:01:45,880 --> 00:01:47,481 One Max is more than I can handle. 25 00:01:47,515 --> 00:01:49,316 It's for a new treatment, one that will get him back 26 00:01:49,350 --> 00:01:51,918 into the hospital ASAP, so I no longer have to be... 27 00:01:51,953 --> 00:01:54,521 Sharpe, just the medical director I was looking for. 28 00:01:54,555 --> 00:01:56,301 Deputy medical director. 29 00:01:56,335 --> 00:01:57,475 How can I help? 30 00:01:57,500 --> 00:02:00,208 Oh I, um... I need ecstasy. 31 00:02:01,029 --> 00:02:03,255 Like, the feeling of bliss? 32 00:02:03,256 --> 00:02:05,723 Like MDMA, like drugs. 33 00:02:05,758 --> 00:02:09,294 Is this a joke? 34 00:02:09,328 --> 00:02:10,929 Am I being hazed? 35 00:02:10,963 --> 00:02:12,797 No, we don't... we don't do that anymore, right? 36 00:02:12,832 --> 00:02:14,799 Uh, no, I have a patient who is exhibiting 37 00:02:14,834 --> 00:02:16,901 the most aggressive PTSD I think I've ever seen. 38 00:02:16,936 --> 00:02:18,570 Kapoor and I've tried everything. 39 00:02:18,604 --> 00:02:21,005 Nothing makes a dent, so I would like you 40 00:02:21,040 --> 00:02:23,174 to sign my new treatment strategy. 41 00:02:23,209 --> 00:02:24,576 Max thoroughly approved. 42 00:02:24,610 --> 00:02:26,644 Oh-ho. Was he high at the time? 43 00:02:26,679 --> 00:02:27,946 No, but he actually made that same joke 44 00:02:27,980 --> 00:02:30,081 when he approved it, so it's cool. 45 00:02:30,115 --> 00:02:31,950 It's a good joke, I think. Great minds, right? 46 00:02:31,984 --> 00:02:34,118 Listen, I assure you MDMA, under the proper supervision, 47 00:02:34,153 --> 00:02:35,820 allows a patient to confront their memories 48 00:02:35,855 --> 00:02:37,355 in a trigger-free environment... it's amazing. 49 00:02:37,389 --> 00:02:39,858 Yeah, see you later. It teaches them to remember 50 00:02:39,892 --> 00:02:42,260 a traumatic event instead of reliving it. 51 00:02:42,294 --> 00:02:44,462 All right, either you sign so I can get the pure stuff 52 00:02:44,496 --> 00:02:46,664 from upstairs, or I'm gonna have to go score from a guy 53 00:02:46,699 --> 00:02:50,335 named Rocket who lives in his grandmother's basement. 54 00:02:50,369 --> 00:02:52,303 Yeah, just... Okay, fine. 55 00:02:52,338 --> 00:02:54,172 Aces. 56 00:02:55,708 --> 00:02:59,777 Wow, signing off on illicit drugs on your first day. 57 00:02:59,812 --> 00:03:00,812 Hmm. 58 00:03:02,882 --> 00:03:04,616 Yeah. 59 00:03:06,418 --> 00:03:08,987 Oh, my gosh, that's true, though. 60 00:03:09,021 --> 00:03:10,555 How long have you all had this tradition? 61 00:03:10,589 --> 00:03:12,957 Oh, how many Sunday's is in forever? 62 00:03:12,992 --> 00:03:15,694 - Mom! - Hey, uh, Jayden... 63 00:03:15,735 --> 00:03:18,796 No matter how old we got, Mama has always made sure 64 00:03:18,831 --> 00:03:21,232 we're here every Sunday eating her food, right? 65 00:03:21,267 --> 00:03:23,534 It's been family tradition since before I was born. 66 00:03:23,569 --> 00:03:27,005 Sunday means church, family, and a meal with two meats. 67 00:03:27,039 --> 00:03:28,806 - No exceptions. - That's right. 68 00:03:28,841 --> 00:03:30,241 - Right? - Yep, yep. 69 00:03:31,677 --> 00:03:34,178 My family never did the church thing, 70 00:03:34,213 --> 00:03:35,713 but we're very spiritual. 71 00:03:35,748 --> 00:03:37,805 - Hmm. - Uh, which spirit? 72 00:03:40,085 --> 00:03:41,719 - Uh, Brandi... - Hmm? 73 00:03:41,754 --> 00:03:44,222 Don't make me bust out the drill team photos. 74 00:03:44,256 --> 00:03:46,724 Oh, uh, okay, Foofy. 75 00:03:46,759 --> 00:03:49,093 Ooh! 76 00:03:49,128 --> 00:03:50,495 All right, forget the drill team photos. 77 00:03:50,529 --> 00:03:52,163 I'm busting out prom. 78 00:03:52,197 --> 00:03:56,000 - Everybody look right here. - Two words... sportin' waves. 79 00:03:56,035 --> 00:03:57,702 I'm gonna put you both in the corner 80 00:03:57,736 --> 00:04:00,071 if you can't find your manners. 81 00:04:00,105 --> 00:04:03,841 So, Evie, you're a lawyer at Floyd's hospital? 82 00:04:03,876 --> 00:04:05,510 Well, I-I got there first, actually. 83 00:04:05,544 --> 00:04:07,712 - Oh? - By one week. 84 00:04:07,746 --> 00:04:10,949 Okay. I did my undergrad at Yale, 85 00:04:10,983 --> 00:04:14,118 and I went to, uh... I went to law school at NYU. 86 00:04:14,153 --> 00:04:15,853 So I did have a leg up on the city. 87 00:04:15,888 --> 00:04:18,523 Oh, I had the HBCU experience. 88 00:04:18,557 --> 00:04:20,379 Do they have Greeks at Yale? 89 00:04:20,413 --> 00:04:21,526 I pledged AKA. 90 00:04:21,560 --> 00:04:23,528 Oh, hey Soror. 91 00:04:23,562 --> 00:04:25,096 - No way! - Oh, yes. 92 00:04:25,130 --> 00:04:26,137 Oh, my goodness. 93 00:04:26,172 --> 00:04:29,067 Oh, I knew I liked her. 94 00:04:30,569 --> 00:04:34,138 Okay, I hear you. I hear you. 95 00:04:40,593 --> 00:04:42,245 There you go. 96 00:04:44,183 --> 00:04:45,650 Sorry. 97 00:04:47,186 --> 00:04:49,420 Keep in mind, Dr. Kapoor and I will be here 98 00:04:49,455 --> 00:04:51,212 with you the entire time. 99 00:04:56,217 --> 00:04:59,137 Jacob, you don't have to do this, obviously, but... 100 00:04:59,598 --> 00:05:02,066 before you say no, can I just ask, 101 00:05:02,101 --> 00:05:05,643 when was the last time a loud noise didn't scare you? 102 00:05:06,205 --> 00:05:09,147 Or when was the last time you felt safe in a crowded room? 103 00:05:09,708 --> 00:05:11,691 Or slept without nightmares? 104 00:05:12,678 --> 00:05:14,746 You cannot keep going through life 105 00:05:14,780 --> 00:05:17,029 feeling like everyone is a threat. 106 00:05:17,616 --> 00:05:19,017 But they are. 107 00:05:19,051 --> 00:05:22,086 Just turn on the news... hate crimes, wars, 108 00:05:22,121 --> 00:05:24,922 they put kids in cages, and no one cares. 109 00:05:24,957 --> 00:05:27,592 It's not PTSD. People are a threat. 110 00:05:27,626 --> 00:05:29,542 People are evil. 111 00:05:30,329 --> 00:05:33,463 Do you know what the cruelest symptom of PTSD is? 112 00:05:35,006 --> 00:05:36,424 It's a thief. 113 00:05:37,300 --> 00:05:40,136 It robs us of the ability to see the light. 114 00:05:41,173 --> 00:05:43,141 But that doesn't mean it's not there. 115 00:05:43,175 --> 00:05:48,146 Do you remember how it felt when the world had light? 116 00:05:51,689 --> 00:05:55,620 This process is how you get that light back, Jacob. 117 00:06:24,349 --> 00:06:26,017 Max? 118 00:06:28,195 --> 00:06:29,754 Max. 119 00:06:35,127 --> 00:06:36,566 No, it's not me. It's Georgia. 120 00:06:36,600 --> 00:06:37,929 What happened? 121 00:06:37,963 --> 00:06:39,730 Uh, the placenta previa ruptured. 122 00:06:39,765 --> 00:06:41,833 - I was about to call 911. - Do it now. 123 00:06:44,236 --> 00:06:46,270 The blood, it happened so fast. 124 00:06:46,305 --> 00:06:47,572 Okay, we need to get you off the floor. 125 00:06:47,606 --> 00:06:49,073 Max? 126 00:06:49,108 --> 00:06:51,008 No, I-I was too weak. I couldn't lift her. 127 00:06:51,043 --> 00:06:52,443 Okay, well, now you got me. 128 00:06:52,478 --> 00:06:53,845 Come on. Ready? One, two, three. 129 00:06:53,879 --> 00:06:55,847 911, what's your emergency? 130 00:06:55,881 --> 00:06:57,115 Max, 911. 131 00:06:57,149 --> 00:06:58,516 911, what's your emergency? 132 00:06:58,550 --> 00:07:00,118 - Any fever? Chills? - Um, no. 133 00:07:00,152 --> 00:07:01,240 - Any contractions? - No. 134 00:07:01,275 --> 00:07:03,354 I need an ambulance to, uh, 42 East 17th Street. 135 00:07:03,388 --> 00:07:05,690 I need paramedics, not EMTs, and I need you to get here now. 136 00:07:05,724 --> 00:07:06,858 Heart rate up to 180 and thready. 137 00:07:06,892 --> 00:07:08,359 No, no, just get here. 138 00:07:08,393 --> 00:07:10,394 - Is that bad? - No, just try to relax, okay? 139 00:07:10,429 --> 00:07:13,264 Max, Max, can I, uh... 140 00:07:13,298 --> 00:07:14,966 Uh, they're 12 minutes out. 141 00:07:15,000 --> 00:07:16,734 That's too far away... Georgia will bleed out 142 00:07:16,768 --> 00:07:18,736 - before they arrive. - No, there's time. 143 00:07:18,770 --> 00:07:22,540 Max, she's out of time. We need to ligate the artery. 144 00:07:25,744 --> 00:07:27,245 Here? 145 00:07:27,279 --> 00:07:29,213 And now. 146 00:08:01,947 --> 00:08:04,415 Hey, look at me. I'm right here. 147 00:08:04,449 --> 00:08:05,983 I'm with you, okay? 148 00:08:06,018 --> 00:08:08,159 I'm right here with you. 149 00:08:09,288 --> 00:08:12,924 The fentanyl should already be working. 150 00:08:12,958 --> 00:08:17,351 Okay, you're gonna feel a slight heaviness, 151 00:08:17,396 --> 00:08:19,497 and then you're gonna drift off to sleep. 152 00:08:19,531 --> 00:08:20,637 Hmm. 153 00:08:20,671 --> 00:08:23,167 And then... and then we'll be able to operate 154 00:08:23,202 --> 00:08:25,301 without you feeling a thing. 155 00:08:28,307 --> 00:08:32,376 All these drugs, they... they might hurt her. 156 00:08:32,411 --> 00:08:33,678 Will they hurt her? 157 00:08:34,310 --> 00:08:36,047 It's not gonna hurt the baby. 158 00:08:36,081 --> 00:08:37,949 It's not... it's not gonna hurt her? 159 00:08:37,983 --> 00:08:40,952 No, I promise, no. 160 00:08:40,986 --> 00:08:43,054 The opiate will slow Luna's heart rate a little, 161 00:08:43,088 --> 00:08:46,113 but we'll be monitoring her every step of the way. 162 00:08:48,660 --> 00:08:50,201 Okay. 163 00:08:50,696 --> 00:08:52,828 Hey, it's gonna work. 164 00:08:53,365 --> 00:08:55,520 It's gonna work. It's gonna work. 165 00:09:02,774 --> 00:09:07,093 I don't want Luna to have to take ballet because of me, Max. 166 00:09:08,552 --> 00:09:10,314 No, no, she won't. 167 00:09:12,618 --> 00:09:15,319 I want her to experience everything... 168 00:09:15,354 --> 00:09:17,561 Everything... 169 00:09:18,624 --> 00:09:20,825 rock climbing... 170 00:09:20,859 --> 00:09:22,775 and clarinet... 171 00:09:23,528 --> 00:09:24,829 and painting. 172 00:09:24,863 --> 00:09:26,530 She will. 173 00:09:26,565 --> 00:09:29,115 No, you have to encourage her, Max. 174 00:09:30,282 --> 00:09:32,326 You have to help her. 175 00:09:32,871 --> 00:09:35,706 You have to help her find her own voice... 176 00:09:37,542 --> 00:09:38,876 Her own path. 177 00:09:38,910 --> 00:09:41,335 We can encourage her together... 178 00:09:42,047 --> 00:09:43,848 you and me. 179 00:09:46,585 --> 00:09:47,852 But if I don't... 180 00:09:47,886 --> 00:09:50,755 - Stop, stop. No. - If I don't, Max... 181 00:09:51,220 --> 00:09:52,523 No. 182 00:09:54,059 --> 00:09:57,127 I need you to promise me something. 183 00:09:59,898 --> 00:10:02,566 Promise me that you'll save her... 184 00:10:02,601 --> 00:10:04,568 save her first. 185 00:10:07,072 --> 00:10:08,873 Promise, I need you to promise me. 186 00:10:09,280 --> 00:10:11,409 Promise you'll save our baby girl. 187 00:10:13,478 --> 00:10:16,547 Promise me, no matter what. 188 00:10:19,751 --> 00:10:21,619 I... 189 00:10:22,921 --> 00:10:24,555 Promise me. 190 00:10:32,664 --> 00:10:34,398 Max... 191 00:10:34,433 --> 00:10:36,400 it's time. 192 00:10:49,221 --> 00:10:51,488 Let me go! Will you guys just listen to me? 193 00:10:51,522 --> 00:10:52,822 Nice save, Victoria. I have done nothing wrong. 194 00:10:52,857 --> 00:10:54,758 Yeah, what all innocent people scream. 195 00:10:54,792 --> 00:10:56,826 - This lunatic... - My name is Wilson Hatch. 196 00:10:56,861 --> 00:10:58,461 This lunatic, Wilson Hatch, 197 00:10:58,496 --> 00:11:00,497 swallowed the biggest balloon of cocaine I've ever seen. 198 00:11:00,531 --> 00:11:01,931 - No, no. - We need an X-ray 199 00:11:01,966 --> 00:11:04,068 of his abdomen so we can get him on intent to sell. 200 00:11:04,102 --> 00:11:05,662 This is... Okay, this might fly with people 201 00:11:05,696 --> 00:11:07,358 who don't know any better, but I am a partner 202 00:11:07,399 --> 00:11:09,314 at Wyman, Frost, and Handle. 203 00:11:09,348 --> 00:11:10,829 I know my rights. You guys have nothing on me. 204 00:11:10,854 --> 00:11:12,522 I'm out of here. I'm done. I'm leaving. 205 00:11:12,556 --> 00:11:13,990 Yeah, you're leaving... you're leaving this floor 206 00:11:14,024 --> 00:11:15,458 and heading up to radiology. 207 00:11:15,492 --> 00:11:17,306 - Let's go, buddy. - I don't consent to that. 208 00:11:18,262 --> 00:11:21,064 Ow, Mom. How you gonna do me like that? 209 00:11:21,098 --> 00:11:24,133 I love you, but you take food with your bare hands, 210 00:11:24,168 --> 00:11:25,969 I'll put you over my knee. 211 00:11:26,003 --> 00:11:27,236 I can't help it. 212 00:11:27,271 --> 00:11:28,399 It's so good, and I can't live without it, 213 00:11:28,433 --> 00:11:29,465 just like I can't live without you. 214 00:11:29,499 --> 00:11:31,507 Oh. 215 00:11:31,542 --> 00:11:34,377 So she's amazing, right? 216 00:11:34,945 --> 00:11:36,846 She's an exceptional young lady. 217 00:11:36,880 --> 00:11:39,749 Good, I was hoping you'd say that because... 218 00:11:39,783 --> 00:11:41,084 it's time... 219 00:11:41,118 --> 00:11:42,819 for me to use the family ring. 220 00:11:42,853 --> 00:11:44,554 Oh, honey. 221 00:11:44,588 --> 00:11:45,687 What? 222 00:11:45,721 --> 00:11:48,925 Evie seems like the perfect woman, 223 00:11:48,959 --> 00:11:51,494 just not the perfect woman for you. 224 00:11:55,566 --> 00:11:57,500 Don't want to pull too hard. 225 00:11:57,534 --> 00:12:00,269 A half hedge will fully occlude the artery. 226 00:12:02,473 --> 00:12:05,208 That should do it. 227 00:12:05,242 --> 00:12:07,410 Bleeding should be under control. 228 00:12:11,148 --> 00:12:12,415 Huh? 229 00:12:12,449 --> 00:12:14,572 Georgia's having a contraction. 230 00:12:15,285 --> 00:12:17,120 It... it... it's squeezing the cord. 231 00:12:17,154 --> 00:12:18,721 Heart rate down to 40. 232 00:12:18,756 --> 00:12:20,690 If it goes any lower, it... it... uh... 233 00:12:20,724 --> 00:12:23,292 Uh, we... we need to stop the contraction. 234 00:12:23,327 --> 00:12:25,194 I can't. It can only pass... 235 00:12:27,665 --> 00:12:29,766 By itself. 236 00:12:30,667 --> 00:12:32,368 Max... 237 00:12:33,415 --> 00:12:35,705 The baby won't survive another one. 238 00:12:38,275 --> 00:12:40,109 So we have to get her out. 239 00:12:40,144 --> 00:12:41,477 There'll be too much blood loss, 240 00:12:41,512 --> 00:12:43,146 Georgia's lost enough as it is. 241 00:12:43,180 --> 00:12:44,647 No, you did one surgery, you can do another. 242 00:12:44,682 --> 00:12:47,150 Except this time, Georgia will die. 243 00:12:50,688 --> 00:12:53,622 Yes, Max, the hospital 244 00:12:53,657 --> 00:12:55,491 is still here, so you can go back to bed. 245 00:12:55,526 --> 00:12:57,660 I need you to listen to me. 246 00:12:57,695 --> 00:12:59,662 911 dispatched an ambulance to my apartment, 247 00:12:59,697 --> 00:13:01,230 but they don't have everything that we need. 248 00:13:01,265 --> 00:13:02,999 An ambulance? Why? 249 00:13:03,033 --> 00:13:05,103 I need you to call dispatch and have them go back 250 00:13:05,137 --> 00:13:07,210 to the station, and... and, uh, they need to pick up 251 00:13:07,244 --> 00:13:09,203 trauma dressing and surgical gloves and oxygen, 252 00:13:09,228 --> 00:13:10,695 and then I need a second ambulance 253 00:13:10,729 --> 00:13:12,430 from New Amsterdam that's fully stocked 254 00:13:12,464 --> 00:13:15,137 with B-positive blood and mifepristone. 255 00:13:15,171 --> 00:13:18,002 I'm doing it now. Max, what's happening? 256 00:13:18,037 --> 00:13:20,596 I'm trying to save my family. 257 00:13:23,642 --> 00:13:25,443 We just finished finals. 258 00:13:25,477 --> 00:13:29,013 Third year, never have to take a test again, so... 259 00:13:29,048 --> 00:13:30,615 we went out to celebrate. 260 00:13:30,649 --> 00:13:32,107 Who's we? 261 00:13:32,617 --> 00:13:34,351 I can't remember exactly. 262 00:13:34,376 --> 00:13:36,177 Try. 263 00:13:46,832 --> 00:13:48,700 It's me... 264 00:13:48,734 --> 00:13:50,980 Bobby, and Emma. 265 00:13:55,174 --> 00:13:56,974 We're outside the door. 266 00:14:01,180 --> 00:14:02,714 What happened next? 267 00:14:11,690 --> 00:14:13,190 You got a problem? 268 00:14:13,552 --> 00:14:14,986 Perhaps we should wait. 269 00:14:15,011 --> 00:14:16,452 No, no, no, no, he... 270 00:14:16,477 --> 00:14:18,337 he's not talking to me. 271 00:14:21,200 --> 00:14:22,400 Hey! 272 00:14:22,434 --> 00:14:23,634 He said... 273 00:14:23,669 --> 00:14:25,494 You got a problem? 274 00:14:25,971 --> 00:14:28,940 Jacob, leave it alone. 275 00:14:28,974 --> 00:14:30,842 This guy just bumps into me. 276 00:14:30,876 --> 00:14:32,076 He's big. 277 00:14:36,515 --> 00:14:38,015 It's all right, Jacob. 278 00:14:38,050 --> 00:14:39,983 We're right here with you. It's okay. 279 00:14:40,376 --> 00:14:41,715 It's okay It's okay, Jacob. 280 00:14:41,750 --> 00:14:44,522 Hey, we're right here with you, Jacob. 281 00:14:47,493 --> 00:14:51,529 I... I didn't know it was a pipe bomb when it happened. 282 00:15:01,340 --> 00:15:04,442 I see Emma. She's... 283 00:15:04,476 --> 00:15:06,160 Emma? 284 00:15:07,746 --> 00:15:09,480 Help! 285 00:15:09,515 --> 00:15:12,116 This piece of stone is crushing her. 286 00:15:12,151 --> 00:15:14,051 She... she can't breathe. 287 00:15:14,086 --> 00:15:16,253 I have to get her out, but... 288 00:15:17,139 --> 00:15:18,425 it's too heavy. 289 00:15:18,459 --> 00:15:21,025 Please, somebody help me! 290 00:15:21,059 --> 00:15:23,060 If just one person helps me, I can get it off. 291 00:15:23,095 --> 00:15:25,129 Just one person, but no one helps. 292 00:15:25,164 --> 00:15:27,965 Not Bobby, not... not anyone. 293 00:15:29,535 --> 00:15:32,170 Ah! 294 00:15:32,204 --> 00:15:36,507 Now they're trampling me, and I can't move, 295 00:15:36,542 --> 00:15:39,510 And she's dying. No one will help. 296 00:15:39,545 --> 00:15:41,879 They're all running right over us. 297 00:15:41,914 --> 00:15:44,182 Watch it! 298 00:15:44,216 --> 00:15:47,518 Why would he do that? 299 00:15:47,553 --> 00:15:50,298 It's okay... it's okay, Jacob. 300 00:15:50,332 --> 00:15:52,690 No, why would he do that? 301 00:15:52,724 --> 00:15:53,914 It's okay. It's okay. Just breathe. 302 00:15:53,948 --> 00:15:55,494 Help me. 303 00:15:55,528 --> 00:15:57,241 Help me, Dr. Frome. Help me. 304 00:15:59,798 --> 00:16:03,034 Please, Dr. Frome, help me. 305 00:16:04,770 --> 00:16:06,571 I'm sorry, Jacob. I need... I need to... 306 00:16:06,605 --> 00:16:08,105 I need something 307 00:16:08,140 --> 00:16:09,745 Dr. Frome, what's happening? 308 00:16:09,779 --> 00:16:11,679 Dr. Frome, what's happening? 309 00:16:14,146 --> 00:16:15,809 You're in New Amsterdam Hospital. 310 00:16:15,844 --> 00:16:17,515 - You're in Manhattan. - Where is she? 311 00:16:17,549 --> 00:16:19,283 - What's happening? - You're... you're safe. 312 00:16:19,318 --> 00:16:21,452 Dr. Frome, where is he? 313 00:16:21,487 --> 00:16:23,287 Take the FDR, anything else will take too long. 314 00:16:23,322 --> 00:16:24,698 And remember, when you get there, cut up early. 315 00:16:24,733 --> 00:16:25,758 It's a one-way. 316 00:16:25,793 --> 00:16:27,792 Wait! Wait, I'm coming. 317 00:16:27,826 --> 00:16:30,441 Dr. Sharpe, you cannot leave. You are the medical director. 318 00:16:30,442 --> 00:16:33,276 And I learned from the best. 319 00:16:49,969 --> 00:16:53,768 Max, uh, we need to talk about what happens if... 320 00:16:53,793 --> 00:16:55,269 They'll get here. 321 00:16:56,796 --> 00:16:58,864 If Georgia has another contraction, 322 00:16:59,203 --> 00:17:01,238 there's not gonna be time to talk. 323 00:17:01,272 --> 00:17:03,006 I'm gonna have to deliver the baby, 324 00:17:03,031 --> 00:17:04,665 or we're risking both their lives. 325 00:17:04,709 --> 00:17:06,655 But if you open her up... 326 00:17:07,879 --> 00:17:09,783 before the blood gets here, 327 00:17:10,715 --> 00:17:12,369 she might not make it. 328 00:17:13,551 --> 00:17:18,188 Which is why we need to decide who... 329 00:17:18,750 --> 00:17:20,357 No, they'll get here. 330 00:17:20,391 --> 00:17:22,025 They have to. 331 00:17:24,882 --> 00:17:27,030 I've been so selfish... 332 00:17:29,167 --> 00:17:33,370 Thinking that I was the one... who wouldn't survive. 333 00:17:33,404 --> 00:17:35,539 I never even stopped to think, what if... 334 00:17:38,576 --> 00:17:40,647 Georgia... 335 00:17:42,914 --> 00:17:45,115 And Luna. 336 00:17:45,149 --> 00:17:48,071 You know what? It's okay. We don't have to... 337 00:17:49,187 --> 00:17:52,723 Um, If you hadn't shown up when you did... 338 00:17:52,757 --> 00:17:55,225 I don't know what I would've done. 339 00:18:03,267 --> 00:18:05,214 Thank God you're here. 340 00:18:06,104 --> 00:18:08,300 By the way... 341 00:18:10,708 --> 00:18:12,576 Why are you here? 342 00:18:15,194 --> 00:18:17,147 We can talk about that later. 343 00:18:27,792 --> 00:18:30,594 - You can't keep ignoring me. - I'm not ignoring you. 344 00:18:30,628 --> 00:18:32,062 We've got guests, 345 00:18:32,096 --> 00:18:34,097 and these dishes are not gonna walk themselves in. 346 00:18:34,132 --> 00:18:35,766 You're always reminding me how you're saving 347 00:18:35,800 --> 00:18:37,934 the family ring for me, and now I finally want to use it. 348 00:18:37,969 --> 00:18:41,505 All your adult life you keep telling me about your plan, 349 00:18:41,539 --> 00:18:45,175 that you want your new family to look like this one. 350 00:18:45,209 --> 00:18:46,576 Yeah, I still do. 351 00:18:46,611 --> 00:18:48,111 And how's that gonna happen with Evie? 352 00:18:48,146 --> 00:18:50,113 She doesn't even go to church. 353 00:18:50,148 --> 00:18:52,249 Ma, that doesn't mean that I can't. 354 00:18:52,283 --> 00:18:54,885 I even noticed that Evie doesn't cook. 355 00:18:54,919 --> 00:18:56,253 Doesn't cook 'cause she can't. 356 00:18:56,287 --> 00:18:57,954 She... she works 12 hours a day. 357 00:18:57,989 --> 00:19:00,023 So is she giving that up... 358 00:19:00,058 --> 00:19:03,460 when you have your kids? 359 00:19:03,494 --> 00:19:04,428 Are you? 360 00:19:04,462 --> 00:19:06,463 I don't know. 361 00:19:06,497 --> 00:19:07,731 Exactly. 362 00:19:07,765 --> 00:19:10,200 Come back for the ring when you do know. 363 00:19:15,840 --> 00:19:18,475 Don't say it. 364 00:19:18,509 --> 00:19:20,310 She just wants you to be happy. 365 00:19:20,344 --> 00:19:23,647 No, she wants me to marry somebody like her. 366 00:19:23,681 --> 00:19:26,483 'Cause that's how you get a family like this. 367 00:19:26,517 --> 00:19:30,087 No judgment... that's just the reality. 368 00:19:31,258 --> 00:19:33,790 A life with Evie isn't gonna look like this. 369 00:19:33,825 --> 00:19:36,159 It's not gonna look like what you planned, 370 00:19:36,194 --> 00:19:38,662 and Mama's smart enough to see that. 371 00:19:38,696 --> 00:19:40,001 Why can't you? 372 00:19:54,145 --> 00:19:56,199 He's calmer now. 373 00:19:57,047 --> 00:19:58,614 Good. 374 00:19:59,897 --> 00:20:01,631 Thank you. 375 00:20:11,462 --> 00:20:13,530 When Jacob started to break down in there, 376 00:20:13,564 --> 00:20:15,093 my instinct was... 377 00:20:16,720 --> 00:20:18,472 It was to hold him. 378 00:20:19,237 --> 00:20:21,872 That seemed like the appropriate response. 379 00:20:21,906 --> 00:20:23,560 But I can't... 380 00:20:25,103 --> 00:20:26,543 not after what happened with Avi. 381 00:20:26,577 --> 00:20:28,145 I can't do that. 382 00:20:30,734 --> 00:20:32,486 So I just froze. 383 00:20:34,029 --> 00:20:36,019 This is different than Avi. 384 00:20:36,053 --> 00:20:37,954 No, it's not. 385 00:20:41,186 --> 00:20:42,954 I feel like... 386 00:20:44,262 --> 00:20:46,708 the physical contact... 387 00:20:48,099 --> 00:20:49,733 is all I have. 388 00:20:51,602 --> 00:20:55,759 It's... it's my crutch, you know? 389 00:20:56,593 --> 00:20:58,742 The only thing I have in my bag of tricks. 390 00:21:00,912 --> 00:21:04,518 Iggy, sometimes people need the physical contact... 391 00:21:05,435 --> 00:21:07,187 to feel cared for. 392 00:21:08,230 --> 00:21:12,255 But it's not the only trick you have. 393 00:21:12,290 --> 00:21:16,092 It just heightens your other gifts. 394 00:21:16,127 --> 00:21:18,094 You can't doubt that. 395 00:21:20,731 --> 00:21:22,619 But I do... 396 00:21:24,302 --> 00:21:26,269 all the time now. 397 00:21:28,639 --> 00:21:30,507 How can I get inside someone else's head 398 00:21:30,541 --> 00:21:32,609 if I can't get out of my own? 399 00:21:35,947 --> 00:21:38,927 You're always the one who counsels me... 400 00:21:39,928 --> 00:21:41,952 and you have taught me very well. 401 00:21:44,255 --> 00:21:46,768 So what I'll say to you is this... 402 00:21:48,061 --> 00:21:50,188 that boy needs help... 403 00:21:51,495 --> 00:21:53,728 and you are the only one who can help him. 404 00:22:10,448 --> 00:22:12,749 Heart rate's fluctuating. 405 00:22:12,783 --> 00:22:14,818 The contractions have started... I have to cut. 406 00:22:14,852 --> 00:22:16,786 No, wait, wait, wait. They're close, okay? 407 00:22:16,821 --> 00:22:18,221 - Max... - No, they're gonna be close. 408 00:22:18,256 --> 00:22:20,090 Just... just wait. 409 00:22:23,361 --> 00:22:25,161 Hey, hey, tell me you guys will make it here 410 00:22:25,196 --> 00:22:26,663 in the next three minutes. 411 00:22:26,697 --> 00:22:28,431 We're close, Dr. Goodwin. The other bus is right... 412 00:22:28,466 --> 00:22:30,166 - Give it to me. - Sure. 413 00:22:30,201 --> 00:22:32,168 Max, it's Helen. Talk to me. 414 00:22:32,203 --> 00:22:34,738 Luna's heart rate is fading with each contraction. 415 00:22:34,772 --> 00:22:36,406 We could lose her on the next one. 416 00:22:36,440 --> 00:22:37,841 But if Bloom operates now... Bloom's there? 417 00:22:37,875 --> 00:22:39,676 Yeah, she saved Georgia's life. 418 00:22:39,710 --> 00:22:43,146 But if she operates and you are not close enough, 419 00:22:43,180 --> 00:22:45,248 then she could bleed out. 420 00:22:45,283 --> 00:22:47,017 Oh, God... 421 00:22:47,051 --> 00:22:48,184 What? What? 422 00:22:48,219 --> 00:22:50,020 Max, we are not close enough. 423 00:22:52,056 --> 00:22:53,356 Yeah, no, but you... 424 00:22:53,391 --> 00:22:55,295 We're not gonna make it. 425 00:22:56,060 --> 00:22:57,593 Max? 426 00:23:01,591 --> 00:23:03,199 Are you still there? 427 00:23:09,573 --> 00:23:11,353 Yeah. 428 00:23:13,605 --> 00:23:15,045 After everything you have done, 429 00:23:15,079 --> 00:23:18,481 I would jump out of here, and I would run the blood to you 430 00:23:18,516 --> 00:23:20,150 if I thought that it would help, 431 00:23:20,184 --> 00:23:22,886 but we are not close enough. 432 00:23:23,615 --> 00:23:25,322 I'm, uh... 433 00:23:25,909 --> 00:23:28,224 I'm so sorry. 434 00:23:31,262 --> 00:23:33,208 I have to... 435 00:23:34,565 --> 00:23:38,234 I have to choose between my wife and my... and my... 436 00:23:38,269 --> 00:23:41,071 No, no. Okay, look. 437 00:23:41,105 --> 00:23:43,218 Hey, listen to me. 438 00:23:44,427 --> 00:23:48,578 This is a decision that... that you cannot make... 439 00:23:48,612 --> 00:23:50,517 'cause whatever you decide, 440 00:23:51,601 --> 00:23:54,084 you're gonna be haunted by it for the rest of your life. 441 00:23:54,688 --> 00:23:56,586 I've seen it, Max. 442 00:23:57,023 --> 00:24:00,068 The guilt, the shame... 443 00:24:00,791 --> 00:24:02,258 The loss. 444 00:24:03,321 --> 00:24:04,995 It'll destroy you, Max. 445 00:24:05,407 --> 00:24:07,263 But I have... I have to. 446 00:24:10,801 --> 00:24:12,268 I'll do it. 447 00:24:15,143 --> 00:24:17,374 I'll decide. 448 00:24:17,408 --> 00:24:19,509 I'll take on the responsibility. 449 00:24:22,480 --> 00:24:25,260 Please, Max, please... 450 00:24:26,150 --> 00:24:28,451 let me do this for you. 451 00:24:36,594 --> 00:24:39,295 Okay. 452 00:24:42,527 --> 00:24:45,155 Try to cast your mind back to that night. 453 00:24:46,197 --> 00:24:49,706 What was the last exam you and your friends had taken? 454 00:24:50,452 --> 00:24:52,142 I don't... 455 00:24:52,176 --> 00:24:53,910 I don't remember. 456 00:25:03,412 --> 00:25:04,745 Jacob... 457 00:25:06,624 --> 00:25:08,591 Jacob, when you were talking about being trampled 458 00:25:08,626 --> 00:25:10,388 by people earlier, 459 00:25:11,222 --> 00:25:13,433 you said, "Why would he do that?" 460 00:25:14,392 --> 00:25:16,066 Okay. 461 00:25:16,603 --> 00:25:19,169 Why would you refer to a whole crowd of people 462 00:25:19,439 --> 00:25:21,104 as "he"? 463 00:25:22,606 --> 00:25:26,476 Person after person running by you, over you, 464 00:25:26,510 --> 00:25:29,412 and you said, "Why would he do that?" 465 00:25:29,447 --> 00:25:31,081 That's not what I meant. 466 00:25:33,217 --> 00:25:34,851 I think it was. 467 00:25:35,413 --> 00:25:38,421 Jacob, what really happened that night? 468 00:25:41,211 --> 00:25:43,526 Don't you think it's time to find out? 469 00:25:47,231 --> 00:25:48,969 Georgia's pulse? 470 00:25:50,234 --> 00:25:51,868 Steady. 471 00:25:53,537 --> 00:25:55,038 I can't get it. 472 00:25:58,019 --> 00:25:59,509 The cord is crimped. 473 00:25:59,543 --> 00:26:01,211 Can you free it? 474 00:26:01,245 --> 00:26:02,812 I'm trying. 475 00:26:04,682 --> 00:26:06,382 - Come on, baby, come on. - Easy, easy. 476 00:26:06,417 --> 00:26:08,051 Easy, easy. 477 00:26:08,085 --> 00:26:10,386 - All right, you got it. - Okay. 478 00:26:10,421 --> 00:26:12,555 Okay, I got it. 479 00:26:12,590 --> 00:26:15,125 - Okay. - Easy. 480 00:26:16,894 --> 00:26:20,897 Okay. Oh, there you go, baby. There you go, baby. 481 00:26:23,100 --> 00:26:27,303 There she is. 482 00:26:27,338 --> 00:26:29,139 Hi, Luna. 483 00:26:29,173 --> 00:26:31,407 Oh, my Lord. 484 00:26:31,442 --> 00:26:32,642 It's okay. 485 00:26:37,381 --> 00:26:39,649 Hi, hi. 486 00:26:40,618 --> 00:26:42,652 You're okay. Hi. 487 00:26:42,686 --> 00:26:47,190 Hi. 488 00:26:47,224 --> 00:26:48,591 Hi, Luna. 489 00:26:48,626 --> 00:26:50,693 There you are. 490 00:26:50,728 --> 00:26:52,262 You're a mess. 491 00:26:52,296 --> 00:26:53,763 I'm your dad. 492 00:26:53,797 --> 00:26:55,198 I got ya. 493 00:26:56,853 --> 00:26:57,901 Ready? 494 00:26:57,935 --> 00:26:59,664 Georgia... 495 00:27:01,082 --> 00:27:03,006 she's here. 496 00:27:05,376 --> 00:27:06,943 Georgia. 497 00:27:06,977 --> 00:27:08,945 Yeah, I know. 498 00:27:11,582 --> 00:27:13,803 Georgia, she's here. 499 00:27:15,953 --> 00:27:19,155 Hi, we've been waiting so long for you. 500 00:27:20,558 --> 00:27:23,271 You came into this world in a really... 501 00:27:23,994 --> 00:27:26,529 really crazy way, but now you're here. 502 00:27:26,564 --> 00:27:28,234 Now you're here. 503 00:27:28,832 --> 00:27:31,780 Georgia, she's here. 504 00:27:32,303 --> 00:27:33,770 Georgia. 505 00:27:33,804 --> 00:27:36,973 Max, she needs blood... 506 00:27:37,410 --> 00:27:38,975 right now. 507 00:27:43,347 --> 00:27:45,415 You have to hang in there. 508 00:27:46,211 --> 00:27:48,084 You need to hang in there... 509 00:27:49,520 --> 00:27:53,656 Because I am not doing this without you. 510 00:27:56,360 --> 00:27:57,827 This little girl... 511 00:27:57,861 --> 00:28:00,496 this little girl, she needs her mom. 512 00:28:03,467 --> 00:28:05,168 And so do I. 513 00:29:14,301 --> 00:29:18,471 Okay, we got a pulse. 514 00:29:28,015 --> 00:29:30,083 Is she... is she all right? 515 00:29:30,117 --> 00:29:32,052 She's fine. 516 00:29:42,563 --> 00:29:45,131 It's not happening. It's just a memory. 517 00:29:45,156 --> 00:29:46,523 Say that. 518 00:29:46,548 --> 00:29:48,333 It's just a memory. 519 00:29:48,836 --> 00:29:50,543 So then look at it. 520 00:29:51,372 --> 00:29:53,046 It's okay to look, Jacob. 521 00:29:53,708 --> 00:29:55,508 Watch it! 522 00:29:55,543 --> 00:29:57,217 I don't want to. 523 00:29:57,712 --> 00:30:01,848 Every single detail is in there. 524 00:30:02,292 --> 00:30:04,284 Just close your eyes and look. 525 00:30:19,233 --> 00:30:20,967 Em... 526 00:30:29,577 --> 00:30:30,959 It's okay. 527 00:30:32,379 --> 00:30:33,614 It's okay. 528 00:30:33,648 --> 00:30:35,648 It's okay to look somewhere else, just this once. 529 00:30:35,683 --> 00:30:37,550 Where's your other friend from the line? 530 00:30:37,585 --> 00:30:39,452 - Bobby? - Yeah. 531 00:30:39,487 --> 00:30:41,469 I have no idea. 532 00:30:42,142 --> 00:30:43,763 Sure you do. 533 00:30:46,361 --> 00:30:48,561 He's on the dance floor somewhere. 534 00:30:48,596 --> 00:30:50,296 Facing us? 535 00:30:59,380 --> 00:31:00,847 Facing away. 536 00:31:00,872 --> 00:31:04,108 Okay. Well, now you know why he didn't help. 537 00:31:04,133 --> 00:31:06,101 He didn't see us. 538 00:31:06,126 --> 00:31:07,593 No. 539 00:31:07,618 --> 00:31:09,352 What about the big guy, the guy who bumped into you? 540 00:31:09,377 --> 00:31:10,577 Where's he? 541 00:31:10,602 --> 00:31:12,834 He's on the dance floor somewhere. 542 00:31:13,625 --> 00:31:14,959 You sure? 543 00:31:14,993 --> 00:31:16,927 You said he crashed into you later. 544 00:31:16,962 --> 00:31:19,463 So he couldn't be on the dance floor when the bomb went off. 545 00:31:19,498 --> 00:31:20,967 He must have been... 546 00:31:23,136 --> 00:31:25,036 Why is he over there? 547 00:31:25,070 --> 00:31:26,848 You tell me. 548 00:31:27,839 --> 00:31:30,307 Wait. I-I hear something. 549 00:31:32,010 --> 00:31:33,277 What is that? 550 00:31:33,311 --> 00:31:34,545 Take a look. 551 00:31:39,694 --> 00:31:41,085 It's a gas pipe. 552 00:31:41,119 --> 00:31:43,698 Is that what the guy's looking at? 553 00:31:54,833 --> 00:31:56,667 That can't be right. 554 00:31:57,503 --> 00:31:59,170 If that happened, I'd be dead. 555 00:31:59,204 --> 00:32:01,007 So why aren't you? 556 00:32:03,041 --> 00:32:04,855 Watch out! 557 00:32:13,552 --> 00:32:15,052 He saved me. 558 00:32:16,722 --> 00:32:18,941 I wasn't being trampled. 559 00:32:20,297 --> 00:32:22,320 I couldn't move because... 560 00:32:24,229 --> 00:32:26,197 he saved me. 561 00:32:30,569 --> 00:32:33,081 He risked his life for me. 562 00:32:34,239 --> 00:32:36,107 Why would he do that? 563 00:32:37,909 --> 00:32:40,711 Because sometimes the world has light. 564 00:33:05,370 --> 00:33:06,906 Hey. 565 00:33:09,608 --> 00:33:10,841 Hey. 566 00:33:10,876 --> 00:33:12,843 I have to say, you're the last person 567 00:33:12,878 --> 00:33:14,580 I expected to find here. 568 00:33:15,947 --> 00:33:17,792 Yeah, well, me too. 569 00:33:18,216 --> 00:33:21,003 I actually came to tell Max... 570 00:33:21,787 --> 00:33:23,854 that I'm not coming back. 571 00:33:25,263 --> 00:33:26,830 Hell of a last day. 572 00:33:27,427 --> 00:33:28,592 Yeah. 573 00:33:28,627 --> 00:33:31,262 Max would've lost his family 574 00:33:31,296 --> 00:33:33,349 if it wasn't for you. 575 00:33:37,602 --> 00:33:40,204 I am so sorry, Lauren. 576 00:33:41,143 --> 00:33:43,107 I'm so very sorry. 577 00:33:43,141 --> 00:33:46,076 I betrayed your trust. I ruined our friendship. 578 00:33:46,111 --> 00:33:48,445 You saved my life. 579 00:33:50,482 --> 00:33:52,618 You saved my life. 580 00:33:53,652 --> 00:33:56,120 Look, if I did anything good today, 581 00:33:56,456 --> 00:33:57,955 it's because of you. 582 00:33:58,374 --> 00:34:00,049 Let's go. 583 00:34:00,083 --> 00:34:01,711 Trauma team's waiting. 584 00:34:03,362 --> 00:34:04,795 Go. 585 00:34:10,001 --> 00:34:12,469 You coming? 586 00:34:16,007 --> 00:34:18,042 So, in my professional opinion, 587 00:34:18,076 --> 00:34:20,811 that right there is a giant balloon 588 00:34:20,846 --> 00:34:23,480 full of cocaine in Wilson Hatch's stomach. 589 00:34:23,515 --> 00:34:25,049 It's at least four ounces. 590 00:34:25,083 --> 00:34:27,384 Okay, so... so maybe there happens to be a balloon 591 00:34:27,419 --> 00:34:29,320 in my stomach, but you can't prove what's in it. 592 00:34:29,354 --> 00:34:31,722 It could... it could be something perfectly legal. 593 00:34:31,756 --> 00:34:33,424 So let's see it. 594 00:34:33,458 --> 00:34:35,960 What do you mean, here? Just now, in the... 595 00:34:35,994 --> 00:34:38,729 Please, man, please. 596 00:34:38,763 --> 00:34:39,997 I'll be disbarred. 597 00:34:40,031 --> 00:34:41,832 My girlfriend will leave me. 598 00:34:41,867 --> 00:34:43,601 My wife will leave me. 599 00:34:43,635 --> 00:34:45,004 Good luck. 600 00:34:45,503 --> 00:34:48,339 Oh, no, no, no, no. 601 00:34:48,373 --> 00:34:50,307 Tre, you want to play video games when we get home? 602 00:34:50,342 --> 00:34:52,977 Tre, put your hat on. Thank y'all for coming. 603 00:34:53,011 --> 00:34:56,013 Evie, you should come over for dinner every Sunday. 604 00:34:56,047 --> 00:34:57,748 Oh, if I came over every Sunday, 605 00:34:57,782 --> 00:34:59,183 I would never get any work done. 606 00:34:59,217 --> 00:35:01,485 Thank you. 607 00:35:01,519 --> 00:35:03,621 Here. 608 00:35:03,655 --> 00:35:06,457 It's yours, right? 609 00:35:16,801 --> 00:35:18,836 You gonna take it or what? 610 00:35:27,372 --> 00:35:29,006 No. 611 00:35:53,939 --> 00:35:55,908 She's great. 612 00:35:59,444 --> 00:36:01,455 Is that her? 613 00:36:04,783 --> 00:36:06,417 Hey. 614 00:36:11,456 --> 00:36:13,257 You did it. 615 00:36:13,291 --> 00:36:17,096 There's somebody who is dying to meet you. 616 00:36:17,963 --> 00:36:20,898 Luna, say hi to your mom. 617 00:36:20,932 --> 00:36:22,977 Oh, my God. 618 00:36:23,802 --> 00:36:25,479 Hi. 619 00:36:26,471 --> 00:36:28,149 Honey, you did it. 620 00:36:30,378 --> 00:36:33,346 She's perfect. 621 00:36:33,645 --> 00:36:35,679 Yeah. 622 00:36:35,714 --> 00:36:37,725 There she is. 623 00:36:54,951 --> 00:36:57,720 Your mom is drop-dead gorgeous. 624 00:36:58,220 --> 00:37:01,456 I hope I look half as good at her age. 625 00:37:03,733 --> 00:37:05,467 Now is when you say, 626 00:37:05,492 --> 00:37:08,461 "You'll look gorgeous at any age, babe." 627 00:37:09,873 --> 00:37:13,176 I'm, uh... I'm sorry. I just... 628 00:37:13,210 --> 00:37:14,344 What's up? You haven't said 629 00:37:14,378 --> 00:37:16,579 more than two words since we left. 630 00:37:16,614 --> 00:37:18,783 Couldn't have been that bad. 631 00:37:19,216 --> 00:37:22,036 I couldn't have been that bad. 632 00:37:25,189 --> 00:37:27,690 You know, my whole life I, uh, imagined 633 00:37:27,725 --> 00:37:29,125 what my future would look like, 634 00:37:29,159 --> 00:37:30,860 what my family would look like. 635 00:37:30,894 --> 00:37:32,695 I had a plan. 636 00:37:32,730 --> 00:37:35,198 And to be honest... 637 00:37:35,232 --> 00:37:37,500 you don't fit into it. 638 00:37:40,671 --> 00:37:42,193 So I, uh... 639 00:37:44,141 --> 00:37:45,701 I don't know what to do. 640 00:37:47,735 --> 00:37:50,137 For the first time... 641 00:37:51,802 --> 00:37:54,670 I, uh... 642 00:37:54,695 --> 00:37:56,897 I don't know what's next, 643 00:37:56,922 --> 00:37:59,457 and I don't care. 644 00:37:59,949 --> 00:38:02,125 As long as you're there, 645 00:38:02,159 --> 00:38:04,894 as long as you're right there with me, 646 00:38:04,928 --> 00:38:07,030 I don't need a plan. 647 00:38:11,735 --> 00:38:13,803 Look, I don't have your family's blessing, 648 00:38:13,837 --> 00:38:15,405 and I don't have mine. 649 00:38:15,439 --> 00:38:18,596 I don't have a ring, I don't... I don't have anything. 650 00:38:24,682 --> 00:38:26,983 Will you please, 651 00:38:27,017 --> 00:38:31,521 please say you'll spend your life with me... 652 00:38:32,850 --> 00:38:34,884 Make a family with me... 653 00:38:35,359 --> 00:38:37,927 you'll marry me? 654 00:38:43,734 --> 00:38:44,934 Yes. 655 00:38:46,770 --> 00:38:48,571 Yes. 656 00:39:06,557 --> 00:39:07,890 Here you go. 657 00:39:07,925 --> 00:39:09,559 Thanks. 658 00:39:10,761 --> 00:39:12,929 So are you back down on earth yet? 659 00:39:12,963 --> 00:39:14,648 Yeah. 660 00:39:15,132 --> 00:39:17,967 First time on ecstasy I haven't called an ex. 661 00:39:18,001 --> 00:39:19,135 Jacob. 662 00:39:19,169 --> 00:39:22,205 A joke, all right man. 663 00:39:25,008 --> 00:39:27,143 So why would my brain do that? 664 00:39:27,578 --> 00:39:29,812 That guy saved my life. 665 00:39:29,847 --> 00:39:32,381 Wouldn't I want to remember that? 666 00:39:33,617 --> 00:39:36,086 It does seem counterintuitive... 667 00:39:37,087 --> 00:39:40,089 until you realize how the brain works. 668 00:39:40,124 --> 00:39:42,325 The brain is just... 669 00:39:42,359 --> 00:39:45,595 it's just trying to make sense of things. 670 00:39:45,629 --> 00:39:49,600 Like, sometimes the world is so beautiful, you know? 671 00:39:50,726 --> 00:39:52,812 The laughter of a friend... 672 00:39:54,021 --> 00:39:57,006 a newborn baby gripping your finger. 673 00:39:58,876 --> 00:40:01,028 Life is also fragile. 674 00:40:02,546 --> 00:40:06,649 You blink, it's gone, just like that. 675 00:40:24,902 --> 00:40:28,671 In the face of horror, our minds turn our trauma 676 00:40:28,705 --> 00:40:32,208 into a story to make sense of it, 677 00:40:32,242 --> 00:40:34,110 even if it doesn't make sense. 678 00:40:50,060 --> 00:40:53,747 So why would your mind tell you that the world was evil? 679 00:40:54,531 --> 00:40:58,734 Because evil means that your fear is right. 680 00:41:01,738 --> 00:41:04,574 Evil means that you can just give up. 681 00:41:30,467 --> 00:41:33,269 But to believe that we all have 682 00:41:33,303 --> 00:41:35,623 the capacity to be heroes... 683 00:41:36,473 --> 00:41:39,627 no matter how evil the world may seem... 684 00:41:40,711 --> 00:41:42,912 that's harder... 685 00:41:42,946 --> 00:41:46,759 because that means, when the worst happens... 686 00:41:47,751 --> 00:41:50,853 we can choose to stand up, 687 00:41:50,888 --> 00:41:52,288 we can choose to help. 688 00:41:54,157 --> 00:41:58,895 And that's what, all day, all around us, people do. 689 00:41:59,963 --> 00:42:02,932 So is the world dark? 690 00:42:03,525 --> 00:42:05,225 Sure. 691 00:42:05,469 --> 00:42:07,403 But there's light. 692 00:42:08,572 --> 00:42:10,282 There's so much light. 693 00:42:11,475 --> 00:42:14,453 You just have to open your eyes and look.