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Oh, come on.

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What is it?

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It's not him.

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I didn't want to text or
phone to tell you but...

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I don't believe you.
- On my kids.

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It's true.

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No.

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You've had it confirmed it's
Myers and now you're scared.

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You have to listen to me.

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Craig Myers is not Eddie J Turner.

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You're lying.

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I saw him, Anna.

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Saw who? - Do you not
understand what I'm telling you?

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Who did you see?
- We have ruined an innocent man's life!

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Who, Mo?

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I won't tell you.

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Mo!
- No.

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You have to tell me, for Liam's sake.

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This isn't about Liam,

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not any more.

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It's over, Anna.

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We ruined his life.

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Members of the jury,
will your spokesperson please rise?

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Have you reached a verdict
in respect of the accused,

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Anna Louise Dean?

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Yes.

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What is your verdict?

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Guilty.

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Are there any deletions or
amendments to the charge?

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Deletion of the word murder,

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amended to assault to danger of life.

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My Lady, pending preparation of reports,

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I make an application for bail.

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Mrs Dean is part
of a strong family

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unit,
has no previous convictions

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and has adhered
to the conditions

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of bail set at the
petition hearing.

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I will continue to grant bail,

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subject to the same special conditions.

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This is Christian. Leave me a
message and I'll get back to you.

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It's not him.

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Christian, it's not Craig Myers.

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The social worker
meets Turner in the cafe

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but you're not looking for Craig Myers.

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OK, so...

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..in short, they believed
Anna posted the message

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and wanted Craig Myers assaulted
but not that she wanted him dead.

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It's not great but it
could have been a lot worse.

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So what now?
Sentencing in a few weeks' time.

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I'm sorry.

51
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I'm so sorry.

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Oh, Mum.

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I was wrong.

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About what?

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Everything.

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Craig Myers.

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All of it.

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You were never convinced
but I wouldn't listen...

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..and now it's too late.

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Anna, are you genuinely saying
you may have made a mistake?

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Does that mean you might be
willing to apologise to Mr Myers?

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What does it matter?
It may matter a lot.

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What are you thinking?
Restorative justice.

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It's a process in which the guilty party

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meets with the victim of a crime

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and takes part in a mediated
discussion about the impact of it.

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An apology isn't a strict
prerequisite of the process,

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but for the purposes of
the court, if it goes well,

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it may just persuade
the judge to

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go for a community-based
disposal.

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So you mean this could
keep her out of prison?

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It's worth a try, isn't it?

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But Anna would have to completely
accept the roles assigned

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by the court, namely that she is
the criminal and he's the victim.

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Craig?

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At last! Where have you been?
They've delivered the verdict.

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What happened?

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Guilty. She's guilty.

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We won, Craig.

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You won.

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Thanks.

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Can you talk to someone for me?

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About what?

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Hello?

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They found me guilty of a lesser charge

86
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but guilty.

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Thanks.

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She's here now, Danny.
I'll pass you over.

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Ben?

90
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Ben's at school.

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Where are you?

92
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Louise?!

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What's going on with Lou and Danny?

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Was that him on the phone?
What's happened?

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She's been trying
to get hold of him

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all night.
- Lenny, what's going on?

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It was Danny who found Liam's body.

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No, it wasn't!

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It couldn't have been...

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Danny?

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Gerry Tythe told us.

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What? I'm so sorry I didn't tell you.
- He's got Ben.

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Danny's got Ben!

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Phone the school.

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You heard the verdict, boss?

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Did you go and see a William
Napier in custody at Edinburgh?

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He attacked Craig Myers.
Told you that, did he?

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No, because Anna Dean
has a hold over him,

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but I'm going to talk to DS
Harvey. No. No, you're not.

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Napier has made a
complaint to his solicitor

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despite your warnings or threats.

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Boss... Not only did you
ignore a direct order from me...

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Look, if we can get an admission

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before Anna Dean is sentenced...

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..you interviewed a potential
suspect alone and unrecorded.

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Do you really think we'd
get a conviction after that?

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Well, I'm surprised you're
not congratulating me.

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It means all this will go
away a lot quicker, doesn't it?

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I'm suspending you from duty as of now.

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She's laughing at us, you know that?

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She's sitting there with Napier

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right now having a
good old chuckle.

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Napier isn't
chuckling with anyone.

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He tried to kill
himself last night.

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I need your warrant card.

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Ben!

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Come here!

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Why?

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Just do as you're told, OK?

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No, no, no, you stay where you are.

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He never wanted to lie.

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What have you told him?

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The truth.
- And what's that?

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Why, Danny?

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The night we met...

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..I didn't know how to
talk to you, and then...

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..you mentioned Liam,
like, straight away. Why?!

138
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All those years...

139
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..I didn't know what
to do with any of it.

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I couldn't let go of it.
I couldn't talk about it either.

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Then, all of a sudden...

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..you made it...

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..real.

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You and then Anna, you made it...

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..normal.

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You think what you've done is normal?

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You used me. - I couldn't
tell you straight off, could I?

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Ben, can you please just come here?

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He wanted to come with me,
I said no. Tell Anna that.

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No, no. Don't you ever contact
me or my family ever again.

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Go on, pal.

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Go on.

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And remember...

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..OK?

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It's not my fault.

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Will you tell her that?
That he wanted to come with me?

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Oh!

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I don't understand this.

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Why should he?

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That's a good question.
- I know.

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But what's the answer?

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She's ruined his life.

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You can refuse the meeting, Craig.

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There's no obligation.

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It's in her interests, though, isn't it?

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Not his.

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Actually, this process
is all about the victim.

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The questions we ask after a crime -

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what laws have been
broken, who broke them,

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what do they deserve as punishment
- are about the offender,

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whereas restorative justice asks,

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who's been hurt?

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What do they need?

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And whose obligation is
it to repair that damage?

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I think it's right to
focus on your needs, Craig.

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This is about what you
need to move forward now.

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That's all.

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I'd have come sooner if I'd known.

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But the surgery only called me today.

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00:16:06,076 --> 00:16:08,127
Carol said you had
some interesting

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ideas for redecorating
the place.

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I'm sorry, Anna.

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I've told you before,

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you don't have to apologise to me.

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You trusted me...

186
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..and I got you in trouble.

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William, tell me you didn't.

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Not you.

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I didn't mean to get you in trouble.

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Is that why you did this to yourself?

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He doesn't deserve to be free.

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I want him to die.

193
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I want all the sick bastards to die.

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This is my fault.

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What I did was wrong.

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I'm going to tell them it was me.

197
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I'm going to confess.

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He says I am a victim...

199
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..but I'm not.

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No.

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_

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Taxi's here.

203
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Are you sure you don't
want me to drive you?

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I'll call you straight after.

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We're all proud of you, you know.

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Welcome. How was the journey?

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He's not here yet.

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It's important,

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the circle,

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because we're all connected.

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What you do affects me and vice versa.

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Welcome.

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Thank you both for coming.

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I'm Simone.

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Craig, this is Anna.

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Anna, this is Craig.

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You're both here voluntarily

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to talk about the offence
Anna was recently convicted of.

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You'll both get a chance to speak

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but I'd ask you to be
respectful and not to interrupt.

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Mobile phones off or on silent, please.

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Obviously, I'll be writing
a report the judge will see,

223
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but can we agree that
anything said in this room

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will remain private and confidential?

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OK.

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Anna, can I ask you to
go back to last October

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and talk about your state of
mind leading up to the offence?

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It was the same as it's been
since as long as I can remember.

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How much I miss my son.

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And that I can't rest until
the identity of the man

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who killed him is made public.

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A few weeks before Halloween...

233
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..I received information
that Eddie J Turner

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was living in Port Glasgow
under the name Craig Myers.

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I looked his address up online...

236
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..and I saw two schools
within a mile of his house.

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I felt sick.

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I needed to warn people.

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So I bought a pay-as-you-go phone...

240
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..set up an account using false details

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and I posted his picture online
with his name and address.

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I'm not saying I didn't know
there would be consequences.

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For Craig, you mean?

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For everyone.

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00:21:52,065 --> 00:21:55,088
And knowing there would be
consequences, can you remember

246
00:21:55,089 --> 00:22:00,028
how it felt pressing that button
and making the accusation public?

247
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It felt good...

248
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..at the time.

249
00:22:07,020 --> 00:22:09,060
Why do you think that was, Anna?

250
00:22:09,061 --> 00:22:13,004
I think it was because
I was doing something.

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And even if I got caught,
it was still better than being so...

252
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..helpless, I suppose.

253
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Do you remember any other feelings?

254
00:22:29,028 --> 00:22:30,084
You mean guilt?

255
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If you felt any.

256
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The only guilt I felt at the
time was about lying to my family.

257
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I regret that.

258
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But the anger was bigger than the guilt.

259
00:22:53,052 --> 00:22:56,040
It always is. It's bigger than anything.

260
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Are you angry now?

261
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I'm always angry.

262
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It never goes away.

263
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It's hate.

264
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I hate him.

265
00:23:05,077 --> 00:23:07,052
You mean Eddie J Turner?

266
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Is it him you hate or what he did?

267
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I don't believe you can separate them.

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And I know that sometimes

269
00:23:18,045 --> 00:23:21,028
the hate can affect my judgments...

270
00:23:23,004 --> 00:23:25,024
..but it's who I am now.

271
00:23:26,052 --> 00:23:29,004
I was never the same
person after Liam died.

272
00:23:30,076 --> 00:23:33,032
I started to see the bad in people...

273
00:23:34,032 --> 00:23:36,004
..before the good.

274
00:23:39,028 --> 00:23:41,028
And it made me harder.

275
00:23:46,028 --> 00:23:49,076
None of this is any excuse
for what I've done to you.

276
00:23:51,052 --> 00:23:54,004
I thought he was you but I was wrong...

277
00:23:55,004 --> 00:23:58,004
..and I'm sorry.
I don't want your apology.

278
00:23:59,004 --> 00:24:02,004
Anna, you said you accept you were wrong

279
00:24:02,005 --> 00:24:05,004
for posting the name of the
person you believed... No.

280
00:24:05,005 --> 00:24:07,052
That's not what I'm saying.
I'm saying...

281
00:24:08,052 --> 00:24:12,044
..I'm saying I was wrong to accuse him.

282
00:24:13,044 --> 00:24:15,076
So if I was him, you wouldn't be sorry?

283
00:24:19,004 --> 00:24:20,060
No.

284
00:24:20,061 --> 00:24:22,068
I wouldn't be sorry.

285
00:24:23,068 --> 00:24:27,052
I can't apologise for trying
to get justice for my son.

286
00:24:27,053 --> 00:24:29,028
Not to anyone.

287
00:24:29,029 --> 00:24:32,004
And what exactly did you
hope to achieve, Anna,

288
00:24:32,005 --> 00:24:33,080
by doing what you did?

289
00:24:35,028 --> 00:24:37,004
I thought, naively...

290
00:24:38,004 --> 00:24:40,052
..that if I made him
stand up in court...

291
00:24:41,088 --> 00:24:44,004
..it would all come out.

292
00:24:44,005 --> 00:24:46,004
The mask would slip.

293
00:24:47,004 --> 00:24:50,008
He'd have to face what he did. Face me.

294
00:24:53,004 --> 00:24:55,052
And I would find out why.

295
00:24:58,004 --> 00:25:01,004
The "Why?"
question is a huge one for anybody

296
00:25:01,005 --> 00:25:04,004
who's been affected by
crime, isn't it, Craig?

297
00:25:05,028 --> 00:25:08,052
Has what Anna's shared
so far gone any way

298
00:25:08,053 --> 00:25:10,052
to answering the "Why?" for you?

299
00:25:10,053 --> 00:25:13,004
She still hasn't said
where my name came from.

300
00:25:13,005 --> 00:25:15,036
I'm sorry, I can't tell anyone that.

301
00:25:15,037 --> 00:25:18,028
Or whether she sent that
guy to my house. - No.

302
00:25:19,028 --> 00:25:21,064
I didn't. Do you know who he was?

303
00:25:23,004 --> 00:25:24,076
All I can say

304
00:25:24,077 --> 00:25:28,036
is I truly wish it hadn't happened.

305
00:25:29,036 --> 00:25:33,004
Craig, when you woke in hospital
and found out you'd been attacked

306
00:25:33,005 --> 00:25:35,032
as a result of this accusation,

307
00:25:35,033 --> 00:25:37,044
how did you feel?

308
00:25:39,004 --> 00:25:41,004
I know about anger.

309
00:25:42,004 --> 00:25:43,092
She's not the only one.

310
00:25:44,092 --> 00:25:46,052
I felt guilty.

311
00:25:46,053 --> 00:25:48,004
In the hospital?

312
00:25:48,005 --> 00:25:49,076
Guilty about what?

313
00:25:50,076 --> 00:25:53,052
That my daughter had
to see me like that.

314
00:25:54,052 --> 00:25:57,064
Lying there,
bleeding all over the carpet.

315
00:25:58,064 --> 00:26:00,076
That was her home.

316
00:26:00,077 --> 00:26:03,020
The one place she should feel safe.

317
00:26:04,020 --> 00:26:06,028
She thought I was dead.

318
00:26:07,052 --> 00:26:11,052
Six years old and she's defending
me to the other kids at school.

319
00:26:13,004 --> 00:26:15,052
It's meant to be me protecting her.

320
00:26:16,052 --> 00:26:18,052
And you feel guilty about that?

321
00:26:19,052 --> 00:26:21,084
And that it was a relief,

322
00:26:21,085 --> 00:26:23,076
in a way,

323
00:26:23,077 --> 00:26:25,052
when they left.

324
00:26:28,052 --> 00:26:31,004
Because at least when
they're nowhere near me,

325
00:26:31,005 --> 00:26:33,036
I don't have to worry
about them so much.

326
00:26:41,052 --> 00:26:45,076
I'd be lying if I said I was
sorry for trying to find Turner...

327
00:26:47,028 --> 00:26:49,012
..but the last thing I wanted

328
00:26:49,013 --> 00:26:51,052
was for more innocent
people to get hurt.

329
00:26:52,052 --> 00:26:54,052
I'm so sorry, Craig.

330
00:26:54,053 --> 00:26:57,000
I don't want your apology. I said that!

331
00:26:57,001 --> 00:26:59,060
You obviously find it hard to hear.

332
00:27:00,060 --> 00:27:02,024
I think I need a break.

333
00:27:02,025 --> 00:27:04,004
Will you look at me?

334
00:27:05,004 --> 00:27:06,052
Please.

335
00:27:06,053 --> 00:27:10,048
I know it's not enough
but I need you to know.

336
00:27:10,049 --> 00:27:11,072
Don't!

337
00:27:11,073 --> 00:27:13,028
Don't what, Craig?

338
00:27:13,029 --> 00:27:14,088
I need a break!

339
00:27:14,089 --> 00:27:17,032
I'm so sorry for what I've done to you.

340
00:27:17,033 --> 00:27:19,004
Don't!
- Craig.

341
00:27:19,005 --> 00:27:20,076
Please...

342
00:27:20,077 --> 00:27:23,040
Craig... Don't.
Will you look at me, please?

343
00:27:23,041 --> 00:27:26,028
Stop! - OK.
- I'm so sorry, Craig.

344
00:27:26,029 --> 00:27:28,068
Please... I'm not Craig!

345
00:27:30,076 --> 00:27:32,096
I'm Eddie J Turner!

346
00:27:36,028 --> 00:27:38,024
That's why I'm here.

347
00:27:39,024 --> 00:27:41,052
Because there's no getting away from it.

348
00:27:41,053 --> 00:27:43,004
I'm him, he's me.

349
00:27:43,005 --> 00:27:44,048
He still is.

350
00:27:52,004 --> 00:27:53,068
Anna.

351
00:27:56,000 --> 00:28:00,000
_

352
00:28:05,032 --> 00:28:06,076
Don't go.

353
00:28:08,028 --> 00:28:09,076
Anna!

354
00:28:33,052 --> 00:28:35,028
Which way is out?

355
00:29:00,052 --> 00:29:02,036
"This is Christian.

356
00:29:02,037 --> 00:29:04,076
Leave me a message and
I'll get back to you."

357
00:29:05,076 --> 00:29:08,048
Faster, please. As fast as you can.

358
00:29:26,076 --> 00:29:29,004
Answer, Christian.
Please answer the phone!

359
00:29:29,005 --> 00:29:32,028
"This is Christian. Leave me a
message and I'll get back to you."

360
00:29:44,072 --> 00:29:46,028
Excuse me.

361
00:29:46,029 --> 00:29:48,004
Are you Christian?

362
00:29:48,005 --> 00:29:49,088
Your wife's on the phone.

363
00:29:59,000 --> 00:30:02,000
_

364
00:30:31,072 --> 00:30:33,052
Your bell's broke.

365
00:30:33,053 --> 00:30:36,000
I took the batteries out.

366
00:30:37,000 --> 00:30:38,076
I come in peace.

367
00:30:49,028 --> 00:30:51,004
You didn't phone.

368
00:30:56,040 --> 00:30:58,012
Is it your day off?

369
00:31:00,028 --> 00:31:03,076
You said you'd phone and tell
me what was said at the meeting.

370
00:31:03,077 --> 00:31:06,028
Were there any... admissions?

371
00:31:22,036 --> 00:31:24,028
Only mine.

372
00:32:03,084 --> 00:32:05,076
You should tell someone.

373
00:32:08,004 --> 00:32:09,076
Solomon, at least.

374
00:32:13,028 --> 00:32:15,052
And what about Louise and Lenny?

375
00:32:19,000 --> 00:32:20,052
I don't know.

376
00:32:24,028 --> 00:32:26,068
I should definitely phone them, though.

377
00:32:26,069 --> 00:32:28,052
They'll be wondering.

378
00:32:40,096 --> 00:32:43,052
He must have put this in my bag.

379
00:32:43,053 --> 00:32:45,092
What the hell was he thinking?

380
00:32:45,093 --> 00:32:48,004
Phone Solomon now.

381
00:32:55,004 --> 00:32:56,060
No, Anna.

382
00:32:56,061 --> 00:33:00,036
He's the only one that can
tell us what happened. No.

383
00:33:02,004 --> 00:33:05,004
We should make him do
what I just had to do.

384
00:33:05,005 --> 00:33:08,028
Make him tell the truth with
no-one there to speak for him.

385
00:33:10,028 --> 00:33:12,052
I don't want to know what happened.

386
00:33:20,004 --> 00:33:22,020
So what do you want, Christian?

387
00:33:23,076 --> 00:33:26,008
Because we can't go back, can we?

388
00:33:29,076 --> 00:33:31,044
So what do you want?

389
00:34:02,032 --> 00:34:04,036
Hiya, mate.

390
00:34:09,076 --> 00:34:11,076
What are you doing here?

391
00:34:18,052 --> 00:34:21,028
Judith said you went to see her as well.

392
00:34:22,052 --> 00:34:24,060
Yeah, because I'm worried about you.

393
00:34:27,052 --> 00:34:29,072
You're not exactly reassuring me.

394
00:34:29,073 --> 00:34:31,068
Who's Judith?

395
00:34:39,004 --> 00:34:42,052
She's the woman who's looked
after my case since I was released.

396
00:34:46,052 --> 00:34:48,048
I'm a liar, Bex.

397
00:34:50,028 --> 00:34:54,008
I was taught to lie.
I was told my life depended on it.

398
00:35:07,076 --> 00:35:10,060
I came close to
telling you so many times

399
00:35:10,061 --> 00:35:13,004
but I couldn't risk losing you both.

400
00:35:13,005 --> 00:35:16,080
You looked me in the eye
and you said, "I'm not him."

401
00:35:16,081 --> 00:35:18,068
How could you do that?!

402
00:35:18,069 --> 00:35:21,004
Because I'd convinced
myself that I wasn't!

403
00:35:22,004 --> 00:35:26,004
You see, I've lied to
everybody, including me.

404
00:35:26,005 --> 00:35:28,004
You didn't lie to him.

405
00:35:28,005 --> 00:35:30,084
I shared a cell with Tom in jail.

406
00:35:30,085 --> 00:35:33,052
I had to tell somebody
or else I would have...

407
00:35:35,068 --> 00:35:38,076
After I got out,
they wanted me to move to England.

408
00:35:38,077 --> 00:35:41,052
I found out he was
coming back here and...

409
00:35:43,004 --> 00:35:45,052
..I had to be myself with someone.

410
00:35:47,004 --> 00:35:48,092
You could have told me.

411
00:35:48,093 --> 00:35:50,052
Could I?

412
00:35:54,052 --> 00:35:57,076
I'm going to have to go
somewhere and start again, Bex.

413
00:35:59,004 --> 00:36:01,028
I want that to be with you.

414
00:36:03,068 --> 00:36:05,004
No.

415
00:36:05,005 --> 00:36:07,040
Leave me alone. Leave me alone.

416
00:36:07,041 --> 00:36:10,028
I want you to know
who I am. You and Jess.

417
00:36:10,029 --> 00:36:12,048
Leave me alone!

418
00:36:19,084 --> 00:36:21,052
I love you.

419
00:36:55,052 --> 00:36:57,000
Hi.

420
00:36:58,004 --> 00:37:01,052
You know you don't have to talk
about it until you're ready,

421
00:37:01,053 --> 00:37:04,000
but as soon as you are, then...

422
00:37:07,004 --> 00:37:09,036
I'm so lucky to have you.

423
00:37:10,036 --> 00:37:11,084
We all are.

424
00:38:15,052 --> 00:38:17,004
I'm sorry.

425
00:38:26,052 --> 00:38:28,004
I'm sorry.

426
00:38:52,004 --> 00:38:53,052
Hello.

427
00:38:53,053 --> 00:38:55,076
10am tomorrow.

428
00:38:55,077 --> 00:38:57,052
You know where.

429
00:39:03,028 --> 00:39:07,004
Come on, then. I don't want to.

430
00:39:07,005 --> 00:39:08,076
Why not?

431
00:39:08,077 --> 00:39:10,052
I'm doing this, Dad!

432
00:39:11,052 --> 00:39:15,004
They're not going anywhere.
Come on. This'll be good to keep.

433
00:39:16,004 --> 00:39:17,076
OK, then.

434
00:39:19,004 --> 00:39:20,076
Right, then.

435
00:39:20,077 --> 00:39:22,028
Here we go.

436
00:39:22,029 --> 00:39:23,068
Name?

437
00:39:23,069 --> 00:39:26,004
Liam. Liam Graham.

438
00:39:26,005 --> 00:39:27,052
Age?

439
00:39:27,053 --> 00:39:29,004
Nine.

440
00:39:29,005 --> 00:39:31,076
And... OK, what else?

441
00:39:31,077 --> 00:39:34,028
What do you want to be when you grow up?

442
00:39:35,028 --> 00:39:36,068
Big.

443
00:39:36,069 --> 00:39:38,080
I want to be big.

444
00:40:21,028 --> 00:40:22,076
No.

445
00:41:24,028 --> 00:41:27,028
I used to come and lay
flowers here at first.

446
00:41:28,028 --> 00:41:30,004
Lots of people did.

447
00:41:32,004 --> 00:41:35,004
And then I thought,
what the hell are we doing?

448
00:41:36,004 --> 00:41:37,076
Anywhere but here.

449
00:41:45,076 --> 00:41:48,020
Why did you give me your number?

450
00:41:51,052 --> 00:41:53,072
We didn't really finish the meeting.

451
00:41:55,028 --> 00:41:58,032
We didn't really start it, did we?

452
00:42:52,008 --> 00:42:53,056
Well, Eddie?

453
00:42:57,028 --> 00:42:59,036
Are you sure you want to hear this?

454
00:42:59,037 --> 00:43:03,004
Don't use my feelings as an
excuse to get out of this.

455
00:43:04,028 --> 00:43:06,036
I know you think I kept it from you

456
00:43:06,037 --> 00:43:09,004
and I refused to say
anything out of spite, but...

457
00:43:10,004 --> 00:43:13,004
..the truth is, I didn't
even tell my best friend,

458
00:43:13,005 --> 00:43:14,967
and I'd have gotten
out a lot sooner if...

459
00:43:14,979 --> 00:43:17,000
You got out pretty
bloody quick as it was.

460
00:43:17,001 --> 00:43:19,052
You're not supposed to
interrupt. Fuck you!

461
00:43:19,053 --> 00:43:22,028
All I'm saying is,
I didn't keep quiet to hurt you.

462
00:43:23,028 --> 00:43:24,076
It was for...

463
00:43:26,076 --> 00:43:28,060
It was for safety.

464
00:43:34,052 --> 00:43:38,028
You have to tell me
everything right now.

465
00:43:39,052 --> 00:43:43,052
The first thing he said
to the last thing he saw.

466
00:43:44,052 --> 00:43:46,020
Everything.

467
00:43:55,028 --> 00:43:58,008
I was staying with
this woman my dad knew.

468
00:43:59,008 --> 00:44:01,052
I hadn't been back in
a couple of days but...

469
00:44:02,052 --> 00:44:06,076
..no-one had bothered so I
spent half that day here.

470
00:44:09,028 --> 00:44:12,076
I picked up a piece of glass off
a broken bottle and I was just...

471
00:44:14,004 --> 00:44:16,004
..cutting myself.

472
00:44:17,052 --> 00:44:19,060
I couldn't really feel it.

473
00:44:21,004 --> 00:44:23,004
Like I wasn't really here.

474
00:44:25,028 --> 00:44:28,004
I was looking for
somewhere to be invisible.

475
00:44:29,028 --> 00:44:31,004
Not for a victim.

476
00:44:32,028 --> 00:44:34,012
I didn't choose Liam.

477
00:44:41,004 --> 00:44:43,096
So you didn't take him from the shops?

478
00:44:44,096 --> 00:44:47,004
I don't know where he came from.

479
00:44:48,076 --> 00:44:50,052
I didn't choose him.

480
00:44:54,052 --> 00:44:56,052
So he could have been anyone?

481
00:45:02,076 --> 00:45:04,028
No.

482
00:45:07,052 --> 00:45:09,076
I saw him walking there.

483
00:45:11,004 --> 00:45:14,056
He was holding something in
his hand like it was treasure.

484
00:45:16,052 --> 00:45:19,052
He just stopped dead and
stared straight at me.

485
00:45:20,076 --> 00:45:23,004
It was a packet of football stickers.

486
00:45:25,028 --> 00:45:26,528
He started walking
towards me and

487
00:45:26,540 --> 00:45:28,052
he could see the
blood on my arm.

488
00:45:28,053 --> 00:45:30,044
He should have run a mile!

489
00:45:30,045 --> 00:45:32,004
But he didn't.

490
00:45:33,076 --> 00:45:36,052
He just stood where you're
standing now and he said,

491
00:45:36,053 --> 00:45:38,036
"Are you all right?"

492
00:45:40,004 --> 00:45:42,028
"Leave me alone!" I said.

493
00:45:43,076 --> 00:45:45,052
But he doesn't.

494
00:45:48,028 --> 00:45:50,028
He was so small.

495
00:45:52,076 --> 00:45:54,028
Vulnerable.

496
00:45:58,076 --> 00:46:00,092
"Shall I get someone?" he says.

497
00:46:01,092 --> 00:46:04,004
And I can feel it.

498
00:46:04,005 --> 00:46:06,052
The anger's starting to build up.

499
00:46:09,052 --> 00:46:11,076
"Leave me alone," I say again.

500
00:46:13,004 --> 00:46:15,004
He just moves closer...

501
00:46:17,076 --> 00:46:19,028
..and said...

502
00:46:21,004 --> 00:46:24,004
.."My mum's a nurse. I can get her."

503
00:46:27,004 --> 00:46:28,076
He said that?

504
00:46:29,076 --> 00:46:32,012
He said you could help me.

505
00:46:34,076 --> 00:46:37,084
You have to tell me
the exact words he used.

506
00:46:37,085 --> 00:46:39,052
All of them.

507
00:46:45,076 --> 00:46:47,096
He said, "My mum's a nurse.

508
00:46:47,097 --> 00:46:50,004
"She can help you.

509
00:46:50,005 --> 00:46:52,004
"She helps anyone."

510
00:47:04,076 --> 00:47:08,004
I stand up and I've still got
the piece of glass in my hand.

511
00:47:10,028 --> 00:47:13,052
I shout at him then,
"Fuck off, will you?!"

512
00:47:15,076 --> 00:47:17,060
But he doesn't go.

513
00:47:18,076 --> 00:47:20,076
He just looks scared.

514
00:47:23,004 --> 00:47:25,076
He says, "You won't get into trouble."

515
00:47:28,004 --> 00:47:31,076
I don't understand
why he didn't just go.

516
00:47:35,004 --> 00:47:38,004
He's looking right in my eyes
but why didn't he just go?

517
00:47:38,005 --> 00:47:39,084
Why didn't he go?!

518
00:47:53,004 --> 00:47:55,068
I've waited so long to see you suffer.

519
00:48:04,052 --> 00:48:06,012
Then what?

520
00:48:07,076 --> 00:48:09,060
Then what, Eddie?

521
00:48:10,076 --> 00:48:12,052
I stabbed him.

522
00:48:17,028 --> 00:48:18,084
Where?

523
00:48:20,076 --> 00:48:22,068
In the neck.

524
00:48:25,076 --> 00:48:27,044
How many times?

525
00:48:27,045 --> 00:48:28,068
Twice.

526
00:48:29,068 --> 00:48:31,028
Three times.

527
00:48:33,052 --> 00:48:35,028
And then he just...

528
00:48:36,076 --> 00:48:38,016
..sat down...

529
00:48:39,016 --> 00:48:40,076
..surprised.

530
00:48:43,076 --> 00:48:47,004
He tried to say something
but I just kept stabbing.

531
00:48:47,005 --> 00:48:49,032
What was he saying?

532
00:48:50,076 --> 00:48:52,044
I... I don't know.

533
00:48:52,045 --> 00:48:54,044
Yes, you do.
- I don't remember.

534
00:48:55,044 --> 00:48:57,008
What did he say?

535
00:48:58,008 --> 00:48:59,076
Say it!

536
00:49:00,076 --> 00:49:02,012
Say it!

537
00:49:02,013 --> 00:49:03,092
He called for you.

538
00:49:06,004 --> 00:49:08,004
And his dad too.

539
00:49:21,004 --> 00:49:24,028
I promised Liam I wouldn't
cry in front of you.

540
00:49:26,052 --> 00:49:28,060
I've let him down again.

541
00:49:52,076 --> 00:49:54,076
Then what did you do?

542
00:49:56,076 --> 00:49:58,076
I didn't know what to do.

543
00:49:59,076 --> 00:50:01,068
I was covered in blood.

544
00:50:02,068 --> 00:50:04,020
So I ran.

545
00:50:05,052 --> 00:50:07,052
What?
- I ran.

546
00:50:10,004 --> 00:50:11,080
You left him here?

547
00:50:11,081 --> 00:50:13,084
But as I was running, I thought,

548
00:50:13,085 --> 00:50:16,068
"If I hide him properly,
no-one will know."

549
00:50:16,069 --> 00:50:19,068
How long for?
- They said I tortured him and I didn't.

550
00:50:19,069 --> 00:50:22,028
How long?!I don't know. Ten minutes?

551
00:50:22,029 --> 00:50:26,048
But when I came back, he hadn't
moved at all. He had to be dead.

552
00:50:29,028 --> 00:50:31,020
But you didn't check?

553
00:50:37,052 --> 00:50:39,028
You didn't check.

554
00:50:56,004 --> 00:50:58,024
There were other injuries.

555
00:50:58,025 --> 00:51:01,040
I had to get it off the path
and down the bank. - Him!

556
00:51:02,040 --> 00:51:05,076
I had to get him down
the hill but he was dead.

557
00:51:08,004 --> 00:51:09,040
You...

558
00:51:10,040 --> 00:51:14,004
..threw bricks and rubbish all over him.

559
00:51:14,005 --> 00:51:16,004
I was trying to hide it.

560
00:51:16,005 --> 00:51:17,052
Him!

561
00:51:17,053 --> 00:51:19,004
Him.

562
00:51:20,076 --> 00:51:22,028
Him.

563
00:51:25,028 --> 00:51:27,004
He was dead.

564
00:51:31,004 --> 00:51:32,080
I promise you.

565
00:51:46,040 --> 00:51:49,052
They told me I'd have to forgive myself!

566
00:51:51,052 --> 00:51:54,020
Like it's a decision I can make.

567
00:51:56,004 --> 00:51:57,076
I couldn't do it.

568
00:52:03,004 --> 00:52:05,076
But I can't live with this

569
00:52:05,077 --> 00:52:08,004
every minute of every day.

570
00:52:10,004 --> 00:52:11,076
So how do I go on?

571
00:52:17,028 --> 00:52:20,004
I know I can't ever make it right.

572
00:52:21,004 --> 00:52:23,036
I knew that straight away.

573
00:52:23,037 --> 00:52:26,004
That it would never go away.

574
00:52:26,005 --> 00:52:30,004
And every time I
caught myself smiling...

575
00:52:31,052 --> 00:52:34,012
..watching Jess in her school play,

576
00:52:34,013 --> 00:52:36,076
laughing at something on the TV,

577
00:52:36,077 --> 00:52:38,096
I'd remember what I did...

578
00:52:39,096 --> 00:52:42,052
..and I've got no right to be happy.

579
00:52:44,052 --> 00:52:46,052
Not even for a minute.

580
00:52:51,052 --> 00:52:55,004
I asked them after the
sentencing to speak to you

581
00:52:55,005 --> 00:52:58,028
so I could apologise but
they said it wasn't allowed

582
00:52:58,029 --> 00:53:01,024
and you wouldn't accept it anyway.

583
00:53:02,024 --> 00:53:06,052
And after time, I realised
how small it is, that word.

584
00:53:09,028 --> 00:53:11,012
It just got smaller.

585
00:53:12,012 --> 00:53:14,056
And what I did kept on getting bigger.

586
00:53:20,004 --> 00:53:24,052
There's not much that can really
be said in the end, is there?

587
00:53:27,052 --> 00:53:29,068
But I am, Anna.

588
00:53:33,004 --> 00:53:36,004
I am so sorry.

589
00:53:47,076 --> 00:53:49,068
I'm Eddie.

590
00:53:51,004 --> 00:53:53,068
There was nothing that
you could have done.

591
00:53:55,076 --> 00:53:58,052
I'm the only one that
could have stopped it.

592
00:55:09,004 --> 00:55:11,020
He wanted to be big.

593
00:55:38,000 --> 00:55:47,000
_

594
00:55:47,001 --> 00:55:51,001
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