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Have you ever had one of those

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weird, distressing thoughts
where you're just like, fuck!

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Where did that come from?

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Like something totally
inappropriate or shocking,

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like imagining your boss naked.

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- Mmm!
- Or punching an old person in the street.

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Or, er, jumping off a train platform.

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Most people can easily dismiss them,

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because you know deep down

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that you don't really
want to do those things.

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But what happens when
the part of your brain

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that allows you to dismiss those
thoughts isn't working properly?

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What happens if you get
those thoughts so regularly

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that they start to become a real
challenge to your sense of self

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that you just don't know
who you are any more?

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It's a bad day if it ends with you
freezing your tits off in a lay-by.

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As of two hours ago, my
life is fucked... literally.

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The kind of fucked you
cannot come back from.

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That might look like a smile,
but it's total delusion.

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Oh, I've already paid him, Mum.

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- Take that, come on, for the cab.
- No, Mum, I don't want your money.

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- No, Marnie, don't be silly, come on.
- Please, Mum...

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Oh, great, like I gave you a lap dance!

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Is there a function going on?

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Surprise!

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- Did you do this?!
- Come on!

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And our wee besom!

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How did you get everyone's numbers?!

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Hello.

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Sorry, it's the speech now.

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Speech!

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I wish my parents weren't so popular,

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then there wouldn't be so many of you!

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Um, I thought I'd say a few words

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for Mum and Dad's special anniversary.

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And they didn't have any
other kids, so it had to be me.

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On the plus side, being the only child,

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I do get all the inheritance.

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Thanks for having that vasectomy, Dad!

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Shout out to my pal Helen
for helping me pull this off,

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and to Gran for paying for it.

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Still got her credit card, she forgot.

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No, I'm only joking. I just kept it.

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No.

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What can I say about Mum and Dad?

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They just go together.

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They come as a pair.

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They're like...

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... trousers or scissors or spectacles.

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The world wouldn't make sense
if they weren't together.

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You inspire me.

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Ahhhh!

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And, on the third Friday of the month,

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let's just say you do not want to
be in the bedroom next to theirs!

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Massive third wheel!

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Shit...

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Um...

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Sorry!

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It's a bit shit for them,
'cos I still live at home.

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I'm one of those people who moves home,

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er, in with their parents after uni, um,

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and works their summer job till
something better comes along,

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and 13 months later still hasn't
done anything with her English degree.

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Except for write this...

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... collection of words.

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Errr...

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Uh... Stop...

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Er...

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Um...

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Fuck, er... Sh...

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Sorry. And my hands are sweating.

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Is it hot in here? It's, it's hot.

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It's hot!

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Ah!

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Ah, ah, ah, ah!

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Stop it!

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Welcome to the fucked-up
mystery that is my life.

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Sorry if that made you
a bit sick in your mouth.

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I've thought about a
lot of awful things,

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but that shitshow was
the mother of them all.

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When I was 14, I started having

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relentless graphic thoughts about sex.

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Not just sex-sex, fucked-up-sex.

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it hasn't stopped.

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It's like The Sixth Sense,
but I don't see dead people.

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I see naked ones.

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I've turned everyone and everything
you can imagine into filth,

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except my family.

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Until today.

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Most people move to London

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to seek their fortune.

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I'll settle for some fucking answers.

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I'm doing them a favour.

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Nobody wants a pervert for a daughter...

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they can't stick THAT in
their Christmas newsletter.

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That's not just a random nipple.

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That's 781 minutes of
thinking what I could do to it.

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Lick it,

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suck it,

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flick it...

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... milk it?

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Fuck's sake.

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_

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- Hi.
- For fuck's sake, Marn.

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Your mum said you're in
fucking London! What the fuck?!

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You can't just fuck off to London
and expect me to do nothing.

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I was SO worried.

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I...

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I just keep...

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... thinking about all this stuff.

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What stuff?

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You always say that,
but you never say what.

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- I can't...
- Shh!

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Do you want me to come down?

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'Cos I will, I've got holidays to take.

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No, I don't want anyone with me.

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Well, what am I supposed to do if
I'm up here and you're down there?

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I don't know what's wrong with me!

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You're just a bit...
anxious, aren't you?

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That's what it is, it's anxiety.

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Everyone's got it.

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God, you're so mainstream!

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Speak to someone.

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Please?

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I'm really worried about you, Marn.

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S... s... so am I.

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Marnie Macauley, room 5.

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You won't shock me.
I've heard some things.

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Er... I just worry all the time.

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About sex stuff, mainly.

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And what triggers these worries?

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Anyone with genitalia.

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Who has an anxiety attack in
the M&S lingerie department

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or while watching Lorraine?

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Oh, um...

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So, what is it about those
situations that... distresses you?

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Well, um...

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With Lorraine, er,

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I was watching it and
I noticed her shoes,

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'cos she always has nice shoes on,

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and I noticed the pointy heels, and...

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... then I thought about
where she could put one,

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like in her vagina.

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And then I was like,
why did I think that?

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Do I want to do that to Lorraine?

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So then I tried to unthink it,

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but it just made me think about it more,

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and then it was an hour later and
I was still thinking about it, and...

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... I couldn't breathe.

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That's why it distressed me.

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So you mostly think about women?

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- Not just women, but...
- You have explicit

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sexual thoughts about
them and it upsets you?

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Is it possible you could be gay?

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Is being gay so hard to imagine?

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I haven't been with a woman.

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I've spent so much time
trying to decide if I want to,

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and I moved home to the
Borders after uni so I couldn't,

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'cos it's home, and you
can't sleep with a woman

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'cos she probably goes
to Zumba with your mum,

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and you can't go to the doctor because

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sometimes he comes over to play
penny whistle with your dad.

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Not a euphemism, it actually happens.

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You're not at home any more.

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Sorry!

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I had it left over from a work
party, and I couldn't resist.

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'Cos Marnie's in the house! Woo! Woo!

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Woo! Come in! Come in, come in.

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- Thanks so much for letting me stay.
- Thanks for wanting to!

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You look amazing, by the way.

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Oh, thanks. So do you.

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So, what have you been up to?

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I've not seen you since
school, except on Instagram.

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And that one time at
the Co-op at Christmas.

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Erm, just... uni.

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And moved home for a bit.

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- Worked at the golf club.
- Yeah, then what?

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Erm... cut to now!

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Oh!

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I thought you would have
written a book by now,

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- or at least have a podcast, or...
- That's why I'm here!

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- Thanks again for letting me stay!
- It's fine, it'll be just like school.

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Except you'll have to talk to me,

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and your friends won't victimise me!

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So, erm, where's your spare room?

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Funny!

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Yeah, well, I still
need to clear it out.

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Oh, you're serious?

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Well, I did say it was a little
bijou, but, it's London, you know.

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But it's private, it's got a
door. Look, you can close it.

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Thanks.

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It's just going to be for a
bit while I get myself sorted.

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So what made you come to London?

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- Just fancied a change.
- Oh, yeah, me too.

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I'm learning shiatsu at the moment,

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'cos I work in corporate for
Pets For All, and it's really dry.

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I can't even remember the
last time I touched an animal.

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So let me know if you want a massage.

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- Oh, I'm good, thanks.
- Or anything that'll make your stay more comfortable.

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Like a cup of tea, toothpaste,
biscuits, sanitary towel.

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Oyster card, tourist
information leaflet.

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Whatever you need, just say.

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I can get you anything.

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Except drugs.

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Well, I can get you cat
tranquilisers from work, but...

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It's OK, I brought my own.

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- Oh, did you?
- No!

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No. Erm, thanks, though.

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You're a really good friend.

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Yeah, well...

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I'm going to go to the
shops, but these are for you!

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- Thanks!
- Welcome to London, mate!

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It's just a roomful of women.

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I've been in loads of them.
Toilets, fitting rooms,

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Emily Brontė Society...
This'll be just like that.

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Except I'm wasted, and I won't
have to discuss Wuthering Heights.

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- Yes?
- Can I get a vodka soda, please?

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- Do you have some ID?
- To see if I'm gay?

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- To see if you're that.
- Oh! Sure. Sorry.

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Thanks.

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I like your top.

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You can tap here.

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Thanks.

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Can I get you a drink?

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- Thanks. I'm teetotal till Tuesday.
- Why?

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For this article I'm writing.

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I'm like the Duracell
bunny, and my skin is mint,

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but I'm boring as fuck on a night out.

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Especially when your mates
are hammered by half eight.

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Are you a writer?

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Sorry, do you mind?

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She's, like, right there in front of me,

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and she thinks I'm looking down her top.

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Which I was, because
that's what I'm like.

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So...

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... been gay for long?

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Who asks that?

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Have you just come out or something?

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Well, I've opened the door!

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I don't want any drama.

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Me neither. Erm, I just want... pussy.

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So who do you write for?

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Ethel.

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- It's this online magazine.
- Wow!

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I wish I could write professionally.

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So what have you been doing?

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I've just been living my life.

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And then, suddenly, I was
like, "I hate my life".

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So, the other day I was like,
"Fuck it, I don't have to do this".

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I packed a bag, got
on a bus in Scotland,

257
00:18:26,390 --> 00:18:28,555
and got off a bus in London.

258
00:18:29,615 --> 00:18:30,966
The other day?

259
00:18:30,987 --> 00:18:35,050
Well, yeah. Yesterday, I was
like, "I have to do this now!"

260
00:18:45,828 --> 00:18:47,463
Well, we're always looking for interns,

261
00:18:47,522 --> 00:18:49,784
so you should send us your CV.

262
00:18:49,837 --> 00:18:51,162
Yeah?

263
00:18:51,440 --> 00:18:53,519
Cool! Thanks.

264
00:18:53,798 --> 00:18:58,129
Obviously, that will be
redacted if your moves are shite.

265
00:19:02,357 --> 00:19:05,921
? I feel depressed, I feel so bad ?

266
00:19:07,925 --> 00:19:11,827
? 'Cos you're the best
girl that I've ever had ?

267
00:19:14,035 --> 00:19:18,195
? I can't get your love,
I can't get a fraction ?

268
00:19:20,044 --> 00:19:23,946
? Uh-oh, little girl,
psychotic reaction ?

269
00:19:24,728 --> 00:19:26,995
? And it feels like this! ?

270
00:19:42,779 --> 00:19:45,991
- I'm going to the loo.
- All right.

271
00:20:29,368 --> 00:20:31,039
My hand's so sweaty.

272
00:20:31,077 --> 00:20:32,793
Must be like holding a flipper.

273
00:20:32,918 --> 00:20:35,255
Is that desire or anxiety?

274
00:20:38,381 --> 00:20:41,460
Here's a feeling. I'm pissed off!

275
00:20:41,796 --> 00:20:44,799
- Oh, hey, Amber. You all right?
- Yeah, not bad, yourself?

276
00:20:44,860 --> 00:20:47,048
- How's the art stuff going?
- Yeah.

277
00:20:47,173 --> 00:20:49,638
Just... yeah.

278
00:20:52,460 --> 00:20:54,279
Right, after you.

279
00:20:59,746 --> 00:21:02,597
So, what was it this time?
Did you not like her drawings?

280
00:21:02,625 --> 00:21:04,267
Doesn't matter, it's finished.

281
00:21:14,902 --> 00:21:16,503
Hi, I'm Marnie.

282
00:21:17,422 --> 00:21:18,737
Joe.

283
00:21:19,196 --> 00:21:20,593
Babe, it's not a meeting.

284
00:21:20,659 --> 00:21:22,553
Yeah, sorry, that was really formal.

285
00:21:22,604 --> 00:21:24,078
Anyway, I should let you two...

286
00:21:24,116 --> 00:21:25,375
It's OK, you don't have to...

287
00:21:25,413 --> 00:21:27,139
It's fine, he's going to go upstairs

288
00:21:27,167 --> 00:21:28,772
and listen to James Blake on repeat.

289
00:21:28,897 --> 00:21:30,633
It's what he usually does.

290
00:21:33,721 --> 00:21:36,963
So... which one's yours?

291
00:21:39,133 --> 00:21:41,139
Um, it's that one.

292
00:21:45,851 --> 00:21:47,166
Right.

293
00:21:57,485 --> 00:21:59,081
Just make yourself at home.

294
00:22:00,424 --> 00:22:02,201
It's like Pinterest in here.

295
00:22:03,531 --> 00:22:04,991
When Nanna died,

296
00:22:05,327 --> 00:22:08,238
- I got loads of her furniture.
- Cool.

297
00:22:09,204 --> 00:22:10,842
Not that your gran died,

298
00:22:10,860 --> 00:22:13,725
but that you got free stuff out of her.

299
00:22:18,800 --> 00:22:21,337
And loads of perfume.

300
00:22:21,985 --> 00:22:24,112
I smell like a dead old lady.

301
00:22:24,116 --> 00:22:26,949
No, I'm being serious. Go on, smell.

302
00:22:29,627 --> 00:22:31,064
Do you have anything to drink?

303
00:22:31,390 --> 00:22:33,666
Like booze or something?

304
00:22:33,708 --> 00:22:36,255
No, I binned it all when
I went teetotal, didn't I?

305
00:22:41,061 --> 00:22:42,713
So...

306
00:22:43,954 --> 00:22:45,633
what shall we do?

307
00:22:53,653 --> 00:22:57,613
I'm just going to go to the
loo, again. I drank a lot.

308
00:22:59,359 --> 00:23:00,945
It's upstairs.

309
00:23:21,123 --> 00:23:23,996
Amber told me to make
myself at home, and...

310
00:23:24,725 --> 00:23:30,277
When I'm at home, I like to
relax with a nice glass of sherry.

311
00:23:31,462 --> 00:23:33,118
That's sherry vinegar.

312
00:23:34,523 --> 00:23:36,160
I'm realising that now.

313
00:23:36,444 --> 00:23:39,626
I've got some vodka in my room.

314
00:23:40,583 --> 00:23:42,790
Are you bragging or offering?

315
00:23:43,322 --> 00:23:44,745
I'm offering.

316
00:23:48,905 --> 00:23:52,889
Then I'll have some,
with a vinaigrette chaser.

317
00:23:54,508 --> 00:23:55,996
It's OK, you don't have to come.

318
00:23:56,346 --> 00:23:58,590
Yeah. No, I'll wait here.

319
00:24:00,363 --> 00:24:01,814
Why did I think that?

320
00:24:02,089 --> 00:24:03,382
Do I want that?

321
00:24:03,507 --> 00:24:04,907
What if I did that?

322
00:24:05,476 --> 00:24:07,444
I can't get distracted by cock.

323
00:24:07,668 --> 00:24:09,343
Cocks ruin enough already.

324
00:24:09,362 --> 00:24:12,310
They're not ruining my
first lesbian encounter.

325
00:24:26,058 --> 00:24:29,002
- Straight?
- Well, I'm with Amber, so...

326
00:24:31,344 --> 00:24:33,672
Oh... I've not got any mixers.

327
00:24:36,588 --> 00:24:38,235
Straight's fine.

328
00:24:55,436 --> 00:24:56,694
You all right?

329
00:24:59,488 --> 00:25:01,863
Amber will be wondering where I am.

330
00:25:04,513 --> 00:25:06,879
It's like having sexual FOMO.

331
00:25:06,920 --> 00:25:08,479
Why am I thinking about men

332
00:25:08,512 --> 00:25:10,644
when I should be thinking about women?

333
00:25:11,348 --> 00:25:14,175
The only way I'll know
what I feel in my body

334
00:25:14,185 --> 00:25:16,858
is if I feel nothing in my head.

335
00:25:19,937 --> 00:25:22,409
On a scale of one to fucked up,

336
00:25:22,428 --> 00:25:25,427
how fucked up would
it be if I drank this?

337
00:25:46,379 --> 00:25:47,600
I think we should have sex.

338
00:25:47,638 --> 00:25:50,026
Whoa, keeno!

339
00:25:51,850 --> 00:25:53,356
Are you OK?

340
00:25:54,108 --> 00:25:57,812
- You've had quite a bit to drink.
- Yeah, it makes me really horny.

341
00:26:02,907 --> 00:26:04,661
You taste really minty.

342
00:26:08,282 --> 00:26:09,910
We should lie down.

343
00:26:11,100 --> 00:26:16,115
- Are you sure? We can just chill.
- Shh, Judgy McJudgerson.

344
00:26:30,694 --> 00:26:32,367
I'll do that.

345
00:26:32,717 --> 00:26:34,524
It's a lot easier.

346
00:26:34,845 --> 00:26:37,475
They get real tight at the ankles.

347
00:26:49,075 --> 00:26:52,737
It's impossible to
do this in a sexy way!

348
00:26:59,933 --> 00:27:01,659
OK, boss.

349
00:27:03,782 --> 00:27:06,254
Oh, your knickers are off too.

350
00:27:06,592 --> 00:27:09,933
I can put them back
on if it's a problem?

351
00:27:10,149 --> 00:27:12,691
No. It's fine.

352
00:27:38,174 --> 00:27:39,818
Keep going, that's it.

353
00:27:41,043 --> 00:27:42,600
Oh, yes.

354
00:27:43,049 --> 00:27:45,154
Oh, darling...

355
00:27:45,279 --> 00:27:48,227
- Oh!
- What the fuck?

356
00:27:48,862 --> 00:27:52,023
Fuck. Fuck.

357
00:27:52,530 --> 00:27:54,236
What happened?

358
00:27:56,373 --> 00:27:58,466
I don't think you're my type.

359
00:27:59,569 --> 00:28:01,108
What?

360
00:28:07,156 --> 00:28:09,571
I've never done it with a girl before.

361
00:28:13,898 --> 00:28:15,968
I didn't know you were that new.

362
00:28:15,992 --> 00:28:18,908
You're practically still
in your wrapping. Christ.

363
00:28:18,966 --> 00:28:22,832
Sorry. I've really got to go now, bye.

364
00:28:22,867 --> 00:28:26,356
Well, at least let me
get you a taxi or...

365
00:28:29,133 --> 00:28:32,084
Oh, you fucking twat.

366
00:28:51,806 --> 00:28:53,573
Fucking stop!

367
00:28:53,876 --> 00:28:56,051
I want it to stop.

368
00:29:04,490 --> 00:29:06,840
- Shit! Oh. You OK?
- Sorry.

369
00:29:06,916 --> 00:29:08,391
I got a mixer.

370
00:29:09,400 --> 00:29:13,619
I didn't go out especially.
I was going... Whoa!

371
00:29:14,249 --> 00:29:17,509
- Sorry.
- It's fine, you missed. You all right?

372
00:29:18,606 --> 00:29:20,285
Yeah...

373
00:29:20,410 --> 00:29:23,026
Let's get this out of the way.

374
00:29:23,061 --> 00:29:25,195
No, it's OK, you don't have to...

375
00:29:25,207 --> 00:29:27,265
What did you eat?

376
00:29:31,982 --> 00:29:34,665
I'm disgusting. There's
sick on the street.

377
00:29:34,790 --> 00:29:37,685
A fox will eat it.
Now, that's disgusting.

378
00:29:38,087 --> 00:29:41,178
- Those people are looking.
- It's London.

379
00:29:41,377 --> 00:29:43,236
Nobody gives a shit.

380
00:29:44,012 --> 00:29:46,433
As long as you don't
mug them or talk to them,

381
00:29:46,456 --> 00:29:47,669
you can do what you like.

382
00:29:48,340 --> 00:29:49,711
That's what's so good about it.

383
00:29:49,728 --> 00:29:51,553
Why do you think people
come and live here?

384
00:29:54,703 --> 00:29:56,388
Do you want my number?

385
00:29:56,808 --> 00:30:00,295
Oh, confusing, and forward.

386
00:30:00,636 --> 00:30:02,316
Give me your phone.

387
00:30:05,013 --> 00:30:08,063
- You definitely won't remember this.
- I will.

388
00:30:08,972 --> 00:30:12,197
I will remember this,

389
00:30:12,523 --> 00:30:14,850
'cos it's quite nice.

390
00:30:18,786 --> 00:30:20,110
Will you be OK?

391
00:30:20,145 --> 00:30:22,571
- You want me to get you a cab or something?
- No!

392
00:30:22,641 --> 00:30:24,005
I'm a feminist.

393
00:30:24,130 --> 00:30:28,623
If you follow me, it's
harassment, so don't, please.

394
00:30:30,624 --> 00:30:33,902
I'll just watch until
you get round the corner.

395
00:30:35,651 --> 00:30:37,698
Hey, this isn't creepy.

396
00:30:42,031 --> 00:30:43,728
This is creepy.

397
00:30:55,227 --> 00:30:58,242
People here don't give a shit what I do.

398
00:30:59,292 --> 00:31:01,799
What if I sucked off that man?

399
00:31:02,301 --> 00:31:04,388
What if I finger-banged that woman?

400
00:31:04,423 --> 00:31:07,054
What if I wanked on that bollard?

401
00:31:14,064 --> 00:31:18,236
I could do anything and no
one would even notice me.

402
00:31:18,734 --> 00:31:24,082
I'm anonymous, a nobody, a
stranger. I could be anyone.

403
00:31:24,116 --> 00:31:26,556
London doesn't give a shit what that is.

404
00:31:41,326 --> 00:31:44,569
I am lost in a city of 8 million people.

405
00:31:44,942 --> 00:31:47,747
But I will find myself here.

406
00:31:47,951 --> 00:31:51,316
Even if that does make me
sound like a massive wanker.

407
00:31:51,676 --> 00:31:54,495
Something is wrong with me!

408
00:32:46,890 --> 00:32:51,890
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